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BearCountryGG - Thursday Jul 19, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 224.2

 Just had to get the scales back out this morning...yesterdays pants just kept having to be pulled back up.......and there was a nice loss...so I'm happy....pants hit the trash ( they were worn out anyway)...and now I'm wondering how many pairs I will have to try on this morning before I find some that actually fit........pajama pants are too big to...LOL...time to dig deeper in my closet I guess....Funny how I don't mind big shirts...( for awhile at least....but pants have to go when they get too baggy).  

My DD issues yesterday were my computer...not DD........it acted up all day and over heated....D says get a new one...I'm dragging my feet for some unknown reason...this computer and I have bonded apparently in some weird way...LOL...I just don't want to give up on it....LOL

I'm kind of suprised that the scales were good...since I have been eating plenty of carbs....although the quantities have been very small each time........I have always lost eating carbs in the past...( I think it slows things down a bit)....bu tI'm on a mission to use up every morsel of food in this house...downsizing is keeping me motivated.....D tells me what he wants me to get him at the store.....and he now has his own cupboard for his favorites...and that has always worked well for us.......but there is plenty of things in the food storage closet that satisfy me when the junky mood hits.....so all is well....I'm really getting into the less is more frame of mind...I have been for awhile...but it's picked up even more this summer.

The more you have, the more you have to take care of.......and that means more to me right now than ever in my life......

At night when I go back over my foods for the day...they never go over 1,500 cals...and sometimes are around 1,200 or even less 1 day......portion sizes matter...I have found that I can eat any decadent thing I desire......by just having a tiny portion......I can live with that very happily....large quantities of food have never been my thing anyway....I don't think I have ever stretched my stomach out........what I have to watch out for is small portions frequently...now that can do me in very easily. 

From my earliest childhood I remember well a singer named Dinah Shore...and she said something I have never forgotten...and that was a single taste of everything will keep your weight under control.....the TV cook  Jada DiLaurentis does the same thing...and she is very thin......That is how I lost weight as a teenager....it works.....it's the first bite that is the tastiest and most satisfying.....( I usually eat a little more than that)...and every bite after that is basically just getting shoveled in............so....the things on my list are not being over eaten...unless of course they appeqar several times in one day...LOL...in that case...all bets are off and tomorrow is another day...LOL

 

Breakfast

2 coffee

corned beef hash

cake in a cup

 

Lunch will be something that they gave out for free at the grocery store and D refuses to eat it....so that will be my lunch today...it's a 1 serving container of cottage cheese with peaches and pecans.....not sure how I feel about that...but ai will find out...and maybe  avocado

Dinner will be by D's request...brats, quinoa and baked beans

Computers getting hot so will possibly be back laer.

 

 

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 79.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/19/2018:
Time for a new laptop. I know where you're coming from, getting attached to certain objects. I was like that with my old laptop --- until it died, and then I was without a computer -- for a few days because a replacement wasn't as quick as <snap>...

Very well done with the weigh-ins :-) You seem to be in your groove -- as long as it works for you (and isn't unhealthy), go for it!

And I do agree with the "one-bite" rule - it's true!

bearcountrygg on 07/19/2018:
It's funny...I do have another laptop....but I don't like it.....I guess it's time for me to send all of the photos to Shutterfly...before I can't access them...hmmmmm….. Scales are happy.....closet is getting happier......Thank you!


happy-1 on 07/19/2018:
Good job!


horn_of_plenty on 07/19/2018:
we all need carbs, i do not think they slow loss...but it's easier to overeat on processed junk food carbs bc those type of foods tend to have higher calories than let's say cabbage, for example!


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BearCountryGG - Wednesday Jul 18, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 228.0

The site is acting kind of funny today....or maybe it's my wifi...not sure.

Stomach started growling so loudly last evening that it was actually getting kind of funny....didn't eat...really nothing sounded tempting.......so it's still growling this morning......will have to feed it something I guess....LOL

D has gone out looking for bear tracks with the dogs....and I have the house to myself for a few hours...can't say I mind that too much.....peace and quiet.

Starting with 2 cups coffee 

Leftover garlic couscous....didn't care for it when freshly made...but after a couple of days in the fridge...it was actually good.

little pk of granola bites

small slice pizza

kind bar

dried apples

diet orange coke

beef stroganoff

peas

fiber one brownie

 

 

Progress as of today: 24.8 lbs lost so far, only 83 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/18/2018:
i love a little alone quiet time!

site has been fine on my end!

bearcountrygg on 07/18/2018:
My comuter has been acting up all day...and now it's hot...so it must be me.


horn_of_plenty on 07/18/2018:
fiber 1 foods taste SO GOOD.

bearcountrygg on 07/18/2018:
yup...maybe too good!


happy-1 on 07/19/2018:
Look at you, down 10+lbs since the beginning of the year!

bearcountrygg on 07/19/2018:
Should be more....but I'll take it.....


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BearCountryGG - Tuesday Jul 17, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 228.0

I think we are finally wrapping up all of the maintenace type of things around here today...hope this generac guy shows up...changes the generator oil and gets this job done.. ...then that's it for the yr.  D thought bunching all of this stuff up during his recoueration time would be a good thing,,,,but it's been a bit overwhelming.....anyway...today just may be the last appt. 

coffee 2

Sandwich about 4 hours after getting up

small piece pizza

diet orange coke

fiber one bar

cookies

diet ginger ale

Food quantities very small today

Progress as of today: 24.8 lbs lost so far, only 83 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/17/2018:
Having gone through a little bit of inconvenience with home maintenance myself, I am sure this will be a HUGE relief to have everything wrapped up.

bearcountrygg on 07/17/2018:
Yes.....he's here now...and it's the last of it all...!!!


horn_of_plenty on 07/17/2018:
Maintenance all around is a goo dthing!

i'm so glad to hear D is finishing up with his appts.

bearcountrygg on 07/17/2018:
All done after today.....


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BearCountryGG - Monday Jul 16, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 228.0

Well...yesterday was very weird......had 2 english muffins toasted with butter and peanut butter...and coffee....and proceeded to basically sleep the day away....woke up once and had a can of diet pop, cashews and chocolate covered raisins...and went back to sleep....woke up later....and had another can of diet pop and cookies.......and that's the way it was.......just plain sleepy....and junky.

BUT..slept well all night...and got up ready to go today...congested and sneezing alot ( allergies or cold?)....awake and ready for the day....and craving dinner......5:30 in the morning...I'm making dinner....but I guess that just reaffirms to me...that my body will tell me what it needs...if I just listen.....so I made dinner for breakfast today.   No idea of the calories...but it was very healthy....so...I went with that.  Still staying away from the scales..........indefinately.  

This just pointed out to me again.....that my body will tell me...if I just listen........sometimes it's hard to put aside all of the dieting rules......all of the expectations, all of the points and calories......( although I can eat within the calories...as long as I eat what I crave).  

It's interesting to me that 50 years ago...pregnancy told me VERY CLEARLY...what I needed to eat for the baby........tuna fish, grapefruit and blueberry ice cream ( that was at a store nearby)...I've never seen that ice cream since.....but it was there when I needed it.

I do believe in fate...I do believe in karma...I do believe that things happen for a reason. I do know...that diets make me fat...................listening to my body and eating what it's craving normalizes my weight.....This whole process has made itself very clear to me many times over the years...yet...I so often thumbed my nose at it...and tried to follow..usual dieting rules.....and ended up rebelling...and bingeing.   But when I eat what I crave...I don't binge...I'm satisfied.........I'm going with that.  End of my story!!

My weird breakfast...hit the spot...and I'm satisfied.

2 cups black coffee

chicken breast and red and yellow peppers cooked in olive oil

pesto pasta ( knorr mix)

canned carrots

Getting a lot done today...loads of laundry, some paperwork and a birthday letter to a 91 year old aunt......no desire to sleep today.....and that dinner/breakfast is really sticking with me......

Lunch

beets

cheese and broccoli on noodles

diet orange coke

Dinner

mixed fruit/veg sauce

yogurt

seltzer water (bubly)

diet vernors, 

nuts

chocolate

 

Progress as of today: 24.8 lbs lost so far, only 83 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/16/2018:
I'm also still in that kinda sleep mode cycle. sometimes i think it just helps the body with stress and all...i think it's ok to get in these sleep phases every now and again.

loving those peppers and chicken breast.

everything sounds good..good job and everything. wow a letter...can she read it no problem!?

bearcountrygg on 07/16/2018:
Oh yes...she still drives...and lives in an apartment by herself....she does well.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/16/2018:
that's great for her!!!

good menu for you!


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BearCountryGG - Sunday Jul 15, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 228.0

Having a very sleepy day here....zero energy... not much interest in food........just would like to nap the entire day away I think....luckily there was plenty of leftovers for D...so he had a good lunch.  

 

Progress as of today: 24.8 lbs lost so far, only 83 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/15/2018:
One thing i have learned about sleepy days: rest and enjoy a nap!

bearcountrygg on 07/16/2018:
All day...and all night.....I'm awake today!! LOL


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BearCountryGG - Saturday Jul 14, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 228.0

Eating is going very well...and I feel like I have put food back in it's place...after so many years of letting it boss me around.  Self talk works for me...always has..........I can always talk myself in to or  out of pretty much anything....except food..these last 20 years or so...where/when....food ruled me....I feel like I have broken that cycle.

Accepting that all food is just fine...in very small quantities...and giving myself permission to have anything...without beating myself up for it after......has been instrumental in preventing bingeing.

Because it's really only about calories in and calories out

Because I'm aware that some foods lead to craving other foods, I can put things in their place and know...that for me...instead of a binge on a high cal food...I can just eat some protein and I'm satisfied enough to not binge.

I've eaten for awhile now...just eating...and then at night...or the next day..figuring the calories.....it always seems to fall between 1,200 and 1,500 calories................if I lose it...and binge eat...the total day seems to fall somewhere between 2,000 and 2,200 calories...which for me according to fitday...is just maintenance.  

I have seen many days where 1,500 is maintenance for me...so that is a bit confusing......my guess is that what fitday considers maintaining...for me...it is actually gaining and 1,500 is maintenence.

 

 

Progress as of today: 24.8 lbs lost so far, only 83 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/14/2018:
I often think of you when eating at work (snacks), as I have gotten into the habit of being very mindful of why I am eating. I ask myself, Am I really hungry or stressed out? Do I have to eat now or can I wait until I'm home for dinner? This has been very helpful to me in my journey -- not so much for weight-loss but the emotional-eating connection.

Mindless eating... emotional (binge) eating... these things I've worked hard to overcome.

bearcountrygg on 07/14/2018:
We eat for so many different reasons...and for me..it seems like real hunger..can be the least of them.


Donkey on 07/14/2018:
"...some foods lead to craving other foods" -- YES. THIS. 100%

bearcountrygg on 07/14/2018:
yup


graindart on 07/14/2018:
My typical calorie intake when I'm on-track is 1500-2000 calories. My typical fall-off-the-wagon day is closer to 5000+ calories. So when I go off the rails for 3 days in a row, the calorie count can multiply quickly.

Happy to hear you've got control over your food and completely agree with your comment on some foods leading to other cravings. If I eat 1 donut or 1 chocolate chip cookie, I either fall off the wagon completely or have a miserable day fighting cravings for all kinds of stuff. I'd say a nice soft chocolate chip cookie is my kryptonite......

bearcountrygg on 07/14/2018:
Sometimes it just doesn't take much to mess up a whole day. I'm working on qaccepting that 1 cookie is a serving...instead of a stack.....my husband has no trouble at all...leaving 1 cookie in the pkg...or 1/2 cup of cereal in the box...….it just seems so easy for him...and over the years...I have accused him of doing that just to annoy me...but...actually he was doing it right.


horn_of_plenty on 07/14/2018:
You are doing great and yes all food is totally ok !!!

So yes try for at least some balance with eating foods of all groups and nutrition like you are doing ! I am happy that you are getting more balanced with your approach !

bearcountrygg on 07/14/2018:
There was a time when it came naturally...but things went soooooo wrong...LOL


Horn_of_plenty on 07/14/2018:
i just read donkeys comments on your entry...food for thought!


happy-1 on 07/14/2018:
Lots of good positive self talk here!

bearcountrygg on 07/15/2018:
Lots of looking inward....it helps me a lot.


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BearCountryGG - Friday Jul 13, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 228.0

I think I have myself figured out..........I'm noticing that I am so much more comfortable when I eat smaller amounts.........who knew!!!   Apparently I can eat anything...as long as it is a small serving...even bigger servings of vegetables bother me now...........noticing that makes a HUGE difference to me.  

A small serving tastes exactly the same as a big serving........

I haven't been a big pop drinker these last few years ( used to be) ....but in the last few days......I have been drinking this new coke product...called  Zesty Blood Orange Diet Coke...it's in a tall slender can...and it is delish...in the past...I did notice joint pain and shortness of breath while drinking pop...and a kind of exhaustion feeling...and that has reappeared...so I do not like that.  I don't have these issues with the seltzer water types of things......so I may just have to save this new coke product for occassional use......but if anyone else can tolerate it...it's very good.

 

Progress as of today: 24.8 lbs lost so far, only 83 lbs to go!

graindart on 07/13/2018:
The zesty orange is one of the better tasting new Diet Coke flavors that came out this year, but I think I prefer the twisted mango Diet Coke flavor the most.

bearcountrygg on 07/14/2018:
Haven't tried that one yet...they all sound good!


Horn_of_plenty on 07/14/2018:
i think those diet coke flavors are cool...i've tried a few.

i also have issues when drinking too many diet drinks, for sure...i do have to limit them which is the reason for a lot of my flavored seltzer with stevia.


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BearCountryGG - Thursday Jul 12, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 228.0

 Scales good today....and now I plan to stay away from them for awhile. 

Had some fun company yesterday....a hunting buddy of D's ( he's a Wounded Warrior)....Came over with his 2 little girls...ages 1 and 3....and THEY ALL are going bear hunting today...I can hardly wait to hear how THAT GOES...LOL....His wife travels all over the globe...usually to China...on a regular basis for her work...(and they are expecting their third daughter in 2 months).....and she is again boarding a plane today........I do not know how this couple does it....but they' re a happy little family and they make it all work...amazingly.  He is a great guy...and little Aurora and Mary are adorable.... I had fun gathering some art supplies for them...and they can't wait to go BEAR HUNTING.

I'm feeling great....food it seems has lost it's power over me......I took my thoughts off it...and put them on lots of other things..I'm getting things done and loving it.

 

Progress as of today: 24.8 lbs lost so far, only 83 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/12/2018:
i've been off the scales lately too...just doing my thing...so i know i'm neither up or down, but relatively stable, no need for a scale...and just not interested in the scale either.

no thanks for bear hunting, unless the people i was going with were VERY experienced at that!

bearcountrygg on 07/12/2018:
I can always tell when some weight came off...as long as it keeps dropping..I'm good...I don't like to check too often..sometimes I weigh in every day ...day after day...and other times...a month can go by...


innerpeace on 07/12/2018:
Two little girls and bear hunting...serious? What will they do with a bear if they catch one? Just asking for a friend. Sounds interesting to say the least.

bearcountrygg on 07/12/2018:
Well....their dad ended up staying back with them at the trucks...and D went in and got the dogs......their dog found a porcupine...and had to be de quilled. Kids had fun in the sand I guess.....that area is sand dune quality sand. Kids were good...but obviously difficult for the Dad to go to the dogs...although I guess he was going to put the 1 year old into a back carrier...and the 3 year old could walk......actually around upper Michigan......there are a lot of BIG mailies that tree a bear...and call the entire family to see it treed...sometimes as many as 30 show up.....one gal went to the tree just a couple of days after giving birth....LOL...NOT ME!!! Actally...the dogs tree the bear...it stays up in the tree...until you et the dogs back...and then it climbs down and runs the other way...they never seem to run towards the people.

bearcountrygg on 07/12/2018:
that should say FAMILIES...and actually...I should start proofreading...UGH/...and get


graindart on 07/12/2018:
When I stay "normal busy", I don't think about food a lot. But when I'm overly busy I want to stress-eat. And when I'm not busy I want to eat out of boredom.

bearcountrygg on 07/12/2018:
yeah...…..I can get that way....I guess we just like to eat.....it's the answer to basically everything.....I just had to start telling myself NO.....


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BearCountryGG - Wednesday Jul 11, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 229.2

Looks like a beautiful day here......but bear hunters out training their dogs all over the place.   And since there is a bear...nearby...this is a busy spot.  Slept  in later today than usual....when I don;t have to get up to cook breakfast for D...I guess I can sleep in a bit...who knew...LOL

Wanting to get on the exercise bike...but just getting over some sciatica...so not today...hopefully tomorrow.  

I am really loving those little Salonpas pain relieving patches...they really work well...and let me sleep a lot better.

Planning a medium activity day...so that this passes.

Progress as of today: 23.6 lbs lost so far, only 84.2 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 07/11/2018:
I will have to try the patches for my neck!

bearcountrygg on 07/11/2018:
I just looked at the box....and they are ok for necks......and I get some residual relief even after the 8 hours when I take it off....


Donkey on 07/11/2018:
I'm going to have to remember Salonpas the next time I have back problems.

Do you eat bear?

bearcountrygg on 07/12/2018:
Salonpas...wonderful...bear….NOPE...in fact D's fun is working with the dogs...and training the dogs...he loves to chase the bear...in fact...the dogs and even the bear seem to enjoy it...he has never actually hunted the bear....he won't eat it so he won't actively hunt them.


horn_of_plenty on 07/12/2018:
i have used those salonpas in the past...i think i liked them also!


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BearCountryGG - Tuesday Jul 10, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 229.2

 I am feeling like I have traveled back in time a bit........

I feel like I have again made peace with food...all food...there is NO bad food..

There IS eating for the wrong reasons and I'm not doing that

There IS overeating and I'm not doing that either

There is also enjoying small amounts of everything...savouring it.....and enjoying it without guilt.

I took the power away from the food....and placed it in my hands where it should be.

I'm not counting, I'm not over eating, I'm not stuffing myself with anything,,,,including so called healthy foods.

I'm waiting for hunger, I'm eating enough of what I want to get rid of the hunger...and no more.

Sometimes I go ahead and let hunger be....un fed....for awhile...I actually always did like the feeling of hunger

I've gone back to my old ways...from my thin days.....it's only been a few days.....but food has it seems..lost it's power over me.......

I'm not going to say that I HOPE it lasts......I will make it last...because it works for me

I'm finally back to eating like a thin person

The scales are dropping

I'm finally back in the zone...and I'm not tempting fate....so I won't be talking about what I eat....maybe some day when I'm super secure in what I'm doing.

Back in the day....family would tell me I needed to eat more...but I stuck to my guns and did what I wanted to do...and it was successful......we know ourselves best....we know what works, what doesn't and what triggers us to go down the road.......I won't be posting what I eat because I don't want to trigger anyone else that is following their own path...........but I will post losses and general life things...maybe someday I will feel secure enough in this to talk about what I am eating......

I will say that the quantity of food I am eating has become less...but it is more enjoyable...so that makes up for it

Going through photos...I can see in old pictures...the quantity of food on my plate...and others.....( it was eye opening).....I'm looking back at what my parents ate.....an aunt that said my uncle and her shared a sandwich,...another aunt that plays bingo at burger king and wins a hamburger...so she eats half and saves the other half for the next day.......quantities got majorly messed up around here....and I'm back in the zone...and happy about it.

Progress as of today: 23.6 lbs lost so far, only 84.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/10/2018:
Hi BCGG!

I love your entry because it all makes super sense! Even that book I’m reading that I told you about – supports the fact that we know ourselves best, children are born (most children) with the internal signs to know when they are full and when to stop eating. Children deprived in the womb and children who are restricted actually lose those internal signals! At least one study has shown this. Internal body signals is always the best way to go. We must be hungry to know when to eat…you have a good thing going.

bearcountrygg on 07/10/2018:
All things I knew all along...but apparently I wanted to do it "right"....LOL.....like paying a diet business….UGH...should have stuck with what I knew all along....I feel like it's old home week.....it's comfortable.


happy-1 on 07/10/2018:
I had a really hard time learning what was hunger thirst or bored/lonely. I still work on it. Proud of you.

bearcountrygg on 07/11/2018:
TY......for me...hunger is ONLY...rumbling stomach......everything else is an imposter...or aat least that is the way I look at it.


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