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BearCountryGG - Saturday May 12, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 243.2

Thank you to everyone for all of the wonderful advise...I have learned a lot reading all of your comments....talking things out and AHA moments have brought a lot of things to light for me.......and I am doing a lot of changing things here this weekend.

1.  ALL food that is shelf stable will only be in the walk in closet......and only enough for a week with be in the kitchen...I will be shopping  from the closet once a week until it is all gone.   

2.  I am putting myself on a daily schedule....I miss a scheduled life...I thrived on it for many years....retirement has become too laid back....and I lack motivation.  

3.  I will use up ALL freezer/ref food and replace only when all is gone......then there will be stronger rules for what it will be replaced with........sugar and carbs are not good for D's diabetes...and I need to honor that in future shopping........it never will be zero carb/sugar....but it will be less.

4.  I seem to have food all over this house.....Kitchen,Garage, basement, bedroom, den, even in a living room cabinet.......................that stops today.

5.  I will shop with a list and buy only what is on the list.....I will not buy food online.  

6.  I know that when  I count calories or points...or even record what I eat....I eat more....when I make it a point to just eat when I'm hungry and only eat what I want...I eat a lot less......yesterday...not keeping track of anything...I can look back and see that I ate 3 very small meals......and I gave little thought to food in general.........over the years...this explains why when I am actively dieting...I have often stalled...or sometimes put weight on...the only times I actually lost were with WW...and I went to meetings for weigh ins....doing Ww at home never worked. And what I lost here...over months...I quickly put back on with D's medical issues........

7.  I'm going to do everything differently.....starting today.

Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 98.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/12/2018:
What I love about #1 is that you're "shopping" from yourself. THIS is a wonderful idea! And it makes the situation very black-and-white. You eat from the kitchen, not from a closet (or garage, basement, etc.). Very good to set boundaries!

I like your remaining numbers as well :-) Remember that it takes time to establish new habits, and so be patient with yourself as you find what works and what doesn't.

bearcountrygg on 05/12/2018:
That will force me to preplan meals....and use some older things up....no more adding to the stash...when we already have too much. Actually I'm looking forward to clearing things out.....no more ignoring perishable stuff to grab a can of something...and then tossing the perishables out of laziness either...LOL


graindart on 05/12/2018:
A couple years ago we started eating through our deep freeze. We'd thaw something every day or two and just worked through it over the course of a couple months and made sure not to buy anything that replenished it at all. When we finally ate the last thing, we unplugged it, cleaned it, and let it sit. After a couple months of not using it, we sold it on Craigslist. It was a mainstay of our house for years, but now I don't miss it at all. We don't miss it's quiet hum, have repurposed the wasted space it took up, and don't have to throw things out every couple years which saves additional money on groceries & electricity.

Glad to see you've got a plan going forward.

bearcountrygg on 05/12/2018:
We are going to empty ours as well....we will keep it though...it is needed around here for the rough winters.....since I stopped Schwans...we will need to be able to store meat for the winter....but I really don't like those surprise OLD things we sometimes find in the back...that have freezer burn....LOL


Maria7 on 05/12/2018:
Hope you are having a good day and your Hubby continuing to improve.

bearcountrygg on 05/12/2018:
He is doing wonderfully....no cane at all now...and doing lots of walking.


happy-1 on 05/13/2018:
Maybe also think about making a meal plan, and putting dry goods together in trays as kits for dinner so you can pull out for a meal super easy?

bearcountrygg on 05/13/2018:
Bagging things together is a good idea



BearCountryGG - Friday May 11, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 243.2

I'm finding myself just mindlessly eating...and while I am aware of it at the time...I'm not thinking about the after affects.............it seems like I'm more concerned about making food dissappear then I am about losing weight........I'm thinking that my only way of life where I lose weight...is when there literally is no food in the house...because I rarely drive for food.....I would sooner not eat at all.... .....Maybe this food prepping is more about having food to gorge on when the mood strikes...then actual prepping for something else.  This need to make food dissappear has been with me for many many years........I would sooner eat something I hate just to use it up than to throw it in the garbage.......what the heck kind of eating disorder is this?????  I have only ever heard of 1 other person with this same problem...and she has been on and off ww for years....the last I heard she was following ww.....( I should go check how that is going for her)......After spending a miserable night.....I have today to try to eat consciously.....I have no idea how I can just go eat cookies until the box is empty...and then go eat half of a package on a new pkg...and then grab 2 mini bags of potato sticks...and think that it was alright...sit down...and mindlessly eat them...and wonder why I have a stomach ache.........just realized..the box of potato sticks is almost empty...I MUST empty that box...I'm onto something here.

Just went and checked out person with the same affliction....she  struggles with low blood sugar regularly too.....I see that she has been trying to get below 200 pounds for 13 years.UGH! Suddenly stopped posting 2 days ago.....she does that when she backslides.

I'm wondering if I have to literally lock up all food around here.  

I'm wondering about hypnosis.

I'm wondering about a total lobotomy!!!!!!!

Well...I just googled it...I'm not the only one...and no one else knows what to do about it either...................

I do recogonise that I have spoken about this same issue in the past...and then went right back to counting calories...as if calories are my weight issue.....Today...I'm accepting that I have a much deeper issue....which has more to do with perfectionism...not body perfectionism...or dieting or exercise perfectionism...but perfectionism of the house...even deeper...perfectionism of the refrigerator and closets/cabinets....I want them to look perfect at all times.....I want to open the fridge..or the cupbboards and have them exactly right...so  I eat whatever is out of place...or whatever pkg is open...or whatever leftovers there are because they do not fit my idea of perfectionism.  I'm putting my kitchen cabinets/ref...ahead of my own life and health......when I have a pkg that is open...it must be used up...there is a deeper problem with me that has nothing to do with weight....and counting calories......I need to figure out how best to deal with it,  As far as my past....I had poor grandparents...who struggled...I had parents who were a product of that upbringing...and while they could afford nice things...they saved and scrimped.....on food...but spent at casinos........as a  child....these things made an impact....they were obsessed with their yard because others saw it...but then went in and ate boiled potatoes......food was something other than just food...it was something to worry about...something to buy as cheaply as humanly possible...and we lived on boiled potatoes, fried lunch meat and eggs.....I basically was not interested in eating.  I left home and shopped very normally for the rest of the next 30 years or so...then when 1999  hit and the threat of 2000 and food shortages happened ( which never occurred)...it started a food hoarding situation...that has never stopped.  My issues are not about dieting...my issues are about something that needs to be dealt with in some other way......

Having things here in abundance is not a good thing for me....accepting the idea that it  is okay...to run out of things because I can go get more as needed has to be my new mantra.  I have been so busy stocking up for the last 19 years it has all gotten out of hand........today...and possibly tomorrow too...I will be putting things out of sight...I will be taking things out of the kitchen and putting them in the food closet...there are also other places in cabbinets etc...in the den..that contain food.....not necessary...it will all go into the food closet.......out of sight will be better...food has taken over this house in a way that is not healthy.  Well stocked "things" will be a thing of the past......it has even spilled over to kleenex, TP, dish soap, laundry soap, otc meds....all in ridiculous abundance.......it's all going into the closet...to be taken out only by necessity..and that is where it will all live now.  I've decided not to count calories for now...or list what I eat.....I am taking the pressure off dieting for now...and will just see what happens....I will be here daily...but just in a different way.  I did stop shopping at Boxed, Amazon and jet for household supplies and food recently...and we also stopped Schwans...because the freezer was constantly packed.......so....getting the shelf stable things out of sight and using the freezer and ref. things up will be the next step...right now I can see why I'm frustrated with the freezer and ref/freezer....they are all packed to the point I can't even see what is in there...............Food/shopping had become way more important than it has deserved to be.......I'm looking forward to stopping the concern about it....

 

Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 98.2 lbs to go!

graindart on 05/11/2018:
I don't think I have an obsession about it, but I do hate throwing food away now. If we have a half-eaten item, I'm always trying to incorporate it into the next meal so that it's used up. This morning was a breakfast scramble for the girls. It consisted of the last 1 egg, last of the mushrooms, bit of bacon, cheese, and leftover spaghetti squash. Used the last of 3 items all at once. Don't know how well the girls appreciated the squash in it, but I accomplished my goal......

We used to have a large deep freezer, full pantry, and fully stocked fridge. A year or two ago we got rid of the freezer, ate through the pantry, ate through the fridge & attached freezer. Now we try to shop for groceries on Sunday night and only buy exactly what we need to make it through the week. In fact we try to only buy for 5 days worth, because there always seems to be leftovers or something else that comes up.

We don't buy any cookies, candy, or anything like that to bring into the house. Without it in the house, I have to go out of my way to fall off the wagon. The wife and girls still get some candy and other stuff from school, church, etc. And I occasionally buy them a treat here and there. Candy bar for the wife on occasion that I know she likes. Or after my first softball game, I took them through the DQ drive through even though I wasn't getting anything for myself.

For me, the temptation just needs to stay out of the house for me to be successful.

bearcountrygg on 05/11/2018:
I agree totally......if it isn't here..I don't go out for it. I have to stop shopping to keep things available...( we are in a remote area that causes problems in the winter...but I have to carry through with this anyway. Ordering online has taken over in a bad way...cases of things are not a good thing.


Horn_of_plenty on 05/11/2018:
I admit to having an overeating disorder. I eat to the point of relaxation and it def changes my body...when i overeat after work for instance, it numbs my thinking. it's very hard to change.

Maria on her says she has prayer involved.

I was thinking to try to meditate...

With meals, you may want to plan what you are having the day before instead of waiting till you are hungry to think of eat.

i was reading something about willpower and when it's down, it's hard to make the right choices. so you have to make the choices before your willpower is down! this is big for me...like when i'm eating at home, my choices change bc there's more options around...i have to somehow not change so much or give into eating more just bc i am home....and maybe go back to drinking low cal things right away when i'm done eating a portion so that the calorie consuming ends.

would this work for you? eat a set amount, but continue to drink afterwards? but have that drink ready!! or you'll just continue eating....this is me, anyways.

habits are hard to break...

bearcountrygg on 05/11/2018:
Habits are so very hard to break..we do have to do what works for us....already today....I'm not counting and not writing down...and already I have eaten and desired less in total...I don't dare count now...because it does encourage me to eat more...weird I know.....and last night it was definitely about using up food...and then I actually opened another pkg ...makes me wonder if it was just bait...for giving myself today the ok to finish that off......so many odd clues here for me....I'm my own worst enemy...but I am drinking more zero cal today too...


Horn_of_plenty on 05/11/2018:
my plan is to buy the zero cal drinks, all types, again and force myself to stop eating after a planned amount and just drink the drinks...should work especially if they haave some caffeine like after lunch on weekend or today for instance..

bearcountrygg on 05/11/2018:
I've been doing that too.


Donkey on 05/11/2018:
It seems as though there's an issue there. I can sort of relate because I grew up very poor, or with the impression that we were very poor. I'm a scrimp and saver. Don't like to throw out food. And now that I'm a recycler, I don't like to throw out anything either. I think all of this plays on OCD tendencies. So quite a few things spoke to me. I'll just comment them in no particular order of importance:

To stop mindless eating, try putting your food (cookies, nuts, bars, etc.) on a plate or a bowl. When the bowl is empty, you would have to make a conscious effort to refill. It might not stop you from refilling, but at least you'd have the opportunity to make the CHOICE.

While I'm with GAINS about not having it in the house, I feel that your living situation is unique because of where you live. It sounds like you can't just say, "Oh, I'm out of (whatever), let me run down to the Wal-Mart to pick up some." My folks lived in the woods of Wisconsin, where any errand was a drive. So I get your need to stockpile -- at least in the winter.

I'm at the point where "out of sight, out of mind" works 99% of the time. If I can keep it where it's hard to get at, or I can't see it, I've won most of the battle right there. Yes, sometimes I have my moments of weakness (see my entry regarding sneaky eating and the guilt that I felt as a result), but most times I'm successful with it.

Do you find that you are eating mindlessly out of anxiety or boredom, i.e. nothing to do, lack of structure to your day, etc.? I've found in myself that this is when I am most vulnerable, which is why I always try to have a few tasks to do during the day, even if it's a scheduled TV show, or an hour to read.

I would recommend attacking this in 2 ways: behaviorally (counting calories, etc.) and emotionally (prayer, meditation, writing, listening, talking it out)... Oh this reminds me - I wanted to tell you that I'm going to check out your YouTube lady over the weekend, now that I will have the time to do so, to give it my proper attention.

Anyway, just my 2-cent insights, LOL.

bearcountrygg on 05/12/2018:
Totally agree with the OCD tendencies...I know there are some within me..... Going to Walmart involves 2 hours on the road....but it's do-able...just so inconvenient.... Yup...this weekend it will all be out of sight....and I will shop every few days from the closet....I'm glad you brought up lack of structure...because I am very guilty of that.....no wonder I loved working...I was the most scheduled person around because I also was going to college at the same time...and had kids in grade school.....I went from ultra scheduled to being a total slug...I need to put myself on a schedule...I am a much better person on a schedule....( I'm seeing that I apparently like extremes here...interesting observations)...I'm so glad...thank you for noticing that!!!!!! I love this place....I have learned so much about myself here!!!!Thanks DONKEY...you hit the nail on the head.


happy-1 on 05/11/2018:
Honestly it sounds more like you are so worried about D, this is just how you are going to go crazy for a little while. Priorities go with it.

I've visited family in areas where they had to stockpile... what I don't understand is the cash outlay. My "aunt" had to figure out the cost of gas as part of the grocery budget... and we were limited to only basics because the truck only held so much, and we were only getting stuff that couldn't be bought cheaper in bulk with neighbors splitting it up. Plus we had to store everything in seal tight pails or metal bins. There was no money for anything that took up space or gas or wasn't the same price as it would have cost to make. Most of the space was reserved for bulk buys of wood pellets. Only 1 person could go with my aunt on each trip and it was a huge reward to go.

bearcountrygg on 05/12/2018:
Unfortunately I discovered BOXED.COM...they deliver...it was way too easy!!! Then there was JET.COM...and Amazon.....That is truly when it got out of hand....it was just too easy.


happy-1 on 05/11/2018:
Like it must be so expensive to do so many trips to buy pre-packaged items... and then so expensive to eat off plan and increase health bills... and like... looking at my spending patterns I'm spending so much on food because I feel like it's the only place I'm allowed to spend and now I get why in DA they want us to make a spending plan and put something into each category... it's about avoiding deprivation and maintaining balance

bearcountrygg on 05/12/2018:
We just don't have many expenses these days...that comes with old age.......got rid of the expensive house.....living in one half the size now.....we are just at the stage of life where we have had it all...and done it all...and we are just basically coasting along.....we are relaxed...probably too relaxed....just basically doing what we want...instead of what we have to do.....we have had the high pressure, living on the edge life...and now it was supposed to be our time to just kick back...but I have to say...I miss the high intensity city life.....living in the forest is calming and beautiful...but it is also a big bore......I lost a lot of motivation making this move.



BearCountryGG - Thursday May 10, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 243.2

Downpour all night long and we slept like logs.......love to hear rain beating on the metal roof.  D's PT appt is at 12:30 today...so that kind of breaks the day in half.......... and the air conditioning got turned on last night...spring is finally here.......

Meal # 1 

1 egg fried in PAM = 77

1 slice 15 grain bread toasted, plain = 130

coffee = 9

 

Meal #2

bagel toasted = 370

almond butter 1T = 95

 

Meal # 3

After D's PT we came home hungry....so made do with leftovers because they were fast....both of us had belly aches today......we need naps...LOL

1 1/2 brats = 350

wheat bun = 100

1 cup chili = 220

peas = 90

5 skinny fries = 62

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822

calories so far today = 1,503

I have found a very interesting lady on you tube.....for me...she is vey inspirational.....and she walks the walk........Her videos are not about weight loss...or exercise...they are about self control and focusing on what you want out of life and then doing what needs to be done to achieve that.  She is an inspirational speaker...and was a teen mom who racked up a lot of debt...mostly on her education...and now she is working on paying off that debt...on an income of under $20,000 a year working part time.  She lives on $50 worth of groceries per month...and basically eats,rice, beans , vegetables  oatmeal and popcorn.....she says she is not losing weight ( she doesn't need to).....because she is eating enough calories........but her self control is about paying off her debt.  Her determination to get what she wants out of life is what i watch her videos for.  Her name is Stacey Flowers....and I think if anyone here is looking for a model about self control...she is worth looking at.

Las night I got hungry in the evening...and never gave it one thought...I headed for cookies and potato sticks.....I have no clue why it never once crossed my mind that I was stuffing myself.......it just didn;t register.......I also realized  during the night that my 3rd meal was huge.......I can say that I spend much of the night feeling like food was just laying in my stomach...and not digesting.......I'm quite unhappy with myself that I can actually eat...without even acknowlwging it to myself at the time.....after this long...how does this happen?

 

Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 98.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 05/10/2018:
i'll take a look at her videos, she surely does sound inspirational....

happy spring and having an appointment later in the day or later in morning is my type of thing to so at least i do not have to rush out the door to it...i'm not a rush type of person, lol, at least compared to these NYers...they are so fast...i feel like i've been living under a log for many years comparatively speaking to how i act and my pace compared to theirs!

bearcountrygg on 05/10/2018:
She is well spoken...and totally on point with her determination. I think you will enjoy her videos.



BearCountryGG - Wednesday May 09, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 243.2

Weird night around here...for the second night a raccoon was out in the yard tipping things over....lots of crashing...we were beginning to think it might be a bear...but nope...it was a coon....just wrecking stuff.  I think we are  going to be spending a lot of time today just napping.....

I couldn't get in here this morning...and was so happy to see DD up and running again...or maybe it was my service provider...

1,200 to 1,500 cals a day

Meal # 1 was egg ,toast ,nut/fruit bar and coffee

 

Meal#2 was beer brat in a wheat bun with mustard, potato, peas, pineapple

Meal #3 = bagel with cream cheese

Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 98.2 lbs to go!

graindart on 05/09/2018:
Were the dogs barking like crazy or are they used to the raccoons?

bearcountrygg on 05/09/2018:
They were quiet for some reason....they have a opossum out there near them a lot...so they probably accept them.....I don't think they would be happy with a bear though.


Donkey on 05/09/2018:
Well done today with the meals!

I do not function the day after a night of disrupted sleep. However, that's kind of a cute story about the raccoon. You know, a CAT would have taken action... just sayin' ;-) My Boo gets to something fierce when anything approaches our back deck.

bearcountrygg on 05/09/2018:
I know our cats in the past would have gone nuts......But just things crashing out back...I can't believe how much he flipped over...LOL

bearcountrygg on 05/09/2018:
I know our cats in the past would have gone nuts......But just things crashing out back...I can't believe how much he flipped over...LOL



BearCountryGG - Tuesday May 08, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 243.2

Fighting a miserable sinus infection......and loving the beautiful weather..  Taking the day to take it easy...then tomorrow and thursday we hit the road again......

1,200 to 1,500cals a day

Meal #1 = coffee w/creamer, cheese omelette, 15 grain toast w/butter

Meal # 2 Chicken and veggies, potato sticks, chocolate, starbucks fruitjuice drink

Meal # 3 Pomegranate/blueberry V8 juice...and quest bar

Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 98.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 05/08/2018:
do you have the infection bc of allergies?

bearcountrygg on 05/08/2018:
I'm not sure....I do have allergies...and the trees here are all budding....but not sure.


Donkey on 05/08/2018:
I was just thinking maybe it's allergies. I used to get sinus infections like clockwork: once in the spring and once in the fall -- because of all the stuff floating around.

bearcountrygg on 05/08/2018:
It's probably allergies.....buds all over here.


Donkey on 05/08/2018:
It's nice that you had a day to just chill out.

bearcountrygg on 05/08/2018:
It was nice...had to take D to the hardware...but that was only about 40 minutes....in my slippers....LOL



BearCountryGG - Monday May 07, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 243.2

 I finally remembered to get on the scales today...and it was up....I'm not sure how that happens when I am eating less calories than fitday says I'm burning.  In the old days...I would be losing...now...not so much.  I got the book that I believe JayHawkJen recommended and it is amazing...I'm really enjoying it.  The titile is Mindless Eating by Brian Wansink........you won't be sorry you read it.......we are all taken in by food clues rather we want to believe it or not.   Rather it''s what is considered Healthy food or not.  We truly are products of our enviornment.  Anyway......D has an early PT appt...so I'm just drinking coffee so far....not hungry today ( that varies so much from day to day)...and when I know I'm going out in the morning...it usually meaans that I'm more interested in getting ready than eating...so be it...maybe I should make plans to go out before every meal...LOL

 

 

EDIT....after PT..we went for a ride in the country....saw lots of trees....YAWN>>>>>>but he LOVED it!...looked for bear tracks.. ( pull over, slow down, stop, )..NONE......went past his buddies place...not there...get home and stick the pizza in the oven...strange loud truck driving around in our back yard......makes the full circle and turns onto the rd......goes ahead about 50 feet..backs up...and comes back down the driveway...boy am I glad I was not here alone......D meets him on the front porch...older guy...bad limp...my guy...older and bad limp...for a second I could imagine an old gimpy man fight...LOL.....2 baldies with beards flailing around at each other....funny picture in my head...but visiting guy just wanted to know where the place that fixes motorcycles was.....D gave directions the best he could.......senior citizens are NOT pretty!!!!!  And I have a sinus infection.....!!  That aint pretty either!

Max 1,500 cals per day

Meal #1

coffee =9

Stomach finally started growling about 8:00...so ate a wheat Bollo ( roll) = 170

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179 cals 

Meal #2

Planned frozen pizza because of time restraints

fruit juice

dessert

Meal # 3

Banana, almond milk, raisin bran, potato sticks

Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 98.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 05/07/2018:
Scale takes forever to catch up with diet...you know how it goes...easier to gain than lose!

it's a good idea to make any type of "plans" before every morning meal ;)

excellent eating and calories. keep on!

bearcountrygg on 05/07/2018:
Not very hungry today...stuffed feeling and bloated.


horn_of_plenty on 05/07/2018:
i love the kodiak cakes, i think they contain fiber / probiotics that make you poop right? i have used Mighty Muffins in the past...and they are good for pooping. That's the muffin brand i like :) they are protein as well and so tasty.

bearcountrygg on 05/07/2018:
I know they are a protein thing...but otherwise...not sure.


happy-1 on 05/07/2018:
Mmm kodiak cakes. I miss them but they aren't paleo.

bearcountrygg on 05/07/2018:
they need to be used up...dates are close....may not buy again though.


happy-1 on 05/07/2018:
I swear I had brunch the other day and we talked about staging senior cage fights.

bearcountrygg on 05/07/2018:
In slow motion...LOL



BearCountryGG - Sunday May 06, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 242.0

Up and at em this morning....full of energy....things are greening up out there and I love it.  Working on my first cup of coffee and planning on finding something to eat around 7...I''m really enjoying the weekends lately...no appointments. Retirement should not have so many rules...hoping that things will calm down next month.  Once again needing to weigh, measure and eat at specific times....I was definately getting sloppy.

Meal#1( 7 A.M.)

coffee = 9

16 grapes = 57

banana = 109

dried apples = 35

Kodiak minute blueberry muffin = 260

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470 cals

 

Meal#2 (noon)

chili dog on a wheat bun = 510

lettuce and peppers = 12

strawberries = 80

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602 calories

 

 

Meal #3 (5PM)

spinach herb tortilla = 50

tuna salad = 100

mozzarella lite sring cheese =50

almond milk = 40

cookies = 180

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420 calories

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 97 lbs to go!

graindart on 05/06/2018:
I've been getting a little lax on recording my late night snacking after dinner the past few days. It's only a piece of meat or cheese each time, but I know they add up.

bearcountrygg on 05/06/2018:
The end of day eating is easy to get caught up in...for me it's disappointing to do well all day...and then mess it up so late....


Horn_of_plenty on 05/06/2018:
yum i like those microwavable kodiak cakes!!!! in the cup, right??

you get up so early! is it to feed the animals??

bearcountrygg on 05/06/2018:
We just get up as we did in our working years....we had gotten up at 4:30 for so long that we never got over the habit. We like our early mornings...it's more like 5:30 these days though. Yes....the muffins are in a micro cup.....we have several cases of them...so I figured I'd better get using them up...D doesn't like them.


Donkey on 05/06/2018:
What a yummy eating day :-)

bearcountrygg on 05/06/2018:
It was satisfying!


happy-1 on 05/07/2018:
Hugs

bearcountrygg on 05/07/2018:
:)



BearCountryGG - Saturday May 05, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 242.0

Woke up hungry today...that doesn't always happen........soI'mhaving breakfast...and then there are things to get done...and I'm ready to tackle them.

1,200 to 1,500 cals per day

Meal #1

coffee with almond milk , oatmeal with raisins, dates and walnuts, banana  = 260 cals

Meal #2 

mixed lettuce, red pepperr, lite ranch, corn on the con, wheat roll, 1 teaspoon butter, dessert......let D have all of the steak...I'm not interested today

 

Spoke with D's sister, brother in law finally left the hospital yesterday after 1 1/2 months there for his stem cell transplant, He is sick...gastric ulcers, depression, exhaustion, swollen....but hopefull that the cancer is gone...his chances of surviving for 10 years are 60%, beyond 10, 20% and his chances of dying during the tratment was 20%...but he beat that.....so we are hopeful....so far he has taken 2 baths and slept...but he's home.

D walked for an hour outside today...and tinkered around in the barn....so he is getting back to his own self....but with a cane.

Meal #4

starbucks juice/water, kashi bar, potato sticks, cookies....getting junky...today just flew by....I don't know where it went....TOMORROW...I need to get ahold of the snacky stuff....we have plenty of healthy stuff here

 

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 97 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 05/05/2018:
Glad your family are doing much better. I know you are, too. Maybe things can calm down now to where you can get back to the usual things you enjoy doing.

bearcountrygg on 05/05/2018:
I hope so!



BearCountryGG - Friday May 04, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 242.0

Taking D to another morning PT appt today...they are dragging these things that are supposed to be 45 minutes...out to an hour and a half.... but he is doing well....so it apparently is working......he has such tight muscles  (he has always been this way...not agile or bendable at all..)...and add 32 years of walking girders etc...and he is like a darn robot....and they can't see it.....they want him to bend....HE COULD'T bend when he was a teenager.....he isn't made that way.......his muscles are so dense that he never would have been able to do some of this stuff  ever in his life....I met him when he was 16...and he was that way then...I always thought it may have been because he was a catcher on the Varsity baseball team and was also played Varsity football...and he hunted and swam.and rode a bike for miles every day ( to my house)....and was very physically active...but .....over the years since retirement...he has lost the strength and muscle tone in his upper body...but his legs are still very muscular...( walking in the woods???/).....so they want him to bend like he never has in his entire life.....they are physically trying to force his heel to touch his Butt....NEVER going to happen.....anyway...enough of that.....

Meal #1 = coffee....just not hungry...and will probably get more in when we get home...because I rarely feel morning hunger until after 10 o clock.  Well...just got a wheat roll (plain) down so that's meal #1

On a happier note...friends are coming up to look at some acreage near us that is for sale...so we are planning a weekend visit with them...if they get up here....looking forward to that.

 Meal #2 = chili dog, salad, potato,,strawberries

Meal # 3 = chicken, potato, kashi bar and a 100 cal pk of cookies

Junky binge after D went to bed......not happy with myself...after D went to bed I ate 1 mini bag chips, some combos and the last cookie in the pkg....should not have let myself start that.

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 97 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 05/04/2018:
let them bend him...yeah...i've seen what they do at PT to patients like him...since i was in PT for several years i looked around at what they did with other patients...they are always stretching the ones that get his type of thing done!!!

i hope you see your friends :)

bearcountrygg on 05/04/2018:
He will survive......and I hope they come up north tomorrow too.


graindart on 05/04/2018:
If not feeling hungry in the morning consistently now, just skip it. No need for calorie intake when your body doesn't really care. You can adjust calorie intake on the other couple meal times to make up for it.

bearcountrygg on 05/04/2018:
I agree.....forcing myself to eat in the morning usually makes me tired and I don't like that either....I usually don't get hungry until at least 10...and sometimes later.


happy-1 on 05/04/2018:
Aw I didn't realize you guys were high school sweethearts. You guys are sooooo adorable.

bearcountrygg on 05/04/2018:
Yup...when we were in biology together ( him a senior, me a junior..)..we had to poke our fingers for a blood type test...I couldn't get up the nerve to stick myself....he saw that and took the opportunity to offer to stab me...LOL...from that moment on...actually a pretty weird beginning...how many gals meet their future husband because he offers to cut them??? LOL


Maria7 on 05/04/2018:
Hope you have a wonderful visit with your friends.

bearcountrygg on 05/04/2018:
I hope they get up here too...


Donkey on 05/04/2018:
Sounds like a lovely day - you did well. YUM chili dogs -- I can't remember the last time I had one... and I really love them.

bearcountrygg on 05/04/2018:
We don't have them often...but he has been talking about them...so since he went grocery shopping with me ( that never happens)...we got them.


graindart on 05/05/2018:
Forgot about chili dogs. Loved ordering them at Fuddruckers. Huge dogs with freshly toasted and buttered buns. Slathered with chili / shredded cheese / onions / liquid cheese / couple peppers / maybe a little sour cream or tomato. So large I could barely finish it, probably 2000+ calories by the time I was done with the toppings. It's probably been over a year since I've had one.

bearcountrygg on 05/05/2018:
I forgot about them too...until D started asking for them about a week ago.....we buy a Michigan brand called Kogels...and then whole wheat nuns and we use Hormel chili/no beans....I stuck to 1...he put 3 on a bun.....it was good for a change...but now we have the rest of the pkg to use up...so they will reappear again...LOL

bearcountrygg on 05/05/2018:
BUNS...we do not buy whole wheat NUNS in this house...LOL



BearCountryGG - Thursday May 03, 2018
(Walking the fine line between happiness and health)
Weight: 242.0

Got up at 6...which is a little late for me.......twice yesterday I found myself falling asleep in the chair.....slept good all night too.......D wants me to take him to Walmart today....that's 2 hours on the road...I'm hoping he can handle all of the walking......Dr says as long as he isn't in a lot of pain..it's OK....although afterwards he is dealing with a lot of swelling...and calf tightness and pain...he is determined....he was supposed to wear the support hose for 30 days...and because the male nurse says he can stop wearing them....( female nurse and I disagree)...he took them off tonight...darn it....( my dad almost died with blood clots when I was 13 and he was 40.)..I will never forget it....and don't want to  ever see anyone deal with that again.....( clots went through his heart and lungs at home ( with my Dad)....and I remember the fear and his pain....when that happened.......Oh well....not my legs...and he will do this his way.  He is being a lot of help at the kennels...he shovels and keeps order...I get the food and water and feed them....nice to have the company out there.

So...Off we go to Walmart today.......he can pick up a couple of things he wants...and I can get some groceries.

Breakfast....just not hungry...so I had a cup of coffee and a banana = 109

We got a lot done this morning...it's 1:30 now....and we went to Walmart for groceries, Home Depot for guy stuff, the bank, the gas station...and ended up at a restaurant...delicious meal...where I promptly dumped my ice water all over...can't take me anywhere!!!!!

Lunch........reuben sandwich and fries.......covered all of the food groups...and I don't think I will be hungry again for a long...long time. 1,000 cals

Got home and had a huge amt of groceries to put away....basically all freezer and fridge...so we got a lot of healthy stuff.

So even with the restaurant meal....I'm at about 1,105 cals....stillnot hungry but will probably eat something later.....

Meal #3......grapes, veggie sticks, roll, cookies

 

 

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 97 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 05/03/2018:
i hear that you feel better and can do more pretty quickly after the surgery...and then i think advice is to just keep moving...i hope you get everything you need!

bearcountrygg on 05/03/2018:
Got it all...except I pkg of wall mounts had apparently been opened and some parts were missing...UGH. He did really well...no complaints.


happy-1 on 05/03/2018:
Good teamwork!

bearcountrygg on 05/03/2018:
We do that well...we work together as a team very easily....lucky in that way.



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