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BearCountryGG - Tuesday Mar 20, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 221.0

Have a crummy cold.  Older son called last night and said that his phone rang......MOM popped up...and when he answered it...it was a call saying that they wanted him to get a credit card from them...darn hackers....they are still using my number...so  first...I ate more pizza!!!!!!    Then decided that changing my  number was the only thing I could do......so first thing this morning...I ate more pizza and cake and coffee!!!   Then I  changed my phone number.....I don't know how or when this happened...but now I have a new phone number ( so I have to call everyone in my contact list)...and I'm locked out of 2 of my email accts until april 15th...Hacker again!!!   This is getting tiresome.......

Lots of things to change online now too.........stress eating....  it's taken me over....what it hasn't affected...the cold has.....not caring right now...wasn't happy with the scales this morning either...but it's what I deserve.  Lots of tension around here...yoyoing likely....and with everything else that is going on with D's surgery preps...I basically don't care......not really in diet mode right now...too many other things happening.  

Swamped with email and phone number changes....and all of the surgery pre-ops start this week too........so I will be taking that time off that I spoke of before...( I'm glad i got back here for a little bit)...but now..there is much to do...and I'm fighting the cold on top of that...so I need to get busy and get things done here before it all piles up on me at the last minute.  I will return..........when we can put this stuff behind us!!!

Progress as of today: 34.4 lbs lost so far, only 76 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/20/2018:
i am very bad with stress eating too before actually doing an assignment. it's hard for me too - that's why it's sometimes good to have healthier alternatives around to choose from...yeah...i know what you mean for sure!

keep on, stay happy, try to be moderate with your choices as much as you can :)

bearcountrygg on 03/20/2018:
Staying happy!

horn_of_plenty on 03/20/2018:
try to stay happy and care a little bit...look how nice your weight chart looks on the right!

bearcountrygg on 03/20/2018:
I know...funny how it comes on so fast and goes off so slow.

Maria7 on 03/20/2018:
Bless your heart. No wonder you are not in 'diet mode' and had a 'food fit'! :-) You have a lot on your plate (no pun intended). Same here, Friend. I've been out of 'diet mode' myself, this winter. Oh, well. 'This, too, shall pass', regarding all the stress. You are still doing great, holding off over 34 pounds you have lost, no easy feat. I basically don't care, either, at times and just eat whatever I want. Hope you have a good day.

bearcountrygg on 03/20/2018:
Thanks Maria....you are right...there is a lot on my plate...LOL

Donkey on 03/20/2018:
(((hugs))) I can completely understand where you are coming from. I guess my only recommendation is to try to find lower calorie or healthier choices.... although I can honestly say that, for example, eating a pound of nuts is NOT recommended. So I guess it may not matter whether the food is healthy or not.

What I would recommend is this: When you find yourself stress-eating, be kind to and be honest with yourself. "I am eating this cake because I'm having a hard time handling all this stress, and it's OK because I will see myself through this mess." I've done this with myself. Stressful times with stressful eating is NOT the time to be beating up on yourself. Be kind to yourself above all.

Hope that makes sense...

bearcountrygg on 03/20/2018:
Thank you!

Maria7 on 03/21/2018:
Hope you are feeling better today.

BearCountryGG - Monday Mar 19, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 216.6

Woke up sleepy and stiff jointed.....not much energy but today was a hugge errand day...so I didn't have any choice...............

Had a cup of coffee and took a bath and left as soon as it was light out, got groceries, took a book to donate, and another bag of donations to another site,  Mailed a pkg back in the UPS drop off, picked up some new mailers, and went to buy the fake flowers for grave decorations in may....back home and made a bagel with butter and peaniut butter for a late breakfast and had 2 mini cakes.  Lunch was easy...not wanting to cook....we had pizza...and I only ate 1 square serving......then went to take a 2 plus hour nap.  I'm up again...and still feeling sleepy and stiff..so I unloaded and reloaded dishwasher and I'm finally on my 2nd cup of coffee......no energy....waiting for the exercycle to arrive...just got up haldf an hour ago and want to go back to bed.........BUT...I will not allow myself to sleep anymore or I  won't sleep tonight.... calories are actualy low for the day...not a good food day though....don't care......youngest son called to chat.......almost fell asleep...luckily he's a talker...because had nothing to say...LOL...........sorted the mail...geeze...everything is a chore...I think I will go do 1 load of laundry...maybe that will wake me up.............made myself go throw some apples out for the deer.....and weirdly put my pajamas on the bed for tonight....it's not even 5 yet.....clearly sleep is what I want...bike arrived and we are tootired to put it together now...hopefully tomorrow.  Just now noticing some back and lung discomfort...maybe that explains something, neck glands are swollen....thinking about more pizza.....yup...pizza and 2 chicken fingers and now a cough and runny nose.....I'm done for the day.....it's a cold....drinking lots of water and seltzer water........tv for the rest of the day.

Progress as of today: 38.8 lbs lost so far, only 71.6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 03/19/2018:
Sounds like you are ill? I hope you feel better tomorrow (((hugs)))

happy-1 on 03/19/2018:
Hugs. Feel better!

happy-1 on 03/19/2018:
Saw this and thought of u. Big hugs!!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BgggpCmASTO/

happy-1 on 03/19/2018:
Saw this and thought of u. Big hugs!!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BgggpCmASTO/

BearCountryGG - Sunday Mar 18, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 216.6

Wrapping up lots of loose ends around here today......enough to keep me busy all day...exercycle didn't arrive like it was supposed to...don't know what is up with that.....but it sure won't arrive on Sunday....staying away from the grocery store for one more day....tomorrow.,,,,I will have no choice though...will be totally out of some necessities...but I'm happy to keep putting it off in the future until I'm desperate....good thing for me to learn....if I can't deal with grocery shopping without buying the stuff that tempts me then...just don't shop...LOL.



apple walnut cream of wheat 

A.M. Snack 

4 small pieces candy


chicken and veggies on noodles, 4 fries, sweet potatoes...working on using up leftovers


cheese, blueberry protein muffin, peanits


Progress as of today: 38.8 lbs lost so far, only 71.6 lbs to go!

graindart on 03/18/2018:
That's about the only way that I can seem to do good on the food intake side of things lately...... I just have to keep it out of the house. The family has done a good job of keeping most of the normal temptations out of the house for me (candy, cookies, ice cream, etc). Unfortunately I'm now tempted by pretty much any type of carb. So now I've been getting derailed by bread / jam / peanut butter / cereal. Going to change up some of the wife and daughters food options to get rid of some of the temptations (no bread / jam / peanut butter / granola bars / cereal). They're not overjoyed about making a change, but I think they'll survive.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/19/2018:
love your chart above!!!

BearCountryGG - Saturday Mar 17, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 216.6





bagel with butter and almond butter

freeze dried fruit and berries


Chicken and veggies on egg noodles


cheese and crackers



Finishing up taxes today and several phone calls...the day is flying by.

Frustrating day...email was hacked and now has been locked for the next month  and the camera card reader I ordered arrived wrong.....you would think they would have been able to read the number on it..and send the right one....UGH....frustrating but not lettingit get me down...I will have to go to the post office anyway on Monday or tuesday...might as well take one more pkg.

Progress as of today: 38.8 lbs lost so far, only 71.6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 03/17/2018:
Hugs. Sounds like a hard day.

BearCountryGG - Friday Mar 16, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 216.6

Another at home day....taxes are well along but not finished so I'm taking another day to finish those up......still not shopping...we can get by another day.  

Out of curiosity I took my glucose test as I was getting into bed last night and it was 91 and perfect...I hadn't eaten since dinner....( I was tempted but refused to fall prey to that)...and the numbers were great....protein/fat/carbs combos have changed my life...I haven't had to eat sugar to bring my numbers up in several days now.  In fact I havent tested yet today...so maybe I will go do that right now...so far I've only had coffee since yesterday afternoon........sooo...even after fasting for so many hours it was 96,   again perfect!!!!!  So my days of managing it by downing sugar during dips is over.....protein/carb/fat 3 times a day is the answer  ( and then adding other things after the fact to round out the meals).  I'm happy and relieved.


Busy morning so far...phone ringing repeatedly and kitchen sinks backed up...no overflowing yet...and the dishwasher is still running ( don't want to stop that mid cycle...always an issue when I do that)...so at least I got my bath done and got dressed...otherwise.....no taxes yet...UGH!


7:30 coffee, oatmeal and a slim fast protein drink

12:00  1 serving container of chicken rice a roni, peanuts, applesauce. propel water

5:00  Chicken, corn, peppers, potatoes, chips


Progress as of today: 38.8 lbs lost so far, only 71.6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG - Thursday Mar 15, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 216.6

Having some at home alone time today....D is taking all of the hounds out for a ride around the federal forrest...they LOVE TO SMELL THE AIR!!!!   LOL

So it's a little after 7 A.M. and I have the dishwasher going, the washing machine going, I'm going to go make the bed and then get busy on our Income taxes....had a little problem with the printer the other day but that is resolved and I can use that again.  Ordered some walking shoes yesterday and 4 new clothing items...they will fit better now...since we order almost everything online except perishables.....we have been getting a lot of deliveries ...and  now with yesterday...there will be a few more...but I think we are good for now...so....I'm avoiding the grocery store as long as I possibley can...I think we can get by for a few more days until the milk and eggs run out...and we are eating up whats in the fridge and freezer.  I ended up cancelling Schwans frozen food deliveries...we have had 4 packages lately where the seams on their packaging have just opened up on the bottom and the contents fell on the floor...they are having major problems with their company...the last delivery.....the driver had no idea what we had ordered...then filled the order...and made 2 mistakes.......3rd time that has happened in the last few months too....they need to work on their system..........and we need to use up what we have around here...so all is well.  Time to stop spending money...and get creative with what is on hand.............

My hypoglycemia is under control with prevention instead of waiting for it to go low and then feeding it sugar...so the headaches and foggy vision are gone and now I'm working on eating for that while trying to contain the calories...so far...so good...Just keeping quantities lower....No bingeing issues at all...so as long as that lasts...I'm fine....today down 1.4 pounds...seriously need to take the time to dig out some old clothes that will now fit...no time for that today though.........will have to wear the baggies for a couple more days.

6:00 A.M. oatmeal, milk, sausage, coffee

12:00 .broccoli, beets, sweet potatoes...and cheese and crackers

5:00  chicken breast with peppers and onions, mexican corn, hash browns 


Progress as of today: 38.8 lbs lost so far, only 71.6 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/15/2018:
congrats on being productive and also on working to eat right!

good luck on your taxes :) i'm so glad i did mine so EARLY this year.!

bearcountrygg on 03/15/2018:
It's a BIG veggie day for sure.....Leftovers!!!! I don't think we have ever gotten our taxes done before March....even back when we got refunds!! But since retirement...we end up paying every year....oh well....like D always says...never regret paying income taxes...it means we have an income...LOL

BearCountryGG - Wednesday Mar 14, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 218.0

Just stopped in for a moment...I have had time to read most days......

Very busy around here getting things set up for D's surgery next month...all equipment has arrived.

We ordered a exercycle today it's on the  HSN website right now...for $200...it folds up and can be used upright and as a recumbant...so I think that will be good for both of us....

It's our third one...the sons each took our other ones home with them...that was one piece of exercise equipment I really do miss not having around, so I think this one will get lots of use.

He still has several appointments between now and the surgery...and I have a lot to learn about these dogs in the kennel...they think of me right now as the treat lady and they go nuts when they see me...somehow I have to impress on them that I will be their boss for awhile...I'm not sure they will be able to understand that........In the past...when we had ground level kennels I was able to handle them ( actually different dogs, not these)...but these are raised kennels which lets them basically stand over me....and I'm not as young as I used to be...I'm not afraid of them....( they like the treat lady)...but they are very powerful animals...(bear dogs have a lot of strength and guts)...so....it will be the 5 of them against the treat lady...LOL.

Just found out an old childhood friend fell on the ice this morning, hit her head and died...sadly her husband died last August............

D's sister is having surgery today.........

Brother in law starts his stem cell replacement therapy in a couple of weeks and will be in the hospital for at least a month in Detroit but his chemo and experimental treatments are done...so we are praying that the stem cell replacement works...because it is his last hope.

It's all a bit overwhelming....but I have to say that it's good to be able to write it out here.

I just noticed that I have not been writing down in my notebook what I have been eating since I stopped posting.....that's not good....WOW...how quickly I forgot that....NOT GOOD!

Progress as of today: 37.4 lbs lost so far, only 73 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/15/2018:
good luck to hubby....

and also sorry to hear about your childhood friend and her husband..

and good luck to your hubby's sister.

yes, you have a lot going on...

but the good news is that your health is quite good!!!!!!!!!

bearcountrygg on 03/15/2018:
Yes HOP...I'm feeling great...thank you...all went well with his sisters surgery...and she will be better now...she's a diabetic, amputee that was blind....I think they just gave her back a little sight...won't know for a couple of days but they are hopeful and that is all we can ask....she is a widow living alone and she has to see to stay at home...there are way too many people D and my ages that are in serious health trouble and dying....makes us think we need to get out butts in order and fast....! People in their 60's are old...but not THAT old!!!

BearCountryGG - Saturday Mar 10, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 218.0

Up early as usual and feeling wonderful. 

Scales down 2 pounds and I really feel it today...definately time to trash some clothes and dig out some new ones.  

The mat for the Simply Fit board arrived so it's time to give that a try today I'm also incorporating some stretchy bands today that have been packed away for 3 years.....( need to test those for their safety)

Glucose is 95 today and perfect........protein/fat/carb meals are my answer and will be my way of life and it won't be hard to maintain.



oatmeal bread toasted


Multi vitamin, extra C, zinc, omegas, turmeric, baby aspirin


Chicken sandwich, salad


Tuna salad sandwich, tomato red pepper soup, apple


As I mentioned a few days ago....I will be taking some time off from DD....Things have been busy and will get busier while D has his surgery preps and then recovery....

We have a lot of things to do around here beforehand plus the family member with cancer is having his stem cell treatment...at about the same time and I'm committed to them too............so I'm so happy to finally have a workable diet plan for my health.....and I'm happy to be feeling so well myself because the next few months will be about other family members......the activity will actually be good for me...and I'm looking forward to being busy and active....I will be back when I can.



Progress as of today: 37.4 lbs lost so far, only 73 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/10/2018:
I'm glad you are taking a break while feeling the best you can. Good luck to your hubby and also the other family member...

your foods look GREAT...wayyyy healthier than mine today! :)

Donkey on 03/10/2018:
So glad that you figured out a good food combo plan before you became busy. Now you can focus on the busy, because your food plan is on automatic. And nothing wrong with sandwiches!

Maria7 on 03/10/2018:
Congrats on your new lower number. Take good care of yourself while you are taking care of others.

BearCountryGG - Friday Mar 09, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 220.2

We struggle...I know I do!

One thing I remember from the foster parenting days is that we can't take the genetics out of a person....and that enviornment only does so much...genetics...keep rearing their ugly heads..

Our childhoods play such a large part in our adult lives.......the genetics were already there and then add to that our first life experiences...and the result is a heady mass of influence that we carry through life with us.

Everything old is new again........there is nothing new under the sun.....D and I were discussing our enjoyment of the the old POPEYE cartoons from our childhood....and I realized...that popeye said it all.

" I yam what I yam and that's all that I yam....I'm Popeye the sailor man...toot...toot!"

Maybe just maybe we do what we do for reasons we can't control....and maybe we have trouble changing because it is so unnatural for us.  

Maybe when we force ourselves to do something that is different "for  our own good"  we end up returning to our old ways again when the going gets tough because that is what we are programmed to do.

Maybe I need to honor what I am about...and just be me.

Maybe I need to follow my own instincts...now I know for a fact that I can keep my blood sugar stable all day long with bread, a protein and a fat....I know it's not popular for weight loss...which I really need to achieve....so I am in a weird place right now....the headaches and mood swings are totally gone...I'm full of energy and feel really good....apparently my low glucose has been really messing with me for years in ways that I didn't realize.  I always was a carb person...and maybe that was because that is what was needed to keep my glucose stable.

Any person into dieting is going to tell me to dump the carbs and hit the veggies and I get that...but when I dump the bread/cereal/pasta/crackers/cookies/potatoes...my glucose drops and I feel crummy...24 hours a day.

For the last couple of days I have been eating

oatmeal 1 pkt

4 slices bread or 2 bagels


along with beef, tomatoes, green beans, butter, olive oil, peanut butter and kidney beans and cheese and protein shakes.


So now I've proven to myself what I have to eat to keep the blood levels good...........now I need to figure out how to eat those daily and still lose weight...because my weight was up a little this morning.......looks like a balancing act that....I'm beginning to see why I have been so driven to carbs...I will figure this out...but I will say one thing...I will be keeping the glucose up because I feel great!!!

In the end...If I have to choose between good glucose and being fat...the glucose is going to win.  

For the last 2 days the numbers are perfect...something that I haven't been able to achieve for years...it's been lower  and lower and then sugar to bring it to a little higher place...but basically hardly ever in the normal range....

I remember DONKEY mentioning protein....and while I had never had success with that...I knew others had..........so I did some research...and DONKEY was right....but I had to add the grain and fat to make it work...and it was my miracle.....

Now I will have to find the balance between the 2.......so far today it's going well again......why didn't I figure this out years ago???????





Progress as of today: 35.2 lbs lost so far, only 75.2 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 03/09/2018:
I remember Popeye and his girlfriend. So cute! Too bad they don't have more of these kinds of innocent entertaining cartoons and videos these days instead of so many violent entertainments for the very young folks.

bearcountrygg on 03/09/2018:
I agree...we were innocent kids...and when it comes down to it...there were messages there for us that were not negative or bad for the most part. Even nursery rhymes were honest...they sounded evil...but they taught us things.....jack broke his crown ( head)....jack spratt and his wife ( he ate no fat she ate no lean), rock a bye baby falling out of the tree, they sound ominous...but they were simple lessons....

horn_of_plenty on 03/09/2018:
i have a thought for you, take it or leave it of course, but when you say "you wanting to just be you" i think you are making an excuse for not exactly knowing yet what works!? i do the same of course at times / many times - i am just saying that you have to promise yourself to stick with something ...for at least one week straight...harder said than done...

are you ok on lower blood sugar counts?...maybe your normal is slightly under, tho i can be quite wrong. same with me, i think my normal is under...at last for blood pressure.

bearcountrygg on 03/09/2018:
With lower blood sugar counts I have a headache and foggy vision...and while I lived with that for many years.....now I know that both of those are gone when the numbers are between 90 and 100. So I'm not okay with it anymore. I agree...I need to stick with one thing for at least a week...I'm on day 3 of high protein/carb/fat....and I'm not going to stop that because it works....now making it work for weight loss at the same time is something else.

horn_of_plenty on 03/09/2018:
so continue for 4 more days... :) good job lady....i always would get the symptoms too of the shakiness low blood sugar..

trishpiglet3 on 03/09/2018:
We are all so very different in what we need foodwise. If it takes some time to work out then it takes some time to work out. Good luck with sticking to it as horn_of_plenty also says.

And Yay Popeye! FAO Maria, in the UK in the 1970s we had some really sweet kids TV programmes with puppets, zero violence and lots of life lessons. :)

bearcountrygg on 03/10/2018:
I agree 100%...we are all different...and we all have to figure out what we really need...trying things is the only way to do that.

BearCountryGG - Thursday Mar 08, 2018
(CEO of my life)
Weight: 219.2

Very very snowy here...and super snow man type of snow........and we had 1 poor robin......poor little guy....he wil have a pretty difficult time finding worms right now...he hangs around our bird feeders but he doesn't eat the seeds...( robins don't)...

On another note...some scammer stole my phone number and is calling people with their scam and my number is showing up on peoples phones as a missed call.....and then they are calling me!!!!   UGH!!!!!     So now...I only answer calls from people I know....and have changed my voice mail message to an apology and an explanation..............what is wrong with people????? 

Sticking to my 3 meal a day plan....max 1,500 cals  Boring but it takes the food from my every thought....and that helps me.

Progress as of today: 36.2 lbs lost so far, only 74.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/08/2018:
I'm telling you, sometimes too many choices isn't good...and when making something a habit or trying to take in control...it is better to plan :) if you don't plan, you plan to fail.

bearcountrygg on 03/08/2018:
For now I had to limit my choices....the repetition does make me less interested in eating...and that can be a good thing. I don't think we should be so rigid that we never have a treat....but we need to look at it as a treat...not as a daily gorge fest....at least you don't have much to lose....

trishpiglet3 on 03/08/2018:
Sometimes you can do a swap instead of the treat. Something still nice but healthier. Damage-limitation.

I don't understand the mentality of people who do scamming things. Is it greed? Do they get money from it?

bearcountrygg on 03/08/2018:
Yes...I can swap things as needed,,,,,just want to keep it simple so I don't think about it much.. The scammers....I have no idea how their minds work....I'm not sure what this one that stole my number is asking of people...no one has told me specifics...but...they are always out for money...but I'm not sure what this one is about...they don't profit from me personally...but they use my number to hide behind and scam people into sending them money........I have never understood the criminal mind...

horn_of_plenty on 03/08/2018:
yeah, i am going to stop with the peanut butter keebler crackers in the mornings soon...getting back to basics here too...cutting down the extra sugars soon. right now, just planning better :)

bearcountrygg on 03/08/2018:
For me...keeping the problem stuff out of the house is the answer...I'm not good at ignoring it...if it tempts me. Wish I had better self control with food.

Donkey on 03/08/2018:
Robins don't eat seeds??? Oh my... I've been putting bird seed out for them, thinking I'm doing a good thing. That would explain why I haven't seen any robins. Cardinals, sparrows, chickadees, squirrels, Mrs. Bunny...

bearcountrygg on 03/09/2018:
Robins like worms, and berries...and possibly insects ( not sure on that one)....but no seeds......LOL...go out and dig em up some worms...add some berries...and they will love you forever.

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