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BearCountryGG - Saturday Mar 03, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

Guess I couldn't stay away long...LOL

I've been doing a lot of thinking.....and remembering how easy it all was at one time....and what made it easy.

I was super busy at that time, my days were jam packed, I didn't have time to think about anything.  

Now...I have all the time in the world and I think way too much.

I have a list of at least 30 things in my head that need to be done and I haven't done any of them so I got my day planners back out ( just like the old days) and I started adding these things to the planner.  

I LOVED WORKING AND GOING TO SCHOOL!  So the plan is to use these scheduled things as my non negotiable daily responsibilities.

We are busy right now setting up the classes, walker and things they want D to do before next months surgery, so while I was on Amazon I ordered the pad and a senior citizen CD for that SIMPLY Fit exercise thing I have but have never used.

The protein /carb/fat meal thing is doing amazingly well for my glucose...it was 80 after eating breakfast...and while that is defianately not in the 90=100 range where it should be,.....it is not in the immediate danger zone of below 70...so for me that is great......and I have lost the sugar cravings...so it works.

I really think that retirement can be overrated.......I got lazy and stopped expecting anything of myself...everything gets put off for the next day...and that day never seems to come........so.....I've decided to be the CEO of my own life...LOL...get off my rear...and get busy doing everything that needs to be done instead of pushing it aside day after day.

I will be back tomorrow with my daily food list and I will be planning on 1,200 to 1,500 calories per day.

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!


BearCountryGG - Thursday Mar 01, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

I woke up at 4:30 today but didn't get out of bed until almost 6.....D was going for bloodwork and wanted to sleep as late as possible...shower and leave, so I stayed quiet and let him sleep....it was actually a good thing...it gave me some time to do some self talk...in my head.  

I realized that I have been so obsessed about things and I have been wasting time doing that when I could actually be doing something that I know is productive for me.  

I watch Dr Oz ALOT!!!!  Of course he pushes healthy eating....lots of greens, nuts, veggies, etc......pretty much what all weight loss diets push....but I have noticed of late...that Dr Oz is admitting that number one...he has health problems that are escalating....number 2..he has been having guests on, that contradict what he has been pushing...and he admits to that.....and when I looked up how to manage blood sugar recently it said to eat protein/fat/carb combos.....and IT WORKED!!!!!  Now maybe it's just me... but I'm not craving sweets at all right now....I'm still craving carbs/fat....but so far no sweets...and my glucose levels have been perfect since the protein/carb/fat meals....so for me...THAT'S A THING!!!!  I'm happy and relieved that it was that easy.

I once lost 55 pounds eating lots and lots of sandwiches and granola bars...and maybe that is why. Maybe my Glucose levels were managed with that.

Of late I have been starting lots of PROJECTS....and not finishing them...I look around and I'm frustrated...the master bathroom countertop is filled with bottles, baskets of stuff, things out of place and just general mayhem....I keep telling myself that I want to sort stuff...yet...I NEVER DO!   I do load after load of laundry and toss it on the counter and walk away......I paid a bill late in February ( a first for me)...because there was a pile of bills on the desk...and I didn't FEEL like sitting down and writing checks...when I did make myself sit down and write them...one was over due by three days and one was due that day...and I've been paying for that 3 day overdue one since....numerous robo calls came for 8 days and they tell me to call them...when I do...I was on hold each time for over 30 minutes....when I do finally get a human to answer she tells me to call back in 30 minutes and then changes that to call back in an hour.  I went online to rectify it....and paid them from my bank acct...so now..they have 2 payments for February and aren;t acknowleging either one.  Now they have been paid twice and they still are making the robo calls...our frustrations were getting out of hand...and the sad part for me...is that I caused the whole thing because I was too busy ignoring the pile of bills.......finally yesterday they said they got both payments...and now march is covered too.....all because I was not taking care of business like I have for the last 51 years.  My first ever overdue bill...and believe me....it didn't go well.  Lesson learned for me...take care of business.  

For months now...I have been out of sorts, I'm not sure exactly what that means...I just know...that I am not being my best me..

I know what I want....and I spend my time fighting against getting it....I guess that is considered self sabotage, OR...am I just unwilling to give up what I want in the moment for the longer gain?????

I watched a new "MY 600 POUND LIFE PROGRAM"  last night, it was about Robert...an over 800 pound man who over time became disabled by his weight and then his addiction to pain killers...........dilaudid specifically..........His mother and his fiancee of 13 years waited on him hand and foot....while being hospitalized he got down to the 500's....( no weight loss surgery, but removal of a huge lymphedema and low cal 1,200 diet)......he wanted pain killers...they refused.....he begged, made up reasons why he needed them...refused to walk......and finally died.....it had an impact on me.....he didn't have a heart attack when he was over 800 pounds...he had it when he was at 500 pounds and wanted his drugs so bad..he lost the will to live....his fiancee who really loved him started getting angry when he became mouthy to her in his desire for the drug he couldn't have...it all fell apart when no ones needs were met...her need was apparently to wait on an invalid who thanked her.......his needs were met when he was laying there helpless and having everyone do EVERYTHING for him....his mothers needs were met by still being a mother that is needed. And finally it all really in the end was about his drug of choice...a prescribed painkiller...that he no longer could get his hands on.

While I am not relying on any drug other than an occassional tylenol......I get it.....it's about what ultimately meets our needs at the moment.  I'm guilty of instant gratification...while wanting something that instant gratification won't get me.......we are all different....yesterday I found out that if a person has breast cancer..than eating asparagus can make it spread...WHAT!!!!

It all makes me wonder if I am just chasing a rainbow................maybe I just need to put all of the what ifs...and should dos aside...and do what I had done for so many years that worked for me....somewhere along the line I got sidetracked and left my own natural insticts behind.....I began to read magazines with diets in them...basically all the same....I began to watch tv programs about health and weight loss.........and while I believe there are many people that thrive doing these things...they aren't me...........I love the support here......you guys are like old friends.......but I need to stop dwelling on food....( it's just me)......somewhere along the way I lost myself.........and I need to find me again.........and I think what I really need to do for myself is to turn off media, put the books away, reassess who I really am and just relax for awhile........I will be back when I find myself again........I'm taking a sabatical and reconnecting with who I really am...and hopefully I will be back a better person. I just didn't want to drop off without an explanation.......I will return.

 

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 03/01/2018:
It is very easy to get overly ambitious on our journeys to our weight/size goals and in the meanwhile be missing out on living and enjoying our daily lives, I know. The scale number or the certain size we want to be takes over our thoughts and we fail to 'smell the roses' or 'smell the coffee' each day. We lose interest in things not connected to our attaining our goals and this is so not healthy for us. We need to live 'balanced' lives. To me, this means always putting God first. It means doing what we can for others, be it our families or friends or neighbors or whoever the 'others' are that God puts in our lives. I believe it also includes ourselves. Because if we don't take good care of ourselves, how can we take good care of others? Yes, take a break but you will be missed. I enjoy reading your journal. Take good care of yourself. Keep smiling. :-) Maria


horn_of_plenty on 03/01/2018:
You'll be missed but even I lately seem to want a break...but i am enjoying the support these days...

But yes, the balanced meals approach always helps with carbs,fat,protein at every meal. that's why i am not a big supporter of very low carb diets! ...and why i'm really enjoying this buffet across the street bc i have a nice amount of carbs to choose from along with variety of veggies and meats EVERY DAY...well, while i'm here at this office...lol

You'll be missed...keep on discovering what works for you...balance is always key.


innerpeace on 03/02/2018:
I hope you find what your are looking for! You will be missed but I totally understand. Good luck on your sabbatical.


Donkey on 03/03/2018:
I miss you already! But I agree, you have to find what works for you. I would encourage you to come back when you're ready. It doesn't have to be all food and menus. Have you noticed that most of my entries are about the emotional and internal struggles I have? LOL...

Maria is 100% about leading a balanced life. Sometimes I can tell when I'm centered and balanced. Or rather -- I can REALLY tell when I'm off-balance!


bearcountrygg on 03/03/2018:
I guess it didn't take long for me to miss you guys!!!!



BearCountryGG - Wednesday Feb 28, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

Up and ice is melting.....and D is going out looking for bob cat tracks today....sadly...our Mama deer was hit by a car in front of our house yesterday...she was such a sweetie...and looked out so well for her 2 youngsters.....( one was especially bonded to her and always wanted to be touching her)...I'm sure they are so confused now...but D says they are definataely old enough to take care of themselves...so that is good .  We are looking forward to seeing the youngsters here soon.....hopefully.  

Nasty reflux last night...so I will need to figure out something about snacking in the evening.....it's always something.

No choice today...I HAVE to go get groceries ( perishables)......I've been home so long I don't even want to go....I can get like this...I honestly think that I could turn into a agoraphobic very easily..................odd how if I go out regularly...it's not a problem...but....cabin fever hasn't set in yet...and I seriously do not want to go.....just call me a hermit....or is that no better than an agoraphoibic.......probably the same thing.

 

coffee

1 fried egg

1 sausage patty

bagel

butter

cheese

ice cream

nuts

toppings for the ice cream...I was like a crazed person...searching...UGH!!!!!

1/2 bottle kombucha

I'm well aware that when I'm spending my day thinking about dieting...that it just makes me want food more....I feel like I'm in some kind of brain loop....that never ends.

I'm thinking it's time for me to stop dwelling on weight loss....been in this frame of mind recently and it feels like an internal battle that will never end........

Maybe I just need to give myself a pass and stop thinking about it.......

2:30

salad with skinny girl dressing

2 bites spare rib

another bagel with butter

Not even bothering to count cals today

No food this evening...going to bed hungry...maybe even early....just drinking water.

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/28/2018:
That's so sad about Momma Deer... no words.

I get that way about stepping out too. That's why I need to have something outside of myself to do - daily if possible. Otherwise, the desire to just stay home creeps up until it's a major obstacle to overcome.

bearcountrygg on 02/28/2018:
It was nice to get out...but..I really did not want to go.


horn_of_plenty on 02/28/2018:
yes, sorry to hear about the deer.

i feel same as donkey...if you stop going out, it becomes a problem. same for me.

bearcountrygg on 02/28/2018:
Makes me wonder if I stay home too long....that maybe the next step would be not getting out of bed...that is scary!


horn_of_plenty on 02/28/2018:
yes, that's why you have to keep on....grrrr....lol


Maria7 on 02/28/2018:
Glad that you were able to get out and get your fresh foods. Btw I did go to the store yesterday and got my low-cal, low-fat snacks. Today I'm still at 155, so happy about that. Had I continued eating like I was doing I would have been gaining weight. Sorry to hear about the Mama deer. Sad. Hope the babies are okay. Hope you have a good evening.

bearcountrygg on 02/28/2018:
I'm glad that your bad day didn't affect you weight...that's great news.....and now you have the better things in the house it will be easier.


Donkey on 02/28/2018:
What you said about thinking about dieting/food all day really hit home --- that is EXACTLY the rut I've been in lately. I *feel* like I think about food ALL.THE.TIME. And if it's not food, then I'm thinking about hourly steps (a la FitBit).

So while sometimes I stay in check -- and sometimes I don't, i.e. this past weekend -- thinking about food and being paranoid about step counts is something I do NOT want for myself and for this journey. I promised myself that this time was going to be different and permanent. I owe it to myself to keep this promise.

bearcountrygg on 03/01/2018:
I'm afraid life is passing by and when I die......I will feel like I wasted it worrying/obsessing about something that wasn't worth it.



BearCountryGG - Tuesday Feb 27, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

 House cleaning day.........what can I say...boring but it has to be done.

Breakfast

coffee 9

1 sausage patty 88

1 fried egg 92

1 slice toasted oatmeal bread 86

spray butter 0

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Lunch

Nutrisystem sesame Ginger Chicken with rice and veggies 240

1 cup lettuce = 7

1 cup blueberries (from frozen) 79

Cinnamon applesauce ( 2 small containers) 194

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Dinner

Pacific organic red pepper and tomato soup 110

B4Y dried green beans 3 servings in bag and plan to eat whole bag 420

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snack

BAI cocofusion drink 10

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Total for the day = 1,334

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/27/2018:
Your day looks like it's off to a good start!

bearcountrygg on 02/27/2018:
Yes it is Donkey, protein/carb/fat meals keep my glucose stable...and take away my need for sugar to balance.....kinda like keeping the chickens in the hen house so I don't have to chase them all over the yard...LOL


Maria7 on 02/27/2018:
Do you have chickens? I am asking because I have been pondering getting some. We had them when I was growing up and it was nice to always have fresh eggs.

bearcountrygg on 02/27/2018:
Nope...no chickens...just a reference to dealing with my low blood sugar before it starts instead of trying to deal with it after it goes haywire. One son has chickens...and they love them though...so I do go visit my grandchickens sometimes...LOL


Donkey on 02/27/2018:
Seems to me that today turned out to be very well balanced :-)

bearcountrygg on 02/28/2018:
Yes it was.....and it went very well....looks like the new normal.



BearCountryGG - Monday Feb 26, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

Well...the cold seemed to be getting better and then this morning it got worse again as if it started all over again, laryngitis, sneezing , coughing...not sure what is up with that.  

D heading for his orthopedic surgeons and I will keep busy around here.

Yesterday I worked on keeping glucose numbers up with a protein/carb/fat combo  for meals...and it worked.....no dips in numbers at all.......so apparently this is where I have been going wrong............

Technically...I'm not a large quantity eater...and have always been one to have very small meals in total...I don't believe that I have ever stretched my stomach out too much ................so bulking up meals has never been needed.....and many times...just having a salad has ended up being all I really wanted......I will now have to figure ot how to get that protein/carb/fat aspect into a meal and include fruits and veggies too at the same time.......

I will say it was really nice yesterday not having to down sugar and check glucose levels until they got into the safe zone...I'm hoping that this will take care of my issues with that.

BREAKFAST

coffee

1 egg

 1 toast

butter

Planned Lunch

salad (very sm)(with a full fat dressing)

chicken

rice

blueberries

DINNER

soup and crackers

 

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/26/2018:
you don't go to the drs with D? he goes alone? i guess once he has his surgery you'll become tied up to him then....

love seeing blueberries!

fruit was on sale this week...and i recently discovered that the supermarket that's bigger with more selection also had HUGE sales compared to the smaller one closer to me...so i'm thinking i should make a habit of visiting the far one on the weekend! seriously the small grape (or cherry) tomatoes were $1 packages at the big store and like $2.99 at the small store...i was like...i just wasted so much money! but i wasn't going back to return them...(i went to the smaller store first and the bigger one second...)

i didn't want to waste time doing returns.

bearcountrygg on 02/26/2018:
No I don't usually go to the drs with him...but I will be going lots of places with him now....surgery scheduled for April 17th and I will be his chauffeur for a few weeks..... And the bigger stores buy more at a time so they pay less and you pay less......definitely go to the bigger stores when you can.



BearCountryGG - Sunday Feb 25, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

I got up this morning and had breakfast and went back to bed for another hour...and still can't wake up...so I guess it's going to be a sleepy day.  

D sees his orthopedic surgeon tomorrow to set up his knee replacement surgery....so there is that to think about this spring .  6 to 8 weeks recovery and physical therapy and that is his driving leg so my guess is that I will be his chaufeur.  And that also makes me the dog kennel caretaker.......looks like that will be our spring this year.

We were both super hungry this morning ( I actually forgot to eat one meal yesterday so I figure that is why for me)...so we had a big breakfast of toast, scrambled eggs with cheese and sausage.....( Blood sugar numbers are holding for both of us)....and I'm still full...so lunch will have to be a lot lighter for me....but I am drinking coconut milk...and loving that.

D informs me that his knee keeps wanting to bend backwards...so if I see him outside on the ground that is why........UGH!

Looks like the protein/carb/fat combo is helping the glucose numbers...and since it had been  over 6 hours since I had eaten...I decided to eat lunch even though I wasn't very hungry...so smaller servings.....since eating frequently can be a help too.  Not counting calories for now....currently working on stabilizing glucose.

Breakfast

coffee, toast,spray butter, scrambled eggs with cheese, sausage

Lunch

lettuce and croutons with ranch, steak, mac and cheese and blueberries

Snack

coconut water

 

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/25/2018:
I have 2 cans of coconut milk in the pantry... Is that the same thing? Probably not, I'm guessing.

Start making plans about the knee surgery now. One thing that surprised me was just how much work was involved in taking care of my husband after hip surgery. I did not realize it, because one doesn't necessarily think about all that we do on a daily basis -- that we take this for granted. Good to wait for Spring though, so that you're not dealing with nasty weather on top of everything else.

I've commented on your comment to me on my diary...

bearcountrygg on 02/25/2018:
I've been drinking BAI coconut drink.....and it's good...I also have some of the canned coconut things in the cupboard...that I'm going to try in coffee or on chicken I think. Spring is something we chose because of the roads.....he won't be driving for awhile and I don't like the ice..I figure I will be waiting on him for awhile.


horn_of_plenty on 02/26/2018:
Coconut milk or coconut water!?

Coconut milk is extremely high cal, coconut water is low cal like a potassium sports drink the coconut water is.

good luck with the knee sitution like Donkey says it sounds like a big deal but i have had a coworker get better after it...he does a lot of walking again now.

bearcountrygg on 02/26/2018:
BAI cocnut water...says it's an antioxidant...10 cals for bottle



BearCountryGG - Saturday Feb 24, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

Well...it looks like everyone is up and HAPPY today!!!  ( Me included)......I'm really congested ( head and lungs)...but I'm feeling good regardless.......today is a cleaning out the fridge day!!!   So meals will be wonky!   I'm okay with that...I enjoy random eating!!

Breakfast was funny...I layed out a bunch of random things and leftovers from the fridge and  told D to choose what he wanted.....I wasn't even hungry at that time...so I waited......he chose biscuits...a little leftover sausage gravy and 3 fried eggs....he left the table  a happy guy.  Later...I pulled out the hash browns that he didn't want...and fixed those...and  a pkt of instant oatmeal along with my coffee....high carb and that is ok with me.

Last night I googled ( actually it was BING)...."Getting my life in order"......( looking for motivation to get off my butt actually) and for something to just look up and research....and printed out 2 lists....

1.  50 Ways To Get Your Life In Order........................( not all 50 apply to me)

2.  7 Little Habits That Can Change Your Life And How To Form Them

Since today will not be a cooking day but instead more of a heating up leftovers day.....I plan to read the new ideas that I printed out...and get busy working my way through the new motivational changes.

The fridge needs a good scrubbing...the kitchen cupboards need to be restocked from our prepper pantry....LOL...Kind of like living in a grocery store....by the way...the Prime Pantry free trial at Amazon ran out and I made good use of it right until the end....and their boxes are super nice...very strong and useful....and while we do run out of perishables....and need to shop for those in person...the canned and dry goods are plentiful here and Schwans keeps the freezer full...so I still do not have to go shopping...and that's good...I don't want to give anyone my germs and I sure don't need theirs.  I think I have enough laundry detergent, garbae bags, paper towels, kleenex and  TP to last a year...and I LOVE IT!!!!

Drinking coconut water and really enjoying it.....and had to get some quick sugar in...so there is that.  

I think it's time for me to do some research on keeping my glucose numbers level...maybe I need to eat some particular thing hourly or something....this sudden dropping is annoying to say the least.

Just realized I had missed lunch...LOL....after researching how to keep glucose steady....I did run ito something that I put to use this afternoon.....the suggestion was fat/carb/protein...so I had spaghetti with meatballs and tomato sauce...that was already in the fridge...and so far...so good.

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/24/2018:
Our fridge is almost empty so today will be a shopping day. I find a full refrigerator to be a comfort to me. Not stuffed, but just full enough.

bearcountrygg on 02/24/2018:
me too!


Donkey on 02/25/2018:
I was just thinking, after reading your update, that focusing on controlling hypoglycemia should/could/might be a higher priority than anything else. That is to say, get it under control and everything else with eating/exercise will fall into place?

bearcountrygg on 02/25/2018:
I think so too Donkey...I think it might have been you that mentioned protein before......and while protein does not raise my glucose ( seems that only sugar does that)...apparently eating protein and fat with a carb...will maintain it better....so we had a protein heavy, fat, bread breakfast and it's been really good....so protein is more about the maintaining. So far...no dips in glucose...



BearCountryGG - Friday Feb 23, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

Still just a sheet of ice here...schoolss closed.......I am so looking forward to spring this year.......still feeling punky...cold is just hanging on.....not too interested in eating but doing it anyway.

breakfast, coffee, sausage, biscuit

Lunch,1/2 of a pork chop, potato, radishes, cookie

swedish fish candy. polar water 

coconut water, cliff bar, jalapeno cheetos,2 fun size candy bars

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!


BearCountryGG - Thursday Feb 22, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

Up and drinking coffee.........just appears to be a head/chest cold.......annoying but not life stopping today.....drippy, congested but still functioning.  Will still be able to function today thankfully ...2 boxes arriving today so will stay home anyway...so good day to get some sorting done.  We have a neighbor man who is literally trying to take us over...he is in his 70's and comes over and tells us what to do...he arrives with his tractor and sand and proceeds to do what he wants here...goes into the barn and moves things around...he actually gets a chair and tells Denny to sit down....he will take over...LOL...I don't know if he has alzheimers or if he has always been that way but we don't want to hurt his feelings yet...this IS OUR HOUSE....he drives by and stops at the driveway hoping to see one of us....I know he is lonely...but he has already pulled the same things on the neighbors...who have apparently told him he is crazy....(his words)...........I seriously don't know rather to feel sorry for him...or be afraid of him.

Goal to stay under 1,500 calories

coffee, biscuit and sausage gravy

cliff bar

Whole wheat spaghetti with meatballs/tomato sauce

swedish fish gummies

blueberries

perrier water

V8 vegetable juice

tuna and crackers

 

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 02/22/2018:
Sounds like he means well and is trying to be helpful in his own way. Hope you feel better soon.

bearcountrygg on 02/22/2018:
He does like to give things away...but he will never let us give him anything....I do think he means well...but boy is he bossy....LOL


horn_of_plenty on 02/22/2018:
that neighbor sounds nuts, maybe contact police no?

bearcountrygg on 02/22/2018:
I do think he has mental issues...but he hasn't threatened us in any way....just seems to want to run everyone on the street......he isn't healthy and says he is ready to die...his only child died of a heart attack less than 2 years ago...I do think there is depression at play....so far we are just tolerating him but D is getting mighty tired of being bossed around...LOL.....we actually avoid him when we can.....last summer D mentioned to him that I was getting a new car...he told D that I had to get silver...D said I wanted Blue...and the guy threw a fit ( I got blue and he didn't talk to us for 3 months...LOL)



BearCountryGG - Wednesday Feb 21, 2018
(Non negotiable dieting rather I like it or not)
Weight: 222.2

Lovely day...NOT.......Woke up sick with laryngitis and cold symptoms and that explains the swollen glands..hot flashes and chills.and flooding is a thing!

Furiously pumping water from the buildings...and the neighbors are doing the same....flooding on top of ice...interesting..........and now sick.............UGH!  

Going back to bed...somehow I don't thing staying within calories today will be a problem.

Still feeling crummy.....todays cals under 1,500

Just ate what sounded good

coffee

waffle with spray butter and syrup

cheese and crackers

100 calorie pack

 Hot chocolate

sparkling mineral water

lots of sleeping and sitting around

Flooding still an issue...we now have a pond that we never had before...and the next door neighbor keeps pumping the same water over and over again at his house.....he doesn't get it...in the spring we will all need to get some excavation done...so this doesn't happen again..had this place for 13 years and this is a first......

 

Progress as of today: 33.2 lbs lost so far, only 77.2 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 02/21/2018:
Hope you feel better as the day goes along. Sorry to hear about the flooding. Rest and feel better.

bearcountrygg on 02/21/2018:
Looks like a problem bug .....flooding still going on.


horn_of_plenty on 02/21/2018:
Get well soon BCGG - being sick is so stinky.

i'm trying to continue to feel well...big change again for me regarding work location which is definitely stressing me out. just a lot of change and my legs are beginning to burn and just my whole body feels tired...waiting to take a few days off in March and when April comes, i'll also take some days off then.

bearcountrygg on 02/21/2018:
Oh boy...another work move again eh? Maybe this one will be nicer. And right..being sick is a pain.



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