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CharlieAngel - Tuesday Oct 07, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Another day, another crisis. So, what else is new? HR won't let Eddy go back to work. Despite his doctor and the company doctor approving him to go back, HR says not until he is 100%. Duh! He will never be 100%. Even if he gets a new kidney, he will be on meds for the rest of his life and there is always the rejection factor. But, what did I expect? His short term disability has run its course, we were denied SSI because apparently I make too much money. Now we will have to wait and see if he gets approved for long term disability and that may take several weeks. In the meantime, no money coming in. This is one of those times, if my life is a bowl full of cherries, I have been chomping on the pits.

And....bad, bad, girl....I cheated last night. I ate an egg roll. Let me tell you folks, it is not worth it. I tested my ketosis factor this morning. I went from large dark purple to pale pink in one egg roll. No more. I am back on the wagon. I also didn't make it WA. Eddy called me at 1:00 and he was so upset about them sending him home that I just took off the rest of the day and went home. We will get through this. We are survivors. I just wish that the bill collectors would stop making us feel like we are the low life scum of earth just don't want to pay our bills. Actually had one guy call Eddy a low life on the phone. Doesn't everyone have problems from time to time. Of course, this is a new feeling for us. We have always tried to pay all of our bills on time and up until last November we had excellent credit. Thank goodness we bought the house and my car before Ben starting screwing up so bad. Cripes! I need to get off this bummer trip I'm on. That's just life, stuff happens. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. This is just one of those bad times.

As far as the Lifestyle goes, I am back on track today. I had a ham and cheese omelet for breakfast. Lunch will be probably a piece of chicken and a small salad. Dinner is whatever, as long as it is low carb. Try to get back that deep purple on the keto sticks.

Good news. Eddy's mom and dad leave in the morning. I can have my house back. I can clean it up and keep it clean. Yeah!!!!

Have a good day! Be blessed.

pastagal on 10/07/2003:
I don't know how you deal with so much stress,,,but you do and for that i want to tell you "Pravo",,,you hang in there,,everything happens for a reason and you will get through this crisis,,and don't give up on your lifestyle change,that is one thing no one can control for you or dictate to you,You can and will succeed:}}

legcramp on 10/07/2003:
legcramp was here ;)

TheMother on 10/07/2003:
Dear CA:

You are such a trooper and you're right when you say you are a survivor. I can feel it in your words that you have strong convictions and faith. I'm sorry to hear that your hubby's company will not let him work. It's a shame when you have someone who wants to work and they won't let him. Usually you hear about those who don't want to work but would rather collect unemployment.

It's great the in-laws are leaving and your house can be the way you want it once again.

Hang in there...

breakaway on 10/07/2003:
SOrry to hear about hubby's work! Your right, it will all work out in the end but god sure know's how to test us doens't he! Hope your week goes well and good luck getting that dark purple color again! Have a great day!

CharlieAngel - Monday Oct 06, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Wow! Thanks for all the comments, the advice and the empathy. As far as MIL goes, there is nothing that I have not tried. She just is very self centered and does exactly as she pleases without thought to others needs or desires. They are perfectly aware of our current situation, both financial and otherwise. They do not eat the same foods as we do. Much of our diet is dictated by Eddy's kidney disease. But, whenever they come, I have to go grocery shopping for them. Which I ended up doing this weekend. She also broke her arm about 4 months ago and needed me to do everything for her. They are staying until Wednesday. If you want to know more, then go back and read some of my earlier entries, I had a much bigger problem coping with her. I just had to make my peace with the fact that she is what she is and after almost 26 years of being married to her son, I am not going to change her or her feelings toward me. Now I just try to deal with it as best I can. But, it does help to come here and vent. At least you all are non-judgemental. All in all, this too shall pass.

On a more positive note. I have had two weeks of successful low carbing. I did cheat slightly last night, but, hey, it could have been worse. I had a slice of cantalope, but I made a peach cobbler for dessert, so I'm thinking that the cantalope was the lesser offense. I even took MIL to the movies on Sunday...and by-passed the popcorn and did not even look longingly at her Nachos. Of course, exercise amounted to NADA, ZIP, ZILCH! Unless you count grocery shopping, a 7 hour excursion to the Public library, Cooking 3 meals a day and cleaning up after. For those of you that don't know, I am a naturalized citizen of the USA. Until I was 9 I lived exclusively in Germany with my mom and her family. My mom is a typical German Hausfrau. She loves to be a housewife. She loves cleaning and cooking and sewing and gardening. I did not inherit the love of cleaning gene. I did, however, inherit the need for clean gene. My house is always clean. Whenever MIL comes to visit, it looks like an explosion took place in the house. Add to that the fact that she brings her two dogs, one of which is old and poops everywhere, and I just feel yucky in my own home when she is here. I feel like I have lost control of my environment. It's not as bad as going to her house though, you can't even imagine the clutter and mess and collectibles that catch the dust. I can never relax there. But, Wednesday will be here before you know it and at least I can go to work and stay for WA today....that should put me home at around 7 p.m. tonight. That's one more day down.

So let's move on. Today is Eddy's first day back at work. Unfortunately I won't get to see him until 8 tonight because he goes straight to dialysis after work. I hope he is doing ok. I still don't know if this is a good idea, but we shall see.

As for me, I have stuck to my guns with this eating plan. Today so far I have had coffee, a hard boiled egg and beef jerky. For lunch I brought about 6 chicken wings and 1 thin slice pork chop, salad and sugar free jello for dessert. I passed up the donuts in the break room. Yeah Me!!!! Dinner tonight will be parchment baked Talapia and squash with onions and peppers, butter and garlic. Yumm!!! I have been doing the under 20 carb thingy for two weeks. This week I allowing myself 25 carbs per day. I even found some low carb whole wheat tortillas...I can make breakfast tacos!!! Yeah. They come out to be 2 carbs per tortilla after you subtract the fiber content....9 whole grams.

Anyway, lunch time walk is out. It is raining. I may run over to the library and just check out what they got. I also need to buy some paint so that I can repaint my dining room chairs. I will take that money out of my lunch money for this week. We are also going to paint the floor in the dining room and hallways because we pulled up the carpet thinking we were going to tile it, but then financial emergency struck again. So, I thought I would paint the floor a lovely taupe color and do a stenciled border until we can afford to tile it. Then I am going to make some new seat cushions and a new tablecloth with the material my mom sent me. Blue Gingham check. Then I still need to get the courage to cut down the white lace curtains my grandmom sent me for the den. They will be the inner curtains topped with Navy drapes, but they were so expensive I am almost afraid to cut them. I may just have to wait until my mom comes for a visit to do that, because I would rather have Grandmom mad at her than me...;-) So, I really do have lots to accomplish in the next few weeks. I am going to have a houseful for Thanksgiving. The inlaws, some friends, some of the boys friends. But, that should be a good time. We are doing kindof a pot luck thing. I am frying a turkey, MIL is baking one and Roxan is bringing a ham. I just want the house to look nice for that since it is the first time since we bought it that I am having a large group over.

Sheesh! I am rambling on today. Better get on with it and let you all get back to your days.

Again, Thanks to all that aided and comforted me this past week. You all ROCK!!!

Be Blessed!!!

phocust on 10/06/2003:
You have amazing will power! This weekend I tried these low carb frozen fudgecicle-type things -- they were fantatic! The carb count is 4 per bar. Most days I just ground up super-lean turkey meat and add in some seasoning. I'm currently an addict of canned-salmon (chilled in fridge) with mustard on top, or maybe a little sugar-free pickle relish.

If you ever are concerned that you aren't getting the fruits and vegetable you require, I am taking an awesome supplement called JuicePlus+ that contains all the vitamins and antioxidants of 17 fruits and vegetables. It's in capsule form. If you want more info, go to www.juiceplus.com. I can also send you some brochures/tapes in the mail.

Have a great week!

missy on 10/06/2003:
Sounds like a good idea for your floor. My son and I just put _very_ cheap laminate flooring from Costco down in the upstairs. I have a very small house. I could have spent a ton more $ on other flooring, but this stuff is great! We really like it. Sometimes simple things can be very nice, but it's not the first thing we think of until circumstances force us in that direction! Good luck with it. And great job with staying with the low-carb. I hope I do as well. :)

breakaway on 10/07/2003:
You sound so stressed out but still your doing great! That is awesome! Your a great inspiration for all of us. We can see that if we are in a stressfull cituation that is no excuse to splurge! Great job!

Hey, isn't it great to have pastagal back! I love it! Have a great day today!

starlight on 10/07/2003:
I remember reading your entries a long time ago, and about your nightmare MIL. I am SO SORRY you have to put up with that. I don't remember how your husband deals with it or if he even thinks there is a problem, but there is nothing wrong with telling self centered people how you feel. THEY are the one that is being rude, not you. I know there is not really anything to say, b/c you have tried every way of dealing with her. Just want to let you know we're here and we understand. You know, I wonder if she read your entries how she would feel to hear the flat out truth. Just a thought.

CharlieAngel - Friday Oct 03, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Honestly, I don't know how much longer I can keep this facade up. My life basically sucks. Every time I think we are going to crawl out of the hole, something comes up and smacks me right in the face. Our oldest son, Ben, came home for a few days to take his Jeep to the dealership because of a water leak. It is going to cost $1800 to fix it and it won't be ready until Tuesday. Problem is he has to be back in Palestine to work on Saturday. So, how do we fix this problem? We put the $1800 on a credit card (because he certainly doesn't have the money), we loan him Eddy's car to get back to East Texas, and we have to rent a car so that Eddy can start back to work on Monday morning. Then, to top it all off, Eddy's parents are coming down today. I don't have anything at all in the house that they will eat, I can't afford to go grocery shopping....hell, I can't even afford to pay my light bill this month. Keep in mind that we paid Ben's bills for 8 months after he lost his job....now we are getting called by bill collecters every day because the kid just doesn't get it. But, Eddy WILL take care of his boys....because that's what parents do. We keep bailing them out of situations. What I want to know is who the hell is going to bail us out? I don't think I can take it anymore. I feel weepy and just generally like I want to give up. What's the point. I keep trudging along and I am not getting anywhere but behind.

Man, that was depressing. Sorry folks, but I just don't have it in me today to be uplifting and happy. I have to gather all my emotional resources to deal with MIL this weekend. She is very draining to say the least. And, of course, Eddy will just nap away the weekend on the couch and we will all let him because he is sick afterall and he needs his rest, right? That was crappy of me, it just gets to me that I have all the responsibility for dealing with his family and all the associated guilt.

Don't mind me. I'll get over this. I hope!

Be Blessed

phocust on 10/03/2003:
When it rains, it pours - You are such a strong person in so many ways, I know you will make it through this storm too.

If you tell your mother/father in law that things are tough right now, then they won't expect a luxury weekend. They might even offer to help in some way - (?) never know.

If Ben is working, then set up a payment schedule each week for him to take a bit out of his paycheck to repay you for the car repairs. I've had to borrow $$ from my parents while I was in college. They really held me to the repayment schedule -- sure, it didn't leave me with extra money for fun stuff - but it taught me good lessons about budgeting money, etc. Parents can be there for their kids, but not a lonterm crutch. I'm only 23, but I am thankful that my parents gave me a kind of "tough love" lesson in finances. I never just "got" money from them, but in serious situations, they would give me a short-term loan with a timeline that I had to stick to. I worked at least 2 jobs and went to school -- believe me, it's not fun, but it IS possible.

good luck with the weekend ~ you can do it!

srchng4sknny on 10/03/2003:
I'm so sorry you're going through such a difficult time. Financial problems can really get you down, I know because we live paycheck to paycheck every single week. We also recently had some unexpected bills and it's difficult to get things like that paid off. Just stay positive, knowing you can pay it off a little at a time (thank God for credit!). I know it's difficult, but try not to stress out too much, try to "enjoy" your in-laws this weekend (ha, ha!), keep up your healthy habits, and remember, "This too shall pass"! You will be in my prayers!

BellaK on 10/03/2003:
Hi there -- Sounds like you have A LOT on your plate. And you have every right to feel overwhelmed and depressed. Things will get better I am SURE so hang in there my friend. Have a wonderful day! Bella

TheMother on 10/03/2003:
Dear CA:

My heart goes out to you! I can hear the desperation and frustration in your post. I'm sorry to hear of your son's troubles with his car. That seems like an awful lot to have the car repaired. Maybe he should get a second (or third) estimate. As for the in-laws, is it possible to ask them to postpone their visit and explain things are a little hectic right now? What about hubby - can't he ask his parents to stay home?

Not everyday is rosy. Some days are blah and we all have problems we need to deal with. It's called "life". It makes us appreciate the good days even more.

Please take care of yourself. I'm thinking of you and things have a way of working out.

Take care,


pollyanna005 on 10/03/2003:
Some days it all just seems like too much to deal with for another moment. I hope having us here helps you let off some frustration. Hang in there?

breakaway on 10/03/2003:
You know back about 15 years ago after my hubby and I got married we were just like your ben. We didn't get it at all. ANd of course we had to run to cory's parents for help all the time. If it wasn't for bounced checks it was for diapers etc. They gave us whatever we wanted. We were so relieved for them helping us so much but now we have used up most of our inherritance. It but a dent in their life and soon we finally "GOT IT" We realized that we DO have to do this on our own and we can't keep depending on the parents to bail us out anymore. We love them so much for helping and we no longer ask them for money but without them we wouldn't be where we are today. I know some people say don't do it but you know after being there I say that its a good investment becuase he will soon get it! He will always treasure the things you guys did for him and in return do it for his children. It takes the younger generation alot longer to get it then it used to doesn't it? Well, I feel you guys are doing the right thing and good will come out of it! Hang in there and I hope your money situation turns out ok. I know how hard that can be when your totally out of money and don't know where to turn next. I'm sure he will turn out to be a great man/father/husband and it will be because of you! Take care and try to have a great day today.

legcramp on 10/03/2003:
legcramp was here ;)

Crittermama on 10/03/2003:
(((((Charlotte))))) I know how you feel. My cupboards are empty and I can't afford to go to the grocery store- or pay my mortgage, electric bill, cell phone cill, car insurance (which was already cancelled), anything. I wish you luck and strength dealing with your MIL. I know it's tough for you- more than tough. You are strong. Don't give up. I know you will get through it. I'm walking backwards too but you can only go back so far. I also know about having to be responsible for everything. For it's kids, house, dh and my job. When dh can't find his stuff it's my fault. He's such a kid. Anyway good luck. Sending you lots of hugs and love.

Soon2BThin on 10/03/2003:
I know exactly what you're going through with your son. We have 2 that are kind of "that way" when it comes to money. We keep bailing them out but it just goes on and on. One is talking about filing bankruptcy and the other already has. I don't blame you at all for feeling so hopeless. And the MIL on top of it all?! I hope you make it through. You need a hug {{CharlieAngel}} Wish it could be in person.

squiggly on 10/04/2003:
Smile! It'll get better. I have found out that for every bad thing that happens something more wonderful will counteract it. Just hang in there and don't give up! How old is your son? Maybe, it's time to sit him down and talk to him about how he can start taking responsibility for his own bills. Help him that way instead of financially. I'm not one to speak about not helping kids out because my in-laws helped us out tremendously last year when my hubby lost his job. They helped us buy a house. They did get paid back every dime. I hope everything works out. Good luck! We all love ya!

Scruffy on 10/05/2003:

CharlieAngel - Wednesday Oct 01, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Blah day today. I feel like doodoo! If I didn't have so much darn work to do I would have called in. Am having the mega cramps and feeling slightly nauseous. Couldn't even finish my scrambled eggs this morning. Just wanted to barf! I definitely won't be able to do water aerobics today. May go walking at lunch. But, still sticking to the eating lo carb way. Last night I ended up just eating a piece of roast beef. Just wasn't hungry. Way tired though. Plus I was kinda ****y and Eddy just set me off the minute I walked in the house. So I removed myself from the situation and just went to my room. Man, will I be glad when these hormonal fluctuations stop swinging wildly from one extreme to another. Maybe I will just take it easy today on the exercise and get back at it tomorrow. I just took 3 midol and am drinking some nice soothing raspberry tea.

To answer some questions from the comment gallery: No, I am not an attorney. I am a paralegal working for the Air Force. I administer the Labor program. Basically deal with lots of disgruntled civilian employees. Our office represents the Air Force, so I am not the most popular person around, but, hey, if you could see some of these complaints. They border on the frivilous. I really understand that there is a feeling of glass ceilingdom in the agency, but I don't think filing discrimination complaints because you got an 8 instead of a 9 on your annual evaluation is really going to help you get ahead. BLAH, BLAH, BLAH! Sorry to go on about that but so few of the complaints that come across my desk are really meaningful and have merit. The system is set up so that it takes an act of God to get a dead weight employee out of the system. They can tie the agency up for years, wasting tax payer money on the appeal process....

Eddy is doing ok. He is still waiting for a kidney. He starts back to work on Monday. We shall see. He is still tired all the time and 3 of his meds cause dizziness and/or drowsiness, but the doctor signed his go back to work papers, so he must be able to!

Other than that, my life is pretty darn boring. We work,go home, do our second jobs, go to bed, get up and start over. Aren't we just the lucky ones?

Anyway...this is my TOM making me talk like this....I am normally a sweet and basically contented person....just not when I'm in pain.

Hope you all have successful and fulfilling days.

Be Blessed!

BellaK on 10/01/2003:
Is it amazing what those hormones can do to us?! LOL It's like we are different people! At least it only hits us a couple of days a month - haha! I hope you day goes well! Take care, Bella

phocust on 10/01/2003:
I hope you feel better soon!

DEATH TO TOM!! :) ha ha

starlight on 10/01/2003:
Go airforce! (and navy too, sorry :)

malh on 10/01/2003:
grrrrrrrrrrr at TOM....I hate that, esp. when I get super bitchy and can see myself doing it, but keep on doing it. Sounds like you have a full plate of stress there but are dealing with it, hoping that walk at noon helps you.

garlic on 10/01/2003:
We women are entitled to bitch when our cycle permits. It's the people that chronically complain all month long that are the sad one. You are always showing in your entries for contentment with life. You seem like a really nice person. So bitch away!!!! Not sure Eddie would give you this go-ahead but I do!!! (hee hee)

Soon2BThin on 10/01/2003:
You take care of yourself and don't worry about the exercise. Plenty of time to get back to that later. I really feel sorry for you with those cramps. I used to have them really bad every month. Hopefully, now that I'm on different hormones, I won't have to bother with that TOM any more. Hope you have a nice relaxing evening.

Scruffy on 10/02/2003:
Sounds terrible, but being a guy, never had that problem :-)

CharlieAngel - Tuesday Sep 30, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Goodness gracious! I have been trying to get on here folks! Truly I have! It was impossible to find even a moment yesterday. This is the first opportunity I have found today. So, I'll make this quick!

I stuck to my plan all weekend, including the potluck on Friday after WA. So far I have been good this week. I have not cheated once. Yeah me!!! It is getting easier. I have been drinking lots of water because I am thirsty all the time. I walked at lunch yesterday and went to water aerobics last night. I also was visited by TOM yesterday morning...so will have to play Wednesday by ear. I may or may not walk today. It depends on if I get all the phone calls I am expecting before lunch. I have to ensure that all the witnesses show up for the hearing on Tuesday next. So, work comes first today. I had bacon and eggs for breakfast...lunch is tuna salad on a bed of lettuce. Dinner will be grilled chix and a salad.

Hope you are all having just wonderful days. The view outside my window is absolutely gorgeous. Bright blue sky and puffy white clouds just lazily floating by. It was 61 degrees this morning when I drove in to work...that's practically winter here!!!

Take care and stay strong and comitted to your goals.

Be Blessed

starlight on 09/30/2003:
Sounds like you are doing great.BTW Are you an attorney? Anyways, have a great rest of the day and keep up that upbeat attitude! Kim

Scruffy on 09/30/2003:
Wish I was there, but was nice visiting here :-)

breakaway on 10/01/2003:
I know...way to cold here to! But beats 90 degrees that's for sure. Your doing VERY VERY well and you deserve credit for that! Glad you found some time to make it here and tell us about your day. Have a great day and hope to see you tomorrow

CharlieAngel - Friday Sep 26, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Wow! I am amazed at myself. Yesterday was another really good day. I even did great last night which is a minor miracle I tell you! Really, it is! Beau cooked dinner for Gabrielle his "best friend" and he made schnitzel and red cabbage, mashed potatoes and hunter gravy with mushrooms, onions and bell peppers, a lovely salad with romaine and a homemade vinaigrette and bolillo rolls, and topped it all off with a German Chocolate cake. I, however, had two very thin grilled pork chops and salad!!! Drank water and had some sugar free jello for dessert. As I said, AMAZING!!!

I also managed to do a half hour work-out on the weights. Go me!

This morning so far I have had two eggs over easy, bacon and coffee. For lunch I brought tuna, salad, cheese and more water. I am drinking a cup of herbal tea as I am typing this. Tonight I have water aerobics and then we are having a pot luck. I made oriental green beans to take and I am sure that there will be some low carb stuff there. Let's just pray that it stops raining. Monday we will be moving back to the indoor pool so it won't be such an issue but I just really want to walk at lunch today and then work out in the water tonight and it looks totally yuck outside.

So that's the plan folks. I hope that I will make it through the weekend. That is always my most difficult hurdle. There I am at the house and I get bored and so I look for ways to appease the boredom, and hey, the refridgerator is more riveting than the tv sometimes. But, I will make an extreme effort to stick with it....5 whole days of low carbing. That is a total achievement for me a carb addict!

Hope you all have spectacularly successful days and great weekends. Just keep telling yourself "I AM SO WORTH IT!"

Be Blessed!

ThinLee on 09/26/2003:
You are worth it! Keep up the great job!

legcramp on 09/26/2003:
You're doing really well!! Keep it up over the weekend, and you'll feel great about being able to stick to the plan!!

legcramp ;)

curlsncuffs on 09/26/2003:
Hooray! You can do it - great choices.

I always think: Will this food taste as good as being thin feels! Nope!

malh on 09/26/2003:
Very good willpower. I can feel it through the computer screen. And yes "we are all worth it"

breakaway on 09/26/2003:
I love reading your entries...always doing well and I know if I come here I can really get some inspiration for myself! What willpower you have! Great job and yes you are SO worth it! I bet hubby is totally proud of you! I know mine is proud of me and I don't intend to let him down any time soon.

CharlieAngel - Thursday Sep 25, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Hi gang! Sorry so late today. These people at this office will certainly miss me when I'm gone...not that I am leaving, but I have actively been seeking other employment. I am so tired of being the only responsible person. Everyone else seems to spend their days looking for ways to get out of work. I can't get my work done for anwering the phones some days and we have 6 people working the front counter that are supposed to answer the phones. We also have a rule that if it rings more than 3 times....just pick it up. It rings more than 3 times constantly....but, hey, Charlotte, the go to girl is here so fogettaaboudit..... Sorry for the rant, but sheesh, what happened to the work ethic in this country. Sadly, most of the people that I am talking about are active duty military. It seems to me that political correctness has taken alot of the discipline out of the military.

Enough about that....I am here to brag on myself again. Yesterday was another gold star day. I walked at lunch. I went swimming....very brisk and invigorating...for dinner I had grilled chix and green beans and I drank lotsa water....bottles of it.

Today I have had two fried eggs and some sausage for breakfast. I had a couple of beef jerky sticks (1 carb each) since I got here and then for lunch at the club I just had two pieces of baked chicken and a salad with lettuce, cucumbers, broccoli, cheese and bacon bits and a sprinkle of sunflower seeds with ranch dressing. Drank 4 glasses of water and had a cup of coffee with cream and equal. I am back at my desk now and just have been working non stop and witnessing wills because the folks at the front are nowhere to be found. Sigh....

So I have been struggling to maintain the smile thing today...to top it all off, I was 9/10 of the way through mandatory computer time keeper training when one of the attorney's came and asked me to do an envelope (he is not even in my section) and I told him to give me a few minutes to complete this and he decided he needed it done right away...so he reached over my shoulder and hit a button on my keyboard and the whole damn screen went black and the computer froze and when I finally got back to the test, it was gone.....some people....have no manners!!!

But, this too shall pass! Don't mind me today. I will be back to my cheerful, no problem, self tomorrow!!!

Be Blessed

legcramp on 09/25/2003:
Good work!! You're doing great, even though it's 'one of those days' at work. But it doesn't seem to be getting you down, so, you GO girl!!

Have a great day today!

breakaway on 09/25/2003:
COngrats on your great day today! Even though work sucked for you. I hope that tomorrow will be a better day at work and another GREAT day on your diet! Have a wonderful day today.

Indievegan on 09/26/2003:
It's great that you find the time to exercise. It's so hard when you work!! Keep up the good work in both your fitness regime and at your job!!

restellastarr on 09/26/2003:
Hello again, dear Charlotte. Do you remember your old friend StellaStarr? I hope so. It is so great to read you here and see how active you are these days and enthusiastic. AND, it is such great news that you are sort of job hunting! I wish you success in every way. Love, C.

CharlieAngel - Wednesday Sep 24, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Howdy folks!

Well yesterday was another good day. I stuck to my low carb menu all day. I had a snack yesterday afternoon of pork skins and lo carb salad dressing...yumm. Last night I had steak and a salad and green beans. I walked for 30 minutes at lunch time. I would have gone longer but I was attacked by gnats and after walking with my arms waving like windmills for 30 minutes, I was pretty much done.

Today so far I have had a ham, egg and cheese scramble, and a cup of java with cream and sweet and lo. Since being here, I have had a 24 ounce bottle of water and a stick of beef jerky. For lunch I brought salad and some leftover steak. Dinner tonight will be grilled chix and a pepper salad. I have not felt hungry since starting this program. I do FEEL thinner although it is not reflected on the scale as yet. But, I am determined to stick to this for at least 2 weeks...no cheating. I CAN DO THIS!! Lunch will be another walk. Then face the frigid arctic waters of the Chapperel pool.

I think I may be going through menopause (sorry guys) I have been having hot flashes like no one's business. Then I freeze. Then I get hot again and sweat like crazy and then ten minutes later.....its chilly willy time again. This sucks. Damn Eve for eating that apple...oh, well, this too shall pass.

Thanks for all the positive comments. I am trying to put on a happy face everyday. It really annoys me when people bring their problems to work and are unable or unwilling to do their jobs because of "stuff" going on at home. Now I am not saying that you have to be Suzie Sunshine every moment of every day but, hey, it really does help to at least "try" to be cheerful.

Have a great day.

Be Blessed

Crittermama on 09/24/2003:
I have put a curse on Eve many times during each one of my pregnancies for all the aches and pains and then the labor and delivery. How could she do this to us?? LOL You're doing great!

phocust on 09/24/2003:
Great job at maintaining that will power! Whenever I tell people I ate "pork skins" for a snack, they look at me like I'm crazy -- but they're not bad tasting, and they're low carb! :)

I think the reason that you're feeling thinner (besides the fact that you probably are losing weight!) is because carbs usually contain wheat as an ingredient. The Gluten in wheat often produces a bloating effect in many women. I have noticed a real difference in how I feel at the end of the day Now, as compared to when I ate a high carb, low fat diet. Sooo much better now.

I love your positive attitude!

breakaway on 09/24/2003:
Good luck facing those arctic waters! Your doing great! People just have not figured out how to leave work at work and home at home have they! We have those at work all the time! My hubby tries to do that but I don't let him get away with it :D I used to but times have changed and I have realized that I am a person NOT a slave. And he still loves me just the same! And I have also figured out that IF I ask him to do something for me he WILL do it. I try to do it all because I like doing it for him but sometimes I just need help. Well, you have a great day today and enjoy that swimming today. Terrific job!

legcramp on 09/24/2003:
YES, YOU CAN DO THIS!!! Great attitude! Sounds like you're doing SO well even though you are going through some tough days (meno-pausal symptoms, ornery co-workers). Keep up the great work!!

malh on 09/24/2003:
LOL..I think you may have developed a new exercise there for the upper arms...."THE GNAT" Just remember us when you get your own talk show and sell this product. *S* And you will achieve your week of no cheating with your attitude...Good Job

missy on 09/24/2003:
You are doing terrific! You could start a new fitness craze. Gnat Aerobics! Sell a packet of gnats for $19.95, along with a little 'instruction' booklet, "Gnat Your Way to Fitness!" :D The sad part??? I know people who would buy it!!! :\ Hope you are having a great day and I love your positive attitude...keep it up! :)

Oops. I didn't read the comments before I wrote. Credit goes to malh...great minds think alike, huh? Actually, that's a little bit scary... ;)

Soon2BThin on 09/24/2003:
I'm with you on the hot flashes!! Since I quit all hormone replacement because I've been having the never-ending "TOM" I'm now suffering with all the problems of menopause. Right now I'm just so cold even my fingers are stiff trying to type this. But, never fear, a nice hot flash will be along soon to warm me up, hahaha! As soon as the "TOM" ends, it's back with the Prempro! And I hope TOM never comes back, haha! Good luck. Sounds like you're doing great on the carb thing too.

curvy shar on 09/25/2003:
Such a great attitude! How did the swimming go? And yes, you can do this. I'm not to the hot flash phase yet, but am NOT looking forward to it. Have a great day!

CharlieAngel - Tuesday Sep 23, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

Good Day ya'll!

Yesterday was definitely a gold star day. I walked for 40 minutes at lunch time. Up and down hills no less. Then I stuck completely to the low carb eating routine and managed to stay within points. Last night for dinner I had some lovely fish which I baked in a parchment bag with a dollop of real butter and some sliced bell peppers and herbs. Then I made some creamed spinach with some fresh spinach that was looking kinda wilty. That was supper and very good too! I also went to water aerobics. Thank goodness we are moving back to the indoor pool next monday. The water was frigid!! But I prevailed.

So far today breakfast...thank you darling Eddy was two eggs over easy and two strips of crisp bacon. Lunch today will be a salad with cheese and low carb dressing and a piece of roasted chicken. Dinner tonight will be steaks and green beans oriental and a small salad. Again, I will walk at lunch time today. The weather is gorgeous. It will only be in the mid 80s. That's almost cold in southwest Texas.

Gotta get to work! Hope you all have successful days. Smile at everyone. It makes them wonder what you're up to!

Be Blessed!

malh on 09/23/2003:
Sounds like you have a good attitude...one that will take you right into the new year under 200 pounds. Keep up the good work and don't let that "plateau" win. You will win.

starlight on 09/23/2003:
lol. There is this guy at my work who always smiles funny like he's up to something. Its funny, he looks at ya like he KNOWS something about you. When there's nothing to know. It cracks me up. Have a good day. Congrats on the great day yesterday. Kim

italianhips on 09/23/2003:
way to manage your time by working out during your lunch break. Good job!

breakaway on 09/23/2003:
I have to tell you, I did exactly that..I smiled at my daughter (she is home sick from school today) and she said "What?" lol How funny. I'm going to try it on hubby tonight. That's a good one! You did very well today! You have really seemed in high spirits these past few days. It's nice to see that! Keep up the great work!

squiggly on 09/23/2003:
Good job on the walk! Keep it up! You sound really happy today! Awesome!!!!!

CharlieAngel - Monday Sep 22, 2003
(Weight Watchers Points)
Weight: 220.0

I am going to mix it up a bit. I am going to try low carb but stay within my weight watchers points. Let's see if that doesn't break the cycle of this dang plateau I find myself stuck on.

I am also going to increase my exercise. In addition to the water aerobics, I am going to incorporate some yoga and some more intense cardio.

So far this a.m. I have had two eggs over easy and two slices of crisp bacon. I brought a salad with me for lunch and 3 chicken tenders grilled on the GF. I also had a cup of coffee with real cream and half a pack of sweet and low. Dinner tonight will be fish baked in parchment packets with some bell peppers and onions and fresh herbs and a salad with a low carb salad dressing.

I am going to do this for two weeks and re-evaluate at the end of the two weeks. I should be able to do this even though we are going out for lunch later this week for Barry's going away. We are going to a buffet and I will just have meat and salad. Right this moment I am drinking a cup of raspberry zinger tea. Yumm.

I am determined to lose at least 20 pounds by the end of the year. I have vacillated around this number long enough. I want to be under 200 to start the next year. Then it will be the push to 175. Then to 150...and that may be where I stop...we will have to see when I get there.

Hope you all had a great weekend. Make today really count.

Be Blessed.

breakaway on 09/22/2003:
You have a great plan! And wonderful job on the exercise. You will nip this plateau right in the butt. Great job.

phocust on 09/22/2003:
You've got a great idea going there! It's always smart to mix up your diet every once in a while so your body doesn't get used to the same thing! The same goes for exercise. Nothing squashes an annoying plateau better than a new/more challenging work out! :) I have noticed that if I bike for a couple weeks, and then for the next couple weeks I switch to power walking up-hill, suddenly new muscles are sore -- it's a great feeling! And you almost don't have to go any longer than you normally would.

Scruffy on 09/22/2003:
Scruff was here :-)

prism on 09/23/2003:
Hope your new plan works. Weight watchers actually encourages you to see whether you respond better with more protein or more carbs since everyone is different...Let us know how it works out for you...

I think 20 pounds is a reasonable goal by the end of the year. There's 14 weeks left and if you stick to the plan and keep on exercising, you should make good progress....


ThinLee on 09/23/2003:
I agree! It's a great idea to mix up the food plan. The body is extremely adaptable and can "get used to" almost anything we throw at it.

You can definitely reach your goal by the end of the year. Do you incorporate resistance training into your workouts as well?

Good luck on making it through your plateau!

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