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Cybermom4 - Thursday Jun 04, 2015

Weight: 187.8

 I bought a cute pink two piece swim suit that I found online.  But at 187, I know I can never wear it in public.  I doubt I will even wear it in my neighbor's pool and they are like family.  This should motivate me to stick with healthy eating. I also bought some stretch bands to help with doing some small exercises.  


You know, I see wounded vets with prosthetic legs skiing and running and hiking and I can't even walk around the block because of my bad knees.  I'm sure they were in just as much pain and yet they push though the pain.  I keep thinking "what is my problme?"  "Why am I so lazy and defeated?"  I am only 53 years old - I have a beautiful grandson and I need to be a healthy weight. Some days, when I dress for work and I look in the mirror and I see a professional and say - hey, that is just me!  I'm fine and all is well - my attitude is great - then I step on the scale and weigh more than my son (who is a body builder) and my husband and I get depressed.  Isn't the lady of the house supposed to be tiny and sweet?

I keep thinking- when school is out then I will work out - when school is out then I will have time to really focus on my body and get myself into good shape.  I suppose it is not a bad idea to have a plan in place.  I do have a masssage on the 14th (gift from my daughter) -.  I could make the weekend of the 12th my 'new beginning'


I'd love to hear any stories of how you got started on your exercise journey.  I know that is my biggest problem - not moving and not caring to move.  Any words of wisdom would be appreciated.

Breakfast ; coffee - water - vitamines - 



Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 32.8 lbs to go!

ohioraven on 06/04/2015:
Don't worry about what others around you MIGHT think. Be good to YOURSELF .

cybermom4 on 06/04/2015:
Great Advice - Life is too short to be fretting. Just take one day at a time!

grannyannie on 06/04/2015:
Ditto what OR said. Motivation should be good health and fitness. I didn't start working out until I was 40 and I'm now 63. I've had periods of time when I didn't work out a lot, but I've been pretty consistent since turning 50.

cybermom4 on 06/04/2015:
What a motivating post. It does feel good to hear from someone in a similar state. Thank you for sharing - it means a lot.

liza36 on 06/04/2015:
I've had periods of no exercise, it seemed life was just too busy to fit it in. As I've started exercising again, I've found something that I absolutely love (jazzercise) so while it's tough sometimes, I know once I'm there I will enjoy it and feel great afterwards. It is true what they say - find an activity you like and it won't feel like exercise. To get started, you can also just walk - which is great exercise. Find a path close to your home, or the school's track, or even your neighborhood, and just put one foot in front of the other. With tender knees, this may be the best thing for you at the moment. Take the time for you to feel better!

cybermom4 on 06/04/2015:
Thank you for your post. I guess everyone has a journey to follow and I just have to find my way. It is encouraging to hear you had times of no exercise. That really spoke to me. I was a competitive swimmer all through middle school and high school (3 hours /day 6 days week plus exercising) Then I continued my training for about 4 years after school. Then went to college, had a family and then joined the Y and competed in the Keystone state games in 1998. I won 4 out of 5 medals in my events. Then back in 2013 I joined a gym and worked out every day at 5 am in a 12 week program and lost only 13 lbs (dr. said my meds will affect that) Then I just gave up. At first I was depressed b/c my hubby and children are all into weight lifting and training and I am a TV blob -I had to stop feeling guilty and just make decisions for me. I'll think of this as part of my beginning. Wow - thanks for listening.

puddles on 06/04/2015:
I have to admit I do not do exercise but I do play golf and go to the driving range and I do like to go play tennis. If anybody would tell me to exercise I think I would get sick to my stomach but to go play some sport that I love to do I don't consider that exercise because I see it as fun stuff. That is the way I do exercise. You have to learn your own way of doing it.

cybermom4 on 06/08/2015:
I like your attitude - no pressure just do what you enjoy. Somehow I will find what I enjoy. Maybe badminton.

biscottibody59 on 06/04/2015:
It appears you've stopped. Not good especially at 53. I'm 56 and I'd kill to be 53 again. And 43, and 33 and 23. etc:-) Do something. It doesn't matter. When you stop, you're just going to go downhill that much faster. It's true!

If you're a former swimmer and your knees hurt--isn't that sort of a no-brainer? Then again what do I know--you may just hate swimming at this point. Or you don't have access to a pool that you like. (Maybe there's a master's swim group near you to help you on your way.)

ps I could write a book about my journey. I suggest reading my entire diary. Well, not really unless you just have a lot of time on your hands and are bent that way.

Also if you have to start over every day, that's not a crime. I used to think it was awful. It's not, compared to the alternative.

Don't pay attention to others--those are just distractions. Focus on you!

Umpqua on 06/08/2015:
You've gotten great advice above. I'm not a huge fan of working out but I I do like to stay active and busy and so the majority of my exercise involves yard work and home improvement projects, things that I love. Then I "supplement" with walking and workouts with friends and that's a good system for me. Like everyone else said, you just have to find out what works for you and what will make you feel good in the long run. Any kind of movement is a step in the right direction!

cybermom4 on 06/08/2015:
Thank you for posting - all your words are true and I do think once school is done here in a few days - I will be on my way to finding a fun hobby.

Cybermom4 - Wednesday Apr 29, 2015
(7 day liquid diet Record)
Weight: 183.8

 Well, yesterday went really well. 

Drinks  - I had a large V8, coffee, water, and low sugar cranberry / grape juice.

I did give in to a pita and hummus sandwich for lunch and a pita and hummus sandwich for dinner.

I tried a peppermint patty (mini) and it made me feel sick in the stomach.  That just warns me 'no sugary foods'

My daughter gave up sugar and meat about a year ago  - and she feels so much better.  She is 23 and trim.  The difference between her and me is she likes to prepare foods and I don't.  She will make herself a huge plate of salad with tons of veggies and cheese and a piece of toast.   I could not take the time to do that or really - I don't think I could eat all that salad.

Sorry - I'm just pickey I guess.

I'm feeling really good having lost 2 lbs already.  Even though my goal is to just cleans and I think I am doing better and better each day.  

I will have a protien drink today as I missed that yesterday.

Well, have a root canal today so I took 1/2 day off to do that - I'm hoping it will not take too long as I have some errands to run and would like to not have to rush back to work.

My kitty Oliver is calling.  Does anyone know how to add a photo?

Have a wonderful day

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 28.8 lbs to go!

puddles on 04/29/2015:
Congrats on the 2lbs good job. Have a great day.

Umpqua on 04/29/2015:
Yay for a loss! To add images, you'll find a little image button on the top row as you're making your entry. It's right in the middle of that row with all the other formatting stuff like the smiley faces, font sizes, etc. Once you click on that it will prompt you to upload your image and you can do it that way, or link to the image if you have it uploaded someplace else.

cybermom4 on 04/29/2015:
Thank you :)

Cybermom4 - Tuesday Apr 28, 2015
(7 day liquid diet Record)
Weight: 184.6

 OK honesty - that is the only way to come to understand myself is by being honest about my binge no matter how much I want to deny it.

Last night I binged  - I was so good all day on the liquid diet then around 7pm it hit me - I had a glass of wine and a pita and hummus sandwich.  Then I had some V-8.  Then another bite of mac and cheese.  I was possessed by eating.  I always knew I had issues with eating but this binge ws bad. Then about 15 min later I had an upset stomach and had to drink pepto.

What was I thinking when i was binging - "I want this " "This won't hurt"  "This tastes so good" - gobble gobble

I know I have a poor attitude when it comes to eating.  For the longest time I have always had an upset stomach after eating so I eat small portions.  Also, I hate to eat in front of others.  I'm a closet eater - why??? I have no clue.  I think because I am not thin, I feel gulty putting anything in my mouth because my thinking is 'I am this way because of my eating"

I have to be realistic - part of my weight gain is due to medications I am on - but that is no excuse.  There is no reason why I can't do small exercises and eat properly.  Truth is I am lazy and also, part of me doesnt' care.  I want to care - today is a new day!!

It is 5:50 am - I have my coffee and a glass of water and now that I know that my binge time is between 4 and 7 -= if  I go into the kitchen - eager to eat and binge - I will set the timer and walk away.  When the bell goes off - I will drink a big glass of water or V8 and then set the timer again.  If I am still 'binging thinking' I will have another pita and hummus sandwich or an orange.  Maybe by making an allowance for a small food I will stop the 'binge' mentality.

Now that I have a plan in place - perhaps I will do better today.

Finally, on the bright side - I did lose 1 lb!!  Go Me....


Progress as of today: 1.2 lbs lost so far, only 29.6 lbs to go!

puddles on 04/28/2015:
I understand Binges. My solution was not to keep anything in the house that where my trigger foods and therefore nothing looked good to binge on. I still do that to this day. Good luck with that have a great day.

cybermom4 on 04/29/2015:
Good Idea!

Umpqua on 04/28/2015:
This is just my opinion based on my own experience and many years observing others on this site, but extremely restrictive diets only backfire in the end. I've never done a liquid fast and I know people choose to do it for a limited time to cleanse and rid the body of toxins. But if it's leading you to want to binge or have constant thoughts of food because you're hungry then I'm not sure what good it could do. I've had the best results by allowing myself a range of foods and just trying to keep them as clean and healthy as possible, but if I'm hungry I eat - especially when I'm exercising since the body needs fuel to burn calories. Just my 2 cents.

cybermom4 on 04/29/2015:
I can see what you mean and I do agree with you. My goal is to basically get on a good eating path. I have to journal today about last night, but I drank lots and had a pita and hummus sandwich for lunch and one for dinner. I had a mini peppermint patty and it made me sick - just upset stomach - so no more of that. I told my self "see sugar foods aren't for you!! I really didn't think of food too much.

InnerPeace on 04/28/2015:
I agree with umpqua. The good thing is you weren't binging on cookies or chips or candy, and I hardly call a bite of mac & cheese a binge, now the whole pot is another thing. I totally understand about knowing what to do and doing something totally different...and it is hard to care. I want to care too. Good luck I hope today turns out like you want.

cybermom4 on 04/29/2015:
Thank you InnerPeace - your name is exactly what I want about food and eating. Inner peace :)

Cybermom4 - Monday Apr 27, 2015
(7 day liquid diet Record)
Weight: 185.8

I have been reading about liquid fasts and the importance of journaling yoour thoughts and emotions during the day to avoid temptations.  I will use Diet Diary as my journal.

5:30 am - coffee

6:00 am - protien drink

At this time I am feeling motivated and I am being a bit proactive by making a plan to prepare for the times during the day where I feel tempted to eat a piece of chocolate or go out for lunch.  Any time I feel the urge to cheat - I will log my emotions and remind myself in print why I am doing this 7 day liquid diet.  

This is not a fast per se - but a liquid diet with water, coffee (of course) milk/protien powder and maybe some diet pepsi in small amounts to curb cravings.  My goal is to be only on water and protine drink as much as possible (not overdoing it on the protien drink.

I would like to do some yoga stretches or exercises with the stretchie bands.

Also, as a note to self - if I am feeling tempted - I will go to the internet and read up on the benefits of carefully following a liquid diet and refresh my mind as to why I am doing this.

I know it will not be easy - but it is simply a jump start for me to get control over my eating and to cleanse.  I'm not concerned about the 'weight loss' at this time.  I have found that when I focus on the scale, I just get discouraged.  I am going to focus my energy on this cleanse and preparing a plan to a better way of eating and living.

5:30 update

Made all day at work with water and diet soda.

Arrived home at 3:30 - baked stuffed chicken and mac and cheese for family.

Smells of food causing me to hunger.  told self to have water.  Craving took over:

4:45 - ate less than 1/4 C of mac and cheese - had a sliver (about 1 inch square) of chicken breast and 1 inch square of a vanilla coconut cupcake. 

Washed down with water and extra water and a little bit of milk.

As long as I stay clear of the kitchen - I should be good for the evening.  Telling myself 'water only' and I do think I will stick with it.

Almost done with day 1 of 7.  I'm thinking this will get easier as the days go on.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 30.8 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 04/27/2015:
Good Luck, Mom.

puddles on 04/27/2015:
Good luck and have a great day.

Cybermom4 - Sunday Nov 02, 2014
(nutribullet meals along with left over medifast)
Weight: 185.8

 Well, It has been almost one year to the month at least since I have posted.  I had some successes and some failures but unfortunately I have never reached my goal.  I have a mental block about going to the gym and my membership is up May 31.  I don't even go there to tan any more and I am a sun worshipper.  I don't know what is wrong with me.  I dread the thoguht of taking time to change my clotes and hit the gym and come back home etc...  All I want to do is be a couch potatoe.  I know in my head ' you don't have to go hard, just go"  but I just don't.  

Today is my first grandbaby's dedication.  Maybe I should make this day my day of dedication to the gym.  Baby Asher is worth it!!  But more importantly, I am worth it.  

Where has my spark gone.  I was so motivated a year ago and dropped 20 lbs..  Even two years ago, I participated in a biggest loser evernt and lost 13 lbs.  Something has to hit me.


OK - I am going to focus on my gaal of being healthy Today.  Let Nov 2 be the day I go to the gym.  Today is Sunday and I have the whole afternoon free.  I have the whole women's section of the gym to myself.  I can't keep making excuses like, I am too busy with work, or family or TV.


I don't have to make a goal of going every day - If I start with going just 'today' for now and see how it goes.


I think someitmes I make big plans then do notheing - so I will start small - go today for 30 minutes  stretch for 10, bike for 10 and weights for 10, then tan and go home and see how I feel. I will not worry about tomorrow.


It is 7am now.  May I have prayers that I follow through with today's plan of action and not be distracted or discouraged from reaching today's goal.

Can someone tell me which diet diary facebook page is for us?.



Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 30.8 lbs to go!

puddles on 11/02/2014:
Welcome back and wishing you a great day.

Cybermom4 - Thursday Nov 28, 2013
(medifast diet)
Weight: 186.2

Happy Turkey Day!!!


I am so excited.  I have been on Medifast for one month and lost a total of 11lbs as of today.  I finally broke 187 by one lb. and I am delighted.  I even cheated as my daughter made 'almond snow ball cookies' which are my favorite.  But - because I have finally broken my 187 - I am determined to stick with the medifast plan today and not be tempted by all the wonderful food that will be put out on the table today.  I will eat my 'lean and green' and I will eat it slowly and enjoy every bite and accept this as my meal.  If I am going to have a life style change, I have to change.  I can't let a holiday sagatage my progress thus far.  

I will be in a room full of people who LOVE food and will even be observing my plate - but I must politely say "everything looks lovely - but I will pass this on to you...next person.  I will only allow myself a small dessert and will only eat a tablespoon and ask to save the rest for later.  If I at least accept the host's dessert, I think she will be accepting of my new change.

For those of you who pray - please pray that I will go to the gym.  I have a mental block about getting dressed and driving there and it just makes it easy to say 'skip it'.  I must add the gym to my day as I know this would help my progress so much.  I don't know why I am so anti - after all I am already paid up until the end of May and I know if I don't start using it, I will regret it.  

I need some motivator - can anyone give me a slogan or a pep talk that will break though this negative thought process I have against going to the gym?

My daughter has a good one which I love "You don't have to go hard - just go!"  I love that but again, I can't get past getting changed into my gym clothes.  It seems like a bother.  Open to suggestions.

Again Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!

Progress as of today: 15.8 lbs lost so far, only 36.2 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 11/28/2013:
HAPPY THANKSGIVING, Mom. I am praying that you take that first of many steps into that gym. I don't know if you've seen the poster of the fat guy jogging, but the caption says " it doesn't matter how fast you go. You're still lapping everyone on the couch ". I posted it on the Diet Diary Facebook. Pray for me to have a little control today. Take Care.

cybermom4 on 11/28/2013:
Absolutely praying - this has got to be the worst day of the year before Christmas. So many goodies! Stay on track and tomorrow you'll say "I did it!"

biscottibody59 on 11/28/2013:
Maybe you have a little inner voice that says you're going to fail once you get into that gym. If you think that's it, then take that step inside and give yourself permission to turn around and go back home. It just means that today wasn't the day.

However, your anxiety may disappear (and quickly) once you get in and see that everyone is there for the same reason you are.

I hope you find your way--Cheers!

Cybermom4 - Thursday Nov 14, 2013
(medifast diet)
Weight: 187.6

Well, Today my PLAN is to hit the gym - not hard  - just a simple walking for 30 - 45 minutes.  Or if the machine is taken I will use the elliptical.

My game plan is to change into my gym clothes during my lunch break and then when my shift ends - just go.  No more excuses.  I'm in my 3rd week of medifast and have lost 11 lbs from following their diet (and even cheated a little) so I'm thinking a daily dose of exercise will only enhance my progress.

I have a mental block for some reason and keep makeing excuses for not going to the gym.  My daughter suggested having a jar and putting a dollar in the jar for every workout and then after a month - I can spend the money on a new purse or clothes or shoes.  She came up with this b/c  this past Jan - April I hit the gym every day at 5 am b/c I was enterend in a biggest loser contest and the winnings motivated me.  She thought if I motivated myself with a jar of cash, maybe I would be proactive.

I wish I could make myself want to do this - I just can't seem to get the same momentum as I had in January.

Any pep  talks out there that work for you.

My daughter gave me one "you don't have to go hard, just go!"  I love that one - but my problem is 'changing and getting out the door'  How do you stop makeing excuses? 

Any advice welcome!! 



Progress as of today: 14.4 lbs lost so far, only 37.6 lbs to go!

OArecovery on 11/14/2013:
That's a great suggestion, love it! So cool to work towards something! Good luck :)

cybermom4 on 11/18/2013:
Thank you ;)

liza36 on 11/14/2013:
Changing clothes and getting in the car is the hardest part of going to the gym. I've experienced it myself. Changing during your lunch break is a good idea. I would change at work too, then I'm all ready to go so when I'm driving home, it's easier to go straight to the gym than home. I like the cash idea too. Having a workout buddy is helpful. I didn't think so in the past, but I really loved it when my friend would come with me. Good luck!!

liza36 on 11/14/2013:
Congrats on your loss as well! You are doing great.

Umpqua on 11/15/2013:
This new plan is really working for you, congrats on the loss!

legcramps on 11/15/2013:
Get warmed up while you're still at work. Jump around; do some dance moves; maybe a karate kick to the air; whatever warmes you up and that will give you a bit of adrenaline to WANT to hit the gym. Also, while you're heading to the gym, blast a really motivating song - whichever one works for you - a couple of times and that will motivate you to not turn around or drive past the gym! Good luck!

Cybermom4 - Tuesday Nov 12, 2013
(medifast diet)
Weight: 188.4

Did a good job on my water intake today but ended up sneaking some of my daughter's buffalo chicken dip and chips.  I'm not going to beat myself up though.  I will get back on track with my medifast meals tonight.

I've been learning about the raw apple cider vinegar drink 3x per day and just ordered my bottles via puritan's pride (buy 1 get 2 free sale).  Apparently ACV has great properties for a variety of health issues and though I know it is not a cure all - I think I'm willing to give it a go.  I'm betting it will need some lemon juice and sweetenr to tolerate it, but hoping the results will be worth it.

Anyone else try ACV as a supplement?

Progress as of today: 13.6 lbs lost so far, only 38.4 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 11/13/2013:
I use raw apple cider vinegar (plain--nothing added) on my salads as dressing. I like it, but even on salads it may be an acquired taste.

liza36 on 11/13/2013:
I just tried ACV straight on my salad, and it was pretty tangy! Good luck with your ACV.

Cybermom4 - Monday Nov 11, 2013
(medifast diet)
Weight: 188.4

Whoo hoo.........I finally broke 190 - I am so happy happy happy

This gives me such hope - my goal is when I get down about 6 more pounds I'll begin to hit the gym. 

I was told to take a before photo and I did - I was skeptical to do so - but now I just might be making progress and who knows  - in another month or so I'll be taking an after photo.

Well I dont' want to jinx  my good news for today - I just can't believe it!!

Thanks for letting me share!!

Best to everyone!!

Progress as of today: 13.6 lbs lost so far, only 38.4 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 11/11/2013:
Congratulations !

OArecovery on 11/12/2013:
Congrats! Have a great day :)

Cybermom4 - Saturday Nov 09, 2013
(medifast diet)
Weight: 190.0

I have started a new journey - I am on the medifast plan and despite the low calories, I have been impressed with the food and the new habit of eating every 2 1/2 - 3 hours.  I have only been on one week and I dropped 8 lbs - and I cheated yesterday (ate some cheese and pita chips with hummus and a tiny slice of frozen pizza - cooked of course)  My weight still dropped.

I know the holidays are coming so I want to do the bulk of my weight loss and really stick to this plan.  I think the reason for my cheating is a bit of PMS and I always get extra hungry at that time.  My hope is to reach my goal in two months.

THe medifast food is expensive, but when you consideer that you are only buying groceries in the meat/ fish isle and veggie isle - it is really a cost savings.  Of course my family has to eat so my husband has taken over this shopping for us.  (God bless him)

Medifast has a cool daily chart that you can down load on medifast1.com  if you like a visual daily tracking sheet this is awesome.  It makes the food journal fun and you can see your results easily.

I have never in my life tried a plan such as this but I have 4 friends who went on the plan and each lost tons of weight!!  It is exactly what it says "medi 'fast' so your caloric intake is low but since you are eating so frequeantly and drinking 8 glasses of water per day - you don't even notice.

Anyway - I am not selling the diet - just describing it  - kind of like a pep talk for myself so I can know that what I invested in is worth it for me.  I don't want to give up and I want to keep reminding myself of the weight loss I'm made so far.  I wasn't doing it on my own so I needed help.  I had some trouble on the first day where my medications were affecting my stomach and when I spoke to the nutritionist - he advised going on the veggiterrian menue which allowed for cottage cheese and yoguert - made a big difference!!  Now I am doing fine.  Still not sure if my ill feelings were an actual bug, or the medifast + meds but I am good now thank goodness.

My new goal is to post every saturday an overview of the week so I have a journal here of my progress - love seeing that bar go down.

Thanks for listening and I'd love to hear if anyone else has tried a program like medifast, or nutri system or weight watchers etc.  Just curious if you do have days for cheating and if you have been able to stick with it.  so many of you here I know from years past who have made great losses - I want to be a success story like my friends there and here,  Wish me luck!!

Happy Saturday!!

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 40 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 11/09/2013:
Good Luck, Mom.

glassgirl3 on 11/09/2013:
Hi, I've been doing Weight Watchers for about 2 months now. i weigh in on mondays and I have to admit that if I want to eat pizza or pasta its usually on monday night. That way I have a whole week to make up for it. The weight loss process is slow on WW, but Its forever so it gives you lots of time to get use to the eating style. I've never tried Medifast, but to loss 8 pds in 1 week is really great. Good luck

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