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Donkey - Saturday Nov 12, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 157.5

No change despite all of my efforts.  Even started jogging again -- something i havve not been able to do for years, due to plantar fasciitis.  So far, no problems and proud of myself but very discouraged that this was not enough to make a difference on the scale.

Donkey is not in a good place right now.  Very discouraged about just about everything:  political, economic, spiritual, physical (go away damn fat!), spiritual - you name it.

If I can be allowed to be political and economic for a moment though:  DO NOT BE FOOLED INTO THINKING THAT NEW BALANCE MAKES THEIR SHOES IN THE U.S.  That is a huge lie to their consumers and insulting to their intelligence.

Progress as of today: 29 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/14/2016:
Sometimes change is slow. There shouldn’t be a rush. Congrats on jogging again. Try to do it moderately and I think the recommendation is to add up to 10% more each week at most? I will be jogging starting mid-winter. It’s exciting to know I am going to accomplish this feat – scary at the same time though!

Ju – it’s ok to not always feel top of the world. I can down rather too easily for my own liking as well…It doesn’t take much to rip a searing gaping cut thru my own heart as I’m feeling today after yesterday’s rather boring date…I feel like I look one way – decently really pretty I’d say on the outside, but my inside is like the complete opposite. One of those people that on the outside looks so normal and on the inside I am so different compared to the avg woman my age.

It’s sorta difficult at times to socialize when you are like me…anyways, so I’m feeling a bit out of the ordinary and down today as well…I guess I am upset at myself (but no reason to be). Upset because I am different and I know it – and the date kinda made me realize this again, and sometimes it’s hard being so different in a world where everyone likes to be the same. The guy was different too, but not different enough to by my match and same thing for me being his. Ugh!

Thanks for the update on New Balance…it’s hard to find any country that makes anything fully in the US these days…I need to look into a better sneaker soon…! These easy spirit with a foam sole weren’t the best way to go…anyways, J, thank you for listening.

My words to you this morning are to always keep on….and you will feel better. It can be very cyclical and sometimes we are doing well and sometimes it requires some soul searching or more…but don’t give up, because you don’t want to lose all your wonderful gains (weight loss in this case!). You’ve done so well, so do not ever throw the towel in!



Donkey - Saturday Nov 05, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 157.5

Back down to 157.5 and hopefully this time it will stay off.  Rather frustrating to be plateauing already.  Oh and we're already getting food catalogues at work with cookies and candies and cakes and pies --- I'm not sure I'm ready for American Thanksgiving in a few weeks. 

I have one more week of work with the boss.  Then he goes on vacation for a week.  He comes back the week of Thanksgiving but that's when I'll be visiting my brother and his family for a week for Thanksgiving.  I love my family but they totally stress out.  Last year, wine was the answer to that but this year, I'm going in stone-cold sober...

I have not checked on how my wedding rings fit because lately my husband has been driving me absolutely nuts and I'm not feeling quite in the "married mood" at the moment.

Progress as of today: 29 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/07/2016:
Loved ones can get on our nerves quite easily. but like many people say, we can choose our friends, but family is family. If they stress you, know that it's for a set time and that set time ends when you leave them after the holiday. It's not forever. :)

Smart not to drink. Saves calories. You can fill up on seltzer (sparkling water) or diet soda or tea or anything of the sort. YOu can still keep your mouth busy for low cal. For dessert, you can bring sugar free jelllo and eat a ton. I think i will bring it to Thanksgiving, or, I'll bring a low cal pudding! or both! yes! You just inspired me of what to bring to my own family dinner yay...

Don't let the holiday time be a reason to gain weight. Like i wrote on Puddy's page, plateauing isn't so bad...it's a time to also get used to how to maintain the lower weight you've reached. It's ok. It's a chance to see that the choices you are making work - to keep you at the weight you are now. And if you want to go lower, you may have to change up some things even more or exercise even more. Or, your body just may be adjusting and you may even continue to lose weight without changes, but prob not.

Losing weight is a long process. According to your chart you are just a few lbs short of your goal weight for now...that's awesome.

Try to remember the bigger picture. You have done so well! A true inspiration to us here. It isn't easy to begin again at weightloss, but you did it.

In my life,I've had 2 periods of time where i let myself go...and two periods of time finding my way back. 2nd time of weightloss was much harder than the first. Not because i was older, but bc as we get older life can be more complicated. more things in my opinion can derail us. it's up to us to decide how important health or weight or wellbeing or whatever it may be is in our life.

Weight is a variable based on out choices but also our circumstances. Always know, in the back of your mind, that you have control over this variable. It's by your own actions and thoughts that affect the weight. Of course sometimes life and experiences and other things going on do challenge us a lot in keeping with our weight goals. And that is life :) Don't let life tell you how to live. You are totally in control of your life.

Don't take my comments wrong - they are only the advice i've learned particularly this past year - and they are all advice i do try to follow myself.

Don't ever think that success or maintaining weight is beyond your control, it's not. You can do it.

One thing that helps me maintain the lower weight below 120 and around 115-117 (i'm short!) is that i enjoy being able to find clothes easier and wear more things and having things fit better overall. This is a major inspiration to me to continue my efforts and drive at the gym & to eat lower calories.

I am able to continue with low calories bc i have found substitutes - that i include with meals so i do eat to being well satisfied / full always. Veggies as a main part of my meal. Diet jellos. other protein items...kombucha.

i will say i do spend a lot of $ on my diet. But you don't have to spend the money it's more the time. and after all, tons of the things i buy aren't expensive. if i cooked more, i'd save a lot.

sorry so long...hope it helps you what i'm writing?

but the real truth is TIME. I've invested a TON of time to learning about my body and food and how to feel satisfied. I've researched a lot, too...

So have you. :)


hollybelle on 11/07/2016:
Family can be frustrating. I am not looking forward to cookie/Holiday season ......as you put it on another's diary! Going to try and be realistic.



Donkey - Saturday Oct 29, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 158.5

Up a pound but perhaps last week's weigh-in was a fluke. I'm grateful for what I have.

I'm going to try to focus on drinking more water this week and see if that will help or change things up.

Waiting for some things to resolve themselves.  The really good news this week is that we are getting the shower fixed -- there was a leak in the seal and the wall was getting all soft and moldy! -- and the damage is just limited to the drywall, not the studs or anything else behind the wall.  So while this is not cheap, it is not going to be any more expensive than we had anticipated.  This is a blessing.

In fact, I try to find little blessings throughout the day, starting with my morning walk, to help keep me going.  I'm definitely in a prolonged funk.  Not sure if it's just the seasonal blues or if this is a result of low carbs or not enough calories or just a slump.  I know that whatever it is, I can ride it out -- I really think that most of it is waiting for certain things to resolve themselves, which just takes time.

Progress as of today: 28 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!

trishpiglet3 on 10/29/2016:
As my mum would say, 'Best of British Luck' - although I'm not sure we're that lucky lately so I will just say I'm thinking of you and hoping this lifts and you feel better


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/31/2016:
i would say look at the overall picture and that picture for you is really good! over 20 lbs lost :) amazing focus! water definitely helps me & helps my skin...really helps when i drink water in the afternoon at work and also at the gym. really flushes things thru...

I sometimes get into a funk also when too low carbs...but one other thing i noticed which is MAJOR...i get into a HUGE slump when i am not sleeping enough. like today...feeling down, but for no good reasons except that my body is a bit tired.

try to get more sleep if that's what you need...

i have noticed a huge impact of sleep on my mood. and i think when i was in school and gained weight at 25-26, it is due more to not sleeping enough and then compensating with eating...before studying....and no gym.

what i'm saying is, when i dont sleep, i am quick to overcompensate with overeating.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/31/2016:
and i was using that carb overeating as a way to increase my seratonin or whatever enhances the mood.

try to maybe sleep more.


hollybelle on 11/01/2016:
Hope your things resolve. Regarding the shower fix.......I feel your pain.......we had a major repair of our upstairs shower. It was leaking thru the kitchen ceiling. The first crew didn't fix it. Said it was the grout cracking in the shower floor. Re-grouted it. Didn't work. Was the water barrier under the tile and grout in the shower floor, second crew said. Second crew said would have to tear out all the tiled shower walls and redo. We said NO, just the bottom two rows of tile and redo the floor. They said OK, but wouldn't guarantee it. We asked some very pointed questions and they agreed it would probably work. Cost less than half original estimate and so far is OK.



Donkey - Saturday Oct 22, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 157.5

Still very stressed out about many things in life:  husband's health, money (our house, my job, his job) -- thank the Lord I don't have to worry much about my kids, my workload or my own health!  (See, it could always be worse.  I just have to get through this trying time, one day at a time.)

I went to a dinner party last Sunday night with my church ladies.  I was going to bring a bottle of red wine, but then decided not to, since I didn't want it to put anyone into an uncomfortable position -- especially my hostess, who I don't know very well.  So when I got there, there was white wine, so it was going to be "that kind" of a party, but not that many people drank alcohol.  I know I didn't.

Right now, for me and where I'm at, it's best that I stay away from alcohol.

Progress as of today: 29 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

trishpiglet3 on 10/22/2016:
Alcohol can be a tricky one. I haven't drunk alcohol for a long time and find it not exactly strange that others do but like something that I no longer relate to. The UK has a large culture centred around pubs and drinking such that getting drunk is almost normalised.

You are so thoughtful for not wanting to put anyone into an uncomfortable position!

One of the things I advise my stop smoking clients is to stay away from alcohol for a bit, at least until they are more confident that they will not smoke. I could speak similarly re my own (previous) drinking and eating things I shouldn't - if I had a drink at a party then I'd be much less likely to exert self-control at the buffet.

Love, peace and power to you!


Horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2016:
yes, i think the wine and alcohol can only hurt you right now with what's going on with you. Stay strong Ju. Be proud of yourself for all you have done & accomplished. Are you getting depressed? can it be something having to do with your diet or weightloss?

Please try to stay strong. It sounds to me like for some reason you are being so hard on yourself at this moment. Stay strong and you will get thru Ju.



Donkey - Sunday Oct 16, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 159.5

27 pound off and I certainly did work for it.  Lowered my carb intake and ate the vegetables and fruits.  Very happy with the results, but wonder if my mood didn't suffer a little bit for it.  Hard to say, because I've had a couple of clients that did some really unreasonable things and my boss was of no help to me whatsoever in keeping the lines of communication open and CLEAR between our office and the clients.

So maybe it was the low-carbing, but maybe it was just me being justifiably honked off. 

Grateful for warmer weather this week, only in that it will make morning walking easier (somewhat).

Engagement ring fits tightly on the finger, and the wedding ring is almost on all the way, but would still be impossibly tight to wear all day even if it did fit all the way down the finger at this point.

Progress as of today: 27 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

puddles on 10/16/2016:
Congrats great accomplishment. Soon that wedding band will fit. My rings are getting too loose find that I have to make sure I take them off before my shower because they slip off too easily with the soap. Keep it up and have a great week.


hollybelle on 10/17/2016:
Great work Donk!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/17/2016:
Hi J Donkey! Congrats on your loss. You did it yourself with your own efforts and it truly is something you can maintain and be so proud of. I know the determination it takes to lose weight and the focus it can require. But also it gets easier as we learn ways to feel full and in general feel content with life to help us maintain that lower weight with less complexity. As we learn what we can eat and ways to feel full still, weight loss will become maintenance and surely a way of life and fitting into our lifestyles because we have learned to live in a way that includes a way to maintain the lower weight! Hope you understand what I’m saying? No. Your weight loss was YOUR DOING. Please don’t let anyone or thing else take the credit !!!

Be proud of yourself. You did this. Remember how you did it. Keep in line with how you did it…so you can maintain what you accomplished with your own efforts and nobody else’s. It’s YOUR doing. YOU are in charge of YOU. You have the POWER to make change in YOUR life. YOU. I support you 100%.

Yes…we have really nice late summer temps going on right now also this week! So cool! And really great that I’ll be in Texas soon and continue the warm weather just awhile longer even.!

The rings will fit…keep up the good work. You are doing wonderfully. Remember to give yourself the credit. Realize you are worth it.



Donkey - Sunday Oct 09, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 162.5

Not a lot of time to write at the moment, but I'm staying accountable.  Thought I weighed in at 162.5 last week but when I logged in, the weight tracker said 163.5.  So either I lost a pound or I maintained.  Either one is fine with me.

Good news is that my shoes (Saucony -- usually a good brand, but this time they tore up my feet) are finally broken in.

Switched out my summer wardrobe for my winterwear and am giving away some of the capri pants that I will never fit into again (hopefully -- I take nothing for granted in this weight loss journey).

24 pounds gone -- can't wait to see the big 2-5.  The wedding band doesn't fit, but I can finally get my engagement ring on as long as it doesn't stay on for too long.

 

Progress as of today: 24 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 10/09/2016:
Shoes are so hard! Glad yours are broken in now!!! Congratulations on the loss (or maintenance)! keep up the good work and your rings will soon fit.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/11/2016:
I'm glad your new shoes are working out!

Congrats on your success, stay positive and accountable so that you can continue to feel good and maintain the lower weight.



Donkey - Saturday Oct 01, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 163.5

Curses on my new walking shoes!!!

They were what I wanted:  leather upper to protect me in the wet & cold months to come ahead and more substantial cushioning and support.  But I can't remember the last time I had a pair of shoes that caused so many blisters.  On my left foot, I have a huge one on the edge of my heel and then on the outside of my big toe.  On my left foot, I have one on my 2nd toe.

I am pre-disposed to blisters.  I guess I'm a tenderfoot :-(  But it's been a very frustrating week.  The pain and care have been distracting from matters at hand.

Financial matters do not allow me at this time to purchase a new pair of shoes, so my feet will have to toughen up and I will make the best of this pair.

On the positive side, I did lose another pound.

I have not started wearing the professional waredrobe that has been waiting for me, but I'm not ready to put away my warmer-weather clothes yet.  Probably after this week, though.

Still too fat to wear my wedding ring.  The engagement ring *almost* fits.

Progress as of today: 23 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/01/2016:
Ouch! Comfortable, good fitting shoes are mandatory for me! My rings get very tight on me and pinch as well.


puddles on 10/01/2016:
I always have to brake in my shoes it is a pain. Good luck.


hollybelle on 10/01/2016:
Curses on those shoes is right! I hate when shoes don't work out. I find it very hard to find suitable shoes. My feet cause me a lot of trouble. I have know folks who use those little toe 'tubes' on toes that tend to get blisters, Also - there is something called moleskin for the areas on the heels. I haven't used these - but have a very wise friend who does so I thought I'd mention.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/04/2016:
Be kind to yourself Donkey. Remember all the good you have accomplished before you hit yourself over the head with what you are still trying to achieve. You will get there <3

Also, maybe you can buy some pads to stick onto your feet wear you get the blisters? i don't know. i am sure the new shoes will HOPEFULLY feel good with time as you wear the in.



Donkey - Saturday Sep 24, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 164.5

I am now officially less than 10 pounds away from my (first) weight goal.  Eating this week -- making smart choices, portion control -- has been difficult this week, but it has paid off.  Actually, it was probably the exercise that helped balance things.  That plus having VEGETABLES with just about every meal except breakfast.

I treated myself to a new pair of shoes that are made for walking.  They are much more substantial than the cheap shoes I bought at the discount store, but those were just to get me started.  These I like but my right foot steps differently than my left foot.  The back lip of the right shoe feels like it's rubbing wrong against the back/ankle of the right food.  But no blister and that sensation is not always there, so go figure.

Work has slowed down for me so the work is manageable.  Still, I have to work hard at remaining calm and pleasant.  Sometimes I'm successful, sometimes I'm not.  But at this pace/workload, I can focus more on delivering customer service rather than trying to meet deadlines.  When I'm rushed, the customer service tends to fly out the window.  Some people think that I have only one file to work on:  THEIRS. 

My goals this week are more spiritual than physical:  serenity, patience, kindness, calmness, humility.

Progress as of today: 22 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/24/2016:
Good job!


hollybelle on 09/24/2016:
What kind of shoes did you get? I've had new shoes that seemed like they rubbed my heel/back of ankle a bit at the beginning but once I wore them a bit they worked out. Glad your work is giving you a break!


Horn_of_plenty on 09/25/2016:
You can always bu inserts or something to balance out the shoe???

You are doing good. Work is always a challenge for me also. I also have to spend time working on being positive. Like many, I struggle at times with depression and anxiety and I work hard to prevent it. It's worth it - being happy :) I like your goals. I am going to try them too...even more.

Also, congrats on your weightloss achievement. Everything is possible.



Donkey - Sunday Sep 18, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 166.0

I have officially crossed the 20lb weight loss mark.

I am already starting to think ahead to the holidays, trying to figure out how I'm going to handle the extra food.  The month of December is particularly brutal:  work Christmas party, family Christmas party, anniversary dinner, New Year's Eve party and New Year Day's dinner.  Throw in the random possibility of a church or friend Christmas get-together too.  Consistently, in the past, I've gotten so sick of eating by New Year's Eve, but that doesn't mean I still don't celebrate.

The anxiety of my money/house problems has dispersed a bit.  Now I'm starting to focus on needing to find a job that has insurance -- I guess because I got tired of worrying about the house, LOL.  Walking sure does help with stress. 

The hardest part will come in November when day light savings time ends and we change the clocks.  Very hard to remain motivated when faced with the cold and dark.

Progress as of today: 20.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 09/19/2016:
Congratulations on 20 lbs lost! Best wishes on finding job with insurance. Sounds like a plan!!


grannyannie on 09/19/2016:
Congrats!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/19/2016:
OMG congrats! 20lbs is a major success! you must be thrilled.

for the holidays, i HIGHLY recommend having tons of veggie sides, extra, so you can overeat without really hugely a damage to calories. that's my plan, actually...have the veggies ready with the meal. take portions of everything, but the extras only from veggies. don't have dessert aside from tea with equal...that's my suggestion & fruit.

VEGGIES DONKEY.

I agree it's harder with less light. I tend to get a little depressed too.

The most important thing, for both of us, is to keep a positive focus. No matter how bad things are, we must see the LIGHT. We must continue to push ourselves to be our best. This is what i'm thinking too. On my way to work, i saw so much sadness during my drive (homeless asking for money as they walk on the street while we are at the red lights!!!, a child severely handicapped in a wheelchair getting picked up by a special needs schoolbus with a ramp and unable to take care of herself...so much sadness that i cannot even comprehend. I realized not to even worry about being 5 min late to work....there's so many more challenges and worries this world has. I am thankful and for that i am happy.



Donkey - Sunday Sep 11, 2016
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 167.5

Only 2 more pounds before I'm at the 20lb weight loss mark!

I was thinking about how glad I am that I've committed to losing the extra unhealthy weight that I gained while I was in paralegal school and then from my first job as a litigation paralegal, and then the extra weight I put on from my current job as a real estate paralegal.  When I last changed jobs 3.5 years ago, I took less pay and no benefits in exchange for a very short commute.  So I had a few goals for myself:   1) lose the extra weight and 2) work on speaking Spanish better, and 3) learn Quickbooks.  Well, one out of 3 so far....

I made a goal for myself to do better with the monthly budgeting.  I fell off the wagon in June so it's time to get back on.  This has been a struggle for me though.  Just too much to think about, but I can't be an ostrich when it comes to money matters -- as much as I would like to.  Unfortunately, it's one of the major stressors in my life right now that is totally stressing me out but I can't ignore it.

 

Progress as of today: 19 lbs lost so far, only 12.5 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 09/11/2016:
Congratulations - 20 lbs (almost) is great! Finances can be a big stressor. Are you thinking about taking a different job again, or is there potential for raises at your current job? I have recently retired, but would love to come up with a way to earn from home or working only a day or two a week to ease the cash flow a bit. Could you moonlight doing paralegal stuff on an as needed basis?


Horn_of_plenty on 09/12/2016:
Congrats so much with your success! 20lbs is huge! Amazing job to you. You did it because you wanted it.

I am sorry the financial stuff is not working out the way you want it to or as fast as you'd like it to. My suggestion is to take it slow - small goals that you know can be achieved.


im71 on 09/12/2016:
Good Morning Donkey! Congratulations on your weight loss so far. As for the financial stuff, .... remember to always pay yourself first. Even if it's a very small amount. I always told my sons to save 10% of their money, whether it be wages, allowance, gifts etc. Then forget they had it as far as it being available for use. There are 6 of them and some took my advice and some didn't. The ones who did, are now very wealthy. The ones who didn't aren't so well off financially but are doing better than in their younger years as their children are now grown and not dependent on them. I think you've accomplished the most difficult of your goals. LOSING WEIGHT! Many congratulations on that! I'm betting you'll accomplish the other goals as well. Have a great day!



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