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Donkey - Saturday Feb 10, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.0

So frustrated with the number on the scale.   Extra shoveling workouts, plenty of water, extra sleep, no desserts,  bathroom matters in check, stayed on track with food... 3 pound gain, gained 1% fat.  Why must this be a neverending battle?  When is the war won?  

Today is my step-father's memorial service.  The weather is snowy, so I'm not looking forward to the ride down to the suburbs.  Staying the night in a hotel, to visit with family, but it's going to snow overnight, so I'm not looking forward to coming home to a lot of shoveling.  Food and exercise will be a challenge.

Work is starting to get busy, but I'm keeping my stress levels in check so far.  This is the calm before the storm, LOL.

Progress as of today: 55.5 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/10/2018:
I have always heard that is normal to have a 4 pound up and down difference.....Hugs!

horn_of_plenty on 02/12/2018:
i think bc you are stressing, you are trying to calm yourself using the scale - if you weigh everyday, you cannot go by that number...best to do an avg like i do with calories...

or just step on it weekly....you know our bodies aren't going to display the same exact number everyday!

Donkey - Thursday Feb 08, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 128.5

Major snow for the Chicago area tonight and all day tomorrow.  My daughter does not have school tomorrow, so I will let her know that I expect her to keep up with the shoveling while I'm at work - presuming I can get the car out of the garage and the roads aren't too bad.  I am going to bed early tonight, because I anticipate heavy shoveling tomorrow morning.

I've been doing well food -wise and exercise wise.  However, I am not expecting a loss on the scale this week.

Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/09/2018:
The snow...it plagues us all in the Midwest and East.....but I wouldn't change that at all...I'm sure I would get bored if the weather was like summer all of the time.......Snow here too....snow plow already has been down the road today and it is still dark....Hope you can get to work today...( or maybe you hope you can't get out of the driveway?)...either way...hope you have a good day.

Donkey on 02/10/2018:
I've been of the opinion that I would miss the change in seasons if we moved. Let's just say I *REALLY* re-evaluate this statement when I'm shoveling.

horn_of_plenty on 02/09/2018:
Smart choice to go to bed early! Good job getting your daughter to help you with the shoveling :)

i hope the snow is not too bad in the AM :)

you sound happy. Not every week is a loss in weight...I think i'm up a hair so i'll be working on doing better than i did this week for next week.

keep up the good work, you are definitely more on track than when your son first went to training...keep sending him positive letters in the mail, motivate and support him...tell him he can do it, to keep on, to rise above the rest by continuing on even if it's very challenging out there in basic training. he needs your support. just like you like support also :)

Donkey - Monday Feb 05, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 128.5

Oh how I would like to take a shower and get ready for bed, but I have to shovel one more time right before Daughter comes home from work tonight at 9pm.  Oh well, more steps for the FitBit, more exercise for me.

I left work at 4pm today because the snow coming down had all the promises of an awful evening commute.  SO GLAD I DID THIS.  I had come in a half an hour early, and I can do that tomorrow too.  I was all caught up when I left.  I'll probably be busier tomorrow, since I'll have an extra hour of emails to plow through but it was worth it.

Received a letter from my son today.  It may be the only one I get while he's in boot camp.  He's having a hard time coping.  So my letters have been more newsy about what's going on at home, but I think my focus will change to more encouraging and tips for keeping his head in the game.  I'm worried about him.  If you pray, could you please send a prayer his way?  If you don't pray, could you please channel some positive energy his direction?  Think Texas.

Had a food hangover this morning from the Superbowl.  After we were done eating, it hit me that I had eaten something REALLY salty.  I could not get enough water in me.  Woke up this morning feeling all gross. I'm guessing it was the 1.5 slices of pepperoni pizza.  It sure was fun though.

Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/06/2018:
When I was in 7 grade and my Dad was returning to work after being off with blood clots for several months...of course we had a snow storm on his first day back to work...he couldn't drive...so a coworker came in the storm to pick him up...but couldn't get down our street...and had called to have him meet him at the highway...that was about 250 to 300 feet from our house...I had my Mom wake me up at 4 A.M. so I could shovel him a path to the highway.....I had never done that before....and was happy to do it...it was truly a labor of love......( and I watched him walk that not very straight path to the highway and get into that guys car...he never forgot that..and brought it up for the next 40 years....).....You labor of love for your daughter, brought back that memory for me. Sending prayers to your son...that he can handle his new endeavor....it is a big change in lifestyle and I'm sure he will adjust, but it's hard on everyone in the meantime. And yup....pizza equals lots of water later on....

Donkey on 02/08/2018:
That's a wonderful memory! Yes, shoveling is a labor of love.

Maria7 on 02/06/2018:
Yes, I will pray for him. I believe he will adjust and it get easier for him. Have a good day.

Donkey on 02/08/2018:
I hope he adjusts as well. Thank you for your prayers.

horn_of_plenty on 02/06/2018:
encourage him! bootcamp is a mind game!

people quit more to negative thinking than the actual physical aspect...i have read this.

tell him this.

Donkey on 02/08/2018:
I will tell him this. Thank you :-)

happy-1 on 02/06/2018:
Why isn't your daughter shoveling?

Donkey on 02/08/2018:
Yeah, that's a good question -- the answer I got last night is that by the time she gets up in the morning, it's already done. By the time she gets home from work, it's already done...

Not always.

happy-1 on 02/06/2018:
And will send up payers for your son.

Donkey on 02/08/2018:
Thank you!

Donkey - Sunday Feb 04, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 128.5

Snowing and cold here today.  I had a protein packed breakfast, so I'm full, but I just came in from shoveling, and I want to eat, even though I know I'm not hungry.  I'm going to try to wait until after my noon show to have a later lunch.

Our daughter has to work this afternoon, so it's just me and Mr. Donkey for Superbowl dinner.  Neither one of us has much invested in either team, though.  Usually I buy a bunch of finger foods, and we have an hors d'ouevers menu for dinner.  But with son and daughter gone, I thought we'd have a treat of pizza for dinner, with tortilla & raw vegetables to go with guacamole, hummus, and fres salsa (more like a pico de gallo if you ask me). 

A month ago, I dyed my hair a dark brown, and as the color was starting to fade, I went with "soft black" this weekend.  While not a complete disaster, I do not like it as much as much.  The brown has warm undertones which suit my skintone better than the cool undertones of the black, which make me look wane and washed out (read: old & tired).  Maybe I'll get used to it, but if not, I'm not too worried as it will wash out in about 4-6 weeks.

My boss comes back to work at the end of the week.  Not really looking forward to his return.  He will want to talk about his fabulous vacation and what he missed here at the office, and I'd rather just be left alone to do my work, since I can't trust anyone with anything that is said any more.  Also, Superbowl weekend kicks off the real estate season (believe it or not), and even with the cold and snow, things will start to get busier, unfortunately. 

Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/04/2018:
No superbowl for us this year....if they can't stand for the anthem we can't turn on their game....first year in a long time we will miss...but we are fine with it.....e have the major winter here too...and it is actually beautiful...next month that will probably start to change....I love living where there are season changes.

Donkey on 02/05/2018:
I've come to realize that I would really miss the change in seasons, too, which makes picking out our next destination rather difficult.

Then I look out the window and see a ton of snow, and think, FLORIDA. ;-) (not really)

horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
glad you and Mr. Donkey have some time to unwind tonight.

I'd planned on gym, but ended up being too tired so was left to lay on couch, but didn't turn on the superbowl. was so weird without the gym and plans for last night LOL.

yeah, i think brown on you is also nicer, but black can be a change of pace...your skin isn't as light as mine, thankfully, so i'm sure it looks better than most white women who dye their hair black....your skin has a little olive so that can help.

Donkey on 02/05/2018:
Definitely not doing the black any more. Just not my thing. So dark brown or going light again...

horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
yes, def better to stay drama free by being quiet at work. that's what i do & it's going to work for me...as it has been as of late...

also, good for you on getting back to the weight you want...scale is only day to day and our bodies naturally aren't going to give you the same read out everyday. ...ok, you know this, keep on doing the good things.

myself - i'm going to also be working on getting back to a healthier routine - especially getting away from some of the carbs - ESPECIALLY with breakfast. i'm going to try to be eating meat (egg/turkey/etc) as my breakfast - and be leaving the peanut butter on bread for awhile, i think, as i feel i need something more filling..

Donkey on 02/05/2018:
I like to switch it up, but find myself going back to the oatmeal with walnuts... with almond milk if I have it, otherwise, water is fine. I change it up with dark cocoa powder, pumpkin pie spice, or a TBSP of dried cranberries (not that option too often).

horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
oh and i'm glad you had the raw veggies with the dinner treats. i think i might do this tomorrow with the office pizza...perhaps i will have a slice!!!!!! denying myself just hurts me in the end and i'll binge..so i might just take part...learning moderation still myself. :)

Donkey on 02/05/2018:
Not sure what it was but I woke up with a food hangover this morning...

Donkey - Saturday Feb 03, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 128.5

Right where I belong at 128.5, and it's been a productive week as far as goals and putting things into their proper perspective.  

I adjusted my "goal weight" on my FitBit tracker to a maintenance mode of 125.  I started the year at 128.5 and seem to be maintaining that number plus or minus (mostly plus) 2 pounds.  That's maintenance.  I haven't changed my goal weight here, though, because I do want to see the progress that I made this time around in losing (the same) weight.

Also, I'm playing with the idea of limiting my steps/activity from week to week.  One week, I will aim to have a step goal of 15,000 steps a day, and then the next week, lower the goal to 10,000.  That will serve 2 purposes:

  1. Keep my body guessing, which hopefully would result in lower numbers (Is that really what I want?)
  2. Give my body rest

Had a revelation from one of my comments earlier this week:  the scale does not always reward healthy choices.  The scale(s) really messed with my mind this week.  I had that big sweet potato for lunch (a healthy choice but lots of carbs), but the scale showed I lost 2 pounds, and yet, the body fat scale said that I GAINED 1% body fat.  WHAT????  So what does that mean?:

  1. Made high carb choice, but still lost weight
  2. Lost weight, but gained fat.

This is just crazy.

 PS  BEST ACCOMPLISHMENT THIS WEEK:  Loads of work drama, and I pretty much stayed out of it.  YES!

Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/03/2018:
I used to hear the same things at WW over the years....people would be shocked when they lost after a off program week...and would not lose the weeks they were on program...I've also heard that the results on the scale really reflect about 4 weeks ago...instead of recent days...I don't know about that...but I do know for myself that I have to continually shake things up...I can never let myself get into a diet routine where I eat the same things over and over and never vary the daily calories.......my metabolism slows right down to nothing and then I start gaining because of that...I have to continually shake things up to keep moving down...now maintenance is something else though.....I can get out of hand with that real fast....I love the idea that you have maintained for the last year....that can be very difficult.

bearcountrygg on 02/03/2018:
Congrats on ignoring the work problems...it makes being there so much easier I'm sure.

Donkey - Wednesday Jan 31, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.5

Thank you all for your kind words of sympathy and support 

Today was a hungry day.  I hate it when it's like that.  To self-critique, I probably ate too many carbs, including a large sweet potato for lunch, a 100 calorie bag of popcorn (thanks, Maria7!), 2 slices of (diet) bread, and a Fiber One cinnamon "cake" cube thing.

I switched things up this week, because I ran out of almond milk, so instead of having oatmeal with walnuts in the morning, I'm having toast with organic peanut butter.

Hoping for a better weigh-in this week.  I took Horn's self-discipline attitude regarding her workouts, and decided that if I want the numbers to go the way I want them to go, I will need to be self-discipled about it, and deny some things that I would indulge in.  Then today happened, LOL.

PS  Threw out the rest of the cake this morning.

Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/01/2018:
i really do not think that a large sweet potato is gonna kill you....the benefits def outweigh any pitfalls, truthfully.

i sometimes eat a massive banana and tell myself the potassium and all outweighs the sugar crash i tend to get...lol.

Donkey on 02/01/2018:
This is where the scale and I clash. A large sweet potato on a "hungry day" is a great choice. But the carbs will show up on the scale (water retention). The scale doesn't always reward the better choice.

horn_of_plenty on 02/01/2018:
good change of pace with the oatmeal. i am getting SO SICK of my breakfast of peanut butter on a wrap....deciding to switch to eggs next week on a wrap...i seriously cannot do anymore nut butters right now. even getting sick of the wrap so soon i'll switch that to something else too (diff bread of some sort).

and your note on self discipline - i am getting weaker each time i am at the gym - i can tell bc i am going down in the weights i use. my current fitness plan didn't include bicep curls and i tried them last night and cringed at how difficult they were getting for me! so i am adding them back into my routine despite my fitness plan not including them...

also, in order for me to get better at this very hard fitness plan - just like you are doing with i think eating or weight - i realize it needs to be a 3x a week venture, not 2x. so, despite my desire to not go on friday nights or sunday nights, i'll be including those nights for awhile since that's the best way right now for me to get in 3x a week sessions....i'm doing the uncomfortable to make improvements. if i stick to 2x a week or just don't think about a plan, i see myself not improving much...so cheers to making a commitment and plan to make things happen.

and things DO HAPPEN if you work at it. people at my new job...they have asked if i go to gym and ask what i do. they think i'm so fit...little do they know i've been working at it (mostly on but sometimes i've had to take off bc injuries as you are aware) but i've been working at this goal - the weights - for YEARS. little do they know, i started weights around 22yrs old. now i'm 35. that's 13 years, mostly on a regular schedule - but the results you couldn't really see the first several years...maybe until i turned 30! so, we must learn to always appreciate the PROCESS it takes, not the result.

for me, appreciating the process means struggling right now at the gym with the new routine bc i have confidence deep down that i'm going to improve. right now, i can quit bc i am so terrible at the exercises, but i'd rather just keep on...and keep in my mind that with 3x a week of practice, i may just be able to improve enough to be a court officer...right now it's downright scary...but i'd rather be excited to try out the process..which is why i am continuing.

Donkey on 02/01/2018:
I do remember! It seems as though you have the "Before Injury", the "Injury" (when you couldn't do anything), and now the "After Injury".

I confess that I was doing some research into older entries (from random public members -- I've communicated to you about doing this), and I came across your entries when you were talking about running 6-7 miles. And then some of your entries while you were recovering, and now of course, where you are now.

I'm going to give some thought to what you said about enjoying the process.

bearcountrygg on 02/01/2018:
Sweet potatoes are good for you! And the cake can be portioned out and frozen.

Donkey on 02/01/2018:
Ugh - why didn't I think ahead of time to freeze the leftover cake??? GREAT idea!

horn_of_plenty on 02/02/2018:
Donkey...if it's only water weight for eating a sweet potato....eat the sweet potato!!!!!!!

Maria7 on 02/02/2018:
Glad you enjoyed that 100 calories bag of popcorn. I know I enjoy mine! Smile!

Donkey - Monday Jan 29, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.5

 A couple of things...

#1 - My step-father passed away yesterday morning.  May God bless him.  When he was initially diagnosed with liver cancer, the doctor said that with the course of treatment he chose, he would have about 7 years, and sure enough, he had passed 6.5 years right before the holidays so almost 7 years.  It was an empty, gray, cold day, with not much purpose.  I felt like a zombie for most of the day, but tried to be active here and there.  (This is where my FitBit was helpful, because it helped me stay on track to be active enough.)  The memorial will be in 2 weeks.

#2 - Because Papa passed away, we were able to get a message to my son via the Red Cross, which got my son a 15 minute phone call home.  He called Mr. Donkey, which is fine because I was at work and I know my husband has been so worried about him.  I write letters almost every day, so I feel connected to my son, but my husband hasn't written - not his thing, I guess - so he's been left to stew in his anxiety.  Thank you, Red Cross.

Now we have his graduation date, so we're making plans to go down to Texas to see him graduate from basic training in March.  That is something to look forward to. Even though it will be a financial strain, I wouldn't miss this.

Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/30/2018:
Hugs. Big hugs. You are loved, you are wanted and you are not alone.

bearcountrygg on 01/30/2018:
Hugs to you....it's not easy losing a parent...I've been there......but good that you were able to get contact with your son.

horn_of_plenty on 01/30/2018:
I'm so sorry to hear about your step father's passing - but now he is at peace i am totally sure.

I'm so glad your husband spoke with your son - this must have you feeling way better. <3

innerpeace on 01/30/2018:
Sorry to hear about your step-dad. My step dad was the best person I ever knew, I still miss him. I also went to San Antonio to see my son's basic training graduation, it was in July, so very hot and humid. Is your son Air Force or Army? If the Air Force, they make a big three day show of it, very, very pomp and circumstance. I don't remember my Army basic training being a three day affair like that.

Donkey on 01/31/2018:
Air Force :-) I got the schedule and it has been downsized into a 2 day affair, and then they get the weekend free, as well. I can't wait to see him...

Donkey - Sunday Jan 28, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.5

Well, I suck.

I went off the deep end last night.  I can't recall if I was truly hungry, but I was having a yearning to eat.  The problem started with having a late lunch on the road, coming home from the band competition.  So I was hungry at around 7pm but nobody else was.  Also, I was missing my son something terrible.  We haven't heard from him yet.  We thought he'd be able to call home on Friday, but here we are on Sunday and no phone call.  I hope he's not mad at us.  And I hope he's OK.

So I was missing my son, and I am tired of having his good-bye cake staring me in the face at the dinner table every night this past week, so I had a slice of the cake.  And then another.  And some of his favorite Oreo cookie ice cream.  After that, I wanted a proper dinner though, so I had an Italian beef sandwich (with cheese - which I never do).  But then I wanted dessert, so I had more Oreo ice cream, with whipped cream and sprinkles.

After that, I was full.  Way full, but not painfully full.

I'm not so upset with myself for eating so much, as I believe that it's probably a good thing to have a day where I eat more, to keep the metabolism jumping and guessing.  And Saturdays are my "relax" day as far as eating is concerned.  As I was eating the cake and ice cream, I was reconciling with myself that I was truly saying good-bye to my son.  Not that we won't see him again, but that the boy that left this week is gone.  He will come back a man, and everything has changed forever.

What I *AM* upset about, though, is that I am not happy with the numbers on the scale and yet I go and do this.  Now where is the logic in that....

Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/28/2018:
In my little world I call that a food fit!!!! I know for me it happens at times of anger, frustration and helplessness..

You are absolutely right...your son will come home a man and you will really enjoy the changes. I'm sure he is just fine, he's learning a lot of new things right now and they want his full attention...but it's hard on parents for sure.

Donkey on 01/28/2018:
I never even thought to consider that I would enjoy the changes in my son the next time we meet - wow! That's my "glass-half-empty" thinking... These patterns are so hard to break <tsk, tsk>

Maria7 on 01/28/2018:
I get disgusted with myself at times, too because I am a 'stress-eater'. I use food to comfort myself when going through extra stress. Try to tell yourself that you deserve a treat and allow yourself the peace in that. It is not easy to let go and trust that all is well but ask the Lord to give you peace about it and I believe that He will. He sure helps me.

Donkey on 01/28/2018:
Very good guidance - thank you :-)

happy-1 on 01/28/2018:
Oh, honey. Big hugs.Sounds like a perfectly good reason to go off the deep end. Your boy is still there, just gets wrapped in a new layer of bark like a tree.

Donkey on 01/29/2018:
True! I guess he can't stay little forever, can he?

horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2018:
Good luck to your daughter !!!!....you have a lot of emotions going on bc son has left - try to get back to your feeling better and eating better. - these feelings will pass....

horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2018:
You are going to be ok - get rid of the cakes.

Please focus on you a little more - the trip I'd have a hard time also - burning a lot of calories being out and on the trip and walking around and socializing. - maybe next time seriously bring a snack for if you get hungry ?

But please concentrate on you now - do something for you and try to get back to your routine ....

I def see where you are coming from with our son and I am very sure it's difficult but instead of being so sad - try to connect his training and being away with being happy ....for him

Donkey on 01/29/2018:
The cake has been moved to another room. I should have thrown it out. I think tomorrow I will do that. Everyone but me has forgotten it.

I do think of him every morning as I struggle to get out of bed early so that I can workout. I know he has to be up at 4:45a. I struggle at 5:30a! And I get to sit on my bike, watch TV, and have a cup of coffee! -- Not exactly an accurate connection :-)

horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2018:
regarding your other comments to my entries, i think REST days are ok...just wish that we had more days off to do that haha....always things to do, even myself LOL.

Donkey - Saturday Jan 27, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.5

Gained 2.5 pounds. Not happy.

Taking a road trip today to see my daughter perform with the high school band at the state competition later this morning. It is sure to delight!

Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/27/2018:
Have fun today!

Donkey on 01/27/2018:
It was wonderful! It took more of the day than I had expected, but the music was wonderful. My daughter's group did really well! And it was nice to spend time with my husband and my daughter, before she leaves us soon too...

Maria7 on 01/28/2018:
Try not to stress about the gain during this winter season. You've come a long way.

Donkey - Wednesday Jan 24, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 128.0

Went back to work, although I was still feeling like a Zombie...  My heart wasn't really in it, which REALLY helped me keep a PROPER and HEALTHY distance from my involvement in the files.  Also, not having my heart into my work helped me appreciate what my co-worker did while I was away, as she covered my emails.

It was so dead last week, but the 2 days I was out, it was like crazy-busy, and everyone wanted everything NOW.  Seriously, people -- it's real estate.  It's not a trial, where your personal freedom is at stake.  It's not surgery where your health/life is at stake.  I felt so bad for my co-worker, even though she was one of the backstabbers in December.  So a couple of things I said to her, that I think helped:

  1. "While we don't do it this way, you had a difficult situation and you made the best of it.  And the important thing is that we close the deal, and you've made that happen."  AND
  2. "I'm so sorry it was crazy like that.  I swear it was so slow last week, I honestly didn't think there would be many issues for you to handle while I was gone.  You did so well - thank you!"

This is awful to say, but it seems that in order to keep my sanity, I have to be less invested in producing a better work product.  Otherwise, I get so uptight, upset, and stressed, so that while it's done correctly, I'm a mess and nobody likes me.  That sucks.

Anyway, trying to be more intuitive at dinner.  Must work on eating slower, I think.  I think that will help me eat less.  Trying to stay away from the leftover chocolate cake.  I didn't do so well yesterday.  Had 3 small slivers after dinner, even though I wrote about the cake here in DD right before dinner.  Tonight, made myself a cup of decaf.  That will hold me.

Goals Progress:  I bought my next color for my hair.  January was "dark brown", and the next box is "soft black".  Still sticking to a dress pallet of navy, black, and gray -- makes getting dressed in the morning SO much quicker and easier.  Keeping up with my daily Gratitude diary.

But I need to add a temporary goal for the end of this month and February, to stay at 128-ish and not let the stress and sadness overcome me and creep back into the 130s.

Progress as of today: 58.5 lbs lost so far, only -8.5 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/24/2018:
"This is awful to say, but it seems that in order to keep my sanity, I have to be less invested in producing a better work product. Otherwise, I get so uptight, upset, and stressed, so that while it's done correctly, I'm a mess and nobody likes me. That sucks."

I know exactly how you feel... but a company rarely has more than one badly done deal/project in them. The second one kills it.

Do you ever read fail blogs?

bearcountrygg on 01/25/2018:
I'm glad that you were able to praise your co worker......hopefully that changes both of your feeling towards each other...the work environment is so important.....and we all need all of the allies we an get.....makes going to work a lot easier. Also it does help adjustment when kids leave home to remember that they are starting a whole new life of being adults and it's exciting and scary for them too....and one day.......you and hubby will have the entire house to yourself...and that's a GOOD THING!!!!!

horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2018:
one thing - on the things you said to your coworker...you said "i'm so sorry it was busy"...well it's NOT your fault. try not to apolgize for anything that isn't your fault...keep confidence....maybe talk more later. :) welcome back to work. now it's time for you to take care of you, now that your son is away. and write him. you can even write him while you are at work and mail from work - if this is more convenient for you. short letters. tell him to keep his head up and the first part of the training i believe is the hardest, mentally.

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