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Donkey - Monday Jul 14, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 116.5

Time to cut the crap and face the music.

Progress as of today: 27.5 lbs lost so far, only -13.5 lbs to go!

thinnsidenotout on 07/14/2008:
???? You talkin to us or you went too far ???? 116.5 ? Whew! When did that happen? You have a pretty good buffer range in 13.5 below goal.... Are you feeling o.k.?

Take care & be healthy donkey!


mmuraro on 07/14/2008:
hey, good to see you back. i like what you wrote too, it's exactly what i have been thinking to myself and why i wrote my new entry. i hope you're doing okay, let us know more. xo


Beth201P on 07/14/2008:
I know what you mean.... Have a good night.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/14/2008:
i agree (about me!)


Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/14/2008:
oh...welcome back!


Jen40 on 07/15/2008:
Welcome back!!!


WI3 on 07/15/2008:
hey hey welcome back!


sweetpea1977 on 07/15/2008:
Welcome back Donkey! You sound like me from 3 weeks ago!

What is your plan of attack? I cant wait to find out. :o)


WI3 on 07/18/2008:
Just stopping by to say hello and I hope all is well with you. Thanks for the advice on the treadmill repairs...I am almost done with them and I'll be back in business. =)



Donkey - Friday Mar 28, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 135.0

I have not continued to do well. That is, the past 2 days were not very good at all. I dread going back to work. But I will be fine once I get there. Over Spring Break, I have had the opportunity to talk about my job to several people who did not know what I was doing. It really helped to get it off my chest, some of my anxieties and doubts, as well as some of the positive things that I like about the job.

Job job job -- it's just a JOB! It's not like it's my LIFE! So enough about the job already :-)

I realize that this current round of weight struggles started once I decided to come off of maintenance range (128lb - 132lbs) and try to lose more weight. I think that, yes, perhaps my body and mind is more content at a higher weight (yuck), say 130-135. This angers me, but it's something that I should probably learn to accept.

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

thinnsidenotout on 03/28/2008:
Have a great weekend!..... One of these days you will feel better about EVERYTHING and maybe then you can get started back on track and try again..At your weight (boy, I think the last time I saw that I was 12), you are probably not really all that bad off are you, for a while at least?


crategrl on 03/28/2008:
One thing you should be proud of is that you catch yourself and get into action. My fustration is that 5 years ago I was at 158lbs and so darn happy with the weight I lost. When I hit 165 I should have gone into weight loss mode. Instead i kept letting it go and here I am over 200lbs. I think it awesome that you are determined to get back to your comfortable weight!!


Beth201P on 03/28/2008:
Have a wonderful weekend. Hang in there and you will find the best weight that works for you. I can't wait until I reach that 135 pound mark. ((Hugs))


mylifechanges on 03/28/2008:
aww hang in there donkey...remember to take it a day at a time. you can do it! :)


mmuraro on 03/29/2008:
Mark Twain said: it's only work if i would rather be doing something else. :) So we gotta work to do something else and what matters is life. Me and a good friend always say to each other: "I'll call you at the best time of the day" which is 6 when he leave work. hehe.

Focus on yourself, your health and work is work. It sucks by definition. :) xo.


shadetree on 04/19/2008:
Thinking of you!


biscottibody59 on 05/05/2008:
RYC: Not sure which comment of mine prompted that--probably all of 'em lately!

Hope you find some time to update one of these days! Something!

Hang in there Donkey friend! (See ya' later?)


greengirl on 05/09/2008:
Hey Donkey, Ive bit the bullet and come back !! It would be good to have your company, chuck !!


sweetpea1977 on 05/20/2008:
Hey Donkey,

Thanks for the Mommy and Me suggestion. I will look into it, since Im looking for additional mommy friends as well as an effective way to become healthier. My only concern is cost of these classes - our finances are a little tight due to living on a single income.

I hope you are doing well!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/03/2008:
hi donkey! i keep meaning to leave you a message to say thanks for all of your recent comments on my journal. i think its great that you are still checking in with us. when you get the time, i cannot wait to start reading your entries again! :)


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/17/2008:
thank you for your suggestion today. for some reason, it really helped me not binge further. also, i loved your suggestion on girly pushups! I now do a little at usually everyday. you know, at the very beginning when you first reccommended them, i could not do 3 sets of 15!!! you are in great shape! now, luckily, i have built myself up a little and can make it through. i loved the push up suggestion...and all of your suggestions.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/29/2008:
so are you done with your job for the summer since school is out???

haha, i am still doing pushups thanks to you. and yes, i've eaten hords of fiber one bars in the past too! I am very good at finishing boxes of granola bars.



Donkey - Wednesday Mar 26, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 135.0

I have not posted in a while. My weight was WAY out of control during the week of Easter, climaxing at 138.5 on Monday. I think between the stress at work and the stress at home, I just wanted to eat until I felt nothing at all.

I am happy to say that I feel that I am getting back on track. Already the numbers are heading back down to maintenance range (128-132). I am at 135 right now. I can feel the extra bloating on my body, but I actually feel better mentally and physically weighing a little more.

Is that possible? Is it possible to feel heavier and yet feel good about it? Or am I just in so deep of a state of denial that all hope is lost? (well, not "lost" but "out to sea")

This week, I am off of work, Husband is on vacation and the kids are off of school. We are spending the time just relaxing at home, doing fun stuff and other necessities around town. I told my Daughter (7) that even though we did not do anything fancy or go anywhere for the vacation, that this is so nice just to be together as a family without the daily stress of work and work. And work.

Did I mention that I've come to the realization that my new job is really stressing me out? I definitely need to work on relaxing about that. I'm at the point now where if I don't pass probation (90 working days), that would be ok with me. I will apologize for not being up to their standards and thank them so much for the learning experience and the opportunity to try, even though I was unsuccessful. I will also thank them for the opportunity to meet so many nice people and be a part of the "family" for the time that I was employed. I will smile and hold my head high as I walk out of that office.

Of course I will miss the nice paycheck and the people that I've befriended. But hey, life goes on, and I'm a survivor. I'll be ok.

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

thinnsidenotout on 03/26/2008:
Glad to see your post today...and that you are back on track....

Have a wonderful time with your family...


crategrl on 03/27/2008:
Sounds like you are adjusting your attitude about the importance of a stressful job. Keep up the great attitude and you will do just fine!


shadetree on 03/28/2008:
Maybe your body just likes to be 135 better than 130? What's wrong with 135 - that's 10 pounds under my goal...(I know, you are not me...)

Enjoy your week off with the family!



Donkey - Saturday Mar 15, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 132.0

Isn't it a shame that the weight doesn't come off as easily as we can put it on? Still, I am definitely feeling more motivated to stay on track. My sinus infection is improving as well. Still there, but every day is a little better.

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

thinnsidenotout on 03/15/2008:
Often said..how easy it would be if it worked reversed...I guess it is suppose to be a lesson to learn. To not gain it back after ALL the hard work/effort, so you don't have to do it all over again...TAKES FOREVER!!!!!

Have a great weekend!


Beth201P on 03/15/2008:
I wish it would come off that easy also. LOL Hope your sinus infection is better real soon. I know those hurt. Have a good weekend.


mmuraro on 03/15/2008:
If the weight came off just as quickly, we wouldn't have enough time to learn how to eat healthy and what works for us to use for good during the weight loss process. :)

I still can see another half a pound gone there! You're doing great. If I was your weight now, I would be 18 pounds UNDER my goal. Hahaha. Enjoy, I am sure you look and feel fantastic!


uni4sept2008 on 03/15/2008:
Feel lots better! sinus infections, especially with this seasons quick weather change is never good!


greengirl on 03/15/2008:
Sinus infection ! Yukk!!!!

I tell you Donkey, it was scary how quickly and how much weight I put back on in just a few weeks of weakness. Thank goodness I finally pulled up and started back on the straight and narrow. It will take me until the summer just to get back to where I was last summer. You stay strong before you do the same thing (you always were the strong one amongst us!!!). Take care :)



Donkey - Friday Mar 14, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 132.5

Survived another week! And the bingeing weight seems to be coming off slowly.

On Thursday I did not go to the gym after all. I did some extra driving to check out a route I would be driving later on in the afternoon (good thing too, because there was a tricky turn/curve that I spotted ahead of time). Then I came home to find that my kids forgot their snack (dd) and lunch (ds), so I drove over to the schools to deliver said food.

So it wasn't in the cards yesterday. Today I did go workout, and took it nice and easy for 65 minutes on the elliptical. However, I regretted my decision afterwards. I realized I should have come home and rested. I still have this awful sinus infection. Get this -- I cleared up at the gym and at work but the minute I come home, I start to clog up again. I wonder if the dander from the cats is causing my sinuses to go into overdrive. Hmm...

But I digress. I'm glad that my weight is back into maintenance range (127-133 is my official range). The weather seems to be improving here and there too which is wonderful for the morale.

My goal for the next week is to try to have "fun" at the job, not to get so stressed out or take things too personally over there. If they are going to fire me, that's their problem not mine. In the meantime, I will try to do the best that I can do. Otherwise, stress eating will be my demise.

Progress as of today: 11.5 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

thinnsidenotout on 03/14/2008:
Every time I walk with my friend, she uses about a whole pocket packet of tissues...She cannot get her sinuses to clear up that good any other time..She has suffered way less often headaches as well....

Do'nt let the stress mess with your eating healthy and staying in your "range"... Sunshine does the soul/mind wonders does'nt it?....

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!


shadetree on 03/14/2008:
Yay! maintenance range! Whole new attitude! have a great weekend!



Donkey - Thursday Mar 13, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 133.0

Thankfully the weight is coming back down.

Thank you all so much for your supportive comments. You are right, no job is worth sacrificing my health for. That really helps put things into perspective for me.

It was very hard not to binge last night but I have to make the decision if I want the food more than I want to lose the weight. Last night, the "lose the weight" won.

I am very tired. I only get 7 hours of sleep, and I am still falling asleep around 8p or so. I am debating whether to go workout during my break or come home and sleep for 2 hours.

Progress as of today: 11 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

mskitty on 03/13/2008:
Wow! I have not had the time to really read other posts of late due to all the stress I was under.... And I guess I am not the only one here. Yeah I'll admit I am have fallen off that wagon! But I believe we can get through this. Thats not the only job out there. There are plenty more where that one came from. Maybe it wont make as much money or what not but... You can always take on 2 part time jobs that you love... Something fun creative and adventuress. I am looking for work at the moment too... and I am waiting for word from a publishing and printing office to get ahold of me... I have to decide to hold out for that one or take this other job thats at a Lumber store... not very glamerouse for sure...and I really don't want it. SIgh and my mother is driving me nutts and my wedding plans are falling through I have not Exercised in 2 weeks...I am going batty .... So I am right off of the wagon there with ya.... and I think we can help each other up again. Hang in there....


Beth201P on 03/13/2008:
Hey that is what we all are here for, to help each other make it to our goals. Sometimes, you need to get the rest more than the exercise. Your body needs them both. I am just starting to learn to listen to what my body is telling me. Have great day.


shadetree on 03/13/2008:
Yay! It's the mini-battles that we win that help get the momentum back. One day at a time, Donkey!



Donkey - Wednesday Mar 12, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 135.0

I have been struggling with eating very badly lately. I cannot seem to get back on track. Now I am starting to get sick, on top of being too stressed and too tired. I am re-evaluating my priorities.

I got a job so that I would be out of the house and away from food. Yet the stress from the job is defeating that very purpose. So something needs to change and for the better!

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

rlovell on 03/12/2008:
HI!!! buck up! you can do it! xo


crategrl on 03/12/2008:
Don't let a job stress you to the point that it affects your health. If need be find a new job as life is too short!


Beth201P on 03/12/2008:
I agree with categrl.....no job is worth your health. Hang in there and take care of you before your job. Hugs


thinnsidenotout on 03/12/2008:
Here is something that was in an entry from a few days back....

An exerpt from a Greg Landry Writing: �Have you noticed that just about every week is a "rough week????" By that I mean that things just don't happen exactly as you'd like them to. A variety of circumstances affect your schedule and your available time."

"With that in mind, if you're going to exercise on a regular basis, exercise has to be high enough on your priority list to survive the "rough weeks." For example, during "rough weeks" do you eat, sleep, and brush your teeth every day? Of course you do, because they are priorities in your life. If exercise is important enough to you then put it high on your priority list. Make your exercise "rough week" proof."

I do'nt give this to you as a "preaching at you".... It is just that there are ALWAYS going to be things in our life that are going to "mess" things up, but we have to prioritize the important things to us (should be our health) and get through our "growing pains"... You have every right to be discouraged/mad/P.O'd/Etc.... but turn that energy to be a positive one... :}

I sure hope you can get through this rough patch and start to feel better about your circumstances..... :)


greengirl on 03/12/2008:
Do whatever you have to do to keep well, Donkey. It's not worth making yourself ill for. Take care, my friend :)


shadetree on 03/12/2008:
If you don't NEED the job, maybe you need to find something else. I hate to see people making themselves sick all because of stress...when they don't need to be stressed. If you really took this job to get out of the house and be a little healthier, I think you see the contradiction here...

Hope you figure out what you need to do - whatever that may be! Have a peaceful evening!


mmuraro on 03/12/2008:
Take a good care of yourself and you'll get back on track. You're so close to your goal! :)



Donkey - Sunday Mar 09, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 136.0

OK, there's no more denying it. I've fallen way off the wagon. It has been a horribly stressful week, with not enough sleep and too much stress at work. I spent most of this week in fear of getting fired. I can't continue to live another week like this. So I am making some changes.

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

workingit2 on 03/09/2008:
Don't sweat it, what will be, will be. It is what it is and all that good stuff. Just do the best you can and if it isn't good enough for them, or the job, then it wasn't supposed to be. You are not a screwup or a jerk, so if you are making mistakes at work they are honest and not done out of malice or sloth. Pat yourself on the back and be proud of what you have accomplished. Seriously as much as I hate to drive, it is daunting as heck to me to think about driving a bus. So, be proud because I am darn sure proud of you!


Beth201P on 03/09/2008:
Hey...don't beat yourself up. I have fallen off the wagon many times hitting my head everytime. LOL Just get up dust yourself off and jump back on. I hope next week is a lot better for you. Just remember when you are getting stressed, stop take a deep breath and then continue. Hugs...


greengirl on 03/09/2008:
I'm right there with you Donkey, including the stress at work. Keep your chin up Kiddo !!!


rlovell on 03/09/2008:
i know how the work stress gets, and also affects your eating negatively. just remember that when it all comes down to it all you really have is yourself and therefore your health! you can get a new job anytime (maybe not that easy) but its not worth it to sabotage the rest of your life of living healthfully. congrats on making the changes to make it better. xo



Donkey - Monday Feb 25, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 129.5

I am posting here tonight because I have commented on a few journal entries, and if anyone has anything to say to me about that, I would prefer they comment on a more current diary entry than my self-revelation entry that I had over the weekend.

I had a very challenging day at work today, driving a school bus on a country route (in the snow) with no idea where I was going -- except that I had my little Garmin GPS unit with me. WHAT A DIFFERENCE!!!! OMGosh! For the first time since I started driving in January, I actually feel that I can do this job! WOW!!!

We are expecting 6-9 inches of snow tonight. So I hope it's a snow day tomorrow! No work, but of course, I'll be at the gym :-) But if not, if I have to go into work, that would be fine too, although I don't relish driving in the snow.

Today i had to help a kid in a wheelchair get on the school bus (using a lift). Got out of the bus to operate the lift and fell HARD on my donkey. Ouch! Thankfully (?) I do have some padding there still so I don't think I'll be hurting too badly. So I guess fat does serve some purpose.

Progress as of today: 14.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

thinnsidenotout on 02/25/2008:
Glad to hear you got some relief from "Garmin".... and that you didn't hurt yourself when you landed on yer "eehaaw".....

Have a careful and wonderful tomorrow if you have to get out in the snow....


mmuraro on 02/25/2008:
YAY! The GPS works. Im so happy for you. Congratulations on that! :)


starlight on 02/26/2008:
I hope the GPS unit works well for you on your routes. Oh, the anxiety. I can just imagine how you must feel when you have to turn around cuz you missed a turn, thus being late. It WILL get better.


shadetree on 02/26/2008:
Am I hoping you got snow? sounds like you want a snow day...We lucked and only got about an inch - we are right between two bands that came through...Glad the GPS works for you. YAY! I knew you'd find a way to get it done! Glad your donkey is okay! Have a good day, whatever you find yourself doing!


CritterMom on 02/26/2008:
Let's hear it for a "positive" to having a good-sized "donkey". Hope you're not too black and blue after your fall.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/26/2008:
i sure hope that your "donkey" feels better!! hehe.

sometimes there are certain words i just about NEVER get right! so, thank you for calling that to my attention or it would have continued!!! Lose...it seems so easy...haha


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/26/2008:
It's really, really good to hear that you feel better about your route and your abilities as a new bus driver! I knew you could do it!


legcramps on 02/26/2008:
LOL!!! :)

Glad you had a better day, even though you ended up on your donkey. I'm sorry, i'm still laughing.... everyone's entries lately are absolutely HILARIOUS for some reason. Have you noticed that, or am I just going nuts?



Donkey - Sunday Feb 24, 2008
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 129.5

(NOTE: Skip down to the last paragraph if you are only interested in hearing about stuff related to weight loss.)

Thank you so much for everyone who responded and offered me assistance! I so much appreciate EVERYTHING that has been said.

One thing I wanted to clear up was that I do not drive a regular driving route (yet), because I am still on probation (i.e. "Newbie"). So every afternoon, I go into work not knowing where I'll be driving, and which bus I'll be driving.

Believe it or not, every school bus is different! Different controls, different seats (my seat on Friday was wobbly!), a different feel to the brakes, everything! If it's not comfortable, as it was on Friday, driving on a wobbly seat, it can be very unnerving.

I do very well when I drive in my neighborhood. So I **KNOW** if I had a regular route, I would be just fine, because I know where I'm going, I would know the kids, I would know my bus. But being a Newbie is like being thrown into the deep end of the swimming pool not knowing how to swim! Imagine how that feels!

I did get myself a GPS device that will show me where I'm going (and yes, it is a Garmin, not a Tom Tom). I was playing with the device on Friday. Saturday was consumed with a mini-family reunion in Chicago. So today I'm taking the Garmin out for a drive in my car. I'm going to a few subdivisions that are not familiar to me (some that I drove in on Friday, some that I have never been to as of yet), and see how it goes.

I think that will help me A LOT. Even if it's just a mental boost to the confidence. If nothing else, it should help me to get back on track if I skip a turn or a bus stop.

I realized after I poured my soul onto Diet Diaries, that I *had* to let go of my anxiety so that I could "recharge" myself over the weekend. What is done is done, and I can't do anything to change it. The kids got home safely -- even though they were late -- and the bus was undamaged, and that's the important thing in the Big Picture for now. I can't go back and change it now. If I get fired, it will hurt, but I will be ok.

I need to go into the new week with as much confidence and optimism as possible. If I don't, I will continue to be muddled with anxiety, which will cause me to make even more mistakes.

OK, so what does this have to do with weight loss? Well, I'm taking this approach into my weight loss plan as well. First, I've decided that I want my weight to be securely in the 120s, not teetering on the 130 line so much. Secondly, I'm taking a rest from weight training this week and maintaining the status quo on the cardio (elliptical). Come March 1, I can start up a new weight training routine (using free weights this time) and I'm going to start running outside again, regardless of Winter or weather or what. Running outdoors restores my self-confidence, and I can no longer sit inside waiting for this to happen.

So thank you all again for your advice and insight. I'm going into this week with determination to make it my best week ever. I won't give up until my bus is parked on Friday afternoon! :-)

Progress as of today: 14.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

MsKitty on 02/24/2008:
Nice bounce back!!! Good for you. I know things will look brighter for you now.


Moody2 on 02/24/2008:
Wow, having a new route and bus each day would be difficult. Glad you got the GPS system, I'm sure it'll be a big help!!

You can do it~manage your weight AND do well at work!! Great attitude today! Yay!


mmuraro on 02/24/2008:
Good for you. It's good to vent here too, emotions affect our weight loss, so it's all pertinent. if there's someone nice that you talk to at your job, ask them how their start was, maybe it's normal in the beginning or they can give you tips! Seems like once you overcome this phase, you'll be good! :)


shadetree on 02/24/2008:
Look at you! I never would've thought about a GPS but that is a perfect solution, especially since you never know where you will be going until you get to work! And your renewed determination in your weight is wonderful to see. It WILL be a great week! Don't give up!


thinnsidenotout on 02/24/2008:
Good ideas.....HAVE A GREAT WEEK!!!!!


workingit2 on 02/24/2008:
Oh well that kind of sux that you don't get the same route! I'd have walked off the job by now LOL. Keep your head up! I hope tomorrow goes fabulous for you!


legcramps on 02/25/2008:
YEAH! You sound so determined! Send a little of that enthusiasm my way!



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