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Donkey - Saturday Oct 20, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 132.0

Exercise: 65 min elliptical (single hill); Weight training: 20 min upper body (machines + push-ups ); Calories: 1745

I'm trying something new this weekend. Again, I exercised on what would normally be my rest day, but in the afternoon when I get bored or antsy, and it was fine. There high school cheerleaders at the gym today, and I don't know about what it was like when you were in high school, but these girls were so chubby. The cheerleaders when I was in high school (you know, the cool chicks, while I was a fat dumpy nerd) were so tiny little things. Or tall and lean. Where do these chicks get off having a muffin top gut and chubby round arms?

Of course, I said nothing.

EVENING EDIT: I went 5 calories over my limit. This is due to the fact that I decided to have air-popped popcorn instead of a Fiber One bar. It has been ages since I've had popcorn, so I think it was a fair trade. Good thing I'm not weighing in tomorrow though, with all those carbs!

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/20/2007:
LOL, this entry is sooo unlike the usual Donkey. I wasn't expecting this to come out of you! haha. you know, when i was in HS, the cheerleaders were also on the dumpy side. Actually, cheerleading was considered something that "wannabe's" or people that wanted to be cool did!!! I know that isn't the case everywhere, but it was in my high school! haha. Maybe it was the same thing for those girls.

fritters on 10/20/2007:
Yeah - in my highscool days, it was the cool, skinny popular girls that were the cheerleaders - now, where I live anyway they are chosen by the staff not the kids and it is totally on apility - not who you are. I was one of those skinny ones, but no cheerleader! Exercising on your off day is good - keeps you out of the kitchen!!!

workingit2 on 10/20/2007:
I give em credit for having the courage to go out and be something that is stereotypically a 'skinny girl' thing LOL

biscottibody59 on 10/21/2007:
I never could understand why ANYONE would have wanted to be a cheerleader, at least at my HS, which was a little odd even for its day in quite a few ways--haha!

legcramps on 10/21/2007:
It was a good exercise day for you! Way to go!

Donkey - Friday Oct 19, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 132.0

THURSDAY: Exercise: 65 min elliptical; Weight training: lower body (machines), push-ups and crunches; Calories: 1175

***So you would think with great exercise and low calories that I would have LOST weight this week, but I actually GAINED another pound. I just don't get it. AF is over and out of the way, been drinking lots of water, staying within my calorie range (although yesterday I was a little under), cardio, weight training --- only to get me gaining a pound. THIS SUCKS.

FRIDAY: Exercise: 35 min elliptical + 45 min running on treadmill (plus 5 min cooldown jog); Weight training: None; Calories: 1450

I ran on the treadmill today. Even though I was really upset about my weigh-in, I felt really good about running on the treadmill. So much easier on my knees and I got to watch stupid TV while running. I'm not saying that I'm giving up running outside, because I think it works the body differently and I need to challenge myself that way, but it's good to do it once in a while to keep it fresh.

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

jon'smom on 10/19/2007:
Are you sure that you are not just putting on muscle? Don't get discourage. Just wait and see how next week's weigh in turns out:)

fritters on 10/19/2007:
Maybe you need to eat a few more healthy calories. You are exercisint a lot - jon's mom may be on the right track. Keep up the hard work.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/20/2007:
that's odd about gaining another. Could it just be a fluke? did you have a lot of sodium?

also, is there a food that you may have miscounted the calories for that you had often? or, did you weigh in at a different time of day than usual?

Donkey - Wednesday Oct 17, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

Exercise: 35 min elliptical + 42 min running; Weight training: None, push-ups and or crunches maybe later; Calories: 1660

Two running days that sucked. No motivation to get out there. Could not build up speed. I think I need a break from it, but honestly I am not running that much! So today was a short run at 3.65 miles.

I have other things weighing heavily on my mind and spirit and it's sapping all the energy out of me. I'm frustrated at my inability to work yet the need and desire for a little extra money is ever-present. Also, I haven't talked about this yet, but next week on Tuesday, my Husband is going to get his GI system scoped. So on Monday, he starts purging and fasting. Get this: He IS allowed to eat ice cream the day before surgery. So I get to sit and watch him eat all the ice cream and sherbert he wants. Of course, what goes in will come right out and that is most unpleasant (i know because I had this procedure done myself last year).

And the whole time he is in surgery I will be worrying about my kids coming home to an empty house (and behaving and being ok) until we can come back home. Ugh.... It will be a bad day all around I think. Thankfully it's not a running day LOL!

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/17/2007:
awwwww. would it be really difficult to not think sooo negatively about Monday? Perhaps talk to your kids about it. Maybe have them plan to be somewhere else that day. Have them go over to a friend's house? Or maybe ask someone to "watch your house" while your kids are also there (instead of babysitting, since they're too old) if you really do have concerns about not being home.

Your advice was good yesterday. I feel as though I must continue to count calories. I had tried not doing so at the begninning of the year, but it backfired! :(

fritters on 10/17/2007:
You are doing a really good job getting in your exercise. I hope all goes well with your husbands trip to the G.I.

workingit2 on 10/17/2007:
I bet your exercise funk is short lived and you'll be enjoying it again in no time! Good luck with the GI procedure, mom had that done last year and I remember her saying it was awful. We are all falling apart!

mylifechanges on 10/18/2007:
i agree with you that when other issues are on your mind, it's easy to lose your energy to those things. i'm sure you'll have a better run later in the week. perhaps try to put all of your stress into your run to pound it out? and I agree with HOP's advice- see if your kids can go home with friends after school or something? they're usually anxious to hang out with friends anyway, and it would be a good excuse to keep them out of the house!!

hollybelle on 10/18/2007:
I get so bored with the same type of exercise all the time. Would you be able to do something besides run? That may help motivation??? I know when I do anythng on a regular basis over time I find myself short on motivation. Just an idea. Bike, skip rope, stair climbing, aerobic dance or step aerobics? Any of those sound accessible or interesting - just until you get your mojo back for the running, of course.

Regarding the kids in the house on Monday - maybe they will rise to the occasion - maybe your husband could "mention" to them how much it would mean if they were to act responsibily while your all are gone......also just an idea.

legcramps on 10/18/2007:
Yup, change up that routine! There are so many options out there besides running (not that running isn't working for you, but sometimes it's good to change it up a bit).

Hope your husband does well!!

Donkey - Tuesday Oct 16, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

Exercise: 65 min elliptical (steep hill) + 13 min stationary bike; Weight Training: 25 min lower body (machines); Calories: 1402

I do not know if I am feeling any thinner but I feel stronger (physically) today and not so bloated (fat). I lost a half inch on my waist and gained a half inch on my chest. I forgot to measure my thigh, but my neck measures at 12.5 inches (whatever that means).

Once again, trying to stick to my program and focus on water water water. I tried a spiced chai tea today that was very very good. The herbal teas may save me from myself now that the cooler weather is coming in. Today was nice -- went outside without a jacket -- but Friday it will turn chilly once again. Great, just in time for running outdoors.

EVENING EDIT: Not much else to say right now.

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

fritters on 10/16/2007:
Congratulations on all that hard exercise - you are doing great!

workingit2 on 10/16/2007:
I heard the chi teas were really good lately...may have to check those out! Congrats on the progress!

Donkey - Monday Oct 15, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

Exercise: 35 min elliptical + 62 min running; Weight training: 20 min upper body (machines); Calories: 1620

Not much to report except that changing my Day of Rest from Saturday to Sunday did NOTHING to improve my running on Monday. I was so unmotivated to run. I debated whether to run indoors or outdoors. Decided outdoors since it's a nice day. Then realized it was landscaping day. Decided to run a boring route. Just very unremarkable... And I didn't enjoy it either. Bleah.

EVENING EDIT: This was another one of those days where I felt so hungry. So I did the usual "tricks" of drinking more water, chewing gum, staying busy. This time, I drank herbal tea, per Horn of Plenty's recommendation, and that seemed to help too, although I did not make a good cup of tea. Today was a vanilla red tea, which I did not particularly care for (the vanilla part). Tomorrow I will use my old tried and true green tea.

I spent most of the afternoon carrying (lugging), trimming and tying branches that Husband trimmed from our trees in the backyard on Sunday. I did not account for this in my daily exercise, but I am sure that it burned more calories than it would have driving the kids to some activity, which is what I normally do in the afternoons. My daughter helped me, which she *loved* doing. We managed to move all of the branches from the backyard to the front. And I trimmed and tied half of the batch for brush (garbage) pick-up tomorrow. I ran out of twine, but since I did not finish the job, I have more workouts ahead of me :-)

I am feeling fat today, as I have been all weekend. I do desperately want to reach my goal weight soon. I would like to have some validation for all my hard work. If I do not reach it this week, I need to work on making a mental adjustment so I don't throw in the towel and go totally off the deep end.

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

fritters on 10/15/2007:
But you did it! Good for you!!!

workingit2 on 10/15/2007:
A shame you didn't enjoy it..but you did it! =)

workingit2 on 10/15/2007:
Yardwork is great exercise, I sometimes wish I had one of my own lol.

mylifechanges on 10/16/2007:
what a fun project!! At least you got some great exercise. That has to be good work on your muscles. I still find it funny for some reason that it's cold in the states, because it's so warm here. I haven't been able to grab ahold of the concept yet. But it does help me push myself towards health when all I see are skinny bikini clad girls all day. :) Thanks for all of your encouragement, I wouldn't be able to push through all of this without it!

Donkey - Sunday Oct 14, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

Exercise: NONE (Day of Rest - much needed); Weight training: Push-ups and crunches; Calories: Around 1500

After I wrote last night's entry and turned off the computer, I proceeded to overindulge in my calories. I had 2 dishes of ice cream (2 cups) and 2 Go-Gurts and another Fiber One bar. So my daily calories came out to be more like (600 + 160 + 150) 2600-2700 calories. Hmm, well, that's not so good. I thought it would be more like 2400, which would be more palatable.

So I am human and have weaknesses too. Today is a new day and a new opportunity to make healthy choices. Back on the wagon, so to speak. Thankfully today is my day of rest from any cardio, but I might try to take a walk later on to clear my mind, just to do something.

EVENING EDIT: Please pardon this edit if I sound completely insane. I feel so stuffed, yet, if you see how many calories I have eaten, I should probably only feel "comfortable" or even "slightly still hungry". Yet I feel like I"m going to explode. I would like to say that this is due to the fiber that I ate around dinner time (broccoli, both raw and steamed, watermelon, carrots). This is such an awful feeling.

I am also experiencing what may or may not be an irrational feeling that I have completely sabotaged my weight loss and that I must surely weigh close to 135 (AGAIN!) and that I've blown reaching my weight goal. I probably feel this way emotionally because I am so stuffed right now. I feel more stuffed NOW than I did last night when I had all that ice cream and go-gurt.

I'm driving myself crazy with this. At this point, I do not even want to weigh myself on Friday because I am too afraid that I will be even farther away from my goal weight (130) and that I will be crushed. Crushed enough to go on a binge? Egads, I'd like to think not, but the way I'm feeling right now, I couldn't say for sure.

I don't know what to do except to focus on drinking water (haven't been doing a good job with that) and my workouts. There's nothing else I can do at this point....

This is such an uncomfortable feeling!! It really bothers me :-(

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/14/2007:
well, i do know one thing: you will definitely have some extra energy today for your workout. Whenever I overindulge, I always have some extra stored energy the next day, as long as I don't restrict calories the day after. So, have an awesome workout. we are in fact all human! :)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/14/2007:
oh, and if you do rest, Monday's workout will be awesome as well! :)

workingit2 on 10/14/2007:
Thank you for the continued, wonderful support. I know how it feels to get ready for bed, only to find myself eating something comforting. You have so very few days that you go over! Your dedication is great!

fritters on 10/15/2007:
Sometimes, in the evening, when I really want to eat, I will sit down with a bowl of ice that I put in the food processor and sprinkled with a little chrystle lite drink mix - no calories and it takes a long time to eat. By the time I am done with it, the need to binge has usually passed.

Donkey - Saturday Oct 13, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

Exercise: 65 min elliptical (single hill) + 45 min mowing the lawn; Weight training: None (push-ups and crunches later on); Calories: 2610 (after giving into cravings late at night)

I'm changing my rest day from Saturday to Sunday, this week. It will be interesting to me to see how this affects my running on Monday, assuming I will be running on Monday because they are forecasting rain, starting tonight and going into Tuesday.

Right now, I am very peeved at my spouse. A person more reluctant to move physically or get any sort of exercise never existed, so it seems. He's always like this, it's just some days it drives me nuttier than usual.

Nuttier... peanut butter... Oh I must resist. I hate having conflicts with my Husband. A total food trigger.

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

Donkey - Friday Oct 12, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

Exercise: 35 min elliptical (resistance 13) + 48 min running; Weight training: 30 min lower body (machines); Calories: 1745 (5 calories above limit)

Well, as you can see my weigh in was not very successful. I gained 0.5lb to bring me up to 131.0. This is not a big deal, but it would have been so nice to have reached my goal weight (or more!) this week. Sadly, it was not meant to be.

I cannot think of anything I did differently this week, except that for once, I stayed within my calorie range all week, without any overeating. And perhaps that worked against me. The other factor could the old TOM, and that may play havoc with water retention, etc.

Now that the weather is turning cooler, it is getting harder for me to drink all of my water. So far, I have managed to drink 12 glasses (cups) a day (3L) but it gets hard, and I am not doing so well today with water.

EVENING EDIT: I meant to dedicate this entry to crategrl, because I was feeling like I was going to have a number UNDER my goal weight, and yet, here I am, one pound over.

Today has been a hungry day. Just one of those days where I am feeling much hungrier than usual. I don't like days like that. I also had a lot of coffee today. Colder weather does this to me. But maybe I am more tired than I thought. I'm not sure.

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

greengirl on 10/12/2007:
My money is on the water retention because you are doing everything right. You are my hero, Donkey !!! You are setting a great example for the rest of us. I am struggling with the water too, especially at weekends. At work I have a bottle with me at all times, that I continue to fill up all day, but at weekend its down to me to remember to pour a glass, and I do forget!!! Have a good weekend :o)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/12/2007:
hmm, maybe just drinking water will get rid of the 1/2 lb, like you said. continue with the exercise, you've got it all down pat!: )

shadetree on 10/13/2007:
What is it about the weather turning colder that makes us want to eat? I haven't figured that one out yet...It's not like I don't have enough padding to carry me through the winter! I've avoided the scale all week, because despite my good choices eating-wise, since it's TOM, I don't want to even see what kind of water retention I've got happening. I know that it will get back to normal this weekend, so hopefully I'll see some good numbers tomorrow...

You've been great with the exercise, and you've been keeping calories under control, so I wouldn't stress about it too much. Keep up with the water, and it'll all be good.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/13/2007:
i forgot to mention, to help you get more water in try drinking tea. there are sooo many good flavors. Licorice tea is great and usually the flavor is so nice there's no need to add anything additional. With most teas I drink, i don't add a single thing! :)

yeah, part of my issue with eating is being afraid of the future, to grow up. I agree with your analogy to a kid in a candy store. the other half of my problem is filling an empty void.

Donkey - Thursday Oct 11, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 130.5

Exercise: 65 min elliptical (gluteal #1 prog.); Weight training: 25 min upper body (machines); Calories: 1500

Weigh-in is tomorrow!

Progress as of today: 13.5 lbs lost so far, only 0.5 lbs to go!

Sandra aka Soul on 10/11/2007:
Looking good D.

greengirl on 10/11/2007:
Keep my fingers crossed for your weigh-in. Whatever the outcome you are doing great :o)

crategrl on 10/11/2007:
I love the questions and the support that you have given me. Don't you dare stop being Donkey!!!!

shadetree on 10/11/2007:
Glad the Thanksgiving dilemma seems to have resolved itself!

cutiee23 on 10/12/2007:
good luck to your weigh in!

Donkey - Wednesday Oct 10, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 130.5

Exercise: 35 min elliptical + 62 min running (5.25 mi); Weight training: 5 min core; Calories: 1465

My son was home from school today. My poor daughter, I had to send her to school because she had no temperature and her cough had improved. I still managed to go to the gym and get my run in too. I tried a new route and it was fantastic! Also, the weather here has turned *significantly* cooler, and while it was chilly starting out, it felt very good once I was running.

I found out from my mother that she was rather hinting that I would host Thanksgiving for our immediate family, but didn't want to actually come out and ask me if we could host. So today, I extended an invitation and I guess I am hosting. So my daughter will have her big family "party" and I don't have to be with my b****y aunts and grandmother. I think that is a fair deal.

Progress as of today: 13.5 lbs lost so far, only 0.5 lbs to go!

workingit2 on 10/10/2007:
Happy to read that your daughter is feeling better and hope your son feels better soon! AND that you get to host the family Thanksgiving. If my place were bigger, I'd host it every year. I love Thanksgiving!

workingit2 on 10/10/2007:
Oh yeah I know he is still using me and trying to play some kind of game....I would be VERY surprised if he did take his cat to the vet next week...I honestly think he just wants me to let her out of the room.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/10/2007:
what a GREAT deal! Thanksgiving really shouldn't be stressful when it comes down to having to spend time with family. I'm glad you'll be spending it with the positive people and not the you know what people!

I am going to keep trying :)

rae_regenbogen on 10/11/2007:
Thanks for the flex points idea. I think that this week I'll try the "old" system of banking points. That will probably help me eat more fruits/veggies too.

It sounds like you were pretty much conned into hosting your family Thanksgiving. I've told my entire family that I won't ever host Thanksgiving again. The last time I did, my brother threw a shoe at me when I changed the channel while he was sleeping. lol.

Anyway, it sounds like you're a good mother for thinking of your daughter. Good luck with the preparations!

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