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Donkey - Saturday May 19, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Day 14: Doing very well with the diet and exercise. Most of my summer clothes fit now. I don't like my clothes to fit tightly. I wonder if it's a sensory issue. One of the problems with this is that baggy clothes make me look bigger than I am (shapeless). So I am wondering... when I felt that my clothes did not fit me before, did they REALLY not fit me, or was it just that they were snug, and tighter than I like but that they "fit" by society norms?

Did that make sense?

Anyway right now, I"m kind of pissed off (pardon my vernacular usage of language here). I had thought that we'd take the kids out for an informal dinner (and probably not too nutritious either), but I found out that Husband took the kids out for ice cream on his afternoon errands. Without me! :-( Not that I really *wanted* Dairy Queen, but I feel very left out. So of course, I did not want to go out to dinner with him. So we had tacos for dinner instead. I could not finish mine, because I realized that we could have been having a nice evening out, but instead had to settle for Husband's crappy tacos.

I hope the scale will reward me tomorrow.

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

borntocry on 05/19/2007:
That's funny - I find that baggy clothes make me look thinner. I guess mainly because they make me look flat-chested. And hide my hips a bit.

Maybe you husband was trying to be considerate and helping you avoid temptation by taking the kids out for ice-cream without you? Not very likely, huh?

Thanks for your comment. I guess the binge started because I was just really hungry. But after realising that a mere two bowls of cereal had already put me at 800 calories for the day, I gave up and thought I might as well indulge in a whole bunch of cookies as well. (My brother gave me a hamper of gourmet treats for my birthday - my fault, I asked him to get me something to eat for my birthday!)

Good luck on the scale tomorrow!



Donkey - Thursday May 17, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Day 12: Made a recovery from my frosting encounter, as you can see by my current weight.

Today was the last day of assessment testing for my son. I am so relieved. I do think that we will be getting a second opinion. Neither my husband nor I have a very high opinion of the testers or their qualifications, but we decided to finish the procedure anyway. We will not receive the results in time to help my son this year in school, however, which is unfortunate.

But not having to go back to this clinic is a huge relief. Every time I go, I get into some kind of confrontation with the staff. And I think my son is happy that it is over too. While he was in testing today, as a treat, I bought him a bottle of Diet Dr. Pepper (we do sugar-free here) to celebrate. I got myself a cup of coffee as I had the worst headache and I thought it would help.

After dropping Son back at school, I went straight to the gym - NO LUNCH. I did pretty well considering I had an empty "tank" and a headache. I so wanted to leave after my usual 65 minutes on the elliptical, but I knew that I needed to do weights too, because chances are I would not have time to do them tomorrow (Friday). (Husband is off of work on Friday and when he is home, my schedule and routine are hopelessly thrown off.)

I hope it will be a nice weekend. Husband has the whole thing off so he can go to my Daughter's softball game, go to church with the Family (us). All that usual family stuff that we often do without him.

I don't want you all to think I skipped lunch. Skipping meals is a very bad thing to do to your metabolism. I just finished a big salad and a deviled egg (oops). Now I will shower up and wait for the kids to get home from school.

I am looking forward to this evening. The kids have Tae Kwon Do, then we come home to a hamburger dinner that Husband will cook (he likes to cook) and then Son and I will head on off to the public library for his Chess Club. He really likes that, and I think that is just great! :-)

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

greengirl on 05/17/2007:
Hey Donkey, great job on the weightloss. I knew all your exercise would pay off. Keep up the good work!!!


borntocry on 05/17/2007:
An hour on the elliptical, AND weights, on an empty stomach? That's dedication. Maybe if I had just one tenth of that, I could lose a couple of pounds too!



Donkey - Monday May 14, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 138.0

Day 9: everything was going well, with the exception of not getting to the gym today, until this evening when I ate some frosting out of the container. Now my stomach feels sooo upset. Not nearly as upset as I am with myself though.

Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

CharlieAngel on 05/14/2007:
forgive yourself and move on.


weightlossyoyo on 05/14/2007:
CharlieAngel is right. It is not a big deal, you know you should not have and it is over. Don't worry too much about missing a day at the gym if you have to, most of weightloss comes from what you don't put in your mouth. Tomorrow is a new day and it will be better.


borntocry on 05/15/2007:
Poor girl! Come on, think of those mean aunts of yours! Only 40 days to go!

Actually I also have 40 days left until a half-marathon which I may be doing next month. So maybe I can jump into the 50-day plan myself! Not that I feel like doing anything quite so enthusiastic at the moment...


hollybelle on 05/15/2007:
I have had days when I have done well until the very end and then eaten something so bizzare (like icing out of the container), too. Usually I will eat something like 3 slices of toast with lots of butter and jam and a big glass of milk - for some reason I usually chose that late at night. Don't know why we do it. Oh well, long as we don't do it every day......sigh!


biscottibody59 on 05/15/2007:
I have never been able to do that eating just by itself frosting out of the container or peanut butter. Now I have made bizarre little appetizer thingies with triscuits--I put a blob of mayo + horseradish. That's when there seems to be just about nothing else in the house to eat!

Have a good one!



Donkey - Sunday May 13, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 138.0

((Edited because I had Day 11 instead of Day 8)

Day 8: So far, so good, dietwise, anyway. Last week, we were dealing with some of my son's emotional issues (he's just having a really hard time), and I had no appetite.

I also haven't had much to contribute as far as comments to people's diaries. I hope you can understand.

Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

maria777 on 05/13/2007:
Happy Mothers' Day to you! Hope you have a much better day today! Big Smile!


greengirl on 05/13/2007:
Everyone understands that family has to be your priority. I hope you are able to help your son with his issues. Good luck with that.


Justine6Robert3 on 05/14/2007:
Hi Donkey, I'm sorry that your feeling down. Ofcourse your son should be your first priority, I hope you can help him to work through some of his emotional issues. Take care of yourself and your family Donkey, everyone understands.


borntocry on 05/14/2007:
Hi Donkey! I'm sorry for what you're going through. Hope it gets better.



Donkey - Wednesday May 09, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 138.5

Day 3 (Tuesday) was very successful. However, Husband came home with some big stick up his donkey and said maybe 10 words to me that weren't yelling. And then when I spoke to him about some financial things that needed to be taken care of, he totally jumped down my throat. I apologized but said that he hadn't talked to me at all that night and this was stuff that I wanted to get finished up for the day.

Why am I mentioning this here? Because i have found that i often eat in reaction to his words/actions. Sad but true. Well, I'm not going to let this happen this time. If he wants to act like a 3yr old, then he can go ahead and do that. Eating to comfort myself won't change the fact that he is one big donkey.

Day 4 will be successful today.

EVENING UPDATE: Yes, today was another successful day. I got up early to exercise at the gym for an hour. Then after the kids were in school, I went to our house that we're (STILL) getting ready for sale and worked my butt off there. Came home and mowed the lawn and did laundry. A highly productive day.

The only things I have left to do at the old house is to wipe down the kitchen one more time and scrub the basement floor (in spots, where the cats left hairballs). Husband has to clear out some furniture, get the carpets cleaned and we're good to go!

Progress as of today: 5.5 lbs lost so far, only 13.5 lbs to go!

jon'smom on 05/09/2007:
Sorry to hear about your day. I used to eat when my hubby and I would argue. Good for you for not going back to your old ways!!!


maria777 on 05/09/2007:
We all need to 'let it out' from time to time...that's what I like about DD...it's not STRICTLY only about what we eat or how much we weigh...it's about REAL PEOPLE caring for one another! Good for you on not allowing yourself to give in to emotional eating! YEAAAAAAAA! Have a happy day!


sweetpea1977 on 05/09/2007:
Wow, Im sorry about the crappy day you had. Good for you on not relying on food for support. Always remember you can vent your frustrations on here...its much more helpful than fat laden junk food! Plus, its guaranteed that you'll have a few people on your side!! :o)

Have a good Day 4!


halley on 05/09/2007:
Sorry you are going through that. Not eating in response is fantastic! Way to go.


hollybelle on 05/10/2007:
Wow to identify an emotional trigger - what a discovery. I find that I eat in response to stress about daughter's school work, schedule, etc. It is so hard not to. But I am getting better. Thanks for sharing.


greengirl on 05/10/2007:
MEN !!!

Congratulations on your successful day. Sometimes the cleaning seems like it is just never ending!!!



Donkey - Monday May 07, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 140.0

Day 2: So far, so good.

I actually managed to get my butt out of bed early and head on over to the gym. I exercised on the crosstrainer for an hour and then I came home and got the kids off to school. My Husband and I had an appointment in the morning (very stressful, about my son's problems in school) and afterwards, I went to the gym to "relax" (actually, to work out all of my anxiety and stress). I did the stair stepper for 30 minutes and then I did the weight training for the lower body.

So yes, 2 trips to the gym today. Insane? Perhaps, but tomorrow I may only get in one workout and it will have to be the early morning one.

Tonight I have my daughter's softball game (I pitch and coach). Ugh, get this. Husband wants pizza for dinner and then ice cream after the game. Ooof! Stay strong, Donkey!!!

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

borntocry on 05/07/2007:
So you really went to the gym twice in one day? I'm impressed! I must confess, I didn't think that was ever really going to happen (and now we're even, for that time you didn't think I was going to do a long run, if I remember correctly!).

Hope the school appointment went well. Good luck with the pizza and ice-cream after softball! You could try what I did last time and have a couple of big bowls of salad or vegetables along with your pizza - it helped me stick to one slice. And maybe get your husband to pick a flavour of ice-cream which you don't like as much?

Thanks for your comment. Yeah, I'm in Paris. I didn't see any sign of rioters yesterday but this morning I heard that the police used tear gas on them. I think it was right around where I live, too.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/07/2007:
whoa! Busy! Have a wonderful day!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/07/2007:
Thanks for you comment today :)


liza36 on 05/08/2007:
I hear exercise is good for stress and anxiety, but I haven't experienced that yet. I get stressed just thinking about exercise and how I'm going to fit it in! I'm highly impressed you went to the gym twice. Now that's true dedication!


biscottibody59 on 05/08/2007:
Re: the previous entry

Do it for yourself as much as for trying to show up your relatives. Your success will be more sustained, at least from what I've seen of people on here over the years who lost for some event. I remember someone losing just a moderate amount for a HS reunion, she promptly gained at least twice as much back as she had lost. Of course life is more complicated than that, but I wonder if she hadn't just approached it selfishly and patiently would she have had a better long-term outcome.

Hope you're having a good day!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/08/2007:
hi donkey, thanks for your comments lately. thanks for telling me my calories are ok! LOL. its good support!

sorry to hear about your current issues with your son in school, but....schools almost out for summer!!!!


maria777 on 05/08/2007:
Oh, my! Stay VERY strong with that pizza and ice cream! Good for you on working out at the gym, too!



Donkey - Sunday May 06, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 140.5

DAY 1: It's Crunch Time. (No, not the candy bar.)

My aunts & mother are having a party for my grandparents in June. These are family members who have never thought well of me to begin with (including my grandmother who pretty much made my childhood very hellish). But last summer they really got me good by excluding me from a cousin's wedding.

So I don't particularly want to go to this, but the party is at a really good seafood restaurant. And while I may or may not go, I'd like to have the option of attending. And if I attend, I want to look my best. My aunts are very large, unhappy women (not that being large makes them unhappy but they happen to be both). I would love to show up look trim and toned. Of course, they would probably ignore me and my family even more so, but I would have the satisfaction of knowing that I got to them.

And since I have been struggling to get back on track since moving, I am hoping that this will be the impetus I need to start losing weight again. I have 50 days until the date of the party.

Weight loss should always be for yourself, not for anyone else. I acknowledge this, and I think for me it still holds true. However, a little revenge in my motives wouldn't hurt, either, especially if it does get my numbers moving in the "down" direction again.

Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 15.5 lbs to go!

borntocry on 05/06/2007:
Well, you know what I always say: there's nothing like a petty childhood grudge to get you going. Seriously, I am all in favour of this plan. I know, I know, fitness and weight loss should be about ourselves and no-one else. But surely we'd be lying if we claimed that the way others see us doesn't affect us at all? Also, it will be good for you to look and feel your best at this event, not just to arouse the envy of your relatives, but also so that you'll be confident and self-assured enough to deal with their barbs. I find that when I'm around my relatives I feel just like a teenager again - and it's not a good feeling. Once I left home, I always dreamed that I'd return too cool for school - free at last from the inadequacies of youth. So far that hasn't happened but this summer it looks like I'll be going back after a 5-year absence, and hopefully things will be different this time!


girliegirl6486 on 05/07/2007:
I'm all in favor of this plan too : )

Yes, I told the annoying roommate about my internship but she fired back with how her PAID internship just moved her from part time to full time. I wanted to smack her.


geevee on 05/07/2007:
I know EXACTLY what you're saying!

For me, it was a high school reunion. Every couple of months I'd get an annoying call from a girl who used to be my best friend and was fortunate enough to stay slim all her life, unlike me.

Well, that was what got me to join DD's and lose 40 lbs.

End result: No, I never went to the reunion. The price was outrageous and most of the people there I didn't know. So, the question was WHY?

My friend never relented and insisted upon meeting even though I wasn't going to go. At that point I was about ten pounds above high school weight, so I felt that was acceptable. You know what? I'll never forget my friend's comment: "Why, you look just like Gail!" It was as if the few times she had seen me over the years when I was FAT disappeared, and for me, not going to the Reunion for the reasons I stated, made sense. It wasn't because I was too fat!

It sounds crazy, but that's really the way it is.

SO, you have all the motivation in the world that you need to lose weight. You CAN do it!



Donkey - Wednesday May 02, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 141.5

I would have done fantastic yesterday, except that I kept adding snacks/desserts after dinner. I was at around 1400 calories. But then I added 1/2 cup of plain, fat-free yogurt. Then I finished off about 35 grapes that were sitting out in the kitchen. And then I had a small peppermint patty candy. So that added about 300 calories to my day. I still stayed within range, but geez, it could have been so much better.

Today and tomorrow my Husband has off of work. He's driving me nuts already. He's a great guy, but he just has a totally different agenda than I do. I try to be patient because I know his job is very stressful. But it's like, we got a ton of stuff that needs to get done, that I can't do alone.

I often eat out of my frustrations with him. Sometimes I think marriages were only meant to last about 7 years or so. Then it's time to move on. Of course, I'm sure it's no picnic for him to be stuck with me too (PMS, crabbiness, and just my usual Donkey self are enough to drive anyone nuts, myself included!).

Progress as of today: -3 lbs lost so far, only 16.5 lbs to go!

borntocry on 05/02/2007:
Hmm, I have been with my husband for just over 7 years. I think there may be something to your theory...


hollybelle on 05/03/2007:
I think I eat out of the same reasons yoy named, sometimes, too. There is so much that we need to do to house etc. that I can't get done on my own, but I don't want to stress husband out anymore. I just find that I tell myself - what will it matter in 25 years! But that goes against my nature, too. Also ditto for me on PMS and crabbiness and driving everyone including self crazy!

I don't think you ate so badly yesterday. Keep at it. You can do it.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/05/2007:
you can blame your extra eating on it being Friday night. lol. the weekend. the weekend is much more devastating for me...but i'm working on fixing that! lol, and these past couple weeks, it's been the opposite, with bad food days during the week. oh well!

although you and your husband and been struggling, it sounds that you are both gonna be ok. for some reason, you come off relaxed in your journal entry. or, like know that all these things that need to get done will have to wait. whatever the case, don't stress too much...we only live life once!



Donkey - Tuesday May 01, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 141.5

APRIL CHALLENGE MINUTES: 65 minutes crosstrainer + 18 minutes stair stepping machine + 20 minutes weight training + 25 more minutes on crosstrainer (differen program, different resistance) +

I'm starting to update now so that I don't lose track of my activities today, although this may be it for today.

EVENING UPDATE: I see now (foolishly) that I lost track of time, and it is no longer April so we no longer have an April Challenge - Joke's on me! Too bad too, because I had a 55 minute walk, 10 minutes of crunches and push-ups and stretching, 20 minutes of housework, oh my... That would have been 213 minutes for today. Whew!

So it's probably just as well that the challenge is over. (Thanks Biscotti! BTW, when I was looking at your "name", I started thinking how nice a biscotti (or 20) would be with a cup of coffee...)

Progress as of today: -3 lbs lost so far, only 16.5 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 05/01/2007:
I guess your totals for April will emerge soon--you've done a spectacular job on your working out--Good for you!


GG on 05/01/2007:
Happy MAY CHALLENGE!!!



Donkey - Monday Apr 30, 2007
(Portion control & Exercise)
Weight: 144.0

APRIL CHALLENGE MINUTES: 65 minutes on crosstrainer + 60 minutes pitching & coaching girls' softball + 15 minutes of weight training at home = 140 minutes (And this was good, but I had a piece of key lime pie when I got home... OMG 410 calories for a tiny little slice??? WTF?!?!?)

OK,I'm going to be honest with you all -- and with myself -- I am up to 144.0 lbs this morning. I would like to think that most of that is due to PMS bloating (which means it will stay with me for the next 2 weeks until TOM) (lovely, just lovely). My abdomen is totally distended.

My daughter was still sick today, so I went to the gym while she was sleeping. She obviously will not be playing softball this evening, but I think I will still go to coach (and hopefully pitch). I'm not sure what the protocol is with this.

I have come to the decision that if I'm going to workout at the gym, that I really need to go earlier in the morning, before the kids are up and before Husband leaves for work. Otherwise, it is can be too uncertain if I will get the workout into the day. Also, it takes up a large portion of the morning, and it would be nice to have that time either available for errands or another workout. (I hope that doesn't sound too insane.) I will have to exercise early anyway, once the kids are out of school.

In order to really do this effectively, I know I am going to have to retire to bed earlier. This is something I should do anyway. Ideally, I would be in bed by 9a, possibly stay up for the news. My problem is that all the good TV comes on at 10p. I could easily stay up until Midnight each night watching reruns of I Love Lucy, Honeymooners, etc. It's like my warm fuzzy in life, to watch old time TV.

So this is something I'd have to be disciplined about. I guess, though, if I want it badly enough, I'd do it.

Progress as of today: -5.5 lbs lost so far, only 19 lbs to go!

borntocry on 04/30/2007:
Hmm, that is kind of a dilemma. I must say, two workouts in one day does sound kind of insane. Not so insane that I haven't thought of doing it myself, but way too insane for me to actually ever have done it. But I remember when I first started running I did sacrifice my daily soap opera. It was hard at first, particularly because that was also my "downtime" which I felt I needed to relax and unwind after work. But after a few weeks I didn't even miss it.


weightlossyoyo on 04/30/2007:
Great work on the exercise! Amazing how 1 piece of pie can cost so many calories isn't it.


sweetpea1977 on 05/01/2007:
I definitely like the idea of working out first thing in the morning. It will insure that some exercise will get done for the day. Plus, it will prepare you for your early morning workouts once the kids are out of school for the summer. As for another workout in the same day, would you be doing the same thing as you did in the morning or something else? I'd go with the latter, just to give your body more variety. Oh, and I do something less intense, so that you dont completely wear yourself out.

I love old tv shows. My all-time favorite is I Love Lucy. My husband got me two seasons on DVD for Christmas (and is planning on getting the rest eventually), so now I can watch them any time I want (and in order!)!!



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