I have been doing alright. I have been keeping busy, and J did call on Monday and we had a good conversation and he did say he misses me, which i was glad to hear. He left the door open, but didn't act dramatic or anything, which was good. Now I have to be strong not to contact him for a while, hopefully until he does again.
I had a nice sushi dinner with friends last night and it was a treat. My friends has been good to me and reaching out and I am also planning fun things, and it's all helping. I miss him so much though, it's like everything is grey-er without him around. But I do remember the sad times too, and all that was unfair to me.
Hope you girls are doing great. You know what? I will comment some today. :)
Love!
Progress as of today - 31.4 lbs lost so far, only 20.6 lbs to go!
My diet is working, I am so glad! I am going back to where I was soon! Hope all of you are having a good journey and a wonderful day. Xo
Progress as of today - 29.8 lbs lost so far, only 22.2 lbs to go!
Doing good with my eating and should be on my way to lose the re-gained pounds. I am also doing much better than before.
Thanks for your thoughts and comments. I will be back to commenting soon.
Love you girls. M.
Progress as of today - 27 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
This will be my reaction week. I reacted socially, now I need to react health-wise. I promise you and myself that in a couple of weeks you will see my old lowest weight back in here.
Have a great sunday! M
Progress as of today - 27 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
Yes, my weight got out of control in Brazil. So I am back to 175. I checked this morning.
I am going through such a hard time and trying to make the best out of it, but it's so hard. I know I can manage the weight, i really can. 10 months ago I was 202. I had setbacks before. I was eating all day and all night for 5 days in Brazil, to drown my sorrows and not deal with it and pretend to my family I was okay.
I am not doing awful, I am just very anxious and really need to talk to J and make a couple of things clear. But I won't contact him if he wont. So I have to wait.
I am going out this weekend with friends and having fun. But it's so hard not to think of him.
B: 2/3 superfood juice 200
Girls, THANKS SO MUCH for your constant comments and support. I am okay, hanging in here, and the good news is that i am actually looking fwd to halloween and other events. I am going to a show with my friends this saturday and I am happy that i decided to go instead of being home broken hearted.
I haven't been really feeling like writing much here on DD, and I am so sorry I havent been commenting. I will get back to it, it's just that for now I am busy and also avoiding being online any more than i already am. I will be back, though, as the Terminator would say. :)
xo.
Progress as of today - 32.4 lbs lost so far, only 19.6 lbs to go!
hey girls, thanks for all your comments. really help! there is some drama on the J thing and that's why i am obsessing. i am pretty sure this girl who tried to break us before is telling him things which may be the reason why he disappeared from AIM, etc. (she txted me and i got a couple anonymous emails that i assume are from her). But I have no control of what he believes in, so I can just pray that things are fair to me.
i am home now, and could sleep in the flight. i feel disgusted though, i ate so much on that plane i feel gross and don't understand why i did that (i was flying stand by and got put on business class and ate everything they fed me!!!). I am kinda feeling sick.
I think I will try and get back into that detox diet, not sure yet. I may do the one where you eat foods as well.
Have a great wed. M
Progress as of today - 32.4 lbs lost so far, only 19.6 lbs to go!
Here's to finding a new path to take and find the rewards that await you in "letting go" my friend..... and to settlment of mind....
XOXO
XOXOXO
I am finally flying home tonight, I didn~t want to, but have to. I had a good trip and this was such a good idea. I still think about J all the time, obssess a little, since i havent seen him online or have had any sign of him since a week ago when we exchanged some unpleasant emails. This makes me sad and frustrated, this was supposed to be the time for me to get over him, for him to miss me and value me, and yet, it�s being the time when he�s angry at me and i am thinking of that constantly.
anyway, i will resume with the diet and the diary tomorrow.
have a great day, girls. m
Progress as of today - 32.4 lbs lost so far, only 19.6 lbs to go!
But outside of that, we welcome you back to Georgia with open arms!!!! Talk to you soon!
It is perfectly normal to be sad and miserable after a breakup. Just leave him alone and get through your pain. The sooner you let go of him, the sooner your heart will feel better. Take care.
Survived second day of the cleanse, was kinda easy and i feel good. Only thing is that tonight i fly home, so I think I will continue tonight, but will eat foods (light foods) on Fri and Sat, because it will suck for my parents that i cant go out or eat anything at all with them. Also I am flying stand by and wont check bags, so would be hard to bring enough of the juice.
Have a good day everyone!
Progress as of today - 32.4 lbs lost so far, only 19.6 lbs to go!
*********UPDATE*************
I decided to go home. I have a buddy pass and will fly to Brazil tomorrow night and come back Sunday night to be with my family.
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DAY 2 of SAMBU DEEP CLEANSE
DAY 2 of CUTTING J OFF
No doubt that the cleanse if much easier than the other issue. I have a big knot on my stomach, a big knot on my throat and it's so hard not to cry. I am having all those thoughts that are killing me. I know today he is going to lunch with the girl he went on a date with. He told me it was more work people going, but it's bad either way. I need to stop thinking about him at all and move on. It's so hard though.
Progress as of today - 32.2 lbs lost so far, only 19.8 lbs to go!
Moving on is very difficult. Give yourself time. BTDT...
I just caught up on all your entries. First off, I LOVE your hair! So cute and sassy! Secondly, hang in there regarding J. I think you made the right decision for the both of you guys.
And lastly, have a safe trip. Enjoy your time with your family!
anyways, good idea on your part to cut j. i think you did the right thing...and know you'll get through it.
Don't ever let him know how much it hurt/hurts you unless he makes a firm committment to you. Reason being, you want to be seen as a strong, confident and beautiful woman who has standards and isn't willing to compromise them or accept less than a man's best. And you want to make sure that he understands that...and if he does decide to come back on a relationship level..he will know full well exactly what you want and expect. If you give him mixed signals, he will never base his decision to return (if he does) on the things you deserve. In addition, that projected self confidence is good for you as well. And you will approach your next relationship or re-involvement with J, in a truthful and honest light. there is something sexy about a woman who is confident even when she walks away. Let HIM think that he isn't worth your time if he is going to continue to be wishy washy..trust me, if a man wants something, he is going to do what it takes to get and keep it. And you trusting him to do exactly what you need, to be a man and take care of a woman, is something all men love. They need expectations from us. They need to know exactly what we want and expect, because it gives them something to give us! And when a man truly does love us, they want to give us those things that we expect and deserve. If we say one thing and then go running back without holding firm, a guy never feels like he is accomplishing anything and he doesn't feel respected or valued. And they will go looking somewhere else.
As hard as it is, you are doing the right thing. And yeah, unfortunately it is going to hurt and be sucky for a while. It does get better. And I am not talking about it getting better with or because of , J. I am talking about it getting better for YOU. I can't explain it specifically...but if you hang in there and stick to your guns, you will find out what I mean. And it will be an ah-hah moment. Take care and have fun with your family. And do not, ever, let him know that being without him has had the ability to crush your heart. They don't need to know these things. This is how strong women show their strength, this is the strength that is sexy to a man. Hang in there.
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Hello to you! (Smile!)
thinnside40 on 10/29/2008:
Keeping busy is a good thing...... (*(*(*HUGS*)*)*) for a speedy recovery!
loveray on 10/29/2008:
im SO sorry you are going through this difficult time, but i know you will make it with flying colors! maybe we can just dip some steaks in dark chocolate together!
Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/29/2008:
friends are better than guys sometimes! LOL
starfish on 10/29/2008:
Hi! I LOVE sushi! Thanks for the comment. :-)
selina on 10/30/2008:
hi there! hugs and smiles to you!