- Thursday Feb 09, 2012
As of today, my current weight is still 136. I have been under too much stress and just haven't been motivated to take off those 5 lbs. However, I have been cooking healthy dinners for my family every night for almost 6 weeks. So, that is an accomplishment. I am keeping the house cleaner and I am working on my relationship with my husband and that is going quite well. So, things aren't too bad. My teenager has been making me crazy lately, and I am stressed about money and the kid's school situation.
We are applying for a private school for Bridgette and it has a lot of hoops to jump through. Ugh! The testing went well, now I have to get a pastoral reference and that has a few bumps I need to work out. Anyway, wish me luck. I'm too stressed to be on much, but I will check back again later...
I love you all and think about you. I hope you are doing well.
Progress as of today: 48.6 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Jan 04, 2012
I changed my goal weight on DD to 130. :). I don't talk about it with my husband anymore, ever. I thought I would continue the diet during the holidays, but with the lack of support from my husband (negative comments) and the holiday stress, I just decided to aim to maintain my weight ( I gained 2-3 lbs. then lost them). But with the new year, I have renewed strength and less access to holiday foods... So, 130 here I come!
I was thinking about my New Year's resolution from last year...(lose weight) and I didn't really start until March 16...., but I did succeed in losing over 50 lbs by 11-11-11. :) My resolution for this year is to be stronger and healthier! I am thinner, but I am not fit or toned like I want to be. I have increased my exercise some by adding squats, but by the end of this year, I want to be much more fit and toned than I am now. I am flabby and cardio doesn't help much with toning (in my experience), so I will focus mostly on weight lifting and strength training. I also want to increase flexibility and balance. So I will create some benchmarks through the year and work on those. :)
I also want to finally really do flylady. So, this year I will work on that too. www.flylady.com is great! Since I am thinking about this...my goals for this year are
1. Lose 5 more pounds and maintain weight around 130 (127-132)
2. Exercise regularly and focus on weight training and strength training (stronger & toned)
3. Take vitamins regularly (especially vitamins to strengthen veins)
4. Do Flylady successfully (routines / housekeeping)
5. Start saving money for trip to Europe ($500-$1000)
6. Start preparing for getting a part time job in September or October 2012
7. Grow my fingernails.
8. Schedule and spend routine time with husband and kids
9. Schedule and spend routine time doing my hobbies (painting, photography, dollhouse)
10. Set personal goals & make a bucket list (life goals, 10 year plan, 5 year plan, 3 year plan, 1 year plan)
Progress as of today: 48.6 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
- Tuesday Jan 03, 2012
Well, I sure did miss you guys! Feeling so guilty not writing for so long. I have been doing pretty well. I did notice a slight weight gain (2-3 lbs) between Thanksgiving and Christmas, but I am back to 135-136 again, so that is fine. I had decreased exercising while the kids are out of school. I also ate more sweets as neighbors brought me trays of fudge....oh my! but that is over now. My husband and I are doing better. My teenager is still a teenager..but not too bad. My 11 year old needs more attention from me and my 5 year old was spoiled rotten by every relative (and santa). I am very excited that I am getting an android smartphone in a couple of days (early birthday gift from my husband...1.21.71). I currently have an old tracfone flip phone...ha ha! Anyway that will be exciting.
We went on vacation to Gulfport MS and to Mobile Alabama and went to a children's museum, a sea lab (really cool), the USS Alabama, walking on the beach and pier, swam in the hotel pool twice, antique shopping, restaurants, etc. We had a really nice time. But I did not count calories and just enjoyed myself (vacation from calorie counting...)
Well, the kids start school tomorrow! yea! I should have more time to post again later this week or next. :)
Progress as of today: 48.6 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!
- Friday Nov 11, 2011
Well, it is official. Today, 11-11-11 my scale said 135.0. I had to step on it twice just to take in the number and smile. I feel great! I look great! I am very proud of myself. I kept bouncing around 135.6-136.6, but today I dropped down to that magic number. The number I set for myself in March of this year. I am very deeply satisfied. :)
Progress as of today: 49.6 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
- Tuesday Nov 01, 2011
Things are going OK. I keep bouncing between 135-136 and I am doing OK with my eating. I decided to reset my weight loss goal to 130 lbs. I feel like the extra 5-6 lbs on me is more than I want. But, I am not being supported by my husband about this anymore. My husband actually told me that he doesn't like that I have lost so much weight. :(. I am not going to tell him that I want to lose 5 lbs more. I do not look skinny. My BMI is 23.8 and I still have about 4-5 inches of fat that I can pinch around my belly. It is hard to do this without his support. He says he likes me better at 160-170 lbs. When he started dating me I was 127 lbs! But, I can see through this, because yesterday...while we were alone together in an intimate setting he said I look really sexy! ha! (I did look sexy!)
I have decided to train for a 5K run (might be more of a speed walk for me). I have increased my exercise to 25 bends, 20 sit ups, 25 leg lefts, 20 push ups, and 5 sets of air bicycling with leg stretches in between sets. I'm also speed walking around the block with the dog... :) The compression stockings are working well.
This last week or two has been full of drama from my teenager...:(, she has been miserable and we are all suffering. My husband and I are working on helping her have more emotional control. So far, it is working, but always two steps forward...one step back type of progress. Anyway, I am optimistic that I will be able to focus on other things.. not just her.
I am working on my goal folder and setting new measurable goals. I'm not waiting for new year's for this! ha! I'm still fighting to get Gluten Free dinners on the table (last week was hard!), but I will do better this week. I am also not organized and not following my routines, so I need to focus on that more too. Too much stress always pulls me down. But, over all I am motivated to do well and finish this year successfully! There is less of me physically (lost so much weight), but there is so much more of me (feel stronger!), that I'm happier now than I was last year this same time!
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 1.6 lbs to go!
- Friday Oct 21, 2011
I shouted out loud today when my scale said 135.8. I can't believe it! I am sure tomorrow it will be 136, but I don't care! Today is the day I reached my goal. I feel successful with 135.8! So, now, I am very very very very very very happy!
Progress as of today: 48.8 lbs lost so far, only 0.8 lbs to go!
- Friday Oct 14, 2011
I'm still fighting a sinus infection, but seems like I'm winning the battle. :) My husband will be home for 3-4 days and I am greatful for that.
I talked to my younger brother, Alex, who suggested that I continue to exercise in the morning because I have been successful with that for 10 months. Then use babywipes to freshen up, ( I only exercise about 10 minutes a day, so I'm not really very dirty), He suggested I take showers at night! I know, it is pure genious! ha ha ha! Why didn't I think of that? That solves my stockings problem because my legs are dry in the morning now. I can't believe how little it takes to push me off a routine...but it is what it is. And I am back on track and I love exercising in the morning. I lost another pound and only have 2 lbs. to go. I want to reach my goal by Halloween. I'm sure I can do it.
I sometimes don't understand why the smallest things can become such mountains for me. I mean, our dishwasher broke and I am more resistant to cooking....really? am I that lazy? I have a sinus infection so I don't want to do anything...why don't I just take the pain killer? I don't like putting on my compression stockings when my legs are damp.....you get the picture. Little tiny problems just seem to give me just enough of an excuse to say no. But I did force myself to cook (gluetn free) all week, I wasted a lot of time this week on the phone and computer....but I am back on track with exercising every morning and counting calories. I just need to see the big picture and stop being lazy. But it doesn't feel like being lazy. It feels like being discouraged.
I do have my DD friends' words in my mind and you all encourage me so much. It really does help. Thanks for your understanding. I love all of you!
Progress as of today: 47.6 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Oct 12, 2011
My weight plateaued this week, but that is ok. I am struggling right now with everything. I definitely bit off more than I can chew....My dishwasher broke, so we are washing everything by hand, and I am still making gluten free meals, so all the cooking at home and washing up is getting to me... my husband's job description changed from 30% travel to over 50% travel...:( so he is gone much more for the last few weeks and this will continue....My daughter is home sick from school (sore throat, low grade fever), My house is messy and I feel so tired and overwhelmed. I have a sinus infection and I'm struggling with keeping up my exercise routine ever since I started using the compression stockings for my varicose veins...mostly it changed because I used to exercise in the morning then shower and get dressed. But now, I hate putting on the stocking right after a shower because my legs are damp and it is harder to get the stockings on. So I am trying to change my exercise/shower routine to the night time...I have been staying up too late feeling sick and just can't sleep well, I have a fieldtrip I am chaperoning tomorrow....this is all a bunch of little stuff piling down on me. Grocery shopping, cooking, helping with homework and special projects, feeling sick, husband gone, etc. Lots of little stuff that is just adding up.....
I need to stick to my routine like glue! I think that is my only hope to get through this. Wish me luck.
Progress as of today: 46.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
- Thursday Oct 06, 2011
Still losing weight slowly, especially since starting a gluten free household, but that is OK. I am still making progress and I am still exercising. I like looking at myself in the mirror! That is amazing in itself. I am still doing well with the budget, cooking, exercise, and routines. I am headed straight for my goal of 135! It is weird being so close to the goal.
I clearly remember how terrible it was being obese. I was 186 lbs. (actually is was 192lbs. at my high point), and I hated shopping for clothes. I basically wore clothes that were convenient or that I just put on for comfort. I didn't spend time setting up a wardrobe, because I hated how I looked even in nice clothes. I never told myself "no" to eating whatever I wanted, and I felt guilty knowing it was unhealthy to eat that food but I would just put it out of my mind. I would intentionally not let myself think about it. I hated seeing pictures of myself and seeing pictures of me younger and thinner made me feel a little sad. I felt like the "fat" mom around thinner moms, until I saw a mom heavier than I was and somehow I thought that made me feel better! Ugh! I never wanted to go to socials for my husband's work. I took poor care of my hair and make-up because I was depressed, I had less energy, etc. etc. etc! All I have to do is think about that compared to now...
I am happy to buy clothes that are noticeable and cute! I cried when I bought a pair of size 8 jeans! I am happy to go on socials with my husband! I can wear a size 6 dress, and it looks good! My kids are proud to introduce me to their friends! And my sex life is better because I like the way I look and I have more energy. I see other moms that are thin and I think it is weird that I am one of them. I see moms that are heavy and I just want to tell them that they can be thinner too if they decide they are tired of being fat. They can do it! It is a battle that is ALL in your head! I get compliments from friends and family about my body, my willpower, my clothes, my hair, my energy, the way I walk taller, my great jaw line, and how I could be a model! ha! I like being in pictures (daughter's birthday, son's first day of kindergarten, etc.). A mirror is not a bad thing, but an opportunity to SEE my progress. I do my hair and make-up because I care and don't mind feeling pretty! I like to be seen. I feel more confident meeting with people I haven't met before..like the new principal. I'm inspiring my obese family members to lose weight too! My dad is using the hacker's diet and has gone from 268lbs to 220lbs and is off his blood pressure medicine! I feel successful and I just can't wait to get to 135! Just a few pounds to reach my goal. It seemed so far away before...now it is right in front of me! I think of myself as thin!
Progress as of today: 46.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
- Tuesday Oct 04, 2011
Things are ok here. So many changes have made this week really hard. The budgeting is going well, except for arguments with my husband..:(, but we are working it out and back on track now.
My entire house has been changed to gluten free because it was too confusing cooking two meals, having separate cereals, etc. It is quite an adjustment, but we are doing well with it. It takes up a lot of my time to plan ahead, but it is working. I did notice that I stopped losing weight for a week because of all the cooking I'm doing, and I tend to eat more. Not to mention my daughter's birthday party..cake, icecream, etc. But I didn't gain weight, I just didn't lose weight and I am back on track now even with all the cooking. My dinner menu for the week is something like this
chicken, rice, vegetables (all in crockpot)
meatloaf, roasted vegetables and mashed potatoes
chicken with rice and beans plus salad
beef and veggie stew plus dinner rolls
Spaghetti and meatballs and salad
Anyway, it is a work in progress. But we are determined to support Bridgette, (our 11 yr. old daughter) and make this our norm. I need to find more vegetarian meals that are gluten free.
I have a varicose vein that developed last month and I altered my exercise to bicycling in place (on my back) instead of running in place. I also have support stocking which are great! I need to buy supplements (after doing more research) and maybe see a dr., but I seem to be resistant to going to the doctor about this. I guess I'm scared, but I'm not even sure what I'm scared of. Surgery? Hearing this is never going to get better? I don't know, I keep procrastinating. But my legs hurt without the stockings.
I plan to be 135lbs. by Halloween and reach my goal! Yea!
Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!