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Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jan 19, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

so today, I should "burn" around 400 cal of the excess cals I have been eating.  that's good.

I did eat a snack today. no calories burned, but food was tasty!? including extra 650 in pure desserts from Burger King. and later, some frozen yogurt 300...and then hard core mac and cheese. like at least 1000? total: 2000 extra.

I don't know anymore. maybe fasting isn't the way to go.  I am freakin scared that I am not going to recover....why me!? lately I feel more in pain...and i'm not even doing any physical activity! what the hel* is going on!  really, I can't take it much longer.  I am trying to be so positive, proactive, hence the rest of my entry below. but as I sit here full of crappy food and feeling bloated and fat, and unable to go outside for a walk because it will only bother my legs more...I cannot help but think that I will NEVER be better. I don't know what to do anymore.  I am trying so hard.  Taking anti inflammatories.  Nothing is helping...............I don't want this to be the end of my life - end of a life without exercise, without good cardio, without the ability to walk around pain free.  I won't accept this....it's terrible, I won't accept this. I can't.

I am 1 month away from this problem reaching the 2-year mark....GOD, can't you see that this is NOT what I want in life!? I want to overcome this, to be more, be better....move past this.  I don't want to drop my dreams now.  Please help me.  I am begging you to hear me, to listen to my frustrations...to understand that I have suffered enough!  Please help me.  I want more than what I have now.  I need more than what I have now.  Never in my life have I been more worried about my health and abilities than I am now.  I cannot continue to live this way.

I have suffered enough.  I need your help above, please, help me heal.  Help me move past this ongoing pain, day after day, each and everyday.  I can't take it anymore.  23 months and it's enough.  I vow I will not live a life in pain.  I refuse.  I WANT to be more active.  I WANT to move.  I WANT to be something quite the opposite of what I appear to be now.  PLEASE help me.

If I cannot heal myself in this next year, you have my word, I will no longer be interested in living a life of pain.  I will not continue this way.  People suffer and there's no reason that I should have to continue to suffer life this.  Why me.  some people get sick and then get better.  why can't you help me get better?  people get cancer and they get better. I have tendonitis and it's stagnant and horrible. Nobody would even guess how much pain I have all the time. it makes no sense. it's horrible.  it's like punishment for all the times I didn't try hard enough at former jobs.  punishment for times I cheated at life.  punishment for not achieving former goals. punishment for always requiring help to move ahead in life. PUNISHMENT.

well I can't deal with this punishment anymore.  I am human just like everyone else. we all make mistakes. we are all imperfect. I accept it and don't even care to be perfect or anything close to it.  I just want to be happy and live a life free of pain.  Even at a desk job i'm in pain.  Why can't I move on now? The pain has been long enough, it's made me stronger.  But why do I have to continue in pain.  It's a new year.  can't I have a new chance? 

Pain at a desk job....it's an oxymoron really.  I tried so hard to get in shape while at my desk job for two years, that I completely hurt myself and have continuously suffered these past two years.  4 years at a desk job that I NEVER realized i'd have for this long. why me!? god please help me. please help me.   I can't take this pain much longer. 

I haven't been that impatient. in a month from now, I can't imagine being in the same place that I am in now.  I need to move forward. and maybe you're right, it's not even moving forward.  it's a change. I want this final career change.  If I can heal 90% and stay that way even, I can be a cop...and not have to worry about finances and stability like I do now.  I would love the ability to work with the public and operate in the manner that the nypd does.

god help me.  why did this process of becoming a cop and getting in shape have to get so out of hand.  so unreachable. so messed up for me.  did I really do this much wrong that I need to be punished now like this!?

just like everyone else, I yearn for balance in life.  I yearn to be able to be financially stable and independent. to not worry or ever need to depend on my parents again.  I want to be able to pay for my parents to go on a cruise one day and enjoy themselves, for all the things they gave me - i'll never be able to repay them fully, but this would a start. 

I am beyond upset over what has happened to me physically as well  as financially / carrer-wise.  I am not living the life i'd ever dreamed for myself.  at least I have a job, yes, but other than that, I didn't think I would ever be in these predicaments.  I am in a job that continuously tires me out and totally drains me.  AND I WORK OVERTIME at it, which royally aggravates me even more.  Of course i'd never dream of leaving the job, for then i'd need to get a new one.  It's comfortable in the sense that I have a job...but other than that, each day I struggle to get thru it and struggle with my thoughts how I am going to improve my physical situation when most of my time is at this same office, doing too much sitting, no breaks, a stressful environment, no privacy. it's absolute torture when I think how I could have moved on out of it this past July, been in the academy.

I even had an opportunity to teach again, this past September. but because my legs were hurting so much, in the end, I declined the interview. it would be too much for me - after so many years not doing any music, to jump right in and especially with my legs having such problems as well. even walking around a building as a teacher would be difficult.

god help me.  I was always little lost - needing direction from an outside source. but now, I am 32, my parents are getting older. they will retire in the next few years. god help me. please. before it's too late.  it's not too late, yet.  but please, I beg you, to hear me out. I want another shot.

I don't like being this lazy. I don't like the feeling of binging...and even more lately because I am home all day...please.

please help me, I pray that you will understand my point of view. that we all suffer, but it should not be continuous.  two years.  please help me. 

_____________________________________________________

and then Tuesday is normal eating day.  I am going to have to approach weight loss differently it seems, in order to actually succeed. So far, I have been quite unsuccessful with all my fasting (bc it has mostly lead later on to overeating).  At the beginning of fasting, like a few months ago, it worked...but now, fasting is growing old to me...and more difficult.  not giving up, but I do need to change my system...

Right now i'm thinking about the NYPD & how it's a major goal of mine that I still see as happening.  I don't want to give up on it, at all.  I know it's not good to have a set timeline as when I think I'll be physical able to handle both the academy & the job because my body needs to  physically heal at it's own pace.  However, relatedly, I was reading something on facebook.  It was an article about the elite athletes.  Their training (of course they take ample rest, etc., ) But it also mentioned the mentality these superstars have. and it's basically this: they DO set high standards and goals for themselves, as well as timelines in order to achieve them.  As much as I am not thinking about an established timeline to achieve my goal to be in the NYPD (I have up to 3 years more than I can put it off for according to the paperwork I signed), the other side of me just wants to get the ball rolling.  I know it's not possible, but at the same time, I know that I want to think about it & not dismiss it totally from my mind.  I am eager to be a cop & believe it or not, in many ways, I KNOW deep down that I am going to be one.  I wish my legs would hurry up and heal faster lol, but patience is a virtue...

Things I am doing, in order to be healthier and happier, is rest more.  In terms of work, instead of week-long vacations, I am spreading out my vaca and sick days so that it feels like I am taking more days off...and I have more days off spread over a long time, instead of just 2 weeks all at once.  This is one of the things that I feel is going to help me recover most.  I know I need my rest (and also mental relaxation from being at work day in and day out). Sorry to babble on about work, but it obviously takes up a big chunk of time in my life.  This year I was lucky, in addition to 10 days vacation, 5 days sick, I also got an allowance for my jury duty day & 2 jewish holidays.  So 3 extra days. total of 18 days.  and of course there are also the federal / union holidays that we get.  LOL, so looking at it this way, it can add up to quite a number of days!  I just can't see myself taking a week long vacation and using up so many days right now, maybe in the summer, i'll split the 5 days and use 2-3 one week, and 2-3 another so that I have two short work weeks & two long weekends!...people seem to do that a lot where I work...

NYPD thoughts / possible long term goals:

First, I want to talk about my leg situation. The pain is definitely less, but then again I am doing relatively much less. I have not begun any cardio exercises yet.  And my job is mostly seated for long periods of time.  I don't run a ton of errands.  When I do, it seems the pain is still there to a degree. The anti inflammatories help. I have started to drink more broth made using the bones which should help and I also have started to include a little bit gelatin / collagen into my diet...to help my legs.  I still drink coffee and my diet is far from perfect, but I can say I am doing a little bit better with it.

NYPD usually has an academy class 2x per year: one in January, one in July.  If my legs never had a problem (of course I can't truly think this way anymore with the "if this, if that's...", I would have already graduated by now from the July 2014 class! The academy is 6 months, then the new class enters.  I would have already started working as a cop!

But that's not where I am at :)  So time to refocus those goals of mine:

July 2015 is out of the question, legs still need more recovery. And honestly, January 2016 may be too soon as well.  It's going to be a major challenge for me to someone regain my health (AND PHYSICAL FITNESS, especially cardiovascular) while continuing with this desk job. Desk jobs and physical fitness don't go hand in hand very well...And I am a bit unsure of how i'm going to actually succeed in reaching a higher degree of fitness. 

One thing is clear though, I no longer workout after work. BEFORE work has proven to work better. Yes, I am very tired and it's definitely hours that need getting used to, but, the luxury of being able to come home and relax and have a normal meal after work is worth exercising starting between 5am-5:45am depending when I get to the gym. Seems that it works best when I start around 5:30am. I shower & change at the gym and then usually (lately) am craving something more sugary so I eat that along with a more decent protein / fat breakfast and go to work. seems this works best. I do have quite a bit more energy, especially first half the morning when at work, and I also find myself sitting up straighter and with better posture after my workouts.

 I am going to wait a little longer, then start walking at the pool. (I am anxious about this, maybe bc I am not even sure if my bathing suits fit!?)...I am just anxious in general about cardio, especially at the pool. maybe I should buy a long-sleeved shirt on amazon (waterproof) to keep me warmer since I won't be swimming - rather walking in the 4' or so section.

I would prefer to enter the academy in Jan -16....and instead of removing that notion completely from my options, I am going to keep considering it. my leg thing might always include a bit more pain that the average person. maybe there's some irreversible damage surrounding the nerves?  Either way, I'd rather think positively that January '16 is not out of the question...?? I wish someone / something could tell me if I could manage it then or not.

Well, if Jan '16 were possible, it means i'd have to start training for it come around June. So, I will keep an open mind and see how i'm feeling in the springtime.

And well, and if not January 2016, Summer 2016....boy does that feel like a long time away from now....but it's not, only 1.5 years.  That time can fly, especially if things stay relatively the same at work.  My boss is overweight and it sometimes scares me that maybe he will not be there as long as i'd like him to be - but, for now, everything is remaining pretty much stable at work which is a good thing, not a bad one.

If I enter the academy January '16, i'll be out of work even before December begins....

If I enter the force July '16, I'll be done with work maybe even a week or two before June hits.

No way will I work up until the academy begins!  I will be both physically and mentally recharged and rested before I start that exciting chapter of my life....so, so, so excited to work in that capacity, for the NYPD....it makes my blood run faster and my heart beat stronger...knowing that one day, I will have this opportunity - so long as I continue to recover...and regain my health & fitness goals.

For those who don't know, I've completed  almost the entire application process to the NYPD, even the interview, just need to do the physical fitness test (I put my application on hold right before it) and that's it.  If I can pass that test, I would be accepted into the academy for training and into the police force. :) thinking about my dream to be a NYPD officer excites me and makes me happy. Knowing that it's not a dream that is squashed.  It may be on hold, but it's still attainable.  I need to continue to make good choices, more often that the bad ones - which tempt me.  If I got into the academy, it would be a change in lifestyle, and a second chance at life. 

Becoming an NYPD officer would make me happy...to do something I fully want to do - and no matter how challenging it may be, I am ready and willing to step it up to fulfill those obligations of an NYPD officer.

I just want to reach these dreams, I don't want it to be too late.  The possibility is still there for me....now I need to muster up more courage and strength to finally make it happen.

The company I work for has a motto "We Make it Happen!" well, I guess I can use that motto in my personal life also.

I have changed my thinking quite a bit in January and it mostly works for me.  I think more positively and it makes me feel so much better. I guess I'll just continue this way of living throughout the 2015 year.

 

 

puddles on 01/19/2015:
I wish you all the best with your goals. Don't give up the dream and have a great day.


museumgirl on 01/19/2015:
Don't give up on your goals. I know we all have to find what works for us individually, but perhaps rethinking the fasting...I have found it doesn't work for me personally. You are trying to heal your body and that does require minerals and protein, etc., besides the fact that hunger has a detrimental effect on mood etc. Not trying to tell you what do at all, just a thought. Good luck!


Umpqua on 01/19/2015:
It's good that you're reassessing your goals and I'm glad you're still dedicated to joining the academy and becoming a police officer. It never hurts to lay out a long-term plan and you have a good attitude of knowing things don't always go according to plan - we just work with what we've got and do our best to find happiness and fulfillment. That's always a challenge! It does sound like you're looking at all the individual aspects of your life and figuring out how to make them work together to achieve your goals, so important!


museumgirl on 01/19/2015:
praying you find some encouragement :(


biscottibody59 on 01/19/2015:
Put your feet up before reading:-)

Two years--wow! I suffered with a compressed low back nerve with accompanying absolutely miserable--usually impeded any kind of sleep--SCIATICA!!! for a few months before seeing a dr even. I was ultimately able to walk to distract myself from it. (I didn't know it would help as much as it did when I started the walking.) The orthopedist's assessment was simply surgery--nothing else really was going to help me in his opinion. Of course I rejected that. I was 28 and knew people who had had numerous unsuccessful back surgeries by that time.

Feel free to ignore/reject this notion, but there's more at work here than your physical being.

Yep, it's your head girlie.

You may still be injured, but the true condition you have moved onto is chronic pain. It's different than pain from an injury. They're learning more about it all the time.

I have a book on the mind/body connection from that "back pain" time--there are countless books on the subject now, but I still like reading that old one--it's life affirming really.

You're there in NYC where the cutting-edge physician in this field, John Sarno, MD is at your disposal.

http://www.forbes.com/sites/edwardsiedle/2012/09/26/americans-best-doctor-and-his-miracle-cures-dr-john-e-sarno/

You may not be ready to take the "mind-leap" it WILL take to separate the notions of "injury pain" and (IMO) chronic pain. Again, you have to take into account all the disappointment and frustration you've expressed in this entry. It's hard to just go around being satisfied with JUST WHERE I/YOU/WE ARE AT THIS MOMENT. Admirable that you can express your frustrations.

In the short-term a good night's sleep will serve you well--sometimes shocks me how well that works:-)

If I were your confidante/friend, I'd suggest that you simply concentrate on your condition and improving it. Mixing the goal of getting into the police dept is not helping with that--it's probably just making you that much more frustrated. Feeling obligated at work seems to be a running and negative thing in your life. Not having the control you need to help yourself to move forward is fraught with frustration and perhaps a little sadness.

There's an old 20/20 vid about Sarno and the people whom he's helped. One woman was wheelchair bound IIRC.

You can look at his books and the reviews from people to get a flavor of the very different concept he offers. Hey, and if you actually got to see Sarno about your condition or got a book and followed along and it didn't work for you, at least you'd know to try something else.

If you want me to find/leave a link to the 20/20 profile of his concept, just leave a line saying so below.

I feel your pain in the sense that I've been just as miserable as you've expressed here. You can get past this. You're young enough to think outside the box and get the answers you seek. Stay young--don't let this ruin your life--you have tons more of it to live.

Hang in there HoP! (Forgive me if this reply is a little scattered--I'm very passionate about this subject!)

Please abandon the notion that you're being punished--I don't think life works that way!

horn_of_plenty on 01/21/2015:
I can't thank you enough, will be purchasing the books. I plan to write more soon, but you are a lifesaver!!!! Thank you a million times!!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jan 18, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

Can't sleep may take a sleeping pill....got up around 4:30am and now it's almost 6am and went to bed after midnight. Sleeping pill did not work and I ended up taking care of my laundry! Nice!! Breakfast 5:45am wrap with pb and cooked cranberries 350, fiber One and bran with almond milk 180. 530. 8:45am: white chocolate macadamia nut Cliff bar. 260 calories of goodness. 800 cal. Planning to eat a lot of veggies with lunch and dinner today. (Some of the veggies I cooked along with some from the prepared food deli.. 10am brunch shirataki noodles mixed into microwave eggplant rollettes 450, some meat leftovers 150. Around 600. 1400 and finally full. Finally decided to go back to sleep from around 11am-1pm (I guess the sleeping pill did work, thankfully, bc I did want to get more than 4-5 hrs of sleep! Which now I did get - around 7-8 total) 1450, after strawberries at 1:30pm Wrap with a little beef 250, chips 130, whole avocado 300 on two wraps 200 with some potato 70. Around 950 oh and almonds 100 2600 (Tomorrow I am fasting) was gonna try cardio walking in the pool, but I don't feel up to it today. Full fat yogurt 200, a bar, peanut butter 250. 450 total. 3050 today, good, full fast tomorrow until Tuesday morning

....correction 3100 today. So tomorrow I will burn 900 cals by fasting until Tuesday morning. Wish me luck. Then gym Tuesday morning with breakfast to follow afterwards - higher carb for sure after the gym.

3200.

I do wish I had the option to do heavy cardio now...it's so much easier for me to watch and control my weight thru exercise. I do not like fasting at all.

puddles on 01/18/2015:
I also had a hard time sleeping last night. Wishing you a great day.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jan 17, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

3:30 am pb on a wrap 350....but did actually go back to sleep for a few hours :)

8am fiber one mixed with bran and almond milk, cinnamon, stevia 180, protein bar 150. 330...

680....some kombucha 30...710

Noon lunch parsnip chips 100, wrap with potato and tuna 250...around 350

Around 1060, good.

Around 2200-2400 good

puddles on 01/17/2015:
So far so good - Have a great day.


jon'smom on 01/17/2015:
Great job!


thinnside40 on 01/17/2015:
Sleep well :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jan 16, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

Around 2100, no exercise..

Overall a pretty healthy day..

But bad sleep schedule this week I have the face acne to prove it.

But I now see this is how I am gonna roll. Exercise weekday mornings, no more pm exercise after work bc I love coming home after work.

nenak on 01/16/2015:
Exercise in the morning is good for me too I'm just too tired after work x


thinnside40 on 01/16/2015:
Have a great weekend!


Jezebel on 01/17/2015:
I find that it keeps me up later if I exercise in the evening. But I so hate getting up very early. Enjoy your weekend. Relax.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 15, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

Breakfast: gelatin 50, strawberries 50, bone broth 100. 200. Breakfast 2: 400 Snack: protein shake 300 Snack 2 150 Lighter lunch: broth 100, chicken 150 at most, squash 100?, orange 100 450-500 1550-1600 before dinner, good.

so I pretty much stuck to the food plan. instead of a protein shake, I exercised on empty after just the gelatin, strawberries, and bone broth. my stomach was feeling quite bloated and I didn't even what the shake...and I also I've realized that I feel better having some quick carbs after working out....so....I had the healthy big breakfast 400 cal and also a sugary Cliff White Chocolate Macadamia Bar after my workout. Good idea as I felt better after having it....gonna continue, I think, to "carb load" and treat myself to sugary snacks after my earlier morning workouts (in addition to healthy breakfast)...we'll see how long it lasts...(this way of eating)...

dinner was quite healthy, extra servings of my own cooked cauliflower & kale with some oil & spices. Followed up by a little white rice with two smallish meatballs and extra sauce. IT HIT THE SPOT.

I DID DO A WEIGHTS ROUTINE IN THE MORNING. I WOKE UP AT 4AM BUT FOR SOME REASON COULDN'T GET MYSELF TO THE GYM UNTIL AROUND 5:45.  I WORKED OUT WITH WEIGHTS / ABS BASICALLY UNTIL 6:45 WITH SOME RESTING AND THEN SHOWERED THERE AT THE GYM. GOT TO WORK AROUND 8.

CALORIES AROUND 2250, GOOD FOR A DAY WHERE I DID WEIGHTS.

DOING WEIGHTS IN MORNING:

1. GIVES ME MORE ENERGY DURING THE MORNING AT WORK

2. IS BETTER BECAUSE I CAN COME HOME AND RELAX AT DINNER TIME AFTER WORK & NOT HAVE TO BUST MY ASS TO THE GYM

3. BUT LEAVES ME A LITTLE DEPRESSED BECAUSE OF THE EARLY WAKEUP / EMOTIONALLY I FEEL DOWN MORE THAN I SHOULD AND I'VE REALIZED THIS EVERYDAY THAT I'VE DONE AN EARLY MORNING WORKOUT (BUT I AM NOT GOING TO STOP, BECAUSE THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I'M GOING TO BE ABLE TO KEEP UP WITH IT).  I HAVE TO GET UP NO LATER THAN 4AM IF I WORKOUT IN THE EARLY MORNING AT THE GYM.  THERE'S NO WAY I CAN FORCE MYSELF TO GET UP ANY EARLIER THAN 4AM...

skinnygrlwithin on 01/15/2015:
Keep it up!


Umpqua on 01/15/2015:
Nice work and good job getting that gelatin in - it doesn't sound like fun :P


thinkpositive on 01/15/2015:
Have a great day!


thinnside40 on 01/15/2015:
If I'm up before 9 a.m....... It's a goooooooood day :(



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jan 14, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

Good Evening Ladies :)

I slept thru my alarm clock today...by two hours! When it went off at 5am, I moved the dial to shut it off and promptly fell back to sleep until 10min to 7am! luckily, and strangely enough, I got ready so fast that I actually still got to work at 8:01am...just one minute late.  At first I was in a bad mood, all that rushing while driving and arriving later than I ever do at work....but later in the morning everything started to settle into place and then I was able to leave work a little early, around 4:45pm, and got home early.  I was on the phone with my friend during the ride home, got a fantastic spot right outside my apt since the street is emptier at the early hour of 5:15-5:30pm,  and actually cooked up most of the veggies that were in my fridge since it was early and I wasn't even too hungry yet (had a really late lunch around 2pm). I was able to get a lot more done here at home...and now i'm done with dinner, it's just barely 7pm, and I plan to read and relax tonight. and get up early for the gym tomorrow :) Works out perfectly this week with the early gym sessions. (Tuesday Morning & Thursday Morning).  I was more tired than normal Tuesday but it was still worth it, I think.

Calories till end of work: 1450.

Biggish Dinner: "okra chips" 100?, some of that nasty gelatin which isn't nasty anymore because I hold my nose when I drink it down 50, little bit of the cauliflower that I cooked 50 (at most!), strawberries 50, big portion of store bought butternut squash soufflé 250, and 2% greek plain yogurt 150 with cinnamon and stevia. Dinner was more like veggies and dessert. (but protein from the greek yogurt). 650, little high but totally works!!

2100 :) calories may even be closer to 2200 since I may have forgotten to add in the avocado from lunch. it's ok. at least the food is healthy.

exercise: none...calories may be tad high, but pretty healthy.

food does include 2 cups of bone broth and 2 tablespoons gelatin...and yes, legs feeling a bit better each day.

thinkpositive on 01/14/2015:
Glad your legs are doing better.


thinnside40 on 01/14/2015:
nice to be able to relax a en of day after a rushed start....



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jan 13, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

4am Breakfast: hot water with a boilllion cube, turmeric, lemon 50

5-7am Snack at gym: thinking a shake around 300

7-8am Breakfast: egg 100, avocado 70, wrap 60, lox 50 around 300

10-11am Snack high fat yogurt and cooked cranberries 250

900 also a granola bar and coffee after the gym 200 more.

12-1pmLunch: spinach, chicken 250, potato / squash mix 150, an orange 100.

1600....

Around 6-7 Dinner: leftovers, I have a lot of tasty great veggies and protein.

Probably around 2350. But healthy.

And I did a workout this AM. Gotta get used to the gym before work :) it's better to be able to come home and have a healthy dinner :)

Sat I plan on weights. Sunday I will walk in the pool. Monday I will do weights.

puddles on 01/13/2015:
Have a great day.


skinnygrlwithin on 01/13/2015:
Keep it up!


thinkpositive on 01/13/2015:
Yes, healthy & good on the exercise.


puddles on 01/13/2015:
You sound as if your legs are not bothering you as much. Good for you.


Umpqua on 01/14/2015:
Keep up the excellent work!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jan 12, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

Good morning :)

Determined to eat lower calories (1700) today.

Healthy breakfast: hot lemon water, 2 fried eggs with half avocado on a light wrap 400.

Snack: yogurt, cranberries, peanut butter 330

Lunch: soup and an orange 350-400

Around 1100.

Dinner: will keep it light, thinking some spinach, avocado, tuna. Maybe I will mash the tuna and avocado together. Tuna salad.

G Have a good day everyone.

Monday was 2200, felt sick and low on sugar and ate a chocolate bar at 8am...

museumgirl on 01/12/2015:
Have a god day :)


skinnygrlwithin on 01/12/2015:
Food looks good to me. I have never been a big fan of mayo so I make a lot of my "salads" (egg, tuna etc) with plain yogurt instead of mayo... I think it's delicious! For tuna I just add yogurt, salt, pepper, lemon and or pickle juice and that's it!


puddles on 01/12/2015:
Your doing good. Good luck on lowering your calories today. Have a great one.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jan 11, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

Happy Sunday :)  My legs have a little pain but I am debating going to the pool to walk in the shallow end for 15-20 minutes today.  I would be good for me to start up some cardio...not ready yet.

Didn't feel like fasting all morning, so I broke the fast and ate some very high volume food choices.

7am: Snacking so I could take my medicine in AM: around 150

9am: Big Breakfast: fiber one cereal 120, bran cereal 60, almond milk, stevia 40: 220 and pretty filling.  Also big 2% Fage yogurt with cooked cranberries and stevia 200: total 420

11am brunch: chips 140, wrap with tuna and potato 210. 350.oh, and avocado 150....500...more chips 150...and almonds 150.

2pm snack: non fat greek yogurt, 3 tablespoons peanut butter. 400.

3pm chips 300...and wrap with avocado (not a good eating day...craving fat and carbs all day) 250.

2250...deciding maybe to fast until tomorrow since I've eaten a days worth of calories already and it's 3pm.

salted, roasted almonds and an orange. 300.

2550.

yeah.

puddles on 01/11/2015:
Wow your intake for breakfast is almost my total intake for all of my day yesterday. I am glad that your legs are feeling better. Wishing you a great day.


museumgirl on 01/11/2015:
Water exercise should be good for soreness? cooked cranberries sound good. I'm going to see if I have some in my freezer:) Have a good day.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jan 10, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 0.0

7am Breakfast: 550

brunch, 10:30am (wanted something more satisfying): pop chips 150, tuna and a small potato pancake on a wrap 250, total 400 :)

total so far: 950, good....will be going to the gym for weights in an hour or so.

During workout, protein shake, around 250-300.

After gym, wanted something higher sugar, fast carbs: had a white chocolate macadamia Cliff Bar: 250.

1500, good!

Dinner: will be Thai food, friend is coming over so we will pick it up!

ok...overindulged on almonds 450, had some chicken around 300, soup 150, and tons of veggies in sauce maybe 200?....and some fruit maybe...1100-1200

yeah...2600-2700, but all healthy....tomorrow is a fasting day till afternoon. too many almonds, or today would have been better, but really wanted them. it's fine, lol.

today had a wonderful workout :) of weights at the gym.

 

puddles on 01/10/2015:
I agree with you about the cravings. I want to increase my calories because yesterday as just about 600 cal. which is real low. I know why I have been feeling the way I was now I have been sneezing all day today and was probably starting some kind of bug. I will not worry about my upset stomach and my eating habit for the past few day. Glad to hear that you are feel more optimistic. Have a great day.


museumgirl on 01/10/2015:
have fun with friends and the Thai food :)



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