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Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 05, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

1908 6-day average, EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!! To go from almost a 2200 daily avg around New Year's Day to tomorrow around 1900 is pretty good....see!?...stick to your goals...it's managable :-D !!!!

Home 6:30am: seltzer and ACV with stevia some diet tonic. did the trick :)

Office : banana 120, whipped cream cheese 80, wrap 70, peanut butter 160 430 excellent and green tea. not in a meat mood today. but whipped cream cheese and peanut butter was awesome, duh!

snack: bar 150. protein bar

lunch: to be healthy... had some basmati rice 150?, some roasted sweet potato 50?, some roasted okra 100, some veggie chicken with a few veggies (all leftovers and tasty!) 250? around 550-600 for lunch. oh and the clementine, calories included.

before gym: Red Velvet Pasty Crisps (Special K) 100 and caffeine

1250

Home: protein muffin 220 with squash 100 & yogurt 100: 420.. (stevia added to squash).

around 1650-1700 :)

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 01/05/2017:
Congrats on your 1908/6 days avg...that is good. That takes a lot of discipline. Maybe I should take reducing my cals a lot slower instead of expecting to get by on 1700, and end up at 2500 for the day, just go for 1900 a day...that would be a big improvement for me. Have a good evening.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/05/2017:
YES...1700 is low. 1200 is too low I think for most women.

1500 I did before my sister's wedding & lost a lot with that average for a week...

...but for me to maintain a low weight (and i really don't have much muscle in lower body) of 115-120lbs, I can eat 1800 and not have a problem with maintenance. Even 1900 seems to be possibly alright to maintain.

You do not need drastic reductions...and...i find that after a binge day, it's hard to eat much lower the following day...work your way into it - as you said - I agree with you.


grannyannie on 01/05/2017:
When I'm at home and counting calories I normally have about 3 days a week at 1200, then the other days are 1300, 1400, or up to 1700.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/06/2017:
Yes that's really low and easier to lose weight at those levels...right now mine is maintenance...sometimes i get a hair up in weight bc i like to push my limits with calories, but i've learned my maintenance is in the 1800s or so.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jan 04, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

1950 5-day avg and today was a healthy day and far less sugar and caffeine = success.

Here at the office doing my 'thang. Feeling decent despite a lack of sleep. It was the caffeine but i am not worried in the least as tonight I'll get adequate sleep to keep on going.  

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6:30am Home: some seltzer and some diet tonic water in my fridge - no need for ACV / kombucha or any other probiotic

8:30am breakfast: banana 120, wrap 70 with extra cream cheese 100 and turkey pepperoni 100: 400, decent.

snack: bar 200.

1pm lunch: had the full veggie salad with a hair of dressing 150?, and more kale 100?, little bits of beef 100? seriously small amount, and small amount of roasted sweet potato like 100 really! total here: 450-500. NO CAFFEINE except green tea today. good...

snack: clementine 50 - maybe on way home and if it's nice, I will do some walking...

Dinner was totally healthy - but around 700 calories. No added sugars or fake things - except for tofu chicken and some tofu. also included cashews, some white basmati rice and veggies sauteed in some oil - all leftovers.

total today is good - 1850 - success :-D need to get off the quick fix dinners and eat healthier meals which i am starting to do...it helps to have enough already prepared at home. so i will be doing more of this. What i grabbed was one of the lunches i made for this week...so now i must put together another lunch :-D maybe i'll cook some eggs either tonight or tomorrow night to add to friday's lunch since i need a good protein source since i already ate friday's meal tonight! was tasty!

 

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Looking to relax and really want a brazilian wax...i'll go after work at 4:30...it's extremely cheap a block from my office - $20 - versus $35-$50 other spots in Queens. GREAT DEAL. so even with a $10 tip, i'll only pay $30...i like to be waxed and it's been too long which is why i'm going...last time was?....hmm....gotta think about that one. def at least 2 months i think??? would like to go at lunch take an hour and leave at 5pm...yep....instead of 4:30...yup sounds GREAT...must also get cash from supermarket before that....all done :)

Wax was GREAT. She took long but she did a nice job for half price! NICE! I always tip her $10 which is 50%. Love her!

 

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Feeling very good this week in general - 3-day weekends are NICE! March will be hard for me...but...i did plan for one 3-day weekend so that should really suffice.

There's something in early February i have plans for - on a Thursday early evening it starts in NYC. It's a country concert. I would have liked to take the Thursday & Friday off so that I could get home late that Thursday (which i still will get home late) and sleep in & stuff...but it's a no go.

I need my days (2 left) to last till end of March..so i have to choose which day i want to take off - that Thursday or that Friday the day after the concert.

I might actually take the Thursday to sleep in before the concert! Especially if i end up meeting up with friends before - or i can simly relax Thursday?. Then I'd have to show up to work that Friday...but only one day before the weekend. Gotta think about it. Most people would say take off Friday but I prefer Thursday so I don't need to be up all day & night and also then I can dress up a little for the concert Thursday & feel my best...we'll see :-D

 AND MAYBE I WILL JUST TAKE BOTH THE 2 DAYS AND CALL IT A LONG A$$ WEEKEND...BUT THEN MARCH WILL BE LONGGG. LOL. ONE DAY, YEP, THAT'S ENOUGH.

 

 

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/04/2017:
Very healthy!

horn_of_plenty on 01/04/2017:
Feels good to start making better choices.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jan 03, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

 Home: a lot of ACV but didn’t work bc I ate dinner lil later than expected.  Really nice to eat a crab cake as well as half a 6oz filet minon.  Good to get the real protein in me and natural food last night, thanks to my coworker.

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8:30am work: banana 120, wrap 70 with cream cheese 100, lox 50: 350., green tea throughout morning, 2 cups, no sugar no equal.

11am very hungry! Snack: very low sugar bar, 230 cal. high protein and decent fat. natural type of bar - i may buy these on Amazon - they are good.

1pm - Lunch: healthy – some starch (few chunks of roasted sweet potato! tasted great!) some meat (tiny portion of around 1.5oz filet minon leftovers the other half will be tomorrow!) in a bit of oil some oil:500? - if I finish it.

(I am going to def work on eating better in 2017, LESS SUGAR - lately eating ice cream so often has killed my skin along with energy drinks. MUST do better.  !!!! Lunch was around 500, absolute most, all healthy with veggies, but had one cup of diet coke from friend! it's OK. moderation!)

Before gym: small bar 100, smaller amount of caffeine...I am doing well...i can do this...i can do it all :-D

1200 after gym...will have something small tonight...maybe even a protein bar on the way home and bed early. tired today. NO ICE CREAM. but i may have some squash i cooked up in a protein muffin - as the total sugar is 10g but i doubt i'll wait till i get home tonight to eat...we'll see. either way, it's early to bed tonight again.

1650, good. :-)

4day: 1972 good :-)

I have no choice but to make the right choice – I am laying off all equal and Monster energy drinks until Friday because my skin is inflamed and breaking out too much in whiteheads which is full-out inflammation.  I sorta need to fix this problem since I am an adult….perhaps I should start facing the problem like an adult. Either way, I am not going to drink the Monster Energy drinks but still drinking caffeine in a couple different forms this week. I’m going to LESSEN the bad stuff, see if it helps, versus lay off everything bad which would be a bit of a nuisance as it would really mess with just about everything I eat. Ohhh – I am also not going to have any ice cream this week until Friday. There’s a lot of sugar in it when I eat the whole pint (around 20g) which can be affecting my acne also – in addition to it being a milk product.

So, I will see on Friday if there’s any change in inflammation by not having the Monster drinks, less caffeine, and no Halo Top Ice Cream. I do need to clear up my skin.

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 01/03/2017:
I have cut my caffeine down as well. I can relate to the skin issues, I have the worst skin...ever! Hope you have a great day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/03/2017:
Yeah, i gotta do something about my skin bc it's really not improved for a long time. I want cleaner & clearer skin like I should have at 34yrs old...so I guess that can be an additional New Years Resolution to work on :-D i don't want to give up my beloved Monster energy drinks but i maybe can just cut them down...a lot!?

all this stuff messes with skin...these toxins and additives in our food...they come out our skin...our largest organ...so bad :/


hollybelle on 01/03/2017:
Monster Energy Drinks! I tied my first one a month or so ago when I had the sinus infection and I drank the Rehab one. I loved it! Won't let it be a habit, though and I try to drink 1/2 at a time! Guess what? My daughter is being recruited for the local police force! I don't know if she will pursue it, but she is strongly considering it. I thought of you when she started talking about it. Of course here is very different than in NYC and she has some compelling reasons to consider it - more on that later. Thanks for your comments to me!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/04/2017:
yes i want to hear more about it...your daughter...is it because of the good benefits and decent pay? that's also the case in NYC...decent pay & great benefits.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/04/2017:
Yeah i love the taste of many of those Monster drinks. It's odd - some flavors I hate and some I love. Laying low on them right now though. Half is the actual serving size...so you are smart...and half is same caffeine as cup of coffee. approx.


grannyannie on 01/03/2017:
Yea, I'd cut way down on the Monster drinks and sugar. Hate zits! I still occasionally get one even at my age. Hardly had any as a teen.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/04/2017:
yes, i'm working on cutting those to things down. Not eliminating, bc i feel like i'm being restrained and i binge back on them...but lessening.

Yeah, as a teen i had few in high school though in college i sometimes had bad ones due to late hours and bad eating habits. but the worst acne i ever had was now.

i know i need to eat better...that's a main culprit right now. Already my skin is getting a little better in just a few days of having LESS. Not NONE, but LESS.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jan 02, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

Happy 2017 Day #2...!

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Around 2080 3-day avg :-)

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I have the day off as a union holiday for New Years Day. If it falls on a Sunday, we get the Monday :-D So nice!

I was up around 8 and decided that since i forgot to put a couple of clothes in the laundry yesterday, that i would do a small load today since it's already built up after yesterday's workout and also added some relatively clean towels in for good measure. haha...i feel better with an empty hamper...less laundry for next week, sorta.

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I am reading & relaxing this morning.

Later, I'm meeting up with an older male friend (maybe late 50's), as he lives close and had asked if i wanted to see a movie today if i was free. So we are meeting at the theater (he lives close and i'm driving there) at 1pm to see the Star Wars movie. We are getting an early dinner after that. It's nice to have friends that are close.

...I wouldn't have gotten together with him earlier on say back in my late 20's, but now i have known him several years and i know he is a nice guy. I wouldn't date him, as I'm not attracted like that and the age difference is WAY too much.  Also, his health isn't the best. But either way, he's only a few years younger than my dad and no i am totally uninterested in that. But he is a nice person and friend to me. 

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I was going to also walk today, but i do not care to schedule any exercise in today. I am a bit sore from increases in exercise lately (cardio) and my body could use the day off. 

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 01/02/2017:
Hope you enjoy your walk and have a good day off. Thank you for your comment about the goal weight.


Duaa123. on 01/02/2017:
Nice to go waching movies and meeting friends .. I hope this day make u get ur energy back and making u better.... And u are buteaful and have a nice smiling .. Have a good day


Duaa123. on 01/02/2017:
Nice to go waching movies and meeting friends .. I hope this day make u get ur energy back and making u better.... And u are buteaful and have a nice smiling .. Have a good day


grannyannie on 01/02/2017:
Enjoy your day/evening!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jan 01, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

Happy New Years Day Everyone here on DD :-D

I am thankful to be part of this select and small group of DDers because of the wonderful support we are! Year after year, we've always had a great group of people here. It's awesome because we aren't Sparkpeople or some large network but a very small and strong group. #underdog?!

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11am Breakfast: banana 120, almond milk with 2 cups fiber one 270, dried goldeberries added in 80, later caffeine: 470 great!

2:30pm large lunch: potatoes in a curry type seasoning, but no sauce, 150-200, tofu 100, bamboo shoots and veggies in light seasoning 150, 450, and chips 230. 680 - was getting shaky low blood sugar from such a high carb breakfast....and deciding to increase my carbs right now.

total so far 1150 and all decently healthy...yes an energy drink but healthy potatoes, veggies, tofu, fruit....we're doing good :-D

2150 today. A bit high but decent.

2-day 2175.

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Later, in about 1hr, I'm off to my cheap gym next to my job bc it's opened normal hours. I've NEVER been there on a weekend. One thing - I KNOW parking will be very simple bc the gym is on an industrial road so less residents are parking there and work isn't open so no workers should be working there as well as the street signs for no parking aren't in effect on Sundays - so parking will be simple.

I'm eager to see how busy this gym is on the 1st day of the New Year....last week it is packed already! :)

And definitely need to work out in a shirt over my sports bra at this gym because I am in the minority being a white smaller girl as most are spanish/mexican/caribbean/indian! so i do not need to further put myself in a spotlight and garner negative attention from wearing not enough clothing...i'll save that for the other gym where I don't stand out as much! :-D 

I hope nobody takes offense...it is what it is....and the neighborhoods in Queens, NY vary greatly depending wherever you go!!! 

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/02/2017:
DD people rock!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/02/2017:
yes, we do. I'd say we are a pretty smart bunch as well!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Dec 31, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

My New Years Resolution: Get Into The NYPD for July...!

Even writing this resolution, makes my heart race and gets me nervous. No more putting this off. I will train my best & get myself in. It's all up to me, I had put it on hold, it's up to me to begin jogging again around April-May. I can do this :-D  

It's not the normal process of waiting as i did that part already. I just had to get over my own physical injury, then reinstate the application.  I had to fill out paperwork putting my process on hold back when I was interviewed by a cop (investigator really - it's part of the application process). I have only the physical fitness test left...then to go into the academy.

I was given up to 4years from when i put it on hold in Jan 2014 (giving me till Jan 2018). Now is the time to make my goal a reality!

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Happy NYE to all! I slept in with help, yes, of a pill...and feel relaxed and pleased with that decision as I'll be out very late tonight. I'd say I got at leaset 10hrs sleep...feels so nice to do this!

10am bigger breakfast: banana 120, cooked cranberries 50, some squash 50, protein muffin in peanut butter flavor 230, chips 210: 660, good!

1pm Light ice cream in peanut butter flavor 240 900....

3pm small wrap with cream cheese and extra turkey pepperoni 300

1200 :-)

around 2200 i'd say total for NYE, success. <3 <3 had a little to drink 150 cal tops?, also water, tons of veggies 200? (tons) from veggies i brought to put on their veggie tray, some of Dan's awesome Italian Sausage and Peppers that he made specifically for me (400-500?)!!!!, and some Ritz crackers (100?) because WHO doesn't LOVE those crackers...and a chocolate (50). total - 1000. nice.

2200. MAJOR SUCCESS.

VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2017. MAY THIS BE MY MOST SUCCESSFUL YEAR YET!

I spend NYE with a friend from work who has become a friend in general! ... and my other friends in NYC at their apt in the South Street Seaport area (very downtown near financial district / wall street) in NYC. Very fun & relaxed at their apt from around 6:30pm-12:30am.  Lots of fun. Going home I accidentally didn't get off at my stop because i was distracted lol...by this couple sitting across from me bc the woman was so beautiful and i couldn't figure out why she was with this tiny guy next to her!? it didn't make sense....so i might have been watching them too closely, bc i didn't get off at my stop!!!! dumb! 

LOL, but no worries, it was only 1 stop missed...so i took the track back one stop haha...i wasted around 20 minutes i'd say bc i missed my stop....home around 2:30am....funny really!  Serves me right!

 

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Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

puddles on 12/31/2016:
Hope all your plans work out in your favour J. Have a great day.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2017:
Thank you Franny...Enjoy your last few days before your trip!


Donkey on 12/31/2016:
Donkey is cheering you on! I can't wait to see what you accomplish in 2017!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2017:
Thank you for being one of my faithful cheerleaders. You know you have my support too!!!!


Duaa123. on 12/31/2016:
Happy new year for u too. I hope ur physical injrey relived soon ..have a good day

Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2017:
Yes, I am on my way Duaa!

Much love and happiness to you in the New Year!!!!


grannyannie on 01/01/2017:
Hope you get into the NYPD! You can do it!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2017:
Thank you Annie...that's my mentality...must be my thinking for this year 2017: I can do it :-D


puddles on 01/01/2017:
Cute post about he beautiful women with tiny guy -- the shell has nothing to do with who the person really is he is probably a very nice guy and that wins all the time. Looks are very superficial but what is skin deep is what counts. I have always found that superficial people have very little to offer in my life.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2017:
Yeah, they were both very young like good chance they were still in their late teens. She was beautiful and tall in heals and all done up on her makeup and her hair done so perfectly at now 2am in the morning. she was really beautiful. both were african american. She was a little lighter and he was darker skin, and skinny whereas she was thin but thin in a more athletic / strong way where he was skinny. their styles were slightly different, but i was just so surprised as they looked so different in style...in outward presentation...in body type...usually it's just not something we see as many couples tend to look similar if you know what i mean? i wasn't being judgemental to be negative i was just surprised, she sat at one point with her legs spread wide in her heals like a real confidence and showing who's boss, whereas he took up little room and she actually shoved (nicely) against him and he moved right up against the end of his seat so he could lie against the wall to the side of him as they were on the end...lol...i was totally watching and i think she knew bc when i asked the person next to me what happened to my stop...that person was like "you just missed it you must have dozed off!"...and the pretty lady across from me - the older teen i was describing - looked at me like she knew why!!! she knew she must have distracted me with the guy she was with!

I gotta tell you...it's all pretty funny and typical for me...almost...i am a people watcher and always find different people and relationships interesting...i didn't even realize that i missed the whole movement of the train for a full stop i was watching them! NUTZ!

I usually don't stare, it was 2:00am so i have that on my side maybe i was being more weird than normal...but as for my own friends - def not superficial.

I hope i didn't offend you in this entire comment?


puddles on 01/01/2017:
not offended



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Dec 30, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

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Home: selzter with ACV and also another drink. good.

Breakfast at work: banana and coffee with extra milk 200.

Late breakfast: wrap with cream cheese and lox 200. (yes it's small and the cream cheese is whipped around 80 cal and easily spreadable so it works, wrap is only 60 cal and lox around only 50 cal)

total so far: 400 :-)

Lunch, maybe early like noon: healthy - potatoes 200, bok choy 100 most, veggie burger 150. total here is great: 450-550...very good.

total after lunch is the bomb: 850-950...:-) snacking 50.

dinner - very healthy - cooked veggies and some tofu...around 450 and raspberries 100. 550.

1550...i will prob have ice cream later tonight :-) yup, 300.

total today: 1850, successful  week again!

7day avg:1898 = EXCELLENT! I LIKE 1800's!

We will get out early at 2pm most probably...then i will go to park - weather is windy / cloudy with possible flurries, but i will still walk at park, then home and relaxing! 

Park ended up being PERFECT and sunny!!! I walked 3 laps with my coworker...going to find out the mileage by googling it...SO NICE TO HAVE A FRIEND TO WALK WITH!

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 So I am sooo glad I am a member of 2 gyms. On Christmas, my gym next to work was closed ( i don't prefer this gym anyways for weekends !) so I went to the fave gym closer to me but still  it was only open 7-1pm!

And on New years Day, my fave gym is again only open 7-1 which stinks if i want to sleep in on New Years Day which of course I am!....

...but my gym near work is OPEN this time (not closed like on Christmas)  (New Years Day SUNDAY!) & for normal hours until 6pm!!!! Now I reap the benefits of 2 gym memberships!!!! Really worked out this holiday season!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Had to tell you this!

Both gyms are relatively cheap, so it makes no difference $...it's just convenience !

The really cheap gym by work is $99 for 6 months...and the more expensive gym near me is $320 for one year. so the total for one year to both gyms is still reasonable at $420...so i am only paying like 33% more for another whole gym with different hours I only need 6 months right now from the gym close to work as I might just be leaving my current job 6 months from now!  I am training for the NYPD.

It worked out really, really well this season bc they had very different hours of operation on all the holidays - so i was able to plan where to go and not skip any workouts. amazing!

I wish i had a planet fitness / blink by me - those gyms are so cheap at $10-$15 per month. But they aren't close and there isn't good parking. 

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

puddles on 12/30/2016:
That certainly makes life a little easier for sure. Have a great day J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/30/2016:
Sure does :-D


innerpeace on 12/30/2016:
Have a great New Year's Eve!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/30/2016:
Same to you...Happy New Year!


Duaa123. on 12/30/2016:
Very cool and yea ..it is sheap truly .. oh here gym is so expensive and I truly hope if there is a gym next to my home .. I truly hope that .. most of gym is for men bc rarly women here go to gym ! And I just depend on my walk machine , free gym in my college and my aunt give me a nice machine to lose fat im my wast .. Have a good day H

Horn_of_plenty on 12/30/2016:
Yeah you do think it's cheap!? I think it is too :)

Both the gyms I go to are more for men which i love. I love the energy they have when working out & i feel really good workout out amongst the men!

That's so nice of your Aunt. When i was 20 & 21 I used to go to the really nice free gym at my college too :-D I miss it!


Donkey on 12/31/2016:
If you can swing it financially (which it seems you can), it's definitely worth belonging to 2 gyms. In my book, I don't see this as extravagant but rather a necessity, especially considering your career goals. But even if NYPD wasn't in your future, it'd still be worth the personal investment.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/31/2016:
Yes, that is the reason I do it. I feel it has become a necessity with or without NYPD it's nice to be able to have options regarding one of the things I consider a priority in my life - going to the gym - not a luxury or option...but a priority! Well said J-Donkey!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Dec 29, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

Hello!  At work for the day...gym later :)  Going to drive to the further gym not next to work, i am not in mood for Richie's gym today...and don't want to work out in a shirt (only sports bra) so i need to go the better gym in better area for that. Not the "men's gym."...! looking forward already to the gym after work.  Lately i'm very tired and can sleep pretty well even after gym even if i wake up during night, i fall back to sleep relatively easily. :-D  

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Apple cider vinegar, strong mix, did the trick :) at home.

Breakfast so far: banana on way to work & a banana at work. 240They are going bad anyways and at the point where after tomorrow they'll need to be thrown out. I have two left - will buy more soon! 240 and coffee with extra milk 60.

Planning on not snacking a lot in morning and waiting to have my breakfast later to keep cals down. wrap with cream cheese and lox 250.

lunch might be high as 700, but healthy. did include some chips. 

after work before gym bar and caffeine 150

1400 :-D

after gym: thinking smores ice cream. yup!

far gym tonight bc i am wanting the better equipment...

1720 total.

1906 6-day average!!!!!!! nice!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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I am finished discussing P as I have a headache about it lol...and i def gave him enough texts to read and think about.  I am not angry at him or myself. I don't have time for that.

 

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/29/2016:
Hope you figure out the P situation. Sounds like a healthy day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/29/2016:
Me too. If he cannot move forward and try harder i guess i can only give up on the whole thing. thank you.


Duaa123. on 12/29/2016:
I hope the best for u .

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/29/2016:
Thank you so much :)


puddles on 12/29/2016:
Have a great day J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/29/2016:
Thank you :)


Donkey on 12/29/2016:
Did I mention to you that I'm thinking of starting an apple cider vinegar regimen? I checked out a library book that talks about all of the applications for ACV, how to make your own, some recipes that have ACV, etc. I think it will help -- I'm just afraid about the effect it may have on my tooth enamel. Is that something to be worried about? (You may respond below if you like...)

Horn_of_plenty on 12/29/2016:
I don't worry about it...but i think it's better to brush teeth after? either way, it's not something i worry about although i have heard this....i would rather be able to poop before work...maybe read up on the best times to brush teeth and drink the stuff...i think brushing teeth and then drinking it is considered not the best?

it's difficult though for me to manage more than just drinking it....

it is true its very acidic.

but so is coffee? i think you said you didn't drink coffee?

but the results of the ACV / kombucha type stuff is very good and gets things moving in the morning which i really like.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Dec 28, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

i would like a 2month vacation starting NOW!

edit: at 2pm he hasn't texted. i did text him and tell him i was upset about that...i called him and asked how he couldn't remember to do it - to make someone feel good during the day...whatever we shall see what he has to say. not impressed....though the day isn't done.........2pm is when he starts work.

i have a major headache of my own over my own work. it's making me want to vomit bc i am pretty darn confused over things i don't know how to do.!!!!

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Home around 6:30am-7am: apple cider vinegar in seltzer and worked like a charm.

8:30am breakfast at work: coffee with milk 50, banana 120, later a wrap with cream cheese and lox 200 - 370.... 

11:15am: 230 Pumpkin NASTY protein bar (will not buy again).

700 maybe for lunch, sorta big i think...but healthy. aside from being a little bit salty.

clementine on way home - 50.

1350...def going to bed early tonight...just not in the best of moods today...not at all.

450 cal for dinner: mix of microwaved and then mashed squash with stevia and cinnamon, some raspberries, cooked cranberries, a yogurt light, and some light ice cream. lots of stuff for 450 cal!

1800 today. excellent.

5-day avg: 1944 - decent.

for dinner i'm thinking just to have dessert type dish. cooked squash, some cooked cranberries and some frozen yogurt. yup.

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today i'm working on something that is too hard for me to do.  It's frustrating, making me nauseous and i hate this job right now....I wish it came easier....this task is over my head. way over my head.

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More about P & I...and i why i am happy and content with what (no matter how little it seems to others) we share at the moment:

I asked him to text me each day these few days left till Friday. Today will be day #1 and I am hoping he follows thru. The reason i ask him to do these things is simple. If he does the minor things I ask of him to do, he is listening to me and understands that I desire him to show me that I am a priority when he does it first (of course better if without my asking...we shall get there one day!)...  

other times i have asked him to text me FIRST - last Valentine's, my bday...he does do it...he should do it without my asking...but, since it's far from a typical relationship....things like this are not always as clear cut as it seems. Like, i wasn't his gf last valentines (as i am not his gf now), so he didn't need to wish it to me - but i told him i wanted him to. he did...

He struggles to open up. I don't want to ever live with him permanently as my apt is in a better location work / NYPD wise. It's cheap and in a good & safe area. It's very clean and no crime. I like my space too. I do not wish for a "typical" relationship or for him to date me in a typical manner.

I am NOT a typical woman.  I do NOT want a typical man. 

This is why I love Paul. No, i will not tell him that I LOVE him until the right time, in person, no matter what. It will never be texted or left on a voicemail or said over the phone in general.

Many here advise that I am not his priority and to move on - but for me, the word "priority" takes on a different meaning. 

I like my own space and alone time. I do not want ot focus all of MY energy on the guy. I do not want, right now and maybe NEVER, any kids.

I do not want the same things that the average person wants. And this is why I want to date Paul. Because he's NOT average. He's NOT typical.  He's smarter than avg. More independent than average. More focussed than average and more resourceful than average. He has huge qualities and traits in being a leader but without having to impart any force. He leads by example and at his workplace ( i have been there countless times) he shows his employees what he expects with his own actions.

This man is NOT a user.  He is 45 and has established himself in his work but is not content with just settling. He is always looking for ways to increase his clientele and make new relationships and partnering with nearby health facilities. He DOES need the time and space to make this happen.

He does most of the paperwork for his facility on his own. He doesn't hire extra hands for accounting. he does it along with the other co-owner.

He is a physical therapist and has his patients but his responsibilities go beyond the office where i would see him. He has other duties. He partners with a nearby college and has offered to have a PT student study with him - observe and gain experience with P at his facility. P does more than average. He is more responsible than average.

He is different than average. Not a user. This is why i like him.

He does listen to me. All the crazy texts i send he reads. and he remembers everything that i say. he has never doubted me or told me things i say are irrational or that i should stop. If anything, once or twice he's told me to think higher of myself (but not usually this is rare for him to say that much).

he sometimes thinks negatively of himself...and that's when i tell him he's far from it...we both have some struggles to move past. 

He struggles with communication and wants to.  He is trying. That's why he answered the phone when i called him last Thursday night.  But also Thursday evenings he in general has more time and is more relaxed as his work week usually ends on Thursdays.  So i called at a good time :-D  And he picked up! :) right away..

It was just my doing as his for the way our phone conversation changed over the course of the hour. We chatted about everything and anything. We both are passionate people.  If i didn't want what progressed over the phone to happen (adult content), then I wouldn't have continued or i would have told him i wasn't comfortable. But i was very comfortable with the phone conversation, with him, with the whole scenario.

I had my own needs that night and every day and so far this "relationship" no matter how "surface and lacking substance" it comes across to others as, it is not lacking substance to me.

The manner of how I see Paul and the slow relationship progress we are making is what I am content with RIGHT NOW.

To be in the academy, NYPD, to be studying all summer, I will not have time for dating ... but i will have time for Paul.

I am happy with my life right now bc it suits me. It works for me. I don't want more, I don't want to see Paul more than i have.....there's nothing i feel i am missing. 

Everything happens when it's supposed to happen.

And i do not feel used in the least. It's equal.

I can text him as often as I wish....and if he wishes to not always respond i do understand. He understands my need to be in contact, EVERYDAY, multiple times...and i understand his need to not be. 

It is equal because we both respect each other's desires. 

There's room for us to grow and learn how to share more.  There's ALWAYS time for that.

I am not worries. 

He is an owner of his own company and doens't need a thing financially from me.  And I do NOT NEED his money.

This is only about the love for another person for who they are, not what they have.

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I have asked him here and there if he is gay, he is said NO. He was never married, i've been to his "bachelor pad" condo...it's all male, trust me!...and no kids....he has had two girlfriends in the past. Long term i believe - haven't asked too much about it. One of his exes is now divorced.

He has a lot of money for himself. So he's not looking for any from me ( i do NOT have any to give him anyways!). He's always accepted my thoughtful gifts i have given him though i didn't visit him at work for Christmas or give him anything because he had asked that we keep whatever this is outside his office, so i decided to actually respect his wish this time around.

I have never went more than 2-3 months without visiting him at work besides now...as i'm trying to respect his own desires to keep this and work separate which is understandable at the moment.

He has made himself a nice life as a bachelor and has friends to do things with. He has mentioned that i'd like a "wife" as a joke...but meaning it.

i don't know what will happen inthe future, but i like what we share right now.

I am able to reach out to him, as much as i want to, he doens't ever complain or get upset with him. And i try to be the same with him - although YES I admit i am the one who pushes the relationship forward....which i am fine with doing :-D This is my nature in general with all relationships....so dating and stuff I like to be the one making the moves.

It may not be the standard way, but it's my standard.  I like the feminine approach, when the woman takes the stand, when the woman makes the moves, when we choose what we want and who we want to be with. This is MY WAY.

Hopefully this entry casts a little light on what i'm dealing with (a good thing to deal with) with P.

everyone here - i'm not a typical / normal lady....i don't want what probably any of you want...so i think this is what i want - Paul.

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

Duaa123. on 12/28/2016:
It seem u truly like ur live and ur freedom and dont want to feel that u are (linked ) to someone . And it is stranger but nice .. and it is really a good palning about ask him to sent u a masseage everyday.. and yes if he do that , it is mean u are in his mind and I hope that .. Although u are the first women I see her saying that about this type of relationship but it ok if it Competent for u and for ur planing .. For me I hope to live in love as romeo and juliet ^_^' But are u sure that he like this relationship too.. if he is a busy man and like working , the answer may be yes.. but can he stay a far away from u for long time without looking for other womenĜŸ!

U know life is not only for working and for job .. we live one time and we have to enjoy it with people who we loved , sisters , brothers , familiy and and a kind partner .

But it is seem u have planing in ur future ..and it is nice to make it real ..and eveeyone know what he want ..

I hope the best the best for u

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/28/2016:
you say it well. I do not think he is looking to be with other women right now. I do know that I am def in his life - I'm in his phone everyday...

I like what you say, your reminder to live life this one time and make time for loved ones. I do plan for this with him.

thank you for understanding how i am different, or at least accepting it.


puddles on 12/28/2016:
I left my comment on my post. Have a great day J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/28/2016:
Thank you Fran :)


innerpeace on 12/28/2016:
I'm glad you know what you want. You are correct in saying everyone needs something different and most times usually know. Do what you have to do girl! Don't worry about other people's comments.

Did he text you today like you asked? I'm just saying sometimes I get busy and forget to text when I'm supposed to. I have the UPS guy's number and supposed to text him if he is to come back in the afternoon. Sometimes I forget and he shows up and I'm like...oh, no I'm sorry we don't have anything. My bad!

Have a great day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/28/2016:
i think it will not work out with P...i have no idea what he's going to write back if he does. i sorta gave him a TON of LONG texts letting him know how i feel and how i feel in general. it will probably be over. hard for me to move on...i will update all on this situation. i am not sure about how he's thinking


grannyannie on 12/28/2016:
I'll stay out of the P discussion. Hope you do find the right person for you if it isn't P.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/29/2016:
thanks GrannyA..tough holiday week over here.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Dec 27, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.6

I wrote a more exciting entry yesterday (Monday!) ....

Late morning getting ready for work 6:45am ½ cup (and prob more like 3/4 cup) of ACV in seltzer (did nothing to help me at all since I ate a big meal sorta late at 4:30pm yesterday and no haven’t digested it yet...) 

Breakfast: banana 120, coffee with almond milk and 2 splenda 30, wrap 60 with cream cheese 100 and lox 50. 360 :-D

11:15am - Atkins Bar 140; appetite today is supringly mostly suppressed! i am managing appetite really well today. nobody's bothering with me...low key and easy day...!!!!!!! slow day so far!

LIFE IS GREAT!

I am def wanting low cals today & gonna def do it!

12:15pm early lunch bc i couldn't last - potato 150-200 in a light cumin seasoned flavor, bean sprouts 50, and veggies 150, and spicy chicken jerky 200 - 600 tops.

before gym: bar and caffine 150.

after gym: really good - using stevia - kabocha squash 100, cooked cranberries 60, peanut butter 80, ice cream 90: 330...will have a hair more of something...and maybe a mouse yogurt? lil extra ice cream. 1600.

1650 :-D

4-day avg: 1980 4-day average, very good :-D

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WORST GAS EVER TODAY BECAUSE I COULDN'T USE THE BATHROOM IN THE AM SO JUST REALLY BAD GAS RIGHT NOW AND AIR BLOATING SUCKS...SHOULD FIX ITSELF BY TOMORROW AM...

 

 

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Good Morning! I am back at work this AM. I got here in record time, on time. No traffic at all on the roads which is nice.  Many people at the office are on vacation this week, so it’ll be nice & quiet here. No stress. Leaving on time for gym – going next door to work to save time. All is great.  Happy to feel  good this Holiday time.

Yes, I am tired and maybe I can blame it slightly on the sleeping pill, but I took it very early last night so it’d wear off almost totally.  I feel that if I’m trying to increase my fitness level, my body does need more rest. It’s not an easy feat with my lifestyle and work / job. So taking a sleeping pill here & there has been good for me. I get in extra hours of rest which is very good for muscle and body recovery when increasing physical training. This is something very important to me!

Late start this AM…didn’t want to get outta bed but I def got tons of sleep.  I took a sleeping pill last night to help me since I tend to have trouble sleeping after an extra day or two off from work. I’m glad I took the pill, around 5pm, because I was in bed before 9 and sleeping until around 5:30am. Waking up 1 or two times but falling back asleep very easily.

I don’t take sleeping pills often anymore as my sleep has improved greatly over the past few months.

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Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!

puddles on 12/27/2016:
I took sleeping pills at one point in my life just because with job, baby, and all the other stuff that was going on but had the hardest time getting off of them and when I did my sleep pattern never went back to its normal state. Just my experience with sleeping pills.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/28/2016:
I am resorting to the pills to help me sleep EXTRA when i have the time to sleep extra...and i feel better in general when i can rest my body this way (instead of just being awake at home and tired...)

It's helping me to get rest on the times i am able so that i can enjoy the weekends more and overall improve my fitness by getting more of the rest required to do so...

I thank you for the suggestion and lately i do not take sleeping pills very much any more bc they keep me really tired for over 12 hours after i take them.


grannyannie on 12/27/2016:
Maybe you need more fiber? More raw veggies, oatmeal, dried fruit?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/28/2016:
Situation was fixed by morning today for sure...!

Sometimes if i eat too much, too late in the afternoon or night, I am unable to digest it through the whole system by the morning - which makes sense. too much volume is just too much volume...

also, my pooping has a tendency to slow / stop when i'm under pressure or rushing...so i was rushing yesterday morning.

Luckily, all in all, I am managing it quite well.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/28/2016:
Thank you for the suggestions..appreciated.

Lol, so this is your first day on the trip with two days sun! amazing...!



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