- Tuesday Dec 02, 2014
2200 extremely filling calories. Goodnight. No exercise. Very boring but also confusing project today at work. Like doing an endless page of math multiplication tables as soon as you learn how to multiply - it can be done but it may take forever. My mind was wandering and I couldn't keep the negative thoughts away. I was upset most of the day at work bc all I could think about was how I am stuck. I can't join the academy bc my legs are *hopefully* recovering. But what if I don't get better? I have a coworker who is in vaca now. He used to run Marathons and now he is in really crappy shape compared to 15 years ago when he was 25. It makes me so sad. It's not that he doesn't care. Not at all! There is just not enough time in the day or hours to counteract a desk job and a commute. If he couldn't get his body to maintain his fitness how am I ever gonna get mine back into working order. It's like the academy is a no-go.
My boss said I could leave at 4:30 and damn straight I did.
How am I ever gonna get better if my job doesn't agree. I need to not work any overtime and to relax. I am starting to give up. It is too upsetting for me to deal with. My legs are driving me crazy. I am serious.
- Monday Dec 01, 2014
Did pretty well. Around 2050 cals
No exercise yet. Legs still hurting a bit.
- Sunday Nov 30, 2014
Breakfast around 450
Brunch: choices were great. Lots of veggies and fish and good stuff. Extra oil but everything was good. Total around 1300? No clue..
Snacking - pretzels 100, fruit 100, gummies 50. Low cal drink total here 250
Still gonna have a little more for dinner.
Total 2550, decent, indulged in a couple wraps with peanut butter.
- Saturday Nov 29, 2014
Friday fasted all day. Now it's Saturday and doing it all over again. It feels damn good to be able to follow thru with this! Gotta make the right choices Sunday at the lunch party - Chinese and Japanese. I will see - if not a lot of healthy food, I can eat just a little and grab some veggies somewhere else after. It's a buffet, so counting on there being at least steamed veggies
Decided at 4pm to have a meal at home. Very healthy but bc of the extra olive oil in the sauteed cabbage, calories added up. Also some turkey in a wrap and a small protein bar for dessert. Around 1000 calories prob at most.
So burned 400-500 calories today instead of 1500-1700 fine :)
Over these two days, approx 2500 cals were burned. Plan is to think about how I am going to handle next weekend :)
Basically these 2500 that I cut balance out most of the unhealthy eating from the past couple weeks. Still I am probably up in weight a little but this was an excellent start. Now to not eat again till tomorrow at the brunch...ok had a lil More food around 6 while on the phone (almonds and some nut butter). So burned around 2000 this weekend - Friday and Saturday , that's pretty darn good for two days.
- Thursday Nov 27, 2014
1000 cal breakfast. Binged on gummy fish oil vitamins, will not buy again. Wat too sugary and the Nature Made brand tastes like candy! I have one more bottle at home, different brand, little less sweet. I originally planned to only have butter in my tea and save all caliries for dinner. Well now I have half calories saved till dinner.
After tonight...fast all day fri and sat? And then a brunch party Sunday....
Dinner was normal portions aside from extra roasted / sauteed veggies but that is in! Had a very small piece of brisket and a normal piece of pumpkin pie. Did good. Proud of myself for finally having just one slice of that pie.
Fasting is really just a mental game. I may be hungry later and probably much more at night....but, it's a game and I will eat normally without binging when it's over. Fasting till Sunday means approx one pound weightless. If I don't help myself, nobody will.
I am thinking to rest up one more month. Till the new year. Then back to recovery. Leg wise. Fasting is going to be a method of weight loss and not just maintenance. Just a few more weekends till the new year. I think my plan may be dinner only on Saturdays if with friends and fasting all day Sunday's. This may be too much. May have to rethink it - but really excited for this current fast thru Sunday at noon - lucky I have no stress and the ability to fast now.
This is by far one the most challenging of times in my life - my legs. I do think it I am doing a better job with it now - having patience.
Here is my activities for the next month and longer - reading, tv lol, studying from the police exam study manuals I bought last year, and maybe cooking - experimenting more.
Have a great day :)
- Wednesday Nov 26, 2014
Calories are 1750 all very healthy. Good fats, protein, carbs.
No exercise. Took an extra anti inflammatory at lunch, still so pain! Argh! Not sure what to do and getting annoyed that my body is so messed up! I really, really hope I can heal.
- Tuesday Nov 25, 2014
Probably around 2100 and pretty healthy. No exercise still pain in legs being partially managed by prescription medicine. Goodnight !
- Monday Nov 24, 2014
New day but I know that there's no way I cam get the weight off by exercising since its off limits. This leaves one option in the week to come - eating less :(
Food: breakfast and snacks: pumpkin with coconut butter, cinnamon, stevia: 150, cottage cheese 100, lox 100, wrap 50, avocado 300, total here 700
Lunch: rice 250, other half avocado counted above, small piece turkey 100. 350
Lol plus my sister got engaged last week, better I watch my weight since who knows how long recovery for my legs will be and its not like I can amp up cardio without building up to it anymore. So....gotta watch my weight....call raise only, until I am exercising again which should be in 3-4 weeks my guess. And at that point it'll be slow going still. Gotta get into it and I can't wait :) gonna make a good attempt this thanksgiving long weekend to lose some calories, maybe not a full pound, but gonna try for 2000 calories down at least. Days this will be done are Friday and Saturday.
1150 plus some chocolate 200
Healthy dinner of lots of stir fry veggies and an egg omelette with cheese. Kombucha for dessert. Probably around 550 overall give or take.
Total for today a healthy 2000. No exercise.
- Sunday Nov 23, 2014
Good morning! Finally relaxed and ready to write about my rheumatologist visit last Wednesday. He said to continue to take the anti inflammatories and he also gave me muscle relaxers to take at night. I am not too sure they are working aside from putting me to sleep. But every night I have taken them, I wake up in the middle of the night - it cool just be a coincidence bc I was working longer hours last week so maybe waking up in the middl of the night had more to do with that?. Once again I will go back to the dr in another 3 weeks. He supports my decision to take a break from all exercise as I still am in pain and it's tougj scheduling wise to get to a pool.
Will eat something and take the anti inflammatory. I have no real plans today, purposely bc of legs. Last night I didn't take the muscle relaxer. I may take it now - early in the morning - and go back to sleep a bit.
I can say that a lack of exercise isn't putting me in the best of moods, it's been about 6 weeks.
Breakfast was a healthy 600. Will relax - all day - and have an early dinner around 5-6. And go to bed early. The plan is 1000-1100 cal. I can do this. Still doing good with today's fast. I had breakfast bc I am taking medicine but have stayed on track since. :)
Calories so far are 1900. I am on my borderline of breaking down. I just want to get back to the very old me - cardio and weights and health. Can't take this much longer.
Around 2500. Fail.
- Saturday Nov 22, 2014
400 cal early breakfast. Fasting till dinner - will make sure I more prepared with lots of healthy food so I can break the fast and maintain low caliries for today. Breakfast was 400. Will try for 500 tonight. Or I can just try to keep it a 1200 low cal day - having dinner with a friend, we'll see how I feel.
Nope, didn't fast today.
So far, 1100 cal. I thought that by eating a tablespoon of coconut butter I would tame my appetite. I should know better that when fasting as soon as I eat, I keep eating! So then it was 3 tablespoons coconut butter and 3 tablespoons peanut butter.
Anyways included in what I have eaten today is a whole can of canned pumpkin with loads of cinnamon and stevia mixed in. Feeling lazy but I know I need to get outside and buy a few things at the supermarket so I can be prepared later for dinner. Calories are now 1200, not terrible.
1650 so far
Around 2500. Yeah I not doing so well with diet and eating.actually more around 2700.
Tomorrow I try a fast again.
My body hurts - legs won't stop hurting :(