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Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Apr 23, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 140.0

accept people for their differences. nobody is better than the next person.  

breakfast: cereal: oatmeal 150, with egg whites 60, cinnamon, and raisins 130...topped after with yogurt 110: 450. was tasty.

snack: nuts, drink 260

Lunch: too big again. but whatever. 3 pieces matzah 370, microwave meal 350, 2 yogurts 200 total here: 920 wowsers....and roasted chestbuts 110 total 1030.

total so far: 1740...total cal around 2200 today...

snack: diet coke.

dinner:  300 in stuff. not in the mood to type it out...

total: about 2040! wonderful day. i hope you all did well too....

will be on the phone with that boy tonight.

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

grumpy on 04/23/2009:
I like "snack: maybe". My menus from now on will be: Lunch: Yes, please. HAHAHAHAHA



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Apr 22, 2009
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Weight: 140.0

woke up a little earlier compared to the last few days. that's ok. it was still later than when i'm in school!  plans today include lots of exercise. and also filling out a workbook for school that needs to be done. also, i know i'll be having an anatomy test the friday i get back to school. i think a may study a VERY LITTLE bit, but every day, so that the info really sticks and i do well on the test without being overwhelmed with studying when i get back...  i only plan on doing work during the morning. then, the day is mine!

breakfast: egg white/oatmeal mix 210, 2 yogurts 200, 2 chocolates. 50  total: 460.

snack: almonds followed by dates...around 300. eh.

lunch: lean cuisine flatbread atop with some egg whites i think would be good. celery on the side. 440

12:30pm snack: lunch was followed by some sorta unfortunate snacking of 620 cal of junk.

total so far: 1820. I'm planning on eating in the 2200s today. nothing lower.

dinner:

its rainy, but that will not get me down. how can you be down on vacation??? i'm loving it. weird, but the guy never called last night. i had the same situation with another guy last week. but, i had a really long online convo with this guy so i'm not sure why he would say he would call but then didn't. whatever, i'm not mad at all or concerned. i'm not looking to go crazy dating right now. AT ALL.  i'm in school and feel that until i graduate, in a bit over a year, i just go with the flow. dating is not a priority at all.

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

grumpy on 04/22/2009:
I agree with you. But now i have to tackle the weight loss. so who is this new guy who didnt call? I need an update since i've been away. guys dont call at times. weirdos.


loveray on 04/22/2009:
im so glad you are having a nice time-off. enjoy yourself! boys are retarded...dont let him mess up your good streak! egg whites and flat bread sounds yum. love you!


uni4sept2008 on 04/22/2009:
Its good to hear you are enjoying your vacation. And good plan on the little bit of studying! Lets the stress not build.


starfish on 04/22/2009:
Hi there :-) Great day! Thanks for the encouragement!


hollybelle on 04/22/2009:
Glad to hear a good note in your post. YAY! As for guys....things haven't changed so much since I lated dated, I guess. I don't get it why do they say they will call and then not? Do they think the phrase "I'll call you" is just an expression? Evidently they don't mean it literally! LOL! Or maybe they don't know any other parting words to fill the void? Who knows? They are strange and wonderful (some of them anyway) creatures!


Maria7 on 04/22/2009:
Re: My asking Christians to pray versus asking everyone to pray...the reason is cause I only have faith in prayers being answered going the route of Jesus...cause He is the only One that can save, heal, and do anything else. All other religions other than Christianity are false. So I have faith in prayers of people who believe in Him and do their best to live for Him (which they do if they believe in Him). People who believe in and live for Jesus are Christians. Hope this helps you understand. :-)


Umpqua on 04/22/2009:
I'm glad you're having a nice vacation. I have a few friends who have online dating experience and it seems like a lot of the guys have no trouble communicating online but when it comes to actually speaking on the phone and meeting in person they are lacking in basic communication skills. Ah, the digital age ;) My friends have met some very nice guys this way though, so if you can wade through the mediocrity you may meet a good one eventually!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Apr 21, 2009
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Weight: 140.0

i would prefer this vacation to move a little slower! i can't believe it's tuesday already. today i've been doing some cleaning and organizing for the morning.

breakfast: egg white/oatmeal mix and yogurt: 320

late snack: almonds 160, orange 120: 280 total

snacking/lunch: 2 pieces matzah 260, eggplant rollettes mircrowave meal 350 total: 610 that's ok.

snack later: 2 small yogurts w. some added fiber stuff 220

total so far: 1430 doing ok!

dinner: will be the other avocado 300, lean cuisine 250, and celery 30.total: 580 fine!

total: 2010! awesome! :) i am having a wonderful break, eating within reason, and exercising. that's all i can ask for without turning insane!

it's rainy. so i'll be at the gym, maybe the park for a short while between drizzles.

i met this guy on a dating website last night. had a long chat online with him. he said he'd call tonight and we can set up a date. lives in the city but we'd meet on Long Island.  i will be nervous later for when he calls. haha.

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 04/21/2009:
RE: Easter Sweets ~ I had been away from sugar (pretty much) & starches (pretty much)...That brought on a week of making sure that ALL left-overs were eaten ,etc..... I wanted "SWEET" every stinkin day..... I think my H/A problem may be a recip of the over-load and now back to moderation....

I will be a momma & say "be careful" when/if you meet up with this online dude..... Not saying it is right/wrong, just BE CAREFUL in this day/age of wackos.....

Have a terrific day!


loveray on 04/21/2009:
sounds like an awesome day! i hope you enjoy the chat with the new boy!! sounds interesting...keep me updated! thanks so much for your sweet comment, i needed to hear that. xoxo



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Apr 20, 2009
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Weight: 140.0

i thank you all from my heart for your concerns...

i did survive the wedding (and also did have some fun).

breakfast: yogurt, oatmeal/egg white mix: 320

snack/lunch: almonds 160, 2 pcs matzah 260, microwavable meal w. celery 350

total so far: 1090. eww. no way! didn't even feel like i ate that much!

snack at grandmas: apple which i ended up having an allergic reaction to (i'm only allergic to them in the spring when there's pollen,weird!) and two cookies around 300

dinner: was great. a whole avocado atop a microwave pizza. 650. not too shabby for all that.

total today: 2040 total sounds good.

exercise: 65 minutes on elliptical, abs, pushups. nice day.

soon enough i'll start weight training.

 

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 04/20/2009:
Oh, girl, I came bacl on here to see if there was a post from you today! I am so heartened to hear that you were able to have some fun at the wedding - the flat shoes no doubt helped with that! Smart move. Good luck today - you can do it HOP!


loveray on 04/20/2009:
so glad you had a bit of fun! im glad you went. xoxo


WI_HashiHypo on 04/21/2009:
Hello there =) - regarding the thyroid. When the thyroid is finally dead, it will be easier to get back to a TSH baseline because as it dies off, the medication has to be adjusted higher to compensate for the dead parts. So it is frustrating to wait for it to die because you know the medicine will have to keep being adjusted to keep your tsh levels normal. So once it does die, we'll be able to find a does that works for me and won't have to keep adjusting it.

Once the body starts getting a steady amount of TSH and all the chemicals level out as a result, I think it will be much easier to stop reaching for food to overfuel my body. You see with a damaged thyroid I don't really have a metabolism. So I am tired a lot, but I am also looking for a constant stream of energy to help all my systems, while my body HAS food it isn't being used properly so only a quarter of what I eat is actually used to fuel me, the rest just sits there and can't be taken back up and used. So I'm always looking for a fuel source to keep my energy level going, to make me feel good.

I do believe that once all the chemicals are back in place, things will be much easier. But I still have to get the right attitude in place. =)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Apr 19, 2009
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Weight: 140.0

i had dessert yesterday, too, so calories were a bit higher. i'd say around 3,000 approx.

today is a wedding. woke up and had lots of cream cheese and whitefish salad on a sandwhich of 2 pieces of wheat toast. 

for the wedding, i'm wearing all black but i realized the wedding takes place at noon...it's less formal i guess kinda at that time, no? not sure. anyway, i was going to wear heals, but if i do, i'll be in pain for the next week (my VACATION week) and that won't be good at all. so, i'm wearing flats. ha.

honestly, there have been plenty of times recently where i'd rather not be alive. that's the thought in my head, anyway. thankfully, i'm too afraid to do anything to actually harm myself so for now i can say i will remain alive but depressed. i am at a low right now in my life. a continued low for the past 2 years. i am struggling deeply to get out of it. i do not want to be at the wedding today. i am sad for what i have become.

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

loveray on 04/19/2009:
honey, i am so sad you are not well. im sending healing energy...call me if you feel like chatting. xoxo


Umpqua on 04/19/2009:
I urge you to talk to a counselor or trusted friend/professor - someone about how you are feeling. If this has been going on for 2 years it's NOT going to get better on its own. You have a lot of great things going on in your life and a lot to be hopeful about. I really hope you will get some help to get to the root of your problems so you can begin healing.


WI_HashiHypo on 04/20/2009:
GET HELP. The simple fact that you posted this here online IS a cry for help. Your mind is telling you to get help. You need help, you've needed help for two years. And you might just have a simple chemical imbalance that is EASILY corrected. MANY hospitals and clinics will work within your income guidelines (or lack of) and you may even find someone who is willing to help you free of charge because doctors and therapists are given incentives to do exactly that. You've taken the first step here by admitting you have those thoughts. And as a person who has those thoughts and who is still 'ashamed' to admit it even though the doctor is fully aware of my down times, there is help. But help won't come to you unless you make a 911 call. The step after the first is scary, I know, but when you finally get the key that unlocks what is going on inside you...trust me, you will feel a freedom far beyond anything you could have ever imagined.

First, seek out a counselor but let that counselor know you've not had a complete physical for a couple of years, then get a check up to rule out anything medical (Including thyroid disease-get the number!) and then continue with your counseling. The doctor can prescribe something that will help you feel better right away as well as something that will take time but evenutally help. There is NOTHING WRONG with asking for help and there is no shame in admitting to a professional that you need a particular kind of help. They deal with all kinds of issues each and every day. And you don't have to tell your family spit about any of it.

The first step of being independant is taking care of yourself. And knowing when you have to get outside help. Stop trying to carry all of this yourself! You may have something medically wrong that you didn't even know about! And your weight gain, binging, etc. might be a symptom of a medical condition. You are only going to drive yourself crazy if you keep going in circles waiting for that magic moment when you step out of this cycle and everything is well again. Sometimes we need help and at the risk of pissing some people off, I am going to tell you once again...YOU NEED HELP.

Get help. If you want me to do some research on clinics in your area that are low cost or doctors or whatever that will help for free, TELL ME because I am very good at being an advocate. I've done it many, many times for my employees. Anything from counseling to eye glasses. But you have to actually admit that you have a problem, and that will honestly give you the strength to get help.


ricearoni on 04/20/2009:
It's true - we all make choices and pay the price, we "do it to ourself." But, that is life and it sounds like you are working hard and have a lot going on and a lot to be proud of. The weight struggle alone is tough to deal with. You deserve to be happy. If you are not happy and have not been happy for so long, that is not normal and you do need help. We all do one way or another so please,let go of your feelings of shame and guilt and reach out. Figuring out what might be wrong physically or mentally will help you to focus your efforts to take care of yourself and achieve more success. While making no diagnosis of any kind, these kinds of feelings touch so many of us personally or through family or friends and there is help and hope available.


hollybelle on 04/20/2009:
Hey you know we have been following each others posts for quite awhile now - couple of years +, I guess, huh? So you know I say this from the heart - as I believe all the other posts above do, too - please don't do nothing to help yourself. Do something. It is always darkest just before dawn but sometimes the night is very long....Do you have insurance? If so find out what you need to do to get referred to a good counselor - if not - there are places that do counseling on a sliding fee basis - sometimes free....I wish I was there to give you a hug and tell you it will be alright! I have felt like you do and I'm sorry you are feeling like this now.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Apr 18, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 140.0

i ate the entire world on friday. not even going to guess calories. i did walk 4 miles.

today, saturday: morning consisted of different kinds of macaroons (cookies) which were coconut, chocolate chip, chocolate coated. the works. around 900 cal?

lunch: a not so healthy sweet pepper salad 150?, whitefish salad on toast: 350?

total so far today: 1400 fine.

dinner w. friends tonight.

plans for monday, after the wedding sunday, clean up!!!! finish laundry. put everything away. wash my bedding finally. ew. and wash the bathroom. clean everything and get my act together! :) i need to badly. iron pants for school.  then, relax the remainder of the week. exercise a lot. those are my only goals. i can handle just about nothing more at the moment. last week i became overwhelmed. i am a mess at the moment.

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Apr 16, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 140.0

total 1.5 hours of cardio today. happy with that!

calories:

100 breakfast

500 late breakfast

400 lunch

160 snack

dinner was not as hot: baked sweet potato 150?, pepper salad (lots of dressing) uh, 150? tuna fish 150, chocolates no idea maybe 250 at the least, CAKE also (old and leftovers since last week! yuck! haha, but tasty uhhh....700 or so? total here: 1400? ew?

total: 2560 ( at most, hopefully less.)

at least i did good exercise. today was a good day at school as well. got along well with all my classmates and other people  there which is very important to me always.

hmmm...tomorrow is my last test before break! wahoo.

then, wedding sunday which i'm iffy about.  at least i DON'T have to buy a dress, thankfully! :) i do have to buy stockings though :(

vacation next week! i'm not going anywhere lol. but i'm happy to be OFF!

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 04/16/2009:
Great job on the exercise! Cake is a huge weakness for me (as well as chocolate). I made my hubby this really decadent chocolate peanut butter cake for his birthday and we ended up freezing half of it. Unfortunately it tastes really good frozen!

That's wonderful that you are doing well in school, that's something positive for you to work from. Keep up the good attitude and enjoy your week off!


loveray on 04/17/2009:
good luck on the last of your tests! i will be thinking of you...have a great weekend! xoxo



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Apr 14, 2009
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Weight: 140.0

calories before dinner: 1100

calories i'm planning on after having dinner: 1500. good day today. i don't wanna mess it up.

studying after dinner for my last test this week which i will ACE. I have no choice. I will memorize everything really well. I want the highest grade. that's the competitive streak in me which sometimes comes out....

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

i am thinking about what i need to change/do to actually lose weight so that i can be happy about this controllable aspect of my life.

i would be nice to look good this summer. relax on the beach a little bit.  last summer i ran far away from the beach.

i probably weigh at least 145. not kidding one bit. since the end of last summer, that's 20 or so lbs more.

i've been killing myself these past two years.

this is moreso an entry for myself. to write my thoughts down. to clear my mind.

what can i do that will work? if i didn't have to study tonight i would have went to the gym. instead, i had to stay for an hour and a half extra for a meeting at school and then came home at 6 to eat (binge) and study. and that worked well. if i went to the gym, my studying WOULD have suffered even more and i KNOW that.  I know what i can handle when it comes to that. and the gym wasn't feasable. not that i should have binged. (and by binging, i mean that today was at least 3500-4000 cal).

i have that wedding sunday. not thrilled. i will be the largest one there. but i deserve it because i have done it to myself. I'm a rather healthy person who chose to make totally rash choices and decisions. and still does. it's like a brain fog that won't clear.

i am so lost right now. so confused with my life.

doesn't help that i need completely wash out another certificate of deposit at the bank and use it as a saving's account because i have NO MORE savings/checking.

that's what happens, when you don't work and go back to school.

soon enough, i'll be trying to get a job near me (even close than where i go to school) as a nurse's aide.  that means i'll be cleaning people's behinds all day.  and actually, it requires some training. i need to make money and want to make it while working in the health field. so there.

life is not simple, that is certain. and anyone who thinks it is, I wish i could see it that way.   but i'm actually not being negative because if life was simply we'd all be bored. i'm just saying right now life is confusing the shi# out of me!

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

loveray on 04/15/2009:
you are right, life and living is not simple, but it is such a gift! we are so blessed this moment with fine body, fine spirit and fine intellectualism. a challenge: write 10 things you are grateful for on your next entry...i will do it too! xoox


nimony on 04/15/2009:
Life is certainly not simple. I am going through a lot of what you are...was out of work...now have a temp job, went back to school, out of money, raising two kids, etc. It's hard to fit it all in. Identify your priorties as they are right now...loveray's gratitude list is a good way to start. Decide what you need to do and can do now to achieve your priorities. Present moment thinking will help you stay on track. No, it's not easy, but it's worthwhile when you experience that awesome feeling of accomplishment. As an example, exercise is high on my priority list, but the demands of school don't leave as much time for exercise. Like you, I compete with myself for good grades. My weight loss goal is a lifestyle change, long-term goal, so I know I'll be successful, it will just take me longer. Hope some of this helps! Best of luck to you!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Apr 14, 2009
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Weight: 140.0

If we wait for the moment when everything, absolutely everything, is ready, we shall never begin.

- Ivan Turgenev, novelist, poet, playwright

 

edit: i did binge today.

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

WI_HashiHypo on 04/14/2009:
That is so very very true


loveray on 04/14/2009:
love this quote- who are we not to shine?? xoxo


legcramps on 04/14/2009:
no kidding... but i continue to hope lol!


Umpqua on 04/14/2009:
Checking in on you. Tomorrow will be a better day :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Apr 12, 2009
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Weight: 140.0

last week was a blowout.

i realize i'm 26...optimal age to look great.

this weekend wasn't great but wasn't horrible (saturday and sunday). i think friday was really messed up if i remember right.

tonight i had a large slice of this potato based cake with frosting and coconut.

i won't give up, as usual. BUT, i will say that my health should come first and foremost. i will stick to my exercise. and try to not take what i look like for the time being (fat) too seriously.

i am considered overweight for my height.

it's all about moderation. today was pretty moderate, besides the cake at dinner.

tired, allergies....

phone call tonight with this new guy from a dating online site....i'm nervous.  i am not a phone type person....(see, loveray!)

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 04/12/2009:
Like you, I, too, am considered overweight for my height (5'8"). Not supposed to go over 154. I wear stretch 8's jeans and want to comfortably wear non-stretch 8's jeans. But I'm eating a lot more lately and am mostly maintaining 160. Like you say, moderation. :-)


selina on 04/13/2009:
It's so hard to lose weight (for me) when it's allergy season. I took the allergy shots last fall for a long time, nearly 2 months, but it seems like it didn't work. when I was travelling I didn't feel the allergy as much, but now that I am back home, I have the symptoms again. take it easy and don't forget to take the allergy medication. Stay well!


loveray on 04/13/2009:
yea my allergies make me so lethargic too! i cannot wait for more beautiful weather, sans pollen. i hope you had a good weekend. xoxo



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