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Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jun 16, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 140.0

good day today. my last binge was june 6th.  that was 10 days ago. by binge, i mean totally excessive calories beyond 2200-2300. and i've been doing good. i'm proud of myself and i want to beat this bulge!

i feel strong and in control right now.  I NEED to do this for myself. I really do. it's not even a choice.  The motivation is here, the desire and urge to be successful and reach my goals.  If I can reach 120 by mid August I'll be satisfied. Or by summer's end. TWENTY pounds is my goal. 20. 20. 20.

20. It's June 16. In two months, it will be August 16. 2 months = 8 weeks. 8 weeks = 16 pounds. I can weigh 125. I can weigh 120 by August's end. :(  It seems so long from now...why does it feel unattainable...I can do this.

Too much thinking, I can feel it already. I'm not overwhelmed but this is an important goal. I will NOT succumb to binging and weight this summer. I will NOT maintain my current 140 pound weight. I will NOT. I am done. SO DONE.

What I'm ready for is that other look - the one of muscle and definition. of tone. of using weights again next school year - or starting this summer. whatever! i just want exercise and weightloss. I need exercise and weightloss. i need this.

breakfast: 400...large avocado/egg sandwich and yogurt.

snack: horrible snack bar. nutrigrain. choices were really limited. 130

lunch:chips, coffee 250

large snack: huge bowl fiber one w. 1/2 cup milk, 3 light yogurts: 520

dinner: 400 or microwave meal, veggies, salad...

TOTAL: 1700 great day. bike ride, elliptical for 15 min, pushups, back, abs. 35 min of cardio and probably 15 min of the other. good stuff. very happy with this day. can't wait for my last test tomorrow to be OVER!  I am gonna lose as much weight as i can without messing up before july 6th....and then the real challenge will begin....i am gonna do this by my 27th birthday. i don't have a particular weight goal but just to lose. i can do it.....i cannot fail again. i will make it happen. ..... .....

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

loveray on 06/16/2009:
you are making me want some fiber one!! xo


thinnside40 on 06/16/2009:
Looks like you have a pretty good "good day" streak going on ........ PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!


selina on 06/17/2009:
Hey HOP! I like what I see here in your diary - keep it up!


nenak on 06/17/2009:
your in the zone!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jun 15, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 140.0

exercise: elliptical 45, abs, pushups, back. awesome, great! lol. time to study, blah! but, it'll be for the last test of this school year!!!! wahoooooooo.  feeling good as of late. ate well this weekend, up to 2200 cals per day which is FAR better than other high amounts i should not even write!

breakfast: sandwich: egg white, avocado, bread: 320

snack: kashi bar 130

lunch: chips, coffee: 250

large snack, was really hungry: healthy choice organic meal, lots of celery, yogurt: 500

dinner: lean cuisine, package said 260...whole package cooked mushrooms to eat with the meal 90, large tomato 50. total: 400. fine!

total today 1600 GREAT! :)

 

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

loveray on 06/16/2009:
awesome day, friend! xoxo



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jun 14, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 140.0

i have 3 tests this week. and believe me, i'm NOT going to stress. they will be factored in with the rest of my grades. who cares if they are not the absolute best i can do. they will be what i can do without it messing with my exercise schedule. that is what is important for the rest of the month. sorry to dissapoint anyone. i'm certainly not dissapointing myself.

when i turn 27, on september 9th, 2009, it will be a good day. i vow to not let this weight rule my life forever. i have only THREE years left in my 20s and i VOW that they will be mine. rightfully mine to flaunt myself and have fun, to go to the bar, to wear nice fitting clothes. no more of my nonsense. i really hope to make a GREAT improvement over the summer. and it is up to me to make the changes and finally reach my goal.

by changes, i mean keeping calories in check. no, i don't mean really low or never having large portions, but just in check. even today i consider in check. 2200 is not 5000.  so, that's what i mean. the other change is just keeping up with exercise. i want exercise to be a BIG part of my life.  i know what i WANT to look like. i am not there at all. i want nice toned, legs, not the flab i currently have. i know this will take time, but i wonder, how long? and how much exercise and determination will it really take? i guess i have to work at it until i see the results i want.  :)

breakfast: too carby i think: 2 cups fiber one, skim milk: 320

snack: 2 light n fit yogurts 160

snack: bar 170

lunch:dunkin donuts flatbread 300

snack too early and gave into temptations: 2 peppers, some lettuce, (80), and eight cookies at grandma's....900 approx here...

snack: diet coke.

dinner: bar, drink: 230...

total so far: 2080....was still hungry...had soup. total 2200 today.

exercise: was good. 3 mi in the morning, 15 min bike ride picking up the newspaper, walk with grandma (light and short), and 3 miles in the evening. anyday with at least 6 miles i consider a good one.  some abs, but not much. haha.

off to a good start. i may have a tomato or something (but that's not so satisfying...) i may go up to 2200....even though i didn't want to.

Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

grumpy on 06/14/2009:
thanks, girl. i agree on what you said. i also need to look into the $$$ i would spend and see if i can do something. I know that none of these procedures are substitutes to diet and exercise and also they are just to better something, but not to cure anything. i was thinking of the cellulites one because thats something i have a lot of and it wont go away when i lose more weight, and it doesnt. but i guess i have to go for a consultation and talk to some doctors. the elderberry is the concentrate of that cleanse i do and really good for you. so its not really a heavy juice, just an extract you mix on water, i ended up changing the menu a little, will update now. xoxo


CritterMom on 06/15/2009:
Now, if you could eat what you posted, but leave out the breads and cookies, and add more in the way of protein, you would have it right. IF you want those toned muscular legs, you've got to eat protein to support healthy muscle tone, as well as exercise.


loveray on 06/15/2009:
sounds like you did really well today!! i love the ZOIC shake- its really filling with 21 grams of protein and only 110 cals- its a good thing to keep around the office for me. also, i love it because it's non-dairy and has many less additives than most of the pre-made drinks. give it a shot. love you!


nenak on 06/15/2009:
dunkin donuts flat bread i want some..............what is it? sounds yum!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jun 13, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 141.0

saturday's entry:

breakfast: peppers 150...lol, lots of peppers....

followed by a lean cuisine fish entry, i know weird: 330, yogurt 70

snack: bar, drink  200

snack: drink 150

bar: 170, more peppers 100.

dinner: salad, large ass brownie. i was in the mood for dessert at the diner, and not diner. so i just orderred a regular salad, but really indulged in the brownie and coffee. ehh, maybe 1,000 for dinner. well worth it. :)

total today: approx 2200 or so. nice day overall. good times with my best friend :)

exercise: moderate. 2 mile walk, 25 minute elliptical, abs, back. my knee is in major pain. may have to by something for it... 

Progress as of today: -16 lbs lost so far, only 21 lbs to go!

loveray on 06/14/2009:
sounds like you had a great day with your friend as well!! yay for best friend time. happy week to you. xoxo


grumpy on 06/14/2009:
I did that before, ordered a small very light appetizer as my entry and a big ass dessert. hehehehehe



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jun 12, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 141.0

good morning all. :)  So i have 21 lbs until i reach 120. that's not really that much...as I can lose 10 lbs a month with proper exercise and not binging.  i have ALL of my last three tests next week. two on monday, one on wednesday. i am NOT stressing over them. my averages are good in my classes and i would rather continue with exercising and stuff like that at this time. lol. priorities!?

i'll be going on vacation from July 6-16th. exciting stuff! the nice thing is that it will be a very busy vacation, lots to see and do, so i won't have to as much as worry one bit about succeeding in weight loss unless i decide to pig out - which i can assure you i will not.  i will try VERY hard.  however, if the food selection is bad, as i will be on a tour with food mostly provided, i'll have to make do. but, if i can, i will try to make good choices...

Today is the 12th. When I get back from the trip it'll be the 16th, a little over one month. I would like to be in the high 120's by then....and it is totally possible. AND, I am NOT going to start looking for a job until i return from this trip.  I kinda want to lose most of my weight before getting ajob too....just so that i don't end up having too much to do and not enough to do any of my personal needs too.

so, july 16th, upper 120s (really want to be OUT of the 130s...). then, August 16th....possibly, i can make the upper teens? yeah, it's a lot to think of now....but, this could mean that i could lose all the weight i need to by September. and then just work on maintaining....and by maintiaining, staying in the teens. THIS IS ALL TOO FAR FETCHED RIGHT NOW, I ADMIT. but, with the lack of tests during summer,i am really, really going to work hard on improving my physique. however, there will still be some studying to do.

if i want to succeed in this occupation, i need to step up my game, considerably, over the summer. study the positions each night at least 10 minutes....(even though we'll not be responsible for tests)

breakfast/snack: (split in half except for having the light yogurt with breakfast) whole avocado 300, pita 140, 1/2 cup eggwhites, yogurt 60. total: 560 yummy and healthy calories.

lunch: ice cream cake and coffee lol. someone's bday today. and it was well worth it.  yum.  500 cal probably.

snack 1:  full bar. 170

snack 2:  emtoional eating to relax me. was raining, now it's nice. i should go out soon! 3 light and fit yogurs 240 , whole package of rice cakes 560 total here: 800 arg.

total so far:  2030. bit high...since the goal is to lose weight....but, i do plan on having dinner still.....will go up to around 2300 today.

 

dinner: plum, 3 yellow peppers TOTAL AROUND 150

TOTAL CALORIES TODAY: 2180. NOT THE BEST, NOT THE WORST.

exercise:  ehh, probably the gym since the weather isn't holding right now...

Progress as of today: -16 lbs lost so far, only 21 lbs to go!

sweetpea1977 on 06/12/2009:
mmmmm...avocadoes! I could eat those all day long! :) Have a good Friday and weekend!


h82bfat on 06/12/2009:
How do you know if an avocadoe is ready to eat/ripe? I've heard them mentioned SO many times that I've thought about trying them - even went so far as to pick one up - only to put it right back down becus I'm not good at picking fruit. They must be in season becus I've noticed a significant price drop locally, so now is the time for me to give them a try.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jun 11, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 145.0

filling breakfast: 380 cal of oatmeal w. a little egg white mixed in, banana, light yogurt.

snack: kashi bar 140

lunch: coffee, chips...250 was great.

snack 2? bar? full bar?  170

dinner: lean cuisine. 400, tomatoes 150, cauliflower 60.  610 or a bit more.

exercise: light, 1.5 miles need to take it easy. yesterday was a hard day.

total cal today: 1550. nice day. was on my feet a lot at school. and boy do i need to get better at these xrays...arg.

Progress as of today: -20 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jun 10, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 145.0

calories are good. will exercise in a little bit....

breakfast had some fruit (a nice kiwi!!!) and other good things, low on protein though which lead to a little more hunger than i should have. good fats in my avocado though.

snack: other half of my avocado on pita.

total up to here: around 600

lunch: horrible for you but kinda cool BBQ flavored fritos! lol. and a large coffee. not more than 300.  (horrible selection of chips)  I refuse a sald for lunch as the hostpial selections SUCK and i don't find eating vegetables and no protein or just cheese to be satisfying.

snack: THREE yogurts (of the light variety) and some strawberries. 300 i had to.

total up to here: 1200 fine...

dinner: microwave meal, veggies: 

 

Progress as of today: -20 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jun 09, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 145.0

1400 calories today. 1.5 mile slow walk. need my ankle to feel better.

breakfast: 200 banana and light yogurt.

snack: bar 150

lunch: horrible. chips and decaf coffee 300

snack: sorta healthy bar 200

dinner: LOTS of veggies, 200 cal worth, and a microwave meal 400 or so. total 600

total: 1400-1450 at most. very happy with a low calorie count, but still pretty appropriate for the day i had.

 

Progress as of today: -20 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!

h82bfat on 06/10/2009:
Looks like you had a pretty good day. I like how you always are aware of your calorie intake. I'm not there yet! I only monitor my calories when I know it's something I should be avoiding. Thanks for the breakfast advice the other day. I used to skip breakfast. I got into the habit of having breakfast by drinking Slim Fast. I've only been eating "real" food for about a week now, so I may eventually start upping my breakfast game by incorporating more than cereal.


loveray on 06/10/2009:
have you tried a "full bar" yet? it's made with puffed cereal and they are really big and filling (hence the name.) i usually dont eat those bars, but this one was actually really tasty and satisfying. http://www.fullbar.com/ xoxo


thinnside40 on 06/10/2009:
Holding out for you to have a spectacular day..... Take care!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jun 08, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 145.0

exercise: 20 minute run/walk mile, 25 minutes elliptical, pushups, back work, and sit ups. the end!

total today: 2050. fine. arg. not weightloss fine, but fine in maitenance range.

not a bad day in any way....arg! calories went a bit astray....NEED to get up and go for a walk....

breakfast got me too hungry only 2 hours after eating, weird: small, protein and fiber weight watchers bagel, egg whites, 1/2 avocado, light drink: 400.

snack: bar: eaten too early....150 with fiber, healthy fat, carbs.

lunch: chips but lower fat and with olive oil lol, but chips, and coffee 250

early snack when i got home around 2:30: microwave meal, lots of veggies. 450

total so far: 1250....ICE cREAM so 600 more....1850...will probably have a protein bar or something later....

my plans for 1650 after that early snack have gone out the window...

dinner: snickers marathon protein bar 150, a light drink supplement powder in water. 2 16 ounce glasses. 50 total 200.

 

Progress as of today: -20 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 06/08/2009:
Your mileage all looks good...At least that causes some of the calories to be worked off....One day @ a time H_O_P.....Sometimes one minute @ a time too......Set a short-term goal again..I need to too!!!


smiley2 on 06/09/2009:
Thanks for the welcome back comment! See we are about in the same weight range. What is your length and goal weight? I am 5 foot 4 and my goal weight is around 127. Wx


loveray on 06/09/2009:
looks like you are doing really well. i am so happy!! its really hard to stay on track. i am going to hot yoga tonight for the first time in a LONG time so wish me luck!! im nervous...



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jun 07, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 145.0

total calories today was nothing great but nothing terrible at all. 2100 or so. too many cookies at grandma's....

BUT, 9 miles exercise throughout day. 5 mi in the morning, 1 with grandma, 3 back at a park by my town. so, that's pretty awesome. i feel a bit better about myself than i did yesterday.

next week my goal is a 10 miler day. doesn't have to be all at once....and won't be...but i want 10 miles of exercise througout ONE day. :)

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

breakfast: small bagel, 1/2 avocado, butter, and then vanilla yogurt. total here: 440. and i will NOT go back for anything else.

lunch: bar?

snack: bars?

snack: bar? who knows....

dinner: microwave meal, veggies, and BED. yeah, going to bed.

not happy with the past week. made the terrible mistake of eating about 9,500 calories too much. yeah, could you believe that? if i divide that # by 3500 it means I have ACTUALLY gained at least 2.7 (almost 3) pounds. that is the amount at least that i had lost before this past week started. It is true, I am back to square one. all the work i had been doing is somewhat lost, except for the fact that physically i am probably stronger than i used to be like a month ago. 

I'm not crying over this, i do feel that i could have made the right choices. i do feel i do have control - that it is my own doing and i can stop the binging if i want to. i hope. i have an appointment to meet with a psychologist, actually, on July 20th.  I have NO TESTS this summer and my plan is to not binge all summer. and, i might as well start my plan early - we don't have many tests left this year so not too much stress....

i would like to stop binging cold turkey. it's hard, bc we do NEED food to survive. so i can't just say "no food." i can plan out my meals and stick with them though. that is what i did when i was successful YEARS ago. everything was planned and i lost weight. i think i'm kidding myself right now. i need to reconfigure a plan, and stick with it. i have not lost anything and just gained misery this year.

so, why don't i just plan 1200 calorie days and stick to them? that is probably too low, actually. So, alright, 1500 calorie days. stick to them, and lose the weight. It should be easy, right? lol .

so, 440 calories for breakfast this morning.

snack: bar - 160 cal and water.

snack: fruit and another bar, water: 270

total so far: 870

snack: yes, a bar: up to 200

dinner: microwave meal and veggies, up to 500. the end.

calories are not over 1500.

that is how easy it can be to lose weight when you plan meals. now, i just have to stick with this. i haven't been able to stick with not binging. that is what gets me.

if i stick to 1500 calories each day this week, i'll lose 1 pound. i exercise a lot and i do believe i burn around 2,000 calories each day. so, 500 cal burned per day times 7 days a week is 3500 cal, one pound.

so, if i do this for 3 weeks, 3 pounds lost, at least.

if i want to speed up the process, i'll have to eat less. but, i don't think going much under 1500 will help, and i actually think that'll cause a binge. yeah, so i'm starting with 1500 per day.

if i didn't binge all year, i'd be looking great right now. i'm too old for this nonsense. and i'm too sick of saying this.  my next birthday, 27th, will be this september. i want to be looking and feeling better by then.

being fat

I have let myself continue with fat world for 2 whole years.  I cannot let this continue anymore. soon enough, i will have totally forgot what it means to be thin. yes, i'm already forgetting.  when i look in the mirror many times, i don't even realize i am fat (and by fat i mean i could be considered overweight on a doctor's chart). 

today my stomach is royally screwed up. it's very full of food and it feels gross. this is the first day this week i felt this bad. like when i press my stomach, i can feel my intestines just all blocked up with food. its really gross actually!

ok, i'm obsessing. my plan is to pick up the newspapers. then, get out for a long walk. i'll pick up the papers by bike....

then it's off to see my grandmother.

perhaps when i get home i'll go for a short bike ride as well.

blah. it's time to be as active as i can. and not worry about studying for these last few tests.

those are my thoughts this morning.

Progress as of today: -20 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!

readysetgo on 06/07/2009:
can you ID what makes you binge? some people it's boredom, sometimes it's emotional eating...if you can figure out what starts it you can maybe avoid it. Good keeping a positive mentality



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