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Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Nov 14, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Home: kombucha 100

Breakfast: wrap 100, pb 150, honey 50, banana 120, coffee 50

Lunch: at most, 650 cals.

1200 approx cals.

1250 before dinner.

dinner: some veg with sauce 200?, serving of smoked salmon 150 most, jello 5 calories lol, drink of seltzer mixed with alcohol lemon margarita flavor 100-150. total here: 500? might be forgetting something, but i do no think so...

total i think is 1750.

4day: 1790 per day.

 

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Even my wrists, still sore from the trigger pull practice, hurt while I type. It'll all heal, within time. Legs, Wrists, Ankle. Everything will feel better with time. 

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As you all know or don't know - I've pulled myself out of the running for Police Officer in the NYPD as i took a practice fitness test and knew based on how I felt the rest of the weekend (sore and in pain) as well as how poorly i did on the test, that i am not a good candidate to continue further in the application process. 

It's upsetting thinking how in my mind I thought that i was ready and I thought it was my reality to be in, when in fact once i faced the real reality of TRYING the elements in the fitness test, it woke me up into my REAL reality that the NYPD is no longer an option for me. I had never tried the test before this past Friday. And someone of my size - probably just hovering above 110 lbs when i took it - and my low leg muscle / prior leg injuries - i couldn't withstand half of the elements on the test, if not more.  I'd never have passed - i didn't know how hard it would FEEL until i took the exam for myself. It's a reality i have faced - just upset that i had it in my head that it would feel much easier and doable.  I didn't realize my reality until i tried the test. I feel that I fooled myself.  It's been upsetting, i'm getting over it.

I am not working out this week - my legs still hurt and even my wrists are sore from practicing with a 12lb trigger pull. I am hurting. I am glad i do NOT need to physically torture myself any more. I am looking to be easy on my body this week - no exercise plans until after the weekend or starting Sunday, depending how I feel.

Life is always different, well sometimes, than we plan. I am lucky for what i have. My father. My job now. My father told me specifically not to worry. Not to worry - that i will not be a pauper. That i'll be ok, for life. He didn't say specifics. But i can trust that, and just be good to myself, relax a bit, do what makes me happy - the gym - and perhaps work later on my legs once they are feeling better - giving them 6-8 weeks of mostly rest - I'm taking a slight break from pushing my limits, it's not necessary at this time, at all. I deserve a break now.

I'm glad i got to go on the trips in September (Colombia) and October (Vegas).  I will not be traveling for awhile now - just trying to actually save some money for my own future and retirement. 

I am 35 and have MANY years left to work .... i'll just be taking life for now day by day.

BCGG gave good advice, but for now i am going to relax. I am a bit overwhelmed from all the pushing i did to myself...the running since last spring...just doing everything in my power to help myself to the NYPD. but sometimes, my best is not what is best or suitable for another organization's requirements.  I did my best. That's all i can do.

But for now, i need to rest / relax both my body and mind. I will relax thru the rest of fall and thru december.  I have already paid for a few local events to attend (wasting money, yup). but they willl be fun. local. to me, this is fun and good in life. I'll do this more - and more free local events. Lots of free. Lots of library events that i like. I'm going to enjoy life as best i can, and keep this job, as long as they don't kick me out. Which they haven't. 

I do not enjoy my job and it is stressful the type of work that i don't know well, but i'll stick it out - the money is actually GOOD right now...way better than i'll get ANYWHERE else possibly - and that is a reality. So, i'll show up, on time, and leave, on time. 

I'll do what i can to keep this job and keep a low profile here at work. Not open my mouth to cause a ruckus. I'll be ok, for now, for a year maybe a few years. That's all i can think about, for now. 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/14/2017:
Words of encouragement: Be kind and patient with yourself. Give yourself time to mourn; this is a loss, give it and yourself the respect it/you deserve. Rest and time will be your greatest ally in this uncertain time.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2017:
Your advice is definitely the best advice right now. Thank you for understanding exactly how i feel right now as well. Rest and time is about the perfect things right now. Everything else can wait. I am lucky to be able to rest and take some time to just be patient and kind to myself.

I really need those things, before making any further decisions for now. I am lucky i have the opportunity to take time and rest...and not be having to look for jobs, etc., or doing anything else that luckily i do not need to do.

At least i can just relax, finally. No pushing, no hoping, no thinking about what i have to do next for this time being now.

THANK YOU.

I realize i should feel what i need to feel, feel the upset feelings, but then move forward.


bearcountrygg on 11/14/2017:
Donkey is right...you do need time to mourn, so be kind to yourself. I firmly believe that things happen for a reason, that is a very dangerous job...maybe...just maybe....you have been protected from something that would have been very hard to deal with....you are now feeling disappointment..and sadness...but that will pass. I personally think you will find a great fulfillment in a different new endeavor, in the future and be glad things worked out like they did.

horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2017:
thank you bcgg, i just want to relax for now and realizing that the job situation is not as bad as i thought for now. so even though my future is VERY uncertain, i'll just rest on thinking about the jobs now.

If i were fit enough cardio/leg wise for the nypd, i would have gone but it's not a realistic opportunity any more.

I will go back to my 3x a week weights sessions at the gym, take a break fully from running, and go back into cycling later on, when i feel fully better (2 months).


innerpeace on 11/14/2017:
Oh the job! We do what we must to live.

Do you job hunt at all? What would you even be interested in doing now?

I'm sure after you rest, you will have a new lease on life and some new doors will open. good luck.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2017:
Not ready to leave this job. I get paid very well for the time being. I'll try not to think about having to leave. I do luckily have some connections if i ever did have to go.

I know it's not what you want to hear, but it's what will be for now for me.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Nov 13, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Struggling a bit.  My cardio is horrible - didnt train it really at all - and a lot of the PO test is based on having decent cardio. plus i'm a female. my arm muscles don't seem to have a lot of pull on my passing of the exam.

My legs are tender and sore. My legs feel like fire is on the outside of my lower legs.  My wrists are sore from practicing too much with a 10-11lb pistol.  Yes, i am complaining. Yes, i hurt.

Dealing with inner anxiety about the whole PO process. And wonderfing if my leg pain (on outer lower legs) is mostly anxiety-caused.

Home: kombucha 70

work: some coffee 30, wrap 100, honey 50, peanut butter 150 330. and most of a banana 100

11:30 peanuts 150

2pm lunch: squash 100, sauce 50, chicken burger 150, chips 200: 500 total.

1150 total.....

3:30pm snack: crackers 120

more crackers on way home = 60

1350 calories today.

Skipped dinner. 3day: 1800 per day.

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On another note, I removed myself from the process of applying for PO for the NYPD.  I am no longer an applicant and cancelled it.

The leg pain, whether it was anxiety or not, was too much to bear for the weekend and still today. I will now take it very easy this week.

When i feel better, i'll start by changing my entire routine. Additionally, I will stop running for awhile....and switch to the bike. Short periods of time.

I will restart with 3days a week gym sessions like I used to....and do a little cardio during those sessions.

No more 2 days a week jogging and 2 days a week weights....I'm going back to my preference. and relaxing this Winter.

No, I will not be a police officer in this lifetime.

I wouldn't have been able to bear the course and would have eventually gotten injured. I know my limitations - my legs are not strong.

My upper body, yes, i've trained it years, but based on the practice test, i discovered for myself that i was in no way ready for the academy test or training...and rather than waste all my 5 days that i have left this year on going into NYC and applying for something that would have ended very poorly, i decided just to pull out and PULL OUT NOW.

 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/13/2017:
Don't give up on yourself, you have done your best and continue to work hard, give it your all and things will work out whatever direction they take you. I firmly believe that whatever happens is what is supposed to happen. Maybe try some meditation or relaxation exercises, but always know that we know you have worked very very hard for this, soak those legs in a hot bath and try to relax a bit. ;>}

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
Thank you for all the good advice...sometimes a person needs to listen to when their body is telling them to STOP. so i listened :)

Even if i did my best, it was my best. I am really proud of myself. And now i'll rest my legs until they feel better. And live my life as it plays out...and everything will be OK, for now.

I'll try to save my money...and it seems this is the VERY BEST job i will have and i hope to have it as long as i possibly can...

life is always different than we think we've planned. the test was very, very hard and now i'm paying the consequences and boy do my legs HURT right now. Just constant pins and needles. Like a fire on the outside of my lower legs.


innerpeace on 11/13/2017:
I'm sure this was a very heartfelt and thought out decision. I hope you can find peace in your current work place. I admired your training and was so excited for you to reach your ultimate goal. I have learned in life that goals and dreams change. I hope you continue to do what satisfies your soul.

Rest up...another dream awaits!

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
Thank you so much, IP. It was heartfelt...i had to listen to my hurting legs.

I did cry quite a bit this AM over having to make the only (right) choice. At least I still have 5 days off to use from now until new days start up in April. LOL. and i got a couple nice vacations in....during this Fall.

Now, i'm going to live life more at home..no travels i mean. pray i don't get fired in the next couple years. and just work towards being healthy again. taking off the diet drinks again and i may wean off coffee, again.

i'll try again to be healthier. and try to realize more that there is another dream that awaits.

thank you for your kindness.

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
At least i can enjoy all the good times with friends coming up - November thru December i have nice plans.

i just need to NOT get fired / lose a job.


bearcountrygg on 11/13/2017:
Take pride in the fact that you gave it a try....you work hard and you play hard......and the way this world is going.....cops are not getting any respect from too many people......I had 3 uncles that were in the Oakland county police department...and 2 of them died in their 40's and 50's...the 3rd had a stroke in his 60's....it's a very stressful job.....you love life and live it to the fullest.....now you can be as active as you want to be, and have fun with your friends and travel and enjoy your life....Now you can concentrate on working and living without being shot at....and THAT IS A THING!!!!

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
I feel better than i did this morning, but, always scared i can lose my job and know it will be sickening to find another for similar pay - prob wouldn't happen. but for now, i feel ok. i feel better.

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
thank you for your comments and kindness as well.

I am in NO SHAPE to do lots of running. it would have been a waste to ever leave this job.


happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
Hugs, you will prevail.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2017:
TY Happy, I will..


bearcountrygg on 11/13/2017:
Well now you know that you need to apply yourself fully to this current job and if by chance you should lose it then you have gained a very good addition to your resume....but now that you know you want to keep it...it's time to make yourself invaluable to the business. Make them fear losing you because they need you so much. That is the advise we gave our kids and the attitude Denny and I worked with through the years. You can do it, and if by chance they have to lay people off then it would be an opportunity to find an even better one....try to stay positive....you have plenty of drive and detrmination. You will be fine!!!!!

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2017:
Your advice is very good advice, I appreciate you putting i the effort to write it to me. I especially like your last sentence, above.

Taking a deep breath and doing what i can now here at this job.


Donkey on 11/13/2017:
I'm sure this must have been a very difficult decision for you to make. (((hugs)))

You've gotten some very good, wise advice & insight from others here; take it.

In my journey, I found that riding the bike is a lot more enjoyable than running or even walking that I thought it would ever be; this might apply to you too. I know it's much kinder on the back/hips/knees/legs. Probably kinder on the ankles too.

Now your workouts can be just for YOU.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2017:
Yes, I appreciate your support. I think it's not really advice i even need at this time...it is the support that i'll be ok...

I DO want to work on my legs and one day be able to do better, have more strength. Not now while they heal, obviously.

I do appreciate the cycling / biking advice. I will prob take up cycling. I know a good instructor at my gym, a friend of mine, older and retired with TWO KNEE REPLACEMENTS and she is strong as THE ROCK! I think that's a wrestler's name!?

I am going to relax. First off, i'm going back to those weight routines i loved most at 3x a week...and i'll see my strength improve greatly again.....thanks for all your good words.

one thing i cannot do -- is take any classes in estimating for what i do now - i refuse. My dad will be ok with my choice. It'll be ok. I want to enjoy my time out of work how i want to do it - and i refuse to sit in a classroom.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Nov 12, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

7:30am Kombucha and plums 150

8:30am  Breakfast: bar and peanut butter 350, coffee 50 400

11:30 Snack: banana 150

12:45 Lunch: chips and chicken burger 450

total so far:  1150, very good..

Snack afternoon: fruit?

1500 healthy before dinner .....

Dinner: TBD

 

2050 cals total.

2 day avg: 2000

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/12/2017:
Chicken burger.....that sounds good!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
yes...great change from turkey!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Nov 11, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Dinner was too light so I woke up in middle of night to snack.

I did sleep many hours and woke up with the sun rather than an annoying alarm!

2am Banana and fiber 1 cookie 250

8:30am sweet breakfast: plum and a persimmon 100, kombucha 100, i want another cookie 120. 320-350

lunch 12pm: chinese veg 200 and chips 250.  450.

lunch 2pm: chicken burger 150 in wrap 100- finally cooked them and they are so tasty especially when FRESH and warm hot out of the oven!!!!!!!!!! yum. 250.

snack around 4pm: light ice cream / some coffee 200

dinner: little bit of smoked salmon 100, 2 garlic knots 200, spaghetti squash with some sauce 150: 450., having something to drink, yes. 150

total today: 1950, great!.

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planning to eat dinner out of what i have here - lots of spaghetti squash will be on the menu as i just cooked 2 and one of them was huge...added up to like between 10-12 cups of squash.

 

 

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Not many plans. First breakfast. Then having kombucha and reading. Later a shower and laundry and I might Just do laundry tomorrow. I am relaxing for now!

12:15pm - laundry is just finishing, hamster cage has been cleaned, Ricky is coming over to visit...AND he's fixing my practice gun because it has the wrong spring inside (only 8 lbs) and i need him to unscrew it with his screwdriver (i don't have the right type of sdriver) and i need to put in the 10-11 lb spring. the one for the test at the academy is 12 lbs...so at least i'll be close when i practice at home, for two weeks. my test is the day after Thanksgiving...I am going to try my hardest to pass it that day....i will have to work / rest and try not to both underdo or overdo. It will not be easy for me, at all...but i'm working towards it.

No exercise today. easy day. glad i have leftover chinese from yesterday. enjoying having veggies home and not going out till 6pm as i have a MASSAGE at 6:30 today and i believe it's for 1 whole hour...that's good.

tomorrow i'm seeing a $20 band concert with Ricky. i thought it was free, but i want to keep the plans and enjoy. I'll be at the gym tomorrow evening, instead of this afternoon as i'm slightly sore and want to RELAX.

The massage is prepaid and i get charged $60 per month. i don't want to get rid of it - as i like the massages. 

However, funds are not going to be great - it seems - from now till January at my job as i'm taking days off - but i can manage.

I'll keep my 25% before tax deduction i think i do 25% right now - 401k deductions as savings is VERY important to me. And i'll just manage and all the activities i have lined up from now till January are prepaid and i have already paid back my cards. I wanted to see one last show, if it's $45 i'll do it, otherwise, i'm done spending for the season.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/11/2017:
I read your response/update regarding the training. Yowza! But I think it's a good idea to do it, even if it means a smaller paycheck, and if you can swing it financially.

Therefore, a nice relaxing day is definitely in order :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 11/11/2017:
Thanks Donkey.

I'm a bit overwhelmed right now, so taking a few breaths and realizing this is what i wanted...and just wondering if it's possible anymore.


bearcountrygg on 11/11/2017:
It sounds like you have the rest of the year planned out really well, I'm keeping fingers crossed that it all goes smoothly for you.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/11/2017:
i am a bit nervous right now...things not looking as simple as i thought...glad to relax today and rest my legs. i like having rest days...


Donkey on 11/12/2017:
IT IS POSSIBLE. BANISH ALL DOUBT AND DO YOUR BEST.

horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2017:
I am pretty sore so I am scared

horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2017:
Scared that I am not going to be able to withstand training and that I am going to further injure myself completely as I have been extremely sore in my legs since Friday. Scared sh*tless.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Nov 10, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Happy Veteran's Day Observance Day!

Kombucha: 80

And honey 50 and banana 120. 250 total

Breakfast:

Wrap with pb 250, coffee 50. 300. 550.....

Late 2pm lunch Chinese rice too much 450, shrimp 200, veg 250, cookies 350  ...

1800.....a bit much ....

 dinner: 450 - chinese eggplant in garlic sauce, margarita canned drink 

2250.

weekly avg: 2250.

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I am off from work and headed (driving in) to NYC to take an hour's tutoring for the phyiscal fitness test for the NYPD.  It's just practice and optional tuturing. I am glad i signed up for it - good to have a pre-test and know what will be happening for real in 2 weeks. I'm glad they had the tutoring available today on my day off or I probably wouldn't have participated in the tuturing!

Then, I might be having lunch with a friend who lives also in NYC, a mile from where I will be. We didn't make plans - I'll call her when my tutoring session is over. It's from 11am-12pm.  I prepaid for parking for $16 for the whole day, which is awesome - people pay more like $50 if they don't do what i did - pay in advance / look for the deals online.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/10/2017:
Good luck...I hope you find that you are training exactly right for the outcome you want...I'm sure you are...you are in great physical condition....you should see the cops around here...LOL....and we don't have a donut bakery in town.

horn_of_plenty on 11/11/2017:
Turned out to be very difficult for me. Requirements are the same for men and women. I am lean but have minimal leg strength so it's hurting my results. I will have to take off work to go practice more in the city. I will not Be paid at work bc I ran out of sick days.


Donkey on 11/10/2017:
Training sounds like a really good idea. I hope it went well. Do you feel, from your training class, that you are on the right track with just a little adjustment here and there?

horn_of_plenty on 11/11/2017:
Turns out the test is a lot harder to do than I was imagining it to be...yes, it will be possible but with all my strength. I do need to go back for more practice and it's only on M-F. This week I have to take if Monday and wed from work to go to city for practice. Then, Friday I have the psych testing to do. I will only be at my real job tues and Thursday this week...I am missing more days than I thought I would and I ran outta sick days so I will not be paid.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Nov 09, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

6:30am Home: kombucha and honey 100

8am Breakfast coffee 50, wrap 100, pb 150, cinnamon, banana 120.

9:30am Snack:  Rice Krispie Treat 80...still on a sugar kick...tasty but not needed.

I really need to stop the sugars mostly because they just make me hungrier...

10:30am peanuts 150

11:45...small piece of a homemade sugar free chocolate muffin, wasn't bad was quite light. 50? SO HUNGRY.

Lunch was too big, but good. 750. too many chips is the reason.

snack: apple 100

rice krispie treat 100

1750..too much food lately.

mcdonalds dinner. 500 and i  did this time buy a side salad to eat with small fries and 4 nuggets.

2250 :)

6day avg: 2225 :-)

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 11/09/2017:
Hope you are having a good evening.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/10/2017:
it was productive & i got to rest :)


bearcountrygg on 11/09/2017:
I have to try that kombucha!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/10/2017:
good stuff ...makes me poop most mornings before work lol :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Nov 08, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Home: kombucha and honey 100

Work: coffee with milk 50, wrap 100, with pb 150, banana 120:  420.

Several Snacks m&m fun size 70 and kit Kat fun size 80. 150, peanuts 80-100

1pm Lunch: leftover Chinese food for dinner with my added cabbage since i ate the chinese veg last night lol...it's mostly chicken in some sauce and i added my cabbage, i'll also eat some corn chips...700 cal, overindulged in chips again, very tasty.

4pm Snack: plum 50

1500

Snack 2 before jogging at GYM (not gonna jog outside tonight) Rice Krispie treat, i'll jog only between 1 mile to 1.5 miles then BED and relaxing back at home.!!!!!!! been a long, eventful week already.

1600 before dinner, whatever dinner is (probably dunkin donuts)

Dinner back at home:rest of the chicken from the chinese, perhaps, .....tbd.

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At work on time today - all the rest doesn't even matter lol.

Total 2250.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 11/08/2017:
Hope you have a good day!

horn_of_plenty on 11/08/2017:
You too thank you !!!!


BearCountryGG on 11/08/2017:
Oh I love Chinese food!

horn_of_plenty on 11/08/2017:
ME TOO...i even know the healthy finds :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Nov 07, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Home: kombucha and extra kombcha and honey 150

Breakfast: banana 120, coffee 50, wrap 100, pb 150, kit kat fun size 80. total here: 500, 100 cal pack peanut m&m's

Noon lunch: decided to eat early and be happy. one egg and one egg white 120, lots of eggplant spread i am supposed to eat it by tomorrow or throw out! 150, little bit cabbage not enough to even calculate, chips 250 extra servings tasty corn chips that i LOVE right now: 550 tops

Snack: Plum 50, maybe something else also like a half a small snack package 50 more. total 100.

1400, excellent, before what i would like to be a healthy dinner!

Dinner at my apt: prob picking something up, had completely enough with everything ... just taking easy road right now and resting tonight.

So dinner was Chinese vegetable soup 100, the fried chips they give 200-250?, and chicken 200? chop suey 200? and a beer 150. total here: 850 tops.

total today is fine: 2250. indulgent week, i'd say!

and i voted, driving thru and walking thru the rain to do it after work!

4day average: 2210. just fine :) 

 

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For the past month, my weight has been either 112 or even a hair lower or even a hair higher. i am content. i don't weigh myself often, just when i feel curious. my clothes fit just fine. i feel fine. I met my goals in terms of weight loss. and in general, i have been maintaining for approx 1.5 years. never in my life did i maintain as well as i do now. i know i'll continue to have ups and downs, but i am prepared this time around with more knowledge about calorie needs and exercise than i ever did have before. 

For 1.5 years, i have weighed + or - 115 lbs. and at first i did gain right after my sisters wedding almost 5 lbs, but i got it back down the same month and under control. everything is possible...it's up to us to do the actions to make the possible a reality.

With my skills and needs and accomplishments and past failures, i can tackle maintenance and continue to be successful at it, as long as i keep making and taking the effort. As long as i continue to strive to be how i want to be - as long as i make the choices to help myself in this way - as long as i continue, it will be good for me.

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It must be sorta healthy dinner (i'll cook my chicken or turkey burgers tonight and eat one maybe or we'll see...doing too much...because i am beginning to break out bc tons of sugar and not the best eating and hormones.

Woke up around 5...but got ready slowly and took my time taking me to leaving my apt at 7am this morning and now earlier as planned - just didn't wanna leave before 7am - so sue me! lol

So got to the social security office around 7:30am and waiting on line, outside in windy cold 45 degrees, till past 8. then finally we go in, more waiting, now i'm upstairs at 8:40 took a ticket to wait, but ran down to put money in the meter. got back up with just enough time to be seen and my ticket was going to get skipped had i gotten upstairs any later. so i made it. i finally got into work at 9:45, almost 2 whole hours late. To make up one hour, i'll work thru lunch. then, i have 40 minutes from last week. I will then make up the last 20 minutes by staying LATE 20 min and i'll just do work for myself at that point - NYPD forms i'll continue to do. Now i have my job detailed report everything since high school, so, i can finish writing up my jobs.

After work, I'll vote. I didn't do it early in the morning as planned bc i left late already....so, i just decided to skip it until after work....i might just pick up a healthy dinner tonight that is balanced and call it a night.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/07/2017:
Well you have had a productive day already! You are right on point with your weight, it's a hard thing to do sometimes......maintaining can be a lot j=harder than losing....but you have done one thing that has been an enormous help and that is to not let it get out of hand to begin with....that was a huge downfall for me......I lost it...and then it was just beginning to creep up and I thought....Hmmmmm I lost it before I can do it again! And I went nuts eating everything in sight.....and I can honestly say it is harder to lose this time then it ever was before. I have an old friend that once told me that she had a weight that she loved to be at.....and every morning she stepped on the scales....and if she was at that weight or under it...she ate anything she wanted that day....but if she was over it...then it was a diet day....I think that is genius! She never had to think of dieting for more than that one day! I want to get to that point....it's happening slowly and I'm ok with that...

horn_of_plenty on 11/07/2017:
In my life, I have never heard of that diet approach. Personally, i couldn't handle that kind of all or nothing way...but it's quite an interesting way of thinking i'll agree with you on that.

i have also had two times in my life where i let my weight spiral, and just like you, after my weight got out of hand (out of hand from my normal), i also went to eat everything and anything. i felt i had no control, so i didn't even try.

I will never let that happen again. That's why i also watch the scale here and there, when i can't tell by my clothes because they are fitting ok, i step on the scale to be sure. That's also why i do weekly calorie counts - i can see an average and i can also see where i go astray and/or if i have to change anything. it's my way to stay accountable...and there are many ways - not only my way. my way is what works for me though!

it's good it's happening slowly for you bc the slower the better....slower means you are getting used to the changes and learning your body and learning what works / doesn't and usually when you lose weight slowly, like i did the last and final time, it can stay off because you actually learn the maintenance a bit while you are losing...it's not all a drastic diet.


bearcountrygg on 11/07/2017:
j=harder?????? no idea what I did there...LOL

horn_of_plenty on 11/07/2017:
lol, maybe you got it from whenever i make a comment to donkey and i write "j-donk!" haha


BearCountryGG on 11/07/2017:
I think it was because I was typing without glasses...I definitely didn't proofread...LOL

horn_of_plenty on 11/07/2017:
lol, you wouldn't be the first person not proofreading ;)...sometimes, my entries are seriously so muddled up!


Donkey on 11/07/2017:
J-donk here (lol): glad you got your stuff done and still voted. Voting is a priority... or needs to be, to more people.

Well done on the food. And I especially appreciated your introspective, retrospective.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Nov 06, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.0

Today was 2200 Weekly avg is 2200.

Home: kombucha and honey 100

Work: coffee 50, banana 120, wrap with pb 250 and cinnamon, 2 candies 60. total here: 480.

11am Snack: peanuts 150 (had to break my cycle of eating carbs constantly in the morning and no protein or healthy fats)

1pm lunch: healthy...with 1/2 large pumpernickel bagel 200, little cabbage hardly any bc my body is still in period mode and doesn't like to eat veg (causes indigestion at this time of month!) and sauteed eggplant spread 150 tops?, 1 extra large egg and one egg white 120: around 500, total = excellent....diet pepsi.

snack before jogging: blueberry nutrigrain bar 120

1350-1400...

Dinner: TBD sick of a lot of things lol....

McDonald's 600 and an alcoholic beverage back at home because I am enjoying the perks of tasty food right now !!!!

 

I am running in the dark tonight at the track since it's now fully dark at 6pm. I do not like to run inside on a treadmill...so....off i go. i hope other people are there too - or i may have to go to the treadmill...i hope not. 

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At lunch i'm reading my awesome book that i remembered to bring.  this is about the best book i ever read and i'm only on page like 5!!!!!! for anyone that wants to be successful or learn how to KEEP the good habits, this is the book!

Book is called THE SLIGHT EDGE by Jeff Olson

it's def the best self help / success book i have read...and i'm only on page 5...it's that good!

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little antsy doing forms for nypd instead of work at work...need to get this sh*t done now....getting it done....

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TOMORROW's  full list of plans, all in the morning prior to arriving at work! :

YES....polls open 6am...so before i start driving to social security office, i will make sure to vote around 6:30am before I go to the social security office which is by work...then work till 5pm...then HOME!

so tomorrow will be EARLY. i plan to get up around 5:30am. Leave my apt at 6:30am. Vote (only 5 min drive away), then drive to social security office and get paperwork i need, then work. i may be late to work, but i cannot leave my apt earlier than 6:30am....that's ENOUGH! lol. i have my limits!

any lateness i have tomorrow, i'll make up through working through LUNCH. bc i'm NOT staying late after work tomorrow.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 11/06/2017:
DH and I voted Saturday. I'm glad I hate rushing around on vote day.

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2017:
I should totally do that! never took advantage of the system to benefit myself and the traffic lol....i should keep this in mind :) GOOOOD going lady!


bearcountrygg on 11/06/2017:
When you get old they let you vote through the mail...LOL...Perks of being oldies...probably the only perk...LOL

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2017:
Decent perk lol and also what about all the senior discounts ?!


Maria7 on 11/06/2017:
Why can't the time just stay the same without changing it twice a year?

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2017:
Agreed. It shouldn't be dark so early !


Donkey on 11/06/2017:
I always vote early. If I can't, then I don't vote. Good luck at the Social Security office. Ours out here is a madhouse. First come, first served and it's always a wait... How did your jogging go tonight? :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 11/07/2017:
:-) it went pretty well. i was a little scared running at the dark track. i wasn't the only one - but there weren't many. it was early i was home by 7pm and it was warm out not cold....i did leave i think after 1.75 mi instead of 2...feeling just like i had enough....giving myself permission :)

horn_of_plenty on 11/07/2017:
what i mean is, i give myself permission to take it easy, not to quit, just dial down the training on weekdays when it's dark...



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Nov 05, 2017
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.0

8:30-9am Late fun breakfast : plum 60, chips 2.5 servings 320, kombucha. Total here 450.

Home relaxing and doing laundry.

11am: 400 lunch

850

fell asleep from noon till 3pm - needed rest

deciding if i am still going to gym (i should).

 

 

1350 after tasty 3:30om meal and now it's 4pm - will try to be out of apt for gym by 4:30...

1450 after snack and small amount caffeine

Gym will start around 5:15-5:30

 

 

Gym in afternoon and Monday is a jog. 

Burger King after gym

Total 2200 tasty

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/05/2017:
Sounds like a nice Sunday to me :-)

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2017:
yes, i slept a TON. needing it with the training and busy schedule.


BearCountryGG on 11/05/2017:
I had a napping day too....nice and peaceful.

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2017:
it really helped me relax :)...

i am realizing i need to plan a lot less right now in order to keep my training schedule (gym and jogging...) bc if i do too much, it's hard to push myself also at gym / on the track!

i realize now is going to be a time of working more...playing less.


bearcountrygg on 11/06/2017:
Stress is exhausting in itself! Things will eventually calm down and you will be able to relax more.

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2017:
yes, thank you so much for the reminder that it's probably a little of the stress / busy schedule but perhaps stress of applying for this type of position along with all the paperwork i have to get done that may have made me tired also.

either way, i was able to nap and then fully sleep last night !



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