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Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Nov 22, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Home: 1/2 banana after some ACV with seltzer. 60.

8am work breakfast: wrap 60 with cream cheese 60 & Morningstar Pizza Burger 110? 230. Energy drink. decaf coffee with milk 50.

probably a snack around 11:30 before lunch - a small bar. 150.

500, if i have the snack.

lunch: Butternut squash and Sage Ravioli microwave meal by "Evol" along with lots of veggies, mostly steamed. around 550 cal i think - not in a meat mood or high protein mood today.  including an apple.

Even breakafst was a veggie burger, no meat. And for today, I'm sticking with NO MEAT. just not in the mood at all.

around 1100 after lunch, excellent.

EARLY, LIGHT DINNER: protein muffin, jello, yogurt? BED EARLY. so i had about 650 cal at home, and also 400 cal on the way home. still a small struggle going on. no biggie. this euqlas 1050...

total cal today is 2150, not good.

4-day avg: 2,075.

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plans for tonight - GO HOME DIRECTLY after work. no picking up ice cream or anything. go home & read & relax. I am reading a pre-teen magazine that has some valuable tips on health and self-care than even adults would enjoy reviewing...i found it in the lobby of my apartment & i'm actually enjoying it - TONS of info in it & written in an adult style with a teen twist. Change of pace, ya know!?  Fun to read for tonight.

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any food i do pick up will be tomorrow night, before gym & i'll stop home to put in the fridge...tonight i need to rest and not run around. i have everything i need at home already.

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Really prefer to be home today. Tired, but for no real good reason. I think I'm just bored. But, really, I'm also happy. I am not sick at all, getting more sleep than the past couple years around this time, my health is constantly improving, my ankle improving despite the wedding & dancing, my ankle feels pretty good. In general, I'm doing everything I need to do in order to be happy & healthy and be able to rise above - and become an NYPD officer this coming July. I will stay positive & focussed thru winter, not exert myself too much or get sick. 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Nov 21, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

2,050 3-day average = excellent.

 Monday morning :

Gym tonight after work...but first if we get frozen turkeys at work (we usually do!), i will need to bring it home to where i live bc my dad works around there & i told him i'd drop off the bird around 5pm....then gym. Not a fan of extra errands today - but such is life!  And i am also holding my dad responsible as well for being there to pick it up....so it's an "inconvenience" to all...and at least i have a bird for them & me on Thanksgiving!

Kombucha at home did the trick this AM - 70 a citrus flavor 

8:30am at work: wrap 60, with cream cheese 80 & salami 110, half large banana 80 - 330.

400 - excellent. and energy drink 30, also later a snack bar before lunch 130.

and some decaf coffee 50.

610 before lunch.  Having a very tired day and it must be from the sleeping pill even though i took it at 5pm it has a long after-effect (but still worth taking it to let my body rest a bit).

Bigger lunch: 2 chicken sausages 250, with lots of veggies, very light sauce 150, wrap 60. total around 500, excellent.

snack before gym (thank gosh i have the gym tonight!) 150 cal bar and rest of my 2nd caffeine drink for the day. total caffeine mg today is 320mg = approx 3-4 cups coffee.

1250 before gym.

after gym: protein muffin yeah with chocolate powder addition 260, yogurt 100, jello 20, cranberries 60, half banana 60.500. big high again.

1750 overall is good though! - actually at least 1800, forgot the apple at lunch.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 11/21/2016:
I love free turkey! My DH's company usually gives him a $75 gift card, however this year, no such luck. We decided we are having ham. Enjoy your turkey.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/21/2016:
enjoy the ham!

I hope my mom wants to make tons of veggies...yes, my mom still does like 100% of the prep...i will help her on Thanksgiving Day.


puddles on 11/21/2016:
I love turkey last Friday I got my turkey for xmas it was on sale so I thought I would buy it. I am starting to get all the stuff I need for my xmas dinner so many things to get that I divide it up into weeks before xmas... that way I am all ready when the day comes. Yes xmas dinner is always at my place with everyone. Nice of you to give it to your dad for your Thanksgiving. Have a great evening J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/21/2016:
you are smart to start early - probably is the only way of really being prepared for the holidays as well as less stressed about it. good ideas for sure...will def enjoy the time with family :-D



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Nov 20, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Monday morning edit:

Gym tonight after work...but first if we get frozen turekys at work (we usually do!), i will need to bring it home to where i live bc my dad works around there & i told him i'd drop off the bird around 5pm....then gym. Not a fan of extra errands today - but such is life!  And i am also holding my dad responsible as well for being there to pick it up....so it's an "inconvenience" to all...and at least i have a bird for them & me on Thanksgiving!

Kombucha at home did the trick this AM - 70 a citrus flavor 

8:30am at work: wrap 60, with cream cheese 80 & salami 110, half large banana 80 - 330.

400 - excellent. and energy drink 30, also later a snack bar before lunch 130.

and some decaf coffee 50.

610 before lunch.  Having a very tired day and it must be from the sleeping pill even though i took it at 5pm it has a long after-effect (but still worth taking it to let my body rest a bit).

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I took a sleeping pill yesterday (Sunday) late afternoon around 4:30pm-5pm and went to bed around 7...woke back up for around an hour and a half and back to bed around 9pm till this morning. Felt pretty rested since i took the pill so early the effects wore off in good timing...and rested extra after not getting enough sleep after the wedding! Good stuff!!

The reason i took the pill is bc i was tired and not interested in doing anything.  I had been laying around and was just eating to stay up / relaxed / busy. What I really needed was rest because I was not motivated to do anything other than lay on the couch. So i solved the problem.

Weekend 2-day average = 2,175 (it will come down...)

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Sunday morning entry:

The wedding Saturday night was the BEST! I am good friends with the people there & all friends invited, so we danced & had a wonderful night!!! Best wedding I have ever attended thanks to being so close with everyone...so nice to share the night with GREAT friends (aside from my ex-best friend, which i didn't enjoy even being close to her...and i didn't - i stayed far away, best decision ever.). I didn't talk to her or even say hello. Best decision.  I will not end up probably EVER being friends with her again.  We have both changed too much in our ways. She is too needy and I am the opposite - pumped to change my life and make changes while she is content with no change and everything staying fully the same - can't make it work with being her friend. Can't take care of her. Taking her of my own self.

Slept 6hrs which is pretty good - from around 2:30am till 8am or so. No sleeping pill.  I'm as of late sleeping much better. Body has just really started to need it, but in a good way, leaving me feeling better during the day overall.  I am definitely regaining my health & it feels so good. I was able to dance last night and my ankle hardly hurt. Shoes were good.  In general, it feels SO GOOD to be making progress, my legs stronger, so happy! I will keep putting in the work to get the positive results! SO WORTH IT!

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9-10am Breakfast: banana 140, protein muffin 230, cooked cranberries 60 with stevia, halo top lemon ice cream 120, seltzer with stevia (and i think i'm going to look for the new halo top flavors today (gonna do a drive near a farther store i think...or not lol...nah, i'll wait till they show up closer to me - no need to be driving around actually!). and some satisfying chips 100.

Candies 50, 700... 2-3pm Big late lunch / early dinner: nuts 100, chips 350, lots of veggies 200, 650... 1350....

4pm - remainder of my halo top ice cream, none left and I may take a break as I have to finish another brand I have in the freezer first which isn't as good. 120 1470, tired.

some deli stuff around 5pm 100 cal followed by a Glucerna protein bar at 8. 

total today is very good - 1750 :-D

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Today i am getting electrolysis (got a groupon) on my face which i do hope will help clear up my acne that shows up around mouth and chin...and....laundry is done!!..so glad i did laundry earlier saturday & didn't have to do it Sunday when I was more than content being on the couch from 2pm till I went to bed!

and i need to still cook some chicken sausage (did it monday morning today before work!) so i don't need to buy meat....and i think i willl endulge in cooked veggies from a nearby place (yup, bought extra to last these few days before Thanksgiving, def don't need to buy anything else till Wednesday...)  if they have anything good! 

I still have some apples from apple picking (totally lasted me around 1.5 mos!), and cranberries so no need to buy anything except bananas (yup, bought them!).

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Nov 19, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Going to a good friend's wedding tonight - should be a BLAST. i will shower after when i get home & sleep in a bit...then getting electrolysis done on my facial hair tomorrow morning....! actually, tomorrow at noon. I had bought a groupon for it (i tend to get a LOT of acne around my chin & mouth, so hoping the electrolysis will cut down on my blonde "peach fuzz" as well as acne).

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Breakfast & popcorn snack: 620 :) 

Snack / light lunch : light ice cream 250

870 - wedding tonight so trying not to bulk up and get bloated. Having a relaxing day of reading and laundry and getting my nails done

snacking: ice cream 60 more, some jello yuck 10, chips 30: 100

970, fine, but need to cool it a bit!

2pm Chips 130 

4:30pm last food before getting ready for wedding: wrap with salami and mustard 200.

total before wedding: a nice & cool 1300 :-) perfect...

Around 2600 today, good.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 11/19/2016:
Have a great day J.

horn_of_plenty on 11/19/2016:
Will do for sure!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Nov 18, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Happy Friday :) 2,005 weekly calorie average. DECENT :) i did good in the end :)

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6:30am home: seltzer with stevia and apple cider vinegar (no more kombucha!) 10 cal.

Morning around 8am on my drive to work: medium banana 120, wrap with whipped cream cheese and salami 250 - 370. some energy drink in car...

total so far: 380

snack: definitely a bar 170 (peanut butter & jelly flavor)

550 before lunch (which will be at my desk...)

went down to lunch: 1/4 avocado 80, wrap with egg 200, lots of cooked, sauteed veggies that i cooked! 150-200, around 500. all healthy.

1050 - good way to start getting fully back on track :) proud of myself. feeling GOOD.

i will walk around my work bldg in the afternoon (really nice weather)

gym after work.

snack before gym: bar and energy drink, maybe pineapple also ... 200 cal.

today was a MAJOR success: 1800!!!!!!!! yay.

after gym: planning for my usual (either ice cream, protein pudding...or something similiar, already bought jello...) yup ice cream with cooked cranberries followed by two servings chips.. hit the spot! 550. 

 

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So i checked this AM if i had the cleaning supplies for the cleaning lady when she comes at 11am...and NOPE! I ran out! So I totally drove the the supermarket at 7:30am (drug store happened to be closed!) for a brief morning shopping to pick up all cleaning supplies LOL.

its ok....more important to have my apt cleaned properly than to be on time to work. I was only a half hour late, so i'll stay till 5pm instead of 4:30 - not a big deal & not taking time from company.

And now the cleaning lady is set and the money i pay $100 for cleaning and a $30 tip...is now worth it. As i don't need her only to vacuum and dust and clean without cleaning products! I don't feel that i should have been more prepared - it is what it is - i've been busy and preoccupied - and i don't blame myself for being unprepared. I fixed it & now have cleaning products that should last me many cleanings.

All is good.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Nov 17, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

2,040 6-day average = not bad at all.  Giving myself a huge break this week (have my you know what) and it seems that this decision was the best decision EVER. less cramps compared to other weeks, more carbs, more potato chips / banana. seems it was a good decision overall here this week.  in the future, i will plan even better - more avocado and other healthier fats over chocolate candies. I think i have finally learned the trick!

Hi Everybody!? Where are you guys!  You are all missed by Jackie (me!)!

 200 cals in chocolate candy bars minis and sf jello. Also seltzer with apple cider vinegar and added stevia and worked.no more kombucha I don't think - waste of $4 a bottle...no more i don't think...

Home: 200

8:30am at work - wrap with farmer's cheese and a Morningstar Veggie Burger 200, tea, banana 120. 320 total.

520, decent

snack: bar around 230, also coffee with milk calories accounted for already.

750, fine, just not a week to have low calories it seems.

lunch: most of a whole avocado 250, veggie burger 110, wrap 120, cooked veggies 150, apple 90 = 720, HEALTHY. I feel good after this lunch!

1500, HEALTHY SO FAR...really this is the important thing right now & this week.

snack: ? lollipop 50

Dinner: potato chips 160, cooked cranberries 60, peanut butter 150, vanilla ice cream 120. 500.

around 2050, excellent.

home late tonight as i'm having my apt cleaned starting 4pm bc it was VERY difficult to set a day and time as one lady is on a leave and they seem busy. anyways, happy to have the place cleaned which is why i agreed to 4pm today - so i'll go to the library and read and maybe have a nice snack out of my apt today...

cleaning lady cancelled & instead it's better - tomorrow at 11am which works for me bc now i can go home after work, have an early dinner, and go early to bed which i look very forward to.  with the change of season and it being dark for more hours of the day, I am actually needing more sleep. My parents have always teased me that i sleep too much, but, as an exercise enthusiast, i'm going to see if i can get into a pattern of sleeping, generally, more hours per night closer to 9hrs especially in winter. or at least 8.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 11/17/2016:
I would love to have someone clean my house! That is on my todo list for this weekend, I just can't get motivated. grumble grumble! Great healthy day! enjoy the library. I love going there.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/17/2016:
yeah, i prob don't need it done & really don't know how well they do it - because i am not home - but - i try to get it done around every 1-2 months depending on my schedule and their's. I do minor cleaning in-between. Since i will be living here a long time, i want to try to keep the place in good condition. I may live in this apt forever.


thinkpositive on 11/17/2016:
Sleep is important. Feel fortunate that you can get a good long sleep.Sounds like things are going well for you.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/17/2016:
yes, i have nothing to complain over! i do not sleep this long, but looking to sleep more like that - because my skin & whole body always feels better after i get good sleep in.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Nov 16, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

2,030 - 5day average = decent average. not really overdone to the point of horrible weight gain or horrible side effects. I'm ok :-D

HI! Ok, let me tell you, the cravings this week are HUGE. for sweets & carbs and fats.  But this time, i have given in a bit & it seems that this approach has been the best approach for now.

6am Home: vinegar drink 40., seltzer with stevia. soon i'm going to be making my own vinegar drinks.

8:30am Work Breakfast: wrap 120 with lox 100 and whipped cream cheese 80, banana 120, 3 chocolates 150: 

11am snack: bar 130 (atkins peanut caramel cluster)

750 before lunch, excellent progress to getting back on track after a few major days of emotions & cravings!

1pm Lunch: HEALTHY - chicken grilled leftovers from Sunday, now finally finished 250?, some beans / fries i know - weird 50-100cal, cooked veggies in some sauce 200 at least, popcorn 100: 650, fine. all very healthy and balanced. finally. feeling actually quite good, just bloated but due to woman-stuff.

1400 after a tasty, healthy lunch....

snack before gym: caffeine and bar 100, maybe an apple also

1600..

after gym: planning on a protein muffin which i plan to make super extra chocolately with extra, extra cocoa added in for sure... & sf jello? jello 60, extra chocolate in a protein muffin 260, whipped yogurt 100. 420. and chips 160. total here is 580-600.

total today is decent, 2200. this isn't the week to beat myself up.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Nov 15, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

1990 4-day average

6am early breakfast - vinegar drink 30, light ice cream 210, pita bread lightly oiled 210.  450. still a bit emotional regarding the date but really it's regarding myself. i'll be ok. just taking a deeper look into myself and knowing that i must strive more with my confidence as well as my goals. that i must have 100% faith in my own efforts and my own success. that's it for now. i will try to eat moderately for the rest of today.

wrap with salami 200. and banana 120.

chocolate 70, bar 130

lunch around 580 tops. HEALTHY.

so, 1550, good..

snack: maybe apple 100

dinner: light ice cream 300.

2100 today.

1950 :)

 

lunch: lately i am craving carbs which seems normal now that i think about it - time of month does this always to me. i crave sugar and fast carbs. so i will have my other pita at lunch and with veggies and a piece of chicken or so.

if calories come out higher for a couple days, so be it...always trying to stay within reason over here.  seems my body is craving carbs quite a bit.

 

 

Right now I am struggling on the relationship end also. It's more like i'm beginning to realize that the cop thing will only work out if i really cut the hanging out quite a LOT this winter in order to make sure i'm not running around ragged and then tired all week and getting myself drained in the process...so....the goal is get into NYPD and retain my health throughout it. Not an easy feat with a desk job.

HONESTLY, I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR A LOT OF FRIENDSHIPS OUTSIDE OF WORK THIS WINTER. the ones that i do have, i know can be maintained. but other than that, i just don't care.....i only care to get myself the job that will benefit a single jackie for the rest of her life without needing help from anyone. this is a must-happen situation over here.

i have cut my friendships in the past 2 years that were hurting me. and have cut friends in the past for this reason. not often, thankfully.

but this is it. i need to retain my confidence and get where i need to be. i am here, reminding myself as i am starting to feel very vulnerable lately and desperate - that - i can accomplish this without a problem. 

i haven't been feeling great lately due to a lot of change in my friendships - loss of a best friend due to an irreperable fight. we won't be making up anytime soon - i don't want to. i have no time to help her thru her life. it was beginning to drag me down!

i need to help myself. so right now - i cannot have lots of restraints and restrictions...it just has to be me....paving the way toward success for myself...

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other thoughts - 

I think in general I do really well independently and being independent gives me the ability to move forward academically / professionally at work.  When I hang out too much, I find it totally drains me & when I am home, I just want to relax and am not necessarily able to study or do more productive things.

I’m not in school now, but plan to go back in the summertime for the NYPD academy which will definitely involve a LOT of studying. I have taken lots of classes in my lifetime.  Actually have a Master’s degree which I got all while teaching for 3 years. Once I got the degree, I taught one remaining 4th year & then left the field due to difficulty in attaining a tenure (lasting) track position.  I was interviewing every single summer for the next school year. Constant stress with it.  Constant starting over every school year someplace new.  If I never gave up, I might have eventually made it as a teacher for the long run…but…

 

I value the degree & experiences while in school & teaching, but am also happy to have left the field. After leaving the field, I drifted around for a few years before coming to my current job of 6 years now (never thought I’d be here this long!).  

 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 11/15/2016:
Wow heavy stuff you leave me speechless. Have a great evening J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/16/2016:
yeah, i had time to think yesterday! thinking a lot yesterday morning lol. but i'm happy!


Donkey on 11/15/2016:
I can't wait to see what an amazing 2017 you have. Nothing wrong with taking a little time to reach your goals. Just let your friends know you're taking some time out (if they don't already know), so they can cheer you on!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/16/2016:
thank you for your support always and the genuine words about my friends. yes, they have always supported me and understood my time and needs. This is just one of the reasons i enjoy my friends...

so what you say is true, they will understand me. as they always have. and now that i have sorta but an end to my relationship with my best friend, i now have more time on the weekends to spend as i prefer - and it seems that now is an amazing time for me to become prepared for 2017. thank you so much JDonkey.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Nov 14, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

I wrote a bit in yesterday's entry about the date i want on or rather that it wasn't meant to be.  i wasn't feeling a connection, at all.

Morning: sparkling vinegar drink 30 and some seltzer with stevia

breakfast: small banana 120, wrap 120, with extra farmer's cheese 80, and salami 120. and energy drink 30. 470

snack: i don't know yet...a bar...currently my mood is slightly down due to not feeling great about the date i went on yesterday - it was basically boring & nothing is in coming except for the gym. bar is prob 150 cal.

lunch: i currently have vegetables for DAYS. did a lot of cooking yesterday morning in combo with leftovers from last week as well as last week...no issue on bread / veggies this week....just need to grill some pre-cooked chicken sausages i bought for the 2nd half of this week!...a lotta bread 200 (one of those greek pitas that is already oiled if you know so tasty!), lots of veg 200, some chicken 150 and veggie balls 100?, apple 100, candy 50. 800.

Before gym i was craving to eat more, but glad i stuck it out with 1 smaller red bull (thinking of switching to it to save $ - or to something even cheaper by me...it's $1 per can - would save me a ton...or, switching to caffeine drops, we'll see, but i'm going to work on a way of saving more $). anyways, 100 in special K snack bar and caffeine but only 80mg and not my usual monster which is 160mg. Felt much better at the gym, too.

after gym, i splurged, and gave myself the permission to do so (female stuff and i was good all weekend): microwave protein muffin with extra cocoa powder and cooked cranberries 300, a yogurt and jello 150 tops, and chips 200. yeah.650. but it's fully ok right now. totally ok.

2200. absolutely alright.

3 day avg: 1950. fine.

gym was really super. to say the least!

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 11/14/2016:
It is a good thing you had a second date because you would have wondered if you gave it a chance. I hope you won't go back to the other guy. Great on the cooking your week is ready. Have a great day J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/14/2016:
you know me well...of course i texted the other...but...i do realize the other guy is def not an option and this is my time to really focus on my leg strength and health and get myself into this academy. i can maybe date a cop or so once i am a police officer. I must gear myself up for a change a lifetime...and move forward. other guy of course texted back he's been sick with pneumonia. sad. and you are right. thank you.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Nov 13, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

2day avg 1825.

Won't be going out with the new guy again. Today was the second time and it's just not meant to be. He's a great guy. All is good with him. But i doubt I am the right match for him and i don't see a reason to try again. 2x was a good amount.  Honestly, i am probably too "different or unique" for him....and also i'm not attracted to his body at all. body or face, not attracted to him...  

We don't share the same interests either. Except for gym. Not meant to be.  I took him to the park, and i asked him if he'd ever go to walk or run at a park by himself and he answered no...he seems to be into the gym even more than me going during the day on both days of the weekend and goes out with his friends in the evening which is sorta the opposite of myself - who likes going out during the day...and being home in the evening. Anyways, like i said, I won't be going out with him again. 

He prob thinks I am a bit weird as I tend to say the strangest things in conversation, but that's me. I know what i need to do for this winter - and it's what i was doing before - get myself in shape for NYPD. 

I can say right now - it's going to be a relaxing winter with less plans with friends and more focus on my goal. I struggle to do everything at once, like see friends and also be successful in life - but - I have learned that my idea of "balance" is different from others.  And "Jackie's Balance" is what works for her (me!).

I am ready to take life in the way that I prefer...and make my dreams come true.

This coming weekend, I have a wedding to attend and I am looking forward to it (but wll not dance so much that i'm in pain the next day...due to ankle stuff and the fact that i want to get into running mid winter around feb or march). 

After this weekend, it's Thanksgiving.

So my plans are pretty packed until December. and then, i'll just go with life. No plans isn't always the worst thing...Maybe i'll go to a few happy hours with work friends. Sometimes it's good with the unknown ahead. And i need to be able to train for the NYPD (increase my cardio strength).

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Breakfast: small banana 120, protein muffin with chocolate 260 and cranberries 80 460...ice cream 120: 580-600.

snack: bar 130

Light lunch: bread 200 with salami 100.

1010...

Dinner: salad with chicken and some buttery bread 600

snack: jello and yogurt 200.

total 1800, good. 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!


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