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Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Aug 04, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

1790 6-day average (gone up quite a bit over the week.  My goal is to keep Friday in the 1700s so that i can have a really strong week overall).

 

Home: kombucha that has been working really nicely for me as of late. no problems at all in mornings. 60

Breakfast at work: sauteed pumpkin with spices and onion 150-200 in a low carb wrap 60 with cream cheese 100 - 350 and coffee 50.

total so far: around 450. good.

600. Lunch maybe even 700 but actually all healthy. 1300 Before gym 250 After gym 300 1850 perfect :-)

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Going to Texas in October hopefully.  For activities and to celebrate my friend's bachelorette! First trip with a group...trip that lasts more than 1 night...in my life. So happy to do something exciting then...OK JUST REALIZED NOT IN MY LIFE...BUT FIRST TRIP WITH A GROUP RATHER THAN JUST ONE OTHER PERSON I THINK...BESIDES FAMILY. GOOD EXPERIENCE AND OPPORTUNITY. SO HAPPY ABOUT IT.

I do like new experiences & am glad to have this opportunity in October. I'll be paying with money directly from my savings. I don't mind.  I need the experience.

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Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 08/04/2016:
That will be a fun trip. Have you not traveled out of your country for an extended period of time J? You should do that I am sure you would enjoy it. Have a great day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/04/2016:
I would like more but cannot afford it $$$ wise or take the time off...but yes...it will come with time. especially in my later 30's and once i reach 40 i want to live more.

Luckily, my parents did a lot for me growing up, so it's not like i've never experienced anything outside NY / Long Island / Metro area. I'm glad i had experiences growing up or i feel i'd be quite naive....


Duaa123. on 08/04/2016:
Ooh it is sounds it is going to be an existed journey

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/04/2016:
i am excited for this trip :-D with nice ladies.


OhioRaven on 08/04/2016:
Texas will never be the same after you and the girls are done with it.

horn_of_plenty on 08/04/2016:
I hope so :-)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Aug 03, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

I AM TIRED. 

But like the movie quote from Bad Moms....I'm "Picking my tits up" and getting back on track. dinner subway sandwich and chips 600.

total: 1900.  (indulged in carbs)...and then decided to add some veggies / cooked pumpkin...100 more at least.

total today: 2000 (at least, hopefully not much more.)

HOUR WALK though....so that's good. had a chat with my good friend...i'll actually say 2050 for today. seems more about right !

5-day average will still be good: 1780, which is def good....any weekly total that's in the 1700's is a really good week for me...so i'll try to maintain this tomorrow...

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 08/03/2016:
Cute expression... I might just use that one. Get some rest tonight J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/03/2016:
thanks, that's my plan...early to bed & sleep thru the night.

and some good reading of a short, historical romance story! it's really, really good!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Aug 02, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

1710 - 4day avg.

Home: kombucha 50 and stevia drink.

8:30am breakfast: coffee 50, wrap 300. oh and partial banana 100

snack will be a small Atkins caramel nut bar 150

1pm Lunch: very light: few shrimp 50...lots of cooked / sauteed collard greens 250, and popcorn 50. total = 400 most.

before gym: loads of caffeine, small granola bar & large peach 250

protein cookie 400, chips 150 most. 550

total today is decent for sure - 1850 (loads of caffeine which i think brought on some cravings after working out...salt is good anyways so that's another reason i reached for chips. now time to relax. i am home quite early at 7:30 - not showering yet...just sitting here after gym. showering later.

gym was tonight, i was very tired (but going bc i don't skip for being tired - i had extra caffeine and got my workout done extremely fast - like in only 1.5hrs or less i think)

 

 

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Sleep was very disturbed which makes sense. I worked an extra 2.5hours (and didn't know i was going to until last minute, of course). so i worked a total of around 8am-7pm yesterday. whoa. a bit much.

my skin is also back to being a little inflamed. but shall be better i think by end of this week. i shouldn't pick at it...i tend to try to pop pimples...leaving marks....ah well. moving forward to another topic lol...

I am not seeing P for the beach this Friday but there's a pretty decent excuse. One of his therapist's wife is pregnant and he needs to be on call to work on Friday. fair enough.

All is good in my world but def would have been better not working so much overtime. But on a good note - working the OT made it easier to have a very low cal day...and i did get my oil change done...so all is good right now - determined to remain positive as a rule for basically the rest of my life. !!

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 08/02/2016:
I always feel better with an oil change and fresh air in my tires. Have a Great day, HP.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/02/2016:
It does feel good, OR.

Now i just wish my love life and personal life in general outside of work were a bit more balanced.

.....but this is a usual feeling in the summer for me - when i am used to taking a lot more days off other years when i wasn't at a desk job....

i'm still happy - and realize - i can do my best within the limitations.

i also realize, i'm not gonna "sell myself out" for anyone.


puddles on 08/02/2016:
I always enjoy reading your post. Life is so less complicated as we get older. Have a great day J and keep positive that will give you some sense of balance.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/02/2016:
I am now exhausted. from Monday. LOL...but really, i really feel horrible.


Duaa123. on 08/02/2016:
Try to realax one hour everday with nice coffee im quite room, this habit will strong u from inside.. why ur skin is inflamed, is it from the dry weather?

Horn_of_plenty on 08/03/2016:
Thanks D xoxo...my skin is broken out with pimples because i don't sleep well and drink too much coffee and energy drinks....

But i am thinking positive. I have learned that being angry or negative wastes too much of my energy and trying to be happy with what i have now.


thinkpositive on 08/03/2016:
Good job going to the gym after a long day.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Aug 01, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Feeling extremely happy and in control to start the week.

Low calories today also, as i've cut my cals for this morning. little hungry, but worth it for now. Takes a little sacrifice to stay slimmer.  And i'm down with that! 

10am snack too hungry, changed mind slightly. bar 130

Bigger / fattier high protein lunch: bag of bacon jerky 330 and a low carb wrap with cream cheese and sauteed pumpkin spread (a lot of it). 270 at least. total here around 600.

Maybe a plum on way home. 50

tonight - planning on a protein muffin 240, some of the sauteed  pumpkin (some oil 200) with sf jello 50 - total here is 500 (def not more!)

total today is great - 1600.

3day average is excellent - 1660.

 i may be taking off friday to see PAUL at the beach!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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So with P. All is good with him...he's sorta opening up but being so strange with me. So on the phone he talks about babies. But he can't text me back still he's watching himself. 

WTH...why is this guy unable to have s*x for s*x.  He told me specifically over the phone that s*x will complicate things. But he makes things complicated now.

I honestly don't really want babies....not now anyways. 

Why can't we go out....without thinking of babies.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 08/01/2016:
You sound good today. Have a great week J.


puddles on 08/01/2016:
How old is P? Sound to me that he only want to be friends and if anything happens then the friendship could be damaged. This is an outside look/opinion at what you have been writing about P and how he is acting. I think he is being honest that this will not/ever go there.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/01/2016:
P is 45. I am almost 34. We're 11 years apart.

He likes me, i know. But he's so darn weird i can't take it sometimes!

He's the only guy i know that is so SLOW to act on sleeping with someone. I've known him a LONG time. well over 3 years i think. And we're finally getting together this year - after texting for like 3 years! but at first, he was my physical therapist. so we couldn't get together.

but then he took his sweet time determining if he really should meet up with me. and we eventually did. i know he likes me. i can tell by how he talks on phone.

i think he's just a bit set in his ways.

i don't understand why he needs to bring up babies to me.


Duaa123. on 08/01/2016:
I would if i can tell u my opinion but, i am feom different culture so i can't judge the situation correctly , i hope u the best with him

Horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2016:
Thank you so much D :-D

It's good right now...even if of course i'm still waiting to see him since the end of May when we saw each other outside of workplace for the 1st time!


OhioRaven on 08/02/2016:
Is he, or has he been married ?

Horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2016:
he's 45 and always single because (as i can tell) he's put his career first. he's pretty well-to-do. a physical therapist but also co-owner of the establishment. a big place, multiple locations (i think 2 or 3). he's the boss for several PT's under him...

so never married. no kids.

he's used to being boss, in control of his life complete, and very closed up emotionally. trying hard with him.

he's attractive. and kind.

and also very hard working which i admire. i like him all around.


OhioRaven on 08/02/2016:
Ok. So he's not secretly married. Ok then he's Gay because I've seen your pictures and there's no way a man would turn down what you've got to offer. Good Luck HP.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/02/2016:
Thank you. I really would be happy with him forever. It's hard to take it this slow...really hard.


innerpeace on 08/02/2016:
Maybe he talks babies because his biological clock is ticking. 45 and single, he may be ready to settle down! who knows, men are weird sometimes. oh ok, most of the times.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jul 31, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 114.6

Planning on chilling / reading this morning...Happy Sunday to everyone!

9am Late Breakfast - Chocolate with peanut butter chips protein muffin and huge banana and 1 sf jello 400. seltzer with stevia also. Good calories.

snack before errands at noon: small bar 130

3pm Light meal of cooked veggies (with light sauce) and strawberries along with a grape flavored stevia (no cal) around 350-400 max for lunch. 

950 - nice....keeping it low cal today....feels good to keep my weight down, really good.

before gym: Amy's tofu veggie sandwich 200. and the rest of my monster sf drink from this morning.

1150 before gym...keeping it low cal, for sure...if i want to, i can go really low - say 1450 today - which is a great idea!

after gym - kept it light. small bar 130, strawberries 100. around 250 most.

total today: 1400 - BOOM! excellent.

2-day average: 1685 = fantastic. GREAT work to me! (had some jello, added into this average)

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Got a TON done this weekend - way more than usual in terms of errands and things to do. proud of myself and the choices i made!

Errands this weekend that are different than the usual ones i do:

1- Got good deals on bath and body works stuff...

2- Got movie tickets at the theater ahead of time to use my free movie coupons - needed to be done more in person than online :-D

3- Put air in my car tires, while it was drizzling!

4- Friend helped me put up a seahorse themed wall art....so nice of her!

5- Bought the LED lights i need for my track lights 

6- went to TJ maxx and got a new bag (i've been using the same bag around 2 years (it was a Coach bag my sister gave me as a gift and i plan to bring it back to the store and see what can be done with it because the policy with coach is a warranty for life...), two dresses, and a few shirts.

The whole bill  for the above items was $118 and i saved 10% by opening a card.  Good stuff. $118 was after the 10% savings. $118 is good for around 10 items! All pretty necessary as i was running quite low on the basics and work clothes. I don't buy a ton...i used to shop much more while living with my parents. Now i just wait for a good day & get a lot and then wait quite a bit...very happy i got dresses....they will last me for a few summers! and any other trips, etc. I may even wear the dresses to work!!!!!!!!!

Feels good to do more this weekend. No more shopping now for awhile. some of the clothes are bought (shirts) will be good thru fall also. I got a good mix that'll be good for my wardrobe in general. it's always good to have some extra stuff for when a moment or event comes up where i need something, ya know?...def not convenient to have to run to the store because i couldn't just grab it from my closet. So i'm doing good with this!

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It's been a very eventful weekend :-D Got a lot done & still looking foward to a relaxing Sunday with the laundry already done yesterday wahoo. I'm glad my friend went with me to get some new LED light bulbs for my track lights as only 2 of the 4 bulbs remain working lol the others died...so all is good in the world!

Today i will try to find a dress, one last time, at TJ Maxx. I want to have a summer dress in my closet as on option for going out.  I don't really own any dress that fits that i know of. Sundress i mean...

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Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 2.6 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 07/31/2016:
Happy Sunday, HP. You're sounding healthy enough. Enjoy your tires and your TJ Bag.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/01/2016:
i would have even put a bit more air in the other 3 (i started to but could have went a bit more but all is good for now!), except the machine shut off.


Duaa123. on 07/31/2016:
Nice to went for shopping and bought some clothes. Also good calories , have a nice day

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/01/2016:
Yes so nice to have some new clothes :-D



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jul 30, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 114.6

10am thru Noon / While doing laundry - Late Breakfast: 2 plums 100, cooked pumpkin mixed with sauteed onions and spices so good! 150 hopefully not too much more, kombucha 60 (can't wait to get rid of this brand! - forcing myself to drink & not buy it again! it's not that it's bad, just not as strong as the other brands i like...), and seltzer with stevia. total here: 310, excellent -

 Lunch chips 260, wrap with pumpkin spread on it and some meat but meat wasn't tasty so took most of it off 350. Total here: 610

Snack: coffee and a coconut cookie 1050

Big Dinner: not more than 900.

total: 1950, MOST :-D

Everything was healthy so that's the point for today.  I'm happy.

It will be a very low cal day today! Making it so...especially with the movie i am seeing, very easy to keep cals low today...happy to see my best friend today. She's helping me do a huge errand also....which is wonderful.

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Had a chat with my fave guy last night.  It was short, under 20 minutes, but really nice. We didn't run out of things to say. He had to go so i let him go.  He's sweet as anything & he did confirm (not by actually saying it, but by the types of things he was talking about in general) that he does like me very much and does enjoy all my texts and messages.  I know he likes me.  And he just might be the one.  I may one day have a VERY different life because of him.

But for now, I'll let things play out & we shall see what happens. It's still slow moving but there's no doubt I'll see him during the month of August.  And, I'm sorry for TMI, there's no doubt we'll share some private special moments together. And I have no doubt that there will not ever be another man I will share moments like those, ever again with, after this man. I have a feeling, like i was saying, that he is the one.

He's letting his guard down a bit with me. And it's exciting...I used to worry about texting him too much and/or leaving too many voicemails, but now he didn't complain about it - at all. He likes them i know. And we are entering more of an "equals" phase where I know how he feels about me & i worry far less about being "a nuissance" or in general not being "on the same page" as him. I really do like this man, a ton, and by letting my guard down and telling him - that i like him very much, etc., it's been overall very helpful to my friendship / relationship with him. 

Even if it doesn't work out, it will be the closest thing i've come to having both emotional and phyiscal intimacy with somone. I have never experienced being in love with anyone. EVER. And never experienced the feeling of really opening up emotionally and physically to the same person at the same time. He is the first. 

 

Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 2.6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/30/2016:
Very nice post :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 07/30/2016:
thank you...and thanks for the other post you made to my timeline...will comment on fb later....my mind is all rushing right now...but thank you for thinking of me.

...someone at work told me "your life can change so fast...and sometimes it's unplanned and for the best..." he's right!

have a wonderful weekend D.


puddles on 07/30/2016:
Definitely a positive post I am happy for you. There is nothing that compares to unconditional love from a partner. Have a great day J.


Duaa123. on 07/30/2016:
It is nice to hear thats from u , I hope ur life change to the way you want.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jul 29, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 114.6

650 before lunch and so glad it's friday...i'll be outta here come 4:30 and maybe an oil change after work if i can...

....tomorrow no beach thankfully, i'll get some errands done - need to pick up lamps (specialty) at Home Depot...and will sleep in majorly...like maybe be in bed till NOON tomorrow. looking foward to it...and it was a good week here as well.

hoping to catch up with my man tonight. I love him...he doesn't know this.  He's extremely guarded. 

1350 after lunch...

some fruit during errands. 50

1400....

high volume, low cal dinner: bitter melon, sauteed 100?, some kale and also sauteed okra 200 tops, then jello / protein muffin 300. total def not more than 600, more like 550?

1950-2000 tops.

7day average = 1780, excellent! i am very content with this average. !!!

Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 2.6 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 07/29/2016:
Have a Great weekend , HP.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/29/2016:
Will do!


puddles on 07/29/2016:
Glad you will get some rest. Your man I don't quite know what to make of that I would not want to see you hurt. Enjoy your weekend.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/29/2016:
Thank you...gonna meet up with my bestie tomorrow for the movie "Bad Moms" and then go shopping for light bulbs together....and dinner :-D full day and nice day!

It's a weird situation....i thank you for the caring comment.


Duaa123. on 07/29/2016:
Enjoy ur times, have a nice weekend

Horn_of_plenty on 07/30/2016:
Thank you D123 :-D



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jul 28, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 114.6

1750 6-day avg = awesome :-D.   feeling a lil leaner now.

 

Early: kombucha 50, coffee 50 100.

Bigger wrap, healthy: 350.

450 so far....and a bar 150

600 before lunch

lunch is about 450

before gym: 250

after gym: 130, 50, 350 = 550

1850, fine.

tasty day really!

 

 

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Last night i worked 45 min late on my own clock and no extra pay purposely to finish something and feel good that i did....

and i took a 30 min walk last evening which is wonderful....

....but didn't sleep the best....

...and this AM, i am feeling like I just want to PUNCH SOMEONE IN THE FACE!

...no, not literally, but i'm in a bad mood. I'm in a bad mood because there's no distraction and i can't work alone everyday for this pay....

....my frustrations are actually a good thing....they are a KICK IN THE ASS TO KEEP PREPARING FOR THE ACADEMY.

I may actually push myself for the academy early if i have to....but trying to relax about it....till next summer which is seriously less than 11 more months of work as i'd leave beginning of JUNE...so...I'm good....

I CAN DO THIS. 

Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 2.6 lbs to go!

Duaa123. on 07/28/2016:
you know if u could fight these hard moments , u will be stronger and stronger , be patient , And you can do it .. Also praying to god will help a lot belief me.I hope u always have happy days ..


OhioRaven on 07/29/2016:
Yeah, have a happy day, HP.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jul 27, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 114.6

1000 after lunch, healthy day....

very lonely though. working by myself.  boss is away on vaca this week!

my boss is retiring....soon i'll be working extremely "alone" with little distractions it seems. i don't like it very much....i don't necessarily hate it, but it's boring and i'm not expanding my mind.

on way home: small fruit 50., before walking: cucumber salad 50.  100.

after walk: another small fruit 50. and seltzer with stevia (had long phone convo with best friend...) 

light, late dinner: jello 50...protein muffin yum! 240, and then gave into some light ice cream to end the night 150: 450 or so, good!

1600 = a super success & good plan to keep cals low this week as I wanted to.

1730 5-day avg. EXCELLENT.

 

Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 2.6 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jul 26, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 114.6

4day average: 1760 - GOOD.

 

total today is quite perfect again: 1900. 

feeling extra good at end of day & extremely proud of myself for taking it easy right now while sorta in "mid-summer." I knew i needed a rest and i'm doing good taking one!

i'm starting to feel back to my old self thank goodness.

 

Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 2.6 lbs to go!

Duaa123. on 07/26/2016:
I am happy that u feel like ur old self feeling, Keep this improving.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/26/2016:
thanks D :-D

Yes, it feels good to be back to feeling more relaxed and happy!

Same to you...I wish for you to be happy.



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