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Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jul 20, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

the unfortunate: my calories for the past two days and the way i have dealt with my emotions (eating).

the positive: keeping up with exercise and using most of my time wisely.

i actually made it to yoga today. :) 8am-9:30am. also a 20 minute bike ride and a 6 mi walk. :)

then i got ready for the bridal shower which was pretty good actually. the mother was very creative and it was a good time considering i really didn't know many people there.

i ate pretty well up to and even during the shower but i gave in when i got home. i'll be back on track tomorrow.

breakfast: coconut water (right before yoga) 60

later breakfast: 1/2 pear, fiber one, milk 250

shower: salad with dressing, steamed broccoli, eggplant parmisean 900?? and coffee...930

after shower/dinner: 2 plums 80, the rest of the seared tuna from yesterday 450?, 1/4 of a pound cake 450, yogurt 70, milk 60, 3 granola bars 420, and chocolate candies with marzipan and coconut in them 350.

3200 would be an approximate for today. :(

it's due to what workingit said, my social anxieties causing me to eat before, during, and after them.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

selina on 07/20/2008:
Hi HOP! Sounds like you had a great party, yay! i love that eggplant dish and the seared tuna, leftover or not!


maria777 on 07/20/2008:
Hang in there, Friend.


thinnside40 on 07/20/2008:
Oh poop!..... Sorry...... I am the opposite and am not hungry when it comes to social events or stress..... So that tells you that my struggle with food is pretty much ALL the time, especially when things are going smoothly...I love to eat at night!


peaceelovee on 07/20/2008:
Its okay. I ate really really bad yesterday and that just made me want to eat even better today. I know you can do it. I'm glad the shower was nice...ive never been to one!


grumpy on 07/20/2008:
hey dear, i was thinking to myself, why would she have social anxieties, being that she's such a smart and talented girl (dont think i forget about the carnegie hall!) and she's so close to her goal weight. when i am bummed about going somewhere it's usually because of my weight, and i am not anymore, even though i am still far from my ideal weight. anyway, i know this is not racional, i am not either when it comes to my anxieties, but i agree with what WI3 said, you're handling it well. I thought to myself the other day how brave and honest you are posting all your cals even on your worst days. I learn a lot from you. xoxo


selina on 07/21/2008:
Hey HOP, I guess my early comment was BEFORE you added an update... I know what you mean, I see myself doing the same - doing very well at the party and seeing a total meltdown when I get home and relax. It's almost always like that. But, once you know your tendencies, it's easier to manage. Next time, I have to remind myself to go for a walk just after I come back home and relax, before I attack the fridge or the cupboard. I still like your eggplant and tuna... Hang in there.


WI3 on 07/21/2008:
There is help for social anxiety. You don't have to struggle with the things you've been struggling with. Counseling, anxiety medications, joining a speaking group like Toastmasters can also help with social anxiety. You may have a negative opinion of yourself and be fearful that you won't measure up to the people in the room...so rather than face their rejection, you reject yourself first by sabatoging your own plans, goals and dreams of your personal self. If you can be upset with you, you can focus that frustration instead of the fear and frustration of social situations...not to mention you can hurt yourself because of those negative feelings about yourself, before anyone else can hurt you with theirs.

I think often it is easy for us to write off our out of control days, as 'emotional' eating..which, is true in a sense...but if there is an underlying real issue (like a social fear) that is systematic and constant, it may mean that we need just a little more help than someone else who may have an off day every few weeks.

I hope I am not being inappropriate and I am really not trying to suggest anything..I guess I'm just saying that if you feel it is more than an emotional thing, I'm in your corner. Of course, I am in your corner anyway =)

Sorry if I went too far.

Have a fantastic day!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jul 19, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

you were all so kind to leave me motivational/supportive comments despite my erratic eating today! :)

3000 cal before dinner.

dinner: seaweed salad with dressing, seared tuna with dressing (yuck - dressing!) i didn't eat too much. i'm guessing i had 600 tops.

3600 cals today.

exercise: 4 mi walk, 30 minute bike ride. :)

bed. tomorrow i have a bridal shower. i plan on commenting tomorrow evening on your entries. :)

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

selina on 07/20/2008:
Hi HOP! I'd love to have your dinner! My favorite! Have a good shower today!


WI3 on 07/20/2008:
You have a very hectic weekend and I've noticed that you eat more when you are feeling the impending extra pressure/stress/social interaction. But once you are in it and you realize it isn't as bad as you thought it was going to be...you seem to relax and then eat your goal calories. It is almost like you think other people are going to expect too much from you, or that you won't meet their standards or something. I'm not trying to be a pop psychiatrist....it is just something I noticed over time. Food is your pre and during comfort and your post-social reward. I still think you are doing very well and that you will get where you want to be, and that you take a different route but you are never starving yourself which is good. And you aren't purging after your binges, which is very good. Hang tough HOP!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jul 18, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

sat, 10am:

very full: no yoga. just had 1525 more junk food calories. chocolate and all.

total so far today: 2965.

_____________________________________________

saturday am entry: woke up VERY early probably because i need some adreneline to make it through the weekend!

BIG breakfast: big bowl of cereal and milk (350), two light activia yogurts (140), 3 tablespoons pb (300), 2 bananas (230), 3 servings tortilla chips (420)

total breakfast: 1440 sheesh! I need to SLOW DOWN...BREATHE. I will go to yoga still, I think around 9:30.

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Friday entry:

today was good. i was FAR LESS hungry all day, especially in the morning. i didn't go for my usual mile walk at lunch because the heat was 100 degrees and i didn't need to come back soaking wet from sweat!

exercise: 1 mile during work, bike ride for 50 minutes.

food: throughout day 1,000.

dinner: cheesecake factory: salad, quesadilla, summer rolls, coffee: should not be more than 1200.

total for today: probably not over 2200.

alright.

i'll be going out to dinner again tomorrow night and sunday i have a bridal shower. i hope to enjoy food and at the same time stay within a moderate range for my weight.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 07/18/2008:
Super Day AND that was with eating out?....Even better!... You can do it again!


grumpy on 07/18/2008:
Yea, I am counting on my tomorrow also.. haha. I need to make better choices. I think i lost a little of my motivation for being stuck for so long. uff. xoxo


grumpy on 07/19/2008:
Yoga will do you good. Drink plenty of water. xoxo


grumpy on 07/19/2008:
Girl, go out for a walk, call your friends and do something, just don't stay home doing nothing if you're having a hard time today. xo


wi3 on 07/19/2008:
Keep the faith! Don't get down on yourself..you know it is always harder to come back from it when you get really negative about yourself. You do so much exercise and might need these extra calories sometimes, you know? Looking at your calories, you seem to go for three or four days in the low/medium calories, and then cycle up for a couple of days. Maybe it might work for you if you allowed yourself a higher calorie day every three or four days. Not encouraging your binge disposition in any way, just sometimes when we allow ourselves and entire day to eat whatever we want..it releases some pressure, gives us something to look foroward to, and can actually help prevent the binge because we know what we are going into from the start and sometimes that gives us more control. But whatever you do, I wish you nothing but the very best. As far as the guy...guys are weird creatures. But the nice thing is, when THEY come back to YOU...it gives YOU the power hehehe


thinnside40 on 07/19/2008:
H_O_P......You best figure something out before the day is over, cause you still have a lot of time to go.....Keep eating like that and you will be sick!

GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!!!!!


Moody2 on 07/19/2008:
I echo what WI3 said....I allowed myself a "cheat" day yesterday and didnt eat as much as I thought I would, but still allowed myself to eat some of the "goodies" I hadn't had all week...Now today I feel totally in control and ready to get back on program....Because I know that next Friday I can have another "cheat" day and indulge myself...Not to the point of binging (which i have done before) but just enjoying the freedom to eat what I don't on program. Did that make ANY sense? sigh~~

The day is early...Do you have anything you can do that would keep you busy if it's too hot to get outside? I enjoy painting and drawing and time literally flies as I lose myself in that..and food/eating is the last thing on my mind...Hmmm, thinking I need to pick up a pencil or brush..heh

Wishing you the best of days~hang in there hon~


Beth201P on 07/19/2008:
I'm still learning that yoga stuff. lol Have a great weekend. :)


cybermom4 on 07/19/2008:
I'm rootin for you - Tomorrow is always a new day!


maria777 on 07/19/2008:
Re: Saturday's entry....I know you'll get back on track...don't feel bad...you were just hungry, that's all. Take care.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jul 17, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

how are you all? i'm pretty good. the guy still hasn't emailed back. interesting, i'd say! i've pretty much already made plans ALL weekend. so it might have to wait till either sunday or next week to get together with him again (if he still wants to, of course!)

2 mi walk during work, walk/jog tonight.

breakfast: not too hungry, peanuts, peach: 170

snack: fiber bar

snack: peanut butter sandwich, protein shake: 440 i'm never buying those protein shakes again they're terrible!

snack: coffee

lunch: yogurts and peach

dinner: salad, more veggies, 1/2 block of tofu and 2 veggie burgers. followed by extra large cup of almond milk 640

total cal: 1460

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 07/17/2008:
Calories for today are terrific!.......Have a good evening!


grumpy on 07/17/2008:
see? thats what i should do more often. not wait on those 'dudes', just make my plans and if they wanted to see me they'd have to wait. i think i am too available for J... argh. speaking of which, im going out with him again. hahahaha xo


grumpy on 07/17/2008:
actually i don't know, but i won't think much about that again. we're not 'together', i am taking it one day at a time, we're ridiculously happy together, he is too. but he has some reservations, could be my weight, or his own demons, so i am aware that i may cry and get sad again. but this feels too good not to try and make it work as much as i can and the broken heart at times may be worth it. also, i am getting a little tired of his comes and goes, so who knows, maybe i'll get over? i just made the conscious decision of trying again as long as i still have energy and will. i know there's risks, but no pain no gain I guess. Thanks for your support, girl. xoxo


WI3 on 07/17/2008:
Guys are weird that way. I remember after Brian and I had our first date, he didn't call me for a week and we WORKED in the same building and saw each other almost every day LOL. You have the right idea, keep moving on with your plans and let him take his time. Keep up the great work!


maria777 on 07/17/2008:
Good on the cals!


peaceelovee on 07/17/2008:
Sounds like you had a good healthy dayyyy


maria777 on 07/18/2008:
Hope you're having a good day!


lafemme_loca on 07/18/2008:
Good food... good day... :-) what type of protein shake ? Good for you about making plans and not waiting around !! :-)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jul 16, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

thursday entry:

my weight is back around 123 this morning which i am thankful for. hopefully it'll stick! it's been awhile since my weight changed so dramatically each day. i've never remembered stepping on a scale to see changes in as much as 4 lbs day to day! especially bc i always weigh in in the morning.

(yesterday's calories are really 1420 because late at night i had 10 servings of sugar free strawberry jelly) ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

wed entry:

although i had a new low the other day...and i thought at least 2 lbs would stick, my weight was back to 126 today! not cool!

i've definitely eating way too much sugar in the mornings. i ate a ton of nutrition bars (like around 5) at work today and didn't even eat lunch because my stomach was too upset. too much fiber! anyways, i had 900 calories up until dinner, most eaten before 10am this morning.

early dinner: vegetables, tofu, sweet and sour tuna: 340.

total cal: 1250 right now.

snack in evening: one tomao, one pepper 70

total: 1320 :)

work was good. still no return of email from the guy i went on a date with. he wrote to me monday asking if i wanted to go out again and i said yes. but he hasn't said anything since monday. ah, it's still early.

have a good evening. i am going to try to hold off having anything sweet after dinner today. i'm going crazy at work in the mornings because i'm not sure if i'm hungry or just emotional and wanting sweet things.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

lafemme_loca on 07/16/2008:
Oh my goodness, I hear you on the the protein / nutrition bars ! That is why I had to change WW plans because I needed to get away from eating 3 to 5 'nutrition' bars a day... eeegads ! Try some sugar-free oatmeal they have some maple and brown sugar that is sugar-free at Safeway. That helps me to get through to lunch. I just eat it at my desk while going through my email in the mornings. :-) Have a lovely evening.


grumpy on 07/16/2008:
i know what you mean. i have been good these past few days, but i havent seen a loss at all. so weird. i am hoping one day it will come strong. i am hoping. i feel so weird about it right now, i was tricking myself tonight of thinking my hips were way bigger than before, but i know this is just me freaking out. i better brush my teeth and stay quit till the end of tonight, because i really wanna snack. i had cereal and milk, which i didnt need, but it wasnt bad overall at all. but needs to stop here. :P


grumpy on 07/16/2008:
as for the guy's email, yeah, wait it out, he may have gotten busy or something. but i am all for emailing him when you decide you want to as well. your call, really.


maria777 on 07/16/2008:
Yes, it's just Wednesday...Your calories look real good! What a healthy snack...tomato and pepper! I think sometimes we just say...'hey I've been good...now I'm going to eat what I want!!!'...then after we do it we think...'ok...now back on track!!!'


cybermom4 on 07/16/2008:
hmmm.. can you tell me more about the 'sweet and sour tuna'? Thanks for sharing about your weight going up a little. I get so frustrated when that happens- I'm not near where you are in lbs, but I'm sure the feeling is the same - I try not to be a 'yo-yo' eater, but every now and then the craving for sugar -- and I'll eat anything sweet -- well, I'm with you - just take one day at a time and all will work out - I hope your friend calls soon and plans a fun get together :)


peaceelovee on 07/16/2008:
my birthday was yesterday so im 17 now


selina on 07/17/2008:
your dinner sounds delicious! how did you cook the tuna?


loveray on 07/17/2008:
i think you should be fine about the boy. sometimes they get an idea in their heads and think they dont have to follow-up like girls think we do. i bet in his silly little brain he thinks he is coming to pick you up and everything is fine. if you havent already, i would just email him today something casual like you were wondering if the plan he mentioned is still "a go". if not, you hope he has a fabulous weekend! it may just be the reminder he needs. why do we let men drive us INSANE!?


grumpy on 07/17/2008:
glad your on a solid 123 now! xoxo


thinnside40 on 07/17/2008:
Hope your day is wonderful & remember that sugar can be a killer... You start, you just can't stop sometimes! Been there and done that!


Moody2 on 07/17/2008:
Woohoo on the 4lbs! Crazy what our bodies do isn't it!!

Don't worry bout the guy~It's early like you said and I bet he's busy during the week as well!!

Have a wonderful day!


maria777 on 07/17/2008:
Looks like you're doing real good! Have a nice day!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jul 15, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

wednesday: woke up really hungry! too many blueberries 120, cereal, peanuts, milk: 250.

i want to reach for some bread and peanut butter but i'm pretty satisfied so i won't.

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tuesday

90 cal tofu in evening...1765 total.

bingey today. i felt it ALL day. ugh!

calories for dinner were kinda large and carby: 700.

overall calories today: 1675. alright, as long as i get in my bikeride when i regain my energy back!

work was good. got my walking in.

nothing much else to report except that i'm feeling so bingey lately!

exercise: 2 mi at work and bike ride.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 07/15/2008:
GOod for the walking and hope for you to get the bike ride in..

Re: name change ~ I knew everybody would know it was me and that was fine, just needed my few weeks back comments/posts to be put to "private" status and to change the name was the easiest way to keep everything and not have to take the time to "weed" through the previous entries and have to delete them... Due to a person I am having trouble with knowing about DD and maybe figuring out which user name I was and basically "snooping" through "MY DIARY"... Sounds like real adult behaviour doesn't it? Never grow up H_O_P..... Stay young!

Have a good evening my friend!


Moody2 on 07/15/2008:
Sounds like a good day! Good for you for avoiding bingeing..Stay busy or do something very relaxing!!


sweetpea1977 on 07/15/2008:
It sounds like you did pretty good for feeling bingy all day! And good for you for getting that walk and bike ride in!


cybermom4 on 07/15/2008:
OH those 'bingy days' do sneak in there.....good job on the walking!! That is super that it fits right in with your work day! Hope your bike ride was fun!


cybermom4 on 07/15/2008:
:) yes the fiber does make the protein drink a bit filling :)


maria777 on 07/15/2008:
Well, to feel bingey, you sure did good with you 1600 or so cals...yayyy! I felt bingey over the weekend...I was CRAVING a chocolate/peanut butter crunch bar (470 cals and high fat) so I just gave in and had one 2 days in a row...my chin shows it...but it sure was good...then I was extra good yesterday and extra exercise-y to make up for it...worked! I find that if I make myself go to bed when I feel bingey, that helps a LOT. Hope you have a good evening!


peaceelovee on 07/15/2008:
I have faith in you. I think its just normal to feel bingey. Good luck for tomorrow


selina on 07/16/2008:
HI HOP! I hope you are over your bingey mood. Take care!


grumpy on 07/16/2008:
good deal in avoiding binging. stay strong HOP!


Jen40 on 07/16/2008:
Hope today isn't a bingey day! I get those too.


loveray on 07/16/2008:
i felt really bingey last night too for some reason...on my way to run, i wanted to eat something in my car, but i waited. it was a good feeling to do some exercise rather than eat. have you heard from the boy?!! xoxo


maria777 on 07/16/2008:
Your breakfast looks real good...especially the blue berries!!! Hope you have a wonderful day!!!


legcramps on 07/16/2008:
Ah, bread and peanut butter. Don't do it HoP, I know exactly where that'll get 'ya. I love blueberries on frozen vanilla yogurt - have you ever tried that? A great low-cal alternative, and yummy too!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jul 14, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

Tuesday morning edit: my weight was abnormally low, not to complain! lol, that's great as long as it stays down! I may be just a tad dehydrated. but this is a cool new weight to list.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Monday evening entry:

around 500 calories for dinner. possibly too many carbs. but overall ok.

total calories: 1500

exercise: 2 mi at work. walk/jog in evening. 45 min.

good day at work. my date emailed me (instead of calling) today since our first date saturday night. i think that was a good idea on his part since we did meet online anyway. he wants to know if i want to go out for ices which i think is pretty laid back and should be fun. so i think that's what we will be doing at some point. i'm not a huge fan for going out during the week but i guess i could make an exception, right?

have a good evening everyone.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/14/2008:
Make the exception. Trust me on this one.

RELAX.

Have a good time. Then come home and tell us all about it.


Moody2 on 07/14/2008:
Awww, goin out for icees!! DO IT!! Enjoy yourself!!!


maria777 on 07/14/2008:
Are icees about the same thing as a snow cone? Cause Hubby bought me a snow cone a while back and it was soooo good! Hope you have a nice evening!


rlovell on 07/14/2008:
omg cuteness! yes, definitely break the "rules" for this one. because nothing feels better than to be loved and adored by another (except loving and adoring yourself!) break out and have some summer lovin fun! xoxo


mmuraro on 07/14/2008:
Of course make an exception! Sounds sweet! I tried the shake and I love it, more for the nutrition facts than the taste, but doesn't taste bad at all. :)


selina on 07/15/2008:
Enjoy this wonderful time !


Jen40 on 07/15/2008:
Ices sound fantastic and a wonderful date! Hope it goes well and you both have a blast. :O) Oh and congrats on the new low!!!!! How awesome is that???!


mmuraro on 07/15/2008:
yay, sounds awesome. I should try dehydration, if that's what it is.. Ha. bad joke. boo. Happy tuesday.


WI3 on 07/15/2008:
You've been working hard, congratulations!


legcramps on 07/15/2008:
Yaaaayyyyyhhhh!!! You rock. Yes, break the rules and go out for 'ices'. Have fun!


lafemme_loca on 07/15/2008:
Ahhh... go for it ! :-) Especially if he is cute ! :-) Congrats on the low / dehydration. ;-)


maria777 on 07/15/2008:
Happy Dance!!! Happy Dance!!! So happy for you on your new number! Good to go on the walking, too!!! Congratulations to you!!!


thinnside40 on 07/15/2008:
Your day looks like it got off on a good start..... Hope it remains going good...



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jul 13, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 125.0

the good of today: 6 miles walking, 90 minutes hot yoga, and 40 minute bike ride.

the bad: calories and sitting at my computer. some unproductivity (not a word!?)

to be improved: deal with issues in a grown up way - write how i feel down. call a friend. move on!

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

i don't know what happened. or, rather i do. i decided to stay home after lunch and somehow ended up binging.

920 good calories including breakfast, a snack, and lunch. then, one hour later, a binge:

3 huge pita bread type things, 2 klondike bars, 1 carvel flying saucer, 3 large granola bars. this all added up to around 1700 calories. all the food was not purchased by me - rather my parents.

total calories for the day after my binge at 2pm are: 2630.

I have no reason to eat anything else today.

i always ruin my progress. i have a feeling this binge also has to do with my lack of ability to remain calm about dating - although it all went well yesterday.

i even wrote last night specifically how i would NOT binge today. anyways, so far i have had a bike ride and yoga. perhaps a LONG walk later.

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

selina on 07/13/2008:
Oh dear! Dating is a lot of stress, even though it doesn't look/feel like it. On the other hand, it's a lot of fun, too, so enjoy! So, is he cute???? Does he play a musical instrument like you do??? You'll go back to your eating well/healthy habits as soon as you settle down a bit, I wouldn't worry about it. Just don't keep overeating every day... Take a nap if you are tired or take a walk to distract yourself.


thinnsidenotout on 07/13/2008:
Take an extra long walk...and take time doing it.....Self-Sabotage happens to ALL who have ANY amount to rid and we just have to start over again and again and again and again, until we get it right for the LAST TIME!

Hope your day starts looking up!


mmuraro on 07/13/2008:
I feel you, I have had a hard tome controlling myself. I think I need therapy and other help. Hope your day gets better. xo.


rlovell on 07/13/2008:
do you think this is because you are just not sure what might happen? seems as though you had a wonderful time...maybe you arent ready to let the happiness in? i am so sorry you are feeling this way, as i was the exact same on thursday night. it sucks, but you will be right back on track tomorrow. xoxo


cybermom4 on 07/13/2008:
hmmm.. I'm sorry to hear about your binge, I know how you must feeling, but in the grand scheme ..you've done an awesome job so far. Try not to let one day set you back... congrats on the bike ride and the yoga! :)


Beth201P on 07/13/2008:
Hey I have been there many times. Keep you chin up and tomorrow is a lovely new day. ((Hugs))


legcramps on 07/14/2008:
I know exactly what you must be going through. I often find myself opting to stay at home and then ending up binging on food all day long. I don't know why that is... I think it's the little devil on our shoulders telling us we have all day and nothing better to do with our time!!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jul 12, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 125.0

my date included a live orchestra (that i used to play in!!!) and a really brilliant display of fireworks. the fireworks were the best part and they went on for a long time - perhaps even 20 minutes. it was a wonderful date tonight! i was sooooo nervous bc it's been quite a number of months. but this guy is down to earth and fun to be around. haha. i'm just saying a had a good time and can actually see it going further. :) he asked what i was doing tomorrow night (which is sunday...) but then he realized today was sat night and so we just said we will get together soon. gave me a kiss on the cheek...good guy. i hope he thinks the same of me - he said he had a great time too.

breakfast: cereal, milk, fruit. 220

snack: coconut water 60

lunch: tofu on toast and salad: 250

snack: 3 plums 100

snack: iced coffee 60

snack: special k protein bar 170

snack: peanuts and raisins during date haha, he's a health nut and he brought them to the outdoor concert with fireworks that we went to. 250 at most.

snack at night when i got home: 1/2 cup blueberries, tofu dipped in yogurt. lol, i like it. 200

no real dinner, just snacks.

total: 1310. nice day today. :)

plans for tomorrow: yoga...walking at the cross island...clean my bathroom and vacuum my floor??? i should! i will actually write down plans for myself so that i don't end up binging or doing something destructive like that! this should be a summer to remember!

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

CutyPie on 07/12/2008:
Ohhh, it sounds like so much fun! You had a really great food day, too, and you're so focused on your plans!!! Hope this is a great start for a fantastic week!


thinnsidenotout on 07/12/2008:
Good! AND he is a health nut..... YEA!!!!


mmuraro on 07/13/2008:
Glad you had fun at your date!! Fireworks, huh? :)


jon'smom on 07/13/2008:
He sounds like a fantastic guy!! When you said fireworks did you mean real fireworks or just "fireworks" between you too? Just teasing! I'm so glad you had a great time:)


Moody2 on 07/13/2008:
Last night sounded fantastic!!! I bet you'll be hearing from him soon! Yay!!!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jul 11, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 125.0

i'm going on a date tomorrow and i feel so flabby and gross. ugh. i went to target to try on some clothes and the 6's were to snug. not happy. i was under the impression that i am a size 6 but apparently not yet. rather than obsess over size, i am unhappy with the amount of fat and flab i have and lack of muscle. yuck! especially when looking in the mirror in the dressing room!

well, i ate alright during the day. HUGE binge feelings, as usual for this week.

dinner was large i guess for a late dinner around 8pm. maybe if i made an effort to eat bigger earlier in the day i would see better results if that's what i really want. however, i don't know how feasible that is. i love to eat a lot because i like the feeling. maybe if i do eat a big breakfast and lunch and then just concentrate on exercise after work and a satisfying salad with protein i can reach my goals. i think i will try it. I can eat a pb sandwich for breakfast maybe with a plain yogurt too...then for lunch i can have another yogurt with whatever microwavable meal or sandwich (i probably will not bring sandwiches i don't like them for lunch) and snack on bars/fruit. then dinner can be light - no starchy carbs/grains. i think i will feel much better and look much better sooner. :( i'm not excited for this way of eating, by the way.

dinner today was: smart ones quesadillas (440), salad (40), plain yogurt that i dipped with the quesadillas (80), 1/2 cup blueberries (40). i should make this my lunch and i think i'd be better off. I HATE using so many calories so early in the day but perhaps it's the only way. total dinner calories: 600 which is too much i guess for 8pm. of course, this is NOT a binge or anything. maybe i'm just being too hard on myself and i don't need to change anything to see the results which are coming slowly because of the binges which have ocurred lately. i hope that's what it is!

total calories today: 1570. at least it's in the 1500's which was my goal.

exercise: 2 mi during work, that's it. maybe a walk downstairs later. not so happy right now about my lack of progress in weightloss.

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

rlovell on 07/11/2008:
yay for a date!!! who is this lucky man? i think you will find a pleasant surprise when you eat more during the day rather than at night. xoxo


shadetree on 07/12/2008:
My stepmother's family has always had their big meal at lunch, with a small evening meal - soup and sandwich,etc. None of them are overweight. It makes sense, although it would take me a while to get used to that I think...

Have fun on your date!


mmuraro on 07/12/2008:
how can you be 125 and not be a 6? i thought you were a 4 or something! i bet you look way better than you think. enjoy the date, dont worry about your size or clothes. you're right about my 'rules' i just really need a little incentive, so i wanna try and lose those now... xo


rlovell on 07/12/2008:
i knew we were soul-sisters!! i am jewish too and have been on jdate. my stories were not so successful, but i pray yours are. xoxo


Umpqua on 07/12/2008:
You're at my current goal weight! But I've been there and have aimed for 115 plenty of times in the past, and I know how difficult it is. Especially to get down to that weight, you really have to watch everything and be so careful. Is it possible to compromise and do a somewhat heavier breakfast and lunch and a not as heavy dinner? That might be more satisfying for you. I hope you have a good date tonight!


thinnsidenotout on 07/12/2008:
Have a great weekend....And have fun on the date...


selina on 07/12/2008:
I hope you are having a great weekend! Exciting date, sounds like. Take care!


WI3 on 07/12/2008:
Woooo Hoooo! Dates are fun! I've been with Brian for almost a year and I still get the butterflies when we go out on a date. Have a great time and tell us everything!



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