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Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Oct 15, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

good day yesterday, bad day today.

after work binge

total calories: didn't count, around 5500. eesh.

i don't know. came home, ate, and don't want to walk.

gonna study. perhaps watch the presidential debate. btw, the presential debate is going on about ten minutes away from my house. kinda cool to know they candidates are a couple towns away!

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 10/15/2008:
Bad today, better tomorrow...... I'm pullin' for ya! : o )


skinnyjeans on 10/15/2008:
Yes, tomorrow is a new day! :)


loveray on 10/15/2008:
hope you are having a better day than i did!! hang in there my love...xoxo


WI3 on 10/15/2008:
I just got my book "Former Fat Girl" and I would recommend it to you. I thought about you in the first chapter. Not because you are at the weight she started, but if you get the book and read it, you will understand. Take care!


kzirkle on 10/16/2008:
Tomorrow is a new day. Stick with it. We all have our slip ups, that's what makes it so satisfying in the end to reach goal. You can do it. :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Oct 14, 2008
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Weight: 135.0

breakfast: challah roll w. an egg. hamburger bun w. 2 tbsp peanut butter. 750-800 or so

lunch: smoothie and soy chips 400

snacks/dinner: green drink; greek yogurt w. bran cereal; broccoli slaw, tomatoes, mustard, tofu, apple: 560 approx.

total: 1760 approx.

to those of you who left positive comments regarding my ability to have a great day, i did do that - despite it's challenges. thanks all :)

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/14/2008:
Hang in there, Horn!

You are right about the WOT interpretation. And I would agree about the assessment of your mother's sabotaging you. If you can just get through the next 2 years together, things will get much better for you after that.


skinnyjeans on 10/14/2008:
Doing great the last few days...keep it up! Enjoy your Tuesday and happy dieting! :)


thinnside40 on 10/14/2008:
Do you like tea?.... I am finding it again... Used to drink lots of it, but got away and leaned more on the coffee.... I find myself not near as hungry or thinking about food.....

Take Care and feel your worth H_O_P.....


yaz on 10/14/2008:
You make really healthy choices - hmm you give me ideas! keep that mind positive!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Oct 13, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

not sure if i needed it, but had 180 cal worth of tofu one hour before bed.

total cal: 1570. still in the 1500s which is good.

total calories: 1390 - great.

today was a whole lot better. i do like schedule, it helps me stay on track, so i'm glad i didn't have off today!

breakfast: an egg on a hamburger bun. 210

snack: tea w. apple: 110

lunch: sugary but good smoothie: 250??

snack: cookies...later a 1/2 cup wheatgrass (a bit much!) 220

snack before bike ride: kombucha 60

dinner: salad w. microwavable lasagna about 400 (but i may just have salad, tofu instead.) and yogurt w. sugar free jelly. but, i am looking to eat a lot less artificial sugars bc they seem to give me acne! so, i won't be buying any new sugar free stuff. i even put real sugar in my tea today!

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

skinnyjeans on 10/13/2008:
I agree...keeping to a schedule really helps eating regularly. Glad you had a good day! Keep up the great work.


grumpy on 10/13/2008:
glad you had a good day! well, i do want someone with no hung ups that will give me all and not some half way thing. but i am completely in love with J and never been happier and had more fun with anyone i met, friends included. so its a really tough call.


starfish on 10/13/2008:
looks like you are doing great!


WI3 on 10/13/2008:
Stick to the foods that work for you, I agree. Good to see you having some good days!


yaz on 10/13/2008:
Tofu before bed isn't bad at all! It's tofu!!! Looks like a good day - and a healthy menu!


selina on 10/14/2008:
Have a great day, hop! Love tofu!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Oct 11, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

i have weight to lose and i want to lose it. i have NO restrictions on types of foods. meaning, anything is really permitted. i CAN have white foods. and all that. but, i MUST start COUNTING calories and CARING. this is pathetic. i am 26 and the 20s are usually the best times and easiest to look good. not sure what i'm waiting for. but of course, i'm never giving up. lots of good exercise this weekend - haha, and eating.

total calories on sunday: 2200

sunday: not much better. breakfast: 350

lunch: all kinds of things - half healthy, half not. 1055.

snack: 2 sugar cookies

dinner: lean cuisine flatbread, one red pepper, some lettuce

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saturday night:

pigged out at the wedding. it started off innocent and then i guess the alcohol helped me make some bad decisions. this wedding was FANCY. the cocktail hour had excellent food...and then dinner choices included filet mignon and salmon among other GREAT foods. dessert was everything and anything. included cheesecake balls on lollipop sticks. don't ask.

definitely around 4000 calories, at least.

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cheers to the weekend. cheers to a great friend getting married today. cheers to getting my hair straightened so it comes out well and i don't have to stress at all over that. cheers to wearing a new dress (lol, even though i don't love it!?). cheers to the weather being awesome. cheers to my saxophone being sold on ebay so i can ship it out. cheers to going for a walk this morning, since the wedding starts in the evening at 7pm. cheers to not having to worry about money like some people do. cheers to belonging to a gym. cheers to having a car. cheers.

just gotta think positive. this is what makes people happy.

going to do the things i listed above today.

breakfast: 3 ounces wheatgrass which will help my body digest and eliminate some stuff! then, a smoothie with lots of fiber, banana, chocolate protein. 340

snack: snapple 120

lunch: probably dunkin donuts flatbread with coffee 340

snack: avocado mixed into greek yogurt, 2 bran crackers. 225

total so far: 1025 fine.

dinner: wedding (and i will probably have around 2 drinks there as well - not a day to think about LOW LOW LOW calories!)

exercise: 6 mile walk. no yoga because it can dehydrate which i probably already am and i don't want to get sick at the wedding.

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

yaz on 10/11/2008:
That's exactly what you do! You name all the good things you are grateful for and think positive! Enjoy the wedding!


MattsGirl16 on 10/11/2008:
Have a good weekend!


teriyaki on 10/11/2008:
Enjoy the wedding.


loveray on 10/11/2008:
hope you had a great night at the wedding. i would love to see some pictures if you are willing to share! i had greek yogurt for lunch today- but made it sweet, of course. the avocado addition sounds great! the whole foods near me stopped carrying my bran crackers...i am so sad!!


thinnside40 on 10/11/2008:
Good Day to "cheer"........ CHEERS TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!


WI3 on 10/11/2008:
A new dress is fun!! And I bet you looked beautiful!


leeumom on 10/11/2008:
And CHEERS TO YOU!!! Hope you have a wonderful weekend.


skinnyjeans on 10/11/2008:
Cheers! Sounds like you're having a GREAT weekend! :)


loveray on 10/12/2008:
HAHAH. dont ask! well im glad you enjoyed your time, sister. thats what weddings are all about. and by the sound of your comment, you actually saw some friends, smiled and laughed: so much more valuable than how you "looked" in that dress. love you- and send me your facebook name!! xoxo


Donkey on 10/12/2008:
Donkey was here; she says you definitely have a lot to be positive about in life, although you may not see or feel it right now. You should try living Donkey's life, what a POS-WOT that is.


skinnyjeans on 10/12/2008:
Glad you got lots of good excercise in...and I like your "never give up" attitude!


WI3 on 10/12/2008:
I think it is a very good idea to buckle down and go for what you want for yourself personally. Specifically, your desire to get healthy and lose some weight. Don't give up on your health during the midst of everything. It is far too easy to get sick/injured that way. I know! Take care!


mcwoo40 on 10/13/2008:
Just passing to say hello.I am waiting for this thinner body to step out of this fat body, i don't know when it will happen so i will never give up too,take care Julie


thinnside40 on 10/13/2008:
Oh goodness cheesecake lollipops!!!!!!!!!!??????!!!!!!!!!!! mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Good Monday to you!


greengirl on 10/13/2008:
Hi HoP, cheers to you sweetheart. I love it when you are positive. Hope you have a great week this week :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Oct 10, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

yesterday was sickening. today was crappy.

today: nothing until 10am. fruit/tea. 120 or so.

lunch: sugary, kashi bar and smoothie (bad choices.)

after work: some healthy but big roll, seaweed salad, tofu burger. prob around 1100 for this stuff. but then i had some sugary stuff afterwards which ruined what could have been an ok day.

prob around 4000 today.

tomorrow i have a wedding, haha, cross my fingers i fit into my dress...

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

grumpy on 10/10/2008:
i know, did you see how short is the back??? its crazy, never had hair that short. i think i look better with the long hair, but i like the change aspect of it. i think tomorrow i will have to tell j we need time away. and i need to be strong and stick to it, so it's good that i got the haircut, i a girl told me today at work that you carry your karma on your hair and she doesnt even know about J. I hope she's right. hope you feel better and relax about the wedding, have fun! xo


loveray on 10/10/2008:
i hope that would have fun at your wedding! i know what you mean about the fasting- i wrestled with doing that to myself with my eating disorder. but for some reason, this year, it was much easier than others not to think about the food. love to you!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Oct 09, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

i did binge. badly. no idea how much i ate. but it can EASILY be around 6,000.

something inside me clicked in a bad way and the binge just went off tonight and when i got home, after the dinner, i did eat more (desserts - pure sugar)

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today was a day of fast but i didn't fast. i went to work and ate pretty normally. it's ok. every jew observes in their own way.

550 cal breakfast. kinda big, but good.

400 cal lunch.

350 cal snack

cal. so far: 1300. alright.

dinner: out at a friend of family's house to observe the holiday. i refuse to come back really late bc i have to study for a test. (i will take my own car if i have to...) and i will eat moderately well. i have enough calories to still have something good to eat, right?

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

teriyaki on 10/09/2008:
Sorry about the binge. It happens. Don't beat yourself up. Just start over with a clean slate, ...as I am sure you are well aware...you've been doing this for awhile. You know what to do. Keep it up . Pat yourself on the back for all the good things you do for yourself and all the healthy choices you are making..


skinnyjeans on 10/10/2008:
Today is a new day...you can get back on track! We're here for support. :) Have a nice day!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Oct 08, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

kinda a celebratory and home cooked and holiday meal..was prob around a "conservative" as grumpy would say...probably 1000:

soup with veggies and matza (bread) ball, chicken and potato (little bit), moderate piece of strawberry rhubarb pie (decadent and rich)

so today was around 2200 ok. bc no binge and enjoyed a nice dinner. tomorrow will be more of the same i think. oh well. gotta enjoy meals/days like this.

i only biked, had to come home for dinner!

trying to eat better. taking vitamin C and E because a goal of mine is to improve my skin and hair. especially my face since it's bad now. comes and goes with hormones. but, when you eat a lot (like overexcessive amount) of sugar it is proven that some of the vitamins you need are not absorbed well. and i KNOW this is what happened with me. because i ate TERRIBLY and my face is a WRECK. hopefully it'll be mostly better in a week and next time when hormones strike it won't be NEAR as bad! :)

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pretty busy day today. lol, so i got my monthly visitor today (maybe another reason for all the anger in my entries lately) and i wasn't ready. knew it was coming, didn't realize it was sooo close. i was wearing white pants (my uniform!!) so it was a bit awkward. luckily nothing too bad. lol.

anyways, food was good.

300 breakfast (egg on bran cracker, fiber one cup of it plus cup almond milk)

70 calorie apple snack

400 calorie beans, salad, tofu lunch (trying to get MORE veggies in before i leave work!)

350 calorie dunkin donuts snack. lol. sandwich and coffee.

so far: 1120. i would like to do well today.

dinner with family tonight. i will make sure i eat moderately!

exercise: bike, elliptical, WEIGHTS. i've layed off of weights for about a week! oops. didn't go to gym and was too lazy to do them at home! must do abs too. tonight is the start of a jewish holiday. but i will be observing it by still going to school tomorrow since i have a test and wouldn't be attending temple anyway. so busy! i cannot wait till sunday. the wedding will be over and i will probably sleep a lot! lots of things going on this year. once again, it's better that way!

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

grumpy on 10/08/2008:
Aw thanks, thats so sweet. The pic above with J is from LA just now. The other one was at a wedding months ago that I do think i looked really pretty. I was just 5 pounds bigger there (uff, that reminds me i am 5 pounds up! but oh well!). I don't know I think hair depends on your genes and on how you treat it. I never did much coloring, never damaged it much with straightening products, etc. I have no idea of how your hair looks because you never posted a picture. Boo! I use just any shampoo and conditioner (dove or anything really) and all i do is put a little bit of anti frizz right after the shower and then a little more again after i dry my bangs. my hair tends to get oily easily if i do too much to it. The cool thing about shorter hair is that i can easily dry it straight or leave it natural, kinda wavy. With the long hair blow drying it takes way too long and it never ends up totally straight. So it always looks the same. I will post a pic with new hair tomorrow! Yay! Sounds cool about your hair! Take a pic! :)

i had a similar day to you. no binging and enjoyed a nice dinner, so calories were on the high side, but not bad. xoxoxo. btw, try to enjoy the wedding instead of looking fwd to it being over. :)


thinnside40 on 10/08/2008:
Yep...Avocado is a staple in the menu these days... I substitute it for other things and pretty satisfying..Plus suppose to be good for my cholesterol too... Can't beat that!

Glad to hear that your day was good and you consider it to be o.k. to eat as you did... And NOT binge.... Yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


selina on 10/09/2008:
Enjoy the holidays and the wonderful food, hop!


skinnyjeans on 10/09/2008:
Taking vitamins is a great idea. My mom constantly bugs me to take them, and I ususally slack. But she's right! And keep up the good work...monitoring food intake and excercising. You are on the right track!


anewhb on 10/09/2008:
OHHH yeah - the hormones add to the craziness of this life, huh! Hang in there and hope Yom Kippur is good. The day of Atonement. God bless.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Oct 07, 2008
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Weight: 135.0

today was STRANGE. i went to bed at a decent time but throughout the morning at clinical in the hospital i was SWEATING profusely. like i might have had a fever. all morning, sweating. i felt gross! but it went away by afternoon, thankfully!

no exercise as i did errands after work: i found a dress that i'm not loving, but am happy i found it and don't have to worry about that again before a wedding i have on saturday. i did forget my coupon though, so i will have to go back - they put it on hold. i hope i still have my coupon! haha, i'm always scatterbrained with this kinda stuff...

i also got a new tube for my bike. i was going to put it away till spring but i've seen so many people riding that i decided to get it done. seven dollars...but i gave him a 3 dollar tip because he's that fast and that good. great service. that's when you should tip. when they give you a really decent price and do everything nice!

breakfast was a bit large, maybe that's what caused me to sweat. lots of peanut butter. but not horrible good fats. tofu. avocado, bran crackers. that's about it. 750

snack: NONE. and i was alright. just hungry right before lunch!

lunch: tofu, salad, beans, (too much cauliflower also and boy was that i bad idea....haha) light dressing: 400

snack: green drink, bar: 300

snack: apple, 2 ounces wheatgrass (i'm really trying to help my skin)100

dinner: 2 eggs, 1 big red pepper. 230

dessert: greek yogurt, cinnamon, 3-4 tablespoons sf jelly...3 chocolates...and i didn't binge after that which is great. 350.

after dessert: tea.

total calories: 2130. fine. it's not above 2200. i may have burned less than what i ate. but it's not a binge and i was on my feet most of the day today. tomorrow i will be sitting more, so i will try to eat accordingly. but, most importantly, no binging. that's the habit i need to break first and foremost.

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

loveray on 10/07/2008:
you know what! i have eaten a really big breakfast before and felt SO hot to the touch: i am usually freezing, so it really alarmed me- maybe your metabolic rate was just firing up! a good sign considering all we have put our bodies through- i am proud that you are committed to breaking the binge cycle. xoxo


thinnside40 on 10/07/2008:
"that's the habit i need to break first and foremost."

That is what I like to read from you... You know what you need to do and are working on it constantly, not giving up.... That says something!


anewhb on 10/08/2008:
HOP - sorry I guess all this time I didn't realize just where you lived. I hope everything's calmed down a little bit, at least, at home. I'm really glad you can vent here. I hold stuff in too much sometimes and I know that's not good. (Although my family would probably say I should hold it in MORE- LOL)!!! So you can see there's some discord at my house at times.....does it ever end? Probably not for someone with all our collective personalities, however, I think we do better than most from what I hear from friends, etc.! Whew - sometimes it's impossible to keep it all together. Hang in there my dear!!


greengirl on 10/08/2008:
Well done HoP that you have not let your recent stresses make you binge. You can do this sweetheart :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Oct 06, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

trying to remember what i ate today...feeling incredibly gross all day from everything that went on last night (not involving food for once). my face is all broken out. really bad. i am exhausted.

breakfast: 2 eggs, avocado, bran crackers, banana, 420

snack: apple, two of my friend's almonds: 100

lunch: salad, bean salads, tofu: 400

snack: green drink and luna bar: 250

snack 2: tofu and some bran crackers: 140

dinner: two italian peppers, avocado, egg, string beans with salt. 250

dessert: greek yogurt, sf jelly, cinnamon: 120

short two mile walk today, really tired out.

total calories: 1680. VERY good. i will focus only on eating healthy for awhile. not on dropping calories very low. weight should come off after awhile. no need to push it.

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

WI3 on 10/06/2008:
Let out that stress and VENT any time you want!!! It is healthy and it helps clear the mind and helps you focus. I am so happy for you that you finally allowed yourself to get angry and say the things you want to say and get in touch with that part of yourself. Hang tough!!


sweetpea1977 on 10/06/2008:
I just caught up on all your entries. You poor thing. If I had room, I'd let you move in with me. You do not deserve to be treated like crap!! Anyway, Im so glad that you are letting this anger out and that the gals on here were able to leave you some supportive comments. If you cant rely on your real family, you can at least take comfort in knowing that your online buds will be here to listen.


grumpy on 10/06/2008:
just read your last entry. sorry dear. but i have to say, this is messing with your sanity. you need to make a plan to move out. no friends living in houses with a room to spare? dorm? you're so smart, come up with a plan! xo


grumpy on 10/06/2008:
oh and i think focussing on healthy for now is a great plan. xo


loveray on 10/06/2008:
you did GREAT today! so healthy, so timed out and focused. i bet you had a positive day even after such a bad night. hang in there my friend! xo


lafemme_loca on 10/07/2008:
*hugs* I so know what you mean about parents... I am so so so sorry that you have to be going through this. When I was in my early 20s, i moved to Europe because 9 time zones away from my mother was perfect heaven. I hope you can find a way to find peace where you are or the ability to move out on your own for a bit. *hugs* If you ever need a vacation... I have a very comfy couch ! :-)


selina on 10/07/2008:
Concentrating on healthy eating is a great thing you can do right now. If you do one thing at a time, you'll get there. Never mind the bumps. So sorry about your family/housing situation... hang in there - you've got lots of good advice.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Oct 05, 2008
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Weight: 135.0

I CANNOT DEAL WITH ANYONE IN THIS HOUSE. MY PARENTS ARE DRIVING ME TOTALLY CRAZY. MY MOM IS A COMPLETE B>>>>. SHE IS FRUSTRATING ME TO PIECES. SHE COMPLAINS TO MY DAD ABOUT ME> AND EVERYONE GANGS UP ON ME WHEN MY SISTER COMES HOME.

I CANNOT TAKE IT.

i can hardly type this i am soooooooo pissed...........;.!! Q

i am so angry. you have no idea. my freakin parents think that i lie at every point that i can. i cannot deal i cannot deal i cannot deal.;asldd

my sister and i got earrings for our birthdays. i want to throw mine out. i literally put them in the garbage. however, i'm taking them out now and giving them straight back to my mother. i don't want ANYTHING from this woman. no gifts. every again. she is suuuuch a terrible person.

i am not looking back at this moment, but thank you to the person who said to me not to expect favors when i ask. i cannot believe i could have FORGOTTEN that my sister DOESN'T do favors for me. never has and never will! why am i so stupid as to think she would this time around! why!?!?? how could i forget that!? and how could it also slip my mind that my mom is a judgemental incredibly negative ...... you insert whatever terms sound good there. and my dad, he's good and all, but boy is he sadistic. to think that i would intentionally lie and clean up my room and then leave another room a mess. i would never be soooo incredibly deceitful. long story. i won't even go into it. but if a person always thinks the negative of every situation, that's just incredibly not helpful at home.

i cannot take it. my mom LOVES to get my dad angry with him. she hounds him. and i can't take it.

i wrote out a 300 dollar check and put it with the earrings i got for my bday on my mom's dresser. i cannot look at them. and they were sitting in my garbage 5 minutes ago. to me, they are worth NOTHING. there is nothing i want from a person who does not love me for me. i canoot take this anymore. i am stressed beyond belief. and to top it all off, with a little vanity, my face is all broken out. i was embarassed at today's funeral looking how i do. i am sooooooooooooo sad, so angry, so upset. i have a horrible mother who i do not love. she is tooo judgemental.

after the funeral she had to repeat and reiterate a thousdand times how this freshman in college who did most of the family's speaking at the funeral was " so vain" because he discussed his looks and how he wondered why he was so good looking - bc of his grandfather. to me it was almost funny because he's still so young so maybe that's what a guy his age thinks about. i don't know....but i can say that it was great that he did talk on his grandfather's behalf. not everyone is smart like you - mom - and can write an awesome speech. BUT, at least these people attended their parents funerals, unlike you, mom! that's right, mom. you don't even associate with ONE person from your side of the family. you are the loser. and nobody else. you are the one that shuns people out. you are the one that sets the example of not communitcating with me or anyone else. you are the one that doesn't give an ounce of your time when people ask it of you. you are that person. you are the one that should be critiqued and judged and made to feel like shi-. that person is you.

i feel like crap.

if i last till friday, that'll be amazing. i think i'll be a zombie at my friend's wedding on saturday if i keep going to sleep late this week. as if last week wasn't enough.

Progress as of today: -10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

anewhb on 10/06/2008:
HOP sorry for the family drama. There comes a time when it's just hard to live with parents - much less all the sibling dramas. Even when everybody DOES get along and love each other. What's up with the job in the hospital - what's bugging you about that? I didn't seem to pick up in your last three posts what was difficult about adjusting to hospital life - I only worked as a nurse aid when I was in HS so that's my only reference point to working in a hospital LOL please excuse my lack of understanding there. Can you come up with a plan - like save as much money as possible now and move out? Even if it's a very small apt or something with just the basics necessities? Would you be happy on your own? Personally, I was never so happy as when I first moved out of my parents house - even though I didn't have anything hardly at all - not even a sofa! I had a card table and 2 chairs, a cedar chest, a mattress and some sheets and towels, some kitchen stuff like pots, pans and dishes, silverware. It was great. No TV, either! Then I got a roommate and that wasn't so good, either. I did better on my own - sanity wise! I'm so sorry your family is not there for you. It kind of sounds like everyone has their own agenda around your house. I read in your post a few days ago where you said you were feeling "needy". That's a bad feeling. I hope things are better soon. Come back and post tonight so we can see how you are doing later. Take some deep breath and say - this too shall pass. It will, you know. Love, hollybelle


Donkey on 10/06/2008:
I don't think I could say it better than HB (see above). Everything she said, including wanting clarification on the job/school/hospital.

I just wanted to let you know that I read your post, feel your pain and want to send you all the support in the world. I'm so very sorry. I hope you are feeling better today...

We gotta get you outta that house!



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