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Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Feb 02, 2008

Weight: 0.0

saturday night i had some sugar free candies...too many. i paid for it because i was in the bathroom ALL night!

saturday: 3700 cal. could be worse? lol. my goal is to NOT binge for the rest of the school year...and then never after that! a binge means eating more food than i make for myself, going back for seconds, etc. As long as I eat a portion and move on, I haven't binged.

tomorrow i have class...then yoga if i get out in time. otherwise, I'm taking a walk at the park.

today's exercise was kinda different. I walked with my grandmother and a slightly slow pace, but not really slow at all. so, i'm counting the hour we walked as one hour.

total exercise in feb: 1.5 hours. ok.

tomorrow is my test and i still have some studying to do. Based on how this test goes, i'll know what this teacher expects for the rest of the semester.

I am feeling better now and I do not see a need to binge again. It was a bad four days, since Wednesday, but they have passed and I'm looking foward to the future. :) Sometimes the idea of uncertainty of the future, my current lack of luster job, and just my current state really get me "down in the dumps," as a 2nd grader said to his friend the other day on the playground. haha, i thought it was so funny. anyway, i'm better, i'm stronger...i'm ready.

fyi, i got the results of how i did on one of the two entrance exams i took. I'm applying to four programs...and 3 exams were necessary. I got a 92 on the math, 96 on the reading, and a whopping 79 on the science. I laughed when i read the science score bc i knew i didn't do that well. Good thing is, it's the total average of the three parts that matters. I was invited back to observe there which means all is good! I also have an interview coming up later in February. Everything is so up in the air, I cannot wait till there is some certainty...then I will think about a job for the summer.

thinnsidenotout on 02/02/2008:
So glad to hear you are feeling better and your "binge fringe" is over for now.... relief came in getting the exam results as well.....hand in hand maybe! HAVE A GREAT rest of your weekend!


workingit2 on 02/02/2008:
Good job today! Glad you are feeling better and more like your real self =)


shadetree on 02/03/2008:
I can't eat a lot of SF foods - I went through a pack of gum in one day once and it was HORRIBLE...so I still carry around SF mints, but limit myself.

Good luck on your exam today, you'll do fine. an 89 average on the entrance exams is fantastic! Congrats!


hollybelle on 02/03/2008:
Personnally I thing all those grades are good. Average is even better. Congratulations.


mmuraro on 02/03/2008:
Harder better faster stronger! :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Feb 01, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Saturday. 3,000 so far. 10:20am

as for exercise, i haven't done much for an entire week! I'm not doing yoga today - too little time and i don't want to feel rushed. My plan is to resume yoga after tomorrow's class and test. Then, I have a promise with myself to commit to yoga 5X a week or more.

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Friday:

3000 cals today. Could have been 1500 but i binged in both the morning and evening. evening calories included some ice cream/nuts/peanut butter/cookies...and boy do I want some more...

30 min exercise.

borntocry on 02/01/2008:
HoP, do what I've been doing and start weighing yourself every night before you go to bed. You may have to be scared into breaking this habit...


mmuraro on 02/01/2008:
I agree. You'll want to stop when you see the weight go up. But more important than the weight, it's that binging is self destructive and you need to be good to yourself. Have one portion of ice cream if you want to. Slowly. And enjoy it. Or a couple of cookies.


thinnsidenotout on 02/01/2008:
Hang in there.....You've done it before and you CAN do it again.... Good Luck!


shadetree on 02/02/2008:
You don't want to go to yoga because you are concerned about your energy levels/ability to study after. Personally, when I eat a lot, I've got absolutely no energy, and I would assume is the same with you...So you aren't going to yoga and you are still taxing your energy levels by consuming excessive quantities...I know logic does not usually factor into our decision, but I just felt like I needed to point out how illogical this is. (Which I know you are intelligent enough to already know this...sometimes someone saying it out loud helps us admit it...) How are things with your parents/your sister? anything going on with the dating scene? Just trying to get a sense if it is the stress from school triggering this or if perhaps there are other issues pushing you over the edge...How much water are you drinking daily? Just another thought...

Have a good visit with your grandmother today. Eat the candies SLOWLY throughout the day...remember how much better it is when you eat SLOWLY and give your body a chance to tell you 'enough already'...You can do this!


workingit2 on 02/02/2008:
Congrats on a start to a great day!


so_devine on 02/02/2008:
thats a great idea to buy low calorie hard boil sweets to chew on through out the day. i will try that and get back to you on this. :-D

their is another thing you can try i do this, buy chewing gum and when you feel the need to eat something pop a chewing gum in your mouth then you wont want the erge to eat inbetween meals/ snacks.


mcwoo40 on 02/02/2008:
Have a great Saturday,Julie.


shadetree on 02/02/2008:
What's going on HoP?


borntocry on 02/02/2008:
Can't you get out of the house? Go to a library to study? That's what I used to do at university - we could never study in our rooms. You'll get more work done with less distractions and far less calories.


Donkey on 02/02/2008:
Are you taking Anatomy & Physiology? Let me tell you right now, resolve to have no free time whatsoever. That class is a killer. LOTS of memorization. TONS of info to process and remember. It's an icky class. A lot of pre-nursing students have to take it, so this is one of those classes that weeds out the weak from the strong, the dedicated to those who just want a fat paycheck.

So keep this in mind, don't fly off the handle with bingeing, or you will spend the whole semester eating. It's just a very hard hurdle to overcome.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 31, 2008

Weight: 0.0

today's binge and calories = 3600 if i totaled it right. yesterday was 4300. i'm not doing well right now. i will do better. I will not restrict very much tomorrow or i will defitely binge.

i'm definitely stuffed and hurting...

this may be too much to think about, but if i even eat 1500 per day for only 5 days, but daily total would average 2200 for a week. that's not even terrible. ouch, my stomach hurts.

i was sweating all night last night from everything inside of me...i'll be doing that tonight as well. Why don't i just go to yoga instead of eating? I feel like if i go to yoga, i'll have no energy left to study. boy, i need to CALM DOWN!

workingit2 on 01/31/2008:
R E L A X

This is just something you go through once in a while. It is a normal pattern for you. Don't worry today about counting how many 1500 calorie days you need in order to correct your binges. You had the binges...those days are done...just try and start over again tomorrow and don't twist those binge days into your other non-binge days. Take care of yourself.


borntocry on 01/31/2008:
That sweating thing happens to me too after a binge... terrible. I used to eat a lot whenever I had to study for an exam or something at college. At some point I switched to drinking lots of coffee instead, and that helped a lot. I know it isn't the healthiest solution but you could try decaf, herbal tea, something to keep you occupied and fill you up a little without adding calories...


maria777 on 01/31/2008:
It sounds like you are definitely STRESSED about something...wanna share? We are all here for you!


thinnsidenotout on 01/31/2008:
How much are you trying to lose? That really will tell. Plus are you getting the right nutrients/vitamins? Sometimes our body craves what we are lacking and it isn't all just wanting something to eat, just for eating sake or stress.. You mention what you WILL DO (i.e. binge), but try telling yourself what you WON'T DO....Weight loss has got to be done in a healthy fashion, in order for it to behoove oneself... That is why most of us are trying to lose the weight-to be healthy...Good Luck to you in whatever it is your going through. I am not wanting to seem preachy, but have seen that you are suffering, for some reason or another... Much granted success!


CritterMom on 02/01/2008:
What are you studying? Big test? Something very critical that you need to do well on? Your brain will work better if you are giving it PROPER nutrients...so start digging down deep and making yourself eat what your body actually needs to have, NOT what it WANTS to have. You do have control over this, you just have to smack that hand as it reaches for the wrong thing and say "NO! I won't do this to myself this time." Then grab an apple to munch on while you're studying.

I know, you're rolling your eyes at me right now, but honestly, this is what I do. Yesterday, I REALLY wanted some chocolate and knew that there was some on a kitchen shelf (hubby brought me a "treat"...yeah, thanks a lot!). As I was reaching up to the shelf, I stopped myself and said "NO. You are NOT doing that. Not after all the darn exercise and effort you've put into this week. NO!" I managed to walk away from it, and took the dogs for a walk, instead.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jan 30, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Thursday entry: so this morning didn't go that well. I indulged in a sugary yogurt, canned fruit, and LOTS of nuts and peanut butter. I hope I calculated right because I think i either forgot to add in one more serving of nuts of peanut butter. I guess it really doesn't matter that much anyway. total calories throughout my day until work ends will be 1700. My goal for total calories today is 2100 or 2200. This is possible but I feel like having a goal sets me up for more binging later after work.

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39 hours, 10 minutes is my final January 2008 exercise. I didn't reach 40 due to binging and bad planning.

Wednesday entry:

after all my talk of not binging anymore, i did just that. meaning, i woke up at 3am because of worrying, had a stressful day, came home and binged. approx. calories: 4300.

i actually feel sick right now. my stomach is full. done. i can only hope to not binge for awhile now - meaning for a couple weeks. Lack of sleep and stress about the class i'm taking is what contributed to this nasty binge.

some items included: 2 huge brownies, cookies, tons of ice cream, peanut butter, potato knish, frankfuters...etc.

25min walk in AM.

perhaps another short walk later. no yoga.

i haven't been commenting...i don't feel up to it right now.

I will repeat what i have written recently, saying binging is not the same anymore, neither is the desired effects a binge produces. I feel bad and its not worth the calories. I must say, the food didn't even taste very good! There are too many temptations in my house. (I don't buy them and its not up to me to tell anyone what to buy nor do i want to.)

mmuraro on 01/30/2008:
Sorry about your day. Stress is a killer. On the other hand, when I binge like that, I always feel sick and don't want to do that for a while. Try to remember how it feels now, that will help you avoid it later. On the other hand you have been doing good in the past days. Get back on track, and if you're stressed out right now, do what you can to feel better, you can always diet tomorrow. Chin up, girl.


workingit2 on 01/30/2008:
I know exactly how you feel, especially AFTER the binge. Don't beat yourself up, you have been doing really well and I gues that sometimes it is part of our makeup to have a day where we eat out of stress, especially if that is what our bodies and mind have been trained to do! Take care of yourself and stop thinking those negative thoughts about yourself!! =)


maria777 on 01/30/2008:
Well, I guess you don't feel like commenting right now, but that's okay. You'll get back on track. I've had my food-binges...many of them...but the good thing is YOU CAN ALWAYS GET BACK ON TRACK!!! Lots of love sent your way!


shadetree on 01/30/2008:
Don't you have a masters? If you made it this far, you really shouldn't stress so much about this class. I know (not from experience, but from the conversations of others) that it may be tough, there is a LOT to learn, but hey, my mother took it - never having a college course in her life - when she was turning 50 (going for her EMT certification) and she ended up doing very well. You can do this....


shadetree on 01/30/2008:
Okay - even if you don't want to know...you commented so I'm going to tell you my theory on the frost INSIDE the windows...Okay, you get ice built up on the windshield and windows. Now, if it is WARM inside the car - there are times where condensation will form on the inside of the glass - like ice in a drinking glass, the water forms on the outside, just reverse it. Then the temp drops so rapidly that it freezes on the inside of the windows - and VOILA! frost inside the windows! That's my theory - I;m sure if I'm way off someone will let me know, but it makes sense to me!


borntocry on 01/31/2008:
Me too. I also think it's partly because of stress, only now I am even more stressed out and depressed because of this. I have also noticed that the food doesn't even taste good any more. It's just not worth it. I wish we could put an end to this horrible behaviour once and for all. Or at least a couple of weeks, as you say!! Do you think we should each try to see how long we can go without bingeing?


caz on 01/31/2008:
Just remember we are all here for support..So if you need a shoulder you know where we are.. Be kind to yourself and take it one day at a time.. Good luck.


workingit2 on 01/31/2008:
I know how hard it is to get back on track after a rough day. Don't sweat it, just relax and know that this will pass..you ARE doing so much better even if you don't remember that right now =)


thinnsidenotout on 01/31/2008:
ONE Day at a time, as someone else said...maybe getting yourself a daily menu in order, either first thing in the morning or the night before..It sure does help.... check in with you later...


mcwoo40 on 01/31/2008:
Hope you are having a better day today,Julie


mmuraro on 01/31/2008:
That happens to the best of us! Instead of trying to restrict too much to compensate the past few days, just start eating well and healthy from now on and forget about the past. Hope you sleep better tonight!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jan 29, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Tuesday entry: I'm glad I did a 25 min walk this morning. I have unfortunately cancelled volunteering today. It was a long day and I need to study. It is WAY more important for me to do well in a class than rack up volunteer hours. I have decided that on my week off I can make up for the days I miss when I am working. I will volunteer 2 or 3 days inside of only 1 day on my vacation on February. After volunteering, the last thing a person wants to do is come home and study! I'm not even going to yoga tonight. I'm going to try to fit it in on Wednesday and probably not go on Thursday since I already have to stay at school an extra hour to provide extra help. I have been bingy...but healthy bingy all afternoon. calories so far are 1320 and I have just decided to give myself a break from the diet right now. I'm heading downstairs for one more handful of almonds making today's grand total of almonds reach 3.5 servings! whoa, a lot, but that's basically where i get all my fats.

calories so far: 1600.

exercise: 25 min and no more.

total exercise:38hrs, 45 min.

workingit2 on 01/29/2008:
Have a great evening and a wonderful Wednesday!


maria777 on 01/29/2008:
Congrats on your 25 min walk! Your cals look great at 1600. I love almonds, too...as a matter of fact, they are my favs when it comes to nuts!


fritters on 01/30/2008:
At least you are binging on a healthy food. You are very busy. Take time to do nothing for a while!! Happy Wednesday


thinnsidenotout on 01/30/2008:
Have a Super Wednesday!


mcwoo40 on 01/30/2008:
Hiya,I love almonds when they are covered in chocolate!!But not these days as i am a 'good girl'I do like salted cashew nuts too,the salt aint good for you though is it.Take care,Julie



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jan 28, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Monday entry:

As i sit here, I stuff my face. Definitely bingy...it's ok. The good thing, it's low cal, mostly healthy food. I planned on going to yoga today but have reconsidered and I am taking the night off from yoga. I didn't study last night....and i need to tonight. I have LOTS to memorize and I must start now, or at least tonight.

OK, time to study... :)

30 min exercise.

2150 cal.

total exercise: 38hrs, 20 min :)

Tomorrow is volunteering after work...then I plan on studying - no yoga. I will exercise in the AM again, like today, so that I do NOT have to exercise after work and I can just veg with index cards and the tv. That is my plan for tomorrow, nothing else. :)

thinnsidenotout on 01/28/2008:
Get some rest, so you can have a refreshed mind to memorize what you need to. Good Luck!


fritters on 01/28/2008:
Sounds like a good plan! Study hard :~)


CritterMom on 01/29/2008:
Get that studying done...most important! Once in a while you need a break from the exercise, or do a different sort to mix it up a bit. Play some music and just dance to a song or two to get that heart rate up, then go back to studying.


caz on 01/29/2008:
Have a fab day, and good luck with the studies.


mcwoo40 on 01/29/2008:
Hiya,Glad it was all healthy stuffs you where eating which is half the battle.I'm going to have a couple of days off from the gym a week as i will start to get fed up.I've started to plan different walks where i can take Alfie as i was getting fed up with the beach,but it is so peaceful there.Hope you are not brain dead with all that studying.I would'nt be able to study here as there is too much noise for you to consentrate hope you don't have this problem,be good,Julie


TheMother on 01/29/2008:
It's so nice that even though you have a full schedule, you still find time to volunteer. What type of volunteer work is it? Good luck with the studying and memorizing. I remember those days all too well (and it was quite a few years ago - ha!). Take care. TM



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jan 27, 2008

Weight: 0.0

I was looking over the past 30 days...SEVEN of them were binges, or eating over 2,000! wow! that's a lot! I didn't realize I was doing it so often! This amounts to almost twice a week...no wonder i don't see much progess as of yet! Time to suck it up and try harder!

exercise: 1hr, 50min

total exercise: 37hrs, 50min hours! yay for definitely breaking 40 by the end of this month! :)

calories: 1650. I was planning for lower but ended up having an apple and a banana after dinner with some parkay spray butter, cinnamon, and peanut spread. so, calories went up a bit. still healthy...and i did do yoga. I felt i needed the carbs! :)

My class in Anatomy and Physiology went well today. There are many people in the class with prior knowledge, though. So, I have a lot of work in store for me! That's ok. The class ended so early that I was able to have a nice lunch and go to yoga at 3pm! I'm so glad I went despite being tired.

For some reason, I have been exhausted all weekend. I think I may have been dehydrated from the hot yoga. drinking black tea probably didn't help. Also, I missed a lot of sleep since last week. All these factors probably contributed to my energy levels.

On another note, I am proud of myself for staying under 2000 and not having any massive issues with calories, especially during the weekend. I do better when I have things to do, for sure! I am looking foward to a continued success in my weightloss throughout the spring.

Goodnight everyone.

shadetree on 01/27/2008:
Glad your class went well! And nice to see you went to yoga despite...A good day all around! Good night!


maria777 on 01/27/2008:
Ohhhh, so happy for you on your calories and your 1 hr 50 min ex! YAY!!! to you!!! Hope you get some rest and FEEL BETTER! Big happy smile to you!


workingit2 on 01/27/2008:
Great job HOP! Reading your diary really fuels my itch to return to school and learn something new. It takes guts to switch gears and go for it the way you are...how powerful! Have a great night and rest well!


fritters on 01/27/2008:
Your calories have been great, and you are fantastic when it comes to getting in your exercise! I am glad that your class went well. I have never heard of a college class on Sunday!


timeforachange on 01/27/2008:
Sounds like you had a good day! Don't be discouraged about the binges..you are still doing awesome! Hope you get your energy back and continue doing well! Have a great week =)


leeumom on 01/27/2008:
Great exercise time. Sounds like you might be dehydrate, Nice that you recognize it. Keep it up!


hollybelle on 01/28/2008:
Good to hear your excited about your classes. About the people with "prior knowledge" - maybe you will find someone to be a "study-buddy" with....who knows, maybe even a cute guy???? I don't know why I'm having such romantic notions on Monday morning!! Just crazy I guess. Hope your tiredness abates and you have a wonderful week.


mcwoo40 on 01/28/2008:
Hiya,Hope you've had a great weekend.The answer to your question.I've had sweet potato once.I had it baked,it was ok i may even try it again.When i do boiled potatoes i normally leave the skins on even when i mash them to get more fibre,only cos I'm lazy and can't be bothered peeling them!!!I adore jacket potato and baked beans with coleslaw yum.here's to another great week from us,take care Julie


caz on 01/28/2008:
Your classes sound interesting, and sounds like you enjoy them. Well done on keeping good tabs on your calories..keep it up.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jan 26, 2008

Weight: 0.0

sunday afternoon edit:

yesterday ended ok afterall! 1960 cal. yay for not messing with my progress! :) Today will be good because I am determined. I am also VERY tired. I've been really tired all weekend. Last week kinda messed up my sleep patterns. It's ok...I'll figure it out.

My class got out about 2 hours early today...so YOGA HERE I COME! yay! I am going to try to take a short nap before yoga. I wouldn't be able to take this yoga class if i didn't get out early from anatomy and physiology! yay.

I've had an extra large apple, kombucha tea, 2.5 servings almonds, and a mcdonalds asian chicken salad. total cal so far: 850 that's good.

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saturday evening entry:

not a great day. i was snacking all morning, no exercise. I did go visit my grandmother and go on a walk with her but i can't count that bc it was part of my daily routine.

i ate really bad stuff around noon. I had a whole potato knish (basically oily dough on outside with potato inside) and part of another knish. I also had some peanut butter and an english muffin and many almonds. oh well. not a day for the books, but also not a monstrously bad day either.

tomorrow is my first class in anatomy and physiology...haha, and i thought that after my master's i'd be done with school for awhile! lol. the class is from 8:40am until 3pm. Supposedly, there's only a 20 min break. hopefully, we get more...

i need to up my cardio.

total calories: 1960...but I may have to have a snack...and the snack i want will bring my total to 2120 if i do indulge. If i didn't poorly eat this afternoon, i'd be better with calories now. live and learn!

exercise: none. took a break.

mmuraro on 01/26/2008:
1950 is not bad at all! and you dont seem like you have that much to lose, so just keep up! :)


mcwoo40 on 01/27/2008:
Hiya,come on you where doing so well.Take yesterday as your 'day off'.You have a busy day today so less time to eat.Hope all that pen pushing does'nt tire you out!! Bye Julie


maria777 on 01/27/2008:
That sounds so sweet, your visit and walk with your Grandmother...I miss mine, she is gone now. Your menu for today sounds fantastic!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jan 25, 2008

Weight: 0.0

something weird happened to me this week. I did yoga most days and ate well, but i found my body actually bloated last night and this morning. Not bloated from food, either. Actually a bit swollen in the abdomin and thighs! Strange water gain. Maybe I have been having more salt than i realize? Its not TOM, either!

the day is done. I did go to yoga and I'm glad i went bc i love this particular teacher and she spent major time on me!!! I was standing right next to her, so it was really a great experience.

total exercise: 1hr, 30 min.

total ex: 36 hrs. A definitely at least 40 hours this month. Most were from yoga, not cardio, though. I think cardio is really, really important and a goal for February is to work on getting a least a minimal amount of cardio 4x a week. Minimal means 1/2 hour a day, 4 days a week. I have totally slacked on cardio this month!

total cal: 1310. I keep wanting more, but I keep telling myself that I'm VERY tired and i should just go to sleep bc i probably would have the ability to sleep for a long time and not wake up do to hunger in the middle of the night. Sometimes, when i don't eat enough, I will wake up in the middle of the night really hungry. However, i am not hungry now, but i am REALLY tired. I always mistake being hungry for really being tired.

long day...i can't wait for sleep! :)

CharlieAngel on 01/25/2008:
Vince recently started me on yoga too! I must say I really did not expect how effective it is. I'm intriqued enough that I want to spend more time researching and doing yoga and meditation. Hope you have a successful night and get some good sleep. Since I have the inclination to be a night owl but have responsibilities of the early bird...I too, crave sleep. Sweetest Dreams!


mylifechanges on 01/25/2008:
great job on yoga! I'm glad you've found an instructor who's taken on the initiative of pouring into you! good job on cals too! you're doing great- now go get some sleep and let your body rest! :)


mylifechanges on 01/25/2008:
p.s. I agree with you on water intake- every time I make my morning/evening tea, I think I'm getting in more water too!! :)


geevee on 01/25/2008:
Don't downplay the importance of yoga. I'm telling you, it's like the magic elixer of exercise. Doing yoga is doing a complete exercise. I don't think you need anything else. And there's nothing better than having a yoga instructor that you like.


workingit2 on 01/26/2008:
I hope you had a nice, relaxing and restful evening!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 24, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Friday afternoon 5pm edit: it's been a long day and i'm very tired. I am going to go to yoga, though, because I do not think it could possibly take any more energy of of me than is already taken out.

I was dehydrated this morning and my mouth was really sticky and white along my lips. I didn't realize until i looked in the mirror. I immediately drank a ton of water after that. I think its because i went to yoga last night and didn't rehydrate enough afterwards.

i will comment on your journals tonight! :) Enjoy your evenings.

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late Thursday night edit: 1520 calories. very good day. goodnight, I am soo tired!

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5:20pm edit: NO binge today. yes!!! I am a tad tired, though. I've been up since about 3am! I will go to yoga. calories are 1290...My goal is to stay in the 1500s. Very doable! :)

yoga time....

Funny story, I decided to walk to the test today. It's only a mile away! My sister usually uses my car anyway, so I took the walk. It was a bit cold...around 27 degrees...but an overall good walk! Then, I walked back, had a snack and went to work for a 1/2 day.

exercise will be 2hrs, 10 min. :) yay.

total exercise: 34hrs, 30 min :)

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Today is my last entrance exam for another radiography program. It starts at 9 only a few blocks away from my house. The test is about 3 hours, so I called in for a 1/2 sick day at work.

I woke up MAD early, as usual when I things on my mind. Obviously, what's on my mind today is the test! How early, you ask? 3am. I layed in bed, tossing and turning until 4:30 when I couldn't take it any longer. Since then, now its 5:50, I have had a large apple and 3 extra extra large cups of tea with milk and sweet and low. (200 cal total) I do not want to binge before my test...and I will not. I think I may go back to sleep for an hour now.

I haven't had a good walking plan in the morning for a couple of weeks now. I may get back into it starting tomorrow with no less than a 1/2 hour walk in the AM. I'm getting lazy and caring more about calories than cardio exercise i think. When I do not exercise in the morning, I believe its easier to keep calories low during the school day bc I don't need as much fuel.

I definitely DON'T want to miss yoga tonight at 6:30 due to being tired. I will not give into temptation to binge or miss yoga! But, I think I will make an effort to get to bed really early...even 9pm or earlier if I am that wiped out from no sleep! :)

borntocry on 01/24/2008:
Wow, that really is mad early. That's about the time I went to sleep last night!

I feel like I have to make the same trade-off between calories and cardio. If I go running on my lunch break, then I pretty much have to eat something quite substantial afterwards, whereas if I don't do any exercise I can go the whole day without eating. But then by the time I leave work I don't have much energy and am more likely to blow off any plans for an evening exercise session. I don't know what the solution is. These days I'm concentrating on the exercise but after a high-calorie day I tend to concentrate more on the calories.

Chances are you're going to be really tired this evening so you might have to rely on tea/coffee to keep yourself going. Good luck with the exam!


workingit2 on 01/24/2008:
Little by little you are learning all the pieces of the puzzle that trigger your binges and you are getting them in better control..good for you!! Good luck on the exam!!


fritters on 01/24/2008:
4:30 is a horrible time to get up (but that is when my alarm goes of)! I hope you gat enough rest to beable to do your best on your test. You should be ready to crash early- sleep instead of binging!! You sound like you are really figuring yourself out. That is so good. Good luck today!


fritters on 01/24/2008:
I have been reading through diaries and the comments that were left, and I have to tell you, I love reading what you write. You have such good insight and good information AND good since of humor! It is always fun to read what you write to the other D.D. writters!!


thinnsidenotout on 01/24/2008:
Funny..A Lot of people up early this morning...I was up @ 2:45..My husband got called to work. He is a orchard wind machine mechanic and with the single digit temps here, he has to work on anything that breaks down ,when it breaks down..I tossed and turned for about an hour before being able to get about an hours sleep and then had to wake the son up @ 5:45 to get ready for school.. This is going to be a long day!!! Hoping you did great on your test. Get some rest!


dearerdiarist on 01/24/2008:
I hope by some miracle that your day got better as it progressed. No sleep before a big day... Way Baaaaaad. You are a trooper, talking about Yoga tonight. I would SO be crawling home to sleep. I hope that the test goes well for you..... sitting here with fingers crossed :)


mcwoo40 on 01/24/2008:
Hiya,I guess i am feeling happier in myself maybe cos i'm doing something about my weight.I just wanted to get my birthday over with so i could start it properly plus i think it was at the back of my mind that i was my 40th and it seemed old.Anyway they say 'life begins at 40'so I'm ready and waiting.Hope you catch up on your sleep aswell,Julie


shadetree on 01/24/2008:
YAY!!!!!!!!!!! What a good day despite the early rise! Maybe you need to get up early every day! :) Enjoy yoga and then get some sleep!


workingit2 on 01/24/2008:
Congrats on the great walk to and from the test and on the no binge! Keep up the great work!


Donkey on 01/24/2008:
Good luck! Let us know how you do!!!!



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