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Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Feb 04, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

breakfast: protein bar (bad choice, left me without energy) 200

snacks: drinks: 170

lunch: subway: 500

snacks: protein bar 240, ice cream 600, jello 60, celery 40

total so far: 1810

after gym food: egg whites prepared like an omelette, veggies. 300 or so.

total: around 2150. good day.

i kinda planned to have all the ice cream and other stuff too. not counting it as a binge.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/04/2009:
What's with the ice cream, Horn? Who do you think you are -- Donkey?


mama_nurse on 02/04/2009:
Yummmm, ice cream! Which cell-nique flavors are your favorite??? I'm going to busy some but wondering what you like best.....let me know if you get a chance, thanks! have a good day!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Feb 03, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

breakfast: apple 80

snacks: 230

lunch: lg coffee, pretzel: 450

SNACKING: edamame 300, ice cream 600, popcorn 250, soup 300, celery 40, strawberries 50.

total: 2300.  maybe 30 minute stroll on treadmill.

running low on sleep.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

WI3 on 02/03/2009:
awww GET SOME REST!!! hope you are doing ok =)


Genesis on 02/03/2009:
HOpe you get caught up on sleep and that things are going okay for you!!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Feb 02, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

breakfast drink 90

snack: apple, drink: 160

lunch: subway: 350

snacks: edamame, light ice cream: 500

more ice cream 200

dinner: will be veggies and light egg omelette and more veggies probably.

total: 1700.

exercise: none. tired out...needed to study. well, did a little. but i don't want to go to bed too late tonight bc i want to have a good week ahead.

ahhh. and the crazy phone call i had tonight with someone asking me to play in their group - a band - might just make me REALLY ill. you don't even want to know...as i was writing this, she called. and now i'm kinda annoyed. ugh.

changing careers is the hardest thing on earth. especially when nothing has gone right.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

Genesis on 02/02/2009:
Great job on the menu today, very yummy!! Good luck with studying!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Feb 01, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

breakfast: protein drink 90

snack: package edamame, drink: 400

lunch: bagel, egg, cheese, coffee 560

snacks: 170

dinner: pizza, salad, 2 skinny cow ice creams 700

total: 1930. ok. lol. better.

i have GOT to change my ways. on an interesting note, already 1/12 of the year has passed! that's a lot. so i have 11 months left of this year. boy time flies. for february, my goal is not to binge (by binge i really mean eat over 2,000 cal) any day. also, i'm going to make a big goal for myself for this month.

my february goals: 

 eat 1500 cal per day or less. every day for one month.  exercise daily - even if it's only 20 minutes. no days off.  get more sleep - be in bed by 9:30 or 10. try it and see how it goes.  stress less about school, procrastinate less! :)

exercise: one hour elliptical at gym.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

grumpy on 02/01/2009:
Sounds like a good challenge! Try that! xo


mama_nurse on 02/01/2009:
Good goals, best of luck:) Happy Sunday*


starfish on 02/01/2009:
Happy Feb 1st HOP :-) And good luck on your goals!


Maria* on 02/01/2009:
FANTASTIC GOALS!!! Big smile to you!


loveray on 02/01/2009:
i love the goals you have here- i can feel the vibe on DD that february is going to be a VERY transformative month. xoxo


thinnside40 on 02/01/2009:
Much better numbers!!!!!! Here is to a successful & pleasurable month..... it is only 28 days long....



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jan 31, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

horrible day full of binging on everything good and lack of exercise.

all is good. at least i accomplished some important things at home. but, if i wanted to, i didn't have to do much of any work today. my new years plans went straight out the window started last week and i realize i need to redirect my desires if i want to be successful.

exercise tomorrow morning. perhaps even 1.5 hours straight on the elliptical. it'll be at least one hour for sure.

donkey was right when she told me to be careful. i should have taken her advice. ha.

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Saturday entry:

breakfast: grapefruit, pizza, bag of quaker mini chocolate rice cakes. total: 1,000 was tasty. feeling good right now. not wanting to binge on anything else.

BINGING all day.

went to bed late last night around 2pm. was filling out scholarship applications. hopefully i really will get at least one this year. i could use the extra cash. 

no yoga as it would be painful. maybe a walk in the park. i actually just want to study...easy stuff though. yeah.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

starfish on 01/31/2009:
Have a great Saturday HOP!


WI3 on 01/31/2009:
PLAN YOUR MEALS!!! Even if you have to take some time on the weekend to make yourself a weekly meal plan, and then stay up an extra 20 minutes each night putting it together for the next day. Leaving it to happenstance is a downfall MOST of us have around here, and it can be very emotional to be unprepared in the face of stress..and then we gorge ourselves because we feel we have failed! It is normal, human behavior! Planning meals helps us get it into our head that this is what we are going to eat for the day, and then we tend not to wander around so much in our head trying to figure something out as we go. I would bet money that if you organized your meals and made yourself a weekly plan, you would find the weight melting off and you would feel awesome because YOU are in control. At least, that's what works for me.

Take care and have a great day! I truly hope you get the scholarships!


Donkey on 01/31/2009:
Be careful...


mama_nurse on 01/31/2009:
Thanks, I had a good day and hope you did too (even though you had a down fall, doesn't make you a failure....you are worth this and can do it!!) we all fall down at times, it's getting back up and pushing forward that matters most! hugs to you**


selina on 02/01/2009:
Hey HoP, yesterday I felt I was going to eat ALL AFTERNOON, if I had stayed home. So, I forced myself to go out for my walk delivering the invites - it worked for me, it broke the chain of eating non stop. I didn't even changed myself into my exercise clothes because I felt I wouldn't go if I had to get changed. So, I just went as I was dressed already - my dressy slacks and pretty blouse, my nice winter coat and a pair of very comfortable pair of dress shoes which turned out to be good for walking. I felt it doesn't matter how you are dressed, what matters is that you just go out for some activity to brake the chain of eating... sorry, TMI from my part... I just wanted to say that perhaps just getting out of the house, where the food is plenty, is helpful to avoid binges. And the exercise you get from walking is just a bonus. I wish you a very good Sunday, hugs!


Genesis on 02/01/2009:
Sorry to hear about today!!<HUG> I agree with W13, meal planning is a must (advice i need to follow). Good luck wiht your scholarships and studying!!!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jan 31, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

well, since i binged like a crazy person all week, i have now binged a total of 9 times this month. that really brings up the percentag of binge days.  I've binged a total of about 1/3 or 33% of the month. eww. one our of every 3 days was a binge which is pretty bad.

the only goal i have for myself is the same goal i always have: love the gym more than food. don't go back for more after a snack. i am not worried. i'll succeed. although time is falling short. and i'm getting fat.

Friday entry:

yes i did awesome during the day.

yes i binged horribly in the evening. and weird thing is i don't even care right now. only thing i am thinking about is having a good day tomorrow.

so stressed out. but really no reason to be. this week and last week included LOTS of tests.  next week should be ok.

i didn't calculate calories but it has to be around 4500 at least.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 29, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

breakfast: yogurt w. pumpkin and pupmkin butter (very sugary but its in my house and i love it), cinnamon, 2 rice cakes: 250

lunch: pretzel, coffee 400

i did great but did end of in a sorta binge today. i will add up what happened after work...cellnique 90, flatbread 300, popcorn 250, yogurt w. p putter and pumpkin 170, 3 servings chips 450, microwave veggies 125, cucumber 60, 2 pieces buttered toast w. some cheese 400, whole bag of these chocolate/caramel coated mini rice cakes (7 servings) 420...cereal w. milk 240: total:

3100 approximate. great job. not really actually. i have a big test tomorrow which may be part of my reason for binging. of course not a good reason....

tons of dried fruit. more bread w. butter.

4500 total.

haha. at this rate i can gain 20 lbs come April!

just kidding. i'm on top of things...totally. rough week this week. no reason to binge though. tomorrow we have a bagel breakfast.

i am happy though at how i exercised most days this week. at least i stayed on top of that.

summer will be awesome but i need to be in shape BEFORE it, way before it, to enjoy it. it's not too late in the least.

i have been having progress, then backsliding.  this whole year i've noticed that i do well, then go back, do well, go back. kinda depending on the type of week it is at school. if we have WAY many tests, i can almost predict diet failure. i know it doesn't have to be that way.

today i woke up an hour early and got to school over an hour early so i could easily find a spot and study. maybe this is what did it. i really don't know.

i don't even feel stressed right now. but that's because i'm on another carb overload. hmmm. i guess i'll have a good workout tomorrow thanks to all the carbs. i doubt i'll exercise tonight.

goodnight all.

i probably weigh 140. without bloating. very high for someone slightly under 5'2".

 

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

loveray on 01/29/2009:
good luck for the remainder of the week! love you


selina on 01/29/2009:
Have a good day, HoP!


skinnyfatgirl on 01/29/2009:
what do you mean you eat pupmkin?

how.. I have never tried this


thinnside40 on 01/29/2009:
Things look like they are going pretty good... I haven't been so good about commenting this week myself.. So much going on, but to at least come and post/read/comment when possible is a hilight of my day, regardless of what I'm going through at the moment....

Have a good Thursday!


starfish on 01/29/2009:
Happy Thursday!


mama_nurse on 01/29/2009:
Have a great day :)


Maria* on 01/29/2009:
Yes, we BOTH know what to do.....but 'knowing' and 'doing' are sometimes 2 dif things, huh???? We know we need to EAT LESS and EXERCISE more!!! Smile!!! Have a good nite!


mama_nurse on 01/29/2009:
School can be SOOOO stressful; especially when you are in the medical/healthcare field! Hope you have a better day tomorrow :) hugs


Genesis on 01/29/2009:
I take classes at night so I feel your pain. I took A & P last semester and gained 10 pounds. Don't get stressed about it. You've stayed on topof your exercising and you haven't been eating a lot of junk food, just a lot of healthy food. That's good!! I wish I could tell you how to prevent yourself from binging when school stresses come up, but I haven't quite figured that one out myself. I try to be as prepared as possible so that I don't get blindsided with stuff. But sometimes just the shear volume of work is overwhelming and there's nothing that can be done about that. Take time out for yourself, even if you don't think you can't afford it, it will save you in the long run with less binging episodes, I guarantee it. Hope you have a good weekend to make up for the bad week!!!! Hang in there!!


mcwoo40 on 01/30/2009:
I hope you are doing well with those cals today,stay strong,Julie



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jan 28, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

breakfast: apple, tea. i forgot if i really had an apple or not! it might have just been tea.

snacks: 2 cellniques, large coffee: 220

lunch: hot pretzel, mustard/ketchup, small coffee: around 450

late snack: multigrain soy chips 150

late dinner: beans w. almonds 160, salad and light dressing 100, yogurt w. pumpkin butter and cinnamon 150.  410.

total: 1310...i may have something else...

either way. pretty good day. elliptical for 45 minutes.

goodnight. sorry for lack of comments. i'll catch up on friday.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

mama_nurse on 01/28/2009:
sounds like you had a good day ~ have a good night!


Maria* on 01/28/2009:
Wow...you sure did do REAL FANTASTIC today! Yayyyy! I've got to get back on the wagon...had a binge yesterday :-(


WI3 on 01/28/2009:
Happy for you! Have a great Thursday!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jan 27, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

wed morning:

2 hr snow delay...drinking some laxative tea....sooo bloated. going to the dermatologist later....

so unhappy with myself right now.

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tuesday:

at least 4500 again today.

8 day avg = 2891 calories.

 

sad part, all day i was xraying and flouroscoping gastric bypass patients. i see all the bad and keep doing bad. i'm sick to my stomach. stressed.

 

arg!

better days ahead. i'm sorry to myself today is another crappy one.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

mama_nurse on 01/27/2009:
I'm sorry you had a "crappy" day....Just stay focused :)


starfish on 01/27/2009:
I'm sending you lots of hugs. I know what it's like to struggle with bingeing. It was a horrible cycle I was in from about age 15-24. I'd binge and starve, binge and starve. I still don't have a handle on just eating sensible. I still tend to do "radical" diet plans and then end up quitting after a couple weeks. But I don't have the 4000-5000 calorie binges anymore. I wish I could tell you how to stop it. More self love I think. and do not starve yourself (although I'm not one to talk sometimes! I was fasting near the holidays.) Please be gentle with yourself.


selina on 01/28/2009:
Hi HoP, please take care of yourself. Warm hugs to you.


WI3 on 01/28/2009:
HANG IN THERE! I like Biscotti's suggestion very much. Sometimes when someone else puts together a menu plan for you, it helps. I know, I'm doing it now. I needed the extra pair of eyes and support. Take care of yourself today..the week is almost over!


Donkey on 01/28/2009:
I think you are too hard on yourself. HUGS!


loveray on 01/28/2009:
i hope your day got better, honey. write me soon! xoxo



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jan 26, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 137.0

i watched myself...ate really well all day....

and binged like mad when i got home. at first i had attempted to just have a bag of popcorn and 3 red peppers....but then, the gates opened and there was nothing that could stop me. i had everything i could get my hands on.

at least 4500 calories. sheesh.

so, i've learned, don't try to eat too little after a binge....i've known this from past experiences. perhaps i shouldn't put any pressure on myself to lose weight. because i still haven't succeeded to lose any. if i didn't have to study, weightloss would be so much more simple with little stress once coming home from a full day. oh well.

so, now my avg calories per day, last 7 days, are: 2661

ok, i don't have any major goals this week except to eat around 1500 the next 4 days.

Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

WI3 on 01/26/2009:
HOP, I hate to say it...but stress will always be a factor in all of our lives. It would be lovely if all stress stopped once we walked into the door of our respective homes, but it just finds a way to follow us around lol. While I don't study for classes, I still have three children who are driving me out of my mind..my baby, my daughter, is into some serious trouble right now..very serious trouble. My second oldest, doesn't talk to me. My oldest, has turned his back on me. And that stuff hurts me every day and circulates around and around in my head. And the one source of comfort that I do have, Brian, isn't always what I need, when I need him. And as that relationship evolves, there are also stresses that go with it. In addition, the nature of my job means that I carry responsibility with me 24 hours a day..not to mention other familial, financial and multitude of other worries, stresses, and deadlines. If we wait to be stress free before we lose weight or find a way to get help/control the overeating, we'd all balloon up to 500 pounds in a hurry. Remember when you were working at the school and you were stressed every day? You weren't studying then, but you still had job/life stress. It never goes away, there isn't a perfect balance..but there are days that are far better than others. So instead of defeating yourself by saying 'if I didn't have to study'...realize that the pressure of study is something that is real in your life, and either you have to forgive yourself for indulging as a way to cope with that stress, or come up with a different plan of attack. I will suggest to you as I have to others...take calcium and magnesium together at night. I'm telling you it does something to calm down the mind and help the nervous system. I didn't think it would work either, but it really does.

I'm not bagging on you by any means..and God knows I sure have had my days and have gained back soooooo much weight...but I don't like to see you doing the 'what ifs' when it is something that is a very real part of your life and isn't going away. Even when you get your perfect job, your own place, and a great boyfriend...there will always be something that stresses you out and makes you want to bury that stress in a plate of food. And that is what we are ALL dealing with. So we do know exactly how you feel. And the trick we are all trying to learn is how to not bury it in food.

Have a great evening...and remember, the week is almost over!


skinnyjeans on 01/27/2009:
That's cool you took your averages from the last week..that will help you monitor your intake and make small changes in the right direction. :)


skinnyfatgirl on 01/27/2009:
binge eating is part of an eating disorder..

ever talk to anyone about it?

I have an eating disorder.. so please don't take offense


YepItsMe~ on 01/27/2009:
I too am a MAJOR stress eater so I completely understand~I have to agree with WI too~Stress is something we can never totally escape from..there will always be some form of stress in our lives~the key is dealing with it.

Hang in there~



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