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Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Sep 08, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 129.0

760 cal before dinner.

dinner: 400 cal and a DD jelly donut...gotta look up the cals...300 only hopefully. it was good! even though it was a day old.

total: 1460. not bad...actually 1500.

exercise: 2 mi

shiva/funeral company still going on.

.....

feeling fat and ugly and like i'm going to wake up with horrible pimples on my chin bc of stress and lack of sleep. don't want to ever binge again. (i didn't today but realize that i have done it soooo often this summer that i just don't want to have to think about it anymore!)

Progress as of today: -4 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!

WI3 on 09/08/2008:
I am so sorry to read of your grandfather's passing and your grandmother's heart ache :(

Take care of yourself.


loveray on 09/08/2008:
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!! XOXOXOO


thinnside40 on 09/08/2008:
Sounds like a lot going on, but looks like you are doing good....

Have a good evening!


Jen40 on 09/08/2008:
Sending soothing thoughts your way tonight, I hope you get some well needed rest.


lafemme_loca on 09/08/2008:
*HUGS* I hope you can have some rest and that you are able to stay strong and not turn towards food during stressful times. I have been thinking of you.


anewhb on 09/09/2008:
ope you got some sleep. If finding sleep difficult now - may consider ONE Tylenol P.M. or similar medicine. I use it from time to time and one does not make me drowsy in the a.m. Good calories - hang in there.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Sep 07, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 129.0

last day before my class starts. i'm supposed to read another chapter in a different textbook. will have to do it MUCH later. I really want to get enough sleep tonight! i have to be waiting for the shuttle to the hospital at 7am.

breakfast/snack: vitamin water 80

late breakfast: starbucks vivanno: 270

lunch: deli: 500?

dinner: TONS of Turkey and health salad. no idea: guessing 800 total: 1650. very ok...and fruit: 1750?

a little antsy bc i just wanted to get ready for this program but people are coming over soon and i cannot read the book i need to look at.

Progress as of today: -4 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!

Moody2 on 09/07/2008:
Good luck with your classes tomorrow!! Very exciting!! Let us know how it goes!


Maria7 on 09/07/2008:
Calories look good! Hope you're doing okay!!!! Big smile to you!


loveray on 09/07/2008:
good luck! love to you.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Sep 07, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 129.0

i was looking through my entries...how scary! only last week i binged 4500! i thought it's been longer. for some reason i'm so nervous for the next binge...

plan for monday: wakeup 5:30am...gonna be interesting...leave house by 6:30...

breakfast: cereal with almond milk and fruit: 200

snack: bar? 200?

lunch: grains with turkey and fruit: 340 approx.

snack: Vivanno after work? 250

dinner:?

this day has been planned in a very rushed manner...going to bed late too.

lots of company sunday and sunday night!

Progress as of today: -4 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!

anewhb on 09/07/2008:
Not a normal routine today - Hope you were able to read thebook and that you sleep well. Exciting day Monday - don't wowrry if it doesn't go perfectly - First days are usually hectic, and with the funeral, company and totally being out of routine. Maybe it is an opportunity to be flexible. It will even out in a day or so......What is Vivanno?


Jen40 on 09/08/2008:
Have a great day. :O) I'm curious about vivanno too.


LaFemme_Loca on 09/08/2008:
Hope you had a great day ! :-)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Sep 06, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 129.0

this morning i went into see my grandmother bc she was sobbing a bit missing her husband. but then she stayed in bed a bit more as I got up and had breakfast.

breakfast: bread, avocado, hard boiled egg sandwich, peach, small glass almond milk: 350.

lunch: (MUST have good carbs after yoga)smoothie from Starbucks :) followed by a pickle and some sweet peppers at home. 300

total so far: 650

snack: kiwi and some bran crackers: 100

dinner: 2 pcs chicken, sauteed string beans, a red pepper, fruit salad. totally not sure on calories. guess: at most 650-700.

total calories: 1300-1400. good.

I'm going to yoga this morning and then probably some errands later. A walk tonight with my Uncle. Today nobody will be coming to the house bc it's a day of rest. I need to get a few last things done before going back to school for my first day on Monday. Sunday we will have people over and Monday/Tuesday (my bday) people may stop by but i will also be in school.

Progress as of today: -4 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!

Donkey on 09/06/2008:
I did not have the opportunity to express my sympathies to you in your time of loss. I am sorry for the sadness in your family, but somewhat relieved that services (shiva) have passed and you survived. I think it's OK not to speak at the service. Silence is the first language of God. I wish more people would be silent more often... There is sacredness to silence, I think.

So just in case I forget or do not have time, I want to wish you a Happy Birthday early. And the best present of all is the one that you're giving yourself: an education to do a career that you will like (if not love). Nothing more fulfilling in life than a purpose.

Thinking of you today and always...


thinnside40 on 09/06/2008:
RE:"i see you are subsisting on bars today! Interesting...maybe a lot of sugar?"

Actually the breakfast (Khashi Cookie) was 5g sugar and the dinner was 7g of sugar (Khashi Bar).....I did better on not really being hungry yesterday than I have done in a long time... I do eat a lot of things with Splenda and trying to reduce that a bit.....Yesterday was an "off" day with how busy I was and I am so pre-occupied mentally with my g'ma & SIL health issues right now, maybe it is a good thing for me to really just kind of "not" pay attention so much what I am going to eat the next snack/meal and eat what seems to sound good (healthy of course, but maybe not a "meal" type food )... If I do think about it too much right now, then I will eat too much from stress, anger, being blue, etc.........

Have a good day & fun @ yoga!


grumpy on 09/06/2008:
Aw sorry your grandma was sad, but must be good for her to have you around. as for moving away, i dont know girl, seems like it's so important to you that maybe there's a way to pull it off. you're so smart and talented, i am sure you can think of something you could do on your spare time for extra money. how about school dorms? and also sharing a place with a couple of others. i have friends in school who can live pretty cheap. think about that. xoxo


Moody2 on 09/06/2008:
So sorry to hear about your grandpa~its never an easy thing to go through..I'm glad that you are there for your grandma~blessing to you and your family~


loveray on 09/06/2008:
i hope you are hanging in there- thinking of you!! xo


selina on 09/06/2008:
Take care HOP - it's going to be nice to go to school - new friends, academic environment, new clothes, new schedule to follow. Enjoy each new thing!


Animob on 09/07/2008:
Aw... What a nice granddaughter you are... Hope Your granma is ok now. :) Sounds like your doing great with your food intake.. Ahhh.. Yoga... Nice one! :) Take care! :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Sep 05, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 129.0

thank you all so much for your condolences. the ceremony went well today. i didn't speak at it, but my sister, dad, uncle, and grandmother all did. i am kinda shy for public speaking and i knew i wouldn't feel comfortable up there. i didn't feel bad about it at all, bc everyone pays their respects differently.

breakfast: avocado and hb egg sandwich, fruit, almond milk 350.

lunch: coldcuts, deli stuff: 450?? can't really imagine more.

snack: cereal w. almond milk, and drink with special k protein powder in my water, and strawberries: 260 yup.

total so far: 660...i'll round to 700.

dinner: egg, MANY tomatoes, balsamic vinegar, 2 interesting green dumplings, and some cooked chinese broccoli and other veggies in sauce. Hopefully not more than 650.

total around 1300-1350 today.

walked 4 mi in evening with my uncle.

Progress as of today: -4 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 09/05/2008:
Have a good evening & I am glad to hear that you made it through the service and in the way you chose to compose yourself, instead of being uncomfortable... We all deaal with certain circumstances in an individual way.. Nobody else can tell the other how to deal with it, just can't......


lafemme_loca on 09/05/2008:
*hugs* my condolences and I am glad that you were able to get through it all.


Jen40 on 09/06/2008:
*hugs* I am so sorry you lost your grandfather and that things are so stressful right now for you, too. You can vent in your own diary anytime you like, that's what it's there for. Hope your weekend is peaceful and relaxing.


anewhb on 09/06/2008:
Aw, HOP. Good job making it through a stressful time. Did you enjoy walk with Uncle? Was there any room for bonding there? Love to your Grandmother....what is her age? If your G'father was 97 - wow they must have been together for a LONG time! To still have them both a those ages - I hope her health is well. God bless you all.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Sep 04, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 129.0

i apoligize if anyone was offended by what i said earlier today in this entry.

anyways, things are alright by me with my family here. i'll be going to bed shortly. we have the funeral tomorrow. i have not chosen to make a speech...i'd be very uncomfortable doing that. my sister, dad, and possibly uncle will say a few words.

eating went well. approx 1500-1700 calories.

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1 pc bread, poached salmon, and avocado sandwich,plums, almond milk: 550?

Grandfather passed away today. He was a healthy man up until when one of his toes got badly infected. By healthy, I mean he was NEVER on ANY medications or life support. He died at the age of 97. He had a very strong heart. I haven't seen him for a long time - only my dad would visit him in the nursing home. So tomorrow is the funeral and my grandmother, sister, and uncle will be staying at my house the next few days.

I have a short while today pretty much to get ready for my school...I need to pick up some clothes BADLY. i gained some weight back and i need all clothes that fit...as well as black clothing for the ceremony. then, supposedly there'll be shiver (however you spell it) at my house for a week...but my school starts Monday which i obviously cannot miss. life's interesting.

(OF COURSE EXERCISE IS ****ING ONHEARD OF RIGHT NOW - AND WHO KNOWS THE REST OF THE FREAKIN WEEK!!!!!!!!! - UNLESS I WAKE UP AT 5AM BUT STILL THAT WOULDN'T BE PLAUSABLE...NOT LOOKING FOWARD TO SEEING EVERYONE WITH MY FAT SELF) ANGRY. MOM DOESN'T GIVE A **** IF I EXERCISE OR NOT. PISSED OFF. I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANY FREAKIN CLOTHES FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS FOR SCHOOL BEFORE I START WEARING THE UNIFORM AND I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO GET THEM SINCE I DIDN'T EARLIER THIS WEEK. I'M SOOOO ANGRY. SO INSTEAD OF GOING TO THE GYM THIS MORNING I HAVE TO RUSH TO FIND CLOTHES. THERE'S NOT EVEN A WORD I CAN USE TO DESCRIBE HOW MISERABLE AND UPSET AND ANGRY I AM. YEAH, IT'S NOT ABOUT ME EITHER. I KNOW. I'M JUST PISSED. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND MY ANNOYING MOTHER AT ALL. IT'S NOT EVEN HER DAD. SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE WORD BUSY EVEN MEANS TO THINK THAT PREPARING FOR THIS FUNERAL IS A HUGE ORDEAL WHEN IT COULD BE A LOT DIFFERENT.

Progress as of today: -4 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!

anewhb on 09/04/2008:
Sorry to hear about your grandfather. Glad you had your vent here. Go do what you have to do and move forward. I get anxious when I have to see people I haven't seen in a long time and I don't think I am at my "healthiest" weight, too. Chances are others are just glad to see you and don't really care what you weigh. It sounds like you admired your grandfather. Celebrate his life and everything else will get caught up later.

P.S. I ate an avacado last night and thought of you. I liked them, but don't usually eat them. What do you put on them to jazz them up a little?


grumpy on 09/04/2008:
sorry to hear about your grandfather. as for your mother, girl, i think you need to make long term plans of moving out of there. is that on the horizon?


selina on 09/04/2008:
I'm so sorry to hear about your grampa. I remember you mentioned him once to me before. It's so sad....

concerning your mom, I agree with grumpy. Stay well!


liza36 on 09/04/2008:
I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.


thinnside40 on 09/04/2008:
Hope you got some nice new clothes and it didn't take very long to shop!

Sorry to hear of the family loss...


omahagrl on 09/04/2008:
Sorry for your loss


loveray on 09/04/2008:
i am so sorry to hear of your loss...my condolences are with you and your family. i pray you are able to stay strong during this time...especially with food. love to you.


Animob on 09/04/2008:
I am sorry to hear about the bad news. Take care.. Hugs...


Animob on 09/04/2008:
Ow.. yes.. About my protein intake yes... There is a protein in my Herbalife shake.. :)


Agent_Guber on 09/04/2008:
I am so sorry to hear about your grandfather, you must feel devestated. I hope the clothing all works out for you and you can leave some of that frustration behind. (((HUGS))



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Sep 03, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 129.0

ready for a new day to begin on Thursday :)

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BIG EDIT: no more stupid fad diets. i cannot stick with it. it was dumb trying. so, carbs are back. so is milk. etc. dumb move to exclude anything. i did it once and really have no urge to ever do it again anytime in the near future.

soooo...lunch was a BIG BINGE: total calories for today: a whopping 4500. are my goals to lose weight over, no way.

with a weight of about 130, my goal is to lose between 4-8 (probably not 8) pounds a month. by October 11th (only about FIVE weeks away!!!) I could possibly lose around 5-10 lbs. not as much as i want but then again i binge whenever i want lately. so, it's not like the food is magically going to fly off me. arg.

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Am I allowed to post 129 from all the sweating after yoga??? yes, I'm changing 130 to 129! haha.

i weighed in this morning and to my dismay I'm only ONE pound lighter than yesterday's afternoon weight. ugh.

Breakfast: poached salmon and a big tomato: around 300-350.

Progress as of today: -4 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!

loveray on 09/03/2008:
one pound is great!! its better than gaining, right! thanks for the well-wishes. i am going to see how things go with the lunch schedule: there is a chance that they will buy my lunch- depends on if we have client meetings or not. i am lucky enough though to be both 5 minutes from home and a whole foods! so, if we dont go out or i dont want to go out i can prepare something healthy. heres to a new routine and getting back on track for good!!! ps- i threw out my peanut butter last night. ;)


grumpy on 09/03/2008:
This always happens to me too. I weight in at night, with clothes on and I think "well, in the morning with no clothes on or food in my stomach I will be at least 2 pounds lighter..." haha., never. Always one or so. Anyway, 130 is not terrible, just focus and always remember your goal and look at that picture of you that you like so much and you will get there. thanks for your comments also, girl. i think he does love me or he wouldnt have spent all his bday weekend with me, but he still is not willing to give me what i want. at least as far as i know. and i am afraid he never will until i make him feel what it's like to not have me around at all. i may try that after our trip to LA if everything stays the same till then. SIgh.


thinnside40 on 09/03/2008:
Have a terrific day!


liza36 on 09/03/2008:
Absolutely, change the weight! Hopefully the 130's are history forever. Have a great day.


Donkey on 09/03/2008:
This is just a Donkey observation but I think that once you start school and are busy again, working towards a purpose, a goal, that the eating will resolve itself.

I would try not to restrict my calories but rather eat foods that are healthy, and see where that takes you for the rest of the week.

Are you drinking enough water? For me, when I do not drink enough water, things tend to start getting bingey.


lafemme_loca on 09/03/2008:
I am glad that you realize that fad diets aren't the answer... that everything in moderation is good... :-) As Donkey says, get your water in... get your fruits and veggies in... as for sweeteners... I use stevia and zsweet as all natural sugar substitutes that don't raise the glycemic index. They have helped. Once you are back at school, life will balance itself out. As for losing a pound... that is good !! Just think that is two pounds less of you !!! :-) I think I would have to chop off both of my legs to see the 120s... =) Heehee !!! Have a great evening.


selina on 09/04/2008:
Hi HOP! Sounds like you've got very good advice up above.. Take care!


grumpy on 09/04/2008:
i hope you feel a little better than this morning. xoxo



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Sep 02, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 131.0

had one of thos Special K water packets, pink lemonade. i bought two small boxes of them so I'm not throwing them out. figured I'd use it. in general, i'm not having a lot of artificial sugars though.

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i stepped on the scale and got kinda freaked out. 131 lbs. wow! not good at all. i didn't think i was higher than 130. well, at least it's the afternoon and not the morning without any food in me. not good though. i will update this weight now.

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back in Dec. 2006 i weighed 105 for a brief while...quickly going back up to 112-113. so, my goal is to get down to the 112-113 weight eating a plant and protein based diet.

i have not updated my weight and it is up a bit these past two weeks. by up i mean closer to 130lbs. i haven't weighed and will not weigh. I know what I need to do to lose the weight and a scale doesn't have to confirm it for me right now. I do NOT want to put a higher number up so I guess I'll have to lose the weight. I have chosen a new approach - actually an old approach that I took 1.5 years ago in order to lose weight FAST in one month for a vacation. low carb, protein and veggies, and healthy fats. If anyone remembers GG on here, this was her diet. Speaking of her, I hope she is ok and doing well. Anyways, I don't plan on sticking with only veggies and proteins for life at all. But i will keep it enforced until I begin school and probably through the first week if not more.

Breakfast: salad with lettuce mix/tomato, olive oil, hard boiled egg. felt good after having this! :) calories approx. 230

early lunch: healthy salad with olive oil an egg and a tomato..followed by 1/2 a jar of pb!...and deli chicken and turkey (moving on...and yes this was too much food!) approx. a big lunch of 1700 oops.

snack: 2 red peppers, 1/4 avocado, piece tofu: 220

total so far: 2150. i guess i'll save the salmon for dinner another night. I'm going to try and just have about 100-150 more calories today. probably in the form of a protein shake.

late dinner: protein shake 100-150 calories and that is all.

total calories today: about 2250-2300.

Progress as of today: -6 lbs lost so far, only 16 lbs to go!

WI3 on 09/02/2008:
Hi there! I was thinking about you the other day when I went to an Al-Anon meeting. Neither of my parents are alcoholics by their parents were. So they were raised by dysfunctional people and they passed along some of those fears and stuff to us kids. I'm not saying there are any alcohlics in your family...but the meeting was very eye opening and I am learning how co-dependant on people I really am. And how I really try to control my life situation and when I can't, I turn to food. I turn to food as punishment more than as comfort. There are two books I am reading, one is called "The Language Of Letting Go" and the other is called "Codependent No More" both by the same suthor Melody Beattie. Even if there aren't any alcoholics in your family, these books are really good reads because they allow us to understand ourselves in the midst of dysfunctional relationships.

The hardest thing I did this weekend was to take my hands off my relationship with Brian. The feeling of trying to control him and turn him around to me was so strong. But in letting go, I got him back. And controlling my environment is truly a symptom of a dysfunctional environment. But it doesn't have to be alcohol or drugs or whatever. I hope you have a great day and thank you for always being a good soul =)


thinnside40 on 09/02/2008:
Tuesday is a Terrific Day!


Maria7 on 09/02/2008:
Your breakfast looks real good! Hope you are having a nice day! Big smile to you!


loveray on 09/02/2008:
i like your new plan! i am going to try to get back to more protein and plant foods as well. i have the same issue with peanut butter! maybe we should just trash it?


WI3 on 09/02/2008:
You are gonna be fine! You'll get your new groove going with the work thing and can concentrate more on YOU instead of worrying if the job you have is going to be ok. I admire your continued determination and how you share yourself with us. And I also wonder how GG is doing? Hmmmm....

You will do great with your new plan!


grumpy on 09/02/2008:
Hey girl, good for you to update ur weight. I will do the same tomorrow and I know i am up too, but you know what? it's not bothering me this time, what matters is what i will do from now on. xo



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Sep 01, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

when living with others, i also live with food temptations. that's why i'm not allowing those temptations for at least a month. if i want it, i just cannot take it. period. actually, i'll say if it is unhealthy more than it is healthy, i will not be allowed to touch it. that's the goal.

total calories: approx. 2220.

not terrible but definitely too high for my activity level which consisted of sitting on my ass the whole day except for a quick mile i walked. i'm not complaining though. i fully intend to be back on track tomorrow - especially with mom and dad back to work. :)

i do admit i probably spent too much time alone today though, once my mom, dad, and sister went to the beach. next summer i would like to go to the beach on a regular basis if i can manage to get in shape. the good thing about the beach (there are many) is that it would get me out of the house for the entire day. however, if i have to pay for it, i will have to think about it. we'll see. i guess it's not important right now.

my plan is yoga tomorrow. i want to cancel my wax appt and gyno appt because i'm feeling crappy but that's not the right idea. so, i'll keep them...and pray TOM doesn't come on Thursday!

thanks for not giving up on me...i haven't either. i briefly was watching some videos of myself last summer when i was around 112-113 and boy did i look adorable! lol. need to get back to that. i miss it VERY much.

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ok, another new day today. filled with my mom waking up in the morning with a loud mouth to my dad. of what she said i have no idea because i wasn't really listening. just complaints.

large, but satisfying breakfast: cup of fiber one, small whole banana, almond milk, lots of pb on a big spoon: 600.

NO ARTIFICIAL SUGARS TODAY. WATER.

snack: lots pb on a bran cracker 500...fiber one w. milk: 670

lunch: turkey sandwich, chips, plum: 670 also.

total so far: 1940.

leave house and read at park...then walk later.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

loveray on 09/01/2008:
yay! you can do it. IM me if you need to chat today or want to avert a binge. i am here for you! xoxo


Donkey on 09/01/2008:
Get OUT of the house! Your mother is toxic today. I'm not saying she's a bad person; just that her behavior is not healthy for you right now at this moment.


thinnside40 on 09/01/2008:
Lots of protein should keep you going on that walk today.... Have a good one!


Beth201P on 09/01/2008:
Get out and have some fun today. Go for a walk etc. Have some me time. ((HUGS))


Donkey on 09/01/2008:
Just checking in to let you know I'm thinking of you. I hope you are doing better... Get rid of the peanut butter until you are stronger.


grumpy on 09/01/2008:
yea, get out and have a good day off. xoxo


lafemme_loca on 09/01/2008:
I hope you have a beautiful walk. *hugs* I hope you achieve your goal on the no artificial sweeteners today. :-)


cybermom4 on 09/01/2008:
October - you can do it! One day at a time - minute by minute. Thanks for your encouragement - may we both reach our goals! :)


grumpy on 09/01/2008:
his shirt says "you sake". hahaha. actually he's been wanting a T shirt that says something about sake for a while and we keep coming up with silly lines like that. there's a store here that makes these costume made shirts and we went there yesterday and he loves his shirt. i told him to write YOU SAKE. hahahahaha (as in you suck).

anyway, thanks for the compliment, it's actually a shirt and i were tight jeans. i am still a little self conscious of the tight jeans but i am getting better at not caring. hehe.

you should talk to loveray about it, she also has a hard time putting herself out there socially at times and she and i were talking about this on sat. her post today is actually about this. xoxox


grumpy on 09/01/2008:
btw, 112 is only 10 pounds away. focus on your goal and you can be there in 3 months. :)


Animob on 09/01/2008:
I love reading at parks... Well, its better than reading at home. I will end up cleaning my apartment all over again! Lol.. I am staying in Malaysia. I'll let you know when my Visa is already approve to go to US. Lol.. Been Struggling to get it for the past 1 year. I do eat vege, I have it on my sandwich.. Ehe.. Thanks for your comment... Its so sweet of you!! Cheers!!


Maria7 on 09/01/2008:
Sounds like you are under a LOT of stress....have you thought about maybe moving out on your own? (Just an idea...)


thinnside40 on 09/01/2008:
You may think that others have worse issues than you or that those issues are more important, but your issues ARE important to deal with and get to the bottom of rectifying them, so you don't feel the need to binge anymore for whatever reason(s).... Even though a 122.5# woman sounds mighty wonderful, you know where your healthy limit is and want to be there..So be it!....

Hope your Tuesday is a good one!


lafemme_loca on 09/01/2008:
Yay to looking forward to tomorrow. I will be praying for you. :-) I will also pray that ToM doesn't show up at an inopportune time. Mine wonderfully showed up yesterday... grr... but at least it wasn't tomorrow... first 24 hours is always the worst ! Anyway, that was probably TMI ;-) anyway, you can so reach your goal. 12 pounds is very do-able. Stay focused. I love that you are looking at food choices and making the healthy selections and staying away from the unhealthy ones. *hugs* I am glad you went for a walk. :-)


selina on 09/02/2008:
You've got a very good goal there, HOP! Have a good day!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Aug 31, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

had something else, had everything else: 6,000 calories today. i am having a very tough time although i thought i was out of it already and binged horriby this afternoon. 3 slices pizza, tons of pie, and lots of other things. i know where i want to be but i am having MAJOR trouble getting there.

i like loveray's challenge too. sorry you guys have to read this.

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1pm edit: no plans this holiday weekend except to try and relax. it's sorta working but not with my mom yelling and screaming for no reason! actually, she was arguing bc my dad brought home pizza he thought she'd like but it was warm and not hot. and, she was complaining that my sister got home too late and she wanted to already leave for the beach. and that my sister ate food she was saving for dinner and that she ruined her plans. she is sooo annoying! can't wait till these two days are over and she is back to work while i have my week off.

lunch: tofu 1pc, olive oil 1tbsp, romaine, large plum tomato, small apple: approx. 340. may reach for something else but it will be low carb.

total so far: 1505.

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breakfast: nectarine, huge protein bar, pb sandwich, almond milk: 780....extra pb: 1150

yoga later and a walk or gym.

during yoga: water mix: 15...1165

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

loveray on 08/31/2008:
you and i both need to jump on the let's just do it wagon!! no more "fake foods" and too many calories at one sitting...let's do this together. i challenge both of us to begin right now- eat what we say we will eat and weigh next sunday or monday morning. i bet we will get closer to where we want to be for our new jobs and etc. what is it with binging after hanging out with new boys??? or old boys for that matter...haha. xoxo


thinnside40 on 08/31/2008:
I like loveray's challenge!........ Have a good day!


mcwoo:) on 08/31/2008:
Hope youe weekend get's better.I bet I've had more cals than you today, tut tut Julie


thinnside40 on 08/31/2008:
Not much one can say when ya put it like that!..... So, heres to better days ahead and without all the stresses!


loveray on 08/31/2008:
it's ok..this is what we are here for!!! take a glance in the mirror. a hard glance. i want you to look into your eyes and tell yourself how beautiful, smart and worth it you are. just stare at your eyes! get yourself out of that crazy-cloudy state! i know it's so hard. i love you!


Beth201P on 08/31/2008:
Hey I have been their myself sorry to say many times lately. Hang in there. We can and will lose our weight. ((HUGS MY FRIEND))


thinnside40 on 08/31/2008:
Aren't we ALL broken records at one point or another????... Truth is that no matter how often we say we are or aren't going to do something, it is harder said than done 9/10 times and we just need to be honest about what we have'haven't done or eaten when we post our entries and not seem higher/mighty than the other people...... I truly do respect your honesty and that you are willing to keep trying, no matter what...... You are going to make it!!!!!

As for TOM ~ To tell you the truth, I don't keep track either!....I do have it on one of my zillion calendars around here, if I were to have to really need to know.... I have my appointment Sept 22nd and know I will be safe, unless something strange happens... I just know that mine is within the next week most likely...Just "SIGNS" are the mood swings & short temper......


lafemme_loca on 08/31/2008:
Wow, can I just say your mom sounds like my mom. She gets so angry and frustrated and you feel like you have to walk on eggshells all the time. You never quite no what will set her off... I think I am the only 23 year old who got grounded from using the car for not making her bed (yes, I was a college grad w/ two degrees and had lived in Europe for 2.5 years... but still got grounded for not making her bed when I came back from Europe before I moved to California for a job -- 10 years ago this weekend.) Anyway, long story short... hang in there ! You are an amazing person and do as loveray says... look in the mirror and remember how lovable you are. You mean the world to us ! *hugs*


Animob on 09/01/2008:
Hii there!! Geez, Mums will always be mum huh? Lol.. I am greatful that mum is busy with her own stuff and I am not staying with her. Lol.. I am sure you can do it! all of us have our ups and down! I have been soo stress up for the last several weeks. I will pray that you will be ok tommorrow! Take care!!



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