- Tuesday Feb 05, 2008
overall calories: 2250. oops. I chose to have some ice cream, almonds, pineapple sweetened cottage cheese after dinner. It's all good.
Today is going well...I did have lots of (good) carbs after school: Two large apples, Kombucha tea, and a banana. total about 400 cal. At least it was really healthy, despite some extra sugars.
Calories so far: 1050 before dinner. I'll eat about 400 for dinner, maybe more. I'm being lenient tonight. It's gonna be a long one. I will walk on the treadmill NO MORE than a 1/2 hour. watch tv/study. I need some tv on when i study sometimes. haha. good distraction.
today at school I saw really poor behavior from a lot of the kids. Made my day much more challenging, especially bc there were a lot of subs working with me. Some kids took advantage! :( Oh well...better NOT get stressed about it. LOL, i should have laughed it off even more!!
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!
- Monday Feb 04, 2008
I apoligize for less commenting right now, but its necessary I do at least a little studying. I like to comment on everyone at once, not a few here and there...so if you don't see a comment right away, that is why! :)
edit: I am off to yoga...then dinner and studying...then bed :) I am looking foward to a good evening and no binging. Today was a great day! :)
Today's calories: 1740, but I'm definitely counting today as a success. pretty balanced eating, too.
Today's exercise 1hr, 45 min.
Total FEB exercise: 4hrs, 35 min :)
I walk into this Monday morning with high hopes for today. I want it to be a success as well as the days following. Of course, in the back of my mind, I have my recent struggle and 4 day binge, but I really do want success long-term - and not just to make up for four lousy days.
I woke up pretty early because I went to bed early so I'm sipping on carbonated tea and I will take a brief 15 min walk on the treadmill soon. I am not going to push morning exercise because I get too hungry while at work.
- Sunday Feb 03, 2008
Evening edit: total calories are a wonderful 1360 which i'm so happy about. My 4day binge is officially over.
exercise: a wonderful 4 miles (1hr, 20 min.)
total FEB exercise: 2hrs, 50 min.
calories so far are 880. NO need to go back for more because i just had a satisfying meal! I wanted to do yoga but i am still feeling the effects of ingesting too many sugar free candies so i cannot go today. I will walk at the park though. I plan to walk 4miles. come home, relax, study, go to bed early so I can have a positive start to the week and make it a good one.
- Saturday Feb 02, 2008
saturday night i had some sugar free candies...too many. i paid for it because i was in the bathroom ALL night!
saturday: 3700 cal. could be worse? lol. my goal is to NOT binge for the rest of the school year...and then never after that! a binge means eating more food than i make for myself, going back for seconds, etc. As long as I eat a portion and move on, I haven't binged.
tomorrow i have class...then yoga if i get out in time. otherwise, I'm taking a walk at the park.
today's exercise was kinda different. I walked with my grandmother and a slightly slow pace, but not really slow at all. so, i'm counting the hour we walked as one hour.
total exercise in feb: 1.5 hours. ok.
tomorrow is my test and i still have some studying to do. Based on how this test goes, i'll know what this teacher expects for the rest of the semester.
I am feeling better now and I do not see a need to binge again. It was a bad four days, since Wednesday, but they have passed and I'm looking foward to the future. :) Sometimes the idea of uncertainty of the future, my current lack of luster job, and just my current state really get me "down in the dumps," as a 2nd grader said to his friend the other day on the playground. haha, i thought it was so funny. anyway, i'm better, i'm stronger...i'm ready.
fyi, i got the results of how i did on one of the two entrance exams i took. I'm applying to four programs...and 3 exams were necessary. I got a 92 on the math, 96 on the reading, and a whopping 79 on the science. I laughed when i read the science score bc i knew i didn't do that well. Good thing is, it's the total average of the three parts that matters. I was invited back to observe there which means all is good! I also have an interview coming up later in February. Everything is so up in the air, I cannot wait till there is some certainty...then I will think about a job for the summer.
- Friday Feb 01, 2008
Saturday. 3,000 so far. 10:20am
as for exercise, i haven't done much for an entire week! I'm not doing yoga today - too little time and i don't want to feel rushed. My plan is to resume yoga after tomorrow's class and test. Then, I have a promise with myself to commit to yoga 5X a week or more.
3000 cals today. Could have been 1500 but i binged in both the morning and evening. evening calories included some ice cream/nuts/peanut butter/cookies...and boy do I want some more...
30 min exercise.
- Thursday Jan 31, 2008
today's binge and calories = 3600 if i totaled it right. yesterday was 4300. i'm not doing well right now. i will do better. I will not restrict very much tomorrow or i will defitely binge.
i'm definitely stuffed and hurting...
this may be too much to think about, but if i even eat 1500 per day for only 5 days, but daily total would average 2200 for a week. that's not even terrible. ouch, my stomach hurts.
i was sweating all night last night from everything inside of me...i'll be doing that tonight as well. Why don't i just go to yoga instead of eating? I feel like if i go to yoga, i'll have no energy left to study. boy, i need to CALM DOWN!
- Wednesday Jan 30, 2008
Thursday entry: so this morning didn't go that well. I indulged in a sugary yogurt, canned fruit, and LOTS of nuts and peanut butter. I hope I calculated right because I think i either forgot to add in one more serving of nuts of peanut butter. I guess it really doesn't matter that much anyway. total calories throughout my day until work ends will be 1700. My goal for total calories today is 2100 or 2200. This is possible but I feel like having a goal sets me up for more binging later after work.
39 hours, 10 minutes is my final January 2008 exercise. I didn't reach 40 due to binging and bad planning.
after all my talk of not binging anymore, i did just that. meaning, i woke up at 3am because of worrying, had a stressful day, came home and binged. approx. calories: 4300.
i actually feel sick right now. my stomach is full. done. i can only hope to not binge for awhile now - meaning for a couple weeks. Lack of sleep and stress about the class i'm taking is what contributed to this nasty binge.
some items included: 2 huge brownies, cookies, tons of ice cream, peanut butter, potato knish, frankfuters...etc.
25min walk in AM.
perhaps another short walk later. no yoga.
i haven't been commenting...i don't feel up to it right now.
I will repeat what i have written recently, saying binging is not the same anymore, neither is the desired effects a binge produces. I feel bad and its not worth the calories. I must say, the food didn't even taste very good! There are too many temptations in my house. (I don't buy them and its not up to me to tell anyone what to buy nor do i want to.)
- Tuesday Jan 29, 2008
Tuesday entry: I'm glad I did a 25 min walk this morning. I have unfortunately cancelled volunteering today. It was a long day and I need to study. It is WAY more important for me to do well in a class than rack up volunteer hours. I have decided that on my week off I can make up for the days I miss when I am working. I will volunteer 2 or 3 days inside of only 1 day on my vacation on February. After volunteering, the last thing a person wants to do is come home and study! I'm not even going to yoga tonight. I'm going to try to fit it in on Wednesday and probably not go on Thursday since I already have to stay at school an extra hour to provide extra help. I have been bingy...but healthy bingy all afternoon. calories so far are 1320 and I have just decided to give myself a break from the diet right now. I'm heading downstairs for one more handful of almonds making today's grand total of almonds reach 3.5 servings! whoa, a lot, but that's basically where i get all my fats.
calories so far: 1600.
exercise: 25 min and no more.
total exercise:38hrs, 45 min.
- Monday Jan 28, 2008
As i sit here, I stuff my face. Definitely bingy...it's ok. The good thing, it's low cal, mostly healthy food. I planned on going to yoga today but have reconsidered and I am taking the night off from yoga. I didn't study last night....and i need to tonight. I have LOTS to memorize and I must start now, or at least tonight.
OK, time to study... :)
30 min exercise.
total exercise: 38hrs, 20 min :)
Tomorrow is volunteering after work...then I plan on studying - no yoga. I will exercise in the AM again, like today, so that I do NOT have to exercise after work and I can just veg with index cards and the tv. That is my plan for tomorrow, nothing else. :)
- Sunday Jan 27, 2008
I was looking over the past 30 days...SEVEN of them were binges, or eating over 2,000! wow! that's a lot! I didn't realize I was doing it so often! This amounts to almost twice a week...no wonder i don't see much progess as of yet! Time to suck it up and try harder!
exercise: 1hr, 50min
total exercise: 37hrs, 50min hours! yay for definitely breaking 40 by the end of this month! :)
calories: 1650. I was planning for lower but ended up having an apple and a banana after dinner with some parkay spray butter, cinnamon, and peanut spread. so, calories went up a bit. still healthy...and i did do yoga. I felt i needed the carbs! :)
My class in Anatomy and Physiology went well today. There are many people in the class with prior knowledge, though. So, I have a lot of work in store for me! That's ok. The class ended so early that I was able to have a nice lunch and go to yoga at 3pm! I'm so glad I went despite being tired.
For some reason, I have been exhausted all weekend. I think I may have been dehydrated from the hot yoga. drinking black tea probably didn't help. Also, I missed a lot of sleep since last week. All these factors probably contributed to my energy levels.
On another note, I am proud of myself for staying under 2000 and not having any massive issues with calories, especially during the weekend. I do better when I have things to do, for sure! I am looking foward to a continued success in my weightloss throughout the spring.