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Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Mar 12, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

WI points yesterday - 2, today - 0. I have too many things to do right now...and working out isn't one of them.... :( I wish it was!

WorkingIt, I appreciate all of the feedback and comments you have given me...they have been VERY encouraging and helpful. i do not get offended easily...and never on this site. I am open to all commentary and feedback because all of it is helpful in some way!!! That's why I joined this site.

I must have been a little depressed...my job situation and all. hopefully things will turn around soon! until then, everything's a little rocky. I spent much of the day sunday in bed. recooperating from last week! I got REALLY tired out!

last night i ended my calories at 1940. I'll have to work real hard to fix things this week!

calories today will be 1100. I was trying for 1000, but that's just not gonna work today!

thank you to EVERYONE who left a comment for me yesterday and the day before. Everything you said was extremely helpful. I may be on here less this week, as my schedule is not the most relaxed!

goodnight, all!

greengirl on 03/12/2007:
I hope things go well for you soon. You are so good about supporting everyone else, you deserve all the support you get back. Its understandable that you are a little down with your job situation, but something will come along for you soon. Keep your chin up:)


Umpqua on 03/12/2007:
I'm sorry you've been having a rough time recently, and that I haven't been able to comment on your diary as much as I'd like. Just wanted you to know I think you're doing a great job and I'm sure you'll get right back on track.


Donkey on 03/12/2007:
I hope everything is OK! I'm thinking of you! :) I know the job thing is tough. Believe me, I have been there many many times. And in dire times, too, when I really needed a job, and it didn't work out. Do not despair; it all resolves itself as long as you keep trying! You can do it!


WorkingIt2 on 03/12/2007:
Oh I am so happy to see you here again!!! (((((((((Horn)))))))))) I was so worried about you! And you sure are missed around here when you are gone! I have my fingers crossed for you!


borntocry on 03/13/2007:
Hi HoP! I'm also going to be trying to "fix things" this week. Hope we can do it! You're right, one of my reasons for wanting to binge less is that it's so hard to make up for them afterwards. For instance, by my calculations I have a 3400 calorie surplus after last weekend - it will take 11 days at 1200 calories to make up for that! It's just not worth it.

Also, another reason, for me, is concern for my health. You mentioned once that you were worried about becoming diabetic. Well, I remember now what made me think that it was happening to me. Sometimes I would get headaches after eating a huge amount (mostly carbohydrates). Also I was diagnosed with a health condition which I think gets worse when I eat huge quantities of food. That might not be the case for you, but you know it can't be good for us to do this. As we get older it will be harder and harder for our bodies to cope with this gluttony! Not to mention the fact that psychologically I feel so much better about myself when I am in control of my diet.

Well, good luck with your hectic week ahead! It's reassuring to know that we are dealing with some of the same problems. Hopefully we can overcome them together!


tourguidebarbie on 03/13/2007:
Hey you! I hope you start to feel better! Sorry that things have been so stressful for you lately, but things can only be bad for so long right? Good luck on everything!


weightlossyoyo on 03/13/2007:
Hope things get better for you! Calories were great today, you are on the right track.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Mar 10, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

Sunday: calories so far (11am): 1452. _____________________________________________________ WI points: none. total 4790

First edit: calories so far: 4550....that's a mistake, 4700. I forgot the yogurt. ____________________________________________________

for those of you who said, don't binge....well, i did! arg! ugh!

Breakfast: 2352 calories. this is calculated, everything was measured. It involved multitude of chocolates, nuts, powerbars, peanut butter, and cereal, yogurt, an apple, sugar free syrup, all bran, tofu, soy milk...

my goal for the day is to not go over 3350. thats about 1000 calories to spare. I have learned to realize its best not too limit myself too much the rest of the day after a binge.

justgonnadoit on 03/10/2007:
ahh the binges. Its not a question of "if" I will its when. I am hoping I dont. I am hoping I can bypass the whole B word.

But-cant beat yourself up, keep on keeeping on....one day at a time!

Happy Saturday!


WorkingIt2 on 03/10/2007:
I really like the sugar free syrup, in fact, last night I had Eggo pancakes with sugar free syrup and then some grated dark chocolate from 3 hersheys kisses and I was all set to kill off my sugar craving lol. And GREAT JOB on sticking with a 1770 calorie day with Girl Scout Cookies!! Holy smokes if I had them anywhere in the house I'd eat an entire box in one day!


Donkey on 03/10/2007:
Now how did I know that this was going to happen? Been there so many times, done that too many times. It's over; move forward. Bingeing solves nothing.

I must say, at least you choose healthy foods. It wasn't like me with the Fat Housewife attack a couple of days ago (ice cream, Girl Scout cookies, graham crackers with peanut butter - oof!).

I agree with your approach not to limit yourself on calories for the rest of the day. It just sets you up for a vicious cycle. I hope the rest of the day improves for you.

Call the school district on Monday about the job!!


borntocry on 03/10/2007:
God, that binge sounds incredible. Next time you should invite me over - we can split the food (and the calories)!!


borntocry on 03/11/2007:
Hey, I think I also have binge-eating disorder, you know. But I think there is hope for us! In the past couple of years my binges have gotten much fewer and further between. And where they were once up around 6000 calories, now they rarely go over 3000-3500 (still really high, I know - but an improvement). So hang in there - we can beat this together!

Have you heard back from the school yet? I guess not - it's Sunday! Maybe tomorrow...


WorkingIt2 on 03/11/2007:
Happy Sunday to you! I wasn't bagging on you. You had asked me specifically before for my opinion and I reached out, took a chance and gave it to you with the best of intentions in mind. You have stated a few times that you feel you have a binge disorder and that you were looking for help, and you had even researched information as to possible causes that you were thinking of going to the doctor to be tested for. If I reach out to you during the good times, I'm not going to stop reaching out when you are having bad times. By all means, continue to vent and post your personal things...pretty much all of us do =) Of course you are safe here, that is the beauty of reaching out to people from the safety of the computer =)

I am supportive of you. Very. If I didn't care, I wouldn't post in your journal! =)

****hugs**** I hope you are having a better day today and that whatever it is that you are going through, settles down soon. You are a vivacious, kind, friendly, and dedicated individual who always takes time for others and you deserve to be happy, healthy, and know you are not alone.


GG on 03/11/2007:
my goodness you must have been hungry! you know what though, i think counting calories drives everyone nuts so on the days that you go over board you shouldnt count the calories and just promise yourself to slow down and think about what you eat next time.


Runner on 03/11/2007:
One thing that helps me when I feel like bingeing is to brush my teeth...for about 3 minutes. Then the last thing I want to do is eat after my mouth is all minty fresh! :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Mar 09, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

WI Points: none, busy day. i could have exercised, but I chose to do some "cooking." more like just boiling shirataki noodles for future eating (and I had a couple packages tonight as well!).

Foods: sugar free syrup, apple, yogurt, tofu, egg, egg white, egg, tofu, carrot, tomato, girl scout cookies, yogurt, 100 cal balance bar, 2 pkgs kelp noodles, plum, large pickle, shirataki with spray dressing, more shirataki noodles, chicken noodle soup - a change of pace!, tostitos tortilla chips, bran with soy, cottage cheese flavored with pineapple.

total cal: 1770.

goodnight. calories could definitely have been lower, but I had the bran and cottage cheese late after rehearsal!

......no phone calls from the school district where i interviewed...definitely beginning to think that its a no-go. at least i know i did very well!!! :)

update on calories later.

Donkey on 03/09/2007:
You should have called this afternoon. But no matter, you can call on Monday or Tuesday. Call and say you are calling to see if they have selected a candidate for the position of <whatever>. Until then, there is nothing you can do about it, so you might as well put it behind you and try to forget about it. (Don't EAT because it weighs heavily on your mind!!!)

Every interview you go on is a success, because you learn so much about the process and about yourself. It is great practice for the next time. I know that it usually takes me 3 or 4 job interviews before I do well and get offered a job.


monet0239 on 03/09/2007:
Hang in there toots.. if you dont get this one.. a better one will come along..:).. have faith !.. hugs


leeumom on 03/10/2007:
Keep up the good work. Sometimes it takes a week to get back to you. At that time, I would call to just follow up to see if they'd made a decision yet. They owe you that much, as you took your time to do the interview.


WorkingIt2 on 03/12/2007:
((((((Horn)))))))))) Just wanted to let you know I was thinkin' about you today and wishing you the best!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Mar 08, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

just an update before bed...I will comment on all of your diaries tomorrow...

WI points: none. not enough time to exercise the full 30 min. only did 10...which is better than nothing!

total calories: 1395.

two day average cal: 1788. perhaps a little high, since there hasn't been much exercise on my part these past two days!

goodnight all! I'm looking foward to some yoga and catching up on my weekend!

greengirl on 03/09/2007:
Your average is not so bad. Try and get some relaxation in this weekend. You deserve it :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Mar 07, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

Edit: WI Points: NONE. i decided to take another day off. I'm glad I got the exercise in yesterday!

Calories: 2180. some mini candy bars were definitely involved! its alright, and far better than 2500 two days ago!

goodnight.

My interview went really well, but I know there are a lot of candidates. One good thing is the the chairperson said he would be contacting me maybe tomorrow. That sounds assuring, because usually they don't say they will be contacting you so soon! They job is defnitely EXACTLY what I am looking for! We'll see.

Food has been pretty good.

another update later tonight.

Breakfast: 2plums, tofu, fiber one and soy milk 290

Snack: Protein Bar, tea with milk, pink lemonade diet snapple 180

Lunch: carrots, tomato, tofu 160

Snack: kombucha, tea with milk, protein bar, light yogurt: 260

total so far: 890

greengirl on 03/07/2007:
I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you. You deserve a good job!! Good day so far :)


WorkingIt2 on 03/07/2007:
How fantastic that they are going to call so soon! I'll keep my fingers crossed and say a prayer for you tonight! Those mini candy bars can be very addictive!


Donkey on 03/07/2007:
I think you did alright, even with the candy bars. I myself had Girl Scout cookies tonight (hence my higher calorie level). I do hope that they contact you soon. Nothing worse than waiting. It sounds to me like they want to fill the position quickly. Make sure you send a thank you note to your interviewer ASAP!


borntocry on 03/08/2007:
Oh, I hope you get the job!


sweetpea1977 on 03/08/2007:
Im keeping my fingers crossed for you!


monet0239 on 03/08/2007:
good luck on the job hun.. :).. hugs


Justine6Robert3 on 03/08/2007:
I'm clearly loosing my mind a little today! Just so you know, I left you a comment but somehow I put it on your entry from yesturday!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Mar 06, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

well, today is 1000 calories. 2 day average: 1750.

2 workingit points today (none yesterday).

I'm trying to get to bed tonight early, so i'm ready for my interview in the morning. then, I'm off to work and then a rehearsal later in the evening tomorrow.

thanks for all your comments, i'll update you perhaps on the situation. I appreciate them, and will try to do them....as for talking to my sister, the situation is too volatile at the moment...but i will attempt to talk later in the week?! have a great day/evening.

i'll catch up more tomorrow.

goodnight!

sharklover on 03/06/2007:
Good luck with the interview!


Donkey on 03/06/2007:
Good luck!!!! I'll be thinking of you tomorrow morning!


weightlossyoyo on 03/07/2007:
Hope your interview goes well!


Justine6Robert3 on 03/08/2007:
Your so right, I do need to eat vegatables!! You left me all of those great ideas, now I just have to start trying some of them out. I really dislike the veggies and my already picky ways make it hard for me to force myself to start trying things out. I know my diet is lacking and they are very good for me. I will work on this. I have to go grocery shopping soon so I'll have to keep you in mind while I'm there. I so wish I enjoyed them like you do, I vow to buy at least one new veggie to try on my next trip to the grocery store!!!

I'm so sorry about your situation with your sister. How old is she anyway?! She is obviously the younger sister but she really doesn't act very mature. This must be a tough living situation for you. I don't really know why your sister can't be more grown up about this situation and talk to you about it instead of running to your parents all of the time and having everybody gang up on you!! I don't think at your age your parents need to be involved in whatever disagreement your sister and you have. I know there isn't much you can do about that though while your still living there.

I realize you can't move out right now but I hope you'll soon be able to work something out so that you can get out of the house. I can't believe your Dad would wake you up at 1:00 am and upset you when you have to get up and go to work in the morning!!! I definetly think there needs to be better communication in your house and people need to start being more respectful of one anothers needs.

I hope your interview goes well today!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Mar 05, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

Let me just tell you...this morning was an absolute disaster between my sister and I. I made the mistake of talking to her blatantly rudely. I told her to clean up her things in the kitchen before my mom returns from israel bc i wouldn't be cleaning her stuff. I said it in a mean tone and my sister got VERY PISSED to say the least.

I read your comments, and you are all making very good points. I should listen, I should just grow up. Point is, my sister doesn't realize what she is/isn't doing and i'm not communicating how I feel to her well at all. It's making a complete mess of things. We were shouting at each other and she told me that she wanted to "kick me in my face" as I left the house. She said, "As far as i'm concerned, we are over, i want nothing to do with you." she also said she didn't care about me or the situation. funny thing is, she cared enough to tell my dad all about it last night...and he came in my room and woke me up in the middle of the night because she was upset about my "away message" on aim. It didn't mention her directly, but she knew what it was about. so, of course, she went to my dad. He felt bad about yelling at her earlier for using the hot water, so to be fair, he came in my room and woke me up around 1am!!! so, i got not sleep. terrible night. I was crying when I got to my classroom. no sleep and all this stress is the last thing i need.

I just need to not be affected personally anymore, since she is not aware that it affects me in the first place (or she probably wouldn't do it?!)

any other ideas on this matter? sorry for the neg. journal entry. ___________________________________________________________

well, my sister used up all the hot water just before i got home to take a shower! it's time my mom got back from israel (she's been there one week) because i think that even she would make sure my sister didn't use up all the hot water so i have to take a cold shower! earlier this week, my sister took a shower when i needed to and i had to wait up. now, i have to wait up again. EVERY SINGLE night this week is LATE for me! what is late??? i get home for the night around 10-10:30 EVERY NIGHT, including FRIDAY! good luck to me.

WI Points: none. major binge today. 2500 cal.

breakfast: 280 cal.

snack: 70cal

lunch: 160 cal.

snack: 90 cal.

Binge/rest of evening: 1/2 lb squash, dressing, tomato, microwave 100 cal vegetables, salad, 2 red peppers, yogurt, 2 plums, powerbar, second powerbar, baby crunch bar, 5 mini baby ruths, 2 almond joy minis, 2 tablespoons pb, 3 pims (type of cookie).

total: 2500 calories on the dot. not so hot. i'm totally going crazy with the job interview coming up among other things like a rehearsal tonight.

goodnight all!

Donkey on 03/05/2007:
Your lunch and snack calories are too low. So low calories and with stressful events coming up (rehersal, interview) leads to a binge.

I recall that you said that you tend to binge before rehearsals, which is not a good habit. Why do you suppose that happens?

But with something as important as a job interview coming up... I'm not trying to make excuses for you, but I would do whatever it took for me to get through to the interview and THEN focus on diet/exercise.


Donkey on 03/05/2007:
Let me rephrase that. I would do whatever it took - as long as it was LEGAL - for me to get through the interview. And THEN focus on the diet/exercise, etc.

Do be kind and forgiving to yourself in this stressful time. You do what you have to do; you do what you can.


WorkingIt2 on 03/05/2007:
Sorry to read that your sister did it to you again. What a drag! Your binges seem to be more like a natural calorie cycle as you get back on track and even the calories out with the exercise and everything. It doesn't seem that it causes you weight gain? I wish you BUNCHES of luck that everything will go as you want it to go!!


WorkingIt2 on 03/05/2007:
**hug** thank you for explaining about the binges. I get nervous before I have big presentations and I will admit that I would love to eat my way through the tension...I cope by perhaps staying in my calories but eating food that isn't exactly healthy. Which really isn't any better LOL.


smiley2 on 03/06/2007:
Thanks for the comment you left me. Seems like you have a few problems of your own at the moment. Maybe you should have a chat with your sister so that she can perhaps take a shower earlier in the evening before you get home...otherwise just race her to the shower heheh, im sure you will win ;)Communication is always key, even at times when it seems difficult. Good luck with the job interview.


borntocry on 03/06/2007:
I really think you need to talk to your sister about this. She has to be made to realise that she is living with other people. I know things aren't great between the two of you but give her a chance to make amends for her ways. If you discuss this with her politely and she doesn't listen, then you will have a good excuse to refuse to do anything for her in the future. Whereas if you act hostile towards her without talking to her about it first she will only go and complain to your parents and make you out to be the one at fault.

Really, I know there's not much you can do in this situation but you have my sympathy!


greengirl on 03/06/2007:
I have a lot of sympathy for you. It must be very frustrating for you, especially the hot water situation. I had to share a bedroom with my older sisters until I was 14 and we were always arguing about similar stuff. Try to keep cool until your mother returns. Good luck with the upcoming interview:0)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Mar 04, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

WI Points: all!

I made sure there was exercise...sadly I cut it short, only a half hour!!! I have been missing out on Yoga this past couple of weekends and its driving me nuts...I'm also frustrated because I'm not even exercising all that much. The reason: my schedule is not allowing me the time. plus, i don't want to run around any more than I currently am...I believe in time to breathe and, with that, like time to sit here and go online and type to you all! I know my schedule will loosen up maybe next month or so!

Friday evening I got home around 9:30pm and walked for a half hour. Saturday morning I rehearsed, came home for 10 minutes and taught two lessons. Next thing I knew, it was 5pm. I had something to eat...and went to the university to the library, which I didn't realize was closing at 9pm and not 11 or 12! so, I went to the gym before I got home around 10pm! Then, today, I went back to the library and was there till 1pm! I missed the yoga class. I came home around 2pm and then went out to teach a lesson at 4pm. On the way home, I stopped at the University to use the gym! That's my weekend! Nothing socially exciting...and if i did go out, I'd be even more exhausted than I am now!

Foods were very healthy today...I've been eating to the point of major fullness...but I guess its better than binging on the wrong things!? ehhh, there are other things I could be more worried about....although, is there such thing as your stomach exploding from too much food, lol!?

Breakfast: It was large. 2 cups all bran/fiber one mixture. one cup soy milk. yogurt. kombucha drink. 490 cal.

Snack: tea with milk. 40

Lunch: kelp noodles, salad, spray dressing, red pepper, yogurt, shirataki noodles with cinnamon, tomato. 245 cal.

Snack, pretty close to lunchtime, 3 caramel clusters (candy): 230 cal.

Snack before exercise: 1 plum, 1 enviga drink 30 cal.

Dinner: 2 plums, tofu, kelp noodles, tomato, mushrooms, mixed vegetables for stir fry, tomato.

Total cal: 1460. could've been lower, but I went all out on dinner and breakfast. still, nice calories and I am happy!

goodnight everyone, thanks for your comments!!!

I'm trying to comment in my spare time on all of your entries!

Justine6Robert3 on 03/04/2007:
Great job on your calories!! I don't think your breakfast was to big besides your crazy busy so your body just needs that little bit of extra fuel in the morning. They say its the most important meal, right! At least if your meals are big in the beginning of the day you know your going to burn it off through out the day!

I hope you have a nice sleep so you can get back at that hectic schedule of yours tomorrow:)


girliegirl6486 on 03/04/2007:
Nice job on the calories! I think it's time I start keeping track of those again...letting myself slide too much lately.


smiley2 on 03/05/2007:
Good job on sticking to those foods and not opting for fast food options, just cause youre busy!


sweetpea1977 on 03/05/2007:
Your calories and food choices rock. I think you made a good choice for breakfast as it probably did wonders for your metabolism as well as keep you full for a long time.

As for lack of free time for exercise, you can do several 5-10 minute mini sessions throughout the day. Or you can do things like take the stairs instead of elevators, park further away from buildings, and any other simple thing you can do to squeeze more exercise into your hectic day. All those little things add up!


Moody on 03/05/2007:
I can relate all too well with the schedule getting in the way of working out!! But you have done great!! Good for you for hitting the gym so late in the day! I would've slacked off and gone home and vegged!

I am curious...all the healthy foods you eat..is that expensive to keep up?


WorkingIt2 on 03/05/2007:
February challenge totals are posted! Congratulations!!

http://www.dietdiaries.com/forums/forums.cfm?fuseaction=readmessage&messageID=3059&category=Inspiration%20%2D%20Motivation&categoryID=3


greengirl on 03/05/2007:
Where does all the time go to!! sometimes there just aren't enough hours in the day. Your food choices were all great. What impresses me the most is how you always make enough time to give support to your fellow DDers. You are a great inspiration :0)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Mar 03, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

2 fantastic WI points! It was close, I almost didn't stop at the gym.

Thankfully, my busy day added to less calorie consumption besides the tremendous breakfast which i detailed in my entry below this one.

Calories:

Breakfast: 1190

Snack/Lunch: tofu, 2 plum tomatoes 130

Dinner: 3 packages of kelp noodles (i was trying to just stuff myself so I wouldn't try to binge...it worked), bag of salad, no-cal balsamic dressing, lo cal spray dressing, oregano, bbq shredded chicken 180

Snack: yogurt 80

Snack after exercising: light yogurt 60

total: 1640 cal!

not bad, not bad.

Justine6Robert3 on 03/04/2007:
Thats an excellent total considering your breakfast was so large!! At least most of your food was healthy:)


WorkingIt2 on 03/04/2007:
Great job!! My biggish breakfast was this morning...sometimes I love the weekend because of that reason LOL


borntocry on 03/04/2007:
Good job warding off that binge!


aaronwilliam00 on 03/04/2007:
I have spoken with a dietician and with my body and my metabolic output, this is what he chose for me. A high protein diet along with eating every 3 hours keeps your metabolism up to speed. Its all under control. Thank you


aaronwilliam00 on 03/04/2007:
Hey, no problems, I know you were only trying to help. :) I have started to BBQ veggies in a little bit of olive oil, that is a pretty tasty treat. The salads arent too bad, i just have to add a little bit of variety to my veggies. Its definately a tough diet....its laid out in my second comment. Lots of cardio and weight lifting. The more muscle you have, the faster your metabolism due to ATP (energy) processing. ATP is what makes the world go round. Same thing with the mitochondria of a cell (the powerplant). The more muscle, the more cells, the more mitochondria, the more ATP produced thus more energy and a higher metabolic output. I guess Anatomy and Human physiology really paid off. :) Keep working hard, you are doing a great job!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Mar 02, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

update saturday morning:

I had a large breakfast this morning. Well, it was sort of a binge. I took generous portions of everything I wanted and then finally stopped.

Breakfast: tofu, egg, yogurt, apple: 300 Binge following my breakfast: 1 cup cottage cheese (160), 2 servings tortilla chips (280), 1 serving potato chips (150), 1 half avacado (150), and then I went back for the other half the avacado (150). this avacado has probably been sitting in the refrigerator for one whole month!

Total Breakfast calories: 1190

I will allow a maximum of 2000 calories today...in my head, i was almost going to allow 2500. however, I think that the balance of 810 calories left should get me through the day (especially because I will not be home all day!) ...if I need to, I'll go up to 2100 or 2200... ____________________________________________________________

haha, 1 piece of chocolate, 2000 calories total for today. I am okay with that.

edit: I also had a tomato and pepper. total calories - 1960 _________________________________________________________

Hi. I've recovered since yesterday's negative entry!

WI Points: 2

Today I had a really enjoyable time playing duets and having dinner with a fellow horn player! It was a good time and good food. She knows how much I enjoy vegetables and the dinner was awesome. A veggie stir-fry with some awesome japanese noodles (even though I don't eat noodles myself...i wouldn't ever refuse them when I am company...and they were good!)...then, i ate some hefty desserts. One had a few wafer layers with vanilla pudding and banana in between. Then, 7 entenmann's (sp?) cookies, and then a small frozen pudding/jello dessert as well. The desserts definitely upped the day's total, but I did plan for it. so, all is well!

Foods:

Breakfast: Peach, emergen-c, tofu, egg, yogurt....followed by some coffee at work with milk. 305

Snack: egg 75...later a piece of cantelope 20

Lunch: carrots, tofu, tomato 140

Snack: yogurt (light), tea and milk 90

Dinner: piece of sushi with just rice/water chestnut 20, japanese noodles, veggies and chicken stir-fry. 450 Dessert: large wafers with pudding and banana filling 400; 7 entenman's cookies 320 , frozen pudding/jello dessert 80.

comes out to about 1910. I doubt it was anything more!

Goodnight, time to comment on some journals!!!!!

Thanks for bearing with me this week!

Justine6Robert3 on 03/02/2007:
Sounds like you had a much better day today than yesturday:) I'm glad you had a nice relaxing time at dinner! My sister sometimes makes me crazy also but it's not so bad because we don't live together anymore!!

My daughter's school was only closed yesturday and it was open today. She takes the bus and all of the buses were cancelled today including some of the public transit. We had a nasty storm! It started with snow and then turned into freezing rain. Her school actually isn't quick to close it was just brutal weather and for the safety of our kids they don't run buses when the roads are that bad. This is the first time we have had the bus cancelled 2 days in a row, its not common. There was all sorts of businesses, restaurants etc that closed down last night and I've never seen that happen, especially restaurants!! I hope that's the last blast of winter we will get!

Have a great week-end!


Runner on 03/02/2007:
yum! Sounded like a great dinner!

Are you still weighing yourself?


WorkingIt2 on 03/03/2007:
I am so happy that you mentioned upping the calories on my journal! Since then, I've read many articles about how people who have lost a significant amount of weight, who also workout, should start increasing the calories a little more to help the body release fat. I must say that the calorie cycling is interesting and kind of gives me something to look forward to LOL.

Anyway...your sister sounds like mine. My sister and I had a fight a couple months ago, I'm sure you remember. Anyway, I thought we were all done being upset with each other...she tells my 14 y/o daughter that she is still mad at me! And then swears my daughter to secrecy??? "Don't tell your mom..." OMG I was LIVID. She blames everyone and everything else for all her troubles in life and whines about everything. She is always looking to pick a fight, always on the muscle, tense, unhappy and 100% miserable. She is only friends with people who are more miserable than herself so that she can feel vindicated in her own unwarranted misery. It made me feel awful that she said she was still mad at me...until I faced the reality of the fact that my sister is probably:

A. Has a mental illness (which I have strongly suspected for years)

B. Is jealous of me

or all of the above. My daughter was sharing casual conversation with me about what they had talked about..all the stories my sister told from our childhood, and NOTHING my sister said was negative about herself. It was ALWAYS someone elses' fault that she is fat, shy, lazy, scared, whatever. And then I started looking at her email that I've saved over the years...everything "Then my husband FORCED me to go to the ice cream store, I swear HE is making me fat" (caps added for emphasis) and various other things. I'm not sure about your sisters deal, but I do know how frustrating, madding and heartbreaking it is to be the other sister. My parents spend (and spent while we were growing up) 90% of their time focused on her because she is such a baby and has to have all the attention...even at 37 years old.

I finally just had to say to myself in my head that my sister has been a miserable person her entire life, selfish, jealous, trite, and petty..and it isn't going to change anytime soon. I am thankful I don't have to live with her and I am not sure how I would handle it if I did. I do know she got her better than everyone attitude as well as her negativity from our grandmother. There is simply nothing I can do. I told my daughter that if her aunt is still mad at me, that is her problem and she shouldn't worry about it. You don't know how badly I want to drive to my sisters house and tell her to stop playing gossip games with my daughter...but my daughter loves her aunt and my sister would cut contact with her and that would hurt far more than it hurts to know that my sister is being a nasty b*t*h.

The one positive thing, it has made me appreciate the struggles I have gone through to get where I am in life today, and to know that I didn't end up being miserable and wretched. I only hope my sister will find help for her mental illness and I still hold out hope that perhaps she and I will eventually have a normal sisterhood. Anything is possible, right? =)

Saturday, March 3, 2007 The courage to be you You are unique, with your own special beauty and value to give to life. What a terrible shame it would be if you were to let that beauty be hidden behind your fears. When you worry that you're not good enough, you allow others to control you, and their domination will soon make you miserable. Or when you fool yourself into thinking you're superior to everyone else, you deny yourself the exquisite joy of offering your own special gifts to life.

It takes courage and faith, effort and initiative to be who you are. And it is so very much worth the effort.

Though no one else can do it for you, you have what it takes to be magnificently successful at being you. From the deepest secrets of your soul to the face you put forward to the world, every bit of you is meant to be the authentic and original person you are.

Listen to that quiet, persistent voice inside that you know is always right. This is your opportunity to fulfill and express the real and lasting joy of being you.

Let the beautiful person inside of you come more fully to life as each moment passes. Let yourself, and the world around you, know the joy and fulfillment that is meant just for you to express.

-- Ralph Marston


borntocry on 03/03/2007:
Gosh, those desserts sound incredible! You know, it's funny, even though I live in a country which is known for its desserts, I still prefer the American desserts with pudding, jello, banana, wafers, etc. The only problem is that it's hard to know when to stop!

Glad you had such a nice time with your fellow musician. You guys should do this more often! Although I guess it might be hard for you to invite her over to your place with your family around. You probably don't want her to witness WWIII breaking out!



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