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Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Nov 09, 2007

Weight: 124.0

Saturday AM entry:

The plan today is to take a 6 mi walk outside, even though it'll only be about 40 degrees today!!! I am also going to see a movie and pick up a book to study for a radiation therapy entrance exam. I ate a substantial amount this morning and I will not limit myself to 1200 calories because that is too low for today since I've already had 540 calories and it's 9am.

Friday evening entry:

well, today could have EASILY been 1200. i was doing well until 7:30pm. then, i did binge on all carbs: apple, nachos, ritz crackers, banana, bread.

oh well. 2225 calories today.

tomorrow i plan on doing a long walk and seeing a movie.

if i did stick to 1200 today, my binging last week would have been totally made up for. now, i've got a ways to go before my average calories decrease from what they are now.

ummmm. that's it.

total exercise: just 25 min.

9 hrs, 15 min.

mylifechanges on 11/09/2007:
remember, it's all about having more good days than bad days. :) excellent advice, my friend. keep it up. you're doing great!


FRITTERS on 11/09/2007:
You are doing really well, just have to figure a way out of those binges. Have you tried needle work-latch hook- something that keeps your hands busy and doesn't allow eating? Good ol self denile is the best but sure is hard!


fritters on 11/10/2007:
For being a long time binger, you hold your weight very good. You are not over weight for 5" 2". Maybe your times of regular eating ballances out your binging. You also do a lot of exercise - that is a huge plus! Happy Saturday


mcwoo40 on 11/10/2007:
Hi,Just passing to say 'hello'.You seem to be getting back on track,keep it up,Julie


greengirl on 11/10/2007:
Hi HoP. I just wanted to thank you for your constant support and advice to us all. You are always here, even when you yourself are struggling at times. Take care of yourself :o)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Nov 08, 2007

Weight: 124.0

today was pretty good, too. I was pretty busy at work and so it was easy to cut calories throughout the workday.

I had a bunch of snacks when I got home to make up for that, of course!

Today's calories will be 1200, which is great!!! :)

I exercised 25 min in the AM. 45 min pm. total = 70 min :) I hope you are all well. :)

8 hrs 40 min = November exercise total! :)

mskitty on 11/08/2007:
Sigh ha ha I hear ya on the hole sister problem thing.... my sister in the last year has caused me and Tyler a lot of stress. But what can you do ....family right...*rolls eyes*


weightlossyoyo on 11/08/2007:
YOU DID GREAT TODAY!


fritters on 11/08/2007:
I am very envious of those that get along well with ALL their sibblings. I also have an EVIL SISTER! It looks like you had a really good day. Hope tomorrow is another.


tourguidebarbie on 11/09/2007:
Hey! Great job! And sorry about the sister thing... There is always one.. lol. :)


Maria7 on 11/09/2007:
Wow! 1200 sounds fantastic! WTG!!!


mylifechanges on 11/09/2007:
wow, look at you go! :) You're doing great HOP! Thanks for the encouragement on my site. I'm chugging along. :) Still can't figure out how to change your age yet, huh? I think mine changed automatically this summer? Or maybe not. I can't really remember. haha.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Nov 07, 2007

Weight: 124.0

today was ok. 1200 calories. 25min walk and 25 min bike. 50 min.

once again my sister is causing major troubles and i'm starting to get FED up again.

she's blamed me for using her "novelty" Italian body wash that in fact is NOT hers at all but a gift to ME from TWO years ago when i was teaching.

Is she seriously EVER going to STOP!

she blames everything and anything on me...for NO reason. she is to blame for everything lately. she needs to stop acting like a mother to an older sister - ME! especially because she CANNOT do crap for herself.

don't expect things of me and not do them yourself...and more!

arg arg arg.

rae_regenbogen on 11/08/2007:
Sisters! I feel your pain. My older sister just declared that we all have to go to her house for Christmas. I want to tell her she can shove her tree...well, you know where.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Nov 06, 2007

Weight: 124.0

today turned out well...even though i definitely ate a little too many crackers and chips at lunch.

1950 cal.

25 min walk in AM.

afternoon: 6 mi walk!!! :)

total exercise: 2 hr, 25 min :) it felt so great!

total November exercise: 6 hr, 40 min :) yes, i'm making a comeback from the dismal beginning of this month!

i hope everyone else had a wonderful day too. Now, i just need my mom to get ready to vote...we were going to go over as a family...but she's all tired from work and would rather rest and go out later. gosh. ugh.


Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Nov 05, 2007

Weight: 124.0

Today has been good. I stuck to my plans. That's a good sign. Even better is tomorrow, a day off. I thought I had today off until last night! haha. oops, I should have known Election Day is always a Tuesday!

Calories will be about 1200.

Exercise: 25 min so far in AM. PM = 35 min walk and 15 min bike. Yesterday, I was hoping for more exercise but I bummed out.

total Nov = 4hr, 15min :)

Thanks everyone for your entries. I wasn't up to leaving much feedback this weekend because when I'm in a slump I sometimes find it hard to give motivation to others...or writing things that I don't feel at that particular moment. Your comments were more than helpful! Thank you!

As for tomorrow, I actually have a couple errands to run. then, i would like to go to the park to walk if the weather's good. I also may go see a movie, since i didn't see any this weekend.

I don't know whats up with this guy and plans. We never did end up getting in touch; and I haven't heard from him since Wed. Maybe he's no longer interested. we'll see. however, another guy is actually interested, surprisingly. however, i don't think we have much in common. But, i said i was interested anyway. We may have lunch Sunday.

tomorrow's exercise goals: 25 min AM. afternoon: park. goal: 4 miles.

Bye for now.

legcramps on 11/05/2007:
Good job today! I know exactly what you mean about trying to write motivating things when you're down in the slumps. Keep at it!


reenie3 on 11/05/2007:
You're doing fantastic! You seem to have a great routine going and it's working! I need to do that. Routine works everytime...I just can't seem to do things for myself you know? I think we all understand that from time to time! Keep up the great work! Reenie


rae_regenbogen on 11/06/2007:
You shouldn't be so surprised that someone would want to go on a date with you. You sound really nice!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Nov 04, 2007

Weight: 124.0

exercise was 4 mi. = 1 hr, 20 min.

calories were 2150.

i do have a plan for the week, being it's a short work week for me since teachers have off tuesday. tomorrow will be a 1500 cal day. mon, wed, thurs, fri will be 1200. for me, 1200 can be difficult, but less so when i'm working. i'll have to deal with it since i'm the one that made the choice to eat poorly these past couple days. then, next weekend, i'll up the calories to 2000 each day.

i've been researching radiation therapy, similiar to radiography. however, i believe more science and math may be involved and i KNOW i would have to study a lot for the entrance exam. It may in fact be over my head, although i don't want to say that just yet. Radiography is certainly where i'm headed if radiation therapy doesn't work. To be frank, teaching music utterly scares me right now - haha, not teaching all music, i know i could teach elementary band and prob middle school band well. i was just offered an elementary leave position that includes JAZZ. that's what scares me. i've done it actually these past two years, teaching jazz. but, i'm staying where i am...i may not even be paid as a teacher, maybe just a sub. who knows. it doens't matter.

Donkey on 11/04/2007:
Yes, and you are young, you have good health, you have your whole life ahead of you. There are no wrong decisions, just changes in the path you take. You can always change paths, backtrack, whatever. This decision you have to make isn't anything that's irreparable. You will be amazed at the number of opportunities there are out there, in many aspects of your life (not just career/job).

Let's have a frank chat: If you are offered the teaching job but you decide to go to radiology school, that doesn't mean you can never ever go back to teaching music or teaching period. If radiology doesn't work out for you, go back to subbing to get back into the teaching game (and then progress from there). On the other hand, if you take the teaching job and you hate it, you can always apply to radiology school again. If it is your desire, you will apply as many times as it takes. It's not like this is a final decision and there's no turning back ever.

Now if you have not been accepted to radiology school yet, then you are taking a chance. But if things don't work out the way you planned, then it's "back to the drawing board", not the end of your life. Come on, Horn, you are resilient.


fritters on 11/04/2007:
Listen to Donkey - she makes a lot of sense!! And yes, today can be anything you MAKE it to be! Happy Sunday


reenie3 on 11/04/2007:
Hey there! You are absolutely right! Once fall comes...time runs like the wind! I like what you typed today! Your day can be whatever you make it!

I always think we should never underestimate ourselves and what we can acheive as women. There is so much out there for us to do, and all we have to do is say yes...this is for me and I am going for it!

You stay motivated and strong and whatever you want will be yours! God Bless! Hugs! Reenie


mylifechanges on 11/04/2007:
hey there- thanks for the encouragement on my site! I agree, and I honestly think that intuitive eating is going to be what saves me from the food mess that I've found myself in. I'll admit that it may not be easy, but it just makes too much sense. :)

And I agree with the comments above- we're around the same age and I think the most exciting part about being in our twenties is knowing that life is full of adventures for us to chase down. Don't be afraid to try something new for fear of breaking out of the present. Like Donkey said, you can always work your way back into teaching (the world- especially the music world- is desperate for great teachers) but I think our regrets typically center around the things we DON'T do in life rather than finding comfort in the familiar! You're capable of great things- so believe in yourself!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Nov 03, 2007

Weight: 124.0

binged today, just like yesterday. total = 3450.

probably NO exercise. we'll see.

fritters on 11/03/2007:
You need to sit down and figure out what is going on in your life to cause all this binging. You are no where close to being over weight, but binging isn't good for any of us.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Nov 02, 2007

Weight: 124.0

Saturday: binged in AM. 1550. binged rest of say...update later.

Friday:

it's midnight. my stomach is full but i just woke up and haven't eaten for awhile. so i had turkey on this white wrap that was in my house. 250 cal.

4250 cal.

i just couldn't hold out long enough. i binged this morning and this afternoon. last binge before today was was tuesday, oct 23rd. 10 days apart.

25 min AM walk. 25 min exercise. blah.

total November: 1hr, 40 min.

well, i binged bc of the usual stresses along with what i talked about yesterday in my diary.

i just need to chill tonight. to read, to relax, to think.

4 days of 1500 should undo this bad day. however, i'm not going to force myself to do 1500 cal days, 4 in a row, although this is what i would like. If i did, this wishfull thinking would turn bingy for sure.

at first, i thought i'd be going on a date this weekend. Last night i knew that wasn't happening bc we couldn't make plans because of phone tag. Because of that, i felt like i could binge bc i don't need to dress up this weekend at all. lol.

fritters on 11/02/2007:
That binging is not a good thing. Have you tried crushed ice or gum just to keep your mouth busy?


Donkey on 11/02/2007:
I figured that was coming. I would do the same thing.

Try this (if you can/want): Definitely chill and relax tonight. Set aside periods of time tomorrow where you will devote time to thinking about your choices. I would recommend during walking and/or exercising. Then, when you are not in these specific times, do not think about it. At all.

I can't tell you what you should do or what you should not do. But I would keep in mind that if you go the radiologist route, you will not have a problem finding a job afterwards. On the other hand, working for the schools is supposed to be *jackpot* because of the union/pensions.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Nov 01, 2007

Weight: 124.0

Friday morning edit:

Slight binge this morning at 4am...couldn't sleep. i was thinking about what is mentioned in this entry. 1100 cal for breakfast. however, i will adjust calories today so i am not inclined to feel like i'm starving myself later in the day. Calories will be 2200-2500 total today.

Thursday entry:

shiiiiiit. i had 180 more calories before bed bc i went to bed late staying up waiting for a phone call.

a cool 1560 :)...changed to 1740 cal.

exercise: a cool hour and 15 min!!!

25 min am, 25 min afternoon, 25 min pm :) (all slow to moderate walking!) and, good exercise throughout day at work. ahhh. feels nice.

my goal for November exercise is 40 hours. October's total was 37 hours, 25 min.

...I've got BIG problems heading down the pike...I can totally feel it!!! I will write more about this either tonight or this weekend. It has to do with final decisions on becoming a music teacher. I'm doing a good job as a teaching assistant in reading...but there may be an opening for music in the district THIS year. I don't know much else, but I have not told any of the teachers my ideas on going to Radiographic Technology School because its TOO early in the year to bring it up. Also, bringing something up like that makes me look like I don't want to work with these kids at all...and that is not the impression i want to give of myself - especially not in the month of November, so far from June. There are soooo many more months to go of school...and soooo many more things I need to take care of and make decisions about.

I haven't played my french horn, my main instrument, since July. I don't miss it. I may have to actually turn down a band job in the district if I am asked if I want it. And why? Because if its not what i want to do, i'm not doing it.

Also, every teacher with think i'm a complete nutcase when i turn it down. I may have to actually speak to a bunch of people if i actually do get offered any position. This is probably all a rumor. Hopefully.

I hope its a rumor because i don't want to make the choice.

My intent was to pay for 2 years of education to get liscensed as a radiographist. When a teacher pulled me aside today and mentioned this music thing to me and how she's not at liberty to say anything else, it made me SICK. Then, a friend of mine, who teaches general music in the school, walked by. I actually had to go talk to her i was so upset because now my intent has been messed with! haha. i told my friend why I was soo upset. But, i cannot mention it to any other teacher in the school. its my secret (the fact that i'm looking to move to the health field). A secret that is hard to keep, for sure! No other teacher, except for two assistants that i know well, knows anything about my other desires. It is VERY hard to look enthusiastic about something that I think will end: my days as a music educator. actually, i thought they were over until this morning.

ugh.

calories are going to be about 1500 and i'm going for a walk. one last update later.

fritters on 11/01/2007:
You had a good day today - congratulations! What is a radiographist? Being a music teacher sounds like a lot of fun - but only if your heart is in it. Good luck if you have to make a decission.


Donkey on 11/02/2007:
Thought of you on Thursday. Husband had a CT scan at the hospital for his mysterious GI problems. Ironic enough, now with this decision that you have to make.

Really hard to say which way to choose. Are you accepted already into a radiology program? Have you been offered the music job yet? If not, you might be worrying for nothing if they don't offer it to you.

Keep in mind that you need to do what makes you happy. Really, life sucks if you are at a job you do not enjoy.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Oct 31, 2007

Weight: 124.0

total exercise in October was 37 hours and 25 min :)

tomorrow WILL be a better eating day. today was stinky.

Happy Halloween.

alright, i added two yogurts to my dinner.

calories were 1560...total is about 1720 now. i'm trying hard to not eat any candy. it's almost bedtime...candy will do me NO good!

today was soooo weird, to say the least. haha. i'm not going into detail bc i am sooo tired.

i almost had a binge after school! thank god for the healthy vegetables that i bought...they TOTALLY helped to prevent it!

this morning was bingy as well. ahhh. but, when i look at the scale, and see that the numbers have NOT decreased at all, I feel MUCH less tempted to overindulge.

25min exercise in AM (i decided to do 25 instead of 20 today...instead of starting tomorrow!) and now 35 min.

today's exercise: 1 hr.

fritters on 10/31/2007:
You have used some really good self control today - way to go!!


hollybelle on 11/01/2007:
Hope you slept well and will check with you tomorrow.


rae_regenbogen on 11/01/2007:
I hope you made it through the evening! Good luck today! :)



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