home
forums directory search about DD
Sign-in or Join for Free!
Recent Diary Entries
grannyannie 4:36A
Horn_Of_Plenty 4:35A
happy-1 1:11P
InnerPeace 11:26A
Duaa123. 12/06
hollybelle 12/06
Donkey 12/05
OhioRaven 12/05
Puddles 12/05
museumgirl 12/04
thinkpositive 11/17
trishpiglet3 11/06
biscottibody59 10/01
fluffymarmar 9/07
LOLLA 9/07
Diamond50 8/31
thinnside40 8/11
Leighann 8/05
spirity 7/27
WickedCurves 7/25
Cybermom4 7/24
AsMuchToLove 7/12
Jennax3 7/04
FearDfear 6/16
SuperCheeseSara 6/16

Recent Forum Topics
WEBMASTER: Replies to comments on diary - 10:50A 7-Sep

DD Maintenance - 05/14/2015 - 2:52A 25-Jul

My First time! - 2:11A 27-Apr

Shoes - 4:55P 19-Nov

Webmaster - Weight Charts on my Diary - 7:42A 9-Oct

Summary: No-Fat-Added Plant-Based Eating - 1:24P 23-Apr

view Horn_Of_Plenty bio page
Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Nov 19, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Total calories: 2120.

6-day average: 2060 per day. decent. not for weightloss, but decent to maintain i'm sure.

No exercise.

Ran errands after work: dropped off library books, picked up a couple new ones, picked up MORE Thai food lol (need to be prepared for night in and not at gym), and picked up a prescription (for the anxiety pills) and ended up also getting a free flu shot while there since I didn't get one & i'm finally not sick anymore (took me 3 weeks to get over that sinus virus!).

so, all in all, a success.

And...only had caffeine in morning = HUGE success. I was started to have way too much caffeine since last week or so. Way too much - like drinks other than coffee in the afternoon - energy drinks (sugar free of course...) but those are really unhealthy to have, especially if I start having them often. They are addictive and I didn't need one tonight...I need my rest is what I need! :-D I made the RIGHT choice.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

750 before lunch, cravings like crazy for carbs. I did sleep a lot but...who knows.

I may choose to have some extra carbs / calories with lunch....calories up this week, but will make it better Thanksgiving weekend. can do no more right now / today. raising carbs and calories today to around 2000 at least.

lunch: fish 150 at most, rice 250 at least?, kale 100? 500...may have pretzels or something too. I do have a small bag, 110 cal. 610...

60 small apple

Large dinner: tons of veggies in basil sauce again 300-350, tofu 100, shirataki noodles (no calories, only yam fiber), and lots of tasty white rice (little more than one cup, but packed in) in that sauce around 250. great dinner. healthy dinner. vitamin water zero for dessert with stevia. It's not a week to joke around or watch calories, sorry Jackie! haha. Around 700 total calories for dinner = decent for a big meal!

total calories: 2120. I'd say it's a success. Rough week and running on fumes definitely. been way too tired this week so taking it easy tonight and tomorrow night. Gym Saturday.

I may skip the gym tonight bc I have been exceedingly tired all week and having too much caffeine and my ankle is getting tight...so...may skip & just go Saturday or Friday instead...Yes, gym skipped. will go on Saturday.

will skip gym tonight.

my dinner will be tons of tofu with vegetables & relaxation / reading. and that's it...yeah...and then Monday & Wednesday of next week instead of tues / thurs which works good for thanksgiving anyways.

 

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/19/2015:
Healthy menu.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Nov 18, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Total cals today probably around 2,000.

 5-day average - 2,050 per day. decent. if I eat better calories the next two days, I can bring the average down a little bit into the 1900's/day. decent for sure. and good overall actually. so that's the goal. to make Thursday & Friday even better calorie days (1700-1800 per day)

Had a VERY eventful afternoon after work, maybe chat about it another time...nothing major, catching up with a friend. nothing more than talking.

anyways, really emotionally hungry afterwards despite what it was. just not good. luckily I had lots of veggies but in sauce, but I needed to fill myself but I feel good and it wasn't completely overdone. definitely full, but no crazy binging on chips. just 200 cals in sweet potato chips which aren't too terrible for you...

950 cals at dinner: tilapia probably no more than 150 cal, steamed bok choy around 50, TONS of veggies cooked first in a ginger sauce 300, and also in a basil sauce 200?...and chips 200. total around: 900 ouch, guess I didn't plan that as well as I thought. was good. what can I say....and leftover roasted artichoke lol. 50.

total: around 2000.

15 minute slow walk at lunch, still working on healing my ankle more.

too much caffeine, all day long, doesn't help. tomorrow will be better at least caffeine-wise :)

however, otherwise, foods were pretty darn good today. all healthy.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/19/2015:
Healthy meals!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Nov 17, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

4 day average = 2060 per day.

Plan for rest of the week = low calories (stay in a range of 1650-1850) as holidays are approaching & also my goal to reach 115 and not to keep maintaining.  So, i'm learning how to eat less during the workday. It's working. Smaller meals in morning, but still satisfying carbs midmorning...making it work. also, filling stomach at work in the early morning with tea / coffee (even decaf.) Making the effort and decision to be satisfied for less calories. I can do this. The only way to change your weight, is to actually make a change in diet. that means to actually eat less calories than I am used to. It means I have to follow thru.  I cannot go on autopilot, but must make the decision the make change...doing it :-D

Total around 1650, good job to me.

Full weights routine. Caffeine sure helps. And so does motivation to finish quickly!

AM: Kombucha :-D 100 cal

Morning at work: banana & coffee 200

Midmorning: 1/2 pb & sf jelly 150 (later i'll have the second half before gym...) worked out well bc I got really busy lol at work..which helps suppress the eating..! (300)

Lunch: white rice 250 at least, greens 50, fish 200: around 550 i'd say...adding in extra

before gym: add the apple very small 50....will do low cals today...

still before gym, a quest chocolate protein bar bc i'm starting to run on fumes (was not planning on getting to gym an hour or so late, not really mad, just tired)

after gym: Cliff white chocolate macadamia bar. (I knew it would be stupid to have only protein & these bars are high in carbs and moderate on protein)

total around 1650, good job to me.

it's 6pm and i'm home getting changed before gym - late start on gym - original plan was to get there around 5:30pm, now I am feeling a bit tired, trying to get in the spirit, stayed at work a half hour late tonight, gonna try to get there early tomorrow so I can leave the rest of the week at 4:30pm...bc i'm feeling it....tired...we'll see....happy to go work out soon...

 

 

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/17/2015:
Good plan. Have a good day.


Maria7 on 11/17/2015:
Looks like you are doing well! :-D


Maria7 on 11/18/2015:
Hoping you are having a good day today. :-)


thinkpositive on 11/18/2015:
Take care,



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Nov 16, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Early drink: kombucha 100

Morning at work: banana, tea, coffee, peanut butter & sf jelly on wheat bread (sticking with easy to digest carbs, very bloated in AM)

Lunch: kale, white rice, leftover sea bass

snack: sucking candy, tiny apple

Till end of workday, all healthy, higher on the carbs: 1200.

Dinner: was going to be low, ended up having 300 cal in chips.  so, 600 cal for dinner, not healthy - it was a protein bar, some veggies, and chips. probably bc I binged yesterday, i can't keep the carbs too low bc i'm still coming off a big spike from yesterday. I feel good now though. ..

Exercise: I may walk for 10 minutes, but i'm thinking I may as well go to bed early tonight & just relax at home...maybe 10 minutes stairclimbing. i'm sorta cold, that should warm me up!

total cal today: decent, 1800.

 

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 11/17/2015:
Sounds like a nice normal kind of day for you. Now get the candy out of your mouth.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/17/2015:
yes, it was a good day overall, OR :-D


grannyannie on 11/17/2015:
Good plans for today. Don't stress about the chips.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/17/2015:
yeah, seems lately they hit the spot, now I've finished the big bag! time NOT to buy more for awhile, and eat more normal carbs like bread, potatoes, rice instead!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Nov 15, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

2600 total calories today.

Saturday & Sunday 2-day average: 2400/day = sh*tty. Moving on from it though. Hopefully my stomach will be ok tomorrow because I ate way too much this afternoon & i'm really, really full & bloated.

Seems it's been an emotional roller coaster (probably in a good way overall) since returning to work around 1 month ago. I've had very high ups and sorta very low lows. Working on this. Tomorrow I will go to my therapist & discuss everything with him after work...and also the dr to discuss medicine i'm on and if anything needs adjusting.

Any advice regarding my best friend in yesterday's entry is appreciated...

Calories thru morning: 700

12pm frozen yogurt 200

2:30-3:15pm Huge lunch: cooked artichokes (a ton) 350?, cooked spinach 150, cooked carrot/cauliflower/broccoli 100, roasted turkey 100?,chips 400 (pretty sure it was 3 servings, not 2.) and a really tasty coffee drink 120 (this meal = 1220 cals)

4:45pm: dried fruit 80

today was a binge from 2:30pm-3:15pm....it's ok, moving forward...I think the binge was caused mostly emotionally...but also had some caffeine in AM, maybe not enough carbs before workout..chips are my go-to it seems for carbs / fat. I'm ok with this increase in calories and I may not eat again till tomorrow morning.

6pm: bar 200, protein Quest chocolate brownie (eating only protein as I had a ton of carbs earlier & I was only eating so I wasn't fasting & wasn't intentionally starving myself - just to get thru the rest of the night...

7:50: same kind of bar - Quest chocolate brownie protein 200 (for purpose of being satisfied thru the night & that's it)

2600 total.

also in the AM, a weights / upper body workout at gym...it was sorta weak, lacking energy...maybe bc I haven't done a morning workout in a long time.

 

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/16/2015:
Hope things start to look up soon!


thinkpositive on 11/16/2015:
Being aware of your eating is a start, right?



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Nov 14, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Overall 2200 cal and one hour walking.

Happy birthday to my mom! She's 62 today.  My dad is at a conference in Hawaii (it's never in a great location like that...he got so lucky because usually the conventions are in places like Ohio or Michigan or Canada..without the lovely weather and beaches...haha) anyways, it's a work convention, but my mom went of course! After the week of the convention, they're staying there an extra week as a vacation. Duh! They deserve it.  They both work hard and don't go away often. so, happy bday to my mom in Hawaii! I think they now have one more week there & then they come home next Friday or Saturday...right before Thanksgiving :-)

Excited about time off work for the Thanksgiving holiday in a couple weeks & time with my family.  I am beginning to really enjoy seeing them when the holidays come...I used to be all uptight about the food and nervous about having to deal with all the richer foods, but now, I don't care as much.  I am beginning to relax more...

8:30m Big breakfast: Oatbran with almond milk 150, 3/4 cup egg whites 90, small banana 100, peanut butter 150, stevia and cinnamon, kombucha 70, more kombucha. Total: 600, good.

close to noon, early lunch - chips 230,  white potato w/ some curry 100?, asparagus 20, and white meat chicken, some skin, little sauce around 250. total: 600, good.

around 2:30pm: coffee drink 120

5pm: Fage 0% greek yogurt 100

total before dinner: 1420, decent. allowing myself up to 2200 today...and will get rice with dinner, not only veggies.

dinner out tonight...nervous about saving calories, but I shouldn't worry so much & just enjoy the time out...

Tonight i'm finally getting together with my coworker. Happy for this.  I'll drive to her & then we are driving to a mall I haven't been to! It's another mall in Queens and they have Hibachi (like Japanese bbq where they cook in front of you). should be great. change of pace. Just the two of us girls and not my best friend or anyone else. Needed this change of pace, glad my coworker was available (her bf works nights on the weekends...so she is pretty available to go out even though she's in a 5year relationship with him..). I haven't had Hibachi in years...and excited for those veggies...lol...and more excited for time with her than with anyone else right now.

Need your advice:

My best friend last week when we met up in the city for the brunch made it difficult for me a tad bit in that I realize that it's not a good time or usually good ending when she does come out with my other friends.  For some reason or another, it almost always ends badly at the end. Because she's in such a panic to leave / go home at the end, things get messy - every time. As I look back, it's been this way since she started coming out with this other group of friends of mine - for several years now.  So, it gets messy as we're all leaving, and then i'm left with a sour ending of my whole time with my friends - and also i'm left with a negative perception of the ending of the night and also of my best friend. It makes me not want to contact her - to even speak to her on the phone or even hang out with her for awhile...

This time it was because she was going home on a different subway station & train from me. I know she was anxious about it. And it just turned bad when everyone was leaving. I told her she could always get a snack before her 40 min train ride (after the subway) back to Westchester. But, instead of answering anything normal back, in front of the whole group of folks (around 8), she answered "thanks, Mom, I can take care of myself, thank you..." It's unlike her to speak to me this way & it embarrassed me completely. I had no answer back.

I am sick of her embarrassing me.  Sometimes, a friend will ask her something and she will actually just put it on me somehow - i'm just sick of her bouncing things off of me and putting me in a bad position because she's anxious about just about everything. I was only looking out for her, which she usually loves that I do because she practically asks me to - anyways, sick of her nonsense right now.

Been thinking about this on and off during the week.  She is always getting stressed over the small stuff - like any different plans out of the normal or hanging out with my other friends and not just me. She takes offense to basically everything people say to her, taking it personally. 

I decided that for now on, I just won't invite her to meet up anymore with me when I am meeting up with them too.  Or, if they invite her, i'm not going to suggest she go because i'm going. I'm not going to push her to go because i'm going. I'll tell her it doesn't matter to me one bit - that it's her personal decision to go if she wants to & it's not going to affect anything with me.

I just don't need to deal with the extra stress of wanting her to have a good time, partially looking out for her at times, feeling anxious that she can get there ok (be able to meet me in the city at a subway platform or anything out of the normal from meeting me at my apartment which is what we usually do)...it's just not worth me getting stressed bc she decides to make everything stressful.

We all have different friends (more than 1 friend) for different reasons. so, knowing this, i'm not pushing my best friend ANYMORE to do ANYTHING with my other friends. Sucks, yes. But it saves me stress of worrying about her. I need to worry about myself first, not the health of my best friend. she's making my plans stressful.  I'd rather just go out & meet them and not deal with her complaints / worries when i'm with them. I go out with them for a change of pace, not an extra stressor. I'm not mad - just realizing the facts.

Once again, i'm not angry at my best friend, just need a break from her behavior and her this entire week after the brunch in the city. when she bombards me with extra stressors, it makes me not want to deal with her for longer periods of time.

So, excited for a change of pace tonight with a fun coworker for dinner. And next weekend, I may meet up with my guy friend (different guy friend, usual guy friend that I do meet up with time to time for dinner).

Have a good day everyone!

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 11/14/2015:
It sounds like you've worked out a solution. Since it's not working out with your good friend & the others, don't force it. Have fun tonight.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/14/2015:
Thanks...yes, seems like the best idea.


biscottibody59 on 11/14/2015:
Maybe she's a little resentful. Maybe discuss it--maybe she doesn't really want to go out with these other friends and feels obligated. And she doesn't want to just "act" like she's having the greatest time ever.

Have a great evening!

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2015:
Yes you may be right...I will end up talking to her about it sooner or later.


OhioRaven on 11/15/2015:
Have a great day, Horny. I'm glad to hear that your Dad got a good assignment for a change.

horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2015:
Thanks I am too!!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Nov 13, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

1835 cal per day past 7 days. Around 700 total calories lower than last week. That's a ton!

Success more than the last couple weeks. Proud of myself for sticking with this and aiming to really decrease my calories. I did great.

Today was a success for a Friday. (or rather for any day!) I did great.

Early: kombucha 70

Breakfast: banana, oatmeal with almond milk, fresh cinnamon, stevia, peanut butter 400

snacking: coffee with milk (skipped having a bar) 50 at most

Lunch: some squash 50, potato 50, greens 50, vegetarian chicken 100 at most (very small amount) ...feel like i'm skipping something, i'll add another 50 in to be safe..300? not sure...no wonder I was still hungry. then I had 1/2 cup of decaf coffee and boy did my stomach hurt after that..

Snack: small apple 80 at most

Big dinner: tons of sautéed vegetables with a bit of sauce- like at least 4 cups - 350, 5 shrimp 100?, chips 200 - wanted the carbs...good idea, but maybe should have had white rice instead of veggie chips lol. around 650

total: pretty great. can't complain - 1550 total calories, very good.

no exercise at all & I don't need it. just gonna relax tonight, bed early I think.

I am thinking if I can do around this amount a few times a week, i'm golden. I'll lose the weight.

I am actually not too concerned with getting to 115 before my sister's wedding.

It can definitely be done, without a doubt in my mind.

I am back to 120lbs.

5lbs is no big deal to lose, actually. My mind is clear & focused.

I am happy.

 

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Nov 12, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Early - 2 bottles kombucha...sorta still needing the extra probiotics 130...later tea at work

Breakfast: trying to have it late, stop with the snack for awhile...helps to keep calories low on working days in the AM...it works...as long as I can have ample tea...lol...its low caffeine, cocoa maya or something...

860 before end of workday...yeah...gym tonight.

380 before gym

170 after gym

proves I can do this weight loss thing, even while working :-D Seems I am getting a handle on lowering my calories so I can lose these 5-6 lbs. nice...may have a little more carbs though now...yeah, leftover squash soup

total around 1550

exercise: full weights

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 11/12/2015:
Have a good day!


puddles on 11/12/2015:
Have a great day


grannyannie on 11/13/2015:
You can do it!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/14/2015:
It feels good to realize I can achieve what I set my mind to & BE PATIENT about it!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/14/2015:
It feels good to realize I can achieve what I set my mind to & BE PATIENT about it!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Nov 11, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

1950/day avg past 5 days

Breakfast - 7am I am going to start the day off with some oatbran 120, banana 120, almond milk 30, stevia, fresh cinnamon, peanut butter 100...and added a greek yogurt 120 for something even more filling. 490. tasty!

9:45am: herbal tea w. stevia (having things extra sweet lately....).  Planning on a nice, relaxing day. No binging of course. just a nice, peaceful day off...turkey jerky. 160 & chips 200

Noon: lunch - chips 200, beans 100, squash 150, chocolate bar 150, dried fruit 100

total so far: 1550.

coffee with milk 100

Dinner: roasted veggies, lots of artichoke, few bites potato, warmed up chocolate quest bar 450-500

total: around 2150, good job to me!!

_________________________________________________

Today my plan is to do any laundry that has built up since Saturday. DONE.

Then I also will pick up some food for the rest of the week. Those are my big plans haha. Just need some more veggies...and also kombucha :-D

I am getting a massage and facial at massage envy later today at 3:45pm bc I have a lot of monthly prepaids built up and now I can finally use a couple - excited for that. After that, dinner :-)

A little sick but not contagious and thinking that I will finally relax and enjoy the massage & facial. Last massage, I was very anxious (before I was sick in September) and for the first time in my life, I couldn't relax during the massage. I know this won't be an issue this time around!

Also do some reading. No exercise planned at all.

I do want low calories but yesterday was very low so I don't want to push today too or I think it will backfire.

Going to skip the kombucha today also.

 

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 11/11/2015:
Have a good day, HP.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/11/2015:
It was the best!!!!!


puddles on 11/11/2015:
Sound like a good.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/11/2015:
Very good!


MiamiGirl on 11/11/2015:
Sounds like my kinda day! Good luck and enjoy! By the way, how did you get the cool weight loss meter on the left ? :))))

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/11/2015:
Everyone should have one...if not, could be something with your browser! Actually, mine was missing for awhile too..something with my browser. not sure how to fix, but glad mine is back!


MiamiGirl on 11/11/2015:
Sounds like my kinda day! Good luck and enjoy! By the way, how did you get the cool weight loss meter on the left ? :))))


thinkpositive on 11/11/2015:
Enjoy your massage!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/11/2015:
It was wonderful :-) So glad I am back to my old self! and driving was wonderful too! Thank you!!!!!!


grannyannie on 11/11/2015:
Enjoy the massage!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Nov 10, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

1900 cals per day avg past 4 days (since Saturday)

Pretty much exactly what I do:

http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-22368/12-habits-of-people-who-reach-maintain-their-ideal-weight.html?utm_source=mbg&utm_medium=email&utm_content=daily&utm_campaign=151106-8-ingredients-in-your-bathroom-that-are-screwing-with-your-hormones-weight-lif

Early: Sparkling Probiotic drinks (1.5 drinks) 20 cals.

Breakfast: oatmeal with almond milk, small banana 300, peanut butter 100.

450 at most Lunch: all healthy chicken 200 some rice 100, veggies 100 850

Snacks before gym 200, energy drink 1050...

Late dinner / snack: Quest Pumpkin Pie Bar (have a box at home) 220

1270. perfectly perfect. wonderfully wonderful!

WENT TO GYM, GREAT WORKOUT. had some energy drink & was highly angry after work - I was fueled well for my workout :-D

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Overall, I am feeling good despite being sick. Mentally / emotionally things are alright. things are still making me too angry which isn't good, at all - but i'm catching myself, working on it, gym was really good, gotta say.... good.

Weight is up by a pound or so.

I AM skipping the gym tonight - need my rest & to get fully better.

When I went to the dr after work (worked a half hour overtime which I regret not standing up for myself and leaving at 4:30pm). So went to the dr, waited around an hour for him. He gave me a prescription nasal spray and also told me to take Sudafed as well as an anti-inflammatory. I'm glad I went to the dr, a walk-in place that I usually go to when I need to see a doctor.  It's a good place, in a good neighborhood. He said it's sinus related virus, but no infection. No strep. Got home on the late side, around 7pm. I was originally planning on an EARLY night. Overtime should not have been a factor.

So off to work I go. Leaving at 4:30 today. What I want to do is pick up more vegetables, come home, change, and go to the gym. I am not contagious - I've had this for over a week, almost 1.5 weeks.  basically just a sore throat. Last week I also skipped the gym - on Tuesday.

ugh.!

So I ended the whole thing - finally - with my PT guy. He's not available to date. He's too free and single & would never change is life in any way.  And basically, he must not be too into me. I tried - too hard. It must be miserable - a real breakup - when you are in a real, physical and emotional relationship. This was hard enough - and we weren't even dating yet.

I plan to not attach myself to unavailable men anymore.  It's rough. and it hurts too much emotionally when the "relationship" ends. I've done this many times in my life. And now i'm moving on.  Fully single, but fully open to dating the right person. A person who has time for me, who tells me he wants to see me & acts upon it. I'm ready.

 

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/10/2015:
Feel better soon!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/10/2015:
Thanks Granny...glad I went to the doctor because at least i'm taking the right medicine now.


OhioRaven on 11/10/2015:
Try finding a guy at the Church/Temple.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/10/2015:
yeah...need an honest and good man. I can wait...no more searching needed on my part for now. need a mental rest from the emotional attachment I had to this one first. texting for over 1.5yrs...too much. and then just starting to talk on phone over the past month. so sad it ended before it even started.


livinglight on 11/10/2015:
Glad you are feeling relatively good despite the break up. Sounds like he wasn't worth much more than kicking to the curb - well done for putting your needs first

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/10/2015:
Yeah...should have listened to my friends - apparently they did know best but I had to learn for myself I guess. It's heartbreaking because I did open up emotionally to him many, many times throughout the time I have known him. It's sad that all along he really wasn't available to ever take it further. I have learned a little bit definitely - not to develop crushes or relationships with guys who are not available. I am good at choosing those guys. So it's easy for me to now realize when it's the case. Basically, if a guy shows interest in me & seeks me out to date, then i'll know he's available. I'm definitely done searching for awhile now.


thinkpositive on 11/10/2015:
So hard to make the break but it sounds like you are doing the right thing. Glad you are feeling ready to move on.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/10/2015:
Definitely ready to move forward. I am so glad it's final & I can feel at peace that there's no option whether or not to contact him - it's done - final - and I feel great I don't need to ever think about it, ever again.


biscottibody59 on 11/10/2015:
I hope there are no repercussions from this. He was getting some kind of payoff for stringing you along it seems. Make sure the break is clean and permanent.

Texting isn't (IMO) a great way to communicate on a personal level. Of course I still don't engage in it AT ALL, so I'm clearly biased--haha! I hate seeing people waste time and the health of their necks and thumbs on it.

Take care of yourself--this sounds like a healthy move for you:-)

horn_of_plenty on 11/10/2015:
You were right all along :)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/10/2015:
Yes...clean and permanent. thank you for that reminder.

I am sure he loved getting all my texts and that it made him feel really, really good.

He never gave me that kind of feeling back, but still gave me something to feel eager to continue.

What a waste. But honestly, I've learned a lot. I don't want to do this to myself again. I am done with even sleeping around...sorry...not that I've done that in a very long time, and very infrequent.

I don't think i'll get enjoyment anymore from half-relationships and lack of folks being fully honest.

Not a fabulous experience, but I think I needed it.

Just ready to stop thinking about it & forget.



[ Previous Page 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 123 124 125 126 127 128 129 130 131 132 133 134 135 136 137 138 139 140 141 142 143 144 145 146 147 148 149 150 151 152 153 154 155 156 157 158 159 160 161 162 163 164 165 166 167 168 169 170 171 172 173 174 175 176 177 178 179 180 181 182 183 184 185 186 187 188 189 190 191 192 193 194 195 196 197 198 199 200 201 202 203 204 205 206 207 208 209 210 211 212 213 214 215 216 217 218 219 220 221 222 223 224 225 226 227 228 229 230 231 232 233 234 235 236 237 238 239 240 241 242 243 244 245 246 247 248 249 250 251 252 253 254 255 256 257 258 259 260 261 262 263 264 265 266 267 268 269 270 271 272 273 274 275 276 277 278 279 280 281 282 283 284 285 286 287 288 289 290 291 292 293 294 295 296 297 298 299 300 301 302 303 304 305 306 307 308 309 310 311 312 313 314 315 316 317 318 319 320 321 322 323 324 325 326 327 328 329 330 331 332 333 334 335 336 337 338 339 340 341 342 343 344 345 Next Page ]