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Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Apr 08, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 113.0

Happy Friday!

8am-9:30am 6 cups kombucha as my digestion is so off but will be better soon. 210. worth it to even out my body. So I can wear my tight dress tonight wahoo! All the rushing around as caused me to be slightly constipated lately. sorry TMI.

I may get a car wash before picking up my friend. LOL, she was joking to me yesterday saying "Jackie, when was the last time you washed this thing!?" I'll be driving us the 2.5hr drive to AC today & back tomorrow, so maybe I will quickly get a car wash before I pick her up. But, other than that, I'm enjoying a late morning wakeup (not 5am!) and it's around 8am now. Been up since around 7. So at least I got some decent sleep. Drinking my kombucha. Relaxing most of the morning. Packing should be really easy - even easier than packing for the wedding which was 2 nights in a hotel.  AC we are only sleeping over tonight - so that's good.  Just the drive is long, but i'm lucky to have good company (my friend Jen) for the ride :)

Trying to relax before a shower & packing LAST.

I will leave my apartment around 10:30am or a bit after like 11. Trying for 10:30 so I can get the car wash...

...and I have to remember to weigh myself because on Facebook i'm part of a challenge group that I paid for (I wont win) & part of the group challenge is to weigh-in 1x per week usually Saturdays but they're letting me do the weigh-in Fridays for these two weeks bc i'm not home Saturdays tomorrow & last weekend. I should be home after this weekend though :) for the rest of that challenge group (10 more weeks). Part of the challenge is weightloss, I'm really just interested in maintenance right now.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

marshallsaya on 04/08/2016:
Have a fun safe trip :) ~Angie

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/08/2016:
Thank you Angie, I told Jen that we have to be smart and safe - and NOT RUSH - because I don't wanna lose my phone or make any really bad decisions or mistakes :)


puddles on 04/08/2016:
I am glad you are going away on a pleasure trip. Even if it is tiring sometimes it is a different kind of tired and that is good. Enjoy J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/08/2016:
Thank you Fran :) it's been a long time since I did anything like this! And the FIRST time I bought a short, sexy, colorful dress! First time ever I think! yay! and i'm not getting younger, 33 now, so I need to live it up for once xo


OhioRaven on 04/08/2016:
Post plenty of pictures !

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/10/2016:
I will do :)


cybermom4 on 04/09/2016:
Coach HOP - you sound so relaxed right now!! Have fun, get your car washed and settle into the smell of a clean car. Your FB challenge sounds interesting. I did a challenge way back in 2014 I think , with my gym. It was the 'Challenge' and you did have to pay to participate but you got free classes and time with a trainer. I lost 13 lbs in 12 weeks but I didn't win . I thought a lb a week was pretty good but I guess not enough. They actually went by % body weight instead of lbs so that may make a difference. It was fun.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/10/2016:
Sounds like a great challenge! Thanks for calling me Coach, makes me feel very good.

I have a lot of motivation to stick with my goals in my career as well as keep my weight down for life.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Apr 07, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 113.0

550 before lunch & once again planning on a lighter cal day...

1pm good healthy lunch: popcorn 160, cabbage 40, okra stuff (with oil) 200, small bits nuts and avocado 100, some chicken and bite of coworker's steak 150? total 650 or so is my guess.

doing great, got a little extra sleep but needed more, took sleeping pill, so at work drank coffee to even me out, even though I did get into work 1/2 hr late bc I am planning to leave 1/2 hr late so I can go shopping with my friend who works here. boss is ok with me coming in late today and leaving late duh. I let him know last night. doing nothing wrong really. just getting thru the week. tomorrow morning i'm driving to AC. - but we aren't leaving at the crack of dawn which is good, we can sleep in a lil bit, i'll prob take a sleeping pill. Friday night will be a BLAST!!!!!!

5:30pm snack: big plum 100 most.

Late dinner: around 500 I think. was tuna fish and indian spinach saag. very healthy. not bad at all. hopefully not more than 500, doubt it.

total: around 1800 today, good. HEALTHY.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

puddles on 04/07/2016:
Enjoy J.


innerpeace on 04/07/2016:
Have a safe trip!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Apr 06, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 111.8

550 before lunch & planning on a lighter lunch.

got money (cash back)  just now real quick at supermarket when I bought a few bananas in order to get some change, went to get waxed but she's busy so i'll go after work, then later a meeting for my apt building complex at 7pm about stock / shares we hold, next derm. apt before work tomorrow (coming half hour late to work) and then after work tomorrow at 5pm, buying a new dress (cheap short one) for Atlantic City with my coworker / friend, we are going to leave work together at 5pm to go there.

Friday 10am - leaving for AC with my good friend (and coworker!) worked out GREAT for us!

the pimple on my face got worse (I had the bad dr at the place and he injected it, rather than taking the puss out of it which would have been better and I realized just after he injected it rather than me asking him to eXTRACT it which would have been BEST so now I have to go back bc it IS really bad and infected - although is just big, doesn't look so terrible other than being a big pimple!)

CRAZY. but happy i'm getting it ALL DONE!

around 1450 cal for Wednesday. Very successful.

Home around 7:45pm. Did two errands after work, one of which including over an hour I think in the waiting room but no worries. I missed the 7pm housing meeting, but no problem, i'll go next year lol. I had signed the paperwork anyways in advance and mailed it. It's not that big I deal, just wanted to be at the meeting, but now my face is healing a bit and the pimples are going down. LOL.

I will stop going to the derm. so much now. I have to get back to a more normal schedule and not running around as much, but this week, it's ok :)

last day of work before AC. Tomorrow Jen & I will drive up to Atlantic City around 10:30am I pick her up. We are buying ourselves a dress after work today. Stores are nice and close to work (I would say around 20 min away tops?). And not expensive dresses. short fun ones, colorful.

the reason we waited till the night before is because we are both busy...her too especially...and I had the wedding stuff....and this week we BOTH were pretty busy after work. I love the girl i'm going to AC with. She is caring, thoughtful, and loving (meaning she will take care of me & make sure everything is ok before just worrying about having fun and not her friend!) and she is FUN. She's someone I can trust to have a good time with and also trust not to hurt me ever when going out she'd never leave me in trouble. I'm trying to see she is a friend I can trust. A true friend! and i'm lucky to have a true friend who works with me. It's the best when you have a REAL friend at work.

 

Progress as of today: 3.2 lbs lost so far, only 0.8 lbs to go!

puddles on 04/06/2016:
Have a great time time in AC with your friend J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/07/2016:
Thank you Fran, XOXO



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Apr 05, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 111.8

I just wanna say I am fully exhausted here at work. got home at 8pm last night.

I'm tired and cranky and can hardly hold my head up.

I will make Friday work out no matter what for Atlantic City and drive my friend & I there and back..........and then........I need to rest all rest of the day Saturday & Sunday.

My body is screaming for REST. and it's annoying that I have to suffer at work feeling like absolute SH*T. I hate this.

If I were like a boss or something, i'd be able to freaking leave I bet. I'm really, really tired....I will have to sit here all week though...I hope to be back at the gym by May. I will have to rest up little by little and realize that i'm going to have to feel a little out of it because that's just the way life works.

But there's no denying how bad I feel. I feel TERRIBLE. It's hard to stay out of feeling depressed when I am faced with exhaustion. I don't feel good. It feels horrible to be at work like this.

around 1350 cal before dinner, pretty healthy.

dinner: big: lots of Indian style okra 400 at most with chips and a whipped yogurt 250 at most more. total, at most, 650.

total today is 2,000 at most. fine.

no exercise.

very, very tired. happy to be home. I don't think I need a sleeping pill.

planning to read a little and sleep. goodnight all.

Progress as of today: 3.2 lbs lost so far, only 0.8 lbs to go!

puddles on 04/05/2016:
Get some rest J. I was just wondering if the police job will be more demanding then your present job? I have no idea what you work in right now but was curious because I always thought being a cop was really demanding and stressful. Anyway you have a great day and get some rest.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/05/2016:
The reason this is hard is because for the past 5 yrs I have been dealing with very little time off. It will be the same problem with Police because I will be starting obviously at the bottom. In my current job, it takes 7yrs to get to 3 weeks paid vaca. I'll be gone by then from here. For cops, it takes 5 yrs I think to reach 3 weeks but then the increase in vaca I think is faster than if I were to stay in this union job.

But I have learned from this. At my age of 33, and around 35 in academy, I'll take the days that I need even if i'm not paid. All because we only get 2 weeks paid doesn't mean I am not entitled to taking time off when I need it. I just don't want to take any more days off right now when I only have two weeks starting now. So yeah, my problem is not the demands of the job at all, it's the demand of working while not rested at all. I have learned from this. Bosses here, especially one of mine that is literally a year younger than me, will never work feeling like I am. that's because he is boss and doesn't have to suffer and sit at a desk when he is sick near as much as I do. He has his own schedule and can say he is going to a "meeting." or when he goes to a meeting at 1pm and it ends at 3pm, he can go home. Not office workers. If you only work in office, you suffer. If you go out to meetings or work in the field, it's better in this electrical industry. This is a known fact. I see it all the time. I have it the worst.

and Fran, it doesn't help that I started this job when I was desperate for a job and i'd work 12hr days...so....my body can't take it Fran. I can't give anymore when I am given back minimum vaca due to little time working in this union. It's not easy at 33 to go with the minimum. I don't feel I deserve more, but, especially coming from the freedom of used to being a teacher, this is NOT WELCOME, desireable, or reasonable time to me to be able to feel rested, EVER. it's not an easy place to live - NYC - or work, especially if you are "at the bottom" like I am & really are paid very low & unable to take off without pay bc it means i'd be using my previous savings from when I earned more.

the problem is that i'm not doing what I should be doing now. I make a low wage. I always have minimum rest always. Minimmum vaca always. MINIMUM EVERYTHING for FIVE YEARS and now i'm also exhausted from a wedding but I have to suffer at work & yesterday I worked a DARN HOUR OT WITHOUT PAY. I'm so tired Fran. thank god I took off before the wedding and my boss was nice enough to pay me even though I wasn't supposed to be paid for most of it.

life isn't meant to be easy and the past 5 years for me have been always a challenge. I need a rest. and I have to rest all month because that's how long it takes when you don't have time off from work to really rest more.

as a teacher a long time ago, I had weeks of vacation each year. I was mostly still in school, so I did either work or go to school most of the summer, but still always had at least 2 weeks in summer OFF. and then a week in Decemember, a week in Feb, A week in April, and other long weekends throughout the teaching calanedar. It's extremely hard to come from a life as a student & teacher only to the past 5 years (only ages 28-33 that I am now) as having two weeks off per year. It's a disgrace that this country is so unforgiving & unrelenting to it's citizens and I will always feel in my heart that 2 weeks paid vacation is a horrible idea and not enough for any hard working person in this country.

and all my time with only two weeks paid vaca, first 4 years of it, I worked HEAPS of overtime...and still only two weeks paid vaca. I am exhausted and this job taught me things, harsh realities, that i'll never forget.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/05/2016:
I know there are others with a life far worse than me, but, speaking for myself, that's why I'm looking to get out of this industry. So at least, when I turn 40, I'll be making a VERY decent salary and will not have the problems I have financially now (not saving more than a dime which is really BAD considering i'm 33 and not 23). The academy will give me both career freedom & also financial freedom after i'm working as a cop for a few years the salary is already $15k more than I make now (after 3 years in academy i'll make around $15k than I make now.) all of this makes the academy more desirable for me to enter. this job I have now is a mental & physically KILLER. no good for me now or for my future.


grannyannie on 04/05/2016:
Feel better and get some good rest!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/05/2016:
thank you for your kindness :)


marshallsaya on 04/05/2016:
I hope you feel better and get the rest you need! (( hugs )) ~Angie

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/06/2016:
xo Thank you Angie :*


innerpeace on 04/05/2016:
My DH and I always discuss the similarities between mental and physical exhaustion! Both suck! Hope you get some well deserved rest.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/06/2016:
Thank you...I def deal with both of those (mental & phys) and I think I actually start to think mental is phys and that's when I am run down to the max....good point you make (the point I got from your comment is to push through and try to forget about feeling so bad, because I do have to work & do have to live my life and don't have time / energy to spend exhausted, so I need to try to push through the feelings right now...).

THANK YOU.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Apr 04, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 111.8

Work today and even approx 1hr OT and I think for free and we don't get paid OT anymore. Which is fine but it's a tired week for me obviously.

600 cal thru AM. Kombucha 4 cups, banana, 2 bars

Lunch was 1/2 avocado 160, chicken around 150 I think and spinach 100 cooked, Diet Coke and was gonna have popcorn but ran outta time.

410 Snack after work fruit 90 1100.

dinner was massive, was too hungry, not sure the calories. may have been 700-750 but hopefully less, unfortunately I 'm really not sure. takeout Indian and I really don't know.

1800. VERY GOOD.

I will not be going to the gym anytime soon. First, i'm busy this week with a bit of plans after work. next, my body is recovering from wedding. LOL. cheers to getting rest little by little this month.

ran a lot of errands after work, no choice.(cleaners before & after work because I was thinking I needed to get my short dress there ASAP but then decided later i'd buy a new dress (cheap) for Atlantic City, and then when i wasn't running late in morning i dropped off my fancy gown dress after work when I had more time to take it out of my car and not rush with the $500 dress!, after wrok I picked up some takeout Indian food to last the week into weekend, drove to dermatologist, bought seltzer at Rite Aid and was home at 8pm. tired! and I indulged in the food I bought at 8pm. hey, i'm allowed! better than eating a protein / sugary bar. got some tasty veggies in with some popcorn lol nd healthy fats. what can I say!? ;)

Progress as of today: 3.2 lbs lost so far, only 0.8 lbs to go!

marshallsaya on 04/04/2016:
looks like you have a had a good day :) ~Angie

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/05/2016:
It was :)


OhioRaven on 04/05/2016:
Yes, you're allowed. Enjoy your day, HP.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/05/2016:
thanks for agreeing with me :)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Apr 03, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 111.8

   

Here's a photo of my family from the rehearsal dinner the night before the wedding. Me at the wedding. And the bridesmaids at the wedding. These are the most flattering shots I have of myself. Happy. Happiest for my sister and parents I would have to say.

It was a fabulous night. whew.

I couldn't sleep this morning late at the hotel, I was up before 7am & already posting photos of the rehearsal dinner and wedding on facebook while laying in bed still in the hotel room this AM. So, afterwards, I decided to get my butt OUT OF BED and leave the hotel ASAP so I wouldn't have to see anyone & could just come home, bring all my stuff up to my apartment, do laundry....and chill. ON THE COUCH. finally chilling. It's noon. Laundry has been done, my appetite is def more back...and I am tired and VERY happy to be home right now. I'm deciding NOW not to leave the apartment at all again today. I did do a very LIGHT food shopping for mostly fruit and some veggies and yogurts and seltzer. Not a real good food shopping and I have eaten most of the veggies already. But despite that, I have enough to last to tomorrow and after work tomorrow, i'll pick up some extra takout veggies and stuff to get me thru the week. it's a short week as I'm really going to Atlantic City for the day / night on Friday coming up. So, just wanna rest and do minimal stuff outside of working right now. I'm pretty pooped!

it was a great night. and now, just laying very low for the rest of the day / night. I don't see myself doing ANY MORE WORK IN THIS APARTMENT AT ALL for today. It's really only still 12:12pm. But I really am a bit tired, legs a little sore, appetite is really strong. but, my body is really craving rest. I don't want to sleep though. I want to read my book.

sorry for being weird. I'm happy to be alone. by myself right now.

really a bit hungover I think with a very heavy head and little bit dizzy. Just happy to be home. and relaxing. Laundry and small food shopping and everything done. Just chilling....

I did weigh myself before eating everything and it said 111.8 :)  Cool. But it is slightly because I was eating LESS VOLUME the past few days (less vegetables to weigh me down in my stomach / digestive system).

Energy drink 40

9:30am-12:30pm Bacon jerky and regular beef jerky at most total around 400 Popcorn 160 Grilled asparagus that I took home and kept in hotel fridge that I then took back to my apt 200? More veggie leftover dishes that I had in my fridge from last week 250-300 Sautéed but mostly steamed spinach 150 Mousse yogurt Greek style light and fit 80 Just tired but eating and not sleeping right now... Around 1350. Must stop. Been eating straight since around 9:30am till 12:30 on and off as I did laundry but mostly after....ugh tired. I may end up falling asleep.

Snack: banana 120, chips 130, fruit 50: 300

6:00pm dinner: chicken 200-250, popcorn 100.

1950..

Progress as of today: 3.2 lbs lost so far, only 0.8 lbs to go!

puddles on 04/03/2016:
Glad all went well. A well deserved rest J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/03/2016:
I am so glad also Fran :) I am so pooped. haha.


hollybelle on 04/03/2016:
Beautiful pics. Little bit hungover after a wedding is allowed - LOL! So happy for your family. Where I have been missing from the site until recently I didn't see anything about how long you sister new her now husband before wedding and how they met, etc. Were there any interesting men at the wedding - new that you hadn't met previously? When I was single I met quite a few eligible bachelors at weddings!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/04/2016:
Can you believe it!? no single men at all at this wedding :/....if there were, I would have probably been a sorta bad girl. anyways, didn't have to think about that.

My sister and her husband were dating 7 yrs before getting married - a very long time and my parents know him very well. They met at a summer party in a ritzy area on Long Island a long time ago and it was just luck that they met then. I believe they must have met thru luck and maybe a few friends but they totally didn't know each other beforehand or have same friends. They both just got lucky to meet at a huge summer party!

Although the men weren't single, they were all INTERESTING. My sister and her hubby know how to be party animals - they don't need someone else to make a party for them - they & also their friends know how to MAKE THE PARTY. So, on that note, their friends are really rowdy and do as they please (not a bad thing at all, but I am not used to that type - you know - more ultra popular and loud type?), so I was glad my own 3 friends were there & I could party with them at the wedding party. also, some family was there that I spoke with along with family friends that I grew up with that I also talked to. but when it came down to dancing, I mostly danced with my friends, but also made sure to say hello to everyone that I wanted to & tried to dance a little bit with anyone I felt it would be nice to share the night with - not slow dance I mean dance in a group with the people that meant something to me.

It was a lovely night. :) Any other questions Holly!?

And now getting ready for work! not too bad, thankful I was able to zone out all afternoon & night yesterday.


OhioRaven on 04/04/2016:
Damn ! You look Good !

horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2016:
Ty !!!!! Worked soooo hard for it!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Apr 02, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 111.8

It was a fabulous rehearsal dinner last night and looking forward to my sister's big day today ! It's here! Finally :) happy wedding day.

Currently downing kombucha to clear up constipation. Yes. Really!

Catch up with you all later :)

Ugh thank gosh I brought 3 16oz bottles of kombucha with me! Thank gosh I know myself all too well by now. Sitting in bed and relaxing trying and drinking....shower soon .... Slept over in hotel so that's the bed I am attempting to relax in.

Progress as of today: 3.2 lbs lost so far, only 0.8 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 04/02/2016:
Enjoy the day - even a wonderful day can be stressful when wedding is involved.


puddles on 04/02/2016:
Enjoy the day and all the best to your Sister and the groom.... J



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Apr 01, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 111.8

  

ohhhh...the last time the scale said around the # above...I NEED TO CHECK THIS IN MY PREVIOUS ENTRIES NOW...yeah, i'm a nut! I'll finally shower afterwards....after I figure this out....!

ANSWER: LATE SPRING 2007 WAS THE LAST TIME I WAS THIS WEIGHT. WELL, THAT'S A LONG TIME AGO! 9 YEARS AGO. GOOD JOB TO ME!

_______________________________________________________

8am Breakfast: small orange, kombucha (basically 4 cups 140 cal) 200

11am-1pm: Seltzer with stevia, some beef jerky 150, also some bacon jerky 200. weird, I know. but since i'm drinking so much, that's the reason for all the salt. 350 most.

550.

Banana and pb 250 800

And a bit more bacon 200?

1000 and some carbonated caffeine drink 50

1050-1100

Lots of salt at dinner maybe too much as I woke up a lil puffy but it's all good! Dinner prob not more than 700 cal.

Total not more than 1800 :)

bananas later....bringing bananas, bacon jerky?, and kombucha to the wedding for the hotel room. Kombucha for tomorrow morning definite in hotel room, beef jerky for tomorrow lol probably won't eat it, and bananas for tomorrow as well.

 

________________________________________________

After MANY low cal days this week, I'm 111.8. DONE. Goal is to maintain now.

One of the tips I learned to keep a lower weight is to eat breakfast later in the morning at work - there's nothing proven that shows it's not ok to eat breakfast later. Studies don't really prove that it's better to eat within the 1st hr of getting up. Eating later at work means eating even a little more sometimes, but at a later time, so in the end it adds up to less calories as i'm only have one meal in morning, not 2. One meal & a drink in the AM. I'll also be staying OFF coffee as it ruins my teeth. Those are my only goals and tips that i'll try to keep with moving forward:

Once again tips to keep my weight down / goals for the remainder of this year:

1. later main breakfast (not snack and breakfast in AM)

2. No coffee every morning at work- VERY BAD habit & ruins my teeth

3. Water thru morning - less of this tea and coffee

4. Work on having better skin! :) (may improve with better sleep & eating!)

I do drink my kombucha first thing in the AM. around 40 cal per cup. (you can also have hot water with lemon - similar effect and cheaper - i'm going to go back to that to save money I think! - kombucha bottled is too expensive ranging between $3-$5 per 16oz Bottle!)

MAINTAIN. I need to "re-learn" and "retrain" myself how to maintain this lower weight as it's a very low weight compared to what i'm used to. It's so low also because I've been eating more salty things, but then also more water, and then extra kombucha in mornings....and also VERY low cal days, but not unhealthy low. Just low cal (around 1200-1500 per day the past 6 days or so).

As much as my "mind" wants me to keep going lower in weight, the healthy thing for me at this time is to NOT go lower. Not now. I need to train myself now at maintaining this weight - reason being, my goals for this year are NOT weightloss, but to get into the NYPD. I cannot make myself sick trying to lose weight and get so derailed off-track, when my true goal doesn't have to do with weight anymore. I do not really know how to maintain this lower weight. It's going to take a lot of effort in continuing to eat differently to make sure I can maintain it. I will not always have to eat so low cal, as eating low cal (especially this month) helped me LOSE. And i'm not trying to lose anymore.

I promise myself to stay healthy for the remainder of this year into 2017. I must now reach my main goal which is the NYPD. Please support me, everyone here.

This NYPD goal is my life / career DREAM. and this year, both you and me are going to witness by confidence growing, strength in lower body increasing, and my ability to run will slowly come back. I still am not up to running as I am weak. I'm going to focus through the summer only on strengthening exercises for lower body. That's most important and most necessary. I am going to make this dream come true. I need to.

If I don't get into the NYPD, it will not only be a failure, but a life-long missed opportunity and a derailment from financial and career freedom. it will mean that I will need to give up dreaming of the way I want to live (higher money budget & more freedom for travel, etc.) and learn to live extremely modestly on a MUCH LOWER income for life. I can't do this time myself. I am way too smart, way to driven to ruin my life.

I vow to all of you. I vow to myself. This is very emotional for me. You have no idea. I need to focus on the NYPD goal.

After the wedding on 4/2, I will be resting / relaxing & a little bit of partying. I have learned to listen to my body more & also learned to do what's best for me more. I owe it to myself - even before my family & friends. Now, when I need rest, I take it when I can and don't give it another thought. If I can't hang out with friends and family, I can't and so be it. My health will come first this year. I need to reach the goal. There is no stopping me.

Once again, my goal this year is for the NYPD.

My goal after that is simply to maintain a lower weight.

Please help me. G-d I hope supports me. I look forward to the days ahead & making my most important dream come true.

______________________________________________________

Happy April Fools :)

Happy Rehearsal Dinner tonight with my sister :)

Happy Wedding Day Tomorrow for my sister & her soon to be hubby!

Is the day really here!?

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Progress as of today: 3.2 lbs lost so far, only 0.8 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 04/01/2016:
Looking GREAT HP !

horn_of_plenty on 04/01/2016:
Ty Ohio :) alone in this hotel room now before the rehearsal dinner :/


hollybelle on 04/02/2016:
Have a great day today! Mazel Tov!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Mar 31, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 114.6

1450 per day past 6 days.

Based on that #, I can assume I lost around 2/3 lb this week on the assumption I burned at least 1800 per day. proud of my dam* self. I did it. and combined with a lost of approx. 250 cal per day the week before, in two weeks, I've lost around 1lb. This week was easier as I was occupied doing errands and had the wedding fully on my mind.

Now I just gotta shower (it's almost 10pm) and find a hairstyle on the web I like and save the pic on my phone. That's what my sister told me to do :)

And tomorrow starts the rehearsal dinner. Just gotta pack & get my manicure done. Then, rehearsal dinner. And then, Saturday - the big shebang! The wedding. OMG excited. It's really unbelievable. Nobody in my family has gotten married in over 20yrs.

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Food & Drink: 

Smaller plum 50 and kombucha (2 very strong bottles = 4 cups of it) 140.  Approx 200 here.  All sugars....but....I realize before the wedding....that morning when i'm in hotel, I better have some strong kombucha with me or I'll be constipated up the WAZOO. When I get nervous / travel, pooping doesn't happen AT ALL. I once went to ISRAEL, for 10 days or so...and NEVER POOPED. SICK.!!!! till I returned. Went for a massage the next day...and had to get off the table because it was so darn relaxing and I still had so much....you know...in me...SORRY LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. I'll have to wake up early at the hotel just to drink kombucha in my room and do what I gotta do....yup...it will DEF be in my car as something VERY NECESSARY as my body's already feeling it....anxious and excited and happy.

1pm Lunch: Bacon Jerky 250 at most - while doing errands - extra errand was picking up a strong ointment - I slightly burned my arms with nair - bc i'm an IDIOT who tried to be perfect (hairless arms) for the wedding. It's not bad and should be healing soon - it is on the mend already as I did it before going to the derm and of course I had to get a Rx today.  I'm a nut. ...but all is good...

Afternoon Meal, 4pm:  Tabooli Salad around 100?, another salad with black beans around 150, cooked cabbage (some salt and a little oil) 100 most, popcorn 110: around 450, good. 

Before gym carbs: special K chocolate pastry treat OMG - this is good! 100 and a caffeine drink 50. I am really tired man....but no worries.....

After gym: aminos 30, bar 190, rest of that popcorn (already counted) around 250 most.

total today: 1300, OH YEAH BABY!

After gym: probably a carby protein cookie. I think...or something similar that I have at home. I'm so pooped man....needing this caffeine right now....majorly. tomorrow starts the big day OMG.

full for now. gym later. reading till then. promised my coworker to chat with her although I'm not in the mood. and I do hope to chat with my lovely man though later tonight after gym. I loved him since I laid my eyes on his sweet face and body. and his personality grew on my quicker than Poison Ivy. We are doing well, although slow progress, I feel more secure nowadays that he has my back. That he understands me (only man I have EVER felt this way about EVER in my LIFE!).

 

So, although slow progress and we both have very BUSY schedules, if he will accept me in the near future as his girlfriend, well, that's the road i'll be taking. I'm sure the upcoming wedding is playing with my mind a little bit, but never in my life have I *loved* (he doesn't know this and I shall not ever say it till we are dating, etc. - i'm NOT stupid) him basically love at first sight. I will be a little distraught if things don't work out but fortunately for now they are to a point I am happy with.

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Lately, I wake up happy & alert. The sleeping pills actually helped me (as usual) big time this week. But in a different way - I'm able to sleep through the night & also been waking up EARLIER and not needing extra hours of sleep. More like normal hours, like 8 hrs lately, even with the pills. Shows my body is feeling good lately. A week off has done me well. Ready to go into this wedding for SURE.

Up earlyish and getting laundry done. Just two loads and done & hopefully not doing any laundry again until Sunday 4/10 or Saturday 4/9 after I get back from AC! Nice. I'm trying to plan now so that this coming Sunday I am not running around after the wedding. I do feel good. I feel happy. I'm so glad I took the time off to help myself get everything accomplished. Just wonderful. And far less to do in April besides attend a couple meetings I think for my housing / union after work next month.

And no gym only some stretching / abs at home is what i'm thinking. If & when I want to. I doubt i'll do much of anything for at least 2-3 weeks. Feeling so nice. Like I have met my goals. It's the best feeling in the world. To stick with something long enough to accomplish what you originally set out to do.  This time it was reaching 115lbs - and it was a doable goal - and I finally reached it just around the time I needed to. Life gives you what you put into it. Put in the work, and you shall receive.

My big goal for 2016 going forward after wedding is gearing up for the NYPD. I will try for January 2017. But in the back of my mind, I know that July 2017 would be the more appropriate, healthier approach rather than rushing my fitness and strength. So, that's the approach i'll take. A year goes by fast. And it means I can use that year also to possibly go on a trip with friends (instead of rushing into the new career and giving up all my freedom of right now / able to travel now...especially after wedding is done, my days will be mine fully if you know what I mean and I don't plan to ever get so sick again.). i'd like to travel before I go to the academy. By travel, I just mean i'd like 1 more vacation. My last "real" vacation was a cruise in 2012. So, possibly a vacation this year maybe December or something. Not sure.  But i'd def spend money to go away as one last "hurrah" before entering a new career. And really, it needs to be in the Summer '17, not winter '17. I feel better with that goal. the other is too rushed as my legs are very weak and I need the time to build the muscle and strength for running. I don't even walk on a regular basis yet! Only weightlifting and light lower body exercises (4 - 5 exercises at gym for lower body is what I currently do).

 

Progress as of today: 2.4 lbs lost so far, only 2.6 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 03/31/2016:
You have been successful in reaching this goal! Sounds like a realistic goal for July 2017.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/31/2016:
Yeah, it's more realistic for a nice YEAR away instead of January which is a little too soon - almost more like only 1/2 year away (I know it's a bit more, but feels like January is right around the corner and I don't like the thought of it). thank you TP, I appreciate your kindness and support. It's been an emotional week on my end. And now i'm just happy the wedding is here almost....

And I have learned not too push things along, so July '17 sounds reasonable. and this year, no pushing allowed on exercise. I'll have to revert to a different, easier approach of learning when to "say no" and not to workout to my max. Cannot have any more injuries. :-) Thank you so much for your comments.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Mar 30, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 114.6

1480 cal per day for past 5-day avg.

Wednesday To-Do List:

1. Drop off my signed tax return docs straight to the post office for my accountant so I can get that $ ASAP.  I got back around $1k less than last year. But, I am still thankful!!! And thankful to be paid this week from my boss. I am a very happy lady. DONE

2. Put $ on laundry card at the housing office DONE

4. Fill out my Housing Income Affidavit Paperwork that is due 4/30 and have it notorized at the bank. Make sure to get copies made at the bank! of my tax return that needs to be submitted with this paperwork... DONE

3. Drop off the rest of my health bills for reimbursement at the Union Hall. Also drop off notorized income paperwork at Union (same place for both documents) DONE

4. Dermatologist at 12:45pm (not skipping today as I have a breakout on my back and still want to go & use my appointment that I made - lol, don't ask!) DONE

5. Maybe an oil change (because I am driving to Atlantic City less than a week after the wedding and need my car in good condition and am due for an oil change. also need air pressure in tires checked & need air i bet lol...never any good places to go for that in Queens they are always all broken...) DONE

6. Maybe do my pedicure today (manicure not today - gonna do it last minute, Friday afternoon before the rehearsal dinner that night, after I do my hair I think). Relaxing later on & reading. NOT TODAY NO MORE PLEASE!

7. Request a new book from the library online if I want to (i'm almost done with book #4 and almost up to book 5 in a series...called the Harry Clifton novels by Jeffrey Archer - highly recommend!) DONE

Food: Kombucha and strawberries 130 Bacon jerky 200 Tons of seltzer with kombucha while doing all these errands....at oil change now and still need to get stuff notorized as the lady as the bank was out to lunch so I have to go back....all is good! 350 cal so far and will be a lower calorie day.

Lol it's 2pm right now and so far I have only completed the post office and dermatologist. Relaxing during oil change and soon going back to the bank hopefully in less than a half hr but we shall see!

4:30pm Meal: plum 50, sautéed bean sprouts & cabbage 150, followed by more cabbage 50, popcorn 160, a little of a spread 40: 450...and TONS of beef jerky 200. total here is still good - around 650. sleepy now...gonna read, relax.

7:30pm: massive plum maybe as much as 100 cal.

8pm A new protein bar 170 flavor is cool: Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip! I like it! I may buy more on the web if I can find them. Saw them for the 1st time last week at GNC.

around 1250. GREAT.

 

Progress as of today: 2.4 lbs lost so far, only 2.6 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 03/30/2016:
Glad you have plans so you don't get all stressed just waiting for the wedding. You are such a good planner. Hope you enjoy the rest of your day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/30/2016:
Yeah....you read me well. I tire myself out to completion so that all I can do is relax now :) almost 5:30pm and happy.


hollybelle on 03/30/2016:
You are a good planner, HOP! Exciting times coming up. You will need to rest up after the wedding.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/30/2016:
Very exciting indeed. Trying to find a little rest here & there. After the wedding, i'll try to rest up Sunday. Then back to work but I do realize I will not be exercising, so I can do laundry during the week if I have to. :) Happy so happy it's finally here.



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