- Tuesday Nov 18, 2014
Around 2000. Going back to rheumatologist tomorrow - Wednesday morning. Actually 2150 cal.
- Monday Nov 17, 2014
2200 cals. No exercise besides some abs in the AM. Starting to get depressed over my legs and no exercise. Goodnight.
- Sunday Nov 16, 2014
700 cal very balanced. Def gained at least a true pound if not more since last week. Going over calories so often and binging on everything I wanted. Now clothes don't fit well. If I want, I can fast the rest of today till tomorrow morning and start to fix the weight situation instead of eating and prolonging the problem. Intermittent fasting was working well, but now I see I have to prepare myself better for when I do eat - making sure it's low calorie and not a feast, so I can actually have a calorie deficit. I still have a couple weekends until December to turn failure into froward weight loss progress. In terms of exercise, I honestly don't see myself starting up again until December.
I really don't. This isn't laziness speaking. It's listebing to my body. I don't feel like exercising in pain. Loss of muscle and the fact I could do some upper body exercises at home is not the point at all. Rest is what I have chosen and I am sticking to it. I am relieved that after this full week of work, next week will be relatively short before Thanksgiving. I can do this and the way towards my success at fasting (the goal for days I select to do it) is to not psyche myself out!!! The human body is capable of more than we sometimes mentally and psychologically give ourselves credit for. I like this ability to fast to regulate weight bc I am an all or nothing type of person. It takes out choosing what to eat. I just have to stick to the plan (lesson learned from the previous couple weekends).
So my plan is IF today till tomorrow morning.Then, another IF next Sunday (deciding if I want it to be for a full day) and then after thanksgiving I plan to do 1-2 days of it. These few days could help me loose the weight I have gained these past couple weeks. But the key is actually sticking with the IF. If I don't stick to it, I will simply be allowing my weight to continue to climb. I am an adult and pretty smart. I know my math too lol.
It's just about following a plan where some days are very low calorie or no calorie and the rest are normal. If I stick to this plan, a plan that is not unhealthy in my opinion, I can get my weight down. Getting back to the gym is something I haven't thought about - about how I will make it easier and safer on my body. And of course I haven't thought about resuming cardio as the tendinitis in my legs is not controlled yet.
had dinner and the anti inflammatory. 650 more.
around 1350...pretty good... can't play with these anti inflammatory pills. decided its way more important to follow drs orders than skip the pill....duh! :/
- Saturday Nov 15, 2014
It's been 5 weeks no exercise. Maybe this is all a potassium / sodium / magnesium / electrolyte thing. Will speak to the dr on Wednesday. Fasting until dinner - family bday dinner for my mom. Took an extra anti inflammatory mid day yesterday bc u have to take it with food. So today I will just take the one, it's 2 a day, with dinner. Sounds dumb but right now it's also important to restabilize my weight bc my clothing is very tight at the moment and I will not be shopping for new clothes! With the IF, fasting, I am planning on going back to my other weight by doing this for two weekends. Also going to incorporate more magnesium and potassium back into my diet...
Who am I kidding...I should eat some breakfast and take an anti inflammatory.
Ok....felt pain so I had some food and took the prescription medicine. Will still eat minimally until dinner though. Almonds 100, soup 50, butter 50, egg white 100 or so. 300. I saved some soup and egg white for later. 300 cal is pretty good. Trying for minimal food tonight.
Didn't end up fasting. Afraid that I am low on potassium / magnesium and actually ate 4 more servings roasted almonds. 650 cal....something is wrong.
- Friday Nov 14, 2014
happy and feeling good and relaxed...thanks for all the kind words these past couple days :D
legs feeling some relief...but have a ways to go!
- Thursday Nov 13, 2014
2150 before end of workday....800 or so at dinner, hopefully not more!!! Around 3000.
Have my period and I was extremely dizzy driving to work. I think I was really low on salt esp bc of the new anti inflammatory I took around 15 min before driving. Back and thigh pain - it was an evil period. Usually I don't get cramps even - maybe the lack of exercise. Anyways, will not give up and I will keep my head up....also gained a real pound from excessive eating since Monday.
I wouldn't have over eaten today except I was feeling very dizzy and sick and I allowed myself to indulge in the heavier kinds of food for fear I would pass out at work this morning. I had a light breakfast, then chips, then pie, then chocolate, then lots of salty chips for lunch and soup, and a bigger dinner than planned bc my boss give me 2 big sandwiches and I had the bread from both (they were foot long heroes) and most of the bread i ate - the rest was veggies mostly sautéed spinach.i made tea in the morning and actually added salt to it - and stevia - and I drank it all day. I felt like I was going to have diarrhea on the way to work, but then forgot bc I didn't have a lot of time to prepare / eat once I got there, and bc of all the salt, I actually am a lil constipated and never used the bathroom today....sorry for the major TMI!!!!! But it's good I had the salt as I feel much better from all of it.
- Wednesday Nov 12, 2014
Today is a new day. Fresh start.
No doubt about it today was really rough after eating so much yesterday. It was hard escaping negative emotions at work and also the exorbitant amount of jealousy I have of other coworkers who are in great shape and do not have to deal with my pain and injury. I have no right to be jealous, but I can't get over it. I am working on being happier but it's not easy. There were a couple situations that made it worse today - reminders of my injury and my circumstances and my inability to speak up and get what I want for myself.
Around 1150, then an afternoon snack at work 150 more. Let's just say 1350. Then big dinner, mostly sauteed veggies and an egg white wrap 650 at most followed up with a dessert of peanut butter in a wrap around 300-350.
Will estimate this was a 2300 cal day. Success compared with yesterday.
No exercise, legs still have pain. Goodnight
- Tuesday Nov 11, 2014
For the first time in many weeks, my legs are having less pain in the AM and last night. I guess that means to further rest them and not go back to any exercise yet and let them continue to heal this time around! I am doing IF the whole day till Wednesday morning. By doing this, I will be able to reach my goal - a 1000 calorie deficit today.
Ok changed my mind and decided not to fast at all. Had a tasty breakfast instead. Cooked wheat bran with stevia 60 and cinnamon, butternut squash souflee 120, coconut butter 200, peanut butter 200. Around 600...filled up with a veggie egg white omelette 250?, 1/2 avocado and stir fried chicken 400, more squash souflee and peanut butter 220. 1500 or so. Wow that's a ton of food for 1500 calories. This is all my breakfast.
Noon lunch: almonds lightly salted, coconut water 200, seasoned roasted broccoli and the rest of the souflee 200 400 total...and skyr yogurt pumpkin spice flavor with my own added cooked cranberries with stevia around 200 more. 1900....2100. Lots of roasted cauliflower 200 2300 Yogurt and tablespoon coconut butter 350 2650. This is bad but may have to fast Saturday just to make up for binging and that stinks. But ending the day with McDonald's was really tasty :)
Total calories 3200. Over about 1200 cal. Yesterday over about 800 cal. Really prob over even more bc I am not exercising but this is enough for estimating purposes. Yesterday and today's extra calories: 2000. Whoa a lot. If I am motivated, I can fast sat and sun in the weekend to take off the 2000...but it's too much to do it that way. I will IF Saturday. Not sure about Sunday...maybe. Otherwise, I'll undo the damage over two weeks and then try to lose actual weight around thanksgiving. This is a bit of a set back as 2000 calories is a lot to create a deficit for....my own doing, I have a tendency to hurt myself like this and in life, to make choices that are harmful and get me nowhere except for self sabotage as my best friend puts it perfectly in context for me to understand. Not sure why I can't make better choices more often but I am constantly inclined to give into negative thoughts and temptations. Will discuss my goals as Puddles was asking in a comment earlier....to be contined later when I go home, still in McDonald's. Proud of myself for only ordering fries, mcnuggets, and diet coke (first time in a long time for aspartame) and being satisfied and not going back for me. It's a success actually, despite what u may think lol.
Got home and ate fruit and avocado 200 followed by pb on a wrap 400 total. 600.
Total Tuesday calories = 3800.
Total calories over now for yesterday & today: 2600.
- Monday Nov 10, 2014
Calories till I got home from work were around 1350. Dinner was completely overdone and I am actually as stuffed as a person feels on thanksgiving! I don't regret it because it all tasted good.
Chips 100, sautéed veggies in sauce 750 or so - yes it was a ton of veggies and oil and sauce - cheese 250, and a dessert of cooked bran with stevia and cinnamon, squash souflee, and lots of peanut butter total dessert is 400. Shoot around 1500 cals no wonder I am stuffed.
Total cals are 2850. I wasn't keeping track at dinner and kept eating. I didn't really want such a high total.
Now I need to think about tomorrow which is a planned IF day. But, if I am going to overeat, IF will only be good for maintaining work and that is not my plan at all with IF.
Overall, tomorrow's IF will not contribute to weight loss, just maintenance bc i overate too much tonight. Lesson learned to be a little more focussed and not buy so much prepared food lol.
- Sunday Nov 09, 2014
today was a slightly fancy brunch with a few girlfriends...followed by an errand with two of the girls (we all needed to go to Target so we went together after the brunch bc it was right across the street!). then I drove home with my best friend and we got dinner together to eat at my apt before she drove home. nice.
too much food out this weekend tho...lol...or at the restaurants I mean. but it was good & fun and now this week is starting fresh :)
todays calories: Brunch: salad, grilled veggies 200 at most, egg white & veggie omelette around 300-400 I guess at most, coffee with lots of milk and lots of coffee 150?, small bites of cake / muffin 300?...that's about it...1050 at most.
dinner: veggies 200, veggie soup and shirataki noodles 150, some of my friend's spring roll 100 at most, some chicken 150-200..then I decided to have a dessert fruit and yogurt 200 at most...and then some nuts 200. 1050.
total: 2100. eh. well, not terrible, right? no exercise though. all is good, calories are fine. off to a good start for the week. no calorie deficit this weekend, but fun times with friends :)