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Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jun 24, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

2,020 7-day average.

 Can't even wait for a RELAXED night as well as relaxed day tomorrow to get things done. Next three weekends to be INSANELY COOL! 

gonna try out a really cool brand of low cal ice cream tonight as well.!

HUGE meal after work / eating at home, worth it i think. 1100.

total today: around 2300. goodnight.

really, really long week. 

didn't sleep well on Wednesday / Thursday more bc of TOM than anything else. glad it's pretty much over. 

it's 7:30pm. took a sleeping pill. hope to sleep late & that they aren't loud tomorrow doing construction on the parking lot at 7am...because i want to sleep.

very emotionally exhausted.

Boss was gone (on vaca) all week. So it was boring. Long. Quiet.

I worked at my desk, hardly talking with anyone, all week.

VERY DRAINED.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/24/2016:
Ice cream is so dangerous for me can sit and eat the 2L so easily. I usually go to the Dairy Queen instead of bringing it into the house. Cannot control myself. I have to see the bottom of the container. Have a great few days J. enjoy your insanely cool time ahead.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2016:
It's called Halo Top. only 240 calories, for the whole pint! and surprisingly tasted GREAT.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2016:
I had two pints (one chocolate, one vanilla). and this is why i don't buy real ice cream either :-)


OhioRaven on 06/24/2016:
Hey, I couldn't sleep last night. I got 4 hours at best. Hope you're doing good.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2016:
sorry to hear you couldn't sleep. that's what happened to me on Wednesday. i'm glad i'm getting more sleep this weekend. already feeling much more relaxed after 10hrs or so last night (sleeping pill).



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jun 23, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

High-Carbing today. Seems to be what my body wants right now. TOM is here lol.

Lunch: mostly rice, some veggies too mixed in. 600 (big portion)

before gym: caffeine, peach, granola bar 200

after gym: banana, big protein cookie also, and also during gym some sf aminos 500 here

total today is good: 2000. 

1975 6-day average

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/23/2016:
Love my carbs also. Enjoy J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/23/2016:
yeah, it'll help my body since everything's loose..i need the carbs to settle me back ! :-) carbs are good.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jun 22, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Thursday 6:25am: after going back to bed, i slept soundly. should have taken the pain killer as soon as i woke up at 2:30am. Usually I am smarter as I've learned this lesson already! Anyways, if i didn't have work today, I would have still been sleeping.  Looking forward to a workout after work and finishing up the week strong :-) Got about...5.5 hrs sleep.

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Thursday AM edit at 4am: been up since like 2:30am? Can't sleep bc of thigh pain. At least it's not like last time around, when I had major bloating and cramps a week leading into the real deal. This time it all came at once, good!

Anyways, So took another pain killer...and was trying not to eat as it's in the middle of the night & I get into a habit of waking up & eating very easily. But now it's an hour and a half later and i'm still up, so i had a small banana. I bought them yesterday since I ran out & the postassium is good for the pain.

That's most of the reason I bought them. And they are also good during this time of the month in general to keep things calm / regular. anyways, luckily these are little bananas so i actually plan to have at least 2 more throughout the day today (Thursday) because really the thigh pain is annoying and I'd like it to go away. So this time around, I'm going to try to get things under control today & eat more to care for my body. I'm always low on potassium & probably really low these couple days.

Planning on gym tonight. It should help me feel better I'd say.

Only 2 days left of work this week. The week has actually gonna swiftly although my boss is not in.  I did much better than during previous weeks that he's been out.  

Yesterday, I took a little walk at 11am and left a voicemail to the man I like. I know he doesn't mind my messages because if he did, he would tell me. The only time he's ever said NO to me is 1 time really. I texted him Monday asking if he could either say yes or no to me visiting him at work after I got out (he works late Monday) and he said no. And that's ok...because he's working there. And I'm not about to "F up" his work situation as he has a majorly important role there. So, I have no problem listening to his wishes which is why i asked if i could vist :-) ....But i do hope to see him in the next month. why so long? ?? 

It's so long from now because this weekend I'm going to a different beach with my best friend. Next weekend I'll go Jet Skiing for the long weekend and beach again with Best Friend...and following weekend my friend from Canada is coming to visit. Therefore, because i've made no plans with him, the one I want to see and the one i text and call...because he's been rather guarded, there are no plans as of yet. :-( ah well!

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1970/day average.

I think around 2200 today. Fine. 

PMSing with thigh cramps...

but still in a positive mood, just low energy, sleeping more & sleeping well. it's been a good week with boss away.

I may stop and get my toes done after work and eyebrows threaded. treating myself i think.

Edit: yes, got my eyebrows done & YES...was worth doing ($6 & i gave a $4 tip)!  No, i didn't get my toes done. Instead, i saved much time & money (with tip it would cost around $25 for toes) by coming home, removing the nailpolish & cutting my own toenails. Took not long at all & was worth making the right choice since I really only would do my toes if I were hanging out with Paul or another guy and i was wearing open toe shoes. Or in general, if i were dressing up. And i'm NOT...not until later on. So no need to pay $$$ now.!!!

Despite me writing how I'm spending $, I've actually done a decent job paying back all credit card payments I made over the past month as well as saving up for rent that be due at the end of this month. And, because I've done a decent job saving, after rent is due, I'll still have some cash in my checking which is GREAT, because i'll be wanting it badly in a couple weeks to use on Jet Skiiing....and then a few days later my friend from Canada comes & I'm treating him to most activities & food here since he's paid the flight to come....

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/22/2016:
Give yourself a treat we all deserve it sometimes.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/22/2016:
yes....and i did food shopping at lunch...so i should do my toes and eyebrows yes!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/22/2016:
something good to do...instead of going right home :-)


OhioRaven on 06/22/2016:
Love that positive mood.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/22/2016:
Thanks OR...pretty much a nice week for sure :-) slow, but nice nonetheless :-) thanks for your positivity as well!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jun 21, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

1910/day.

Coworker is driving the CRAP outta me.  I just hate when people are rude & I don't know why!?

5:45am: kombucha 40, seltzer with stevia, some of a leftover tea 10 50.

8am Breakfast from home thankfully: wrap with cream cheese and salami 320, banana 120, coffee 50

180 bar snack in AM, which I am sure I will have.

healthy lunch: 250 most? extra shrimp (used up the last of my huge amount of leftover shrimp!) , kale with some mustard 100, and popcorn 100 - total 450, good.

candy 30

bar and fruit and caffeine before gym 200

bars and jello after gym around 350

1750, 1870.but not really satisfied, but i should be. so i'm stopping....and a banana bc i have thigh cramps...PMSing.

I must really eat for what's going on inside my body. Maybe lesson up the caffeine tomorrow? I don't know.  But i should try to relax my upper thigh. It's annoying and little painful.

 

 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/21/2016:
Make the best of your day J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/21/2016:
thanks...i don't have these types of problems with coworkers often. it's frustrating to me.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jun 20, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Turns out my coworker is hating me & I am not positive why! he actually ignores me when i speak to him sometimes!? AND DELETED ME ON FACEBOOK! HAHA It's a little bit crazy, honestly. It's crazy because he is actually really pissed off at me...and i do not know the reason why. I try to be civil & he still ignores me.  And our desks face each other. So it's weird.

3-day cal average: 1920/day 

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6:30am Kombucha in morning 150 - needed 2 bottles, unfortunately...i hate to have to overdo it. and had seltzer with stevia.

9:30am Ordered breakfast delivery at work bc i was craving fat and protein and forgot to make a wrap at home (and only brought a banana and bar....not really satisfying as bacon and egg!)  - 1 fried egg 100, with tons of bacon - was tasty - 300, on wheat toast with some mustard i have in fridge 150: total here around 550.

1pm Lunch, which will be light & at my desk...oh...and coffee with extra milk from deli as no milk at work so i just ordered everything this AM. just counting 50 for coffee but could be more. 750 cal before lunch.

Lunch: lots of leftover shrimp over cooked kale with mustard, popcorn. around 400

5:30ppm Snack after therapy will be a tasty peach. 100 - sorta big.

Dinner: sugar free jello 80, chocolate Mighty Muffin 220, and an awesome Bulgarian full fat yogurt 100 with stevia. 400 :-)

total today is GREAT 1650. and I took a half hour walk after therapy once I got home.  I used my ankle brace which helps greatly with support. And I feel good after. <3

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leaving early @ 3pm for dr / monthly therapy appt that i do for myself which i do like to go to....and do NOT want to stop..

 Boss is away this whole week so i will be getting out ON TIME everyday 4:30pm..nice. 

Looking to have an UNEVENTFUL week & low key. catch up on some sleep - which is good. Maybe no sleeping pill tonight as i hope to go to bed on my own & try without pills during this week especially as my boss is away.

Looking also forward to a low key weekend to come - I'll be going to gym Saturday night because i have a meeting next Tuesday after work - so planned to go to the gym on Monday night (and the Saturday night before therefore...) good planning.

When i don't skip gym sessions, that's when my body truly sees optimal results.

I don't want to skip sessions yet...but in July i may skip 1 when my friend from Canada comes over, weekend of July 8th.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/20/2016:
Nice breakfast - I enjoy breakfast. Sounds like you have a good week planned for yourself. Enjoy J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/20/2016:
yeah, it was a great change of pace but def gonna bring my own from home tomorrow...it's such a waste of calories ordering out for me...since i have great options that i bring usually.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jun 19, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

2-day average cals: 2050 (maybe higher, but this is my estimate calc.)

Stayed on Long Island with parents till around 9:30am, home around 10:30am and ate a really volume meal once home. GLAD to be HOME.  Did food shopping close to home once back in Queens, mostly for snack foods. Gonna shower soon & start up the laundry.

Planning to actually cook kale tonight and some swiss chard - to have for the workweek. I am not going to be going out getting prepared foods this afternoon. Happy to be home, like i mentioned, and going to gym later in afternoon once laundry is done.

Breakfast at home with 'rents: some chocolates and a 2% Greek yogurt 300.

10:30am at my place: SF jello 70 cals, Mighty Muffin in the BEST flavor which is Chocolate with Peanut Butter pieces! wow! 240, and 3 servings veggies chips 400. total here: 710.

Total so far is fine: 1010, but i will need to watch it a bit. I was hoping for a lower cal days this weekend or at least not 2 days in the 2000's. but, i guess i can work on it all this week, my boss is out all week on vaca...

12:30pm snack: fruit - strawberries and a banana while doing laundry 200...oh, i forgot, and some bites of a seaweed salad 50 (bought an entire pre-packaged container at costco while with parents yesterday on way home from beach).and also a protein bar 120

totally fell asleep 2:30pm-4pm because was tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4pm: fiber one oats and chocolate 140 and caffine drink 60 before gym

after gym: protein cookie and at home some thai veggie leftovers. 450.

total today is good: 2,000 :-) Very happy with the total.

Planning on going to bed early, last night i did sleep enough but woke up on & off. neighbors were having a party, parents were up, it was hot...etc.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/19/2016:
Glad you had a good time. Sounds like you will accomplish a lot today. Have a great day J.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2016:
did a lot...but will have to cook the kale another night...! maybe tonight or wednesday night...and i realize it'll only take a few minutes...just gotta do it!


OhioRaven on 06/20/2016:
Mornin, HP. I need a nap too .

Horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2016:
lol...or a day off right!? hahaha



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jun 18, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Celebrating Father's Day with my parents at beach...!!!! First time at their beach club!!!

Morning thru 1pm: kombucha 70, banana 120, 2 chocolates 80, pretzels with pb in them 80, chips 100

At beach beef jerky 350, peppers 150 tons, energy drink no cals

Before dinner: around 1050

Dinner was big. Maybe I ate as much as 2100? Healthy.

Sleeping over parents ...

Total change in my plans as usual when I come over :/ didn't want to sleep over. Sorta annoying when I come to my parents i. Regards to this because if I make a plan it's because I want that plan and not some other one. I wanted to be a perfect to go home tonight and sleep in my own bed and sleep in. But now I am still here and pissed off. I have to stay Bc I said I would and it's annoying Bc now tomorrow I have to deal with my parents when I wanted a total relaxed day tomorrow...if I sound like I am thinking about my self it's because I am! My parents yell and fight constantly and I didn't want it for tomorrow too!

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/18/2016:
Hope you had a great time at the beach with your parent.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jun 17, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

6:30am: aminos 30, kombucha 120 , some stevia sweetened leftover drink sitting out overnight..150 total here..

9am breakfast at work: wrap 300 most, coffee 50, and most of banana 100: 450 tops.

600, tops...and yes prob a snack before lunch :-), bar 120 cal, but i'll count as 100.

Lunch: healthy - tofu and veggies and popcorn 350. lots of caffeine after, but stopped on the early side around 2:30pm because i'm going to try to sleep early tonight and get some extra sleep before beach with my folks tomorrow.

1050 before leaving work. balanced. hoping for an early night tonight. planning on it. got my peppers for the beach to cut up...and my bacon jerky that i'll also have at the beach along with a Monster Low Carb energy drink there. LOL. hoping to sleep early tonight...if I can take the sleeping pill early before 6pm I will take one & then i'll be good for tomorrow! !!!

I don't want to be here at work.  It's been a long week. Too long for me to feel good right now & too much to do into the weekend as well. must get waxed this AM during work. you would too. i'm just not doing errands after work. and i'm buying veggies for the beach also, during work. both the supermarket and wax place is on the same street, near my work. I'm going HOME after work and that's it. not even walking.

I'M TIRED.

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Trying to get ready...would have preferred not to work today! LOL.

But seriously, it's been a very busy week for me.

Monday: After work i went to the dentist, then dropped something off at the union hall FOR MY BOSS which is very close to my apt, then took a 30min walk. home around 7pm i think it was...

Tuesday: Gym, got there late because i worked till 5. home after 8 probably.

Wednesday: worked 3 extra hours till 7:30pm, then actually bought some veggies for the rest of the week along with some jello sugar free to eat that night so i could eat a lot (emotionally) and also fall asleep (but went to bed 2hrs late at least). home after 8pm.

thursday: had to pick up the face wash i forgot at the dentist (yes, really), went to gym....and didn't have time to get waxed like i wanted to. home after 8pm.

Friday: I vow to get waxed DURING THE WORKDAY and tell my boss that i have an errand to do. the place is one block from work and i refuse to be waiting till after work for this. OH...AND I NEED TO BUY SOME VEGGIES FOR THE BEACH OR I'LL HAVE NONE TO BRING AND HELLS NO I'M NOT GOING FOOD SHOPPING SATURDAY MORNING SO EARLY BEFORE I DRIVE HOME TO MY PARENTS! HELLZ NO!!!!!!!!!NO.i went to come home earlyish TODAY FRIDAY .... planning on beach tomorrow with my parents...cannot rush much more as you can see.!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST NO. I FREAKING REFUSE. IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M FRUSTRATED.

AND...MY PAYCHECK LOOKS WRONG. I ONLY SEE THE $ RIGHT NOW, NOT THE ACTUAL CHECK. I'LL HAVE TO CHECK IT TONIGHT WHEN IT'S FINALLY POSTED OR THIS WEEKEND. WHENEVER I CAN. ah good, I checked it on my phone luckily it was posted already...it's totally right thankfully.

 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/17/2016:
You have had a busy week. Enjoy your day and wishing you a great weekend J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/17/2016:
thanks F...I plan to now have a good weekend bc I was able to get the food shopping for peppers to cut for the beach and the wax done during the workday. I can now go home, relax, get to bed early, and be a bit more refreshed for tomorrow.

I'll feel far better after getting extra sleep tonight.

I'm a bit drained...thank you for reminding me to smile and smell the roses...which I did smell a little bit walking outside to get these two errands done. Took 40 minutes overall.


puddles on 06/17/2016:
Wow you sound frustrated...take time to smell the roses your going to give yourself a heart attack J. Take care

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/17/2016:
<3

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/17/2016:
Feeling a bit better now after 2 errands are taken care of & knowing I can go home to relax tonight!


innerpeace on 06/17/2016:
I don't want to be at work either! Girl...i need to win the lottery or something. Have a great time at the beach!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/17/2016:
TY...we both need a lottery win ;)


happy-1 on 06/17/2016:
Let's all buy a ticket this weekend, lol. Give ourselves something to look forward to.

This is why Nair was invented.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/18/2016:
yes, we all need to win :-)

But...do you use it on your "delicate" areas!?...

and good point!


happy-1 on 06/18/2016:
Um, it depends. Sugar wax (hard like silly putty, smells good, doesn't burn) is my preference because it is super cheap to do and is biodegradable, but I have to make it up ahead of time. If I am going full monty... it's hard to do the ahem, super hard to reach spots on your own without the third hand for tension... so if I do it at home, I'll cheat and go in with this and a mirror. The little light makes all the difference. No red bumps or sticky waxy residue that stick to swimsuits. Plus there's no waxing bill or technicians talking crap about you after...

http://www.lightinthebox.com/new-electric-led-lights-shavers-implement-tools_p1305607.html?pos=ultimately_buy_1&prm=1.3.5.0

I'll fail over to Nair if I have to, but it isn't so great for the environment.

I'll get my eyebrows done every couple of months to clean up the shape but this keeps them in check in between. They are usually at dollar stores.

http://www.dorcousa.com/shai-eyebrow-razor-ldia-200/?gclid=CI74rd-1ss0CFYqPfgodDJMFkQ

This is AMAZING. I don't need to wax my chin anymore because it makes it super easy to find all those crone hairs with a tweezer.

http://www.bedbathandbeyond.com/store/product/simplehuman-6-5-inch-sensor-mirror

I do my own mani/pedi most of the time. I think it is safer.

Have not found a good substitute for Mystic tan spray tanning, which I am a fan of and watch Groupon for.

About to do teeth bleaching again, which is so gross. Gag.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jun 16, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

1733 6-day average, muy excellente!

6:30am morning: not much kombucha 20, and a carbonated drink to which i added extra stevia 10: 30 really! had a lot of probiotics last night which really worked quite nice...

8:30am: wrap with cream cheese and salami 300, banana (most of it) 100, and coffee with milk 50 at most. 450.

480. ..and half a small bar - shared with my boss :-( he's leaving in October so sad!!!

Light lunch of Thai Basil sauce veggies, light tofu, some popcorn and a cold sf flavored drink: 350...yeah!

before gym: plum and granola bar 150 and caffeine.

after gym a bit higher: protein cookie 360, jellos 50, and ended up going for the veggies 150-200. total here: 600 most?

total today is great though - 1650, good!

JUST A NOTE - TONIGHT I'M GETTING A FREAKING BIKINI WAX AFTER WORK AT 4:30 A BLOCK AWAY FROM WORK...AFTER THAT...(wax lady was out...will have to do tomorrow - i may tell my boss i have an errand to run and get it done at lunch since it's far better than doing that AFTER work - ugh gross anyway) 

MUCHO CAFFEINE AND SNACKING OF CARBS BEFORE GYM. OH AND I HAVE TO PICK UP THE FACE WASH THAT I FORGOT ON MONDAY AT THE DENTIST...BEFORE THE GYM...BLECH. WOULDN'T MIND TAKING FRIDAY OFF! LOL, I'M NOT, HA.

3 THINGS TO DO AFTER WORK!

I AM VERY TIRED.

WHY? BECAUSE I WORKED LATE & WENT TO BED LATE, NOT A BIG DEAL, JUST SAYING I'M TIRED.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/16/2016:
Have a great day J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/16/2016:
Tired a bit, but it's going well...and fast!


OhioRaven on 06/16/2016:
Sounds Great, Coach.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/16/2016:
Yes, I'm having a great week! Much better than calories last week!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jun 15, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 116.4

5-day average is pretty awesome at 1750 per day still.

Ended up working really late till 7:30 & home after 8:30pm because i ordered some Thai veggies & went to pick them up (now i've got food to last into the weekend and for lunch tomorrow at work and Friday...I don't love ordering lunch, i'd rather have it ready and with me...).  I also went to pick up Jello sugar free because i was craving it, it was late, and i wanted to be able to eat a LOT for NOT a lot of calories. Just finishing up, it's 9:11pm. I'm tired. I'm sorry for not commenting, but I'm exhausted.

The meeting i was supposed to attend, LOL, was canceled. I'm laughing because i will NOT have much to say at the meeting, but I'm required to be there. I wish i had more to say, but i don't have the knowdedge of the electrical estimate being discussed but I did participate in estimating it. That's why i have been required to be there. Either way, it'll be a change of pace to be present at the meeting and hear others discuss the estimate. And i'll learn from that. It's not that i don't want to participate, but I know my limits and I know i am not skilled to discuss many of the topics. I've been working in this field for 5.5 years, no education in it, I do have extreme basic knowledge, trust me!

Anyways, i dressed up for the darn meeting. Still jeans, but nicer outfit - TRUST me. very body-hugging and all, hair done so nice, and makeup. I work with mostly men. If I was going to attend a meeting & have to put my "best self" forward, i decided this morning to go thru it BIG. Why noT!? i may not have knowledge of the job, but i have knowledge in how to appeal to guys. So there.

I now have to dress up again tomorrow, as the meeting was moved to tomorrow morning. 

I am not taking a sleeping pill for that reason. I cannot risk not being alert at this meeting. I usually, for the most part, take the pills on weekends.

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I'll comment on your entries tonight, been rushing around all week after work and during work today and tomorrow I'm actually BUSY!

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6:30am Kombucha and aminos and seltzer 80

8:30am Wrap with salami and cream cheese 300

10:45am Coffee 50 & Banana 120

550, Good…low…just stay that way dam* it.

Indian Microwavable meal of Palak (prepared spinach) with chicken  (good change of pace to have some real meat and not tofu stuff) 600 most and leftover steamed kale. Oh and some pineapple free from work 50.  I need to maybe pick up veggies after work, I have none left. I have finally eaten everything I purchased on Thursday (day off last week!) But threw away 2 bags of shredded lettuce ($1 each bag).

1200 - before leaving work and maybe a plum on the way home.

Worked till 7:30 and was starting at 5pm, so had a leftover bar 200 and the plum 50.

and a late snack at home at 8:30pm-9pm: jello 80 and a protein muffin 220. 300 total.

1750 today which is really great.

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so i texted him again last night, since he texted me the night before back. and he's so dumb he thinks it's ok NOT to text me back....yeah right. well it's got to be ok since it's whatever he wants to do i cannot force him but it's still not the nicest thing in the world. oh so he needs space? well fine. but it's not gonna stop me from texting him 25% of the time i normally would have! you see - i AM holding back, but i'm not gonna hold back 100%. Why? why not hold back all the way as he seems to need me to do? BECAUSE I'M MY OWN PERSON. i'm not gonna stop being Jackie or "being myself." He better understand the compromise. 

Progress as of today: 2.6 lbs lost so far, only 4.4 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/15/2016:
This guys is really weird. He certainly controls the situation. Wishing you a great day J.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2016:
Yeah, he controls it more than he realizes. But, I'm learning to take some control. I told him if he's gonna ignore me / do what he wants, I'm gonna go ahead and still text and call him & do what i want ;)

I don't like typical. I like different. That's why i like him...


happy-1 on 06/15/2016:
OMG. I am with yo on the "Don't like typical." I swear... If I am in a room full of guys, I will always pick the most difficult, contrarian, uncooperative, iconoclast. The one every other guy says is "a weird dude".

I'm 38 and single in my first relationship. I really hung in there. I don't recommend it.

Isn't there anyone who likes you, asks you out, and talks about how he would like a nice girlfriend?


happy-1 on 06/15/2016:
Or go to this and find a new one!!! https://summercamp.wework.com/



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