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Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Oct 29, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Seems a lot of the DDers are busy with life lately - fewer posts. I can understand completely.

Thank you all for your support when I was going thru that really rough time.

I am thru that dark period.  And everyone's helpful comments here added to the support I received from family and the limited friends I told about my panic attacks to.  It's not something you can open up to the world about. Not everyone understands.  But i'm thru it. Learning from it.  Moving on.  Seeing a therapist and still psychiatrist. Doing what I have to do to stay healthy mentally.

As expected, it's more difficult to watch calories when i'm working. Duh. Long days and all, up more hours, hungrier. But, it's not impossible. Last night was poor planning that lead to a small binge on chips. But, I am doing far better than previous months.  Losing a few pounds on my month off from work was great, I don't want to gain them back.  So I won't. :-D  I'm doing great.

Calories today were around 1700. Very good. Pretty healthy. Maybe high on caffeine.

and I went to the gym and did a good workout.

Work has been good. I'm occupied and doing the same exact thing all day long (8am-5pm) but it feels good because what i'm doing actually counts. It's a real job that's due and has a deadline which is time well spent for me, instead of doing less important tasks that aren't urgent. The urgency fuels me!

Calories for the week since Sunday, past 6 days, are around 1950. Decent. It should work decently for maintenance.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 10/29/2015:
I admire your ability to be honest with us- your DD buddies- during your difficult time. So glad that you are feeling better about life and able to handle the day to day problems.

OhioRaven on 10/30/2015:
Hey, I'm all ears. You can talk to me about anything... except for T. O. M. I'll let the girls handle that one.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/31/2015:
i'm glad you got the abbreviation! Actually, it took m awhile to pick up on it too - I learned it from an older member here :) She doesn't post right now.

Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Oct 28, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Stayed at work late. over an hour. so essentially I made up the time from Monday...now I don't need to have that hanging over my head.

When I got home I took a short walk & my foot / ankle generally felt better but it's still healing!

exercise: around half hour today.

I overate on chips (400 cal just for them) tonight. Dinner otherwise was healthy - toast with butter, egg & egg white, lots of steamed broccoli raab and also an eggplant salsa side that I had at home.

Calories must be at least 2300. Would have been better if I didn't reach for the chips. But now i'm satisified & carbed up...maybe it'll help me for gym tomorrow...as well as eating in general tomorrow. at least I got some good nutrition in (lol, not talking about the chips!)

The whole time I was eating the chips, I was sorta thinking about him.  On purpose and also bc I needed a break, I didn't contact him today. too much is no good!


It's been a good week so far. Busy. Happy to be coming home after work.  Need the night off for sure.  I may decide to do laundry tonight, a little bit, so I have less on the weekend. We'll see. I am happy to have an evening off midway thru the week.

Still crazy bloated. Had a kombucha this AM...because even though having more probiotics seems like a bad idea, yesterday morning they helped a little bit. So i'm doing the same thing today.


Wishing you all a good day.

Already looking towards the weekend, it'll be more laid back this time. No big plans, low key.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 10/29/2015:
Those chips can sneak up on us. Hard to eat just a few- for me anyway.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/29/2015:
usually i'm ok - but yesterday it was emotional eating that took over. I was tired and also thinking about emotional stuff...oh well. today's a new day.

Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Oct 27, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Before the gym tonight I had a short convo on the phone with the guy...! It was great. We get along well. Easy communication.  I will be a little more patient with things.  Tomorrow I don't plan on asking him to call me again after work like I did on Monday last week. Things are going well. Maybe i'll let everything sink in for him and me a little bit. But so far, it's great getting to talk with him more & not texting as much. More phone, less texts.  I really like him. Glad (for the moment) that I didn't listen to my friends (not my best friend - she likes this drama!)  about never contacting him again after he didn't come to my party. I like him a lot...he's a good guy.


Early morning: kombucha 70.

Lately i'm really bloated since like Saturday / Sunday...must be TOM approaching! ugh. Bad acne, worse than usual again and sorta all over my chin area. It could be that I've had more sugar lately - but the real reason is pretty easy to figure out - TOM approaching. lol. sorry Ohioraven,, i'm sure you are very interested in reading that!


Today I have an option of going to a union meeting after work. Pretty sure i'm skipping that & only going to the gym. Last night was already busy...busy week. Hoping to talk to "my guy" (and he's not my guy yet or now or yeah you get it) tomorrow night. We've been staying in touch by texting...but I am looking forward to another chat with him.

1500 before gym...

bar after gym: 1700 total. perfect in terms of calories. decent in terms of health.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

puddles on 10/27/2015:
Interesting write up Horn. Life's ups and downs that make it all worthwhile. Have a great day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/27/2015:
I appreciate your take on my entry. You give good advice in your comment!

OhioRaven on 10/27/2015:
I kinda just scan past and go to the next paragraph. I guess I can share info on my Groin Pull sometime. Have a great day, HP. Good luck with your guy.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/27/2015:
yes, I guess if I am sharing my crazy stuff...you may as well share yours! lol!

biscottibody59 on 10/27/2015:
Hang in there with your busy week!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/27/2015:
Thanks BB...that is exactly what i'm doing. trying for some balance.

Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Oct 26, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

1250 cal till before dinner.

no exercise.

went to therapy, left work early at 3:30pm...

Dinner: chips 230, soy chicken 250?, lots of cooked veggies (even though I am already bloated) 250-300. total here: 730 or so. good. and lots of garlic.

total today: 1950 or so. good.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Oct 25, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Morning :-D

Even though i'm not sleeping as many hours (last night around 6?), it seems I am still feeling rested & relaxed.

Did my laundry - sheets and clothes that I wore during apple picking yesterday.

7am Breakfast: apple 80, banana 120, oat bran with almond milk 150, dried fruit 50, cinnamon, peanut butter 150. 550. Felt slightly bingey - maybe because i'm not sleeping as much or maybe just because I still am craving food for comfort in the back of my head. Either way, i'm satisfied from breakfast and now going to relax a bit - read a little, go on the web...

10am ice cream and chips 550 = dumb!

Fell back to sleep around 11am-12pm

1pm lunch: avocado on toast 250, salad with vinegar and some chickpeas 150, 2 large shrimp 50? 450? oh, roasted cauliflower. 50

4pm: yogurt 80, coffee 50, apple 80: 230

7pm: was gonna just have a protein bar but was actually feeling like I should eat normal food. So dinner was a bit big, lots of veggies, sauce, some fish and some tofu "chicken". maybe 500 cal is my guess. Hopefully not too much more.  At least i'm definitely satisfied & i'll sleep thru the night.

total around 2350. at least I worked out. overall, besides that snack at 10am, it was a healthy day.

exercise: full weights routine

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/25/2015:
As long as you feel rested, you're getting enough sleep. Enjoy your Sunday.

ohioraven on 10/26/2015:
Ice Cream is a moment on the lips, forever on the Hips. Have a great day, HP.

Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Oct 24, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

It's a happy Saturday :)

Breakfast: first kombucha 40, followed by oat bran with cinnamon, almond milk, banana, and peanut butter. total is 460.

Lunch: will be 1 fried egg 100, toast 160, maybe avocado 100, veggies 100

920, i'll say 950

Snack: apples 150, some decaf coffee later on 50, drive there was two lollipops 120, and two mints on way home 40. ...lol...I think this is it...around 350 here...

dinner: out to dinner :-D. huge salad with grilled shrimp and little dressing around 450...followed up with some very buttered challah bread maybe around 150 at most. total 600 prob.

total around 1900 - very good.

Still weighing 120. And realizing I can eat less calories without feeling deprived at work. I can make this work. I would hope to get down to 115 by...maybe the New Year. Or at least to be in the upper teens.

Today I'm off to go apple picking with two friends: my best friend & also a coworker friend that I've known I think 2 years now? I think. maybe it's only 1 year?  I eat with her everyday.  She's 28 and a lot of fun! She lives in Queens so I told her that she was welcome to come apple picking with us if she came over to my apt and we all went together there in my car around 12:45pm.

We are going out on Long Island, it should take around 2 hours because this place is very far out, farther than most.  I am driving, it will be the first time in a very long time that i've driven such a far distance and mostly on one road.  I'm glad to have company in my car to do it.  It's called The Milk Pail Farm.  Most apple orchards are already closed this season - but this place is open bc I called to check! Next year, I'll make sure to go apple picking earlier in the season. This year was a little complicated lol.

I slept decently last night. Probably around 6-7hrs. I did wake up a few times, but overall got decent sleep. I'm happy about it. And no sleeping pills. I was tempted when I first woke up at 4am.

I have already done all my laundry except bedding. Now tomorrow should be easier :-D since i'll only have to wash my sheets, go to supermarkets, and gym.



Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/24/2015:
Enjoy your day!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Oct 23, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Morning :-D

5:30-6am: Kevita Mint Mojito probiotic drink 30

It's been an eventful, pretty decent week to say the least. I'm happy with how it went. It had it's ups & downs and good experiences overall like the phone convo with my PT. It seems I have a lot of growing and learning still to do - even at 33 years old!

Calories were good all week.  Far less urge or even want to binge at all. Eating more carbs and more balanced helps.

Drank kombucha / other probiotic drinks each morning this week which I sorta like to do because it kinda clears you out before work...if you know what I mean.

Getting out of work at 4:30 really helps me to eat dinner at a normal time and be home at a normal time. I'm able to have a more restful night like this...I hope to keep these hours.


Watching calories has been easier since Thursday.

Calories before lunch: around 450 - 500.

Lunch: toast with olive oil 250, chicken 200?, salad 100. I'll say 550.

1050 before Apple snack 100.

Dinner: prob not more than 600.

Total 1700-1750. Great!

Healthy choices today.

Exercise 20 min walk before dinner.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 10/23/2015:
That morning drink sounds yummy. I just watched a tutorial about the benefits of fermented food and beverages and they also included a recipe for a fermented "gingerade." I really need to start experimenting with some of this stuff - I haven't even tried kombucha yet!

thinkpositive on 10/23/2015:
Sounds like a good week with some nice balance.

Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Oct 22, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

530 before lunch. still weighing around 119-120.

so far, so good :)

Calories after lunch: around 1200.

Snacking: black coffee but half a serving and apple on way to gym 100


After gym: Dunkin donuts flatbread with a little sauce, turkey, bacon and cheese. Says its around 400. I am nervous it's a little under. I'll say 450.

1750 - couldn't have asked for better.

Overall healthy day. Trying for more carbs lately for more balanced eating. I am doing a pretty good job overall.

I want to be around 5 lbs less for my sister's wedding at the beginning of April.

1925 cals per day for these 4 days. If I do want to lose weight, I will have to keep working at it and make good choices on weekends. I do feel better in control lately when eating.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 10/22/2015:
Sounds good!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Oct 21, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

1450 cal by 5pm before PT...seeing him....dying....I am here now...just feeling very quiet, very calm, whoa..

1900 maybe 2000.

Some PT.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 10/21/2015:
I'm sure it's good to have things go smoothly for you!

Umpqua on 10/22/2015:
I hope everything went well with PT and you have a good one today!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Oct 20, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Work was as good as it could ever be yesterday :) nice coworkers and all. I did some yoga, was sorta too fast, last night for 20min. Dinner was healthy at home. Late at night in his ride home, I had texted to ask my pt to call me. He did. We finally had a longer conversation. For around 35min we chatted as he drove home as he works late on Monday nights. We hung up around 10:30pm and I was up a lot of the night afterwards. It's ok. Tonight I know I will sleep better :) it was a good first longer conversation outside of seeing him for PT. he is a very sweet guy. I still like him a lot. I think there is a chance for us to date for sure.

1200 after lunch. all healthy. but a little too much fiber i'd say.

Snack before workout - lots of fruit 200 and also two candies earlier


Dinner: indulged in a toasted croissant. With egg and bacon from DD. Hit the spot and no more fiber which is good Bc I was beginning to feel a bit drained from not having enough solid food and too much oatbran and fiber bar for a snack in am. So around 500-550 Oh and the kombucha which is full of probiotics - too much.

Total today is 2000. Good!

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

puddles on 10/20/2015:
Interesting progress with PT guys go for it.

horn_of_plenty on 10/20/2015:
I am :-D

Umpqua on 10/20/2015:
That's wonderful that you had such a good day at work and a nice conversation with PT to boot. Not a bad way to start off the week!

horn_of_plenty on 10/20/2015:
I think so too :-D

ohioraven on 10/21/2015:
Have a great day HP.

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