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Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Apr 03, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

2250. walking at mall about 1.5 hrs. Will celebrate Passover with family Saturday night since Friday is too rushed after work.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Apr 02, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

2050 cal. 30 min walk. Full weights, back, abs.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

museumgirl on 04/03/2015:
Good weight workout, have a good day.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Apr 01, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

I did great today. I doubt more than 1600. Let's all shout hallelujah!!!!! I am finally getting a dent in my daily calories to help me lose weight. 1600 is pretty low for me, actually, compared with normal calories.

Exercise: half hour walk at lunch.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 04/02/2015:
Halleluyer!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Mar 31, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

around 2250 even with that midnight snack...good!

mostly healthy, but, not in the evening / after the gym. loads of processed crap.  I will perhaps have to think of better ways to replenish after the gym...it's all good though.

i skipped the caffeine before my gym workout and it was actually a fantastic workout. I feel myself getting stronger, I am finally getting to feel a big spark and excitement that i am healthy and i can achieve a strong, lean body if I want to....I want it, for this summer :)  I will do what i can, I am definitely more eager now than ever. & then I want to look fabulous at my sister's wedding (within reason, gonna try though).

and i am going to get a good night's sleep tonight, i can feel it.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 03/31/2015:
Glad your day ended where it's got you happy about it :)


Umpqua on 04/01/2015:
Good for you for skipping caffeine, that's something I have not had any success with in the morning!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Mar 30, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

6 hours sleep Monday night into Tuesday, not enough. This includes waking up from around 2-3am when I decided to eat a wrap and small banana which did get me back to sleep. 200 cal.

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Around 2050 calories today.

Was depressed.  Lately I feel I am being punished for being single (even though I KNOW this isn't the case). Just everyone around me, it seems, everyone seems to think that only people with families live a full life. and lately my life isn't very full. I am not doing enough to be able to enjoy my own life. and, I know this is too much information for some & I apologize, but it's been too long without spending time with a male person. That time in December doesn't count as it wasn't fulfilling or that pleasant. The person is nice, a really nice guy, but the experience wasn't what it could have been. The end...

Slept enough, but would have slept more if my alarm didn't wake me up.  Going thru a rough time. Schools are out both this week and if not this week, some are out next week. It's such a tease, as I'm on ex teacher.  Yes, I did take a day off last week but it ended up being very, very busy and not relaxing. I did manage a 15-20 minute nap in, but after it was over I was rushing around again. and wasn't able to get enough sleep. anyways, things are busy and I am angry only at myself & my own life.

got 30 minutes exercise and soon will be cooking vegetables so I have enough for the rest of the week. Promised myself I wouldn't buy any prepared vegetables this week as I need to do more the cooking myself. Soon, before summer, I'll be cooking most of the meat I eat, too. Soon - but the truth is, I don't think cooking the meat will save me much when I can buy an entire cooked chicken for around $7 and it lasts me around 3 days.

worked an hour extra.

tomorrow I am excited as I have my favorite weights workout. I am finally getting a little stronger & by summer I should be back to getting into 25lb bicep curls. I was there before I took off my 3 months from the gym. I am still def only at 20lb curls, but getting there.  I've noticed an increase in my strength.  but also, I need to limit my caffeine. been having too much.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 03/31/2015:
Sorry :( Hang in there. Things will get better!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Mar 29, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

Overall around 2350 calories.

Breakfast: hot water with lemon, turmeric, apple cider vinegar - around 30 cal. and a kombucha 60. so around 100 here. followed later by yogurt 150, peanut butter 200, oat bran made with coconut water (trying to get the potassium in for my muscles / legs) 160.  510 or so.

total is 600, good. gym soon. I want to do it in the morning, then come back here and have lunch / do laundry. then go food shopping for the week, as well as cook many vegetables - instead of buying precooked stuff again (it'll save me probably 50%). later in the week (Wednesday evening?)  i'll pick up a cooked chicken as I still have some protein leftovers here to last me till at least end of the day Monday - even tuesday / Wednesday if I eat sardines on Tuesday - 1/2 can at lunch and 1/2 at dinner. and wednesday I can even eat a microwave meal as I have a few in my freezer and can bring that to work for lunch! that's my plan for the week.

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luckily I got the retirement thing pretty much sorted out on my day off - Thursday. Basically now i'm just waiting for confirmation and the check to be sent from my old system to my new one. the only way I got it done was thru connections, since organizations listen better to the higher-ups than just simple common-order, person in the general public. stupid that it took 2 days to get done what took me 3 months with no progress. glad it's finally getting settled. just need a week -2 weeks or so more to take the check. and be removed from the NYS Teacher's Retirement System.

Seems there are some things really bothering me these past couple days - not physical as much as certain thoughts on specific topics (mostly work-related) that are making me anxious them fully reach my conscience, better than holding back and having my legs bother me bc I cannot face the truth of it really whats bothering me down deep. I would have preferred to have a week of work right now - as I feel I need it mentally. but, that will not be happening anytime soon.  this is I believe a lot of what is bothering me. the fact that I'm a bit worn out but cannot take time off to mentally recharge. so I'll have to make due with what I've got. last week, that one day off, was like a big tease. but at least I got that :)

I think I'm beginning to reach several points of clarity about things over this weekend.  Even during my walk, I passed a stranger who lives in my area bc he was walking too in the neighborhood. And he and I exchanged a few friendly words, basically about the crazy weather that it was still snowing and we both would appreciate summer when we didn't have to wear so many layers!  We departed ways, but not before he said "God Bless You!"  It made me completely emotional after I walked away from him.  Because I thought to myself how I hope it is true, that we are all blessed, god is watching over us.  Yes, I'm an adult but I was thinking about life and where i'm at.  How I do have many years of a slightly lower income than I'm comfortable with ahead of me.  How I will finally be in the clear, income-wise, when I am around 40 years old. 8 years from now and long into my career already.

Basically, I do have some regrets about some things I did in the past. but I also realize it is only my actions and the consequences of my actions that have basically brought me to this point in my life. 32 is not a kid anymore. It's a full grown adult well into career/jobs/working and having to basically fend for myself. I am lucky I did get so much help throughout my 20's, being able to live at home that entire decade (sometimes paying rent, but minimal of course). I admit I've gotten help with many things.

but now life it pretty much going to be at a standstill for the next year.  Money situation will remain the same. I should probably start cooking MORE and spending less.  but even if that doesn't fully happen, in general, my spending will decrease in other areas. I don't buy clothing like I used to when I lived at home. and even the process of purchasing sneakers is a bit of a nuisance since they need to be a good quality and I will actually be using a portion of my tax refund to pay off around $1,000 on my credit card as well as for several other things I want. I will luckily still have some $ to put into savings as well.

Not looking for compassion, just trying to come to wraps with my life & how it will go moving forward from this point on.  Now i'm actually crying writing this.  I just am having trouble coming to grips with the direction of my life. I don't see all the good in it right now and mostly the negative comes to my mind, all the time. I am jealous of those that don't get to see any hardship ever. Not that my hardship compares to real hardship, but I've faced it. even before this job. hardship in the workplace, in my second year of working ever with a male superior boss.  He took the side of the parents and ran with it, never giving me a chance. I succeeded as much as I could, teaching music in one of the most wealthy school districts probably in the entire US. it was on long island, and yes, I had lots of kids of very, very wealthy parents. Howard Stern's neice wasn't my student, but went to that public school.

I just have less patience than I used to. My job has made me angry. It's changed me.  made me view people & life differently. given me a harder shell towards people and situations.

And because life is at a standstill right now. and my legs still pose a threat since i'm STILL getting into the longer walks and still feeling weakness and fatigue (more bc I am fatigued, still not sleeping appropriately during the work weeks bc of the work / workout schedule I have which CANNOT be adjusted unless I didn't work OT, which isn't happening as I don't make enough money to completely forego it).  So I still need to concentrate on improving my strength and health, mentally and physically, so when it's time to leave this job I can. - and enter the NYPD rested and ready.

But before then, my sister's wedding is approximately a year away, give or take. so, I will NOT be taking any vacations this year. - as in a vacation to a hotel or anything.  I am going to use my days for my own needs. to get a good workout in. to spend time with friends around here at a concert. that's it. and i'm going to make MY schedule, my job, my life work for ME. it's not about me living someone else's idea of my life. its ME LIVING MY LIFE.

and therefore, it's me that should make the calls of what I need & when I need it. and that's it.

so....I wanna look good for her wedding & I will. how? I am going to make it the priority, since the only other priority is that I show up to work this next full year thru next April.

I will not have much else going on, besides some great concerts that i'm going to and maybe a show or some other similar activity around here. and that's where I might use an extra day or two. but no wasted full weeks of vacations. bc that will NOT in the end make me happy, rested, or ready for the next week when i'm at work again.

it's my life, like I said. and I know what I need to get thru it. if I had been in this industry from the start, and luckily I wasn't, I'd have more vaca time by now. but whatever, like I said, I know what I need to do to be successful at my life. and that's the end of it.

 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Mar 28, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

Happy Saturday! I def slept in a little bit :) Took a sleeping pill around 1am when i woke up and went back to bed around 2am until almost 9am. slept around 10 hours total, thankfully.  i needed it...same for tonight, looking to sleep in a bit tomorrow, too.  If i can get more sleep during the weekdays, I wouldn't care so much about sleeping extra on weekends. but right now, i am determined to catch some extra zzzz's this weekend after a very busy week.

10am Breakfast: Skyr Icelandic yogurt with stevia and canned pumpkin/cinnamon 150, ice pop 30, boullion cube/1/2 lemon/turmeric/extra sea salt 40.  strawberries with truvia. 80? 300...yeah, still hungry...

11am: followed up the above meal with oatmeal made with a mix of water/coconut water 150, peanut butter 200 - 350 & kombucha 50 - 400.

700...and some coffee...but will not count it (had milk, but not counting the calories)

late lunch at 3pm: sautéed cooked red cabbage around 100 (maybe more), 1 fried egg 100, 1/2 avocado 160, wrap 60: 450 at most.

1150, good.

dinner with friend tonight (ordering pickup so I can make a "Jackie Meal" out of it - low cals and fill up on light foods). Or.....either way...looking forward to some tasty thai food!

I did good, def not more than 2000.

walked a little too much, legs slightly bothering me, but also still stressing too much with my own thoughs. I need to better distract myself from the things that are bothering me (thoughts, not physical things)

 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 03/29/2015:
Hope your weekend goes well.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Mar 27, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

not more than 2,000 today. good.

half hour walk at lunch and then hour walk after work. a bit too much, but felt good doing it.

legs and body in general are very, very tired. hoping to sleep in, for a long time Saturday morning :)

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!


Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Mar 26, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

breakfast: 150 - banana, light drink, and hot water with lemon, turmeric, apple  cider vinegar, black pepper. followed by fried egg 100, low carb wrap 100, 1/2 avocado 150. total 500 healthy calories. very filling.

Snack of a natural bar few ingredients and decaf coffee while running around 250

 Lunch healthy slaw salad 150, lots of cooked bok choy with some oil 200, some fish 150 Maybe even 550. Around 1300 so far. Taking a walk now at 4pm then weights at gym later

snack before gym: coffee, small banana, strawberries 250

after gym: protein bar, popsicle 250

1800 very good.

Today is my last vacation day of the calendar year (company goes from April 1-March 31 for vacation days).  So, I've taken a total of 10 vacation days this year & 5 sick days, and two religious holidays during the Jewish New Year.

Next year I will be conserving a bunch of days for winter & March since my sister will be getting married and I am SURE I will not want to be working the grind around the time of her wedding in April! So I will take a bunch of days before April & then also use some of my new days around the time of her wedding.  If I am smart, I will only use a few of the 2016 days in over a year from now - because soon after I will resign from my job & should save days so that I can be PAID even while i'm not working there and inbetween my job that i'm leaving & the academy that i'm starting...lots to keep in the back of my mind, always.

10:00AM i'm taking care of taxes with my accountant. (like an hour's drive away, hopefully it'll take more like 45 minutes with less traffic)

11:30AM Then going to the dermatologist back closer to me.  i'm worried about something near my nose.  It's a couple growths which are small but I have noticed they are slowly increasing in size and it bothers me a lot.  Maybe the dermatologist can remove them. 

1:30/2:00PM till maybe 3 or 4pm stopping by the union hall,  right by me,  to meet with a supervisor over my options for how I am going to be able to transfer my money from the NYS Teacher's Retirement System (It's mandatory I have to pull my money out after 7 years not working & also not vested) and put it in my current retirement system for my job.  I've been trying to complete this transfer for 3 months and recently learned that my current system won't sign the paperwork for the teacher's retirement system. Lots of rules involved & it's not as simple as you'd think. 

Teacher's Retirement System is not about helping me out in any way & doesn't give a hoot if I am taxed 30% or not.  I am trying to forgo the taxes as 30% of $5,000 is a bit too much money in my opinion to throw away when I should be able to transfer it all. If I can get the paper signed by the top guy in my industry for my retirement plan - who I am going to see - I will be able to transfer the funds.  If he cannot sign, I have to go to the bank & open a new 401k and transfer my money there....and then transfer it into my current account - lots of extra steps i'm hoping to skip over.

I was gonna get my hair done today but that was before I made plans for the 1:30/2pm appt. At this point, I have cancelled my hair apt for a Keratin which makes it really easy for me to do my hair & wear it down to work for a few months.  I love the treatment & can only do it when I know I have the ability to wait 3 days before washing the solution that the coat the hair with out.  And I was really hoping to do it today - but the procedure is a couple hours & more important is me going to the gym.

around 3pm/4pm- not sure what time / afternoon before dinner: going to the gym for what should be a strong workout. been looking forward to a good workout today after a couple weeks of crappy ones.  it's too bad I couldn't fit in the hair after, as I'd originally planned. but I need to relax tonight - I do have work tomorrow.

it's a busy day - wasn't supposed to be this busy. but I need to take care of this retirement system problem so I can get my full amount from the Teacher's Retirement System before it turns July and I am penalized for not taking my money out & therefore getting nothing!

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

puddles on 03/26/2015:
busy day but have a great one.


Umpqua on 03/26/2015:
What a headache on the retirement funds, I hope you can get it sorted out!


grannyannie on 03/26/2015:
Very busy day! Good luck on sorting out your pension. Sounds complicated.


biscottibody59 on 03/26/2015:
If it's like most retirement plans your options are (probably) to withdraw the lump sum and YOU take care of the taxes, you take out everything for you except the taxes and penalty, or you roll it over to an IRA (Roth or traditional). If you roll it over, you pay no tax because none of it is in your hands.

It would be unusual for your current employer's plan to allow you to place your own money in their plan. But then I only know enough to be dangerous--as they say:-)

I wish you well in getting it all done to your liking!


thinkpositive on 03/27/2015:
Hope you accomplished everything!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Mar 25, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 126.0

around 1800 calories & half hour walk - as good as I could do.  Proud of myself for getting thru a very busy week so far.  And tomorrow I have some very important financial matters i'll be taking care off, one of them being my taxes.

the point is I got thru the day, not easy after last night 's two glasses of wine before dinner, an event that ended around 9:30, going to bed at 11:30 & waking up at 4:30.

Proud of myself because I absolutely KNOW that NOBODY could have done it better than me. I did everything I needed to do on Wednesday & that's all that matters.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!


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