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InnerPeace - Friday Dec 09, 2016

Weight: 306.0

So yesterday, I left work at 1:00 pm, because, just because. I was sick of sitting here doing nothing. I went to a few stores trying to find a gift for DH, but I didn't realize he'd be so hard to buy for. I picked up a few more things for the girl, for her birthday.

I picked up DH and took him to pick up some personalized elves he had made for the girl, my son and his wife. They are cute. Then we went to eat. I had a salad and some grilled parmesean chicken and some pasta. Didn't eat all of it, brought it to work today for lunch.

A good day at work is when you look at the clock and it is 3:00 pm, almost time to go home. These kind of days I love. I stayed busy all day and we received a load of property (27 boxes) that we had to process and label. I cannot add it to the inventory until I get all the financial documents, always seem to be waiting on someone.

So I will pick up the girl tonight and get food. DH said McDonald's but I'm thinking Subway. I will let the girl decide. We need to get on the road by 6:30 to make it to the play and I just hope the snow isn't coming this far west, because WOW just WOW with some snow in some places.

I didn't even get the girls gifts wrapped, I will do this tonight when she goes to sleep. We are supposed to leave tomorrow by 7:00 to make it to Toledo and then lots of shopping for stuff and groceries. It will be a great day. Then we are supposed to come back and have a sorta birthday party. I'm surprised the girl is going to wait until after we get back.

Sunday, I'm sure will be a relax day. I haven't walked my dog in three nights. It was raining and then bitter cold. He has a jacket, but he gets so cold, i worry about him. The man who sold him to my DH said that little dogs use up to 80% of their energy to stay warm. Well I hate when my little dog gets cold.

B: bagel with cream cheese, iced vanilla latte

S: cherry cordial - (sorta like a moon pie)

L: two slices of pizza (brought in by work people)

S: rice crispy treat - OMG I'm eating like a hog

and then I eat the chicken out of the chicken parmesean pasta dish I brought in to actually eat for lunch (left overs from last night), so now it is almost time to go home and I'm not even the least bit hungry.

I need to get in the habit of using my journal everyday instead of just when I think about it.

Anyway, yall have a great weekend! IP And then to leave you with the Mad Gab puzzle I am doing at work:  ENJOY!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/09/2016:
Have a great weekend!


puddles on 12/10/2016:
Have a great weekend you also.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/11/2016:
Now I'm getting it. For some reason, this year, I am learning what I must do for me in order to get thru the desk job lifestyle...in order to manage it! Manage my health. I have learned so much at this job. How important it is to stay active...to make sure (or at least TRY) to not let this job affect my health both emotionally and physically.

I understand you. sometimes you DO need to just leave. Of course not all the time...but...it's not like your boss or coworkers know what's best for you or like they are going to tell us "oh, you seem exhausted, go home," no, this doesn't happen. We must take care of ourselves when we can. Of course it doesn't always work out as well as we'd like, but we do need to make good choices for ourselves. YES.

I like how you brought your leftovers to work for lunch. That's basically what i do everyday - well - it's food that was prepared another day & i take my lunch almost everyday with me. no ordering in usually! But, now there's a new place by me - Trinidadian food (Trinidad)...and they have tons of veggies so sometimes i go in there and order a big plate that lasts 3-4 days at most which is good!. I leave it at work in the fridge and take some each day. I usually bring some carbs / protein to have with it.

Yep, 3pm is my time too to start getting excited. I usually leave at 4:30 but lately closer to 5pm bc i keep coming a hair late and taking a longer lunch - must work on this! LOL.

You actually aren't eating like a hog at all! Maybe two slices of pizza is high cal, but still i do know it's easy to chow down on it. next time if there is veggies, prob not, you can try for one slice and veggies? and the rice krispy treats are sugary but also a lot of air!

You are doing good, don't worry!



InnerPeace - Wednesday Dec 07, 2016

Weight: 306.0

I picked up DH and get us home in the pouring rain and stupid OH drivers. Anyway, he leaves and goes to his dental appointment and I am left to cook. I cooked the chicken, brussel sprouts and cauliflower. My mushrooms were bad so I just through the spinach in with the chicken. It all tasted pretty good. DH has been working on his sugar levels and he has mostly quit eating potatoes, so we don't have them in the house. This is a good thing.

Tonight, we have the girl, she will be going to the dentist tonight. I think we have settled on soup and grilled cheese but then DH takes steak out of the freezer. I asked why because we had already talked about dinner. And he says, well if the girl feels up to it we will have steak. The way he coddles this girl sometimes makes me ill. She is over every other weekend and a few days during the week and he said he wanted to get her an Ipad. Why? I asked, she is never here. Why don't you wait until she is older and can use it for school. But no, he said. He goes and gets a new phone and pays a huge amount of money on this girl and Ipad. I just am not happy with the entire situation. Why aske me if you are going to do what you want anyway?  And then last night he's like should I give it to her for her birthday or wait till Christmas. I just said, that's your baby, do what you want. I think he said he was going to wait for Christmas but that might change...whatever the baby wants. UGH!

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and some nasty American cheese I do not like, banana

S: balanced breaks  or halos

D: TBD

My sleep was just awful last night. My DH breathes so heavily like he just ran a marathon. I asked him to roll over two or three times, he stops for a minute but then starts back up. He is breathing loud or snoring and it was hard to get to sleep, then I was awake at 1:30 and again right before 3:00. I have been fighting sleep today at work too, OMG so sleepy.

I hope you all have a great evening.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/07/2016:
Hope you get better sleep. My husband snores when he has a cold and I can't sleep when he does.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2016:
When making this shift to healthier meal options maybe for lunch, you can tell hubby you are doing it for the health of both of you. You can even mention that you love himm and love how he's always prepared your lunch and that you want to try to change your habits to be healthier for you and him. If he likes your dinners, mention that you both can change your ways. Hopefully money isn't an issue...in terms of the different foods of lunch vs dinner foods...?

As far as potatoes / bananas, i do not like them for the high sugar, but lately i eat them because they have the potassium and they also settle my stomach - but that's just me - because i sometimes take too many probiotic type things...which make me go....

anyways, it sounds like hubby is in the same boat as you...he needs to be healthier too. You dinners are amazing. Maybe have a talk with him when he is relaxed telling him how much you care for him and want you both to change....he can always help you in kitchen if he wants...he can still pack the lunches...just from the dinner. you could just make double the portions maybe? so you can have dinner for lunch the next day? not sure exactly how it could work, but it's worth a shot.



InnerPeace - Tuesday Dec 06, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Box of Christmas for my mom goes out today, hopefully she will get it before everything is not edible. Ordered last two Christmas presents from Amazon and I am finished. YAY, now I just have to worry about what is going on with the work. I always seemed to get roped into planning activities for some reason.

I was asked to help put up the tree today, oh no, can we do it tomorrow? I will be better prepared tomorrow, so OK, now I will decorate the work tree.

Tonight I will get the girl's birthday stuff together, and then I need to sweep and mop the family room to get ready to put up the family tree.

We will be busy this weekend for the girl's birthday. Friday night night we see The Little Mermaid musical and Saturday we are taking a road trip to Toledo to the Bass Pro shop to get our picture taken with Santa, this is a tradition we started three years ago...we are so funny! this is what she wanted to do.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, corn chips, banana

S: balanced breaks

D: grilled chicken, cauliflower mash, roasted brussel sprouts - maybe some spinach and mushrooms sauteed with garlic.

DH has a dentist appointment so I will be left to cook all by myself.

Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/06/2016:
Good menu. Well done on the xmas shopping.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/07/2016:
I gotta say - your dinners are so good...so healthy...so much of the time.

I think you are in a habit, for maybe years, of what you eat at breakfast & lunch. Why don't you try to change up either what you are choosing for either breakfast or lunch 1 or 2 days per week to see if eating more protein / fat instead of sugars / carbs has you feeling better? Like, you can try to eat similar lunch to what you have at dinner? you may end up being able to cut a lot of calories that way, or maybe just feel better in general?

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lol i guess whatever work asks you to do - you do...lol...

Sounds like fun plans for the weekend, enjoy. i don't know what but lately i just want to be home on the weekend. i don't really want plans. weird.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/07/2016:
like for lunch, you can bring leftovers of dinner. think the same healthy way - lots of veggies and a small amount of meat and also the healthy fats on the veggies (think like the olive oil you use to roast the veggies is great)...so if you can eat lunch in a similar way to dinner, but include a ton of veggies and do not worry what coworkers think of your portion size. you can easily have around 2-4 cups of veggies with a little meat (very small amount) and be good. by a very small amount, only like the size of your palm with all those veggies....and you will save calories and be satisfied.)

innerpeace on 12/07/2016:
It's not the coworkers I worry about. My husband is the culprit. He makes lunch. I guess I will break down and do this task for us. He only knows sandwiches and he busy in bulk, which I cannot stand. He will buy 30 bananas and I will get totally brown banana that I toss in the garbage. Gross just gross. I will look more into this over the holidays. Can't bruise his ego.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/07/2016:
yeah, it does seem your hubby does get offended / upset easily...i will write more later on advice..!



InnerPeace - Monday Dec 05, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Friday I left work went home and waited for DH. We then left and ate at Boston Market. We shopped at a couple of stores and then went home. We will shop again on Sunday morning.

Saturday I was up at 6:00 with DH and got to Wal-mart at 7:00 and shopped until 8:30, got home with plans to bake for my mother, but I got a brutal migraine that made me sick to my stomach, I was down for the rest of the day, into the night. I didn't even get to enjoy the football game between OU and OSU cowboys, but my Sooners won so..YAY. About 8:00 I started feeling better and made the brownies for mom.

B: bisquit from BK

L: skipped

D: 2 slices of pizza

Sunday we were up again shopping, thankfully now most of the Birthday/Christmas shopping is finished. For this I am glad. I got hom and finished the luandry and made the candy for my mom. I made so much candy. I boxed it up for my mom and brought what was left to work. The box is to be shipped out tomorrow. DH was great until the last 30 minutes of the day, and then he acted like a freaking menapausal man! He started yelling at me for asking him what he was doing in the kichen. Seriously? I told him at first I asked him what he was doing because he would usually sneak stuff to eat and I would try to make sure he wasn't eating before bed because he usually does his blood sugar test. He flies off the handle and I just tell him, he has no right to talk to me like that...so I went down stairs to sleep. I stayed down there until about 3:30. He can be such an a$$hat sometimes. He ruined my nights sleep.

B: Egg, muffin, bacon

L: chicken tenders, cole slaw

D: pork chop - wasn't really hungry after the late lunch.

Got DH to work this morning and after I got to my work he had texted me asking me to come and pick him up because there was no work and he wanted to go home, so I did. Hopeing he comes and gets me at the right time. I should make him sit down in the car for 30 minutes like I have to do everyday, but I won't. UGH, I am still mad at him from last night.

B: yogurt

L: 1/2 ham and cheese, doritos, banana

S: balanced breaks

D: pork chop and something.

I will walk my dog tonight and try to organize all the Christmas crap.

Have a great evening!

 

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/05/2016:
I think DH acted all crazy because you caught him in the act and he was guilty!


Donkey on 12/05/2016:
^^^ What Horn of Plenty said - oh yeah, definitely caught in the act!


hollybelle on 12/06/2016:
Yeah - what HOP said. Deep sigh - hang in there.



InnerPeace - Friday Dec 02, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Somewhere along the way I tripped and fell then decided not to get back up and have been crawling ever since.

My BF from Oklahoma sent me a bunch of links to check out and try about juicing. Not so sure about this venture and will wait and find out her 30 day challenge results until I try this. I told her I was an addict to carbs, caffeine and sugar and I would more than likely die from this.

I have a spaghetti squash and acorn squash in my refrgerator that I will need to do something with before they turn, along with some cauliflower and brussel sprouts. We bought these vegetables for Thanksgiving but didn't use them. The carrots will keep a while longer but the celery has died.

Neither DH nor I felt like cooking last night so we went to Chipoltle, I had my usual vegetables and black beans, corn salsa and regular salsa and a few chips. I am ok with this. I had a yogurt once we got home.

My knees have been hurting lately at night so much so I dread walking up the stairs going to bed. Hopefully this is weather related and will pass soon.

Tonight DH and I are going shopping and have decided to eat out again at Boston Market for some chicken.

Tomorrow I will be baking for my mother and watching football. Sunday DH and I will be shopping again so I will be busy.

B: yogurt

L: peanut butter, cheezits, halos

S: balanced breaks

D: TBD

have a great weekend.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

puddles on 12/02/2016:
I get soar knees in the Winter and it is the weather that is why I really appreciate the fact that I leave for that season. Juicing might just be a good alternative. Have a great day.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/02/2016:
Nope, i def wouldn't do the juicing. It's all sugar, spikes your sugars, sugar high and then drop, gonna make you hungry, no fiber if you are juicing and not making a smoothie with the WHOLE fruit...you need proteins and fats. juicing would make me personally gain weight. ...

i love those veggies at Chipotle and you are making me practically crave it. I would also have a taste of some chips to satisfy with all the veggies. I love chipotle! good and healthy and tasty! yogurt is good for the extra protein yes. i would probably also want to reach for something when coming home...

Boston Market also has healthy choices. i miss a dish i don't think they have anymore....a sauteed spinach but it didn't have CREAM. thankfully. just like an olive oil and some lemon i think? so good...i loved it. but it's unfortunately gone bc i guess most of the people who go do not care for uncreamed spinach?

enjoy your weekend, iPeace!


grannyannie on 12/02/2016:
No, I wouldn't do juicing either. Far too much fructose! I normally limit my fruit to 2 a day.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/03/2016:
I agree with Annie. She said it better than i, in one or two sentences: juicing is all sugar and not balanced. Don't do. It's not going to help you.


Donkey on 12/03/2016:
I hope your knees feel better soon - not fun!



InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 30, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Tuesday is still the longest day of the week. DH picked up the girl and we ate dinner which he cooked.

A small round steak, a medly of mixed vegetables in curry sauce and salad. The curry vegetables had carrots, garbonzo beans, quinoa, raisens, bell pepper, celery and something I wasn't familiar with - maybe it was just a mixture of it all, good but different.

Was up at 3:00 to get DH up to be at work by 4:00 to cover for someone on vacation. I went back to sleep but kept hearing things and my dog was barking, so I'm scaring myself. I was up at 5:30 and thought I heard noises while I was in the shower. Had some stomach cramping early in the morning at work, but it went away.

DH took porkchops out for tonight, but I think I am going to cook a sausage, cheese quiche.

Not happy with work these days, I hope it gets better in the next week.

I walked the dog last night after it got dark, I was checking out all the Christmas lights going up in the neighborhood and this I find relaxing. Christmas music all day on the radio at work on the other hand is NOT. I have heard the same songs over and over by different artists and I am sick of them. I asked the person who changed the radio to this station - you do realize it is only November 30th? I will refuse to listen to this everyday for the next three weeks.

Lots of ideas going on in my head for Christmas - I always bake for my mother and I have decided to get that done this weekend while I don't have the girl with me. Our matching PJs arrived yesterday and I'm excited to wear them.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

S: balanced breaks

L: roastbeef sandwich, cheetos, halos (2)

D: hopefully my quiche

I'm ready for you December! Bring IT!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/30/2016:
I actually like Tuesdays, especially when I have the gym at night. I never really skip unless for more than a valid reason like being sick. So, it’s a way for me to get thru the day with something for me to look forward to. ! blah.

The curry veggies sound awesome! And you know, I remember you saying you don’t love so much meat, you can even stick to just some quinoa and beans and veggies and not have the meat. Maybe don’t drink up all the curry (high cal)….but…all the veggies you listed have my mouth watering! You always are eating nice veggies, particularly at your dinners. I have to say, you can always bring dinner for lunch to your job. Your dinners are always sounding so healthy!

Sorry you didn’t sleep well due to waking up hubby and also in general….Hopefully tonight you can make up for it! Those are also my plans exactly. And I am SO BORED at work today…not a lot of work!.....so….i think I’ll go home & read…yeah. Or maybe actually walk on treadmill next door to work after work, yeah. I actually joined a cheap gym next to my work as on option, a really, really close option.

Yep, it gets dark so darn fast right? Always dark after work these days. I totally forgot about that – def not good for going to the park where I would want to go to walk – not safe.

Yes, I agree that the same songs over & over does get boring. On TV, there’s a town in Queens, NY that plays music in its main commercial business shopping area over loud speakers and the residents were complaining. So now they limit the hours more….but I would hate to live somewhere and have no choice but to hear music all day long especially if I wanted silence! Radio is not really allowed here at work….i’d have to use headphones….of which I might be doing more of soon?....too quiet man!

Maybe try to add some veggies with the dinner? Like cauliflower with your cheese quiche / sausage? Or cabbage?

Work for me is just boring lately….but I am not complaining….as I have a job and that’s that. When I can leave and my legs are stronger by summer, I’ll leave. But for now, I’ll take it! Sorry you are also not enjoying work – just remember not to keep reminding yourself of it. I’d say this season in general is difficult – the holiday season.

That’s so cute you ordered matchng PJ’s…they were a frequent gift around this time when I was growing up and with my parents!



InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 29, 2016

Weight: 306.0

I'm am glad for the Thanksgiving holiday to be over! Not that we ate too much, because we didn't. Matter of fact on the actually Thanksgiving day we didn't fix a plate to eat at all. DH and I ate the honey baked turkey breast and saved the ham for the girl who came over during the weekend.

Friday I enjoyed the day by myself and again had lots of ideas but I just couldn't get motivated to actually do anything. DH got home with the little girl and we ate the leftovers from Wednesday. Green bean casserole, sweet potatoes, dressing, broccoli, salad and ham. I did make a pumpkin pie and it was very good.

The weekend was ok too. The girl and I ran around looking for Christmas presents and I had an idea in my head and was looking for a tree to act as a centerpiece for a work function, finally find something I hope will work. I took the girl to Home Depot to do the children's craft and was amazed that we were the only ones there, usually it is packed and the hammering drives me insane. The lady told me only five kids showed up, so they must have been holiday shopping or something - vacation?

Sunday DH and the girl go shopping and I stay home and do laundry, because though I dislike laundry I dislke shopping even more.

Monday was a bear at work with lots of new property delivered. I was so busy I didn't squeeze in time to journal.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla lattte

L: ham and cheese sandiwich, cheezits

S: balanced breaks

D: chicken, salad

S: yogurt

My DH was arguing with his work to get Friday and/or Saturday off so he could spend time with his daughter, they faught tooth and nail and said NO, but then last night they told him not to come to work on Tuesday....because there is no work to do because their customers were off during the weekend. Needless to say he is furious!

Tuesday  is here and I believe this is the longest day of the week. I made it to work but forgot my lunch, so I made DH bring it to me...I told him I would go to BK or somewhere and he said no he'd bring it to me.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits, halos

S: balaned breaks

DH is home, no telling what will be for dinner.

Continue to work towards your dreams and goals. Have a great evening.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/29/2016:
I can understand your feelings though. Especially with taking care of the little girl and providing for her and also entertaining and teaching her…lots going on. You, my friend, are also an inspiration. I cannot even dream of having the responsibility of totally caring for another human being other than myself while working. Not an easy task. Always be confident and proud of yourself for all you do both for your family….and also the important steps you’ve taken to care for yourself. You can only care for others if you care for your own health too. It is OK to take time out for yourself. Never feel bad about it..little bored at work, so taking the time to write a lengthy comment ! Now gonna write more…


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/29/2016:
LOL…I can’t say that this year I was too stressed about Thanksgiving. Really happy for the extra days off (Thurs and Fri). It will be the last time I have 4 days off (and left early on Wednesday leading up to the holiday) until April! Haha. So yeah, I’m pretty darn Thankful for it…..


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/29/2016:
Wednesday’s leftovers sound great. Relaxing time for yourself is important. Don’t feel bad about wanting to just relax & spend the day home. I used to feel about it – now I simply enjoy it – and lately I am able to also go out for a walk or be more productive after I’ve given myself the freedom to relax. ….

It’s ok. don’t beat yourself up. You DO work hard. You CAN relax :-D Wow lucky you guys to be like the only ones there for crafts! You took advantage of it, right? That’s super cool.

Like you, I am not a huge fan of shopping. Maybe if I could spend all the $ I ever wanted to – it would be a different story? But I truly prefer to walk with nature or do something more relaxed than shopping in stores too.

For lunch at work, you can try to bring veggies – a lot – even in sauce but more like a wholesome type or sautéed in olive oil – and some meat or light protein like eggs or little bit of deli meat or a piece of cheese or even a plain yogurt ? It will all have less calories then the bread sandwich and chips and it will be a bigger volume. It takes about 2 cups to fill up your stomach….it can be done very easily with veggies.

I actually do eat pretty weirdly and it’s not based on the American diet or food groups. I do use veggies as a way of filling myself up – particularly at work…it will help keep calories down….just telling you about what I do…I do eat carbs often , but at lunch most of the time at work, I try to eat many veggies because they keep my stomach full longer until I leave (eat at 1pm, leave at 4:30pm). If I’m feeling munchy, I try to just drink water or I do reach for diet stuff like gum or diet drink once in awhile or sugar free sucking candy…or a fruit if it’s later in the afternoon before I’m getting ready to leave…… What are the HALO’S you have with your lunch??????

Good for your hubby bringing it to you…good girl. If you like your sandwich, you may want to change the chips for sautéed side of veggies! May even turn to similar calories, but you will see the veggies will fill you up more with the sandwich then the chips and sandwich? Then later on when you are good with the veggies and sandwich, you can try extra veggies with a little protein…even potatoes are ok to add in (not really yams – those are high sugar) Sweet potatoes and regular white potatoes are fine…you can have like half a potato in your lunch…or even one slice of toast!!!!!!!!! That is OK!....and then fill like at least 1.5 cups worth of cooked veggies and a little bit of protein, even a plain 2% greek yogurt. Please ask me for more tips if you are interested……??? If not, I am sorry….bored here and trying to tell you things that have worked wonders for me. At lunch I eat till I am def full….but doesn’t cause weight gain.

And by the way, you totally do work for your dreams & goals. You also inspire me. You are responsible and get a lot done. You are motivated and driven…as well as well spoken!



InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 23, 2016

Weight: 306.0

So yeah my Tuesday night sucked! The plan was to get the Honey Baked ham, so I pick up DH and he is saying how his boss (Rick - who is a lieing a$$hat - prick) says good luck with going to Honey Baked, you will probably have to wait for days! All the negativity in this world is just really doing a job on my emotional state. I try to do my own thing, but sometimes OMG the weight of everything just really gets me down.

So as I am zigzagging through Cleveland trying to find this stupid store, DH and I have the discussion of what to eat. He doesn't care, whatever I want. Can the man not make a decision on his own? We finally get to the Honey Baked store and guess how many people are there...maybe four people in front of us. As we are waiting our turn he asks, which card do you want me to use? Referring to the two debit cards we have. This man I know checks the balances of each account I know twice a day. So at this point I'm like does it really matter? I just say use the Chase. After getting the ham I asked him again, what does he want to eat and he feels the need to yell at me. Whatever you want JoAnn! Really? You just needed to yell at me? I don't deserve this, so I just said, fine I am going home. So I drove home...in silence...for 45 minutes this man refuses to say anything at all. So I can relate to HOP's lonliness. I can have so many people around me, but still so very alone. Maybe it is this time of year, but OMG I have been so weepy today. Anyway, I get home and make myself some Malt-o-meal - it was good!

I was watching TV when I remembered I wanted to make some sausage balls for an appetizer today (we are eating Thanksgiving dinner this evening when the girl is with us), so I do that and cook them and I am ready to get to bed.

And then I'm have crazy dreams with car wrecks and everything else. I woke up once and my heart was racing so fast it scared me. Awful sleep night.

I get to leave a few hours early today and I'm supposed to go home and start cooking some sides, but I'm just so drained, I don't care if we eat at all. I am not in the mood for company and/or put up with my own DH and his relentless clingy daughter. It is taking every ounce of energy I have.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: cheezits, tangerines, balanced breaks

D: ham, turkey breast, Thanksgiving things

Everyone Enjoy this day! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 11/23/2016:
Hope that HoP reads this too--get ya' some vitamin D!!! If you're already taking it, you may need more.

It can't hurt most people, and when you get to your Dr next--just get a blood test. I take 5000 IUs 2 days in row and 1 day off and since the time change and nearly no "sun time," I notice my mood is sadder/less stable on the off day. I am still about 40 pounds underweight, so that seems like a lot of vitD, but my body seems to need that much right now. I think stress plays into it for me.

I hate that this time of year can suck so bad, but the vitD seems to help so far.

I hope you can carve out some "me time" soon.


biscottibody59 on 11/23/2016:
I hope to make an entry later! I'm on a tablet right now, ugh.

Hope the food is good and that the day is good for you!


hollybelle on 11/25/2016:
I agree with Biscotti about Vit D! Also - I read that spouses argue over where to eat more than anything else trivial. they must know me and my husband! Isn't it crazy?


Horn_of_plenty on 11/25/2016:
Yes, i def read your entry :-) I think it is this time of year that causes so many people to feel so sad...or just anxious. It sounds like even your hubby was feeling it.

Maybe it's bc there's so much extra pressure to, for many people but i can't really say myself, to do more and not less. Maybe we all just want to relax but many of us are cooking more and spending more time with family. maybe it's hard to find balance. must be it.


Donkey on 11/26/2016:
I hope Thanksgiving worked out for you. I can relate to the loneliness. I seem to be the only one in my family that ever experiences this, too.



InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 22, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Monday lasted forever, I wish my Saturday would last so long.

I picked up DH we did stop at Subway on the way home. My poor dog is still itching himself. I put hydrocorisone itching creme on him, it helped a little. He would not let me stuff the alovert down his throat again and he would not eat it, so no help there. The vet told me to try coconut oil, so I will go in search of this tonight.

Afterwork DH and I are going to stop and get a honey baked ham and then eat out again. This will be the last time this week because we will be eating all the Thanksgiving goodness. We are not having a big meal though and minimal sweet stuff. The girl will be over on Wednesday and we or i  should say I will have her this weekend...yay me..NOT! Her birthday is 12/10 and I hate decorating for Christmas before then, I don't like to mix her birthday and the holiday up. She will be 12. Lots of crafts and shopping planned this weekend.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits, tangerines

S: balanced breaks

D: TBD - not really feeling a big meal, so hopefully we can find something lite that we both want and/or like.

Plans for home...dog walk. Some meal prep for tomorrow and Thursday. Short week at work, very happy. Have a great evening. IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/23/2016:
Good Morning I-Peace,

I feel ya regarding Monday. I think this is an emotional / busy time for many and I know that you must be feeling extra emotional / tired this time of year. I am taking a guess, if I’m wrong, I take it back. I’m just saying that I can understand if you are because I am – and I really don’t have extra responsibilities or family to care for this time of year and I still feel an overwhelming sense of emotional with it being this season and holiday time.

I am sorry that Monday felt long, but it passes. And now it’s the day before a nice Holiday :-D

I love the Subway breads but….finally I SO FULLY SICK of Subway…that I don’t even go there on the days they have the deals!

I hope you find a good remedy for your doggie ASAP. Itching is no fun! 12 is a good age. Still very young and nice a teen. Perfect time to make any changes or educate her and for her to transform still into a young lady…

I am saying 12 is young and she is not yet an adult and there’s lots of room for learning & growth.

Have a wonderful day & evening, IP.



InnerPeace - Monday Nov 21, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Friday was a crap day at work.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits

S: balanced breaks

D: malt-o-meal

(i was crabby and didn't want to go out and eat - so we stayed home) DH had a sandwich I opted for malt-o-meal.

 

Weekend went by so fast. Saturday I was home alone. I relish this time, however, I enjoy sitting around doing nothing at all. DH woke up at 4:30 and he said something to the dog and it woke me up. So we are both up at 4:30. He goes to work and I fall asleep in the recliner and wake up at 10:00. I don't think I have slept until 10:00 since I've been to Ohio. Lots of football was watched by me.

B: malt-o-meal

L: cheezits

D: roast beef stew. I made stew in the crock pot and my house smelled good all day.

Sunday, DH and I decided to drive to Sandusky to shop at a Meijers store they have. It was similar to Wal-Mart and Big K but different (They had five rows of shelves of different bread - so much) and so overwhelming. We stopped at Ryan's buffet and then went back home. I had a big salad, a piece of steak, a small portion of dressing, mac and cheese, carrots and a piece of cheese cake. DH has been holding back on the sweets to keep his blood sugar in check before the surgery. I am so proud of him and this makes it so much easier for me as well. We get home and I bathe my dog with some oatmeal calming shampoo, the poor thing has been itching like crazy. I have checked him for pests and fleas, but he has nothing. The trainer said he could be allergic to the leaves. I have given him allovert and along with the bath this has kinda helped. I will give him another bath on Wednesday.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: Ryan's buffet

D: skipped

S: yogurt

I was up at 3:00 last night with a pounding headache. Sometimes I think my head is going to explode. I got up and took some alleve, stayed up about 45 minutes and went back to bed. I didn't want to get back up at 5:30 when the alarm when off, but I did.

At work I was looking over benefit brochures and flyers and found I could be enrolled in a health club benefit for $25 dollars a month and this allows me to use many different facilities in my area every month. It's amazing the stuff  you find out when you actually look at it. This is sure a big difference from $88 per month at the Y. But then the benefit stuff is usually stressful and irritating as the three pimples on my face is proof. Unbelieveable!

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits (which I learned has MSG so I will not be buying cheezits anymore after these are gone), tangerine

D: DH decided he wasn't cooking so we are opting for the subway again.

I hope tomorrow is a brighter day! Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/21/2016:
i also enjoy that quiet, peaceful alone time at home just chilling. yesterday though i was even too tired to chill - all i could do was eat and then decided if i was really going to be unproductive as that, i might as well take a sleeping pill and get some needed sleep. i did it, i guess it worked. just a tad tired today too.


OhioRaven on 11/21/2016:
The Brown's let me down again.

innerpeace on 11/22/2016:
i think you are in for a very long let down! I am eternally hopeful.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/22/2016:
LOL....can you explain this whole Brown's thing...mustard?



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