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InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 30, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Tuesday is still the longest day of the week. DH picked up the girl and we ate dinner which he cooked.

A small round steak, a medly of mixed vegetables in curry sauce and salad. The curry vegetables had carrots, garbonzo beans, quinoa, raisens, bell pepper, celery and something I wasn't familiar with - maybe it was just a mixture of it all, good but different.

Was up at 3:00 to get DH up to be at work by 4:00 to cover for someone on vacation. I went back to sleep but kept hearing things and my dog was barking, so I'm scaring myself. I was up at 5:30 and thought I heard noises while I was in the shower. Had some stomach cramping early in the morning at work, but it went away.

DH took porkchops out for tonight, but I think I am going to cook a sausage, cheese quiche.

Not happy with work these days, I hope it gets better in the next week.

I walked the dog last night after it got dark, I was checking out all the Christmas lights going up in the neighborhood and this I find relaxing. Christmas music all day on the radio at work on the other hand is NOT. I have heard the same songs over and over by different artists and I am sick of them. I asked the person who changed the radio to this station - you do realize it is only November 30th? I will refuse to listen to this everyday for the next three weeks.

Lots of ideas going on in my head for Christmas - I always bake for my mother and I have decided to get that done this weekend while I don't have the girl with me. Our matching PJs arrived yesterday and I'm excited to wear them.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

S: balanced breaks

L: roastbeef sandwich, cheetos, halos (2)

D: hopefully my quiche

I'm ready for you December! Bring IT!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/30/2016:
I actually like Tuesdays, especially when I have the gym at night. I never really skip unless for more than a valid reason like being sick. So, it’s a way for me to get thru the day with something for me to look forward to. ! blah.

The curry veggies sound awesome! And you know, I remember you saying you don’t love so much meat, you can even stick to just some quinoa and beans and veggies and not have the meat. Maybe don’t drink up all the curry (high cal)….but…all the veggies you listed have my mouth watering! You always are eating nice veggies, particularly at your dinners. I have to say, you can always bring dinner for lunch to your job. Your dinners are always sounding so healthy!

Sorry you didn’t sleep well due to waking up hubby and also in general….Hopefully tonight you can make up for it! Those are also my plans exactly. And I am SO BORED at work today…not a lot of work!.....so….i think I’ll go home & read…yeah. Or maybe actually walk on treadmill next door to work after work, yeah. I actually joined a cheap gym next to my work as on option, a really, really close option.

Yep, it gets dark so darn fast right? Always dark after work these days. I totally forgot about that – def not good for going to the park where I would want to go to walk – not safe.

Yes, I agree that the same songs over & over does get boring. On TV, there’s a town in Queens, NY that plays music in its main commercial business shopping area over loud speakers and the residents were complaining. So now they limit the hours more….but I would hate to live somewhere and have no choice but to hear music all day long especially if I wanted silence! Radio is not really allowed here at work….i’d have to use headphones….of which I might be doing more of soon?....too quiet man!

Maybe try to add some veggies with the dinner? Like cauliflower with your cheese quiche / sausage? Or cabbage?

Work for me is just boring lately….but I am not complaining….as I have a job and that’s that. When I can leave and my legs are stronger by summer, I’ll leave. But for now, I’ll take it! Sorry you are also not enjoying work – just remember not to keep reminding yourself of it. I’d say this season in general is difficult – the holiday season.

That’s so cute you ordered matchng PJ’s…they were a frequent gift around this time when I was growing up and with my parents!



InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 29, 2016

Weight: 306.0

I'm am glad for the Thanksgiving holiday to be over! Not that we ate too much, because we didn't. Matter of fact on the actually Thanksgiving day we didn't fix a plate to eat at all. DH and I ate the honey baked turkey breast and saved the ham for the girl who came over during the weekend.

Friday I enjoyed the day by myself and again had lots of ideas but I just couldn't get motivated to actually do anything. DH got home with the little girl and we ate the leftovers from Wednesday. Green bean casserole, sweet potatoes, dressing, broccoli, salad and ham. I did make a pumpkin pie and it was very good.

The weekend was ok too. The girl and I ran around looking for Christmas presents and I had an idea in my head and was looking for a tree to act as a centerpiece for a work function, finally find something I hope will work. I took the girl to Home Depot to do the children's craft and was amazed that we were the only ones there, usually it is packed and the hammering drives me insane. The lady told me only five kids showed up, so they must have been holiday shopping or something - vacation?

Sunday DH and the girl go shopping and I stay home and do laundry, because though I dislike laundry I dislke shopping even more.

Monday was a bear at work with lots of new property delivered. I was so busy I didn't squeeze in time to journal.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla lattte

L: ham and cheese sandiwich, cheezits

S: balanced breaks

D: chicken, salad

S: yogurt

My DH was arguing with his work to get Friday and/or Saturday off so he could spend time with his daughter, they faught tooth and nail and said NO, but then last night they told him not to come to work on Tuesday....because there is no work to do because their customers were off during the weekend. Needless to say he is furious!

Tuesday  is here and I believe this is the longest day of the week. I made it to work but forgot my lunch, so I made DH bring it to me...I told him I would go to BK or somewhere and he said no he'd bring it to me.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits, halos

S: balaned breaks

DH is home, no telling what will be for dinner.

Continue to work towards your dreams and goals. Have a great evening.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/29/2016:
I can understand your feelings though. Especially with taking care of the little girl and providing for her and also entertaining and teaching her…lots going on. You, my friend, are also an inspiration. I cannot even dream of having the responsibility of totally caring for another human being other than myself while working. Not an easy task. Always be confident and proud of yourself for all you do both for your family….and also the important steps you’ve taken to care for yourself. You can only care for others if you care for your own health too. It is OK to take time out for yourself. Never feel bad about it..little bored at work, so taking the time to write a lengthy comment ! Now gonna write more…


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/29/2016:
LOL…I can’t say that this year I was too stressed about Thanksgiving. Really happy for the extra days off (Thurs and Fri). It will be the last time I have 4 days off (and left early on Wednesday leading up to the holiday) until April! Haha. So yeah, I’m pretty darn Thankful for it…..


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/29/2016:
Wednesday’s leftovers sound great. Relaxing time for yourself is important. Don’t feel bad about wanting to just relax & spend the day home. I used to feel about it – now I simply enjoy it – and lately I am able to also go out for a walk or be more productive after I’ve given myself the freedom to relax. ….

It’s ok. don’t beat yourself up. You DO work hard. You CAN relax :-D Wow lucky you guys to be like the only ones there for crafts! You took advantage of it, right? That’s super cool.

Like you, I am not a huge fan of shopping. Maybe if I could spend all the $ I ever wanted to – it would be a different story? But I truly prefer to walk with nature or do something more relaxed than shopping in stores too.

For lunch at work, you can try to bring veggies – a lot – even in sauce but more like a wholesome type or sautéed in olive oil – and some meat or light protein like eggs or little bit of deli meat or a piece of cheese or even a plain yogurt ? It will all have less calories then the bread sandwich and chips and it will be a bigger volume. It takes about 2 cups to fill up your stomach….it can be done very easily with veggies.

I actually do eat pretty weirdly and it’s not based on the American diet or food groups. I do use veggies as a way of filling myself up – particularly at work…it will help keep calories down….just telling you about what I do…I do eat carbs often , but at lunch most of the time at work, I try to eat many veggies because they keep my stomach full longer until I leave (eat at 1pm, leave at 4:30pm). If I’m feeling munchy, I try to just drink water or I do reach for diet stuff like gum or diet drink once in awhile or sugar free sucking candy…or a fruit if it’s later in the afternoon before I’m getting ready to leave…… What are the HALO’S you have with your lunch??????

Good for your hubby bringing it to you…good girl. If you like your sandwich, you may want to change the chips for sautéed side of veggies! May even turn to similar calories, but you will see the veggies will fill you up more with the sandwich then the chips and sandwich? Then later on when you are good with the veggies and sandwich, you can try extra veggies with a little protein…even potatoes are ok to add in (not really yams – those are high sugar) Sweet potatoes and regular white potatoes are fine…you can have like half a potato in your lunch…or even one slice of toast!!!!!!!!! That is OK!....and then fill like at least 1.5 cups worth of cooked veggies and a little bit of protein, even a plain 2% greek yogurt. Please ask me for more tips if you are interested……??? If not, I am sorry….bored here and trying to tell you things that have worked wonders for me. At lunch I eat till I am def full….but doesn’t cause weight gain.

And by the way, you totally do work for your dreams & goals. You also inspire me. You are responsible and get a lot done. You are motivated and driven…as well as well spoken!



InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 23, 2016

Weight: 306.0

So yeah my Tuesday night sucked! The plan was to get the Honey Baked ham, so I pick up DH and he is saying how his boss (Rick - who is a lieing a$$hat - prick) says good luck with going to Honey Baked, you will probably have to wait for days! All the negativity in this world is just really doing a job on my emotional state. I try to do my own thing, but sometimes OMG the weight of everything just really gets me down.

So as I am zigzagging through Cleveland trying to find this stupid store, DH and I have the discussion of what to eat. He doesn't care, whatever I want. Can the man not make a decision on his own? We finally get to the Honey Baked store and guess how many people are there...maybe four people in front of us. As we are waiting our turn he asks, which card do you want me to use? Referring to the two debit cards we have. This man I know checks the balances of each account I know twice a day. So at this point I'm like does it really matter? I just say use the Chase. After getting the ham I asked him again, what does he want to eat and he feels the need to yell at me. Whatever you want JoAnn! Really? You just needed to yell at me? I don't deserve this, so I just said, fine I am going home. So I drove home...in silence...for 45 minutes this man refuses to say anything at all. So I can relate to HOP's lonliness. I can have so many people around me, but still so very alone. Maybe it is this time of year, but OMG I have been so weepy today. Anyway, I get home and make myself some Malt-o-meal - it was good!

I was watching TV when I remembered I wanted to make some sausage balls for an appetizer today (we are eating Thanksgiving dinner this evening when the girl is with us), so I do that and cook them and I am ready to get to bed.

And then I'm have crazy dreams with car wrecks and everything else. I woke up once and my heart was racing so fast it scared me. Awful sleep night.

I get to leave a few hours early today and I'm supposed to go home and start cooking some sides, but I'm just so drained, I don't care if we eat at all. I am not in the mood for company and/or put up with my own DH and his relentless clingy daughter. It is taking every ounce of energy I have.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: cheezits, tangerines, balanced breaks

D: ham, turkey breast, Thanksgiving things

Everyone Enjoy this day! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 11/23/2016:
Hope that HoP reads this too--get ya' some vitamin D!!! If you're already taking it, you may need more.

It can't hurt most people, and when you get to your Dr next--just get a blood test. I take 5000 IUs 2 days in row and 1 day off and since the time change and nearly no "sun time," I notice my mood is sadder/less stable on the off day. I am still about 40 pounds underweight, so that seems like a lot of vitD, but my body seems to need that much right now. I think stress plays into it for me.

I hate that this time of year can suck so bad, but the vitD seems to help so far.

I hope you can carve out some "me time" soon.


biscottibody59 on 11/23/2016:
I hope to make an entry later! I'm on a tablet right now, ugh.

Hope the food is good and that the day is good for you!


hollybelle on 11/25/2016:
I agree with Biscotti about Vit D! Also - I read that spouses argue over where to eat more than anything else trivial. they must know me and my husband! Isn't it crazy?


Horn_of_plenty on 11/25/2016:
Yes, i def read your entry :-) I think it is this time of year that causes so many people to feel so sad...or just anxious. It sounds like even your hubby was feeling it.

Maybe it's bc there's so much extra pressure to, for many people but i can't really say myself, to do more and not less. Maybe we all just want to relax but many of us are cooking more and spending more time with family. maybe it's hard to find balance. must be it.


Donkey on 11/26/2016:
I hope Thanksgiving worked out for you. I can relate to the loneliness. I seem to be the only one in my family that ever experiences this, too.



InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 22, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Monday lasted forever, I wish my Saturday would last so long.

I picked up DH we did stop at Subway on the way home. My poor dog is still itching himself. I put hydrocorisone itching creme on him, it helped a little. He would not let me stuff the alovert down his throat again and he would not eat it, so no help there. The vet told me to try coconut oil, so I will go in search of this tonight.

Afterwork DH and I are going to stop and get a honey baked ham and then eat out again. This will be the last time this week because we will be eating all the Thanksgiving goodness. We are not having a big meal though and minimal sweet stuff. The girl will be over on Wednesday and we or i  should say I will have her this weekend...yay me..NOT! Her birthday is 12/10 and I hate decorating for Christmas before then, I don't like to mix her birthday and the holiday up. She will be 12. Lots of crafts and shopping planned this weekend.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits, tangerines

S: balanced breaks

D: TBD - not really feeling a big meal, so hopefully we can find something lite that we both want and/or like.

Plans for home...dog walk. Some meal prep for tomorrow and Thursday. Short week at work, very happy. Have a great evening. IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/23/2016:
Good Morning I-Peace,

I feel ya regarding Monday. I think this is an emotional / busy time for many and I know that you must be feeling extra emotional / tired this time of year. I am taking a guess, if I’m wrong, I take it back. I’m just saying that I can understand if you are because I am – and I really don’t have extra responsibilities or family to care for this time of year and I still feel an overwhelming sense of emotional with it being this season and holiday time.

I am sorry that Monday felt long, but it passes. And now it’s the day before a nice Holiday :-D

I love the Subway breads but….finally I SO FULLY SICK of Subway…that I don’t even go there on the days they have the deals!

I hope you find a good remedy for your doggie ASAP. Itching is no fun! 12 is a good age. Still very young and nice a teen. Perfect time to make any changes or educate her and for her to transform still into a young lady…

I am saying 12 is young and she is not yet an adult and there’s lots of room for learning & growth.

Have a wonderful day & evening, IP.



InnerPeace - Monday Nov 21, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Friday was a crap day at work.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits

S: balanced breaks

D: malt-o-meal

(i was crabby and didn't want to go out and eat - so we stayed home) DH had a sandwich I opted for malt-o-meal.

 

Weekend went by so fast. Saturday I was home alone. I relish this time, however, I enjoy sitting around doing nothing at all. DH woke up at 4:30 and he said something to the dog and it woke me up. So we are both up at 4:30. He goes to work and I fall asleep in the recliner and wake up at 10:00. I don't think I have slept until 10:00 since I've been to Ohio. Lots of football was watched by me.

B: malt-o-meal

L: cheezits

D: roast beef stew. I made stew in the crock pot and my house smelled good all day.

Sunday, DH and I decided to drive to Sandusky to shop at a Meijers store they have. It was similar to Wal-Mart and Big K but different (They had five rows of shelves of different bread - so much) and so overwhelming. We stopped at Ryan's buffet and then went back home. I had a big salad, a piece of steak, a small portion of dressing, mac and cheese, carrots and a piece of cheese cake. DH has been holding back on the sweets to keep his blood sugar in check before the surgery. I am so proud of him and this makes it so much easier for me as well. We get home and I bathe my dog with some oatmeal calming shampoo, the poor thing has been itching like crazy. I have checked him for pests and fleas, but he has nothing. The trainer said he could be allergic to the leaves. I have given him allovert and along with the bath this has kinda helped. I will give him another bath on Wednesday.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: Ryan's buffet

D: skipped

S: yogurt

I was up at 3:00 last night with a pounding headache. Sometimes I think my head is going to explode. I got up and took some alleve, stayed up about 45 minutes and went back to bed. I didn't want to get back up at 5:30 when the alarm when off, but I did.

At work I was looking over benefit brochures and flyers and found I could be enrolled in a health club benefit for $25 dollars a month and this allows me to use many different facilities in my area every month. It's amazing the stuff  you find out when you actually look at it. This is sure a big difference from $88 per month at the Y. But then the benefit stuff is usually stressful and irritating as the three pimples on my face is proof. Unbelieveable!

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits (which I learned has MSG so I will not be buying cheezits anymore after these are gone), tangerine

D: DH decided he wasn't cooking so we are opting for the subway again.

I hope tomorrow is a brighter day! Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/21/2016:
i also enjoy that quiet, peaceful alone time at home just chilling. yesterday though i was even too tired to chill - all i could do was eat and then decided if i was really going to be unproductive as that, i might as well take a sleeping pill and get some needed sleep. i did it, i guess it worked. just a tad tired today too.


OhioRaven on 11/21/2016:
The Brown's let me down again.

innerpeace on 11/22/2016:
i think you are in for a very long let down! I am eternally hopeful.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/22/2016:
LOL....can you explain this whole Brown's thing...mustard?



InnerPeace - Thursday Nov 17, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Tuesday night I picked up DH and we got the girl. Once we got home the girl went for the showers and I started the sides. I made mashed cauliflower, spinach, sliced tomotoes and dressing. This is what I ate. DH and the girl ate the chicken. It was satisfying. I helped the girl with some homework, she left and I walked the dog. At dinner i was already planning to not go to work on Wednesday.

Wednesday comes around and I call into work. I did have a minor headache but nothing to miss work from. I just didn't feel like going a mental health day if you will.

B: peanut butter and jelly sandwich

L: cheezits and DDP

DH gets home about 2:30 and asks me to go to the diabetes doctor with him, so I go, hoping this won't be a three hour time waste again. We were out by 4:00 and he learns he will have to wait a few months before he gets his surgery scheduled - he is bummed, was kinda hoping he could get this done over the holidays so it will be early next year now. He was told he must get his blood sugar under better control. He doesn't consistly check it, so he will need to do that the next three weeks. Anyway, for dinner we got to a Mexican restaurant. I had flautas with shredded chicken, beans, and some salsa. Minimal chips and I gave DH one of the flautas with ground beef in it. We get home and I walk my dog...I just love him so much.

This morning...crazy things happen at work, do not want to be her this day. But getting lots done and finally finshed the inventory and passed it to the higher headquarters. Getting the girl this evening...no other plans. DH took the elk meat out for dinner.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

S: breakfast bar

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits

S: balanced breaks

D: TBD

And today I think I'm dealing with emotional issues. My son turns 30 today and OMG I just feel so old and I am missing him terribly.

Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/17/2016:
nice job eating all your veggies. adding a little chicken may make it more satisfying and better for your nutrition as some protein is important. I hope the girl starts to like all these veggies....you are lucky you like them! i love them toO!

i am glad at least your hubby has the surgery scheduled. :)

work is work...haha.



InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 15, 2016

Weight: 306.0

I get DH and we go home, sometimes I can't get home fast enough. I walk my dog and DH finally got some propane so he is grilling porkchops. They were good, but again, I feel as if we eat entirely too much meat. My mother even said this when she was visiting, but I didn't pay any mind to it then. DH took out chicken for dinner this morning, I told him to only take out one chicken and him and the girl can eat it, I will eat something else.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: 1/2 ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits, a few pretzels

S: balanced breaks

D: porabello mushroom, spinach (for now)

We have the girl today, she is so taxing sometimes. I will get through this...after I walk my dog.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/15/2016:
I feel that my family eats way too much meat as well, but it has been difficult for us to eliminate it completely from our meals. I try to eat less but I definitely need protein in my meal or things get funky. I know that there are non-meat sources of protein, just haven't quite figured out how to incorporate that into EVERY dinner.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/16/2016:
the amount of meat for a portion is def small - only the size of the palm of your hand! not including your fingers! so yeah, i wouldn't enjoy eating a pork chop either...your portobella idea with spinach sounds nice!!!!!! maybe over a little bit of a grain? to balance it...i would get bloated if i only ate those veg without a few chips or something with them for balancing out all the water / fiber...?

...or maybe i'm just weird!

would girl like to walk with you? it's good exercise! she needs walking also. it's extremely important for her.



InnerPeace - Monday Nov 14, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Friday a much needed holiday. DH worked - and he always, always makes me feel bad when I have the day off and he doesn't. It's not my fault he works for a crappy company who doesn't recognize all holidays only the major ones.

I sat around, washed dishes, swept, mopped and just relaxed. I did go get the girl at 4:30. DH was working until 7:00. This was our eat out night and I didn't want to go out at 8:00 pm so we brought in Taco Bell.

Saturday - DH was up at 5:30 to get to work, this was his last day to work his twelve hour shift. The girl and I did errands and I registered her for a beginning sewing class at noon. I took her to the class and watched OU play on the iPad until she was finished - well she didn't finish her project, but the class was over, matter of fact it ran over about an hour.  She said her grandma could help her finish it. She was just starving so I stopped at McDonald's for her. Afterwards we go to a few more stores and then get home after 5:30. I had thrown a pot roast in the crockpot, so we waited for DH to get home before we ate.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: skipped

D: roast, salad, green beans

Sunday - DH and the girl left to go pick up a few items shopping. I did laundry and started watching movies and I was drawn in the rest of the day. These were movies I had not seen before. Adjustment Bureau, Wanted, Divergence and Edge of Tomorrow - I liked all of them for different reasons.

B: donut, iced vanilla latte

L: cheezits

D: steak, salad, corn

S: slice of pumpkin roll

People at work was talking about meat and all it's grossness. I'm having issues with it again...so who knows. I also read some disturbing information on dairy and that really grosses me out so I may have to make some changes in my food intake. My next trip is in March - so I need to get started now unless I want to be uncomfortable on the plane again.

decisions, decisions. Have a nice night all.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/14/2016:
I always think it's strange how some companies are open and some aren't on the holidays. I am a person that likes to see fairness for all..lol..but there's no such a thing as we know! or at least we're in the wrong country i think it would be more socialist...? who knows...

McDonalds is good if you get a garden salad with grilled chicken or so and even a small fries with it...and filling for the girl! just an idea that you can order anywhere and get the veggies in...hope you don't mind my interlude here!

i think it's great you use the crockpot so often. your home must always smell good.

the roast salad and green beans sound really good. nicely done, IP! i would love that meal :-D

glad you had some relax time...i like that too. :)

don't let the people at work get in your head...if you do like meat, it's ok. it's filling. when i am not eating enough protein, i start to actually crave it! and i eat it a bit extra for a day or 2. ok, seriously, enough about me!

where do you plan to go in March? That's pretty soon you know! :) exciting!!!! i want to hear all about it as you know more about it yourself!

In April is my next trip. It's to visit a friend in Miami, FL. So i will pay airfare and stay with her which is a really nice bonus and really a HUGE deciding factor for going. since i do not generally like to spend my savings so hopefully i will not have to on this trip at all.

innerpeace on 11/15/2016:
My trip is back to Oklahoma for my best friend's wedding. I have known her since we were 15. WOW 35 years! She is my sounding board and I love her so much. We met as sophomores in high school in driver's education.

She has always struggled with fitting in with the right people and described herself as a round peg fitting into a square hole. It wasn't until about five years ago that she realized she was a lesbian and had a very difficult time with this.

I had a girl I worked with who I thought would be a good companion for her because she was a lesbian too, however, when I introduced them the first time, they were in very different places in their life and nothing ever happened. I wasn't looking for anything to happen, I just wanted my friend to talk to the girl and hopefully learn about what she was going through.

Jump ahead two years and the two meet again and they have been together ever since (almost four years now). I am a firm believer that things happen in your life when you are ready for them to happen and/or can emotionally and physically handle the situation. Anyway, they have been planning this union for about 18 months and plan to join together on St. Patrick's Day. I am very excited about it.

innerpeace on 11/15/2016:
I don't mind your suggestions, I appreciate them so much. Thank you!



InnerPeace - Thursday Nov 10, 2016

Weight: 306.0

OMG I have never in my life lived to see a big bunch of grown a$$ people act like babies. This is not the America I know. This, this is what happens when everone gets participation trophies. Everyone who didn't get their way was just spouting love and kindess not 48 hours ago and are now rioting...really PEOPLE grow the EF up! This makes me feel like I gave up 20 years of my life for absolutely nothing!

On onther note, I sat in the waiting room at the surgeon's office for 3 hours! WTF! Went there with DH about 2:15. His appointment was at 2:30. We are still in the waiting room at 3:30 with three others in front of us. My DH finally gets called back about 3:55 and he says he waited in the room for another fifteen minutes. We leave about 5:15. Another man was waiting and was asking the nurse why such a long wait - well what she says really irks me!

M: My appointment was at 2:30, how much longer do you suppose it will be?

N: Well we see so many patients here, and everyone asks can you squeeze me in? So if you come here you have to wait.

M: I can't wait. I have a 7 year old, I own a business and work over 50 hours a week. My appointment was for 2:30 I expect to be seen in a reasonable time.

N: Listen, my husband died about 18 months ago, and at the time I had to decide what was important to me and deal with it, so how important is getting your knee looked at? If it's important enough to you, than I suggest you deal with it!

I am sitting in my chair in utter disgust! This lady, seriously, needs to get an ounce of empathy! The man said, you know what, just cancel my 2:30 appointment and he walks out. I felt bad for him. I was so mad because this apointment was last week but had been rescheduled on Sunday. This nurse call my DH on Sunday prior to original appointment and told him it had to be rescheduled because the doctor was not going to be in the office. So I'm thinking they double booked this day causing this unacceptable delay. It was just awful.

Because we were at the doctor's office, we were late getting the girl and then we just went to the Chinese buffet. I am ok here as I eat lots of vegatables and chicken. Once we get back to the house, the girl takes a shower and I walk the dog. She was gone shortly after.

Today, DH had to work a twelve hour shift to cover for someone with a death in the family. He won't be home until 7:30. I will go home and cook stuff.

B: iced vanilla latte

L: ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits

S: balanced breaks

D: I'm going to make meatloaf, mashed potatoes and green beans.

Everyone have a great night and be nice to one another!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/10/2016:
sorry you guys had to wait so long. seems this happens sometimes at specialty doctors' offices. does stink for the patients. this happens to me at the derm, but usually an hour wait, not 2. so sorry!

i love some nice chinese veggies. haven't had them in a LONG time. then again, i do love my Thai prepared veggies more...just had them last week!haha.



InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 08, 2016

Weight: 306.0

Monday night, i picked up DH and got home. I made grilled chicken - chicken marsala, mashed cauliflower and salad. It was OK - the chicken seemed touch.

DH walked the dog while I cooked, he came home and showered and that was that. It was a quiet evening.

B: yogurt, iced vanilla latte

L: ham, cheese sandwich, cheezits, banana

S: gummy fruit

D: I'm going to make a concoction with grount turkey meat, spinach, cheese and pastry dough...not sure what though.

Still doing inventory at work, I can't find lots of crap - this creates stress.

Have a great night.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/09/2016:
I MUST start making more cauliflower! I MUST start roasting veggies! GOOD EATS, IP! Chicken Marsala, not to judge, but sounds a little bit unhealthy bc it's slightly fried and quite saucy...right? but then again, it sounds satisfying with your mashed cauliflower and salad which are really nice sides to the chicken....so maybe i have judged too quickly. overall, sounds like a really nice meal!

i eat a lot of bananas also even though they wreak havoc on my blood sugar. when i eat one, i get a huge appetite like 2 hours later, even if i eat the banana after having some protein and carbs. i might start looking into another approach soon. bananas and i have a love / hate relationship. they are good for me, but i get annoyed at the blood sugar effects of eating them!

same thing for me with anything high sugar like the gummy fruit - i find it VERY hard to manage blood sugar after having anything with excessive carbs, including dessert. just doesn't work well for me - and then for awhile i end up consuming more carbs or have a cravings and desires to consume more carbs....do you get this way?

like, now, when i eat the carbs (like fruit / granola bars), i typically pair them with caffine! bc then i get a sugar rush and follow it up with caffeine which sorta prolongs the rush in a good way - especially if i am having it purposely, which i do, before workouts or before going out to do something more physical...sorry to comment a lot - just trying tell you my own experiences based on some foods you list! :)

i have heard many good things from friends and in general online about ground turkey meat. so healthy. tasty. tasty when flavored well and especially in casseroles. nice idea for dinner, i need to def start cooking more on my own and buying less. would love to cook turkey more. and it's so much healthier than cold cuts at the deli counter.

have a wonderful day...

with work i was reading something, try to realize what you are "giving" at work...meaning, try to forget the idea that you are "only working for a paycheck" and try to think about things you do at work that certainly DO BENEFIT others and the company. many, including myself, have been so dissatisfied with our jobs and we forget why or what the specific importance of the job is that we spend so much time doing, everyday. but, the point of what i was reading was to demonstrate that even the folks that stock store shelves have meaningful jobs - by them organizing and stocking the store, it saves the consumer time and energy in finding what they are looking for while shopping. everyone's job is definitely necessary for one reason or another and it's up to us to decide if we want to notice the meaning....this is what i'm doing.

and trust me, my job is very low in general meaningfulness, but now i'm thankful for the opportunity to figure out how i can make it MORE meaningful....and this includes by being nice and considerate to my coworkers and to try to make people's days better (not worse!). It's to treat people with respect and compassion...and to help those i can...especially friends at work who might need advice.

Additionally, my job is to help my boss and save his time by doing certain tasks on my own and completing them to the best of my ability so that he doesn't have to do those tasks and can finish his estimate faster. so, yea, i just have to do this and do it to my best ability.



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