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InnerPeace - Monday Jun 27, 2016

Weight: 311.9

I get behind, I don't do things....

The last week was an experience with the girl there, DH and I going to work. DH really needs to get his anxiety under control. He won't drive on the highway...well 96% of our commute is on the highway and I'm driving every bit of it. I spent 3 1/2 hours in the car driving on Friday. From home to camp, to Dh work, my work, Dh work, doctor office, Dh work, my work, Dh work, camp, home! I used over 1/4 tank of gas all because he gets nervous driving! I get tired, I experience road rage.

This morning, I am turning onto the on ramp for the highway and this a$$hat wants to try and pass me on the on-ramp. What the hell? So when I finally get on the interstate this yahoo speeds around me and flips me off! I'm like what the hell did I do wrong, go the speedlimit? It's not my fault you couldn't get your lazy A$$ out of bed and get to work ontime. JACKHOLE! This aggravates me and I let it mess with my whole day.

And then, the new time and attendance system sucks! Everyone is having issues with it and today is time card day...I don't need this stress! In three weeks I will be on vacation! Much needed break.

Friday, we hit the golden coral buffet. No one knew what they wanted to eat, so we go there and left each to their own thing. My down fall - the bread!

Get home do some things. go to bed about 10;30 - up with the dog about 12:30 and fall asleep in the recliner. DH woke me up when he was leaving for work. I go upstairs to bed until about 8:30, wake up with my Saturday headache (MRI next week). chill around the house until Dh gets home. We go to garage sales and mess around until time to leave for dinner.

Saturday

B: toast, with peanut butter and syrup

L: skipped

D: jaegersnitzel, spaetzel and german potato salad - that wasn't what I thought it should be so DH ate. And then there was delicious bread - the bread!

Went to the Annie Jr. play. It was cute by kids, for kids!

Afterwards we stopped at Sonic and had a 1/2 price shake. Didn't get home until almost 11:00 - stayed up watching a movie and went to bed at 1:30.

SUnday

Up at 7:30, do the crossword and the obligatory 2 episodes of law and order and go outside and do yard work. Weed the flowers and repot some things and of course laundry (all day)

B: blueberry bagle, cream cheese

L: left over jaegersnitzel

D: subway turkey, bacon

S: vanilla pudding, golden oreos 3

Finally finished laundry at 9:30, watched the end of white Hose Down and go to bed about 11:15 - dog slept all night and i was in a pretty good mood for a Monday...until I drove to work.

Missed the girl this morning - we will see her again tomorrow.

Have a great night!

 

 

 

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 06/27/2016:
Serenity now...Serenity now...


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/28/2016:
Hi IP. I am so sorry about DH and anxiety with driving. If he hasn't done so already, please try to have him see a psychiatrist.

I had the same exact driving problem with anxiety on highway this past fall. I was able to get thru it & get over it. I am still taking anxiety medication, but i also learned how to talk myself thru it.

He must learn to keep breathing, but not the shallow chest breaths. He needs to be able to breathe deeply, down into his stomach...he needs to realize he is in control and not the other way around.

God bless you. things will get better. DH needs help.



InnerPeace - Thursday Jun 23, 2016

Weight: 311.9

picked up the girl and DH and we go home. I've had an activity planned after work this whole week, but just as I predicted the girl passed out in the back seat before we even got home! This camp life sure wears her out. Today they are going to the Great Lakes Science Center in CLE, good thing that wasn't scheduled for yesterday or else they would not have gotten down there.

Work blows again today, not much going on. It was supposed to storm, but I think it just rained a little. DH texted and told me he made a doctor's appointment tomorrow for his knee and asked if I could drive. Seriously I use more sick leave chaufferring him around than I do for actual sickness. I told him I would ask my boss...my boss, yeah sure whatever you need!

DH didn't take anything out for dinner, he said we would get subway, which is fine I guess.

B: strawberry poptart, water

S: banana

L: 1/4 left over quesadilla, freeze dried snap peas, gummy fruit

S: balance breaks, peanut butter M&Ms

D: something from subway, I'll have healthy options.

Tomorrow...International Festival

Saturday - Annie Play - German Food?

plans, decisions

Have a great night!

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/23/2016:
Camp in the sun and all the moving around is WAY more tiring i think than school. So much more healthy in terms of fitness and weight control lol....way more active than sitting all day at a desk. I'm glad it's wearing her out! That's a good thing. By end of summer, she'll be used to it :-)

then you'll need to keep her active during the school year!



InnerPeace - Wednesday Jun 22, 2016

Weight: 311.9

Picked up DH and then went for the little girl. We made it home in record time. DH grilled steaks and I steamed some brussel sprouts, just love those. After dinner we headed off to Home Depot for a hoe! DH found a grill he wanted so we head back home to get the truck and go back to pick it up. I washed the girls Y shirt for camp and we thought we needed ice cream.

This morning getting to work was a nightmare! Everyone and their sister was tyring to get downtown for the Cavs parade. This was at 6:30. All the RTA parking lots were over flowing and side streets were being used for parking, this craziness! For once I am more than happy I don't work downtown anymore! Incredible amount of people must have called in sick or something from work.

B: strawberry poptart, ice tea

S: sweet and salty protein bar

L: 1/2 roast beef sandwich, freeze dried peas, motts gummy fruit

S: balance breaks

D: quesadilla with left over steak and chicken, avocado

Using the hoe tonight, while DH mows, may plant some flowers. Storms are coming in tonight..or so they say!

Have a great evening!

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/22/2016:
I love the "and we thought we needed ice cream". I also love my brussel sprouts anything cabbage I love. Have a great evening.


OhioRaven on 06/22/2016:
I think the brussel sprout is one of the best things we can put in our bodies. And Congratulations to your Cleveland sports team. At least the Cavs didn't have to move to Baltimore to win a championship.


Horn_of_plenty on 06/23/2016:
Yes, steamed brussels are so tasty when they are SOFT! There's a place by me that doesn't cook them long enough, I should buy them there still & then if I were smart, I'd roast them complete at home!



InnerPeace - Tuesday Jun 21, 2016

Weight: 311.9

Work is crap...i guess because it is slow this time of the month but OMG...it sure makes the day drag by! Good thing I don't work downtown anymore with a parade scheduled tomorrow...1,000,000 people are you kidding me! Parking will be nonexistant.

Picked up the little girl yesterday at the Y. She looked at me like I was a crazy person for leaving her there all day. She said it was NOT the Cleveland State summer camp, but she will make the best of it. She said she did have fun, but the space they are confined to is considerably smaller than what they had at CSU. I asked her if she was going back, she said she would, so I took her back this morning. I know she had fun and I know they kept her busy and the reason I know this is because she fell asleep at 8:30 on the sofa and was snoring too! They are going to the science center on Thursday and is concerned about her fear of escalators. We have tried to practice on them before but she just will NOT get on one. I told her I would taker her to the mall this evening and she can practice on those. We will see what happens.

The themed week of picking up after yourself is working well and hope to see even more progress as the week goes by. Even DH is partaking so some clutter is slowly disappering.

B: blueberry bagel with cream cheese, iced vanilla latte

S: protein nut bar

L: 1/2 grilled chicken sandwich, banana, cheetos, motts gummy fruit

S: balanced breaks

D: prime rib hogie (actually it was very dry roast beef), french fries, chicken noodle soup

afterdinner - had junior mints

Dumb dog woke me up at 12:30 barking at something, didn't get back to sleep until well after 2:00. DH hogged the covers and couldn't get them away, so the sleep until 5:00 was kinda chilly..

This morning the girl popped up and showered on her own and was ready to leave when we usually leave. Dropped DH off at work and then took the girl to the Y, I will pick them up in reverse order as the girl wanted to stay longer at the Y to swim.

Maybe go to the mall for escalator practice and to Home Depot for a hoe and flowers.

B: blueberry bagel with cream cheese, iced vanilla latte

S: sweet and salty protein bar

L: 1/2 roast beef sandwich, banana, motts gummy fruit, fritos

S: balanced breaks

D. I think DH took steak out, brussel spouts and something

Have a great evening.

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/22/2016:
I'm so glad that she IS enjoying the "Y." I think it's great how she even noticed the differences between the Y and other camp she attended last year and i think it's great she could tell you those differences. Don't feel bad, she's not the only girl at the Y! :)

Yes, practice with her. Show her they are only to get you from point A to point B. Show her that you get on, get off....it doesn't last forever on an escalator. I think that's the main point, tell her in order to do things, you have to take them...to get places. They are there to HELP people, not hurt. I'd take this approach. Maybe you have another one?

Keep up the great work with educating, teaching, and showing girlie how to live life.



InnerPeace - Monday Jun 20, 2016

Weight: 311.9

Friday, I did not feel like chicken again, so DH and I stopped at a diner RUSTIC. I had chopped steak with grilled onions and mushrooms, mashed potatoes and a side salad. It was ok. Once we get home we walk the dog and then just relax.

Saturday DH was up for work at 6:00, I know I woke him up but I don't remember him leaving. The dog and I got up at 8:30. We picked up the house a little. Mainly just relaxed and I finally shaved my legs after who knows how long. DH gets home around 2:30 and we get ready and drive to Akron. Made reservations at the Spaghetti Warehouse to eat before the play. We were wise to make reservations - very full. I ordered the chicken and brocolli pasta, and ate a side salad and of course a few pieces of bread. Again, it was just OK. Watching Beauty and the Beast it was hot in the theater. I was very surprised that this play was put on by high school students. Very talented kids in Ohio, it was just as good as a professional company. The state props and costumes were fantastic and the singing really amazing. We got home about 11:30 - took about 45 minutes to come back to earth and then we went to bed.

Sunday: Happy Father's Day. We did not get up until 9:30 - and man the day just flew by. DH left to get the girl at 12:30 - brought her back and they went shopping. I stayed home and did the laundry or I should stay started the laundry, because as soon as I get all the clothes downstairs, the girl decides to take a shower and WHA LA - I have dirty clothes again! It is a never ending vicious cycle. DH grilled the chicken and made sandwiches with pretzel bread and baked beans.

The girl came over and our theme for the week is 'pick up after yourself' someone, I don't know who, went to the bathroom and opened a bandaid and left the wrapper on the floor. WTH? Seriously and just leave it! I just say, I don't know who used a bandaid but next time make sure your wrapper goes in the trash, I didn't appreciate picking it up. And then if I find a can, bottle, wrapper, sock, shoe whatever out of place...someone owes me $1, for everything that I have to pick up and or throw away! This was agreed upon by all.

We stayed up and watched the CAVS!! It was worth it! Way to go CAVS!

The girl got up easy enough this morning and showered. We left the house at 6:15, dropped DH off at work. I dropped the girl off at the Y (I am still hoping she has fun) and then I came to work. I am concerned about the girl, so I asked my boss if I could leave at 3:45 and pick her up by 4:00 the entire week. He told me to do what I had to do. Then we will get DH and head home! Sounds like a plan, but who knows what will happen in the next two hours.

The dog woke me up about 3:00 - I don't understand why he won't use his doggy door at night! I guess I didn't hear him soon enough and the dummy pooped in the spare bedroom. The trainer told me you can only discipline them if they are caught in the act, or else they don't know what they are getting in trouble for, so I just cleaned it up and went downstairs with him and waiting for him to come back in the house. What a doofus!

Got on the scale, not happy! I will deal with this!

Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/20/2016:
Sound like you had a good weekend certainly a lot of activities. Have a great week.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/20/2016:
yes, you are a busy lady indeed!

Keep us updated on if the girl is doing ok at the "Y".


Horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2016:
Your dinner at Rustic sounds so good. I love the grilled veggies!



InnerPeace - Friday Jun 17, 2016

Weight: 311.9

Wednesday night the turkey meatballs turned out great, I will probably make them again, the pineapple really set them off.

Thursday I woke up with a headache and I took a mental health day yesterday. No work! It stormed most of the morning and I think I needed the sleep. I finally woke up around 9:30, this is the longest I have slept in in a long, long time.

I told DH I would cook dinner if he would take something out! He takes out chicken...again. I like me some chicken, but I actually think I am tired of it. I decided to make chicken marsala. I had no mushrooms so I went to Wal-mart and picked some up. Make the chicken marsala, caesar salad and roasted potatoes. It all turned out really good.

I only used two of the chicken breasts he took out so he said he would grill the other two tonight...yeah I think I'm tired of chicken.

Lots of stuff going on around here in the next six months, I just hope I can get through all the RNC Crap. They are already doing mock drills and getting ready - it is a month away.

B: asiago bagel with cream cheese, iced vanilla latte

S: fruit and nut bar

L: 1/2 peanut butter sandwich, banana, cheetos - mott's gummy fruit

Weekend plans - Beauty and Beast musical in Akron with DH.

Father's day must get the girl at 1:00 and then it is our week - which will take every ounce of my patience.

 

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2016:
That's great your turkey meatballs were a success! and super healthy too! You inspire me to cook!

We all need mental health days YES!

You cook healthy and tasty stuff these days!

How was Beauty and the Beast???

I hope you have a good week with girlie...her school will be out for summer real soon right?



InnerPeace - Wednesday Jun 15, 2016

Weight: 311.9

So I have an attitude!

Picked up DH and then the little girl. DH grilled the steak out. I steamed the brocolli and made a rice sidedish. It was ok.

Afterwards I treated the girl's hair again. While she is sitting there I asked what she did during the day. Oh, I played on the phone, watched TV, laid out in the sun, watched some more tv. What did your mom do? Well she drove Marty and Joe to a job (because apparently the step-dad can't drive - or as she put it...he drives fine whenever there is not a job) and then she came back home and watched tv and we sat around!

Well I'm thinking during that time she 'sat' around she could have treated her daughter's hair. But Kayla said she did not. She did not even look at my hair, says Kayla. Well either she is just really smart or I am just really dumb. I work eight hours a day and have to do lice treatments, while she can not work all day and not do lice treatements...it's all beyond me! And then I get snippy with DH because the girl coughs and he's ready to take her to the emergency room or so it seems. Seriously she just coughed...a little.

And then we watch Chopped Junior and it shows these 11-12 year olds making complete meals and doing things. He then says, wow, they are very good, not to be dismissive but they are cooking complete meals and we can't even get ours to wipe her butt correctly....alas this is true! Oh well she went home 8:30, we will see her again tomorrow.

I picked up the sleep monitor yesterday and hooked it up before I went to bed. DH stayed downstairs and thankfully I did sleep all night and funny thing is I don't feel any better than when I don't. I had a canula up my nose, a monitor on my finger and a strap around my chest. I woke up about 3:30 and the canula was out of my nose, so I put it back, when the alarm went off, the canula was on the side of my face...so who knows if the machine even read anything at all. I do know my throat was sore this morning.

B: french tast bagel, iced vanilla latte

S/L: protein bar, fruit bar, banana, motts gummy fruit, fritos....DH forgot to put the sandwich in my lunch

D: Waikiki meatballs (turkey) with pinapple and green peppers and rice.

 

Have a great night!

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2016:
Makes sense for a sore throat because the nose affects the throat and having something up your nose i am sure is quite the annoyance to everything!

Can't you force the other lady to also treat the girl's hair?

And i think you need to talk to girl about how to wipe better....but do it so gently and with love...and make sure she's in a good mood when you do....make sure she knows you love her and are helping her be confident and take care of herself like a middle-schooler or something?!

Cool idea to add pineapple to the meatballs...

innerpeace on 06/17/2016:
Oh sure I could force her...and start WWIII at the same time. You can't make someone take care of their kid...if they don't want to, they won't.

I had the talk with her. I talked to her while I was doing the lice treatment, when she couldn't get up and leave, she had to sit there and listen to me talk. I told her her new "goal" in life was not to get pregnant before she was ready! But I also reassured her that no matter what happens, she can always come here and talk to us, we are her safe place!


happy-1 on 06/15/2016:
I can't help but wonder if the teachers have called DCFS?

innerpeace on 06/17/2016:
The teachers have called her mother to pick her up. And then she keeps her out of school for a week. My husband has called them several times, and is told it is not child abuse...just a nuisance.


Horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2016:
you know...not that i have a nice hubby like yours....but...if he forgot to put a sandwich in (or in my case i'd want him to pack some veggies!), i'd totally go out at lunch at work to get some, or order some. do you have any shops / supermarket near you to pick up food when you need it?

innerpeace on 06/17/2016:
Not really. I am at the end of the runway at the airport, it is not easy to get in or out.



InnerPeace - Tuesday Jun 14, 2016

Weight: 311.9

Dinner grilled chicken and kale, quinoa salad.

DH went with me to walk the dog. We sat half way through - my back, his knee but we finally made it home.

late night. I tried to stay up to finish the game but fell out in the 3rd quarter - go CAVS

B: french toast bagel with cream cheese

SL: peanut protein bar, 1/2 chicken sandwich, cheetos, motts gummy fruit

I left work to go pick up my in-home sleep monitor. I am supposed to wear it tonight for six hours. DH agreed to sleep down stairs and see if I can get an entire night's sleep. This was downtown CLE and I took the wrong interstate to get back to work....OMG feel so stupid.

should pick up the girl and do the lice treatment again.

DH took steak out for dinner.

Have a great evening!

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

supercheeseSara on 06/14/2016:
Have a great evening!


happy-1 on 06/14/2016:
your dinners sound delicious!



InnerPeace - Monday Jun 13, 2016

Weight: 311.9

Oh the weekend! We started all the fun with grilled chicken and a cauliflower casserole. Very good. DH and I had a squabble because he didn't wash the chicken. It was disgusting, it had blood and fat all over it. I asked him to cut the fat off, he says, no, it burns off on the grill. I said well cut the dark spot off, he says, it is just blood. I say, well I don't want to eat that. He gets snarky and says...you've been eating it for three years. What the hell! That is just gross! I asked how many times am I in here while you are doing that, he says...never! OK then, when I'm in here, please cut that yucky crap off! I may never eat chicken again.

After dinner, I got the joyous pleasure of doing a lice treatment. I really hate it. I took pictures of the towel with all the critters on it and had DH text it to his exwife- with the caption...this is obviously something you don't DO...(in response to all her nasty texting a few days back, with all her you never do nothing, but show boat!) Oh, sure and we do lice treatments. Watched the Cavs lose and then got to bed about 11:45.

Slept Ok until about 1:30, then went downstairs with the spoiled dog and fell asleep in the recliner. DH was up and left about 5:30 and I went back to bed and slept till about 8:30. The girl got up around 9:30 and we left about 11:00 to run errands and stop at a few garage sales. While picking up DH's perscriptions I saw some croissants and decided to buy some to make chicken salad from the left over chicken. It was a pretty good lunch.

We left the house about 5:30 stopped for a light dinner and went to the musical. It was very funny. I enjoyed it alot. When we got home we were so wired we had to sit for a few hours just to get wound down enough to lie in bed. It was about 12:45. Back up again at 7:30, this time woke up on my own, no alarms. Sunday is the normal house cleaning, laundry kind of day. B: blue berry bagel with cream cheese, iced vanilla latte, L: I decided to try my hand at making spring rolls. very delish!

Rice paper, lettuce, carrots, cucumber, mung bean noodles, mint and shrimp with peanut sauce...very good! Rice paper very hard to work with and tears/rips easily. but they were still good.

DH didn't take anything out of the freezer to thaw and he fed the girl McDonald's before she went back home. DH text the POS telling her I worked on the girl's hair, maybe she could too? - what a concept! But whatever, I told the girl I would do her hair again on Tuesday when she is over. We see her Tuesday and Thursday (if this doesn't change) and we pick her up Sunday at 1:00 for Father's Day and keep her the entire week - OMG this should be fun. She has camp, but picking her up and dropping her off each day will be an experience.

I have this one pair of jean shorts, I would love to wear again! It won't be this year, but maybe next year!

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 06/14/2016:
Peace.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/14/2016:
Is it me or are you cooking healthier & healthier!?

talk more later...



InnerPeace - Friday Jun 10, 2016

Weight: 311.9

Last night total binge fest!

Pizza, bread bites

Was up with the *stupid* dog at 1:00 and fell asleep in the recliner waiting on him to come back in - I woke up at 3:10 and went back upstairs - this dog of mine is why I don't sleep well. DH ask if I would consider putting him back in his kennel...uh, NO not when I am home. I can't describe how very tired I am right now. I have nodded off several times reading training presentations - and am just glad no one comes around the corner.

B: blueberry bagel with cream cheese, iced vanilla latte

L: left over pizza

S: mott gummy fruit

Plans tonight, the grilled chicken DH was supposed to cook last night and loaded cauliflower and brocolli.

Treatment on the girls hair tonight.

Tomorrow - errands, we are going out to eat before The Wedding Singer play...can't wait.

Have a great weekend!

Progress as of today: 9.7 lbs lost so far, only 101.9 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/10/2016:
You are watching The Wedding Singer at home right...i believe it's been out? nice...enjoy going out to eat too.

ugh...lice treatment again?

i know the feeling all too well of being crazy tired at work. Thank gosh I took Thursday off - best decision ever! It made going in today quite easy - although of course i felt crazy tired in the morning anyways. !

innerpeace on 06/13/2016:
No it was The Wedding Singer - a musical! It was actually very well done. Very funny!


Horn_of_plenty on 06/12/2016:
Not that it's any excuse...lol...but i had a binge fest yesterday. still coming off it today :-).



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