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InnerPeace - Thursday Mar 10, 2016

Weight: 312.3

So the first 'not very smart' award goes to my boss for deleting an excel spreadsheet I spent two days filling out for our higher headquarters with a deadline date of 3/11.  So completing it a second time didn't take as long because I kept all my notes and reports...but still mostly a wasted day repeating work! #@@%^%^ bleepity bleep!

The second 'not very smart' award goes to myself for reverting back to the same bad habits I'm trying to break, but it was so good and they are gone now...no more cowtails. DH and I finished them off last night. I told him not to buy anymore. It's that 'can't stop' eating them behavior that I have. So ruined the otherwise sensible day I had. Ended the day with 2558 calories, way above my norm. Stupid, delicious cow tails.

D: grilled chicken, rice, salad

cowtails - 5 = 550

The St. Patrick's day stuff still sits on my island.

DH rode with me to work today, so we will both be going to get the little girl. Nothing planned this evening except whatever homework needs to be done, I may get into the St. Patrick's day stuff...maybe.

On my way to work, I kept smelling tuna. Yes, because my tuna leaked out of the plastic container, for a while you could smell it throughout the entire office. Ewww.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

S: sweet & salty granola bar

L: tuna, cottage cheese, crackers, orange

S: balanced break

D: left over grilled chicken

It is raining today makes for a very groggy, sleepy me!

Have a great evening! IP

 

 

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 03/10/2016:
Well, you had a good day other than those cowtails and it really wasn't a total disaster - probably a delay to your goals rather than a set back. Just don't do it again - I would be mad if my husband bought more when I asked him not to!!! So I hope your H will honor your request!


hollybelle on 03/10/2016:
P.S. I would kill my boss!



InnerPeace - Wednesday Mar 09, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Went to the Y - joined. Tried to enroll the little girl into summer camp - they were already full - waiting list only! Are you kidding me? Enrollment just started on Monday. I guess there is a reason for that first come first served note on the website.  So instead of enrolling her at that facility, she will have to go one closer to where I work. Not sure of the clientale there. She will have to deal with it for three weeks unless 1. we win the lottery, 2. I quit my job,  3. I get an extra 15 days of annual leave handed to me or 4. I get a huge tens of thousands of dollars raise, and I just don't see any of that happening, so I hope she enjoys it and at least has fun.

Not being from around here and still learning my way, I sometimes get turned around and DH, bless his heart whose been here is whole entire life, is no help. So instead of being where I thought I was last night, I ended up in the totally opposite place of where I was trying to be and we ate at a bar and grill. It was getting late and the little girl had to be fed before she went back home. No one like the food, so I think we just wasted that money. I hate that! We could have made better food at home. I had some grilled chicken and mac and cheese - which was very gritty and not at all very good. DH had a burger and he said that was dry and little girl, well, if its not chicken fingers or steak she doesn't like it. Ended the night with 1601 calories.

So still to determine when our first evening at the Y will be! And my St. Patrick's day project still sits and waits on my island taking up space and looking cluttery. I will try to do something with this tonight. There is a hike scheduled for tonight, but DH said he doesn't think he is ready, we will see.

B: toast, vanilla ice latte

S: granola bar

L: tuna, cottage cheese, orange, cowtails (2)

s: balanced breaks

D: grilled chicken and quinoa/rice brocolli medley

Must walk the dog, the weather is so nice today.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/09/2016:
oh sorry...I guess a lot of folks depend on the "Y" in the summer for their kids! that's pretty crazy.


hollybelle on 03/10/2016:
Good calories - sorry the restaurant was not good. I hate that, too.



InnerPeace - Tuesday Mar 08, 2016

Weight: 312.3

It is official...i still hate the dentist. This is only the second time, I've had my teeth cleaned using a high powered water jet and yes, I still think it is uncomfortable. I agree it is quite a bit faster but the sensation I don't like. And then she goes in with the scraper afterwards anyway for bad places. Oh well, i survived. No cavities. YAY!

Afterwards DH and I went out to eat. I decided on a roast beef hoagie which was not the best option. I also had a piece of peanut butter cheesecake. I ended the day with 2214 calories. This is the most I've had in a long time. I didn't need the cheesecake, just chose to have it. It's all in the choices you make!

Leaving to get the little girl and see if she has homework. We are then going to the Y and check on the summer camp enrollment and joining. We will see how that goes. I tried enrolling online, however all the weeks I wanted read wait list only! What the what, enrollment has only been open for a day!

I was up with the dog about 12:30, stayed up until 1:45 and then I couldn't get back to sleep. DH was snoring. I've never heard one person snore in so many different ways. He was tossing and turning and pulling the covers and moaning and groaning in his sleep and then the dog starts barking! I didn't sleep well at all last night - must have been the cheesecake!

B: toast, vanilla iced latte

S: Special K blueberry crisp

L: tuna, cottage cheese, orange

S: balanced breaks

just got a text from DH, he says he wants to go out again tonight, because of the Y thing and we won't have time, blah, blah, blah. So I have no idea what we are doing for dinner. I will think more healthy tonight!

Work is good. I finally feel like I am picking up more of my responsbilities. My boss said he didn't want to overwhelm me, but now I am going to him for work, so all is good!

Have a great evening! PEACE out

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 03/08/2016:
Get a big ol' Salad with Grilled chicken in it !


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/08/2016:
so you enjoyed yourself at dinner = good! Now tomorrow get back on track! This is how winners maintain! Indulge, then get back on track.



InnerPeace - Monday Mar 07, 2016

Weight: 312.3

After the little girl left I just feel so much more relaxed. I love her but OMG she wears me out! We are all in the living room and she starts making these weird noises. I just look at her. She conintues to make noises. I never say a word. Finally she says, I will shut up if you want me to. I'm thinking why the hell did you ever start, but I say nothing. I wonder if she does this to get attention or to make my DH or me tell her to shut up, which I told DH I would never, ever do.

I do not know how she is treated at her mom's house, but I would never have the heart to tell a child to shut up! That just sounds so awful and negative. DH did tell her, if she had to keep doing that, to please go into the other room. She stopped.

I didn't want to go to bed, because I knew I would just have to wake up and come to work. For some reason I'm thinking staying up later prolongs the inevitable, but once again, I get another chance, another day to work! YAY!.

I have a dreaded dental appointment today. I hate, hate, hate the dentist. Always, are you having any pain? Uh, no, not until after I leave here, do I ever have pain!

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: leftover salisbury steak, brocolli, orange

S: sargento balanced breaks

D: I have no idea - we had chicken sausage left over, but I do not want this. I told DH. My stomach bothered me all night.

On a good note, my dog slept all night!

Tonight I must start getting the St. Patrick's Day crap organized...after the dentist of course.

A long time friend of mine (who I was in the army with, and who I once ran over 7 miles a day with) friended me on the fitbit app. I haven't worn my fitbit in two months. I did charge it up last night but forgot to put it on. Maybe I will find some motivation somewhere.

Have a great night! PEACE at the dentist!

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/07/2016:
LOL...i'm going to the dentist too! for a cleaning & also gonna get a teeth whitening home treatment so I can look nice for the upcoming wedding! yay!

obviously she's doing it to get your attention. i'm glad you treat her so gently. she must love you very much!


hollybelle on 03/07/2016:
I think the child is doing it to be annoying and get a rise out of the adults. How old is she? It also sounds like she may be a little bored, maybe?? Step-parenting must be difficult.


Awesome50 on 03/07/2016:
I had a teeth cleaning session as well today. Going again on Wed for the first appointment for getting a crown. Not fun.



InnerPeace - Sunday Mar 06, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Lazy day. DH and little girl went shopping. I stayed home and washed clothes and not much else. Didn't eat very well this weekend. B: iced vanilla latte, blueberry scone

L: hamburger

D: chicken, spinach and feta sausage (2)

S: I ate a apple fritter

Ended the day with 1574 calories.

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 03/07/2016:
It's good to see you track your calories and posting here regularly. It's a sure way for us to improve ourselves. Peace.



InnerPeace - Saturday Mar 05, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Picked up the little girl and what do you know she is sick, hacking and coughing, sniffling and sneezeing. Oh Great! We couldn't decide what we wanted to eat so we go to Golden Corral. I asked for the $2.99 take home plate (for my dog) and of course they don't have it during the 'weekend' because they have prime rib and it is expensive and blah, blah, blah. Well, that's not what the commerical says. Also they didn't have 'breakfast all day' either, I guess because they had prime rib.

Well I had the prime rib too and it was cold. I ate a healthy salad and a piece of some kind of steak. I tried to eat two different kind of vegetables, but they were mushy so I didn't finish them. I did have two dinner rolls, this is good, the last time we ate here, I think I had four or five. I had a few tastes of a couple of desserts: carrot cake, coconut creme pie and chocolate pudding, but nothing tasted good to me and DH ended up eating most of it. I finished the day with 1829 a little higher than normal.

We got home and was roped into watching the Disney Channel...DH of course always falls asleep, leaving me....I get irritated.

DH was up with the little girl during the night, because if she coughs more than twice in a row he is running in there for her. He made her go downstairs to sleep in the recliner so her sinus would 'quit' running down her throat making her cough. I think he slept on the couch besider her...because? He comes back to bed about 4:30 I think, just to get up at 6:00 and go to work, leaving me...

So I get up, give the little girl her medicine and then ask if she feels like going out. Oh of course, there is nothing wrong with her! So we go to the Home Depot to do the kid's project, along with every other families with kids in Elyria! Breakfast McDonalds and then on to other places for the errands. I wanted edible gold spray paint for St. Patrick's Day, but they have every color except gold, so I scrapped that idea. We get DH the apple fritters he wanted, go through a few thrift shops (For another idea I have for a costume for the adult egg hunt) stop at the dollar store and pick up some candy for the movie we have planned. No lunch.

I cooked salisbury steak, mashed potatoes and steamed brocolli. It was good. I eneded the day with 1790 calories. Both nights more than I am used to eating, but I guess it is OK for now. DH finally got home and we went to the movie to see Zootopia, it was cute. On the way the little girl was feeding DH some bamboozled jelly beans. He had flavors like, skunk, dirty socks, rotten eggs and snot. I was laughing so hard I couldn't see to drie. It was so funny. DH said he was through! And was a big party pooper and carried this attitude into the movie. During the movied he would NOT sit still. I asked him to quit squirming and this makes him mad too. So when we are leaving, I made the comment that ...dude, can you NOT sit still ever? and he gets pissy, well my knee is still healing and I had to straighten it out and blah, blah, blah. So then why did you have to move the other one! Why can't guys just be like...yeah I couldn't get comfortable...sorry! I will never hear that word out of his mouth...EVER! So he says he wanted to go to Wal-mart, I said not me I will go home and wash dishes and you can go to Wal-Mart, so this is the plan. The first thing he does when he gets into the house is start calling the little girl over to take her medicine! Really? Like she will just die without it! I just resent this behavoir.  He just got back and now he's like come and take this cough medicine, do this, do that! Oh EM GEE!!! I get so tired of his coddling and hand holding! This girl is 11 not five or six!  What can I get you baby! Do you need anyhing baby? Are you OK baby? not once, not twice, but all during the freaking evening!

I hate being married right this minute! I hate being a step mother right this minute. i just wish they would both fall asleep so I wouldn't have to listen to them. I guess I'm irritated because I didn't get this treatment when I was sick for the last three weeks....maybe because his knee was hurting, but I seriously doubt it!

And if I ever want to do anything, we usually talk ourselves out of it, but let the little girl be here and he is all gung ho! I guess I just never felt like a second class citizen until now. WOE IS ME I guess!

I hope I am in a better frame of mind tomorrow!

PEACE IN A FOUL MOOD!

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 03/06/2016:
Don't know why some people find it hard to say sorry. Take care.


puddles on 03/06/2016:
Wishing you a relaxing evening.



InnerPeace - Friday Mar 04, 2016

Weight: 312.3

2246 calories. This includes 6 cowtails which equals 660 calories. I used to not keep track and I would think this was OK. But now since I have been counting calories I am mortified. Now I say this, but in all actuality I enjoyed eating them. I just wish I could stop after one or two at the most! This is the reason I don't have sweets in my house, but DH!

We had baked chicken last night and stuffing. We were eating and I asked, what is wrong with this food? DH looks at me and says, nothing it is good! I tell him, we have no vegetable. He just shrugs his shoulders and said, we will tomorrow. So it is only the thrid day of the third month and I can already see us not doing good things in the future.  I just cannot let myself go down this road again.

I was up at 12:45 with the dog. I read some articles about how to help the dog lose weight. I have him so spoiled, I ruined my dog. I will have to take some great measures to get him back to his regular size. I am glad it is Friday. We have some plans this weekend, but some of them depend on the weather. I might be adventurous anyway.

hiking, crafting, shopping and movieing. We were going to go see Jaws while swimming in the pool at the rec center, but I'm thinking it will be too cold and I do NOT want to be sick again, so I have decided to go see the Zootopia movie instead.

B: multi grain cheerios, milk

L: left over baked chicken sandwich, chips, cowtail (I had an orange, but when I started to peel it, the bottom half was soft and squishy so I tossed it) I love how the oranges look so orange, plump and vibrant in the store and when I get them home, they swivel up and get nasty).

S: sargento balanced break

D: we are going out somewhere. I do not have a clue where, so I can't even try to plan something healthy. I have been given multiple choices but it's not my pick tonight.

Have a great Friday peeps! IP OUT

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 03/04/2016:
Have a good weekend, Peace.


puddles on 03/04/2016:
Have a great dinner out tonight and take advantage of your weekend.


Awesome50 on 03/04/2016:
Sounds like a great weekend planned IP. Enjoy!



InnerPeace - Thursday Mar 03, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Picked up the little girl from her mom's house. I see the van and ask if her mom is home. She tells me yes and her step-dad is finally out of the hospital, but he is still wearning an eye patch and the doctor told them they need to get out of the house and do some kind of exercise. This is funny to me, it sounds like they couldn't exercise without the doctor's permission.

I need gas and I stop and get some. I just get gas. When we are leaving, she says 'I can't wait to get home, I am so, so thirsty'. This was my subliminal hint that she wanted an icy or something from the gas station. This irriates me. Now I know why everytime she goes with DH they come back with icees and fountain drinks.  I will not be played by an eleven year old!

She has no homework, I am glad for this. DH was at the house and breaded the pork chops, he had to leave for the dentist. I hang out for a few minutes and then put the pork chops in the oven and peel some potatoes and open green beans. Once DH gets home we eat and all is good.

I finished the night with 1594 calories.

I asked DH to text the ex for some dates that we need to keep the little girl longer. I purchased tickets to see Matilda at playhouse square and he needed to ask if we could keep the little girl past 8:00. The ex agreed to just let the little girl spend the night. We will take her to school the next morning. - I took the day off work.

The next day was Good Friday - it is not our Friday so we don't have her but I wanted to take her to a glow in the dark Easter egg hunt. It is from 9:00-10:30. This time she says just bring her home. Crap, it is a Friday night. I'm just glad she said the little girl could go. Usually she just says they have plans. When I ask the little girl what those plans are, she says, we did nothing but sit at home. Now maybe with the doctor telling them to get out and do something, maybe they actually will - this is me being sarcastic!

Then because that went so well, we hammered out the four weeks she will be with us this summer. This is good because summer camp enrollment begins next week and now it looks like YES we will be joining the Y!! We did plan our vacation week for July 25 and have decided to go to Pigeon Forge Tenneess. DH has always wanted to go and we can find something to do for everyone. I am hoping my mom will come up again this summer.

So the evening was quite pleasant or I'm just glad that my plans are coming together.

D: baked pork chops, mashed pototes and green beans.

S: Cowtail

Was in bed by 11:00, Was up at 12:30 with the dog and then again at 3:30 for the DH. He was in lots of knee pain, so I gave him a pain killer and an ice pack and he went back to bed. After taking the pain medicine he did NOT want to get up this morning and we were running late.

START RANT!

Because we are running late there is more traffic than usual. Leaving our housing edition, there is no light and usually there is traffic waiting to turn out onto the busier main road. But I noticed three cars were pulled slightly off the road and not moving. I'm wondering what they are doing when as I was waiting at the at the stop sign a school bus approaches and puts on his red flashers. Then the kids exit these vehicles and get on the bus. Now let me just say it was 35 degrees out and they would not have froze by no means. So then the bus just sits there with the flashers on. No one can move. We are there almost three minutes and then here comes a car driving up from behind me and acted like it was going to go around me and then stops and lets another kid out and it runs to the bus. Now, why on earth do you drive your kid to the bus stop? Why not just drive them on to the dang school? I feel kids these days are so coddled and handled with kid gloves that once they get in the real world they are going to have some major rude awakenings.

There is one commerical that condones this. Scrubbing bubbles shame on YOU! The kid is in the bathroom coloring her hair and the mom is like let me in, the kid says NO. And then it shows the mom in the bathroom cleaning up after this kid who just made a purple mess. Why wasn't that kid in there cleaning up it's own mess? 

I was just never treated like that growing up. I had to walk to school rain or shine, cold or hot. Oh well, we didn't have air conditioning in school and now kids can't go if it gets too hot, so who knows.

SOrry about that, I just get so irritated, it is nothing I can change, don't know what I let it bother me.

I think I saw chicken out for dinner, can't be sure I was in a hurry.

Have a good night! PEACE Out!

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

Awesome50 on 03/03/2016:
Sounds like you have lots of planscoming up. Lots to look forward to for sure! Great caloric intake as well for the day! Go girl!


puddles on 03/03/2016:
Always good to plan ahead. Have a great evening.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/04/2016:
I just want to say, you are superwoman to little girl. You are giving her what you can - and for her, it's the world. Be proud of yourself and everything you stand for.. You are a wonderful woman.


grannyannie on 03/04/2016:
Have a great weekend.



InnerPeace - Wednesday Mar 02, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Had a bread binge waiting on dinner last night. DH wanted to bake chicken with a spinach, cream cheese mixture stuffed inside. This took forever to prepare, he cracked open a loaf of fresh Italian bread and that was all it took!

Dinner was the chicken with the spinach cream cheese filling and a kale salad. Because of the bread i ended the night with 1,967 calories.

Dinner was late, everything was askew.

Steve was whining about 12:30, I got up with him and we stayed up about an hour. I ate a cow tail and played candy crush. My stomach started gurgling and I had a few bouts of diarrhea before going back to bed...nasty! I fell asleep and did not even want to get up when the alarm went off.

Tonight I pick up the little girl and right now I just don't want to deal with her on the weekend. DH works all day on Saturday so that leaves me to be a glorified baby sitter. Sometimes, sometimes, I just don't want to do it. This is one of those times. The weather is predicted to be snowy and cold and who wants to do anything outside with that?

DH took pork chops out of the freezer for dinner. I'm not cooking.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

S: cow tails (DH bought these - they are 101 calories a piece) caramel, creamy goodness I really don't need

L: left over chicken and spinach, cheese doodles, orange

 

 

 

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!


InnerPeace - Tuesday Mar 01, 2016

Weight: 312.3

DH and I had the baked potato and left over steak with salad last night for dinner. I ended the day with 1186 calories

I walked the dog! He is the nosiest dog ever, always wants to be in someone else's yard. LOL We walked around the block and he peed on everything.

The little punk woke me up at 12:30 he went outside (he can do this on his own) but needs company some times. I just stayed downstairs a minute and went back to bed. Needless to say it was impossible for me to get up early as planned and DH is so warm it's hard to leave.

So at work we've been trying to get the inventory done. It was due 2/19 and we turned it in on time, however, our reports were not right, so we corrected them and sent them back. When they were sent back the property custodian forgot to click one little box and it was sent back again! The property guy goes on vacation and comes back yesterday so he resubmits the forms again! NOW today, the reports are missing the number 54. This is some asinine time wasting stuff. If a block reads:

Enter your location code 54-: 1111

I entered our location code

The report is wrong now because I should have entered it like this.

Enter your location code 54-: 541111

Seriously if everyone is 54 and 54 is clearly there why on earth do you need to see 54 on the report! Anyway I have ran this report AGAIN for the upteenth time, now if only the property guy can actually get it uploaded correctly we may be in business!

And I'm still working on the 20 year old files - and I'm going to shove PII down someone's throat if I hear about it again!

B: toast, milk, iced vanilla latte, banana - 563

L: tuna, green beans, BBQ chips - 297  (DH forgot crackers and put BBQ chips in my lunch - I do not recommend this combination)

S: orange, balanced breaks - 242

Dinner has something to do with chicken and spinach. I'm not sure.

I have been putting together my letter of complaint to the city and have researched some active shooter articles. i wish I could just hyperlink them in an email, but they don't accept email, so I will have to do it the old fashioned way!

I am also working on my St. Patrick's day activity that was approved by the work guys so that will consits of doing somethings.

DH and I agreed the Y camp would be more compatible with our schedules, so I will hopefully get to the Y soon.

Have a great evening!

 

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

Awesome50 on 03/01/2016:
Great job on your calories! Your dog sounds absolutely adorable and funny too! Gottta love those fur babies! Blessings they are!


puddles on 03/01/2016:
Your doing good with your food. Have a great evening.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/01/2016:
Sorry about the code stuff....but, sounds like great calories & nice walking outside with the dog!



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