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InnerPeace - Tuesday Feb 09, 2016

Weight: 314.5

I stepped on the scale today just to see. Since I have just been concentrating on logging my food and calories I am OK with this. I will slowly add exercise as soon as I feel ready. I know that is weird to say, but I'm just not ready to expend the energy yet.

Right now I'm fighting a head cold, I feel like my body is trying to drown itself in mucus. Yes it's that gross. I have a sore throat and cough I can't get rid of, my eyes won't stop weeping and I feel stuffed up but nothing comes out my nose, it runs down my throat, its all very disgusting to me!

Received notification about an EOB from my last insurance (the insurance I had before I started this job) and it was very aggravating news. It seems I owe $815 to a hospital for an emergency room visit that wasn't covered by my insurance. UGH OMG I hate, hate this. It seems that my husband's exwife took the little girl to the emergency room in October 2015 because her leg was swollen. (Her leg was swollen because she gets flea, mosquito, whatever bites on her legs and her mother does not put any kind of medication on them. The little girl comes over and I am slathering her up with neosporin and anti itch cream so she will stop scratching until she bleeds) anyway, she was at school and a teacher or administrator saw that her leg was swollen and thought that she was bitten by a spider so they call her mother and she takes the little girl to a hospital. My DH told her she could only use certain hospitals with this insurance. She gets pissy and says the school will pay for it, they gave her a form! My DH calls the school and the school says, we just suggested she take the little girl to the emergency room, we didn't say anything about paying for it! She is a pahological liar! So guess I will end up paying for the ER bill! This infuriates me! Their divorce decree states she is responsible for half of all the medical/dental bills that is paid out of pocket - but because of her situation - I can see us eating this entire bill. She is the worst kind of mother and human being in the world!

I know everyone is different, but this is how people who don't have jobs act: Scenario - her husband is in the hospital with an illness. She texts my DH and says I have not left his bedside except for an hour! OMG! I told my DH that if something happened and he was in the hospital, I would check on him throughout the day - (by text or face time) WHILE I'M WORKING and then come and see him in the evening! What can one do sitting there all day! I believe this causes undue stress and hardship. And besides you are always in the nurses and/or doctors' way. Just my two cents. but I guess you can more freely do that if you DON'T WORK!  Ok sorry about that, this just pisses me off. Oh and while you are there sitting with your nasty, smoking husband pawn your kids off on your elderly mother to tend to.

DH texted and said he took out the garbage. WHAT!! I'm so happy he is getting around better. I told him this was the good pain, because at least it will stop hurting eventually.

B: iced vanilla latte

L: turkey, swiss on multigrain, 26 pringles (yes I count themout), PB protein bar

S: string cheese

I don't know what is out for dinner, I texted DH and asked him to take something out, as I forgot this morning, because I usually don't do this.

LENT - I beieve I am giving up my iced vanilla latte (I was told milk increases mucus manufacturing anyway!!)

I apologize for my grossness and rant, but it is what it is!

Have a great day! PEACE OUT!

Progress as of today: 7.1 lbs lost so far, only 104.5 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 02/09/2016:
Excellent rant today.


OhioRaven on 02/09/2016:
Hey, maybe it's just me but I haven't had any excess mucus, cough, runny nose,watery eyes or stuffiness ever since I've been eating a spoonful of LOCAL Honey every day for the past couple of years. Try it. What have you got to lose ?


grannyannie on 02/09/2016:
Get over your colds, both of you. My cure: whisky, hot water, lemon, honey.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/10/2016:
I have the same sicky thing as you going on with me. totally running down my throat also....is so very gross indeed.

My cough was fully dry at first, now slightly mucus-y because of the darn phlegm running down into my lung / throat area I guess. but I seem to be getting over it. As long as I can get some extra sleep in tonight :) Last night...well..i was def up part of it lol...

don't worry, you aren't gross at all. you should see some of the things I have written on here.!!! and there's a nice man on here, OR, you should see what kinda stuff he's had to read ! haha



InnerPeace - Monday Feb 08, 2016

Weight: 315.0

Slow to get up this Monday morning...busy at work because of my absence last week. DH had his first physical therapy today, he is still very sore but can tell his knee is healing.

DH received a text today from his ex asking if we can trade Tuesday with Wednesday because her new husband is in the hospital with a serious infection. this is the man who says the library is dumb...I think all his meanness nd negativity has festered and looking for a way out. DH agreed so now we have the little girl Wednesday and Thursday instead. I'm ok with this but she is so rigid whenever we want to change anything. She doesn't play well with others.

Since DH is incapacitated I had to make all my meals. So didn't! B: Iced vanilla latte S peanut butter protein bar L: turkey, Swiss on Italian bread, Pringles S: string cheese D: baked ziti and roasted vegetables

Finished the day with 1549 calories- I'm ok with this!

Bring on Tuesday

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/08/2016:
Step families can be a pain! Have a good week.


cybermom4 on 02/09/2016:
Best wishes to your DH. It is tough when one is down for the count. Hang in there! :-)


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/09/2016:
I love how you added veggies beside the baked ziti! GREAT idea. Adding veggies to pasta in general is the best idea for cutting calories.

You can even eat veggies, with a little ziti lol.

nice job.

I hope your hubby feels back to himself soon. He had knee surgery? I have seen the physical therapy people (kids and adults) have to do after knee surgery and it doesn't look easy at all. I know he will feel better though...

You are a good person to deal with that woman and her husband. Just keep playing fair and doing what's right for the little girl. She needs more people like you in her life.



InnerPeace - Sunday Feb 07, 2016

Weight: 315.0

DH hobbled upstairs to get a shower. He is still in lots of pain. He has a rehab appointment tomorrow; I asked if he could go he snapped at me that he could make it. I'm like ok...he can hardly bend his knee. Then he makes a snarky comment that I'm just looking for a reason to NOT go to work. Hello...I haven't been to work in a week I really need to go, I want looking for a reason I was concerned about him! What a jack hole!

I took the little girl to Home Depot to do a Valentine's Day box and then we hit the thrift stores. Today I did laundry, cooked and washed up the dishes. Watched the walking dead Marathon before turning to the Super Bowl! Today is DH's birthday but with him being on the road to recovery we did nothing special.

Ended the day with 1646 calories. B: multi grain toast L: two slices of pizza D: baked pork chop, green beans S: sugar cookie

Need to drink more water- throat his scratchy and picked up a hacky cough! If it's not one thing it's another! Go Broncos!

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/08/2016:
Sounds like DH is not himself and that he is in pain and quite miserable :( sorry to hear, I am sure it will get better...

I also have a sore throat with a dry cough. yucko. and nasal congestion. it's on the mend, but still here. I hope for it to be fully better by the weekend or so :) But instead of skipping gym, I am going. At least I'll have a 3 day weekend next weekend & I plan on RESTING, not partying! It'll be my last 3-day until end of March.

Anyways, i'm rambling on your page! Nice calories, very good. Nice to see some veggies in there. Green beans are so tasty.

I hope your team wins. I entered a work pool & don't even know what team I am playing for! LOL.


grannyannie on 02/08/2016:
Good calories. Poor hubby. Bad knee on his birthday.



InnerPeace - Saturday Feb 06, 2016

Weight: 315.0

My DH really sucks today! I get he's in pain but that's not a license to be an ****! B: blueberry scone, iced vanilla latte L: iced frappe a handful of honey mustard Pringles. D: cauliflower, broccoli, zucchini, yellow squash stir fried with gemili pasta

1440 calories today

Enjoy the rest of the weekend.

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/07/2016:
Good job on the calories. Yes, men and pain don't mix!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/07/2016:
dinner stir fry sounds so good with all those veggies!

and yes, loved ones can get very frustrating sometimes..



InnerPeace - Friday Feb 05, 2016

Weight: 315.0

Awful day! Over calories by 700. Very stressed when DH was in surgery = stress eating. Ate a blueberry muffin waiting. After he came out of surgery he had to eat something the nurse fed him/us a cheese Danish. We had chicken pot pie for lunch and then after picking up the little girl she wanted McDonalds and I got it for her. Between the trip and surgery I am so tired I did not want to cook.

DH is ok, knee is of course very sore especially after all the drugs wore off, he decided he would just sleep in the recliner he's not even going to attempt climbing the stairs tonight.

We will see how tomorrow goes hopefully better today.

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/06/2016:
Hope your hubby is okay. Over by 700 isn't the end of the world. Just get back on track.


cybermom4 on 02/06/2016:
Best wishes and I agree with granny - don't worry about the calories. Today is a new day and you are doing great!


Maria7 on 02/06/2016:
Hope your Hubby is doing well and feeling better. Don't be too hard on yourself...you were under a lot of stress with a lot of extra responsibility on you.



InnerPeace - Thursday Feb 04, 2016

Weight: 315.0

Started off at 3:00 this monring UGH!

Flight from Long Island was on time, but a plane delay in Baltimore got me home today after noon. I was so happy to get home. It was a hard trip on this old body . I don't think I slept too well the entire time I was gone. I got home, ate a sandwich for lunch and fell promptly asleep. My dog was very happy to see me.

M: very stressed because...I'm fat and airplane seats are not for fat people. I did fit in the seat and need about another inch before I won't need a seat belt extender.

T: went to eat at Applebee's with five other people. Booths and fat people do no go well together. I squeezed into this booth and by boobs were sitting on the table. so I had to squish them down too. Totally disguested with myself at this point. I  went downtown to sight see and did surprisingly well with all the walking, I didn't have the best walking shoes on but I survived. We went to The Hardrock Cafe, again booths and fat people. I was with three others and I just said, I can't sit in that booth, please move me to a table. Again, very stressful and eye opening and depressing all at the same time. Yet all these feelings do little to help, aide, assist in actually eating the right things.

W. Went to eat with four people, but requested a table up front. I am so tired I have a strawberry daqueri hoping this will help me sleep a little better. Again was not happy with the food. My chicken was dry and the pasta was overcooked. Come on this was supposed to be an authentic Italian restaurante...guess the cook was out!

T: Again, flying and being fat, at this point I'm  just glad no one had to sit in the middle seat. Oh I fit mind you, but the person who sits in the middle has a hard time moving around without touching me and I know it makes one uncomfortable, but was glad no one had to sit next to me. I would say the trip was a success. I learned quite a bit to help me do my job better and I met a lot of awesome and pretty great people to say the least, and I am happy I went, despite all my stressful situations.

F: My DH has his knee procedure, we need to be at the hospital by 8:20 and I hope all goes well for him and he heals quickly.

B: fruit and nut protein bar

S: honey almond protein bar

L: asiago bread, turkey, swiss cheese

S: popcorn

D: baked chicken, rice, kale salad

finished the day with 1306 calories, which I am very happy about.

I will leave you with the Freedom Tower and Elmo in Times Square!

Have a great evening! PEACE back in OHIO

 

 

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/05/2016:
Good job on the calories. Looks like you did have a good time, at least part of the time.


Awesome50 on 02/05/2016:
Love your pic with Elmo. It made me smile! Sounds like there were some good highlights in your trip that you enjoyed. Great finish of your calories for the day. Have a great weekend.



InnerPeace - Wednesday Feb 03, 2016

Weight: 315.0

Have my iPad packed away and typing on this phone really blows. I finished the day with 1583 calories and trust when I say I am more than ready to go back to O hi O! Long day of training.

B: fruit and nut bar 3 short bread cookies L: cheese it crackers and protein bar D: broccoli, sun dried tomatoes, baked chicken, some pasta.

Flight leaves at 6:00 - I am ready. Talk to y'all from ohio...peace!

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/03/2016:
Have a good flight. You'll be glad to get home.


cybermom4 on 02/04/2016:
Hope all is well for you today!



InnerPeace - Tuesday Feb 02, 2016

Weight: 315.0

Go to the city they said. You'll have fun they said. I thought about it and said oh no I want to watch the O.J. Movie. My DH says you should go cause this might be the only chance you get. Ok! It is 12:50 and I just got in to the hotel room. Saw the 9/11 memorial, Empire State Building, got cussed at. Road in a cab, saw the Statue of Liberty and went to Times Square..Walked my ass of girl wanted to shop and shop and shop (I don't shop)! We left her at Macy's and went to eat at Hard Rock Cafe..id rather had Bubba Gump but was out voted! Had a pulled pork sandwich ate 1/2 of it because it sucked!

Had a bagel for breakfast and tomato soup and Thai shrimp from Applebee's- that's another complaint! So far I haven't been impressed with any food I've eaten! I ate a box of Reese's pieces which I enjoyed immensely! Bought hoodies and souvenirs! Miss my DH and dog! I'll

1432 calories today.

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/03/2016:
Well, at least the calories were good. I've never been to NYC but would like to see the places you visited.


OhioRaven on 02/03/2016:
Maybe you can meet up with HP. And go with her to one of her restaurants.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/03/2016:
Wow! So did you like the city? I hope it was nice! It’s so different than practically anywhere else on earth! Even for me, living in Queens, the city is such an exciting change of pace for me when I go. Nothing like it. I am lucky, I have friends who LIVE there. So I actually have people to meet there when I do go. There’s a 9/11 museum that I hope to also go to. Haven’t been there yet although I have been to the 9/11 area, since my friends live around there, multiple times. The food you are eating is from chain restaurants. Nothing special. If youwere to eat at a more wholesame, not a chain, type of place, I think you’d be more impressed. Well, despite the cruddy food, you have nice calories. Enjoy your time in the city that never sleeps. And Bohemia, right? You are stationed in Suffolk County, Long Island, right? Any questions about Long Island as a whole, ask me general stuff if you need to. I was brought up on LI. Lucky you, the weather is so warm compared with usual February temps.

innerpeace on 02/03/2016:
Yes. I am leaving tomorrow so didn't have a lot of time to really do anything.



InnerPeace - Monday Feb 01, 2016

Weight: 315.0

In short, flying sucks regardless of your size! Was up at 3:15 to shower and get to the airport by 4:15 good thing too because it seemed like everyone was leaving Cleveland this morning and long lines from hell getting through security. Flight started boarding at 5:30.

I was stressing big time but asked for a seat belt extender anyway! Needed it by about an inch! I was in Baltimore at 6:40 where I stayed until 10:30. I did meet up with a coworker from Pittsburgh and we sat and ate breakfast. I had a egg, bacon English muffin...and we waited. There were five others on the flight to Long Island but we didn't go and ask everyone their name. We did find one other lady from Sterling,VA. We found the rest once we landed.

They took us to a pizza restaurant for lunch I had 1/2 a tomato, arugula and mozzarella sandwich. After just about fell asleep in the afternoon training. We were released at 4:00. Came back to the hotel and crashed. Had a pulled pork salad with avocados it was pretty good.

Wasn't happy with the calorie count 1956! What the what? Not a good way to start the month but neither is being away from home.

Tomorrow they said something about sightseeing...we will see.

Training starts early at 7:30 long full days!

Peace in NY

Progress as of today: 6.9 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

cybermom4 on 02/01/2016:
Sounds like over all you are off to a fun start!


grannyannie on 02/01/2016:
Good calories for traveling and eating out. Hope the rest of the training is good.


OhioRaven on 02/02/2016:
Peace.



InnerPeace - Sunday Jan 31, 2016

Weight: 315.0

Ran all over town today. My budget conscience husgand, I love him so much, we went to four different stores because each had different sales on stuff he wanted. We still spents lots of money though. And I have issues with paying Sam's club membership money to spend more money in that store, but DH is adament that he gets our money's worth throughout the year. He does most of the shopping so I'll just leave that alone!

I walked my dog! It was very humid and windy today, but totally doable! He sure enjoyed being outside, not that he can't go out anytime he wants (using his doggy door0 he is just nosy and wants to see everything in the neighborhood.

B: two pieces of whole grain toast

L: pizza from Sam's club

D: quinoa/wild rice mix, kale salad and shrimp scampi

S: iced vanilla latte - finally got some milk

Total calories for the day 1875, thanks to the pizza!

I've also had issues with my stomach today, I am attributing this to my trip tomorrow! I am all packed and ready to go I just really don't want to go! I will pull up my big girl pants and do what needs to be done. Flight leaves at 6:00, so we will be up long before the sun! I am scheduled to be in a meeting at 12:30 so tomorrow is going to be hella long!

I am cool with January! I finished off January 6 pounds less. I changed my eating habits and am hoping with the added exercise in February I will be able to drop some more weight. I just need to get through the first week, as I hate being in any kind of pain!

I posted everyday in the month of January - created my good habit!

Only went over my calories maybe three times.

Progress as of today: 6.9 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

cybermom4 on 02/01/2016:
You are doing really great!


grannyannie on 02/01/2016:
Well done on the calories!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/01/2016:
If your calories are at 1875 for sure, then you are on track. That’s good calories for weight loss. Your husband sounds like he’s great with $. I am sure he saves a lot. For me, I am more concerned with convenience. I do what is most convenient for me in general. I do run around food shopping because I have favorite foods in different places but all relatively close to my apartment. As long as his running around is not a pain, it sounds smart to me! Yeah, because Sam’s Club is a bulk item wholesale place, everything adds up. If I had a family (or at least 2 people shopping together), I’d see it as worthwhile to go there. Wholesale items will last a long time because you buy so much at most. But of course buying wholesale is expensive whenever you go bc you are buying so much. It’s not useful for me because I only am buying for one person, myself. And too pricey. Your dinner sounds really good. I love kale salads! Did you buy it at Sam’s Club? My parents once bought a salad mix from Costco but I wasn’t very fond of it – too much added sugar (in the dressing) in my opinion.


Awesome50 on 02/01/2016:
Safe travels Peace. Great job on the weight loss for January!



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