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InnerPeace - Monday Mar 14, 2016

Weight: 312.3

For dinner last night I settled on a bowl of Lucky Charms, not the healthiest of cereal, but it was what I thought I wanted at the time. I think I would not have been satisfied with anything last night. I ended the night with 1649 calories. I am ok with this, but they were bad calories.

So I'm thinking I slept pretty good because I popped right up this morning and tackled a little bit of zumba. I was happy until DH gives me an apple fritter for breakfast! What the hell. But I've been running around at work today so I'm sure the extra calories I have burned off.

B: apple fritter (360 calories) my toast has (220 calories), iced vanilla latte.

S: sweet and salty yogurt protein bar

L: chicken, cottage cheese, crackers and orange

no afternoon snack

Got most of the stuff out for the St. Patrick's day, but I have been busy so I will finish the next rest of it tomorrow. And people at work sucked today! If ever I have the opportunity to telework or work from home, I'm taking it!

I will do something else aftern I get home.

Have a greate evening. IP

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 03/14/2016:
Have a healthy week. Good going on the zumba.

hollybelle on 03/14/2016:
I love Zumba!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/15/2016:
Lol, I can't agree more. I hate being around sucky work people. I especially hate being around complainers or people at work who bring you down. the worst. now, I stay away from them.

InnerPeace - Sunday Mar 13, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Relaxing raiiny Sunday. DH went shopping, I stayed and watched lots of tv and snacked on dangerous things: left over candy and gold fish. I started the laundry.. DH returned and I tasted two different pretzel mixes. sweet and salty and smores. DH then made a chicken salad sandwich on flatbread, I ate half of that.

B:  two pieces of toast, iced vanilla latte

L: no real organized lunch, just lots of snacking.

D: nothing heavy, no plans yet.

Received a text from my again. Uncle is not doing good, they called in hospice and he is not eating or drinking anything. For the past year my mom and sister have been taking care of him and I feel bad that I wasn't there to help. I probably won't be able to make it to any funeral or memorial they have for him. I just don't have the money to fly and/or take off work and drive for two days. I will see what happens and if they need me, then I wil go. I will just take off work and drive myself, leave DH here, he has no leave.

I for some reason am feeling bad about this past week. I feel I didn't  give 100% to my effort. I will take the rest of the evening and recommit and do things right again tomorrow. I will concentrate on drinking more water.

Let's do this....!

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 03/13/2016:
Don't waste too much time feeling bad about the past week. Start this week fresh and go forth and conquer!! You sound like you are off to a good start with the Let's do this comment - Yay!

cybermom4 on 03/14/2016:
That is a lot on your mind. I hope you can make your plans work.

grannyannie on 03/14/2016:
It's a new week. Onward and upward.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/14/2016:
when home for a day on the weekend, I also prefer snacking to an organized lunch :)

InnerPeace - Saturday Mar 12, 2016

Weight: 312.3

DH and I stopped to eat on the way home. I thought it was a sushi restaurant but it turned out to be the Asian version of Chipolte, we stayed. It was ok....and then I'm like why did we come here, we are supposed to go to the Mongolian grill tomorrow with some friends I used to work with at the university.  I had noodles, pork, and vegetables with some teriaki sauce.  Ended the night with 1678 calories.

Didn't go to bed until almost 1 am. Was watching OU play basketball though they lost it was a very exciting and dynamic game. I know they will be selected somewhere in the big dance of 64! I love March Madness almost as much as bowl season.

DH was up about 6:00 , he had to be at work by 7:00. I slept in until 8:30 and then woke up with a headache. It took most of the morning to actually feel like doing someting. I finally got the St. Patrick's Day stuff organized while watching four or five episodes of Law & Order. Washed dishes and done a few other chores around the house. DH got home about 4:00. I took a shower and we left about 5:00, we had to drive to the east side of Cleveland, which we did just fine. Once we got to where we were going to the Mongolian restuarant parking was virtually nonexistant and we had to park a few blocks away. In doing so I parked in a 'permit parking' only spot and was going to drive through to the other side...big mistake. I hit the stupid meter pole and scratched and dented the whole passenger side of my car! I felt so stupid...should have just backed up, but anyway, what is done is done.

Met my friends and had good dinner and good conversation, received a text from my mother and she told me my uncle was going into hospice care, because there is not much else they can do for him. So while it was a nice evening, there were parts of it that I wish didn't happen.

B: multigrain cheerios, vanilla iced latte

L: peanut butter sandwich

D: another pork bowl, this time I flavoried it with a hoisen ginger sauce. Add a small salad and two pot stickers. I didn't use any rice.

S: I had four kisses, 3 miniture reeses and 3 rolos - left  over candy from the St. Pat's stuff. I didn't eat earlier, but this time I couldnt' say no. My candy added up to 357 calories.

I ended the day at 1857, not my best day, but not my worst either.

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/13/2016:
Sounds good like you had a nice weekend so far & got a lot done despite feeling tired in morning. Lately this is me, too. Yesterday, I had to have a small energy drink to get me going and it was already late morning! around 11AM!

InnerPeace - Friday Mar 11, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Got the little girl and helped with adding, subtracting and multiplying fractions..oh joy! After she did her reading, I think she is getting better. I stop and ask her questions about stuff she just read. That is her downfall, reading comprehension, she just doesn't pay attention to what it is that she is reading, she is just saying the words.

I did get the shamrocks to work today, I will be putting them up on Monday.

Dinner was flat bread pizza with the left over chicken and DH put mushrooms on it. It was ok for a left over dinner. Finished the day with 1611 calories.

DH took some pain meds and was out by 9:15. I started watching tv and realized my team was playing. I tried to watch them but they weren't on my channels. I tried watching them online, but couldn't see it there either (because my cable provider something or other) I stayed up to about 11:45, they won! They play again tonight...MARCH MADNESS is coming! I love it. Anyway I finally got to bed about 11:45 and got to sleep all night.

Was sleeping so good we overslept! I forgot to turn on the alarm and woke up at 6:19, we usually leave the house at 6:30, this wasn't going to happen. I think we finally left at 7:10.
B: toast, iced vanilla latte

S: sweet and salty granola bar

L: chicken sandwich (no cheese)

S: balanced breaks

D: DH put out some pork something, I really can't say.

No plans tonight, but we are meeting a few people I worked with tomorrow for dinner. Sunday, we will see.

Have a great weekend! IP

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

InnerPeace - Thursday Mar 10, 2016

Weight: 312.3

So the first 'not very smart' award goes to my boss for deleting an excel spreadsheet I spent two days filling out for our higher headquarters with a deadline date of 3/11.  So completing it a second time didn't take as long because I kept all my notes and reports...but still mostly a wasted day repeating work! #@@%^%^ bleepity bleep!

The second 'not very smart' award goes to myself for reverting back to the same bad habits I'm trying to break, but it was so good and they are gone now...no more cowtails. DH and I finished them off last night. I told him not to buy anymore. It's that 'can't stop' eating them behavior that I have. So ruined the otherwise sensible day I had. Ended the day with 2558 calories, way above my norm. Stupid, delicious cow tails.

D: grilled chicken, rice, salad

cowtails - 5 = 550

The St. Patrick's day stuff still sits on my island.

DH rode with me to work today, so we will both be going to get the little girl. Nothing planned this evening except whatever homework needs to be done, I may get into the St. Patrick's day stuff...maybe.

On my way to work, I kept smelling tuna. Yes, because my tuna leaked out of the plastic container, for a while you could smell it throughout the entire office. Ewww.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

S: sweet & salty granola bar

L: tuna, cottage cheese, crackers, orange

S: balanced break

D: left over grilled chicken

It is raining today makes for a very groggy, sleepy me!

Have a great evening! IP



Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 03/10/2016:
Well, you had a good day other than those cowtails and it really wasn't a total disaster - probably a delay to your goals rather than a set back. Just don't do it again - I would be mad if my husband bought more when I asked him not to!!! So I hope your H will honor your request!

hollybelle on 03/10/2016:
P.S. I would kill my boss!

InnerPeace - Wednesday Mar 09, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Went to the Y - joined. Tried to enroll the little girl into summer camp - they were already full - waiting list only! Are you kidding me? Enrollment just started on Monday. I guess there is a reason for that first come first served note on the website.  So instead of enrolling her at that facility, she will have to go one closer to where I work. Not sure of the clientale there. She will have to deal with it for three weeks unless 1. we win the lottery, 2. I quit my job,  3. I get an extra 15 days of annual leave handed to me or 4. I get a huge tens of thousands of dollars raise, and I just don't see any of that happening, so I hope she enjoys it and at least has fun.

Not being from around here and still learning my way, I sometimes get turned around and DH, bless his heart whose been here is whole entire life, is no help. So instead of being where I thought I was last night, I ended up in the totally opposite place of where I was trying to be and we ate at a bar and grill. It was getting late and the little girl had to be fed before she went back home. No one like the food, so I think we just wasted that money. I hate that! We could have made better food at home. I had some grilled chicken and mac and cheese - which was very gritty and not at all very good. DH had a burger and he said that was dry and little girl, well, if its not chicken fingers or steak she doesn't like it. Ended the night with 1601 calories.

So still to determine when our first evening at the Y will be! And my St. Patrick's day project still sits and waits on my island taking up space and looking cluttery. I will try to do something with this tonight. There is a hike scheduled for tonight, but DH said he doesn't think he is ready, we will see.

B: toast, vanilla ice latte

S: granola bar

L: tuna, cottage cheese, orange, cowtails (2)

s: balanced breaks

D: grilled chicken and quinoa/rice brocolli medley

Must walk the dog, the weather is so nice today.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/09/2016:
oh sorry...I guess a lot of folks depend on the "Y" in the summer for their kids! that's pretty crazy.

hollybelle on 03/10/2016:
Good calories - sorry the restaurant was not good. I hate that, too.

InnerPeace - Tuesday Mar 08, 2016

Weight: 312.3

It is official...i still hate the dentist. This is only the second time, I've had my teeth cleaned using a high powered water jet and yes, I still think it is uncomfortable. I agree it is quite a bit faster but the sensation I don't like. And then she goes in with the scraper afterwards anyway for bad places. Oh well, i survived. No cavities. YAY!

Afterwards DH and I went out to eat. I decided on a roast beef hoagie which was not the best option. I also had a piece of peanut butter cheesecake. I ended the day with 2214 calories. This is the most I've had in a long time. I didn't need the cheesecake, just chose to have it. It's all in the choices you make!

Leaving to get the little girl and see if she has homework. We are then going to the Y and check on the summer camp enrollment and joining. We will see how that goes. I tried enrolling online, however all the weeks I wanted read wait list only! What the what, enrollment has only been open for a day!

I was up with the dog about 12:30, stayed up until 1:45 and then I couldn't get back to sleep. DH was snoring. I've never heard one person snore in so many different ways. He was tossing and turning and pulling the covers and moaning and groaning in his sleep and then the dog starts barking! I didn't sleep well at all last night - must have been the cheesecake!

B: toast, vanilla iced latte

S: Special K blueberry crisp

L: tuna, cottage cheese, orange

S: balanced breaks

just got a text from DH, he says he wants to go out again tonight, because of the Y thing and we won't have time, blah, blah, blah. So I have no idea what we are doing for dinner. I will think more healthy tonight!

Work is good. I finally feel like I am picking up more of my responsbilities. My boss said he didn't want to overwhelm me, but now I am going to him for work, so all is good!

Have a great evening! PEACE out

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 03/08/2016:
Get a big ol' Salad with Grilled chicken in it !

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/08/2016:
so you enjoyed yourself at dinner = good! Now tomorrow get back on track! This is how winners maintain! Indulge, then get back on track.

InnerPeace - Monday Mar 07, 2016

Weight: 312.3

After the little girl left I just feel so much more relaxed. I love her but OMG she wears me out! We are all in the living room and she starts making these weird noises. I just look at her. She conintues to make noises. I never say a word. Finally she says, I will shut up if you want me to. I'm thinking why the hell did you ever start, but I say nothing. I wonder if she does this to get attention or to make my DH or me tell her to shut up, which I told DH I would never, ever do.

I do not know how she is treated at her mom's house, but I would never have the heart to tell a child to shut up! That just sounds so awful and negative. DH did tell her, if she had to keep doing that, to please go into the other room. She stopped.

I didn't want to go to bed, because I knew I would just have to wake up and come to work. For some reason I'm thinking staying up later prolongs the inevitable, but once again, I get another chance, another day to work! YAY!.

I have a dreaded dental appointment today. I hate, hate, hate the dentist. Always, are you having any pain? Uh, no, not until after I leave here, do I ever have pain!

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: leftover salisbury steak, brocolli, orange

S: sargento balanced breaks

D: I have no idea - we had chicken sausage left over, but I do not want this. I told DH. My stomach bothered me all night.

On a good note, my dog slept all night!

Tonight I must start getting the St. Patrick's Day crap organized...after the dentist of course.

A long time friend of mine (who I was in the army with, and who I once ran over 7 miles a day with) friended me on the fitbit app. I haven't worn my fitbit in two months. I did charge it up last night but forgot to put it on. Maybe I will find some motivation somewhere.

Have a great night! PEACE at the dentist!

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/07/2016:
LOL...i'm going to the dentist too! for a cleaning & also gonna get a teeth whitening home treatment so I can look nice for the upcoming wedding! yay!

obviously she's doing it to get your attention. i'm glad you treat her so gently. she must love you very much!

hollybelle on 03/07/2016:
I think the child is doing it to be annoying and get a rise out of the adults. How old is she? It also sounds like she may be a little bored, maybe?? Step-parenting must be difficult.

Awesome50 on 03/07/2016:
I had a teeth cleaning session as well today. Going again on Wed for the first appointment for getting a crown. Not fun.

InnerPeace - Sunday Mar 06, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Lazy day. DH and little girl went shopping. I stayed home and washed clothes and not much else. Didn't eat very well this weekend. B: iced vanilla latte, blueberry scone

L: hamburger

D: chicken, spinach and feta sausage (2)

S: I ate a apple fritter

Ended the day with 1574 calories.

Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 03/07/2016:
It's good to see you track your calories and posting here regularly. It's a sure way for us to improve ourselves. Peace.

InnerPeace - Saturday Mar 05, 2016

Weight: 312.3

Picked up the little girl and what do you know she is sick, hacking and coughing, sniffling and sneezeing. Oh Great! We couldn't decide what we wanted to eat so we go to Golden Corral. I asked for the $2.99 take home plate (for my dog) and of course they don't have it during the 'weekend' because they have prime rib and it is expensive and blah, blah, blah. Well, that's not what the commerical says. Also they didn't have 'breakfast all day' either, I guess because they had prime rib.

Well I had the prime rib too and it was cold. I ate a healthy salad and a piece of some kind of steak. I tried to eat two different kind of vegetables, but they were mushy so I didn't finish them. I did have two dinner rolls, this is good, the last time we ate here, I think I had four or five. I had a few tastes of a couple of desserts: carrot cake, coconut creme pie and chocolate pudding, but nothing tasted good to me and DH ended up eating most of it. I finished the day with 1829 a little higher than normal.

We got home and was roped into watching the Disney Channel...DH of course always falls asleep, leaving me....I get irritated.

DH was up with the little girl during the night, because if she coughs more than twice in a row he is running in there for her. He made her go downstairs to sleep in the recliner so her sinus would 'quit' running down her throat making her cough. I think he slept on the couch besider her...because? He comes back to bed about 4:30 I think, just to get up at 6:00 and go to work, leaving me...

So I get up, give the little girl her medicine and then ask if she feels like going out. Oh of course, there is nothing wrong with her! So we go to the Home Depot to do the kid's project, along with every other families with kids in Elyria! Breakfast McDonalds and then on to other places for the errands. I wanted edible gold spray paint for St. Patrick's Day, but they have every color except gold, so I scrapped that idea. We get DH the apple fritters he wanted, go through a few thrift shops (For another idea I have for a costume for the adult egg hunt) stop at the dollar store and pick up some candy for the movie we have planned. No lunch.

I cooked salisbury steak, mashed potatoes and steamed brocolli. It was good. I eneded the day with 1790 calories. Both nights more than I am used to eating, but I guess it is OK for now. DH finally got home and we went to the movie to see Zootopia, it was cute. On the way the little girl was feeding DH some bamboozled jelly beans. He had flavors like, skunk, dirty socks, rotten eggs and snot. I was laughing so hard I couldn't see to drie. It was so funny. DH said he was through! And was a big party pooper and carried this attitude into the movie. During the movied he would NOT sit still. I asked him to quit squirming and this makes him mad too. So when we are leaving, I made the comment that ...dude, can you NOT sit still ever? and he gets pissy, well my knee is still healing and I had to straighten it out and blah, blah, blah. So then why did you have to move the other one! Why can't guys just be like...yeah I couldn't get comfortable...sorry! I will never hear that word out of his mouth...EVER! So he says he wanted to go to Wal-mart, I said not me I will go home and wash dishes and you can go to Wal-Mart, so this is the plan. The first thing he does when he gets into the house is start calling the little girl over to take her medicine! Really? Like she will just die without it! I just resent this behavoir.  He just got back and now he's like come and take this cough medicine, do this, do that! Oh EM GEE!!! I get so tired of his coddling and hand holding! This girl is 11 not five or six!  What can I get you baby! Do you need anyhing baby? Are you OK baby? not once, not twice, but all during the freaking evening!

I hate being married right this minute! I hate being a step mother right this minute. i just wish they would both fall asleep so I wouldn't have to listen to them. I guess I'm irritated because I didn't get this treatment when I was sick for the last three weeks....maybe because his knee was hurting, but I seriously doubt it!

And if I ever want to do anything, we usually talk ourselves out of it, but let the little girl be here and he is all gung ho! I guess I just never felt like a second class citizen until now. WOE IS ME I guess!

I hope I am in a better frame of mind tomorrow!


Progress as of today: 9.3 lbs lost so far, only 102.3 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 03/06/2016:
Don't know why some people find it hard to say sorry. Take care.

puddles on 03/06/2016:
Wishing you a relaxing evening.

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