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InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 29, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Keep digging myself deeper in a hole at work. Seriously...I can only do so much. Today though, I have tons to do, but just couldn't figure out where to start, so nothing really got done, and then they want me to decorate a Christmas tree, and do inventory and update safety books and do my actual job. I told dumb people at work i would like to do something different with the Christmas tree, and now....I'm expected to do it, only I don't have time. I might do some tomorrow.

DH properly put together the grilled chikcen and brocolli and alfredo sauce last night. They girl was over and was showing off $50 she got from her mother...for her birthday that isn't until the 10th. I ask why she had it already, she said it was given to her so her mother wouldn't spend it. And then about 6:30 we get a text asking if they could pick her up early and go to the Five and Below store...well OK, I mean, why can't you go when you have her the other five freakin' days of the week. She sick sack of sh!t! It just doesn't make any sense to me whatsoever! So then I texted DH who was sitting right there beside me and I said...well I hope she doesn't pick up the same things we did for her birthday. He just laughed.

The food was good, company not so much.

I asked DH to come up with something for dinner, I told him I will resume menu making on the 1st. He told me he threw out the rest of the Thanksgiving leftovers....what a waste.

My mood is dquivilent to a snowy day

Have a great night IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/29/2017:
Tree sounds more important than the safety books, considering December is here :)

ahhh, nevermind her mother, don't take anything personally...or give too much energy over the strange behavior of her mom.

you just do good!

InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 28, 2017

Weight: 303.7

We had salad and grilled chicken last night for dinner. no picture, but it was good.

So I have been fighting with a stupid company the last three weeks. Anyway, I was dumb enough to click on a survey, which I thought at the time was from CVS marketing. It says, answer these few questions for a $50 gift card!!! BIG MISTAKE! Oh, so I answered the few questions about how many times do I shop at their store, do I fill perscriptions and stuff like that. And then at the end, it says, congratulations you have $50 to spend, you can select from these products, which ranged from diet pills, magazines, health and fitness products and all you have to do is pay shipping and handling. OK. so I select my products, which are free, and then I pay $9.97 for shipping and handiling.

So my surprise when I see a charge for $29.99 on my credit card.  WTF??? So I call and the cusotmer service representative tells me I paid for a subscription, oh no I didn't, I don't want the subscrption, please cancel it. So they canceleed it...but I did not get my $29.99 back, I just paid for the first month and then it will cancel. Again WTF!!! Already mad. So imagine my surprise when I have another charge for $87.99, this really pisses me off. So I call back and tell them, I did not authorize a charge to my credit card, I did not receive any merchandise, nor did I order anything. I demanded that they reimburse my card. And still they try to sell me crap. I was furious and cussed and called the man everything I could think of...He told me I should be professional. BE professional??? What the hell? If your scamming @ss company was professional I wouldn't be making this phone call. Anyway, I got that $87.99 back - reimbursed to my card.

SO last night another charge for $89.99 WTF. Again with the arguing and name calling - I did not order anything, I told them they need to delete my account, if another charge shows up on my credit card, they would be hearing from my lawyer. OMG.

I then sent CVS a letter today demanding they cut all ties with this survey company who is scamming their customers. What a freaking crock of crap they have going on. I then called my bank and cancelled my credit card. J@ckholes!!

We have the girl tonight - menu should be left over grilled chicken and brocolli - hopefully DH gets around and puts it together.

He has been running around for me today getting Steve's nails clipped and shopping for my mother's Christmas present.

Made an error at work - I forgot to submit a few bills for payment - will show up as late. Not happy! must have been a pretty bad day.

So here's to better days - I was able to put on and wear my wedding rings today. First time in a few years! I did end up taking of the engagement ring because wearing both was still a little tight, but I could wear the wedding band.


Have a great evening! IP


Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2017:
Beautiful wedding rings, so glad you can wear them! they are so pretty.

scammers are scammers, sounds like overall a lot of money taken from you. i hope you called your credit card too, saying you don't authorize those charges from that company.

dinner brocc and chick with girlie sound GOOD!

Donkey on 11/29/2017:
Isn't it a wonderful feeling to be able to wear your rings again? :-) Congratulations!!!

happy-1 on 12/06/2017:
Aaaaaaw! Pretty!!!!!

InnerPeace - Monday Nov 27, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I"m amazed at how fast the day goes when I'm not working.

I left work early on Wednesday. DH and the girl picked up KFC. I had chicken fingers and biscuits.

Thursday DH and I had a few things; cabbage and bacon, honey baked turkey. We cooked all day though. I made cranberry salad, watergate salad and dressing. DH made corn casserole and cabbage and bacon. We only ate a few of what we cooked.

Friday DH and I went to Sandusky to get my iced coffee and was so disappointed. They were out. We then tried to go to another store and we couldn't even find a parking place. Once we did, there were no carts and people were in line all the way through the store, it was difficult to look and then we would have spent hours in line, so we left. It was a bust! A wasted trip. We did get the girl. And ate some of the things we cooked on Thursday. DH and I vacuumed the leaves out of the yard and piled about twelve grass catchers full out to the curb; luckily they were picked up on Saturday so they didn't blow all over the place.

Saturday we tried to go shopping again. The girl had to have her eyebrows waxed and we stopped by Bath and Body Works for some presents. We went to a few other stores and picked up some more gifts. We took DH home and then the girl and I went to Wal-mart and the library. I made her read to me for a while. I just don't thnk she is going to get her book read this quarter. Either it is too hard or she just isn't interested.

Sunday I did the laundry and we all just sat around the house, which in itself was satisfying in itself. We ate left overs all weekend. And I am please I only gained a pound.

Monday - the joy of having a job. DH was offered a job but hasn't decided on whether or not he will take it, he is waiting on one more business; hoping they extend an offer as well. Looking for new insurance...is awful! I cyber shopped today - hopefully the girl is all finished for her birthday. We do have most of the Christmas shopping done as well. I think I still need a few things for my son. DH is nosy and found out all his gifts.

Still haven't heard if my son is coming up from Georgia, his plans will make my plans.

Have a great evening!


Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2017:
Can she switch her book? I'm currently just starting (still at the beginning under page 20) of a book i don't love and whenever my requested books come into the library, i'll switch it out & not finish it. It's just NOT GOOD. As a teen or preteen, she may have to read it for school - but it's nice, if she has the opportunity, to read about what is enjoyable for her to read about. If the opportunity permits.

Sounds like you made some shopping attempts during the time off. In the past I have, this time I really concentrated on relaxing. And boy did it suit me :)

Either way, it sounds like you had some lovely days off...now back to work :) You cot things done and you were active. God for you during the days off...it doesn't sound like you were too rushed, thankfully.

innerpeace on 11/28/2017:
She probably could have changed, but she selected it in beginning of November. She would rather play on her iphone than read. Sunday I had her reading for 20 minutes and then listening and/or playing for 20 minutes.

InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 22, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I learn more and more about myself everyday. And I have now come to the conclusion that I have an addiction and will try to conquer that. Usually I am playing candy crush. I am on level 2,856. I started with the hopes of finishing the game, but the people keep adding to the game, so it is a useless venture. I will never, never beat the game. So I must stop this game playing. I don't spend money on it, but I win free lives and can get up to 6 hours of free life and I will play and play and play until my phone dies or I run out of time. This is a problem. So the girl was downloading games and we have it set up to download onto our phones as well, so we can see what she is downloading, anyway, this repixel app was downloaded and I looked at it and now OMG, for the last three nights I have sat for three and four hours and colored by the numbers on this stupid thing. I just feel I cannot stop until the picture is complete, I can't just walk away after doing one color, I have to complete all 27 colors. Again, three and four hours each night...this is a problem!!  Too bad I don't get obsessive over my weight loss.

I will just have to delete those things from my phone and do something constructive and this does not include TV watching.

Not exactly sure when we will be eating Thanksgiving dinner, still TBD.

Have a great Thanksgiving!

Be thankful.


Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/22/2017:
I know exactly what you are talking about....I got that way over yoville 7 or 8 years ago...I would wake up at night and think I could go to the family room and work at the factory at yoville in the middle of the night....oddly the stuff is still there......I also accidentally paid 80 dollars for different houses....it was on the phone and they charged my phone bill 20 dollars a month for 4 months before I caught on and stopped it. Now it's spider solitare on the phone yoville was actually mainly on the computer.....they are made to be addictive...it's like gambling...my parents got addicted to that. Like you I wonder why I don't get addicted to dieting...UGH!!!! Hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving!

happy-1 on 11/22/2017:
Hugs. Good luck on that. I have a terrible Pinterest addiction. It steals time from my life like a cat burglar

InnerPeace - Monday Nov 20, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I don't remember the weekend, it went by so fast.

Friday night, I get home and DH had cooked hotdogs we bought at the butcher store last week. They were pretty good. I went to sleep when he did. But I only slept for about 45 minutes. I got up and did a few things around the house.

Saturday - I go shopping - we started off at a craft show - but I never find anything here and we were right across the street so we just went shopping. Lots of people out.

B: Fruity Pebbles

L: hotdog from Sam's

D: store bought shepherd's pie - it was delicious

S: slice of pumpkin pie

Sunday - didn't go anywhere or do anything - but laundry

B: cinammon roll

L/D - we ate about 3:00 - pork roast cooked in jeagersnitzel sauce, salad

D: dried mango

Had a call from my Telework case manager, been having a rough month. Matter-of-fact I think November sucks! I told him I will be better. After eating sugar this weekend, I feel like I had a hang over so will get back on eating the right things and logging again.

Have a great week! so glad this is a short week for me at work.

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/20/2017:
When i overdo the fast food (i used to overdo the fast food places going from one to the next and bingeing - this was years ago and thankfully i am beyond that / manage myself better with maintenance as well as MODERATION is the word)...but i used to go to drive-thrus and keep eating from every place until i was so sick...and i'd feel a hangover.

At that time, i wasn't eating well or not enough enough and i was bingeing later. i wasn't as prepared as i am now...or mindful.

it may take you a few days till you feel better from the sugar, but you will. then keep making good choices! you will be OK. maybe you are anxious about Thanksgiving.

You only slept 45 minutes the whole night? I hope tonight is better for you...

bearcountrygg on 11/20/2017:
The shopping paet sounded like fun....I'm into the sugar right now too....I think it's the season....UGH

InnerPeace - Friday Nov 17, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Just been very busy at work and I haven't taken the time to write in diet diaries. Volunteered to assist with a Safety project that hasn't been updated for over five years and now there is an audit coming. This causes lots of busy work, which I enjoy because the day goes by faster.

I haven't been logging food. I will start this again tomorrow. I get caught up in everything I forget to take time for myself.

I didn't even a plan a menu this week. DH did a good job though.

I don't think anyone is coming over for Thanksgiving, so we are just having a small dinner. In a way I'm glad.

Today my son turns 31. Miss him so much.

Last week when I got my hair colored I was talking about him. When I left the cashier ask me how old I was. I told her I was 50. That just sounded hideous. I realized when I got to my car she was asking to see if I qualified for the senior citizen discount. OMG...I hate getting old.

Still taking the telemove call - because I haven't been logging food, I haven't lost, but haven't gained.

Holiday time and food suck.

I will be a better person tomorrow!

have a great weekend!




Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/17/2017:
You are the same age as my son...you think it's hard to be 50...try being the mother of a 50 year old...LOL Oh well....I'll take it...it's better than the other choice...and Happy Birthday to your son...where doews he live...sounds like far away!

innerpeace on 11/20/2017:
He is in Macon, Georgia

horn_of_plenty on 11/17/2017:
She may have not asked your age bc of a discount, she may just have been interested in your age. I don't think you look old, so don't take her question that way...and truthfully, everyone who i see that's 50 - they look young and still in mid life to me....don't worry, IP!

You are a better person right now, you don't have to wait till tomorrow.

Good job volunteering, i am sure it DOES make the time fly faster at work! Smart, i'd say.

InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 14, 2017

Weight: 303.7

So I spent $90 getting my gray hair covered up and cut. However, this morning I can feel it changing back to gray. I will say this without feeling bad! I hate kids!

The YA is mad at us for making his little sister cry. Whatever! I emailed him and told him why she was crying. Not that I will miss him coming over, but I thought he should know it was nothing we did. Maybe he should be mad at his mom for helping her lie.

We had left over salisbury steak and cabbage for dinner. It was just ok.

B: english muffien, almond butter, iced vnailla latte (only 2 more left)

L: left over pot pie; yogurt, blackberries

S: balanced breaks

D: should be ham & cheese monte cristo again - depends on if DH got the ingredients.

Not a happy camper today about the kids. Will probably deal with that lt later today.

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/14/2017:
I gave up on covering the gray and decided to embrace it....it's easier that way for me. it stays gray even without kids...LOL

horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2017:
i agree with you fully about YA. YOU are 100% RIGHT. Don't even worry.

InnerPeace - Monday Nov 13, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Friday the girl text me at 6:30 telling me she wasn't going to school, because her mother had a mild heart attack and was getting a stent put in. Her grandma already called her off. I tell her I'm sorry to hear about your mom, however, if you still want to go to school, let me know and i will come and take you. She said NO. Of course she did.  So all day I'm asking myself what is she doing to help her mother? absolutely nothing! She missed school because her grandma didn't want to take her.

I went to get my gray covered up and get my hair cut and then DH and I went to do some Chrsimtas shopping. We ended up eating a late lunch at a pub. I had a pulled pork sandwich. We got the girl a sandwich for dinner. We ordered her a cookie bouquet for her birthday. We picked her up and went home. She ate and we just messed around the rest of the night.

Saturday when DH gets home, we go to a few craft shows and didn't really buy anything. At one craft show they gave us a raffle ticket and instead of looking at what was for sale I was more interested to see if my raffle ticket was at any of the vendor tables...it wasn't.

We get home and I make a chicken pot pie that turned out fabulously! I should have taken a picture of it...not sure why I stopped that, but I will start again. DH went to bed and the girl talked. I watched football and she played and talked. She complained about her phone for two days.

Sunday the girl and DH go grocery shopping, I do laundry. I even broke down and did the girls. I told her "thank you" goes a long way. DH and I decided to let her use his old Iphone 5 so she would stop complaining about her phone. I told her we are not paying for something that she would be restricted from using to talk to her dad by her mother and step-dad. she understands and said she would use it just on Wi-FI then. DH made salisbury steak, mashed potatoes and salad.

I didn't eat a lot over the weekend, but I did not eat the right foods either, so I ended up gaining 2.8 pounds. I will get this back off.

Work will be crazy the next week or so, we have a safety compliance audit and annual inventory that I will be deeply involved in, not to meniton my regular duties.

I will get back on track...

And as far as I'm concerned....Thanksgiving still comes, Kayla Birthday comes and then I'll worry about Christmas.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
Ricky and I also bought raffle tickets - actually only he did - and we didn't win either. They were raffles at a Veteran's Day concert band performance that we attended on Sunday.

2.8lb gain may also be due to salt / water weight.

have a good eve and stay happy!

happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
It's probably 2.8 lbs of poop ;-)

bearcountrygg on 11/14/2017:
Yup...What Hap said!

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2017:
Oh, i'm glad to know that you will try to lessen cheese...i also need to fix my diet actually.

I need more potassium.

I may also try to lessen my expensive habit of kombucha drinking...and use apple cider vinegar in seltzer again or actually learn to poop after work or something...!

InnerPeace - Thursday Nov 09, 2017

Weight: 303.7

DH made a fantastic apricot roasted chicken for dinner, even the girl ate it. Speaking of the girl. She was a bit standoffish, which I'm OK with. As I watched her squirm around and fume and sigh and mumble trying to do her homework, I offered to help and she kinda thawed out. We hung out with DH and then she and I left to go to a craft class at the library. She painted light switch plates for her room; I sent postcards. Her mother picked her up at the library.

I'm glad to be off work tomorrow; just feel really tired and run down. DH and I have planned some Christmas shopping tomorrow and then we have the girl this weekend. I also got tickets to see Radium Girls - a play about girls who painted watch dials to glow with radium and then got sick doing their job. Well if we don't like it, we can always leave early.

Saturday we are going to a craft show and that is about it. There is a hike on the calendar but BCGG's weather is supposed to move in sometime this weekend. I'm ready for it!

B: oatmeal scone; iced vanilla latte

S: yogurt, blueberries

L: sandwhich with baked chicken

S: balanced breaks

D: I'm not sure - I think I had chicken and dumplings but I think DH has been making whatever he wants.

So, I will try to take a few minutes to post over the weekend.

Have a great Thursday!

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/09/2017:
I saw the Balanced breaks the other day...I was surprised to see that they came in packs of 3...that makes the price a lot better...I had always thought they were $4.89 for one.

InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 08, 2017

Weight: 303.7

The first 82 days of my telemove session ended Monday. The 2nd one started yesterday. I lost about 18 pounds. My goal was to get to 299 so I can hopefully get that done in the next 82 days. I still feel I haven't given it my best effort. This I will have to work on.

Still feeling blue, not sure why, I can't change the how other people act, just my reactions to it...so I will work on this. My DH got p!ssy because I told him I didn't think he was telling me was funny and he was just laughing like no tomorrow - must be male humor or something.

Work is crazy with a tornado outbreak Sunday - people are still scrambling around.

B: oatmeal scone, vanilla iced latte

L: left over mac& cheese; yogurt

S: balanced breaks

D: not sure some kind of chicken

We have the girl tonight - we are going to the library for a craft thing, her mom is supposed to pick her up there.

Will continue to work on myself. Take care ladies. iP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/08/2017:
Congrats on the 18 pound loss...that is fantastic. Sounds like telemove is working really well for you!

happy-1 on 11/08/2017:
Nice!!!!!! Slow progress is still progress and easier to maintain!

horn_of_plenty on 11/08/2017:
Hi IP!

Good of you to get thru already 82 days. That is a lot, almost 3 months! Congrats on losing 18 pounds – that’s also a LOT! Great job.

I see you eat a lot of cheese – I think that if you can forgo cheese some days of the week, that you may have an easier time losing weight. Cheese packs in a TON of calories per ounce, so if you can do without it, you’ll save yourself a ton of calories. That’s particularly the reason that I don’t eat MOST types of cheese, although cream cheese is a staple and I do use it on wraps in the mornings sometimes. But the wrap is low cal and the smoked fish that I put on the wrap I also low cal, so the cheese is balanced out…anyways…moving on!...

You cannot be responsible for other’s bad actions…might as well turn your “frown upside down!”…I heard a teenage (cute funny boy) say that to one of his friends at McDonalds earlier this week and I thought it was pretty funny. I’ve heard it before and just thought of it now when you mention you are feeling blue. Listen, you may as well just smile…

I am so sorry to hear of the Tornado Outbreak and I hope everyone’s life gets back to normal REALLY SOON. That’s so frustrating, I can imagine…I am glad it doesn’t sound like it reached you.

innerpeace on 11/09/2017:
I know you have talked about cheese before. It is a habit...I love cheese. I will try to cut down on it.

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