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InnerPeace - Monday Apr 13, 2015

Weight: 308.2

Sunday night without TV...what a concept. Dh went to get the little girl to take her to a dental appointment this morning. I made the comment last week that she should be over and should have already eaten dinner, he got her home by 7:30, nope, no dinner. DH text his exwife asking why she wasn't fed, the exwife stated they eat late on Sunday. So DH asked the little girl if she ate again when she got home when she left on the Sunday's we had her...her reply...NO. I just don't get people sometimes. DH stopped at DQ and got her something to eat, he also brought me a blizzard...WHY? because he wants to make me happy? No because I asked him to bring me something sweet. I'm an addict!

I finished the laundry and read with the little girl, I can tell that she has improved, this makes me happy. We also worked on multiplication tables. Slowly but surely she is making progress, I'm very proud of her.

Today was the first class in a series of 4 - Increasing Happiness and LIfe Satisfaction. I learned that I am happy with my life in general. I am happy in my home and mostly happy at work, it is me, that I need to be happy with. I'm uncomfortable, I don't like my clothes or how they look or fit. I walked to the class, thought I was going to die! So we have homework to write three things we are grateful for each day for a week. 1. I’m grateful for my few real friendships. These people supported me through their belief in me during the hardest times, and I feel the connection with them even though they’re physically very far from me. 2. I’m grateful for my balanced state of mind, which is a total relief from the emotional turmoil that I lived with for many years.3. I’m grateful that I live. Life is sacred, so special. I wish more people would see the beauty of simply living.

Tomorrow is our seminar: How Plant Based Living Saved My Life, I am really looking forward to it.

Day 15...a picture of something I fancy at the moment. Currently I fancy myself! I am a work in progress.



B: two pieces of whole grain toast, iced coffee

S: quinoa potein bar

L: 1/2 turkey wrap with nonfat itailan dressing

S: 1/2 peanut butter sanwhich

D: i think DH said something about the salmon and black bean patty...Not feeling this right now.

I hope you all have a great day!

Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 04/13/2015:
Have a great week.

thinnside40 on 04/13/2015:
"he also brought me a blizzard....why?" Sounds like something I would do! Trying to train hubby that it's ok. for him to tell me know in knowing I'll regret my/his decision to give in.... ;)

InnerPeace - Sunday Apr 12, 2015

Weight: 308.2

We woke up early and headed out the door to a new nature preserve I found. We walked for about 40 minutes. It was nice and serene walk. On the way home we stopped at Walmart and got three porch chairs. I also have new mulch and pansies to plant. So afraid it will freeze again, so we are waiting until after the 15th. I started laundry but then felt tired so I took a nap for about an hour. After the nap we decided to take Steve to the dog park, so we left and let the dog run through the dog park for about an hour, we did walk another 1.5 miles around the ball park. Never seen lacrosse until today, I bet they can do serious damage with those sticks.

Once back at the house, I tried to vacuum out the dog hair, but learned that is an almost impossible task, guess I will have dog hair in my car. DH said he would try to get it out with duck tape, I will also try a lint roller for clothes to see if that helps as well.

B: toast and iced coffee

L: beef stick and whole grain bread

D: pot roast and mashed potatoes

Finished all the laundry and cleaned the master bath, DH went to pick up the little girl because she has a dental appointment early in the morning. He will then take her to school and go to work.

DAY 14 of challenge: name five celebrities:  Wll since it was Master's day, I'm going to have to add Phil Mickenlson to this list. I admire him and am a big fan, not that I like golf. Bruce Willis is a favorite,Will Smith and Nicolas Cage for movie draws. My final celebrity would be Peyton Manning, they way to recover from an injury and still be able to make things happen, very inspiring. Honorable mention...Jason White. He once had a commercial that said, what do you do after three knew surgeries, many months of rehab...you get back up and do it again! So keep trying everyone>

Oh Monday, I thought you would never get here!! Have a great day all!

Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

InnerPeace - Saturday Apr 11, 2015

Weight: 308.2

Woke up at 7:30 but couldn't keep my eyes open  so went back to bed until 9:00. DH and I had to have Steve at the vet by 11:00 fo his heartwarm test to get his Trifexis medication for fleas and ticks. Afterwards we wient to Lake View park for a dog walk. It was very nice today, except still a little chilly glad we had our jackets. We walked around the lake for about 1 1/2 hours. We made it back home to go to our spaghetti dinner fund raiser for the Sweet Adelines a local chorus.

B: toast & iced coffee

L: beef sticks from not sure what they are, they are kinda like sausages about 180 calories a piece

D: salad, spagetti and garlic bread ( peices) so addicting

Day 13 of journal: Confess three things - I usually speed, I'm addicted to food and I'm lazy.

Tomorrow is laundry day, house cleaning day and maybe start on the yard work. DH and I agreed that we would do yard work on the weekdays after work and leave the weeends to fun and games.


Enjoy life! IP

Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 04/12/2015:
Have a great day.

InnerPeace - Friday Apr 10, 2015

Weight: 308.2

DH brought dinner home. I had a chicken, ranch wrap. After dinner I helped the little girl do her homework and her reading assignment. We had a Mad Scientist Club at the library: PEEPS contruction. Though they didn't have very many Peeps, we used marshmallows and spaghetti. I think I had more fun than the little girl.


B: cheerios, iced coffee

S: 1/2 peanut butter sandwich

L: turkey and light cheddar

S: trail mix

I ask DH what was for dinner, he said a surprise. I'm not exactly sure what that means.

Day 12: What is on your desk top...my answer eight icons. I hate a cluttered desk top and keep it relatively clean. I do have lots of folders though in word, excel, etc.

I hope you all have a great weekend. We have lots of yard work to do...well as much as well can with the ground still be wet. More rain this morning and probably tonight, making that a very hard chore.

Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

InnerPeace - Thursday Apr 09, 2015

Weight: 308.2

How to start the day off with an impending migraine...

I couldn't see driving to work in the rain, all the glare, oncce I got out of the car to go into work, the police department was testing their generator and the lovely aroma of diesel fuel blasted in my face (not only the smell, but also PTSD from the army)  as I entered the loading dock vestibule paint thinner or varnish assaulted my nose and then the janitor's over powering cologne was still lingering in the elevator and the piece de resistance I dropped some maple brown sugar oatmeal on my shirt so I will be smelling that all day and  then the pressure of the upcoming storms is just too much for my cranium to handle but alas, I turn down the lights, pop some excedrin migraine and drive on! I've heard that activity is also good, so I will head out for one shortly.

B: maple and brown sugar oat meal

S: 1/2 peanut butter sandwich on multi-grain spongy bread

L: turkey, monterray jack cheese on the same multi-grain spongy bread

S: carrotts and maybe hummus, there is a recall, so I might not get the hummus.

Not sure about dinner tonight as the little girl has a Mad Scientist class tonight. All about contructing with PEEPS!!

Day 11 of journal challenge - What is your favorite quote: 

“Poor planning on your part does not necessitate an emergency on mine.”

Bob Carter

Aww yes, but it is funny how I still must still jump through hoops for some.


I hope you all have minor emergencies today! Enjoy. IP


Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

InnerPeace - Wednesday Apr 08, 2015

Weight: 308.2

Almost let the day get by me without and entry.

Work was stupid, just because I don't have a lot to do. I was trying to find a popcorn machine all day. No luck. Boss will be gone for a week so I will have time to walk more. All in all it was a good day.

Steve was up twice last night, DH says he is barking at a rabbit running through the yard. Rabbits are fine, it's the skunks I get concerned about, poor little Steve was sprayed twice last year, and it was a huge mess.

B: brown sugar maple oatmeal

S: 1/2 peanut butter sanwich

L: turkey and swiss on whole grain bread. I bought the wrong time, this bread is spongy and I don't like it at all

D: pork roast, salad

S: dried pineapple.

DH and I took Steve for a walk in the neighborhood, I still can't believe we still are wearing our jackets. It was really foggy too at 6:30 at night, very eerie.

Day 10 journal challenge. If you had to live your life with only one food and one drink what would you choose? Hands down the drink would be water, as much as I love my diet Dr. Pepper, I know it would not be a good thing to just drink only DDP. The food would be chicken. I can do so many things with chicken.

I hope tomrrow turns out as good as today. Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

InnerPeace - Tuesday Apr 07, 2015

Weight: 308.2

Today is a dreary, rainy, chilly day. The rain however is making everything green which is pretty. I wish I could say the same for me. I just can't get motivated. I have all these good ideas but I can't make them work...I'll keep tryining.

B: maple brown sugar oatmeal

S: 1/2 peanut butter on whole grain bread

L: roasted turkey, colby jack cheese on whole grain bread, banana, yogurt

S: tropical trail mix - only ate the pineapples, cashews and coconut pieces.

D: steak, carrots and potato salad (if everything works out)

DH is taking the little girl to the library for a class she is signed up for "tweens at the table" she is supposed to learn more about nutrian. Once she gets back to our house we will do the reading and the homework and eat.

I emailed her mother and sent her some free camp information for this summer and suggested that the little girl might be interested in one or two of the interest groups and maybe even the stepsister over there. I then told her how upset I was about the little girl's hair over the weekend. She replied thanks for the camp info, she would look into it and she knows about the hair and could I help her talk the little girl into getting it cut. Excuse me? The little girl says you won't let her get it cut, what in the world, I don't know who to believe any more.

I paid $15.00 for a dog walk to happen on 4/26/15. I can't wait. We also have a free dog walk this weekend at a lakeview park.

DH fought with the heater/AC trying to change the air filter out, it was quiet comical but he finally got it out. He didn't take the measurements and went to get a replacement and got the wrong size. So he made two trips. After he sat outside and we played frisbee. It was kind of fun but the grass was still wet so we tracked mud in the house.

Day 9: What are your pet peeves? I have so many, just to list a few: driving too slow in the fast lane, cutting in line, chewing with your mouth open, rude people, people who interrupt you while you're talking, saggy pants, unflushed toilets, loud cell phone usage in public, animal cruelty, people who follow too close, people getting on the elevator before you get off, pushy sales people, obliviousness in general, bad grammar, missuse of homonyms are just a few. I have a bunch of others, which I will save for another day.

Hope you all have a great day!

Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 04/07/2015:
Hope your day has been a good one!

InnerPeace - Monday Apr 06, 2015

Weight: 308.2

Steve had a blast at the dog park.

DH was moody because it was three years almost to the day, or Easter, when his wife left, so he's not a big fan. I hate Easter just because I had appendicitis and no one believed I was in pain. The nurses didn't want to call in the surgeon because it was a holiday. What the eff, lady I'm in pain and NO for the 3rd time I'm not pregnant! I was traumatized to say the least, that pain was so much worse than labor. And then when my son was two he banged his head and got a goose egg on his forehead that became abcessed, he was in the hospital on Easter, and my mom wouldn't come up to the hospital and bring me birth control pills...it was a big mess, so Easter is not my favorite time of the year either, no religious reasons!

Because we were both moody, again we made unhealthy choices and stopped at Steak and Shake and ate hamburgers...again. This morning is a start of another day!

B: maple and brown sugar oatmeal

S: 1/2 peanut butter sandwich

L: turkey and provolone on whole wheat, banana

S: some trail mix, I didn't eat it all only a few cashews and the dried pineapple

I did get to walk this afternoon at work, I did get rained on but I found a new corridor through the music school and heard all kind of beautiful music walking by the practice rooms. It was very different and refreshing.

Day 8 of journaling challenge. What would you say to 3 different people?

To my husband...You have brought back the sunshine to my soul, the joy to my days, you have restored my broken heart, your smile has healed my pain and your caring spririt has rescued mine from dark places. I love you and will cherish you always!

To his exwife...you are the worst mother I have ever known in my life, you certainly have your priorities mixed up lady! You need to get your head out of your ass and take care of your daughter!

To my boss...I am bored and do not have enough to do at work, I know I've told you this before, but I thinki I need to reiterate the fact. I do not think you use me to my potential and I think you micromanage things thant don't necessarily need your undivided unattention. Evaulation time is coming up...Note to self, this will need repeating!

DH is grilling chicken, we will have salad and cranberry sauce for dinner.

Hopefully if the weather/rain  holds off I can get a dog walk in... hope you all have a great day.

I don't type so awful, but I think the keyboard needs new batteries, so I'm thinking faster than the keyboard will type.



Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

InnerPeace - Sunday Apr 05, 2015

Weight: 308.2

Went with DH and little girl to get new eyeglasses, afterwards we went to 5 guys burgers. Not the most healthiest choice, but ALAS we had burgers...without the bun! Once we got back home, we did the 30 minutes of reading and did multplication tables with the little girl. She was supposed to leave at 5:00 so she took a shower and I spent the next two hours getting the tangles and rats'  nests out of her hair. I was so pissed off. She was at home all week because of Spring Break and it amazes me how her mother cannot find time to brush it out! Oh well, I guess this is a battle I will have for the next eight years! Sometimes this really takes a toll on my patience. I guess I didn't think everything through when I actually got married.

The mother came to pick her up to go to Chuck E Cheese for a party, DH and I stayed in and he cooked what he called country ribs on the grill. They were pretty good..

DH was texting his exwife back and forth arguing about the little girl's hair, her excuse is she has a business to run and just can't stop and brush hair out....Oh yeah that is a good one.

The little girl got back about 8:30 and we watched Mirror, Mirror on TV the snow white with Julia Roberts, it was just OK.

I was up about 3:00 am with Steve, I stayed up about an hour and finally got back to sleep.

Woke up at 7:30, DH made breakfast scrambled eggs, turkey bacon and whole wheat toast. He also made a smoothie, but only drank half of it because I drank iced coffee earlier. Little girl is to go home early today because it is Easter, her mother is supposed to be here about 2:30. We are taking Steve to the dog park, it is finally supposed to get over 50 degrees to day...YAY!

Journal Challenge Day 7: What type of books do you read? I have favorite authoris: Suzanne Brochmann, Sandra Brown, Elizabeth Lowell, Nora Roberts and Janet Dailey to name a few. I am partial to mystery/romanctic/action books that Suzanne writes, and I hate waiting for new ones to come out. I have dreams of writing my own, I have so many ideas, if only I could figure out how to get them all on paper!

I'm off to get the laundry done and enjoy the Easter Holiday!!

Enjoy your day! He is risen....INDEED!

Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 04/06/2015:
Oh man, I love Five Guys! You've reminded me I need to get a couple of new books on my iPad for my upcoming trip. I like fantasy/sci-fi/adventure type stuff mostly. There's an older Chuck Palahniuk book I want to read since they're adapting it into a movie.

InnerPeace - Saturday Apr 04, 2015

Weight: 308.2

We literally bummed around the house all day! DH's friend called and invited us to lunch, we went to a pub and grill called Wolfey's. I had a pulled pork, black bean salsa with guacomole wrap, it was pretty good, but something in it was burning my mouth so DH ate the second half of it.

Dropped my car off to get the oil changed and then DH dropped me off to get my hair cut. Afterwards he went to pick up the little girl. We have eggs and small gifts for her Easter Basket, not candy! We got 20 one dollar bills to put in the eggs. She said she wasn't hungry when she came over and seemed to be in a bad mood. She told DH Wednesday night that she was invited to a birthday party at ChuckE. Cheese Saturday night and didn't want to go. She said she didn't care about it.

Now, her mother is picking her up at 5:00 pm to go to the Chuck E. Cheese birthday party, apparenlty the little girl didn't tell her mother she didn't want to go. Now DH is mad, because again, the mother always finds a reason to take take her away earlier than she should or for 'other' events that she needs to attend.  It is just frustrating. She is only staying until noon tomorrow and then she goes back for Easter! Just so emotionally driaining. AND THEN...she wakes up this morning and DH asks her if she combed her hair and she says yes, but DH looks at it and sees that it is full of knots and rats and he asks her why she didn't comb it...her reply...because my mom broke my brush. Yes OK, this same mom who accused us as sending her back with tangled hair...WTF EVER LADY!! DH made the comment that he would comb her hair when they came back from their Home Deport class. Oh yeah right, I will be combing the little girl's hair. OH MY GRAVY!! I want to cut that **** off! She doesn't take care of it and it is apparent her mother doesn't either, with all the repeat episodes of lice. What a freakin' nightmare! DH and little girl have eyeglasses appointments when they get back from the Home Depot class. We were supposed to go see the movie Home, but since she is leaving early we may have to wait another time for that!

Last night we did go to the glow in the dark easter egg hunt. It was nice. We were cold and wet because of the rain and our feet got wet but we all had a good time looking for the glow in the dark eggs.

Day 6: What musician or band do you like the most? Hard to answer, I love music lots of differnt kinds. I would say the artists who have the most songs that have actually said something to me: Tracey Lawrence, Mark Wills, Restless Heart, Garth Brooks and Alan Jackson. I do love Elvis, Dean Martin, Prince, Alexander O'Neal, Justin Timberlake, Imagine Dragons and other obscure artists, I think it depends on what kind of mood I'm in to what I'm listening to at any given moment.

I guess I will get around and prepare myself for the fight with the stringy hair and get ready for the eye doctor. I hope you all have a great easter and remember...The reason for the season! He has risen, He has risen indeed! Have a great evening all!

D: peanut butter on whole wheat

S: after the egg hunt beef patty on whole wheat

B: this morning...iced coffee so far

no plans for lunch yet

dinner....I don't know.

I think easter's buffett was scrapped because DH wanted to cook steak on the grill. I was thinking of making pototo salad or amish salad and some baked carrots, we will see how this turns out.


Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

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