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Jayhawkjen - Saturday Sep 02, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 172.2

I read through my entire journal here on Diet Diaries and it was really interesting and valuable! I tend to forget where I was when I started this thing... I'm so glad I wrote it down! I have come such a long way but it just feels normal now. its great motivation to keep going when I realize how much better my life is with the changes I've made.

I had another little loss yesterday and I was down to 171.2 which was super exciting but I'm back up today in the 172's. Last night I started to have a beer after work. I had kind of a ****ty day and I've been a little depressed lately. But I took one sip and poured it out. It didn't taste great and I know alcohol is my trigger to big eating. For some reason I have an impulse to eat big and drink at the beginning of a weekend, like it's some kind of private celebration, but then it leads to a whole weekend of big eating and ultimately I feel bad and spend the week trying to undo the damage. So, long story short, I'm glad I dumped the beer! I didn't eat great afterwards but it was ok under the circumstances. My son had a football game last night and we were tailgating. We just brought a pizza and ate it standing up which is not conducive to mindful, slow eating. Oh well, focus on the positive and move on.

Happy Labor Day weekend everyone! Enjoy!

Progress as of today: 32.8 lbs lost so far, only 2.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/02/2017:
Good for you pouring out that beer that didn't taste good....You have learned something that many if not most people that have lost weight never learn....and that is... how to keep it off. I know for myself I am akin to a human garbage can...it's hard for me to throw away food..for some reason eating it seems like the right thing to do....It's real work getting to the point of not eating something because it exists..not because I really want it. You are doing great....I'm sure your past posts are interesting...I plan to read them myself.

horn_of_plenty on 09/05/2017:
Hi JayHawk! Congrats on your personal weight loss and lifestyle achievement from your starting point until now! I wouldn’t worry about a gain from one single day till the next as it can be bloating, salt, or any number of things! If you are making good choices, it will surely drop back down by the week’s end – fingers crossed! OMG alcohol def lowers my tolerance also to limit food and I also tend to want to eat more when I drink…of course! I also have a tendency at certain times to want to “eat big.” I actually fully gave into that temptation last night, Monday Labor Day off from work. It was a weekend of both socializing & sticking with my goals….but after the beach yesterday I was TOTALLY STARVING. Luckily, I had tons of this really hearty (no clue what type but it’s I believe an Asian variety) of cooked squash that I picked up already sliced and baked. I think they put in some kinda pine nut or seed. Pretty sure they were pine nuts. It was delicious and I pigged out on it. I totally let myself binge and was then FREEZING after as I ate so much my body was seriously hardly functioning aside from being in the mode of digestion….but funny thing is, I do NOT regret it. I mean, the whole drive home I was dreaming of eating the squash and then I did….but if the squash had been fries, it would have been a calorie Bomb! Luckily, it was cooked, not sautéed or stir fried, healthy squash with little oil…

On days that you want to eat big, there’s a good option to plan for eating big….and I did have a few of my friend’s mcdonalds fries on the drive home to satisfy that craving also….before arriving home to tear up the squash. You can always overeat on veg and then supplement with little tastes of the actual good stuff…at least this is how I work around it..!

I like that you are ok with how you ate given the circumstances bc it’s not healthy to always regret one’s choices! These days, I am also much happier with the choices I make and usually have FAR FEWER regrets.

Jayhawkjen - Thursday Aug 31, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 172.2

 Hi everyone!  Just checking in every so often.  Weight loss has slowed considerably but that's OK.  I"m still plugging along with Naturally Slim - month 6 or so.  I really like this program -- I feel like I have been set free from a prison of sorts.  I was pretty miserable at 205 lbs.  Weight loss has been slow enough that I have gotten used to being smaller and feeling SO much better.  I have to remember to not take it for granted.  

I hope everyone is happy and healthy!  

Progress as of today: 32.8 lbs lost so far, only 2.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/31/2017:
Hi......nice weight loss , and almost there at your goal!

jayhawkjen on 08/31/2017:
Thank you!

horn_of_plenty on 09/01/2017:
Congrats, super congrats as i know a life change is not easy but it sure is doable!, ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSS! How wonderful!

I agree that when weight loss is slower, you can get used to maintaining your weight and knowing what you need so that there's less of a chance of constantly yo-yoing on diets when you undereat and overeat.

Like you, the last time i lost the practically "last 10 pounds," it was super slow and i've never gained it back. learned out to eat less but more volume (veggies) and increased my exercise as i got more fit.

adding in cardio since spring has really helped me maintain!

Donkey on 09/02/2017:
Slow and steady wins the race! So good to hear from you!

Jayhawkjen - Tuesday Jul 04, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 175.4

Hey friends, sorry I've been gone so long. I'm still going strong with NS. Every day is not perfect but that's ok. Overall it's a major, major change, and that's my focus, i.e., the big picture. It's about learning new habits, because once it's a habit, it becomes easy, you don't even think about it. And then you can work on adding even more habits.

I was on a long plateau and I thought maybe that was it, all I could lose. And honestly, I was pretty fine with it. In the past week or so I've lost a couple of pounds. I've done a little strength training but surely not enough to make a difference, I think it might be that I've been on a steak binge lately. Maybe I've been unintentionally low carb. Who knows? My other thought is that we've been spending a lot of time at the lake recently and I know I eat more there. But then I go back to my normal during the week days. So maybe I fool my metabolism by eating more and then less.

I hope everyone is doing great!

Progress as of today: 29.6 lbs lost so far, only 5.4 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/05/2017:
Hi Jay…it’s ok! Happy 4th and I am glad to see your presence again on DD!!!

Yes, even after counting calories for almost 15 years in my own life, some days are not perfect – bc WE ARE ALL HUMAN! It’s ok and you are right – it’s the BIG PICTURE that is what counts! Way to go. You have it right about the habits. Habits are easy – the hard part is only in making something a habit – but it’s possible at any age and any time in our lives! Beautiful thing!

Eating more and then eating less is GOOD for the metabolism bc it is constantly getting different amounts and is therefore not slowing due to only eating very restricted, low amount only. It’s good to throw in higher cal days. If you google it, you’ll find that is def the case. It’s better for you, too, so you don’t always feel hungry each day.

Perhaps your higher cal days when combined with low cal days is not making enough deficit to lose which means that, if you are having trouble losing, you may have to decrease slightly the amount you are eating on your high cal days…or just adjust one of the high cal days and see if it makes a difference.

Jayhawkjen - Tuesday May 23, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 179.0

 According to Naturally Slim, exercise doesn't really help much with weight loss, but it is critical to maintenance.  That's a big shift in my thinking, and maybe why I've always re-gained.  Also, it's kinda hard to know when you're entering the maintenance phase, at least for me.  In the past, I never quite achieved my weight loss goal, or if I did, I'd always think:  "This is great, but 10 pounds more would be even better!"  

So I've been thinking about that lately.  I have certainly been exercising more in an effort to lose weight, but if my current weight is my new baseline, then I should definitely keep it up. With that in mind, I did my before-work "workout" which consists of walking quickly around the campus and running stairs.  I have gym-phobia, so I have to come up with workouts that I can do without the benefit of fancy equipment.  It only took 20 minutes, but I felt good afterwards.  


Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/23/2017:
I agree with all your above thinking, 100%

Why do you have a gym-phobia ? because it's unnatural to your past? Is it you aren't use to it....i used to be this way, but chose to accept feeling out of place at the beginning - now it feels like home to me!

Donkey on 05/24/2017:
Thank you for getting what I mean about having gained weight in my fingers!

That's quite an amazing revelation about exercise/eating/maintenance. I too have had the rather "disordered" thinking that "just the last 10 pounds" that never arrives. This time around, I'm trying very hard to come to a point of acceptance, and then changing my focus from numbers to other types of progress.

After all, they do say that weight loss is 80% menu and 20% exercise. I believe it!

I'm sorry to hear that you feel that way about the gym, but I totally get it. Been there myself. It is so bad with me that I once re-joined a gym where I had previously felt very comfortable at, but quit to try exercising at home, which didn't work. So a year later, I re-joined and I was so scared. And this was a small-town, very casual place! So silly of me...

Jayhawkjen - Friday May 19, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 179.0

Weight loss seems slow, but it's still happening. I have to ask myself if I could be happy at this weight and the answer is "yes." Would I like to be 20 lbs lighter? Absolutely! But I have to be realistic and able to maintain a realistic weight for me. In the past I have been greedy and I tried to get to a weight that isn't in my genetic make up. I succeeded, but not for long. I think I've gotten down to 140, maybe 137 or so, but I was eating less than 1,000 calories a day and I'm not willling to so that ever again. Another few times I've gotten to about 155 which is also pretty thin for me. I can wear a size 8-10 at that weight. Right now I've gone from squeezing into a size 18 to a size 14 and I feel pretty darn good. I realize it might sound like I'm finished trying to lose, but that's not the case, I'm just trying to be realistic and develop a lifestyle I can sustain. If I continue to lose: awesome. If not, I will be happy to maintain this weight.

An interesting thing about my weight loss this time is that nobody has noticed. Well, almost nobody. One person in my office. But other than that, not a soul. Not my husband, kids, friends. I think I would prefer that nobody notice, to be honest. For me, it's super embarrassing to have to answer questions about how I did it, etc, because if people notice I've lost weight then it means they noticed I was big. Also it's double embarrassing when I gain and I know they notice but don't say anything. It's such a struggle.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/20/2017:
One thing I've learned in this journey is that you have to be comfortable in your own skin in order to maintain any kind of weight loss. Clothing sizes, numbers on a scale, etc., lose their meaning if you're suffering to lose or maintain the loss. Take it from an old donkey like me... learn from my mistakes while you still have your youth to enjoy.

It sounds like you are in a really good place. Eat healthy & stay active - good life will follow.

Donkey on 05/20/2017:
PS What you mentioned about people noticing or not noticing really has made me think. I never gave it much thought as to people noticing that I've gained weight, but I'm sure they did. One time, I was in an awkward position, with my posterior up and one of my co-workers said, "Oh my!" and I know he was referring to the size of my big butt. It didn't bother me at the time, for some reason.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/22/2017:
Hi Jaybird!

Yes, I do agree with your statement that goals MUST be realistic. If they are too much a stretch, it’s not gonna work…I think you are smart to be realistic about a LONG TERM maintenance plan and weight to succeed at work towards staying at. Me too. I used to be a tad under what I weigh now. But I def had far less arm muscle. I used to weigh around 5 lbs less than I do now (but I look hot now – with more upper body muscles.) And this upper weight is MUCH easier to maintain.

Like you, when I weighed less, I was also eating FAR LESS and bingeing more! Like you, I have decided this weight is maintainable and realistic for me NOW. We learn a lot thru life as we experience living at these different weights. I do feel it gets easier the more we experience and learn about ourselves – and we become MORE realistic hopefully and love ourselves MORE hopefully too!

Maybe you lost weight slower this time? Or people are not as annoying this time? I’m glad it’s not a super embarrassing thing all over again. Keep up the good work, J-Bird. It’s probably a slower loss – people notice it less. Which is better for maintenance anyways…the slower loss, gradually.

Jayhawkjen - Thursday May 11, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 180.8

Hi everyone! I've been away for awhile, traveling, but I'm back. I am still doing the Naturally Slim program and really loving it. It is always a work in progress but it feels like something truly different and it has changed so much about the way I think about eating. I never believed I would lose weight again. My motivation was different this time, for health more than vanity. And this program is so radically different than anything I've ever done. You can Google the principles of it if you're interested. I'm so thankful I accepted the opportunity when it came my way.

Anyway, I just got back from Europe and I lost a pound or two there. I drank a lot of Czech beer so I'm sure all the extra walking is the reason. I was so glad I had already lost weight because I had so much energy and I wasn't trying to hide from every photo. You know that feeling? I still have a ways to go but I can accept myself now.

I hope you all are doing well!

Progress as of today: 24.2 lbs lost so far, only 10.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/12/2017:
My comment for your Sunday, March 12th Entry :- ) …

You must have been sooooo proud of yourself that day, when you moved out of the obese weight category. I congratulate you and regard your achievement as a really important one also. And you should definitely celebrate it. Because, in a life-long journey about weight and any other thing in your life, I do think that celebration is important. It keeps you motivated to keep on. To keep doing the good things. To keep achieving weight victories.

And by celebrating, you continue to feel good about yourself. And I’m glad that It felt good to feel good about yourself – because you should. Especially when you reach goals and are stepping in the right direction towards them. I was reading a book about rewards and even rewarding minor acheivments and small steps in the right direction is important because rewards keep us motivated and active in seeking further progress from inside ourselves.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/12/2017:
My comment on your entry today :- ) ….

Hey, it’s good to see you back!!!! I love to see returning old members because you inspire me. It’s always nice to have a bigger fan club here and more people to help support me in my goals as I support you in yours !!!

You are so right that the only way to change and lose weight is to do something truly different. It sounds like that “something truly different” thing for you is the Naturally Slim program.

It’s true that when you “never believed that you’d lose weight again,” it wouldn’t have happened if you stayed doing the same things. You in fact did have to make a change from your current. You did have to work to keep that change and do something different to lose weight. And “Naturally Slim” was the change that worked for you!

That’s great that you lost weight on your Europe trip. I have lost weight during 2 of my prior traveling trips also. But it’s because I paid attention to what I ate most of those trips…and in addition – like your trip – one of those trips was in the HEAT with TONS Of walking. The other trip was some walking but more sitting playing music – but I watched what I ate on that one! It’s so nice to travel and be able to maintain weight! And not come back and stress about weight gain! Only stress about laundry!!

Yes I know the feeling of finally accepting your body. I accept mine 100% now too. I know I do what I can and do as much as I can without getting totally nuts :- P It’s good to know that the work we put in pays off and that we can feel good about the work we do to shape our bodies to how we want them to eventually be. Everything IS possible.

Jayhawkjen - Sunday Mar 12, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 191.4

Huge day for me... I crossed back over to "overweight" from obese! And I had to buy smaller jeans. My old jeans were driving me crazy and starting to look pretty goofy. Also I went all weekend without a drink and didn't really miss it. There were some other victories, leaving really good food on my plate because I was full... and also feeling good about myself for the first time in so long. I forgot what it was like.

Progress as of today: 13.6 lbs lost so far, only 21.4 lbs to go!

Jayhawkjen - Saturday Mar 04, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 192.6

Progress as of today: 12.4 lbs lost so far, only 22.6 lbs to go!

mylilsista on 03/08/2017:
Congrats on the 12.4 lb loss! We have the same goal, 170 lbs. I still have 28 more to lose. I look forward to reading your entries :)


Donkey on 03/09/2017:
I hope you are doing well this week :-)

Jayhawkjen - Thursday Mar 02, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 194.2

Oh my gosh, I struggled yesterday.  I just could not stop myself from eating a brownie and 4 tiny cream puffs.  I was eating when I wasn't hungry.  I think I was stressed out about having to be at a meeting all evening and I wanted to eat before I left.  Maybe I'm struggling because the exercise is making me want to eat.  Here's the thing:  Sweets are allowed on my plan, but I am supposed to eat them very slowly and savor.  Instead I stood there and stuffed them in my mouth like I was trying to get away with it.   I'm frustrated with myself, but I'm not going to get mad.  I'm going to think about it instead and try to figure it out.  

First off, a brownie and several cream puffs are not the end of the world.  

Maybe I need to eat some sweets if I'm going to stay on track overall.  But instead of standing and gulping, I should plan ahead for something really yummy that I can sit and enjoy. If I have that plan in my back pocket, it would help me to say "no" to the quick fix.  The standing and gulping was about getting away with it, in a way, because I wanted to eat it before my self-restriction took over.... and I cannot restrict if this is a lifestyle.  Restriction does not work for me.  The other thing is this:  the cream puffs were just OK.  The brownie was pretty good, but not amazing.  What would I really, really love to eat?  What is plan-worthy?  Keylime Pie.  Ice-cream with Butterfinger smooshed in.  Brownie with ice cream, chocolate syrup and crushed  candy on top.  I am going to eat one of those things this weekend.  When and which one are to be determined.

The other thing that happened when I stood and gulped down the sweets was this:  It made me anxious and I did not relax and enjoy the beautiful dinner I made. I made cedar-plank salmon on the grill, asparagus with toasted sesame oil, couscous.  I was so residually anxious about having eaten the brownie, and anxious about trying to eat before my meeting, anxious about eating when I wasn't hungry, that I did not enjoy the food I made.  I don't know why I'm still so concerned that I will starve to death if my dinner is delayed until 8:30.  It's almost funny.  Much of it boils down to stress and anxiety about the food itself and eating.  

I also realized that I eat for entertainment.  Boredom is a major trigger for me.  If I'm busy with a project, I can almost forget to eat.  Unfortunately my job is so slow that I'm frequently bored.  The only thing I have at home that keeps me from being bored is housework and TV.  I do a lot of housework.  Seriously...  my house is clean.  (Which is also an respone to anxiety.  Cleaning makes me feel in control.)  I wish I had a hobby that really engaged me, something that really, really took me in the zone.  

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 24.2 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/03/2017:
Hi Jayhawk...I just read your comment back to me, below, and I agree that maintenance is very hard. BUT - the longer I maintain my weight, the easier it becomes bc i've been able to keep learning about what works and what doesn't. Maintenance gets easier with time and as long as you have enough options in your diet that you ENJOY.

I read your first paragraph now - about how you're struggling to meet the "rules" of your plan. Think of it this way - the more you tell yourself you have to do something one way, the more your mind is going to want to do it the other way - for example, your diet plan wants you to eat slowly and savor, but your mind wants to just pig out. Don't force the rules on yourself, do it bc you want to. Remember that YOU are in control, not the diet or rules. You make the rules, not the other way around. Rules should be bc you want to - not bc you HAVE to. I think you'll be able to stay on track doing things bc you want to - not HAVE TO.

I agree with you - if it's a lifestyle, your choices are going to have to be in line with things you can maintain, not quick fixes that don't help you past the immediate future. This is what i've learned. People at work do diets and all these other things - and sometimes it frustrates me to listen bc i know i couldn't do what they are doing - bc it may help them immediately (and me) but it'd be impossible to carry through in the long run. I have learned their diets do NOT work for me. Like you, i follow a lifetime plan, not immediate gratification plan.

Wow - you cooked a delicious dinner girl! Wow Wow wow! I am starting to cook more at home also. It saves money, and, it gives so many more options! To be able to cook anything i want (well not anything but a lot more) and many low cal items that are not being sold ready-made (like cauliflower fried rice but made only with cauliflower)...i'll have so many options. I really want to make this cauli dish soon!

Also, there's this white rice that you can make that's lower calories than standard white rice bc of the way it's cooked....it's awesome...need to find this recipe, it takes out like 50% or so of the calories in typical white rice! just by the way you cook it! Something called resistant starch or something.

That's nice the you enjoy cleaning. My grandmother now 95 was the same exact way actually. She enjoyed cleaning and her apt was always immaculate.

I am the same way as you with eating. Boredom is a HUGE trigger. Once in awhile if i'm doing research is smomething extra exciting or like on vacation, i'll also forget i'm hungry or to eat. But it's rare!

You are normal i think that's how most of us are. ;)

Horn_of_plenty on 03/03/2017:
Keep experimenting with what works for you. You'll get better & better at it as long as you don't quit!

Donkey on 03/03/2017:
It's a learning process, for sure. I eat for the wrong reasons every day at work: because I'm totally stressed out! I just switched from chips to raw vegetables and fruit.

Try to find a hobby that keeps your hands busy, like coloring, needlepoint, or crochet/knitting. (I taught myself how to knit by watching Youtube videos.) Coloring is very relaxing...

Jayhawkjen - Thursday Mar 02, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 194.2

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 24.2 lbs to go!

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