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Jayhawkjen - Monday Feb 20, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 194.2

 Finally feeling better and ready to renew my commitment to this plan.  I'm thinking about asking my son to help me with weights.  He's a football player and spends a lot of time in the weight room.  

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 24.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/20/2017:
Yes, use dumbbells the right way to avoid injury! Your son will know how.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/21/2017:
Yes, let your son help you and it's always better to lift a little lighter than a little too heavy and injure yourself (unless you have been lifting years like i and sorta know your limits and super limits LOL!)...be careful and listen to your son. Weights are amazing.

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Jayhawkjen - Saturday Feb 18, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 195.0

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!

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Jayhawkjen - Friday Feb 17, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 196.0

 I've been sick which has totally thrown me off my game.  But I'm on the mend and down a pound.  Yay!  

Happy Friday to all.  

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 26 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/17/2017:
So glad you are returning to your healthier self! I know from experience - being sick stinks big time.

What has helped me this year - getting much more sleep & haven't been sick this winter - but let me tell you - i needed TONS of sleep to power me through.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/18/2017:
Surprisingly, when sick, you burn calories (i think it's higher cal!) than when you are healthy bc your body is fighting the sickness!

jayhawkjen on 02/20/2017:
Well, that IS a bright side! Thanks

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Jayhawkjen - Sunday Feb 12, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 197.2

Yesterday was a certain special occasion which normally means lots of food and lots of beer. I had club soda and lime and did not feel deprived at all! On my plan I can eat whatever I want so I had fish & chips but ate less than half. My husband bought me some candy and I didn't touch it, although it was more difficult to pass up the candy than the beer. (I can't have sweets for the first 3 weeks.)

Technically I can drink beer but I know that drinking is my eating trigger. And as time goes on it is easier and easier to pass it up. Major victories yesterday!

I am finally seeing progress that has eluded me for so long.

Progress as of today: 7.8 lbs lost so far, only 27.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/13/2017:
Well done on the soda water! I wish I didn't feel deprived when everyone else is drinking beer. For me alcohol is a trigger as well. The more you have the less resistance to indulging in snacks, etc.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/13/2017:
A nice friend gave me valentine's chocolates and a teddy bear attached to the chocolates. The bear is cute, the chocolates i plan to throw out. I haven't even been interested in having them. (well, it's not like they're any good anyways, cheap brand haha).

way to go on eating what you want, but not needing to gorge or eat more than you desire or need to. that's great! what progress! you should be proud bc it's a struggle for me and many that's for sure. also, nice job not drinking. you are saving TONS of calories. your weight will fall easily without the drinks as they are pure sugar and also affect hunger levels and sugar levels. it's gonna help you feel better. when i drink wine and those alcoholic sugary beverages i also notice i get much hungrier and eat much more, losing my sense of judgement entirely regarding how much i am really needing and just eating too much of what i am wanting...

I do agree, drinking will def lower inhibitions and cloud your judgement for eating. for SURE.

soon you may not think of drinking as much, you will create new habits and not want to go near the old. this is what i've done.

Desserts hardly tempt me anymore. I do not like eating cake. It makes me feel terrible after with an energy spike and then crash. I find it hard to eat sugary foods in moderation especially desserts, so i opt not to touch them generally. sometimes there's an exception,but more & more I just am not interested as like you say - it's a trigger for me to consume even more & as time has gone by, it's been easier and easier to just pass up - that's like a decision that's already made ahead of time - no need for debate - just pass up every time - no brainer. yes, this method surely works - your method!

Donkey on 02/15/2017:
Drinking is a total trigger for me too, so I avoid it altogether. I've been sober since July 2016.

Jayhawkjen - Friday Feb 10, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 198.0

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 28 lbs to go!

jayhawkjen on 02/10/2017:
I'm struggling today but I think I know why. I have not been eating enough protein. On the other hand, I am experiencing true hunger, which is the goal of this program. (You can eat when you're truly hungry, in other words.) I'm afraid this will slow down my metabolism. The devil on my shoulder is asking me, "is this sustainable?" Because if it's not, and I lose weight, I will only gain it back and more. I know this after at least 35 years of dieting experience. Still... I've started down the road, I guess. And this is a new theory, anyway... eating whatever I want, only changing the "when" and "how" of eating. You are supposed to eat really slow and focus on your food. I am great at that if I am eating alone. But it's much harder to do with other people present. I hope it becomes habitual so I don't have to think about it too much.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/10/2017:
yes, after many days of lower protein, i get really hungry too...and start to crave real protein like chicken / turkey. and a bigger portion.

Donkey on 02/11/2017:
So glad to read that you signed up for the fitness device - WTG!!!

I definitely understand your concerns. I've been focusing more on protein this past week, too, hoping it would cause the numbers to move.

On NS, do you find yourself eating 3 meals? or 5 smaller meals? Or something like that? I'm just wondering: maybe your body is set up to have "breakfast" around 11am or noon, and then the remaining meals later throughout the day, i.e. "dinner" at 9pm?

jayhawkjen on 02/12/2017:
I am eating 2 meals a day. Lunch at 12 or 1 and dinner at about 6:30. I get hungry at approx 10:00 am but I eat a tiny snack to get through until lunch so I can eat with my colleagues. The hardest challenge is not eating after dinner.

Jayhawkjen - Thursday Feb 09, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 198.2

Progress as of today: 6.8 lbs lost so far, only 28.2 lbs to go!

Jayhawkjen - Wednesday Feb 08, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 199.4

 Day #3 on N.S.  I wasn't hungry this morning so I didn't eat anything until 1:15 or so, and even then wasn't really hungry.  Technically I shouldn't have eaten, but I'm not perfect, so I did.  I think I got a little panicked that I would not get hungry all day and wouldn't get to eat.  I had 1/4 apple, about 3 oz pork and 1/2 cup mashed potatoes.  It's a weird thing... trying not to restrict, but also trying to wait for true hunger.  I felt better and had more energy today than the other two days.

I used my new device and walked 30 minutes to work this morning, which means I also have to walk 30 minutes home.  It was kinda cool to see my heart rate in graph form.  I also did three "circuits" so far today.  A circuit is my made-up exercise routine while at the offfice.  I walk up to the 5th floor and then walk back down to the basement and then return to the first floor.  It only takes 5 minutes or less but it really gets the pulse up.  I should be doing it hourly... maybe I'll work up to it.

On N.S., you are supposed to eat the things that make you drool.  Well, mostly that involves sweets, which are not allowed the first three weeks.  I've been trying to think of food that I really, really love.  Oddly, nothing much comes to mind.  Maybe a nice hamburger and fries.  Mexican.  I'm not sure.  But I do foresee a problem getting enough fruits and veggies in.  Nonetheless, I'm giving it a try and will see what happens.



Progress as of today: 5.6 lbs lost so far, only 29.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 02/09/2017:
nice job incorporating exercise into your routine!!!

Jayhawkjen - Tuesday Feb 07, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 199.6

I did it!  I picked up the fitness device and filled out the form.  Thanks for your encouragement.  The funny part --  I didn't even have to list my weight.  LOL.  All that agonizing for nothing!   Now all I have to do is use the thing!

I started the Naturally Slim program yesterday.  It's pretty interesting.  Basically you eat when you're really hungry, but you have whatever you want.  (instead of changing what you eat, you're changing when and how you eat.) There are some other aspects of it, but that's the main idea.  Normally I eat a pretty big breakfast, possibly up to 1,000 calories, but for this program I am not eating until I'm hungry.  I realize I'm not hungry at breakfast, which is really weird.  Maybe that will change.  They say your "true hunger pattern" will emerge after 3 - 4 days.  So I guess we shall see.  I will say that I did truly enjoy my food yesterday.   And I ate much less than usual.  



Progress as of today: 5.4 lbs lost so far, only 29.6 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/07/2017:
I am very proud of you. I am glad you didn't let your mind stop you from taking advantage of the work program! good stuff.

that would be too hard for me - the Naturally Slim as i'm prone to stuffing my face and overeating.

if you can actually do the program and work with it...you are one step ahead of so many of us! ;)

i just stick with overeating on veggies.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/07/2017:
I agree with Donkey below also.

innerpeace on 02/07/2017:
Great job picking up the form! I hope you use the device as well!

grannyannie on 02/07/2017:
Awesome! Good luck. Interested to see how you do.

Jayhawkjen - Thursday Feb 02, 2017
(Healthy choices, mindful eating)
Weight: 201.6

 There was a special offer at work -- I can get this really cool fitness device for a good price.  Of course I signed up immediately.  Then I received a reply that I would have to fill out a health history form, which includes my height and weight.  Which is making me reconsider my participation....  I am so, so, so deeply ashamed of my weight.  And I would be turning in the form to people that I know and work with, so it would not be anonymous at all.  I don't know what would happen to my form, who would see it, etc. 

This is a perfect example of the way my weight holds me back.  Any activity that requires me to disclose it (and there are surprisingly quite a few) is strictly avoided.  One time i was going on a helicopter ride and I didn't realize I was being weighed as I signed in.  I'm really glad I went, but if I had known in advance, I would have declined.  And I weighed a good 20 lbs less at that time!

So I'm not sure what I'll do.  I could certainly buy the device on my own.  It would be more expensive, but mainly I really wanted to participate in this thing.  But I don't know if I have the guts to do it.  I don't know why I'm so ashamed!  I mean... to the point of putting myself at risk because I can't go to the doctor for anything... I don't even have a doctor any more because mine moved away.  I feel like I could go if I just lost about 25 pounds, but I can't bear the shame at this weight.  Damn.  I know it's crazy.  I know it.  

Meanwhile I'm still hanging in there without my happy hour.  I really wanted a drink last weekend but I was able to go without.  Sweets are creeping back in to my diet again so I need to watch that.  I walked for an hour yesterday again, but today I don't have time.  


Progress as of today: 3.4 lbs lost so far, only 31.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/03/2017:
Would colleagues have access to your form?

innerpeace on 02/03/2017:
I used to have this same mindset...there comes a time when you just have to ask yourself - do these people really matter? You have to look out for yourself and do what is best for you. They will probably wish you well and good luck on your adventure - wow - look at her, she is trying - she is NOT happy with her weight or how she looks so she is doing something about it! And I always remind myself - you don't have to live with these people but yet you have to look at yourself everyday in the mirror. Don't let these people have that power over what you want to do! Live your own life and stop worrying about what other people think about you - haven't you heard that saying - what other people think about you is none of your business! Do you!

Horn_of_plenty on 02/04/2017:
I agree with IP and what she wrote is also what came to my mind. The people at your work are not caring about your weight as much as you do. Everything about you affects YOU MUCH MUCH MUCH more than anyone at work. They will see your number and not get fixed up on it like you do. Your weight is a sore spot to you - but the people at work will not care.

Don't worry about what they think - do not let the number on the scale hold you back from any opportunities like what you mention above.

I mean this - the only person holding you back is you. I wouldn't worry about having to put the number down. The number can always change. it's all in your grasp and power. The number is not what identifies you - you are choosing to allow yourself to be identified by the number though..

Donkey on 02/05/2017:
Look at it this way: It's just a number. It doesn't define you. And signing up shows that you're trying to improve yourself. Nobody can fault you for that. I bet you'll find that you have more cheerleaders out there, cheering you on, than you might think. Count me among one of those :-)

Jayhawkjen - Tuesday Jan 31, 2017
(Healthy choices, mindful eating)
Weight: 201.6

 Double victory today:  


Part One: I parked 30 minutes away from the office and walked.  

Part Two:  I left part of my breakfast uneaten when I felt satisfied.  Not full.  Just satisfied.  This took some thought and listening to my body.  



Progress as of today: 3.4 lbs lost so far, only 31.6 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 01/31/2017:
That is wonderful!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/31/2017:
Congrats on being accepted into the lifestyle program you mentioned below!

Also regarding above, nice job stopping when you are full...i do NOT do this as I do NOT like to - I am still nervous leaving things over but more power to you - your way is the bEST way.

10 resee's cups is not the worst don't worry.

Mindful eating is very hard.

Human beings have a tendency to want to give into the unhealthy urges and temptations regardless of them knowing they can do better....it's part of being human. This is why mindful eating is so difficult.

innerpeace on 01/31/2017:
30 minutes - OMG how long was that walk and did you make it? That is so admirable. If I parked 30 minutes away I would have to walk from home.

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