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Jayhawkjen - Thursday Mar 02, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 194.2

Oh my gosh, I struggled yesterday.  I just could not stop myself from eating a brownie and 4 tiny cream puffs.  I was eating when I wasn't hungry.  I think I was stressed out about having to be at a meeting all evening and I wanted to eat before I left.  Maybe I'm struggling because the exercise is making me want to eat.  Here's the thing:  Sweets are allowed on my plan, but I am supposed to eat them very slowly and savor.  Instead I stood there and stuffed them in my mouth like I was trying to get away with it.   I'm frustrated with myself, but I'm not going to get mad.  I'm going to think about it instead and try to figure it out.  

First off, a brownie and several cream puffs are not the end of the world.  

Maybe I need to eat some sweets if I'm going to stay on track overall.  But instead of standing and gulping, I should plan ahead for something really yummy that I can sit and enjoy. If I have that plan in my back pocket, it would help me to say "no" to the quick fix.  The standing and gulping was about getting away with it, in a way, because I wanted to eat it before my self-restriction took over.... and I cannot restrict if this is a lifestyle.  Restriction does not work for me.  The other thing is this:  the cream puffs were just OK.  The brownie was pretty good, but not amazing.  What would I really, really love to eat?  What is plan-worthy?  Keylime Pie.  Ice-cream with Butterfinger smooshed in.  Brownie with ice cream, chocolate syrup and crushed  candy on top.  I am going to eat one of those things this weekend.  When and which one are to be determined.

The other thing that happened when I stood and gulped down the sweets was this:  It made me anxious and I did not relax and enjoy the beautiful dinner I made. I made cedar-plank salmon on the grill, asparagus with toasted sesame oil, couscous.  I was so residually anxious about having eaten the brownie, and anxious about trying to eat before my meeting, anxious about eating when I wasn't hungry, that I did not enjoy the food I made.  I don't know why I'm still so concerned that I will starve to death if my dinner is delayed until 8:30.  It's almost funny.  Much of it boils down to stress and anxiety about the food itself and eating.  

I also realized that I eat for entertainment.  Boredom is a major trigger for me.  If I'm busy with a project, I can almost forget to eat.  Unfortunately my job is so slow that I'm frequently bored.  The only thing I have at home that keeps me from being bored is housework and TV.  I do a lot of housework.  Seriously...  my house is clean.  (Which is also an respone to anxiety.  Cleaning makes me feel in control.)  I wish I had a hobby that really engaged me, something that really, really took me in the zone.  

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 24.2 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/03/2017:
Hi Jayhawk...I just read your comment back to me, below, and I agree that maintenance is very hard. BUT - the longer I maintain my weight, the easier it becomes bc i've been able to keep learning about what works and what doesn't. Maintenance gets easier with time and as long as you have enough options in your diet that you ENJOY.

I read your first paragraph now - about how you're struggling to meet the "rules" of your plan. Think of it this way - the more you tell yourself you have to do something one way, the more your mind is going to want to do it the other way - for example, your diet plan wants you to eat slowly and savor, but your mind wants to just pig out. Don't force the rules on yourself, do it bc you want to. Remember that YOU are in control, not the diet or rules. You make the rules, not the other way around. Rules should be bc you want to - not bc you HAVE to. I think you'll be able to stay on track doing things bc you want to - not HAVE TO.

I agree with you - if it's a lifestyle, your choices are going to have to be in line with things you can maintain, not quick fixes that don't help you past the immediate future. This is what i've learned. People at work do diets and all these other things - and sometimes it frustrates me to listen bc i know i couldn't do what they are doing - bc it may help them immediately (and me) but it'd be impossible to carry through in the long run. I have learned their diets do NOT work for me. Like you, i follow a lifetime plan, not immediate gratification plan.

Wow - you cooked a delicious dinner girl! Wow Wow wow! I am starting to cook more at home also. It saves money, and, it gives so many more options! To be able to cook anything i want (well not anything but a lot more) and many low cal items that are not being sold ready-made (like cauliflower fried rice but made only with cauliflower)...i'll have so many options. I really want to make this cauli dish soon!

Also, there's this white rice that you can make that's lower calories than standard white rice bc of the way it's cooked....it's awesome...need to find this recipe, it takes out like 50% or so of the calories in typical white rice! just by the way you cook it! Something called resistant starch or something.

That's nice the you enjoy cleaning. My grandmother now 95 was the same exact way actually. She enjoyed cleaning and her apt was always immaculate.

I am the same way as you with eating. Boredom is a HUGE trigger. Once in awhile if i'm doing research is smomething extra exciting or like on vacation, i'll also forget i'm hungry or to eat. But it's rare!

You are normal i think that's how most of us are. ;)


Horn_of_plenty on 03/03/2017:
Keep experimenting with what works for you. You'll get better & better at it as long as you don't quit!


Donkey on 03/03/2017:
It's a learning process, for sure. I eat for the wrong reasons every day at work: because I'm totally stressed out! I just switched from chips to raw vegetables and fruit.

Try to find a hobby that keeps your hands busy, like coloring, needlepoint, or crochet/knitting. (I taught myself how to knit by watching Youtube videos.) Coloring is very relaxing...



Jayhawkjen - Thursday Mar 02, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 194.2

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 24.2 lbs to go!


Jayhawkjen - Wednesday Mar 01, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 193.2

I was working out this morning (yes!  working out!) and couldn't help but think about how much better I feel!  I have only lost 10 lbs or so, but the changes I'm making are beneficial and I can tell.  For the first time, I'm more concerned about my health than my appearance.  I guess that's why I'm able to tolerate the slow weight loss.  

Sometimes when I think I'm having a "bad day" (diet wise) or messing up, I just pause to consider all the good changes I've made.  I've stopped drinking (that's huge!) and cut way back on snacking, sugar, etc.  And I'm exercising.  Contrast that with my previous habit of 2 or 3 drinks every night, tons of happy hour snacks, candy, and eating so much junk before December 15.  

I don't mean to imply that I never drink alcohol, but I've gone from about 20+ drinks/week to maybe 1-2 drinks/week.  Interestingly, my plan discourages wine.  They say that wine-drinkers do not have the best success, but beer is fine.  I've always been a domestic beer person, but the focus of my new plan is flavor and savoring.  So I have a new interest in beers with more flavor.  Last weekend I had a Belgian-style ale from Costco (I can't remember the name of it.)  In the past I never, ever would have chosen that.  My main motivation for drinking used to be for the feeling, not the flavor.  In other words, I was trying to get that little lift, that buzz, that relaxation.  So maybe the reason I chose that Costco beer was because I was going to drink for flavor, not for buzz.  I knew it would require more thought to drink it and I wouldn't drink it fast.  I can't say that I loved it, but I did like the fact that I was forced to taste it.  I didn't love the way I felt the next day, even though I only had about a pint.  Instead of judging myself, I simply acknowledged it.  And I thought about whether it was worth it, or what I might do differently in the future when I drink.  

There are two things that are a little challenging about my plan.  I am supposed to eat my favorite foods.  The foods that make me drool.  So the other night I had my favorite BBQ sandwich and hot, beautiful fries.  I did exactly what I was supposed to do and I savored every bite.  When I was comfortably full, I wrapped up the leftovers.  But it is hard to eat a meal like that and not instantly judge it as "bad."  (The other down-side was that the leftovers were not nearly as good as they would have been the night before.)  The second challenge is that we are not supposed to eat many sweets.  Damn, I love sweets.  But I am doing my best and trying to savor sweets when I do indulge.  I'm trying to think of this as a life change, and realistically, sweets are a part of my life.  So...  as always, it's a mind game.  

Progress as of today: 11.8 lbs lost so far, only 23.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/01/2017:
You say "i have only lost"....10lbs is a serious accomplishment! Do you know...it took me like 1-2 years to lose that much...around 2 years ago till last year and now I have maintained till now (maintained for one full year!). As this year has progressed from last late Winter / Early Spring, I have been having an easier and easier time maintaining my weight - sometimes a challenge, but it's become easier than it was at least last Spring when the last of my weight loss was still new and i was still learning how to maintain the lower weight, around 115 lbs.

10lbs for you - and me - has a def improvement in the face and whole body. It's not something to sneeze at! Be proud of yourself.

I like how you "pause to consider the positive changes you've made"....that is something i do sometimes, and it's a great skill and useful to help the both of us keep our changes permanent.

I also do not like to drink wine - it's high in sugar - and when i do drink it, i crave more food after also.

For relaxation, i drink flavored seltzers that i sweeten extra with stevia. I am telling you - there's like a thousand diff flavors of seltzers these days, especially this one brand - i forget the name - Polar i think? - seriously like 20 flavors just that brand alone. Really nice flavors and the stevia really helps to make them just like soda except no calories.

It's good if you can eat what you like in moderation...i do that but not as well as you are yet. I still like to stuff myself often with veggies and stuff so that i can still get that extra full feeling that i still like...and i try to eat the other stuff in moderation like you do...mostly with success i'd say!

WAy to go....good advice and tips i've noted in your entry!

jayhawkjen on 03/02/2017:
Thanks, HOP! Congrats on your maintenance, too. That's the hardest part.



Jayhawkjen - Thursday Feb 23, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 193.2

Progress as of today: 11.8 lbs lost so far, only 23.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/23/2017:
Keep up the good work!!! WTG!!!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/24/2017:
You are doing great, like Donkey said, as I look at your chart...nicely done lady!


happy-1 on 02/28/2017:
Yay!



Jayhawkjen - Monday Feb 20, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 194.2

 Finally feeling better and ready to renew my commitment to this plan.  I'm thinking about asking my son to help me with weights.  He's a football player and spends a lot of time in the weight room.  

Progress as of today: 10.8 lbs lost so far, only 24.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/20/2017:
Yes, use dumbbells the right way to avoid injury! Your son will know how.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/21/2017:
Yes, let your son help you and it's always better to lift a little lighter than a little too heavy and injure yourself (unless you have been lifting years like i and sorta know your limits and super limits LOL!)...be careful and listen to your son. Weights are amazing.



Jayhawkjen - Saturday Feb 18, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 195.0

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!


Jayhawkjen - Friday Feb 17, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 196.0

 I've been sick which has totally thrown me off my game.  But I'm on the mend and down a pound.  Yay!  

Happy Friday to all.  

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 26 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/17/2017:
So glad you are returning to your healthier self! I know from experience - being sick stinks big time.

What has helped me this year - getting much more sleep & haven't been sick this winter - but let me tell you - i needed TONS of sleep to power me through.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/18/2017:
Surprisingly, when sick, you burn calories (i think it's higher cal!) than when you are healthy bc your body is fighting the sickness!

jayhawkjen on 02/20/2017:
Well, that IS a bright side! Thanks



Jayhawkjen - Sunday Feb 12, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 197.2

Yesterday was a certain special occasion which normally means lots of food and lots of beer. I had club soda and lime and did not feel deprived at all! On my plan I can eat whatever I want so I had fish & chips but ate less than half. My husband bought me some candy and I didn't touch it, although it was more difficult to pass up the candy than the beer. (I can't have sweets for the first 3 weeks.)

Technically I can drink beer but I know that drinking is my eating trigger. And as time goes on it is easier and easier to pass it up. Major victories yesterday!

I am finally seeing progress that has eluded me for so long.

Progress as of today: 7.8 lbs lost so far, only 27.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/13/2017:
Well done on the soda water! I wish I didn't feel deprived when everyone else is drinking beer. For me alcohol is a trigger as well. The more you have the less resistance to indulging in snacks, etc.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/13/2017:
A nice friend gave me valentine's chocolates and a teddy bear attached to the chocolates. The bear is cute, the chocolates i plan to throw out. I haven't even been interested in having them. (well, it's not like they're any good anyways, cheap brand haha).

way to go on eating what you want, but not needing to gorge or eat more than you desire or need to. that's great! what progress! you should be proud bc it's a struggle for me and many that's for sure. also, nice job not drinking. you are saving TONS of calories. your weight will fall easily without the drinks as they are pure sugar and also affect hunger levels and sugar levels. it's gonna help you feel better. when i drink wine and those alcoholic sugary beverages i also notice i get much hungrier and eat much more, losing my sense of judgement entirely regarding how much i am really needing and just eating too much of what i am wanting...

I do agree, drinking will def lower inhibitions and cloud your judgement for eating. for SURE.

soon you may not think of drinking as much, you will create new habits and not want to go near the old. this is what i've done.

Desserts hardly tempt me anymore. I do not like eating cake. It makes me feel terrible after with an energy spike and then crash. I find it hard to eat sugary foods in moderation especially desserts, so i opt not to touch them generally. sometimes there's an exception,but more & more I just am not interested as like you say - it's a trigger for me to consume even more & as time has gone by, it's been easier and easier to just pass up - that's like a decision that's already made ahead of time - no need for debate - just pass up every time - no brainer. yes, this method surely works - your method!


Donkey on 02/15/2017:
Drinking is a total trigger for me too, so I avoid it altogether. I've been sober since July 2016.



Jayhawkjen - Friday Feb 10, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 198.0

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 28 lbs to go!

jayhawkjen on 02/10/2017:
I'm struggling today but I think I know why. I have not been eating enough protein. On the other hand, I am experiencing true hunger, which is the goal of this program. (You can eat when you're truly hungry, in other words.) I'm afraid this will slow down my metabolism. The devil on my shoulder is asking me, "is this sustainable?" Because if it's not, and I lose weight, I will only gain it back and more. I know this after at least 35 years of dieting experience. Still... I've started down the road, I guess. And this is a new theory, anyway... eating whatever I want, only changing the "when" and "how" of eating. You are supposed to eat really slow and focus on your food. I am great at that if I am eating alone. But it's much harder to do with other people present. I hope it becomes habitual so I don't have to think about it too much.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/10/2017:
yes, after many days of lower protein, i get really hungry too...and start to crave real protein like chicken / turkey. and a bigger portion.


Donkey on 02/11/2017:
So glad to read that you signed up for the fitness device - WTG!!!

I definitely understand your concerns. I've been focusing more on protein this past week, too, hoping it would cause the numbers to move.

On NS, do you find yourself eating 3 meals? or 5 smaller meals? Or something like that? I'm just wondering: maybe your body is set up to have "breakfast" around 11am or noon, and then the remaining meals later throughout the day, i.e. "dinner" at 9pm?

jayhawkjen on 02/12/2017:
I am eating 2 meals a day. Lunch at 12 or 1 and dinner at about 6:30. I get hungry at approx 10:00 am but I eat a tiny snack to get through until lunch so I can eat with my colleagues. The hardest challenge is not eating after dinner.



Jayhawkjen - Thursday Feb 09, 2017
(Naturally Slim)
Weight: 198.2

Progress as of today: 6.8 lbs lost so far, only 28.2 lbs to go!


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