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Maria7 - Sunday Mar 22, 2009

Weight: 156.5

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

 

  

 

Hello to you!!!

Went to church this morning (Hubby was working), then after church, visited Mom a little over an hour and a half.  Took her some of the food I cooked last nite for today...2 fried chicken legs, biscuit, mixed veggies, and potato salad.  She ate her lunch that was brought to her on a tray while I was there, saving what I brought her for later.  Then she wanted to go outside, so I wheeled her around outside for a while and that was my exercise for today. 

Cals yesterday were est 1250 and walked uphill 30 minutes on the treadmill.  

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PRAYER OF SALVATION

Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against You in the way I have lived my life. I am truly sorry and I want to turn from my selfish ways and follow You. I hand my life over to You, knowing that You have paid the price for my sin by shedding Your Blood and dying on the cross for me. Lord I ask You to forgive me for all my sins and take control of every area of my life. I receive my salvation now according to Your promise: "All who call on the name of the Lord, will be saved." Thank you Jesus.

 

 

Hope you're having a blessed day in the Lord!

 Love, Maria  

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Note:  I do not support any of the ads to the left or at the bottom of this journal.

 

 

Progress as of today: 48.5 lbs lost so far, only 16.5 lbs to go!

starfish on 03/22/2009:
Looks like you are doing great on the cals and the exercise. Thank you for all the encouragement!


poker_paid on 03/22/2009:
Your mom is very fortunate to have a loving daughter like you. Your journey is a blessed one.


selina on 03/23/2009:
Sounds like you had a great weekend!



Maria7 - Saturday Mar 21, 2009

Weight: 156.5

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Hello to you!!!

It is another pretty day here today.  A cool day and nice.  I've been busy washing clothes and doing other things around the house today. 

Fixing to make Hubby's homemade country ham biscuits this afternoon that he loves to take to work with him and eat for his breakfast.  Cals are okay today at est 1250.  Walked on the treadmill (uphill) for 30 minutes.  

 

 

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PRAYER OF SALVATION

Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against You in the way I have lived my life. I am truly sorry and I want to turn from my selfish ways and follow You. I hand my life over to You, knowing that You have paid the price for my sin by shedding Your Blood and dying on the cross for me. Lord I ask You to forgive me for all my sins and take control of every area of my life. I receive my salvation now according to Your promise: "All who call on the name of the Lord, will be saved." Thank you Jesus.

 

 

Hope you're having a blessed day in the Lord!

 Love, Maria  

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Note:  I do not support any of the ads to the left or at the bottom of this journal.

Progress as of today: 48.5 lbs lost so far, only 16.5 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/21/2009:
hey maria. thanks for being so helpful to me. there is sorta a dietician at my "school." even though i'm going to school, it's at a hospital. not really a school environment, per se. so, there is the hospital dietician. it's not that i need a dietician, it's more like a therapist. but, as i have no funds and don't want to mess with insurance, i'm going to continue down this trail and work hard not to let it get worse. i'm back to eating carbs and dairy....it was dumb to think i could go on without them - even if it only was for 1.5 months. i am working hard to increase my walking/exercise.

stay well.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/21/2009:
good calories and exercise to you too! and i see weightloss!


Umpqua on 03/22/2009:
Hi Maria. It's good to be back - again :) This really is a lifelong struggle and it's so easy to give into bad habits. I hope being here will make me a bit more accountable for unhealthy eating.

It looks like you're doing great! And that's wonderful that you're still spending so much time with your Mom, I'm sure she appreciates it. Happy Sunday to you!



Maria7 - Friday Mar 20, 2009

Weight: 157.0

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Happy Spring to you!!!

It is another pretty, sunny morning here today.  A little cooler this morning than yesterday but still nice.  I heard a bird singing outside the window a little while ago. 

Plan today is go get Mom and take her out for a while.  I am VERY, VERY SORE AND ACHY all over this morning for some reason...don't know why and didn't sleep well, either (and was up around 4 a.m. taking tylenol for a bad headache), but I feel I can't let Mom down as Hubby said she called while I was at the ladies supper at church last nite and talked with him in excited anticipation about my coming to take her out today.  It sure would be nice if there was someone to take her out besides me, but the others in our family have excuses why they don't.  I enjoy taking her out and spending time with her but it isn't easy when I am in pain.  Oh, well.  The Lord will help me.

Yesterday's calories were est 1450 and I walked 20 mins UPHILL on the treadmill and also worked outside a little while, too.

Afternoon/evening update...spent about 4 hours with Mom today...wheeled her around in the thrift store while we took our time looking...(we didn't find anything we wanted to get).  We ate lunch at a drive through restaurant.  After this, we rode around a while, with some of our favorite music (island music) playing.  We had a very good visit and I am feeling much better.  On the way to taking her back to her room, I stopped and bought her 4 individual serving packs of oranges, 4 of pineapple pcs, and 4 of peaches (no sugar added to any of them) to take with her back to her room for snacks.  I also bought her some red seedless grapes.  I looked at her foot today and thank the Lord, it is looking better...(however, there was NO BANDAGE on it, only a sock, so I went to the nurse about it and she put some medicine and a bandage on it...).  Thank you, Christians for your prayers!!!

Cals were est 1300 for today...Exercise was wheeling Mom around for a long time in the thrift store.

 

PRAYER OF SALVATION

Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against You in the way I have lived my life. I am truly sorry and I want to turn from my selfish ways and follow You. I hand my life over to You, knowing that You have paid the price for my sin by shedding Your Blood and dying on the cross for me. Lord I ask You to forgive me for all my sins and take control of every area of my life. I receive my salvation now according to Your promise: "All who call on the name of the Lord, will be saved." Thank you Jesus.

 

 

Hope you're having a blessed day in the Lord!

 Love, Maria  

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Note:  I do not support any of the ads to the left or at the bottom of this journal.

Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 03/20/2009:
Maria ~ Those who don't take up with their resposibilities one day will wish they had taken the time to spend with your mom.... Regrets stink!

I know it seems daunting at times for you, but maybe it is a good thing it is "you" and not the sibblings taking care of your mom.... You probably have more patience and understanding.... She needs that... I know it doesn't make you feel any better about the situation and I know how it is burdonsome, especially when you don't feel well yourself in taking care of her & lifting, pushing,etc......

People tell me that this autistic boy is better off with me, cause I'm patient, loving, etc... whereas many people wouldn't care for him (especially for $9/day ~ both boys for $18 & 10 hours a day).... I don't feel I'm patnet enough and my nerves are "shot" 90% of the time, but the Lord placed it upon my heart that this is what I'm suppose to be doing right now in this time of my life.... I sigh a bit of relief everyday I can sit and have a quiet moment about 6:00p.m., cause he is a "job" to care for in his violent tendencies... I have to keep the 3 year old far enough away from him, cause I have no idea wha/who may set him off and into a "fit"... He has started medication for his "ticks" (thats what they ca;; them. like with turets (sp?) syndrome) and I'm not 100% behind medicating children, but now having him in my home and seeing he is only getting worse, something needed to be done or even us adults were getting afraid for our own safety.

Just try the best you can to know that God has His place for all of us and sometimes it hits closer to home that we may like.... I have a tough time when I think about it myself......

Have a good day!


thinnside40 on 03/20/2009:
My picture ~ Only thing I can think of to have you do is "refresh page (full quality)"... A while back I couldn't see something and biscotti told me to do that and then I did see it......

Sounds like your time with mom was quality..... Good!... I think we are going to my parent's tongiht..Hubby desperatly needs a haircut before he goes into full swing 18-20 hour days... He looks like a grizzley! So does Ben, but I don't think I want to fight that "bear" today.... He will get a nice trimming for Easter though..... FOR SURE!

Good Evening... It is super windy here, but the sun is shining still..I'm goin back out there to rake a bit more...


nimony on 03/21/2009:
Hi Maria, it seems to me your day with mom was as good for you as it was for her. You are giving of yourself and you are probably getting back more than you give. I suspect spending time with her keeps your mind more on her and her needs than on yourself and the physical pain you may be feeling. You will cherish these days with her forever. And for your mom, spending time with you means so much to her. You bring her so much happiness and joy. And you give her a chance to put aside her thoughts about the situation she is in.


Donkey on 03/21/2009:
Thank you for your encouragement! Please, if you could, pray for me these next 2 weeks. They will be very difficult for me. Please know that by Palm Sunday, I will be fine. (I hope.)



Maria7 - Thursday Mar 19, 2009

Weight: 157.0

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Good morning to you.

It is a pretty, sunny morning here today.  Already almost 60 degrees fahrenheit, supposed to get up to 75 degrees according to what weather report says, but only the Lord knows for sure.

I've been staying on track this week...last nite I wanted to have a food binge and it was difficult to not give in...I kept thinking 'low-cal...low-cal' and first I had some green beans and a cup of black decaf coffee for 50 calories, followed by walking on the treadmill to make up for it.  That didn't help much.  I was still VERY HUNGRY, cause I had 3 extremely stressful, upsetting phone calls yesterday and this, topped off with the stress that has gone on during this week was a trigger...but recognizing it was a trigger did NOTHING to alleviate the CRAVING to have a food binge.  So, finally, I had an apple late last nite and that took care of the craving!  So now I know what worked and maybe it will again.

I'm drinking my black  coffee again this morning.  Yesterday's calories were est. 1430..with exercise 30 mins gardening (mostly raking leaves) and 12 mins walking uphill on treadmill.

For breakfast this morning, I've had:

1 plain diet wheat toast...40 cals

2 beef bacon...70 cals

1 scrambled egg...80 cals

1/8th measured cup grits...65 cals (cooks out to abt 1/2 cup w water)

pat of lf margerine...30 cals

black coffee...0 cals

low sugar tea...15 cals

total est for breakfast:  300 cals

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Today's food and exercise plan, Lord willing:

Plan for lunch is a baked sweet potato and low sugar tea at 220 cals

Afternoon snack plan is an apple and black decaf coffee...80 cals

Plan for supper (will be eating at the ladies' supper at church tonite) is I am taking a very, very, large tray of raw veggies (carrots, cucumber, onion, cherry tomatoes, and celery sticks) to put on the table with the other goodies and I plan to eat at least half of my food in raw veggies and the other half in other foods there.  I am also taking a very large pitcher of low sugar sweet tea.  I plan to put no more on my plate than 700 cals at the supper.  If I put 2 est cupsful of raw veggies on my plate (total 100 cals), that will take up half the plate and the other half can be 600 cals...so I am thinking half non-sweet food (300) and half sweet desert (300).  If I do all of this, my total est cals for today will be 1300.  BUT if it is 1400, I will still consider I did okay.

Also, plan to walk 20 mins uphill on the treadmill today and may work outside again as did yesterday, cause it is so nice outside.

 

 

PRAYER OF SALVATION

Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against You in the way I have lived my life. I am truly sorry and I want to turn from my selfish ways and follow You. I hand my life over to You, knowing that You have paid the price for my sin by shedding Your Blood and dying on the cross for me. Lord I ask You to forgive me for all my sins and take control of every area of my life. I receive my salvation now according to Your promise: "All who call on the name of the Lord, will be saved." Thank you Jesus.

 

 

Hope you're having a blessed day in the Lord!

 Love, Maria  

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Note:  I do not support any of the ads to the left or at the bottom of this journal.

Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

starfish on 03/19/2009:
looks like you are doing great. Thanks for the comment :-)


thinnside40 on 03/19/2009:
Have a wonderful Thursday!... You have a ladies' dinner & I have music practice.... This week is suppose to be 1.5 hours and not 3.25.... I stepped my foots down! 10:00 p.m. is too late to try to make "perfect" music for Sunday service..... No such thing as perfect & God is pleased with our best with the talents He has given us...

TTFN!.... I did post an entry for today...FINALLY! huh?


selina on 03/20/2009:
1400 cals is great! You are doing wonderfully! Have a great weekend! I thought I left a comment here for you earlier but i don't see it now, weird, huh? maybe my mind is playing tricks on me, hehe



Maria7 - Wednesday Mar 18, 2009

Weight: 157.5

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Good morning to you.

I thank you for all your comments to yesterday's entry.  It is sad, but the nursing home Mom is in is the ONLY one we could find that would take her.  The others within about 20 miles or so that she and I tried to get to accept her were either full or refused Mom cause Mom has other conditions (tmi) that they either were not equipped to handle or refused to.  Hubby tells me that it is best that  Mom stay where she is, cause if she moves to another nursing home, there will likely still be problems and not only that, he feels that if I keep complaining about her care (or lack of), she may end up having to leave and go to one a hundred miles away or more, which he says that not only would it be a long ways to go visit her, but that there would still be problems at another one.  So...I've decided to keep a VERY, VERY CLOSE check on her and try my best to work with her caregivers there instead of complaining so much about her care... unless her care does not improve.

I'm drinking my black  coffee again this morning.  Yesterday's calories were est. 1250..

For breakfast, I've had:

1 plain diet wheat toast...40 cals

2 beef bacon...70 cals

1 scrambled egg...80 cals

1/8th measured cup grits...65 cals (cooks out to abt 1/2 cup w water)

pat of lf margerine...30 cals

black coffee...0 cals

low sugar tea...15 cals

total est for breakfast:  300 cals

Later:  Snack: pineapple w juice...70 cals (370 cals total so far est)

 

Afternoon update:  today's cals so far are est 1300; exercise was gardening (mostly raking).

Picking up on earlier menu, today's cals were:

Lunch: s/w of 2 diet wheat bread 80, lite pimento cheese 40, low sugar tea 15 (505)

Snack: apple 80 (585)

Supper: low sugar tea 15, baked chicken 270, broccoli w cheese 230, baked sweet potato 200 (1300)

Snack: green beans 50 and black decaf coffee 0 (1350)

Nitetime late snack:  apple 80 (1430)

Today's est total cals: 1430

Okay...I did  12 mins walking uphill on the treadmill and 30 mins or so gardening today, too for exercise.

 

 

PRAYER OF SALVATION

Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against You in the way I have lived my life. I am truly sorry and I want to turn from my selfish ways and follow You. I hand my life over to You, knowing that You have paid the price for my sin by shedding Your Blood and dying on the cross for me. Lord I ask You to forgive me for all my sins and take control of every area of my life. I receive my salvation now according to Your promise: "All who call on the name of the Lord, will be saved." Thank you Jesus.

 

 

Hope you're having a blessed day in the Lord!

 Love, Maria  

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Note:  I do not support any of the ads to the left or at the bottom of this journal.

Progress as of today: 47.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!


Maria7 - Tuesday Mar 17, 2009

Weight: 158.5

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Hello to you...warning...tmi below:....I'm just about hyperventilating (see above photo)..

Today started out with only 2 or 3 hours sleep last nite (actually early this morning) cause even though I only drank DECAF coffee last nite, it kept me awake.  Top it off with an early morning phone call from my very DISTRESSED MOM, who announced to me that  she'd been taken to the foot doctor earlier and her foot doctor told her this morning that her foot is not healing because she hasn't been wearing the diabetic shoes he prescribed for her last month....????????  (WHAT?!)  After a few calls to the nurses at the nursing home, which I was told they knew NOTHING about Mom being prescribed diabetic shoes at her last month's visit, then making a call to the foot doctor's office and being told by his nurse that the doctor relayed the message to me through her, that the nursing home caregiver who took Mom to the doctor last month DID receive the prescription for the shoes and and she'd told the doctor that Mom didn't need the prescription cause she already had diabetic shoes (NOT!) and had been refusing to wear them (GRRRRR~~~!!!)...and then followed by my calling and talking to the nursing home assistant director, who informed me she is NEW and would get back with me, (???)...Hubby (who was off today from work) and I rode over to the nursing home to see about Mom....(note: I'd already filed a COMPLAINT last month because of the NO CARE  Mom was receiving for the horrible decubitus ulcer in her foot and her tennis shoes being stuck on her feet w no bandage over the wound and no socks on, either!!!  (GRRRRR~~~!!!)

All I've got to say is:  If you have a loved one in the nursing home, PLEASE NEVER ASSUME they are always okay!!!!  Visit them OFTEN.  KNOW what is going on with them!  Do whatever you have to do to speak up for them to make sure they are taken care of the best they can be taken care of.

Long story short...Prescription was never found in the nursing notes in Mom's chart and NOTHING referring to it, either, and Mom's nurse called Mom's foot doctor and it was confirmed the prescription was given to Mom's caregiver who took her to the foot doctor last month!  Not only that, but it appears that even the caregiver's name who took Mom is also MISSING from Mom's chart!!!!  (GRRRRR~~~!!!)  All this time, the ulcer on Mom's foot has deteriorated severely!!!  I AM SO ANGRY!!!  Mom's nurse said the social worker,who is the only person that orders diabetic shoes prescriptions to be filled at the nursing home, is on vacation this week and will be back next week and Mom will have to wait for the shoes to be ordered by the social worker after she returns.  Meanwhile, Mom is to only have a bandage and a sock on over her foot and not be wearing her tennis shoes, except if she goes outside, for protection, like when I take her out and that when Mom returns to the facility, her tennis shoes are to be taken off.   Hubby and I also talked in person with the assistant nursing director, who, being new, doesn't know us, doesn't know what's going on, even though we did tell her the situation.  All this time, Mom could have been wearing her diabetic shoes and her foot could have been well by now or at least very close to it.  Thing is, it hasn't been long it was almost completely well but now, because of not having the prescribed diabetic shoes as well as her caregivers not taking proper care of her foot ulcer,  it has gotten in very bad condition.

When we got back home this afternoon, I got a distressing call from another family member...another extremely stressful situation.....

I'm drinking black  coffee now...wasn't planning on having ANY today after being awake most of last nite because of it...

Today's calories were est. 1250..

I have a headache and feel like crying....

Fixing to leave for music/singing practice at church...

 

 

PRAYER OF SALVATION

Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against You in the way I have lived my life. I am truly sorry and I want to turn from my selfish ways and follow You. I hand my life over to You, knowing that You have paid the price for my sin by shedding Your Blood and dying on the cross for me. Lord I ask You to forgive me for all my sins and take control of every area of my life. I receive my salvation now according to Your promise: "All who call on the name of the Lord, will be saved." Thank you Jesus.

 

 

Hope you're having or have had a blessed day in the Lord!

 Love, Maria  

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Note:  I do not support any of the ads to the left or at the bottom of this journal.

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

CritterMom on 03/17/2009:
How horrible! It breaks my heart when I hear things like this. Nursing homes need to be held to a higher standard, and the people who work there need to be held accountable for how they run the place.

I do hope you can get things straightened out, and that your mom recovers quickly.


thinnside40 on 03/17/2009:
Praying that music practice allowed you some happy moments.....

Your mom's care is pitiful at best and for that I'm sorry!.....I cannot imagine the thoughts that must go through your head. I have a hard time when "excuses" are made and especially to protect "each other" like I'm sure happens in facilities such as where your mom is..... Unexcuseable!.... A lot of people would write a letter to their editore or gather someone in the media to enlighten such circumstances, as I'm sure your mom is just one of very many people not properly cared for......

Drink some tea, instead of coffee maybe..... I like my coffee too, but one night of poor sleep is a cure all fro a very long time for me......

Night Night!


hollybelle on 03/18/2009:
Maria - thanks for the encouraging words - sorry to hear abouat your Mom's foot (again!!). What will it take to get those nursing home folks to wise-up? Have you talked to the administrator? Is there any chance of moving her to another home? I know it's so hard sometimes to get them in somewhere that is close to family, etc....just wondering...I loved Thin's idea about the letter to the editor and I wonder if you can report to a state agency would could investigate and hold them accountable. I'll bet they may receive some state funds??? (Maybe??)

Also - I wanted to agree with you - I don't like the ads on this site for othe diet stuff! No place on here. I really hadn't noticed until you said something. I was just coming on and reading the diaries. I am REALLY against this. It makes me feel exploited. Captive audience - so to speak - and that stuff wasn't on here when most of us joined.



Maria7 - Monday Mar 16, 2009

Weight: 159.0

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Hello to you! It is another rainy day here in South Carolina and  the flowers are blossoming so pretty.

Hubby is home from work today and he has been busy loading and hauling off small limbs debris from the trees we had taken down a few days ago.  He has already found a friend to give the oak wood to after he has finished loading and hauling off the debris.

I'm still drinking black  coffee today...was tempted to add creamer but didn't...

Yesterday's calories were okay at est. 1300...

  

Today's cals est 1350, walked uphill 20 mins on treadmill.

Been reading online about OA...You know how that many times I've given in to stress-related food binges?  I don't want to go back there again (although that has become a pattern).  I've been back on track a few days and want to stay on track.  Right, Hollybelle?  Right!

'Once we become abstinent, the preoccupation with food diminishes and in many cases leaves us entirely. We then find that, to deal with our inner turmoil, we have to have a new way of thinking, of acting on life rather than reacting to it - in essence, a new way of living.'
http://www.oaregion8.org    (under tab 'about oa', click on 'what is OA', then go to down to 6th par under 'Our Invitation to you')

My thoughts on above statement:   I guess they are saying abstinent from binging or overeating.  As for 'preoccupation with food', ...check mark!....As for 'acting instead of reacting'...that is something I'd tried to work on a long time, unsuccessfully.

Here is another link for info on OA:

https://www.oa.org/new-to-oa/about-oa/

No, I'm not a spokesperson for OA...I am only this evening reading some of the online info on it and thought I'd share it with you.

As in other 12 steps programs, it points to the Lord, Who is the ANSWER!!!

 

 

PRAYER OF SALVATION

Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against You in the way I have lived my life. I am truly sorry and I want to turn from my selfish ways and follow You. I hand my life over to You, knowing that You have paid the price for my sin by shedding Your Blood and dying on the cross for me. Lord I ask You to forgive me for all my sins and take control of every area of my life. I receive my salvation now according to Your promise: "All who call on the name of the Lord, will be saved." Thank you Jesus.

 

 

Hope you're having or have had a blessed day in the Lord!

 Love, Maria  

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Note:  I do not support any of the ads to the left or at the bottom of this journal.

Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 19 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 03/16/2009:
1300!!! WOW - very nice job! Keep at it NEVER give up. Hold on to success. It helps me so much to stop and remembr for a second how good having a successful day feels! Then 2 in a row then 3......it makes any slips I may have seem so much less important. Love your rainy day graphics. It's supposed to warm up here this week so I hope to be riding my bike some. I am planning a bike trip to Ohio early next month so I need to train a little bit!


starfish on 03/16/2009:
That rain pic looks so peaceful :-) Keep up the good work. And have a wonderful day!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/16/2009:
why was yesterday only ok....you did GREAT!


selina on 03/17/2009:
Sounds like you are having a great day! Enjoy the rain!



Maria7 - Sunday Mar 15, 2009

Weight: 159.5

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Happy Sunday to you!!!  There is a song that says Jesus is our Lighthouse!  Part of the song goes like this and I sing it sometimes in our little nearby country church:

'The Lighthouse'

There's a Lighthouse...on the hillside...That overlooks life's sea...

And when I'm tossed, It sends out Its light...

Light, that I...might see...

And the Light that shines in darkness, Lord,

Will safely see me 'oer...

If it wasn't for the Lighthouse...

This ship would sail no more!!!

That's just part of the song and it is very true...Where would we be without Jesus???  LOST.

PRAYER OF SALVATION

Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against You in the way I have lived my life. I am truly sorry and I want to turn from my selfish ways and follow You. I hand my life over to You, knowing that You have paid the price for my sin by shedding Your Blood and dying on the cross for me. Lord I ask You to forgive me for all my sins and take control of every area of my life. I receive my salvation now according to Your promise: "All who call on the name of the Lord, will be saved." Thank you Jesus.

 

 

Hubby and I just got back from worshipping the Lord at church, then eating out buffet, and then visiting Mom.

Yes, it is still raining here, third day in a row.  Thank the Lord for the rain.  When Hubby and I got home a few mins ago, I noticed that one of the azalea bushes that is  close to the front deck is in FULL BLOOM!!! 

It is LOADED w beautiful pink blossoms!!!

Anyway, here I am, drinking black  coffee again...no creamer, no sugar...

  

Evening update:  1300 est cals today.

Hope you're having or have had a blessed day in the Lord!

 Love, Maria  

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Progress as of today: 45.5 lbs lost so far, only 19.5 lbs to go!

Beth201P on 03/15/2009:
Thank you so much for sharing that. I did not make it to church today. I missed it. Trying to get things done here. I know I really should have gone, but I know my mom needed help around the house today. Well have a Blessed week my friend.


thinnside40 on 03/15/2009:
We are practicing that song for Easter Sunday....... I had it going through my head this morning when the pastor said the word "lighthouse" too....... Beautiful!

Have a good night's sleep..... I plan to...I'm super tired....Potluck tonight and cooked all afternoon after getting home from a.m. service.....



Maria7 - Saturday Mar 14, 2009

Weight: 160.0

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Hello to you!  RAIN CONTINUES.  Been drinking lots of BLACK    coffee today... esp after last nite's food binge..yest ended w about 2600 cals!  No breakfast today except black coffee. 

Hollybelle suggested I re-read some of my old journals to help me overcome my late nite food binge episodes, so I did last nite (albeit AFTER the binge)...so this is what I read in my journals...11 years ago, in early 1998, I decided to get down from 205, size 22 (didn't exercise, so wore larger clothes than someone that weight who exercises) to my goalweight at that time of 150-160, size 10-12.

  I accomplished that goal by the end of 1998 (was down to 155, which was -50) and then decided on a new goalweight of 150 even and accomplished that the next year in 1999.  I did extremely well with keeping to that goal (150) til 2001 when I decided to go lower and by 2002, I was at 132, size 6.  (Too small for 5'8".)  So I regained weight up to 140 and did not do real well with keeping it there even though my doctors and dietician advised me to hold my weight at 140.  At 140, I was size 8 comfortably, wearing non-stretch jeans.  I felt really good about being that weight/size.  I still have my size 8's jeans that I wore very comfortably while I was at 140.  (I gave away the 6's.)  BUT I gave in to high-fat foods like cheeseburgers and sweets in spite of my dietician's warnings that I'd put weight back on!!!  (WHY DID I DO THAT???)  So in 2003, I was up to 166.  But, I got down to 150ish by August that year (8 months to lose 16).  I mostly kept to 150 until 2005 (lots of stress) when I added 20 to make weight 170.  It took me all of 2006 to get that 20 gone and back to 150 and I lost 10 pounds in the first 3 months of 2006 and it took me the rest of 2006 (9 months) to lose the other 10, but I did.   So in 2007, I was back to 150 goalweight.  Then in 2008, I found 10 back and was at 160 and worked to get most of the 10 gone and had accomplished it in Jan. 2009, this year, (was at 150) and now it is March 2009 and I'm right back again at 160!!!

BUT!!!  I'm not giving up.  Nope.  NOT!

Evening update:  1100 est. cals today and 30 mins walking on incline on treadmill.

  

Hope you're having or have had a nice day.

 Love, Maria  

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Note:  I do not support any of the ads on this site.

Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

Beth201P on 03/14/2009:
Thanks for the comment. The photo I took was in CA. Have a great rest of the weekend. Hang in there. I know I have had my share of binges.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/14/2009:
you've ALWAYS been so good in maintaining your weight. you are still only 10 lbs away from 150..not bad at all! keep up the good work you do and you will get there sweetie pie!


thinnside40 on 03/14/2009:
AWESOME DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


selina on 03/15/2009:
I hope you are having a great day!



Maria7 - Friday Mar 13, 2009

Weight: 160.0

For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

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Hello to you!  RAIN IS ON THE WAY!!!  According to weather statements, looks like we

are in for DAYS of rain and cooler weather...it's only in the high-40's as I key this morning while having my morning coffee. 

So, instead of the a/c, which was on the other day, we are having the heat going this morning cause it is CHILLY!!!

Okay...time to 'chill out'...not get stressed over last nite's 700 cals mini-food binge...which was, btw, 2 packs of 100 cal lowfat popcorn and a very large crunchy cone of high-fat choc/van w nuts ice cream.  I overdid it, plain and simple.  Hadn't counted on us eating out buffet for supper and had bought the ice cream earlier in the day for my 'planned' nitetime snack (was going to fix barbequed chicken and potatoes for supper) and I was going to have green beans w mine and so ice cream would have made total be 1500 for the day...but since we ate supper at buffet, my cals totaled est 1600 after that with NO nitetime snack included!  Well, I wasn't about to just let the ice cream 'set' in the freezer, was I?

 

Evening update:  2 upsetting phone calls this afternoon from 2 different people (family) and afterward, I turned to food like an addict.

Cals est today 2600, no exercise (because of the rain, my old wreck injuries flared up today).

 

Hope you're having or have had a nice day.

 Love, Maria

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Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 03/13/2009:
Hey Maria - You know what I did the other day that helped me stay on track? I went to my OLD diary entries - back when I was doing really well and read and read them over and over and tried to connect with that mindset that I had when I was doing well. It helped. Thanks for the good wishes on the retreat - I hope it's good. I have a lot on my mind and need to center myself. Fingers crossed!


thinnside40 on 03/13/2009:
Whoops ~ I know Ihave to start finding something else to turn to instead of food when I get an "upset"... Now that the daylight hours are longer & weather is sunny for th emost part, I have noticed a change in my outlook..... I stacked 2 cords of wood today, raked & picked up trash around the school fence line..... Finally came to eat supper @ 8:30 p.m. (hubby got here late too).... I am pooped out and ready for a super good night's sleep...Eating today was good again & I did have 3 cake mix cookies... I wore them off!!!!.... When the weather turns more sunlight than cold/wet, I cansee your forecast being hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm turning to biking ( I remember the tire story from last year)..... or something to take your mind off of eating sweets. etc..... Have faith you CAN & WILL make it!!!!!!!!!


omahagrl on 03/14/2009:
Here is to better days. I am with you on the night binges but that is also when I spend the most time at home. When I shop today I am not getting any snack foods. Veggies and Fruit and maybe the 100 calorie kettle corn. Sorry to hear your day was upsetting...Just know that you are a great person and no one can change that!



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