I was going to put up a pretty picture on this entry this morning but I found something better I want to share with you. Below is something I came across, not expecting to, and read this morning while surfing the internet and it may NOT apply to you nor anyone you know and if not, please disregard. However it may apply to you or someone you know and I think it is good information:
Dieting is about losing a little bit of weight in a healthy way.
Eating Disorders are about trying to make your whole life better through food and eating (or lack of).
Dieting is about doing something healthy for yourself.
Eating Disorders are about seeking approval and acceptance from everyone through negative attention.
Dieting is about losing a bit of weight and doing it healthfully.
Eating Disorders are about how life won't be good until a bit (or a lot) of weight is lost, and there's no concern for what kind of damage you do to yourself to get there.
Dieting is about losing some weight in a healthy way so how you feel on the outside will match how good you already feel on the inside.
Eating Disorders are about being convinced that your whole self-esteem is hinged on what you weigh and how you look.
Dieting is about attempting to control your weight a bit better.
Eating Disorders are about attempting to control your life and emotions through food/lack of food -- and are a huge neon sign saying "look how out of control I really feel"
Dieting is about losing some weight.
Eating Disorders are about everything going on in life -- stress, coping, pain, anger, acceptance, validation, confusion, fear -- cleverly (or not so cleverly) hidden behind phrases like "I'm just on a diet".
Update: Visited Mom and stayed with her during her doctor visit this afternoon. Daughter came by for a little visit this evening. She brought me a pint of my fav ice cream. But I am not planning on eating it today as I've already had ice cream (and candy). :-)
pancake, 2 eggs 400
1 diet bread, 2 ff cheeses 100
ice cream 210
2 small pcs candy 60
chocolate covered peanuts 200
more chocolate covered peanuts 250
2 more small candies 60
Total est cals for today: 1280
Hope you're having a nice day!
Maria7 - Tuesday Aug 03, 2010
For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16
Breakfast: egg 72, 2 diet breads 80, tsp. oil 40 (fried egg s/w) (192 according to caloriecount.com, but had put in a little higher) 200
Birthday buffet lunch: 1 cupful mixture of rice, white lima beans, celery, carrot, corn, ti dsg 250, a little chicken 100, sweet potato filling 200, pecans and peaches 350, ice cream 100
Lunch was a birthday lunch, treated by a friend.
lf bologna s/w 115
Today's total est. calories 1625
Update: Visited Mom at the nursing home, who said she'd had a good nap this afternoon. Went and got her some fruit (bananas and grapes) and a pitcher of iced water and brought it back to her and turned on her fan that she wanted turned on. Now back home again and relaxing with Hubby.
(I 'ain't' hungry for the above 2 items, so not eating them just for calories. I almost gave in to cake.....NOT!!!!!!!)
1 cupful scuponong grapes 100
New total est cals for today: 965
Afternoon update: Visited Mom, took her a red rose from the flower garden in a green vase, cleaned her dentures, etc. She was doing well and in a happy talkative mood. Back home now and fixing to make and bake a batch of homemade country ham biscuits for Hubby's work breakfasts. We freeze them and take out a package of 2 from the freezer and put in the refrigerator overnite and Hubby takes them with him to work the next morning to be microwaved for his breakfast.
YES! I know 880 cals for today is mighty low...but you should have seen the SHOW a little while ago...my trying on my skinny all-cotton, no-stretch size 8 jeans...what a hilarious show (NOT!!!!!!)...I can wear some of them comfy but the others are TITE!!!! :-( TIME FOR ACTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to the grocery store and INSTEAD of buying my USUAL 960 cals chunk of hi-fat cheddar cheese, which I usually consume within a couple of days (THIS HAS BECOME A HABIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), I bought fatfree pkg. 30 cals each cheese. I also bought pkg. 25 cals 98% fatfree Oscar Myer bologna. I bought my usual diet bread, 40 cals/ piece (I'd been eating Hubby's hi-sugar 70 cals extra delicious bread). I didn't work this hard to get to goal to give it up! I am A FEW POUNDS over goal, around mid-140's. Which at this weight, I can still WEAR my skinny jeans, just not all of them COMFY! WHO WANTS TO WEAR SKINNY JEANS TITE???????????????? Not me!
I did visit Mom about an hour and a half. She was talking and smiling. She made another good friend there and I noticed Mom had given her friend a little of her costume jewelry, which her friend had on. A ring and a bracelet. I made mention of it and Mom told me. Mom and I both LOVE to do this. Give little gifts to others. It makes us happy. I get it honestly, hehehe! Mom has always been very freehearted and she taught me to be the same way. She loves giving with others.
Hubby was off work today and while I slept late, something I don't usually do but for some reason I felt extra relaxed this morning, so didn't get up until around 9 a.m., Hubby was at work raking in the back yard this morning.
We went to the flea market in the next town over and got him 2 real nice shirts. My Sister had sent me some money for my bdp, and I bought a pocket book with part of it there. After we left the flea market, Hubby and I ate at one of our fav buffet restaurants. (Did you know that just because you don't eat bread when you eat out, it doesn't mean you were automatically 'good'??? i.e. 900 calories...) Then afterward, we went to a store, and did a lot of walking and looking at floor tiles, stoves, flowers, etc. After we left there, we went to Cracker Barrel Old Country Store and I had a snack and Hubby had coffee. Well, you all know me, how I just LOVE Christmas. Their Christmas tree was up and LIT and their beautiful Christmas things were on display. Christmasy, animated, musical items and toys, dishes, even t-shirts! Well, Hubby let me pick out my fav thing they had which was an animated, musical church that is circled by people riding in horse-drawn sleighs, under glass in a curio cabinet with bells on top that plays 70 songs! Half Christmas songs and the other half other songs. He got that for me and even bought me a Christmas tie-dyed very bright colorful t-shirt with a pretty Christmasy scene of a log cabin, snow-men-people, and a Christmas tree on it. :-)
Food today: I was NOT a good girl...although I was until I gave in to 2 cheese s/w's tonite...
Breakfast: 2 cheese toasts 350
Snack: 1/2 cupful scuponong grapes 50
Lunch: Buffet (a little of some of these) fried chicken, veggies salad, rice, gravy, peaches, pecans, sweet potato pie filling and ice cream 900
Yesterday, I had hopes of seeing a lower number on the scale this morning. I was even anticipating putting it up on this morning's entry, knowing it would be just a little over my 140.0 goalweight... BUT, I just 'HAD' to get on the scale last nite to see if it looked like it might be going to be that way and for some reason, the scale was higher than the nite before even after I'd been EXTRA GOOD for 3 days in a row and I realized it was not going to be lower today, so late last nite I just fixed myself a BIG FAT cheese sandwich and ate that and then had a ice cream after that, too, so adding 500 more cals to yesterday makes est cals 2000 for yesterday instead of 1500. Soooo that gave the scale REASON to ACT UGLY this morning, HUH! And it did!!! :-(
I've been too easy to let my thoughts be ruled by silly things like the above and by PEOPLE who do not appreciate me nor the things I do for them. The more I do for them or let them have their way, the more they want and they are NEVERRRRRRR satisfied....NEVER.... I have no control over other people or the situations in their lives. I have to give it ALL to GOD and trust HIM to take care of it. I can't. I have tried. I guess I thought that at least I had control over the scale but it has rebelled, too. It's not that I am a controlling person. If you met me in person, you would definitely think I was an easy-going person. You'd probably never be asked anything by me. I am usually the GIVING one in ALL my relationships. EXCEPT HUBBY AND ME. (And of course, the Lord, Who is the giving One to us all.) The others are TAKERS. And a lot of them are USERS. I'm not afraid to say no. It's just that to a certain extent, I ENJOY being the giver in my relationships with others. UNTIL.................................................................................... I realize I'm being used or taken advantage of or manipulated. Or until....I realize the person has no feelings for me at all but only for themselves...selfish.
So....today....I think I'm just going to go to the next town over and get people off my mind and their problems off my mind and the scale off my mind. I might just eat what I want (including donut holes at KK) and don't worry about it. Then later today after Hubby comes home from work, I may kidnap him and take him on a weekend road trip. :-) But maybe not... He's been taking cold meds and may need to rest instead. BUT, even then, I may just spend the weekend working in the front yard and putting in a new flower garden......something I wanted to do in the spring but didn't.
Update: I went to the local farmers' market and bought some green scuponong grapes for me and 2 large red apples the kind that Hubby likes for him. Then went to a nearby KK and got 6 glazed donut holes (YUM!). Then I went ROLLER SKATING (been years and was really a good skater as a teenager) and I didn't stay long but did skate a little out on the floor. :-D Also, visited Mom. My Sister had come by earlier this morning and visited Mom, too, so Mom was happy. :-)
2 cheese toasts 350
1/2 cupful green scuponong grapes 50
6 KK glazed donut holes 300
McD's dbl cheeseburger 440 (ewww!)
1/2 cupful green scuponong grapes 50
homemade lowfat hotog 210
Total est cals: 1400
Hubby and I took a long walk, about a mile together in our neighborhood this afternoon. 3 loose dogs of a neighbor's came after us like they were going to attack us. One of them was extra large and he REALLY didn't like me! Glad Hubby was with me!
I got on the scale this morning in anticipation of what it was going to read, knowing that for 2 straight days, I've been an EXTRA GOOD GIRL......but the scale didn't think so! I guess it's the extra sodium thing again. I DID have extra sodium yesterday and not a little, so I will have to take what the scale read IN STRIDE (even though I've exercised real good and been very careful with calories). I'm still at a good weight, still size 8, just not at the 140.0 goalweight I recently arrived at. Decided the other day that time for ACTION is NOW after looking at some HEAVIER photos of myself. There was even a BIG DIFFERENCE in when I was only 20 pounds heavier, nevermind 60 pounds heavier, looking at the photos. DON'T WANT TO GO BACK THERE! (Pun IS intended, if you get my drift, hehehe.)
Menu plan today:
Breakfast: 2 eggs scrambled w a little cheddar cheese, 1 bread 300
Lunch: Large salad of veggies, fruit, a little cheese, sunflower seeds, a little ti dsg, a few ww captains wafers and candied yams 800
Supper: Homemade lowfat hotdog w onion, mustard, ketchup, and about a cupful of french fries 400 Had small salad w a very little piece of steak and 1 bread 400
Total est. cals: 1500
Update: Visited Mom again today, she wanted some certain foods which I made sure she got...ice cream, grapes and "carrots cooked w butter" (margerine). She was happy. :-)
We've been blessed with some rain here lately. We've needed it and I thank the Lord for it. It sure has helped cool the outside temperature down. The heatwave is now gone and we are only in the high 80's to low 90's, which is definitely cooler.
Yesterday my calories were on the low side and I am aiming for the same again today. I've had my 'party' here lately of overeating and it is time to get with the program. I feel better when I don't overeat, as well. More energy, peppier.
Breakfast: 2 eggs scrambled w a little cheddar cheese, 1 bread 300
Lunch: Homemade lowfat hotdog and about a cupful of fries 400
Snack: corn on cob, plain 200
Snack: cheese 50
Supper: another lowfat homemade hotdog 200
1150 est day's total.
Exercise: (Lest we leave that out...) Walked and ran on the treadmill. (Preferr walking at the mall or with Hubby around the neighborhood when it is cool weather.)
Update: Visited Mom at the nursing home and rearranged her clothes outfits in her side of the closet the way she wanted them. Said she's been wearing the same certain set of clothes over and over cause they are the closest to the front, so I put some of the ones in the back to the front that she likes best and put the ones in the front that she's been wearing the most in the back. It looks like they'd rotate the clothes near the front of the closets that they put on the residents the most, but it's hurry, hurry, hurry there and get the resident up, dressed, in their wheelchair (if they're able to get into a wheelchair) and wheel them to the dining room for breakfast and move to the next resident to do the same. It's the way it is at lots if not most nursing homes. They don't have a lot of help at them. I looked through Mom's dresser drawers and in the top one, one of her new gowns had been stuffed, not folded and on taking it out, I saw that it still had old FOOD on it. I took it straight to those in charge and reported it and asked that it be cleaned. Nothing was said concerning why it had been put into her drawer in that dirty condition, and it was received to be sent to laundry.
Yesterday was good with calories 'UNTIL......................................................' last nite I got real hungry and had a tuna sandwich, plain and about a cupful of canteloupe. So adding that to yesterday's calories, shouldn't be a lot extra...maybe 400, est total 1850 calories yesterday.
As for today's cals, here it is so far:
Breakfast: egg w abt 1/2 cupful of plain grits 170
Lunch: BIG MAC 540 ...yes, I treated myself to this that I usually do NOT have, it's my birthday today :-)...
Other food later:
pecans, ice cream, chicken, cheese 1590
total est cals today: 2300
Fixing to go visit Mom for a while, and take her some fresh peaches that I prepared for her to be easy to eat out of a container, will update later....
Update: Did go visit Mom (who sang Happy Birthday to me....also, Sister, Friend, and Aunt sang Happy Birthday to me over the phone earlier today), then Hubby and I went out to eat supper, then he and I walked a while together, and now we're back home again.