- Friday Feb 26, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
Hola Mi Amiga's~
Been a very busy week and I am so thankful it's Friday. No classes, no internship..just work tonight..then 2 days off..whew..The week was a good one all in all, except for the fact that I utterly and completely bombed my Statistics test yesterday...I cannot get anything math related to compute in my head..seriously. I was so frustrated during the exam, I felt like crying..giving up and taking the exam up to the Professor and saying, "here, take this, I can't do it and there's no point in my continuing"....I didn't do that tho. I finished. But it's a terrible feeling KNOWING that you are doing the problem wrong..and not knowing what to do. I left and cried the whole way home..lol..I've put it behind me..There's nothing I can do..I have very high expectations of myself..I study hard for my tests and do well on them for the most part (mostly A's)..but with Statistics, you can't really study..It's knowing how to work the formulas...It's like a foreign language to me and I'm illiterate..I THINK I know what I am doing, in class I can follow along..but then put that test in front of me and I turn into a clueless idiot. Sigh...
Internship was great this week. I've been offered a position as a counselor when I graduate~I am very excited about this...I really believe I was meant to do this..work with troubled kids..disadvantaged kids. Yesterday I took my first hit in the shins..LOL..one of the kids (a 6 year old with ODD) got out of hand during group therapy and needed to be removed..I offered to do it and uh yeh, he hauled off and whacked me in the shin, then took off running down the hall towards the exit..He was fast, but I was faster..he actually made it down the hall and had turned the corner and was a few feet from the exit door, that led to a busy street..I reached out and grabbed him by his hoodie and yanked him back..Caught him. There was a struggle for a few minutes, then things calmed down~I took him to an office where we had some 1:1 time and things were wonderful..lots of talking while we did some play therapy....I can only imagine what I looked like as I was sprinting down the hall, past all these rooms where group therapy was going on..LOL..First him flying past the doorway, then 2 seconds later, me flying past..hahahaha..Good thing I've been working out is all I can say!!
Speaking of working out..my exercise suffered this week..I'm just WORN OUT..between working full time, going to school full time, internship, studying/homework, housework..I'm tired, tired, tired..I did manage 2 workouts this week..I've been watching my calories this week tho..tracking them I should say..using Fitday..I love that site..anyway, I haven't gone over 1500 calories this week, so that's a good thing. I tell you what, tracking calories is a BIG wake up for me. I am terrible at estimating calories, and I know for a FACT that I underestimate. Fitday puts it all right there in front of you..plain and simple. I am going to continue using this..Also, this week I've been sticking to my "don't eat past 7 rule" pretty well...and THAT makes a big difference for me..I don't know if it makes a difference for anyone else, but personally, I KNOW it helps in my weight loss..
Today I am going to go see Shutter Island with a friend, then going to her house after. She bought the Wii yesterday and we are gonna play..and hit some Jagerbombs..hahaha..Yes, I will have popcorn at the movies!
Ok, gonna go read up on you guys..Heading to the movies in about an hour..It's freezing cold and been snowing for the past few days...not going to get above 35 for the next week...brrrr!!
Hope you all have a wonderful Friday!!
- Monday Feb 22, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
**UPDATE:Just talked to my professor and she was very cool about the whole thing~I just have to take the test early, which is completely fine with me!!~I was shocked by how easily resloved the whole thing was...I'm glad I was honest with her**
So yeh, did NOTHING over the weekend..eating Saturday wasn't the best, in fact it was pretty horrific. Sunday was better, but no exercise the entire weekend. No reason, I just didn't want to..Period.
Woke up early this morning..just after 8..made coffee and watched a little TV, caught up on some emails then decided to work out. Did the Shred, then an hour on the treadmill, followed by a 2 minute wall sit. I hadn't done the Shred in, eh, hmmm, not sure, well over a week I know that. It was difficult but not overly so. I felt a little light headed here n there~due to low blood sugar I'm sure..but I pushed thru, finished strong. The first half hour on the treadmill was a little hard..not "hard" exactly I guess..My legs just felt heavy..like I was walking thru mud. Anyway, the second half hour was easier and I'm glad I worked out today.
I have class at 2:30..Clinical Psych. I'm going to go in a bit early and talk to my professor. I am going to Vegas next month..I looked at the syllabus and the week I am going there are exams in both my classes. I'm not worried about my Statistics professor letting me make it up, but my Clinical Psych prof is very hard core and doesn't allow make up exams unless you have a doctors excuse. Which I personally think is ridiculous. I am PAYING to go to school..if I miss an exam, I should be able to make it up..PERIOD. Anyway, I am going in to talk to her..going to be honest and tell her I'm gonna be out of state that week, and I realize there's an exam, and can we please work something out? I am good student, I work hard, get A's, don't miss class unless I have to, am in Psi Chi..We really SHOULD be able to work something out here..I'm talking missing one week of class~which equals 2 of her classes. Worse case scenerio is she will be a total hard ass and not let me make up the exam..in which case I will drop her class. I'm not going to let her dictate my life..I refuse. I know that if I pass this opportunity up to go to Vegas, I will regret it. Really regret it. So, we'll see what happens today. Wish me luck.
I'm hungry. My stomach is growling as I type this..but I feel kinda queasy at the same time..weird. Maybe I'll make some toast or something real quick...
Ok, hope you all are having a great Monday~stay strong and focused!!
- Friday Feb 19, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
Hey everyone~TGIF..whew...Still have to go into work later on tonight, but Friday's are nice because I don't have school or internship..and I have Saturday and Sundays off...So yeh, TGIF! lol
A nice day~came home from work, slept a little then got up and grabbed some coffee and bagels from Tim Hortons and took my dogs to my friends house..We hung out while our dogs played..She was having a new bedroom set delivered today, which arrived while I was there. OMG~her bed is amazing..Like nothing I have ever laid on before, seriously. It was very expensive~this ultra plush pillow top kingsize..it was like floating on a cloud. She bought new pillows that cost over a hundred dollars each..which I thought was crazy..but then she had me lie my head on one and holy crap~I didn't want to ever get off her bed!!! LOL~she also got a new 42 inch plasma..so yeh, lying there on this incredibly plush pillowtop bed, with my head on this amazing pillow, watching the 42 inch plasma...I was just about as close to heaven as I can get. LOL..I told her I wouldn't ever leave the bedroom if I was her..Sigh~Makes my bed, which is actually pretty nice itself..a kingsize pillow top..seem like a bed of nails compared to hers! ah well...One nice thing, is she is giving me her old bedroom furniture..Solid cherry wood dresser, vanity and night stand..and my son is getting her old queen size sleigh bed. I'll be getting that next week..didn't want to haul it right now because it's still frozen ice outside and I have stairs to get to my house..didn't want to try moving any furniture til it thaws.
Went grocery shopping after leaving her house..I don't know how I do it but I spent over 200 dollars on groceries. It's ridiculous..I got mostly healthy foods, but some goodies too..nothing too bad. I did buy a big bag of gummi bears tho. No fat in those, but I will have to watch the portions because the calories DO add up. Anyway, came home from shopping and made a big salad for dinner. I got a pizza from the deli and made that, but only had one slice. I was very full after eating..but it was early..around 5:30 when I finished. I wasn't going to work out~seriously, talking myself out of it. It was late ( im not an evening workout person) and I had just eaten and was really full, and I hate working out on a full stomach. But I knew that I'd feel so much better mentally if I worked out..so before I actually DID talk myself out of it I jumped off the couch and changed into my workout clothes. I felt like crap the first half hour or so on the treadmill~stomach was too full, sideache~but I just kept going..Did 2 interval trainings for a total of 60 minutes, then jogged just over a half mile. Then did a 2 minute wall sit. Showered and here I sit, sipping water and watching tv~I'm very glad I worked out, I knew I'd be happy with myself if I did, and disappointed in myself if I let today slip by without exercising.
My funk has lifted a little..not much. The whole guy thing. I ended things Wednesday night...He wrote me an email later that night..I didnt respond. He IMed me..I didn't respond..Didn't hear anything from him yesterday, but he emailed me last night while I was at work~I didn't receive the email til today when I woke up..I didn't respond. I don't think he is taking me seriously~that I have really let him go. I can't say that I exactly blame him tho, because I've done something simlilar before..ending things..but then caved and stayed with him. It's crazy. Seriously crazy. It would be easy if I didn't love him, but I do..that's not the issue..In fact, I've never felt like this about anyone before..the chemistry is off the richtor scale..he says he's in love with me..But there are other factors involved..one being he is a workaholic..he owns his own design firm and travels alot for business..In fact right now he's in Minnesota working a job..anyway..I understand him loving his work..no problem..but one of the issues is that he very easily puts me on the back burner or off to the side, to work late. I can handle it every once in awhile..but when it's on a continual basis..having plans and then having them canceled because he is working..gets old. He openely admits to being a workaholic and not managing his time well..but I feel like, if you want to be with me you'll make the time..period. I put up with this for a long time~and after this past weekend..VALENTINES DAY..and him working thru it..I guess it was the straw that broke it for me..There's other stuff too that I'm not getting into, but yeh, I'm just tired of it. He even said the other day he understood that I need and deserve more than he's given me..and in the same breath said he loved me more than I can comprehend. Sigh~It's hard..very hard. Like I said, he wrote me an email last night, acting like nothing had happened..I truly don't think he believes that I'm DONE. Thank God for friends..I have a guy best friend and a girl best friend..they both know whats going on. Anyway, it's nice talking to my guy bestfriend, getting a mans perspective on things..He said to expect J to come back HARD~that I should be prepared..and to stick to my guns because I deserve better. I've been doing tons of praying..for strength, calmness and peace..Because I've been feeling very nervous/anxious/nauseas..Anyone who's been thru a breakup and still love the person knows the feelings I'm speaking of~Like I said, I know it's normal, and I have to just let them process..I don't want to dwell on them, but I don't want to act like they don't exist either~Denial isn't my thing..lol
going to the movies with a friend tomorrow~and yes I will be enjoying popcorn with a diet coke. I'm not a big pop drinker and when I DO happen to drink it, diet is fine with me~So yeh, popcorn and coke..going to see The Wolfman!! Looking forward to that~
Hope everyone has had a wonderful Friday~and that you all have a fantastic weekend!!! Stay strong!
- Wednesday Feb 17, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
Sigh~been unable to post for eh, a week or so?? Not sure when my last entry was but anyway..It's been a busy week..Last Friday I had my hair straightened (chemically)~I haven't had it done in well over a year, and while it's rather spendy (at least on my budget) it's so worth it. I have very naturally curly hair and fight with frizzies..Summertime is a nightmare, with the humidity here..Plus my hair is very thick..longish..so yeh, getting it chemically straightened is well worth the money..and it lasts for a good year or so. Anyway, had that done last Friday and part of the process is not getting your hair wet or putting any kind of clips or pony tail holders in it for 72 hours..If it gets wet, I would have to dry it immediately and flat iron it..I didn't work out at all because I didn't want to sweat..which would get my hair wet..and I didn't want to add the ickiness of adding sweat to my hair during the 72 hour waiting period. A convenient excuse with just enough truth to it..lol. Anyway, I still didn't work out Monday or Tuesday..Just too tired and besides that I was in a funk. My funk is guy related...I had to let someone go that I love very much~he says he loves me~but the whole action v. words thing do not add up..He's been in and out of my life for the past 2 years..but things didn't get serious until this last fall~It's complicated and I'm not making sense, but I came to the decision after this past weekend, to let him go. Just..let..him..go. It was a very hard decision because of the feelings involved, but I know it's the right thing to do, for several reasons. I get a small bit of comfort knowing I've done the right thing, but doing the right thing isn't always the easy thing to do. But anyway, doing this, ending things with him..has left me feeling anxious and sick. That pit in the stomach feeling..like someone has kicked me. Anxious, nervousness, sadness, hurt...all totally normal, I know~I just need to let myself feel these things, let it process...and work on healing. I didn't plan on writing about this here, but writing is cathartic~I'm a stress eater..and while I feel stress, right now I feel depressed more and I do NOT eat while depressed..I feel too sick to eat usually when depressed~I hadn't eaten all day..couldn't eat. Went to class today at 2:30 and my friend called me when class was over and asked me to meet her at Elder Beermans..She has just purchased a new bedroom set and needed to get new bedding and wanted my help. So I met her there..she ended up buying me a new kingsized comforter too!! I absolutely love it~I'm waiting til this weekend, to wash my bedding before putting it on..anyway, after that, she asked if I wanted to go have dinner at Applebees..Sounded pretty good..I was getting hungry by then..it was like 5:00 and I hadn't eaten since last night...anyway, I had a mango lemonade, house salad, and a fish sandwich with fries. Not the best choice I know, but it's what sounded good. They didn't have tarter sauce for the sandwich..(didn't know that until i received it, or i wouldn't have ordered it)...anyway, just ate the fillet, and not the bun. So, calorie wise..I don't know for sure. Not going to worry about it..it was the only thing I've eaten today, and I'm not going to eat anything else. Plus I actually worked out today. First time since last Thursday. I did an hour on the treadmill~all weight loss interval~and then I jogged a half mile at 5mph. After that I did a 2 minute wall sit. I was in a funk before working out..over the guy thing..But I wanted to do something positive for myself..And the most positive thing I can do for myself is exercise. I did feel better afterwards..and even better when I hopped on the scale before showering. I have lost a total of 29lbs...I'm one pound from my first goal..It's been slow and steady but progress IS being made. I go up..I go down...I go up...I go down...fluctuating several pounds for the past month or 2..this is a new low for me, todays weight. I will not record it until it's gone for a week or so. But I feel confident that I am on a downward trend in the scale department.
Ok..wow..didn't mean to write so much..see what happens when I don't write for over a week?
Going to go read up on you guys now before American Idol comes on..I have to go to work later too, sigh~
Wishing you all a great night~Stay strong~
- Wednesday Feb 10, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
Another long day~got off work at 7 this morning..lots of snow and bitter winds were waiting for me..my car door was frozen shut~Finally got it open, headed home and fell into bed for a few hours..had some nasty nightmares. Scary stuff~
Anyway, got up and tried to drink some coffee but it just didn't settle in my stomach well~Decided to go school early to study..got home from class around 4:30 and worked out. I was very close to not working out today. Yesterday I took a rest day~Tuesdays and Thursdays are impossibly long and exhausting, so I've designated them rest days for sure. It would've been very easy to make today one as well~I just did the Shred, no treadmill~but at least it was something. I started out weak but ended strong~
Just got off the phone with a guy I have been dating a little..he's someone that I have known since 5th grade~reconnected thru Facebook~anyway, he works for a major airline and is representing his city in an aviation competition that's being held in Las Vegas~He invited me to go with him tonight!! I am very excited~I've never been to Vegas!! An all expenses paid week vacation in Vegas with a hot guy sounds like just what the doctor has ordered!! hahaha~We were talking on the phone earlier, and we were looking up the hotel~The Flamingo~where we'll be staying, and then we were looking up shows to go see~Blue Men, Cirque De Solei (sp)~anyway, this came out of nowhere and I am very excited~yipeee!!
I have to go to work in a half hour~snowing and windy outside~have to leave from work in the morning and head directly to my internship, then to class from there..then I have to begin studying like mad for a big test on Monday~I have no motivation for this semester..I think I'm just beyond burned out..I normally push myself to excell and right now I just don't care~and that's not like me..I dunno..I'm just ready to be finished I guess..
Wishing you all a wonderful night~stay safe~
- Monday Feb 08, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
Exhausted again~I have taken Tylenol PM the past two nights and I'm thinking thats part of the problem~making feel, eh, groggy the next day...Anyway...
Work out today: 30 Day Shred and 60 minutes on the treadmill.
FSF~Yogurt before workout..and for dinner I just sauteed some mushrooms and snap peas...threw in some chicken breast with it. It was delicious. I'm still kind of hungry, so I may have another chicken breast..I don't know yet.
My stomach was growling so loud today during my last class I was actually embarrassed!! egads...
Work tonight, then internship directly from there, then class after that...I have my first test in Statistics that has me a little worried...We get to use our notes and text tho so hopefully, I'll do ok..I am so weak in math it's ridiculous..and I have this math anxiety thing because I'm so terrible in it. Any good thoughts sent my way would be appreciated!
My ankle is hurting. I fell back in October and sprained it..It's still not healed completely..4 months later!! I have a brace I use from time to time, but haven't needed it for awhile. Lately tho, in the past couple weeks or so, the inner part of my foot is swollen and hurt..J was giving me a footrub the other night and he noticed how swollen it was..I bought an ace bandage today and have it wrapped nice n snug right now...feels good to have that support...the ankle brace doesn't seem to be doing its job like it should. I've been wearing it for the past 3 days since I started the Shred dvd...What's really sad is that I have insurance but its such a suck ass policy that I can't even afford to go to the doctor~I have a 4000 dollar deductable..yes you heard me...4000 dollar deductable. Any xray I have will have to be paid for out of pocket..I learned this the hard way. Anyway, I am hoping with the ace bandage, as well as my ankle brace~that maybe it will get better...sigh
Ran into my old neighbor the other day~He is a very hot ex marine and we would get together from time to time when he lived next door to me..just for beers on the deck kind of thing..anyway, he moved away to the next town over a couple years ago. Last week we ran into each other, we shot the Sh*t for a few minutes and he asked for my number..I gave it to him...He started coming on pretty heavy..did i mention he's really hott? heh....But get this..I find out he's married. He casually mentions this..WTF? He texted me today and said he was afraid he had "scared me off"...because I haven't contacted/responded to him. uhm, hello you are MARRIED!! What the hell man? Serious? Anyway, I just don't get it...sigh~
Ok..need to go check up on you guys if I can manage to keep my eyes open...
Hope everyone had a successful day~Stay focused!!!
- Sunday Feb 07, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
Really tired~so keeping this short..
Worked out today~30 Day Shred then 1 hour on the treadmill~Food so far has been 1 bowl of Cheerios...I'm going to fix some chicken I think, add some cottage cheese, maybe steam some veggies? Not sure...but I'm getting hungry and need to eat before I get toooo hungry and make some not so great choices!
Had to go to a friends house to type a paper and do some homework that needed printing out~I really need to invest in a printer one of these days~Anyway, just kicking back watching the Superbowl~Go Saints!!!
Hope everyone has had a peaceful Sunday!!
- Saturday Feb 06, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
Good grief fellow Dd'rs~I have been MIA for nearly 2 weeks..I was house/dogsitting for 9 days..My schedule was totally thrown off..which threw me into "lets eat myself stupid" mode that lasted for eh, well lets just say it lasted awhile~add no exercise and yeh, I haven't been the happiest Moody in the world. I returned to my house last Tuesday, had school, internship and work all week...my eating improved once I was home, but I didn't work out at all. I avoided the scale because I felt disgusting. However, the good news is that when I did finally face the beast, the damage wasn't nearly as bad as I expected..a few pounds. I can handle a few pounds gainage considering the revolting amount of food I had injested..egads. This is actually good news, or at least that's the spin I am choosing to put on it...because it means that the weight I HAVE lost, is TRUE weight loss...I've lost the few pounds I gained and am putting these past couple weeks behind me and looking forward.
I read up on you guys, even tho I wasn't posting these past couple weeks..I saw a couple of you mention Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred DVD..I did some research on it, read comments from people who are using it and decided to get it for myself. Today was my first day and I really enjoyed it. I have to say, I must be in better shape than I realize..Granted I only did level one, and it was challenging in parts, but I got through it without tooooo much pain. The most difficult for me is the cardio part..jumping jacks and jumping rope (without the rope)~Not sure if anyone has explained what the workout entails, but it's a quick 20 minute workout~a 2 minute warm up~then what is called a 3-2-1 Interval System~3 minutes of strength~2 minutes of cardio~1 minute of abs~you do 3 cycles of this, then a 2 minute cool down~And viola, you are finished!! There's 3 levels, depending on how physically fit you are..I started on Level 1 obviously!! But yeh, I was kind of surprised at how "well" I did~I had to stop the jumping jacks once...for a few seconds..and the jump rope part for a few seconds too..The final circuit tho, I finished strong~Jillian really pushes and encourages you~and says alot of things during the workout that really make sense...You HAVE to push thru the tough times, to grow..To change your body. If you stop when it begins to get tough, your body does NOT change. It HAS to be pushed, then push some more!! Is it easy? Hell no it ain't easy~but the feeling inside, when you push through~is indescribeable~Well you guys know what I'm talking about...when you push yourself...when you dig deep, then deeper still inside. We all have it, we're just at different levels..I may be able to do more than some of you, and there are those of you reading this who can kick my ass in workouts~But we keep digging!!
I showered and am in some very comfy mens jammies~am making homemade chicken noodle soup and it smells wonderful in here!! Thinking I am going to put a movie in and enjoy the rest of my day~it snowed last night/today but we only have a few inches..But I don't want to go anywhere...Tomorrow will be busier because I have to type up a paper and do some Statistic homework...funfun~
OH!! I almost forgot~I'm going on a cruise in May!!!! I am so excited I can hardly stand it, but there is this small voice in the back of my head saying "you know what they wear on cruises right? Swimsuits, shorts, tank tops.."~So I am a teeny bit uhm, crap I don't even know the word..just not looking forward to THAT...but, on the other hand, what a motive to keep working hard right??? I have a full 3 months to get my fat ass into shape..I am not expecting miracles but I know if I stay consistent and persist..I can realistically expect to be eh, 20lbs lighter...Still not bikini size, but maybe a one piece size! With a wrap around~heh...
K~gonna go check up on you guys, finish my soup, dry my hair and then relax and enjoy my evening~
Wishing you all a successful day! Stay focused!!
- Monday Jan 25, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
One hell of a day friends..Lets just say it involved explosive diarrhea, vomit and blood...NOT MINE..but of the Great Pyranese (sp) that I am taking care of..He's at the vet now,with a raging UTI and something (they think a rag) impacted in his colon...I'm gonna stop right there, but trust me there is SO much more I could say...goodgrief
Had a chaotic day..no exercise. Between the vet and school..exercise just didn't happen.
Keeping this very short..The Bachelor is on and I'm gonna read up on you guys..May not be able to post cuz I am exhausted, but I will catch up tomorrow!
Wishing you all a wonderful evening~
- Sunday Jan 24, 2010
(Move More, Eat Less)
Hi guys~Been abscent for several days~my schedule was crazy this week, with classes starting as well as my internship, plus working full time..Wasn't the greatest week, but wasn't the worse. Managed to work out 3 or 4 times..ate horribly for a couple days, but the damage was kept to a minimal. I joined WW online Friday because I really need the structure when it comes to eating. I like WW because I can eat what I want, as long as I stay within my allowed points for the day. I went over the first day by 4 points, but yesterday I was under by 17 points..Crazy. Today I've used 10 points so far..just made some instant potatoes and added 2T of ranch. I know it's not the most nutritious but I really don't care. It's what I wanted. lol
I'm really tired...what's new there. I got off work yesterday morning at 7, went home to sleep, and couldn't. Just laid there in bed, with my thoughts going a million miles a minute...Like a gerbil on it's wheel..thoughts just turning and turning in my head..Gave up trying to sleep around 10:30, got up and made coffee...A guy that I have been dating off n on for the past couple years was in town and he came by for a few hours...after he left I ate a bowl of chicken noodle soup and a turkey sandwich..that was the first thing I had eaten all day (turned out to be the only thing i ate all day)....anyway, I tried getting some rest around 10:00 last night because I had to pick up my best friend at 2 in the morning and drive her 150 miles to Columbus, Ohio's airport...she was flying to Vegas at 7:00 this morning and I had told her I would take her. Still couldn't sleep last night tho~Finally drifted off around midnight~got up at 1:30 am...got her and made the drive to Columbus, dropped her off at the airport, then drove home..got home just before 7:30 this morning. Actually, I came to her house because I am house/dog sitting for her while she's in Vegas...So when I got back to her house, I had to let the dogs out to potty, then I finally laid down on the couch around eh, 8:00 or so? Stillll couldn't sleep..I have alot on my mind regarding some personal issues (guy stuff, need i say more?) and I am dealing with alot of emotions..Anyway, I finally drifted off around 9:30 and slept til nearly noon...got up, took the dogs out, then went to my house, which is only a mile down the road...packed up stuff to bring here (my son is at home and watching the place), then brought MY dogs here to stay with me, and play with her dogs..It's been a crazy 24 hours...
I have my Clinical Psych book sitting here on the couch that I need to start reading..the first chapter at least...I am so tired but will give it a shot..I have NOTHING to do the rest of the day, don't have to work tonight and don't have any early classes..so hopefully I can rest up well tonight and sleep in tomorrow. My only concern is one of her dogs, a Great Pyranese (sp) is puking, has diarrhea, and has blood in his urine. She knew about the blood in the urine before she left and had been giving him some antibiotics, but the puking and diarrhea is new...lovely. I called her to tell her what was going on with Kodi and she said she thinks the puking and diarrhea are from him eating rib bones yesterday (he did puke up an entire rib bone, along with cloth from a toy he apparently ate...TMI I'm sure, sorry)...So I thanked her (sarcastically) for feeding him rib bones the day before I was watching him~Sigh..Great Pyranese are big dogs...he looks like a mini polar bear..and so when he goes, he goes alot and I do NOT want to be cleaning THAT up in the house if you know what I mean...anywaaaaay~I'm rambling..sorry, just tired i guess...
Like I said, I'm dealing with alot of emotions right now~having to face certain realities that I don't really want to face because doing so requires that I make some painful decisions that I am not quite ready to make yet..So up goes a wall, I push everyone away, and go into hermit mode...For awhile anyway...Sigh...
Ok~gonna go catch up on you guys...I hope to be in better spirits tomorrow..I'm not "sad"~just exhausted and emotionally drained..
Wishing all of you a peaceful Sunday~Stay strong! =)