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MyGiftedLife - Wednesday Jun 08, 2016
(A clean healthy diet -- limited sugar & processed)
Weight: 243.0

Wednesday.. A little better today.. So grateful that I have 2 days off back to back this week.. I go back to work on Fri..  So, today I had time to cook some healthy things for the week, I went grocery shopping, and just am able to relax a little more..  Less food issues when I'm under less stress!!  duh..  I just need to learn how to do it with the stress.......and I'll be just fine....

Nighttime and after dinner is my WORSE time.. But I'm really going to try to stay course.. Need to look forward to tomorrow -- another day off, getting more things done that I want to do..  It's so peaceful..  Maybe I'll try my stretching CD that I haven't used in years....but I love it.. It's not high impact, and it makes me feel great....

I hope you're all having a great day!! 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 78 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/10/2016:
I also took a day off, Thursday, coming back Friday. It's a weird feeling to come to work 1 day before the weekend - but a great thing! To only have to get thru one workday before a weekend = awesome! Go us!!!

I also have the hardest time on nighttime eating. I tend to be able to limit it the best when i have activities after work...and don't come right home. When i come right home, it's like i have to start eating right away...i'm also working on it!



MyGiftedLife - Tuesday Jun 07, 2016
(A clean healthy diet -- limited sugar & processed)
Weight: 243.0

 Well, I really needed to post something yesterday.. I woke up so excited that I now have Diet Diaries - i.e., people that are cheering me on and in the same situation as I am..  But I didn't have time before work.. I'll do it at work.. I had a good food day at work.. I ran out of healthy snacks, but was so proud of myself because I went home staying true to myself..  I came home exhausted from the day and had a good dinner, then lost it.. I was so tired because I didn't get enough sleep, and I know that was a major part of the problem..  

Woke up today, went to work totally upset about the night before.. It was like a nightmare once again..  I did well at the office -- until about 4pm when I lost it.. An SVP who sits near me has a jar on his desk of -- sort of Halloween type candy -- ALL  YEAR LONG!!  Most of the times I don't go near it, but when I do, I can't stop... They're tiny pieces, but I had about 13 of them.. Then came home and had 2 healthy chocolate pops and an organic gluten free frozen pizza -- actually only half of it, and felt sick -- more emotionally than physically, although some symptoms that were physical came to the surface..

I finally logged in and am able to write about it.. Mon/Tues were my 2 back-to- back days at the office.. I'm off Wed and Thurs this week & go back Fri.. So, I feel more at peace tonight -- because I know I have a chance to sleep and take care of myself..  

I'm so glad I'm here, and I think this will help me work, but I'm wondering if anyone sees this --  does anyone know anyone that I can talk to that's cheep (i.e., like $25 or less) on the phone?  I just feel I could use a little more 1 on 1 help, and I've searched it out before and gone, but I can't afford the $50 or $100 a pop or more..  If anyone does, I'd be forever grateful...

I'm going to try to get a lot of sleep tonight, forget about what happened these past 2 days, and start over (again) tomorrow.. I just know I'm under a lot of pressure for a lot of reasons - business wise, possibly moving wise, and it's just really difficult to motivate myself positively to deal with these awful cravings..

Thanks for listening!!  I hope you all did well today!!

:)

 

 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 78 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 06/08/2016:
Hey, just keep posting. I see it Every day. I'm not good on giving advice but I'm a good listener. Have a Healthy Day, MGL.

MyGiftedLife on 06/08/2016:
Thanks!! :)


puddles on 06/08/2016:
Welcome to the group. Have you ever thought of joining the OA group in your area with a sponsor that you talk to every day. Take a look on the web for OA great people and can also all be done all by phone.

MyGiftedLife on 06/08/2016:
Thanks.. Yes.. I've joined them several times in person and over the phone.. They're great for some people, I know.. But, I unfortunately didn't have that experience.. They were so focused on what to eat and what not to eat, and I believe this is more than that.. I KNOW what to eat.. I could probably write a book on it.. But, my thing is emotional eating, I believe, and I could never make it work for me.. Maybe I'll try again sometime.. We'll see.. Until then, I'll keep posting it.. Someone told me below about betterhelp.com which I've never heard of before.. They have a free 7-day trial that I just signed up for.. I'll try that too.. :) Thx, have a good day :)


innerpeace on 06/08/2016:
Does your company have EAP? Maybe you can call them a couple of times to destress a little. Usually the EAP allows for two or three free visits or calls and should be anonymous.

MyGiftedLife on 06/08/2016:
You know, I think they do!! I forgot all about that.. I'm going to call HR when I go back on Friday and ask if they still have it and if so, I'll do that.. Thanks for the suggestion! :))


happy-1 on 06/08/2016:
I like betterhelp.com... You basically write back and forth with a therapist every day and do skype calls once a month. If you apply for financial assistance you can get a decent discount that might put it in that range.


happy-1 on 06/08/2016:
I did betterhelp for a year. Am taking a break right now because I have so much homework... but it really helped me.

MyGiftedLife on 06/08/2016:
Hi Happy!! Thanks so much.. I never heard of them, but googled them and signed up for a free 7-day trial. I don't think I can do the $45/week long, but I see Groupon as a deal on them when I googled their name and it's for $49 a month for a max of 2 months.. So, if I like the 7-day, I'll do that for 2 months, and then maybe I'll get back on track.. I've had times in my life where this comes and goes.. I'm sometimes able to control the eating with absolutely no problem for years at a time, and then something traumatic happens -- like the loss of my Mom, and I think that may have triggered this again.. So, I might just need a little help for a while.. I'm hoping.. Thanks so much for the suggestion!! :)


happy-1 on 06/08/2016:
That is an AWESOME DEAL. DO IT!!!! Apply for financial assistance right away so you know what your ongoing discount would be.

MyGiftedLife on 06/08/2016:
Thx.. How would I apply for financial assistance? Don't you have to be out of work to do that?


happy-1 on 06/08/2016:
I do counseling year-round for ADHD to go with my meds... I t helps keep me on track. Online is a little easier because I'm not out of the office as much.


happy-1 on 06/08/2016:
No you just have to make under a certain amount a year or meet other conditions. The form walks you through it. Make sure you enter your income after pre-tax savings

MyGiftedLife on 06/08/2016:
Okay.. I'll check with my accountant, who I have a call into on other stuff.. Thanks so much!!! :)))

MyGiftedLife on 06/08/2016:
Okay.. I'll check with my accountant, who I have a call into on other stuff.. Thanks so much!!! :)))



MyGiftedLife - Sunday Jun 05, 2016
(A clean healthy diet -- limited sugar & processed)
Weight: 243.0

Well, Today starts my New Life..  I'm embarking on so many changes, I have to give myself credit and be loving to myself.. I'm dealing with the loss of a parent I was extremely close to -- like sisters, and need to leave the place we were living and may move across country to the other coast of the US.. I'm in the middle of cleaning out the house, crying in between, trying to lose weight.. Not a great combination..  Somehow, I have to tell myself eating right is for my own good..  I know what eat and what not to eat.. It's not about the food, it's about the emotions..  I need to learn to curb my emotions or to live with uncomfortable feelings...

Today I didn't do so well, even last night.. But now, at 4:27pm, I'm going to finish my day giving the gift of life to myself by eating in a way that honors me and helps me move forward with a clear mind....

Tomorrow morning, I'm going to post again happy that I was able to hold onto a clean evening... 

Unless I have to post more tonight for help..!

Thank you for listening and being there..

 

Xo!

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 78 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/05/2016:
Welcome! I hope that you will find love and support here - I'm glad you've joined us!

I'm very sorry for your loss. (((hugs)))

I really liked when you said "eating in a way that honors me." I am going to keep that in my heart for my own journey forward, because it rings so true.

MyGiftedLife on 06/05/2016:
Hi!! Thank you so much for posting!! I'm glad I'm here too.. This is really so hard to do, I'm hoping this will give me the love and support I need - I think it will!! I feel like I have other people cheering me on -- like an incentive to keep doing positive things and moving forward.. Thanks so much! Have a great night.. :)

MyGiftedLife on 06/05/2016:
Hi!! Thank you so much for posting!! I'm glad I'm here too.. This is really so hard to do, I'm hoping this will give me the love and support I need - I think it will!! I feel like I have other people cheering me on -- like an incentive to keep doing positive things and moving forward.. Thanks so much! Have a great night.. :)


Horn_of_plenty on 06/05/2016:
I second what Donkey says. She's been here awhile too, like me. We are a very supportive group and I am so sorry that you are having to go through this extremely tough time.

Remember that you do have control over yourself and you are fully capable of being the best choices. I am so sorry that it's such a difficult time. Times like these aren't easy in the least.

Please feel free to come here for support. Sending you my best wishes.

MyGiftedLife on 06/05/2016:
Thank you so much!! And, thank you for reminding me it IS a tough time.. I have to remember that -- because then I can kind of say to myself "It's okay".. I just have to try to do it BEFORE I grab for food -- to take a breath, because sometimes I don't do that.. Thanks so much for the love and support.. I guess if you've been here for a while -- this DOES work!! Good to know...


Horn_of_plenty on 06/05/2016:
I'll comment on your entry from today maybe tomorrow or next day...my mind is sorta done tonight ;) not because of you lol...because of me.


OhioRaven on 06/06/2016:
Hello,MGL. Welcome to the DD. I know you'll find lots of support here. Just make small changes in your lifestyle and keep posting here and things can only get better.

MyGiftedLife on 06/06/2016:
Thank you SO Much! I felt better already this morning when I woke up just knowing people were there for me.. Thanks so much!!


innerpeace on 06/06/2016:
Welcome, welcome! I hope you find the motivation you are looking for!



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