I guess the bad experience hit me harder than I thought, I haven't been able to get back on track. Last week, I only went twice to the gym to meet the trainer and I felt bad about it. I did not go and do my solo days of cardio like I had been doing. This week, I booked her for three days and completed MTW and am supposed to do my 2 cardio days on my own but I just don't want to go :-(

I rely on my trainer to help me feel comfortable, that is too much dependency...but I feel BLAH w/o her like a fish out of water. I really don't know what my problem is cuz I was doing fine and feeling great.

It is really hard for me to be 300lbs and to exercise in front of people, sometimes I feel foolish.

Still working on the diet but it is a work in progress.

Everything is going ok...this was a bad week.

I was trying out a new gym with the free 3 day pass and I really felt like I was not welcome because the front desk was so rude. I have to admit that it really discouraged me, they made me feel out of place and uncomfortable. I only worked out 3 days this week instead of the 5 days that I have been doing.I know that I am in control of my own actions and that i'm not supposed to care about what other ppl think so tomorrow I will be back on track.

I'm surprised that I am still sticking with this :-) I haven't lost much weight but I feel strong and I have accomplished small goals. I am now able to do a push-up and do chair squats and bicep curl 20lbs...all with ease. I feel good.

I've had my moments of frustration and disappointment when I look in the mirror and see that I'm still fat...but I'm LESS fat which keeps me going. The first week of April we will do the weigh in and measurements again, I really hope to see a difference after 4 months. For now, I don't care what the scale says...just gonna keep on going.

Things have been going well. I have been eating good, exercising, and staying positive. I had another moment where I wanted to cry during a workout but I pushed on. It's been10 weeks, slow progress but I'm still hanging in there.

 I appreciate the comments :-)

Been hanging in there and keeping up with the trainer and KINDA eating right.

I've had days of absolute doubt. I look in the mirror and I stop and think that I'll never lose all this weight. There are times with the trainer where I just feel like crying, the sweat burns my eyes and I'm all out of breath and I just want to sit down and cry my eyes out. Luckily, I've been able to hold it in and just get the workout done.

Is this the time? How many other times have I tried and failed? The plan is still the same, keep trying.

Doing good with food & exercise. I think I can.

Started tracking points and I lost a few pounds. Started working midnights and haven't been able to get to the gym, but I'm going today after my son is off to school.

All smiles today :-)

Thu & Fri 30min with trainer

Today's measurements were kinda disappointing but not discouraging. i actually gained 5lbs, lost 1.2% body fat, lost 1/2 inch on my right arm and lost 1 full inch from my belly. The legs, left arm, and waist line stayed the same. Trainer lady didn't seem so happy but I told her that my eating had been about the same. I went through Thanksgiving, my Tunica vacation, and xmas and I'm content with the slow progress. I'm not discouraged at all.

Tomorrow I hit the gym & then spa day with a massage and pedi.

Positive Thoughts!!!!

Monday - NOTHING, I took this day to be lazy.

Tues - 30min w/trainer (introduced to planks, I feel every muscle in my core today :-(

Wed - 30min w/trainer (major squat session, increased to 15lb weights for bicep curls)

Thu - have an appointment with Trainer Lady at 6AM

The eating has not been so great though. NO weight loss at all since starting but NO gain either. Friday morning we are doing measurements, my arms feel stronger for sure. I'm actually very pleased with the trainer, lack of weight loss is all my own fault. Within the the next few weeks, my new schedule will be in place and hopefully that will help me.

STAYING POSITIVE!!!

Friday I got up and did a mile on the treadmill at 2.0 incline - 25 minutes

Saturday - I met with the trainer and got in a full hour session. 1/2 indoor and 1/2 outdoor

Sunday - Went to the gym and got in 10min on the bike, 30 on the crossramp, and 25 on the treadmill

My heel is starting to hurt again but at this point, I need to keep active and just put up with the pain. I plan on hitting the gym in the morning before work, hope I make it.