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Poker_Paid - Thursday Mar 28, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 301.5

I guess the bad experience hit me harder than I thought, I haven't been able to get back on track. Last week, I only went twice to the gym to meet the trainer and I felt bad about it. I did not go and do my solo days of cardio like I had been doing. This week, I booked her for three days and completed MTW and am supposed to do my 2 cardio days on my own but I just don't want to go :-(

I rely on my trainer to help me feel comfortable, that is too much dependency...but I feel BLAH w/o her like a fish out of water. I really don't know what my problem is cuz I was doing fine and feeling great.

It is really hard for me to be 300lbs and to exercise in front of people, sometimes I feel foolish.

Still working on the diet but it is a work in progress.

Progress as of today: 5.5 lbs lost so far, only 36.5 lbs to go!

liza36 on 03/28/2013:
I can relate to your trainer and gym experience. Last year I had a trainer for 3 months, but since stopping that, I feel lost on what to do with the weight machines. I stick with what I'm comfortable with, which is usually the treadmill. And most of the time I don't feel like going to the gym. But perhaps with continued use and going, it will get easier. Hang in there!

hollybelle on 03/28/2013:
It's awful to feel like others are judging you. Especially at the gym. I taught aerobics for 14 years and I talked with a lot of people who felt like you do. Most every time, when they stuck with it, eventually, they realize that others really admired them for being there-working on their fitness level and that most others really WANT to see them successful. Do not listen to that voice that tells you are not good enough or you should be "embarrassed" to be there - whatever it is saying to you - tell it to shut up! You can do this!! Be sure you are getting rest - your hard workouts with trainer may be more stressful than you think - especially 3 days in a row (am I understanding that right?). Maybe try to commit to 1 day on your own and see how it goes???

OhioRaven on 03/28/2013:
Never give up ! Never surrender !

Poker_Paid - Sunday Mar 17, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 303.6

Everything is going ok...this was a bad week.

I was trying out a new gym with the free 3 day pass and I really felt like I was not welcome because the front desk was so rude. I have to admit that it really discouraged me, they made me feel out of place and uncomfortable. I only worked out 3 days this week instead of the 5 days that I have been doing.I know that I am in control of my own actions and that i'm not supposed to care about what other ppl think so tomorrow I will be back on track.

Progress as of today: 3.4 lbs lost so far, only 38.6 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 03/17/2013:
Go get 'em, Poke !

horn_of_plenty on 03/17/2013:
don't worry about how they made you feel - i had the same feeling before joining the gym that i go to now. luckily, they have become a little more friendly. but who cares...don't take it personally. some people have bad attitudes!

hollybelle on 03/18/2013:
Well, when they ask you why you didn't consider joining that gym, you will know what to tell them! Poor management! heard a story once that really made a difference to me. Two men walked to work everyday together. One always stopped off at the same newpaper stand to buy a paper. EVERY DAY the newsstand vendor was rude, sour and down right hateful. EVERY DAY the guy buying the paper paid for his paper, smiled cheerfully thanked the stand vendor and went on his way. One day the second fellow asked his friend, why, when the vendor was so horrid EVERY DAY, was he so cheerful, even cordial in return. The guy buying the paper said: why should I let that guy's mood/attitude determine mine? I love that story. It changed how I look at strange/unfriendly or unpleasant interactions with others.

legcramps on 03/18/2013:
Bah, to heck with 'em! Blaze your own trail kid!

Poker_Paid - Friday Mar 01, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 303.6

I'm surprised that I am still sticking with this :-) I haven't lost much weight but I feel strong and I have accomplished small goals. I am now able to do a push-up and do chair squats and bicep curl 20lbs...all with ease. I feel good.

I've had my moments of frustration and disappointment when I look in the mirror and see that I'm still fat...but I'm LESS fat which keeps me going. The first week of April we will do the weigh in and measurements again, I really hope to see a difference after 4 months. For now, I don't care what the scale says...just gonna keep on going.


Progress as of today: 3.4 lbs lost so far, only 38.6 lbs to go!

Puddles on 03/01/2013:
Good job. Your doing a good job. Have a great journey.

biscottibody59 on 03/01/2013:
That's all good--we should all be able to use the words, "I can do that with ease!" You're on your way!

Here's to a good March!

lolla on 03/01/2013:
Hey, progress is what matters, you did not gain weight and you will get there one day!!! Good job sticking to it!

legcramps on 03/01/2013:
Yes! Progress! I'm so glad you're sticking with this and are going to keep on going - good for you :)

OhioRaven on 03/01/2013:
Hey, Pokey. Good to hear from you. I LIKE your attitude. I can use some of that right now :v) Don't be a stranger and stop in here more often. This place gets addictive after a while. See ya.

V on 03/01/2013:
Awesome! Keep up the great work Poker!

Poker_Paid - Sunday Feb 10, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 305.0

Things have been going well. I have been eating good, exercising, and staying positive. I had another moment where I wanted to cry during a workout but I pushed on. It's been10 weeks, slow progress but I'm still hanging in there.

 I appreciate the comments :-)

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 40 lbs to go!

Puddles on 02/10/2013:
Congratulation on your workouts. Good job. Slow is good as along as it is going in right direction. Have a good day.

supercheese on 02/10/2013:
Congrats on pushing through! Stay strong!

Poker_Paid - Monday Feb 04, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 306.0

Been hanging in there and keeping up with the trainer and KINDA eating right.

I've had days of absolute doubt. I look in the mirror and I stop and think that I'll never lose all this weight. There are times with the trainer where I just feel like crying, the sweat burns my eyes and I'm all out of breath and I just want to sit down and cry my eyes out. Luckily, I've been able to hold it in and just get the workout done.

Is this the time? How many other times have I tried and failed? The plan is still the same, keep trying.

Progress as of today: 1 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

supercheese on 02/04/2013:
Take it one day at a time right? Weightloss is a slow journey, but you can do it! Just gotta believe in yourself :)

Puddles on 02/04/2013:
Don't give up 15 yrs ago I lost 143 pds. Maintained it until I injured my knee and due to not being active because of this I have packed some on now. I weighed 15 yrs ago 334 pds and I went down to almost my 180 pds in 18 months. Yes it was work but it was definitely worth it. Some weeks I lost nothing - I remember one month losing only 1pd. Now I have to start over I know it will take a long time this time because I cannot do the exercise I could do 15 yrs ago. Hang in there.

OhioRaven on 02/04/2013:
Hang in there, Poke. This a journey. Our life's journey. We owe it to ourselves to be good to our bodies. I just don't think we should sit around anymore. We're all listening to each other. I know its slow and lonely and frustrating sometimes. But there are good times too :v)

IndependentEm93 on 02/04/2013:
Just take it day after day.

legcramps on 02/05/2013:
Ah yes, those kinds of days are horrible, and can lead to all kinds of consequences. I hope you stick to it though - you deserve it and you are worth it.

sailingeagle on 02/06/2013:
Keep on keeping on! :0)

Poker_Paid - Wednesday Jan 30, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 306.0

Doing good with food & exercise. I think I can.

Progress as of today: 1 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

lolla on 01/30/2013:
Yes You can!!!

V on 01/30/2013:
Yep you CAN!!!!

Tangalyn~ on 01/31/2013:
i know u can :)

Poker_Paid - Friday Jan 25, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 307.0

Started tracking points and I lost a few pounds. Started working midnights and haven't been able to get to the gym, but I'm going today after my son is off to school.

All smiles today :-)

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

V on 01/25/2013:
Congrats on your loss :) Have a great weekend!

IndependentEm93 on 01/25/2013:

OhioRaven on 01/25/2013:
Hi, Poker. Glad to hear you're doing good.

legcramps on 01/25/2013:
Way to go! Have a good time at the gym today.

Umpqua on 01/25/2013:
Congrats on the loss!

Poker_Paid - Friday Jan 18, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 309.0

Thu & Fri 30min with trainer

Today's measurements were kinda disappointing but not discouraging. i actually gained 5lbs, lost 1.2% body fat, lost 1/2 inch on my right arm and lost 1 full inch from my belly. The legs, left arm, and waist line stayed the same. Trainer lady didn't seem so happy but I told her that my eating had been about the same. I went through Thanksgiving, my Tunica vacation, and xmas and I'm content with the slow progress. I'm not discouraged at all.

Tomorrow I hit the gym & then spa day with a massage and pedi.

Positive Thoughts!!!!

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 44 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/21/2013:
Good for you! Have a great day today :)

Poker_Paid - Wednesday Jan 16, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 309.0

Monday - NOTHING, I took this day to be lazy.

Tues - 30min w/trainer (introduced to planks, I feel every muscle in my core today :-(

Wed - 30min w/trainer (major squat session, increased to 15lb weights for bicep curls)

Thu - have an appointment with Trainer Lady at 6AM

The eating has not been so great though. NO weight loss at all since starting but NO gain either. Friday morning we are doing measurements, my arms feel stronger for sure. I'm actually very pleased with the trainer, lack of weight loss is all my own fault. Within the the next few weeks, my new schedule will be in place and hopefully that will help me.



Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 44 lbs to go!

IndependentEm93 on 01/16/2013:
No loss or gain that's still good,

Poker_Paid - Sunday Jan 13, 2013
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 309.0

Friday I got up and did a mile on the treadmill at 2.0 incline - 25 minutes

Saturday - I met with the trainer and got in a full hour session. 1/2 indoor and 1/2 outdoor

Sunday - Went to the gym and got in 10min on the bike, 30 on the crossramp, and 25 on the treadmill

My heel is starting to hurt again but at this point, I need to keep active and just put up with the pain. I plan on hitting the gym in the morning before work, hope I make it.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 44 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/14/2013:
Wow, great job! Keep it up :)

liza36 on 01/14/2013:
You're doing great with exercise! Keep it up.

supercheese on 01/15/2013:
keep up the good work!!

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