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Runner - Wednesday Feb 20, 2008
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

I've been taking new fitness classes at the gym---and I've been working out a LOT lately. I know I'm stronger, but I don't feel leaner yet. It seems like nothing works...I just keep outgrowing my clothes and feeling fatter by the minute.

I keep reading conflicting books, too. Good Calories, Bad Calories is a low-carb, high-fat approach. According to Gary Taubes, carbs are the real culprit...so eat as much fat as you want.

Real Food by Nina Planck says that we need to eat things like whole milk, eggs, spinach, meat, and cheese.

I've read so many low-carb articles that I feel downright guilty for enjoying carbs---even the "healthy" kind. So then I read about the Peanut Butter diet, where you get to eat 4-6 tbsp. a day. I like that, and I can make a meal out of 4-6 tbsp. of peanut butter and still keep my calories under 1800 a day. But no matter what some of the "experts" say, eating fat seems to go right to my thighs and butt.

Low-fat diets make me hungry, and other "experts" say that they don't work.

Low-calorie is a mystery to me, since my diet is already low in calories, for the amount of exercise I do.

I've given up cereal, cut back on sweets, and don't drink any calories. I don't eat potato chips, crackers, cookies, or bread.

I get enough rest, eat lots of veggies, and take fish oil supplements.

And yet I haven't been able to lose one stinkin' pound for 2 1/2 years. How do I know this? I haven't weighed myself in over a year, but I know. I know.

Sigh.

I think my body is just resisting any sort of weight loss, and I guess if I can have a baby someday, it will be all worth it. I'm currently taking Chinese medicine in the hopes that my menstrual cycle will become regular again, so maybe the medicine is making me fatter. Who knows? I wouldn't doubt it.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/20/2008:
Hi there! You may have gotten more muscle...but still, that would make you leaner, too. hmmm.

You know, I DO NOT believe in very low carb diets. I think that to be able to be an athlete, you need carbs. For everyday people, you sit at computers all day and exercise little, I can see how a very strict low carb diet would be ok for them. We need carbs, they are our direct fuel. I think the morning through afternoon is when we need them most and then we should gradually switch over to more proteins towards the night.

I don't know if anything has been proven with fish oil supplements. I bought them awhile back and used some. Perhaps i'll finish the bottle...or begin to finish the bottle in the next year? LOL.

The Real Food book sounds really interesting. Is it also a low carb? I don't see grains listed as one of the real foods on your entry. I also try to refrain from loading myself with carbs, sometimes choosing a large apple over bread and other things like that. However, I know that if I stay away from all carbs, I'm bound to loose all energy and overeat like crazy. Peanut Butter is good, but I wouldn't do that diet. 6 tablespoons of peanut butter doesn't have any carbs and its not a balanced meal!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/20/2008:
and, peanut butter is not that filling, not for me at least!

Good luck...keep with it...and I'm always here to listen!


borntocry on 02/20/2008:
How many calories a day are you on? In the past you've said it was around 1800. Well, I know you exercise for several hours a day, but as I am just beginning to learn, your body may be too used to the exercise for it to have any effect. Because I have also been supposedly burning at least 600 calories every day and haven't gone over 1800 calories for the past three weeks, and have yet to lose an ounce. Whereas in the past, I lost weight steadily - but that was on 1200 calories a day!! Now, I feel like I can't go that low because of all the exercise.

Have you tried mixing up high-calorie (~1800) and high-activity days with low-calorie (1200) and low-activity days? I know there are a million theories out there, and this is just one of them, but it's one that has worked for me in the past. Certainly I know that consistency isn't doing anything for me now.

I read somewhere that there is no "right" diet - all of them can and do work, which is why there are so many people who swear by each one. It's only a question of following it loyally enough. The problem is that most of them are quite extreme. So someone like you, an active person with a healthy, balanced diet (and trying to conceive!), is probably going to think twice before embarking on something like the Atkins diet. Right?

In the past, I would starve myself for days, then go on a weekend-long binge, and I lost weight that way. Now, I eat a healthy balanced diet every day, so I don't suffer from cravings or binges like I used to. But I don't lose weight. I think perhaps one needs to suffer to lose weight. Over time your metabolism adjusts to your calorie intake and level of activity, no matter what it is. So manual labourers in India learn to subsist on under 1200 calories a day without constantly losing weight. That's why I think maybe we need to change things up a bit, to shake our bodies into dropping a couple of pounds.



Runner - Wednesday Feb 13, 2008
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

Well, I'm back from my trip to the U.S., and aside from eating small servings of ice cream on an almost daily basis, I think I did better than I usually do on vacation. I am definitely eating more low-carb now, and it really helps me out when I stay away from sugar completely. If I eat more protein for breakfast, I do have less food cravings. But I'm definitely not perfect, and I still have yet to feel like I've lost any amount of weight. I think I'm just maintaining at this point---so I need to create more of a calorie deficit to actually lose something. Part of me doesn't think I'll ever lose another pound because I've been so unsuccessful the last 2 1/2 years. But another part of me refuses to give up. I really want to lose 5 pounds...just 5 pounds would make me feel so much better!

mmuraro on 02/13/2008:
You should be able to lose 5 pounds. Maybe you could consult a dietitian. You may be eating too little if you eat less than 1200 calories a day. Check on that information and maybe you'll be able to lose your last 5 pounds. Good luck.


so_devine on 02/14/2008:
hope you had a great time on your holiday. You should be able to lose it soon just keep up the amazing effort, and the determination and think postive. Good luck. :-D


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/14/2008:
yes, make sure you get the protein in at breakfast. whenever i have just carbs throughout the morning, I'm so shaky by lunch! you have a good system in place...maintaining is good, too, it means you at least are not gaining. lol.


borntocry on 02/19/2008:
Hey Runner! So... would you believe I seem to be in exactly the same situation as you? Unable to lose a lb, if not gaining. Do you really think it could be due to too much exercise? It's true that I did recently increase my weekly mileage. I never used to run more than 3-4 times a week before, and now I've started running every day. And I'm lifting heavier weights, too. I definitely feel a lot fitter than I used to be... but is there a price?



Runner - Wednesday Jan 16, 2008
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

My goodness, it's been a long time. I have tried to do well, but sugar is still my downfall, and I can't eat it in moderation. So I try not to eat it at all. I'm leaving for the States next week, and I'm a bridesmaid in a wedding in 3 1/2 weeks. So I'm trying to be as good as possible so I can squeeze my big butt in that beautiful dress. Other than that, I'm trying to eat spinach almost every day...just to keep me healthy. I can buy it fresh here from a local vendor, so it's too good to pass up. I like adding it to eggs and making a spinach and cheese omelet.

borntocry on 01/16/2008:
Hi Runner! You're going to America? I'm so jealous! We haven't been back in two years now! Well, that should be a great incentive for you over the next three weeks. Your diet sounds very healthy as always. I am trying to eat more spinach too, although I normally prefer frozen as it's easier to cook with. I tried making spinach and cheese souffl´┐Żs the other day, but they fell as soon as they came out of the oven!


fritters on 01/16/2008:
I understand about the sugar! Once I get a taste it is all over!!!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/16/2008:
i can relate to you about the sugar. I fell into a sugar trap today!!!

i like your idea of eating spinach everyday! its a good veggie to choose since you can have it raw, cooked....and there are so many different ways to prepare it!


legcramps on 01/17/2008:
Way to go Popeye!!! Hope you have fun in the States next week, and i'm sure you'll look absolutely beautiful in that bridesmaids dress in 3 1/2 weeks. Have a great day!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/19/2008:
"congrats" on being a bridesmade...I guess that means someone cares about you deeply to ask you to have such an honor in their wedding. Have fun...that's really what it's about!



Runner - Wednesday Dec 26, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

Well, Christmas is over, and I think I made it through relatively unscathed. But I did eat too many sweets, so I am eliminating them from my diet for a week...at least. If I could just totally get rid of my sweet tooth, I think I'd lose some real weight!

********

Yesterday, my son managed to find the hidden bucket of mop water that I had put behind a door so I could use the bathroom. In less than 1 minute, he managed to open the door and stick his little hands in the dirty mop water...which is where I found him when I finished in the bathroom. Thankfully, he was just putting his hands in the water (and not his face!), so I cleaned him off and dumped out the water right away. Awhile later, as I was thinking about how he always gravitates to the worst possible thing for him (electrical outlets, mop water, garbage cans), I couldn't help but realize that I often do the same thing with food. I gravitate toward the worst possible thing for my body, even though I know that in the long run, it's not good for me. I'm like a little boy who wants to play in dirty mop water when I eat nutritionally empty foods. My son has a ton of wonderful toys to play with, but he wants to play in the dirty water. I have so many wonderful foods to choose from, and I want to eat marshmallows and chocolate chips. I think it's time for me to grow up!!

geevee on 12/26/2007:
Keep thinking that way Runner. That's the way to do it. Constantly remind yourself. That's how I quit smoking and lost 40 pounds.

To stay in a positive vein, I won't go into what has been regained!


fritters on 12/27/2007:
I like your analogy! Junk food is like dirty mop water - why do we want it so bad? I am going to start growing up on the 1st! A little more mop water and then I will be ready! Have a good day.


Donkey on 12/27/2007:
I ate too many cookies so don't feel bad. That's a good analogy. We need to treat ourselves better than we do, I think.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/29/2007:
What I have learned is that I try to eat the sweets/grains in moderation because they are healthy. I don't love moderation, although it is best, because it is hard to eat these types of dense foods in small amounts. Lately, especially during the convenience of the vacation and being home, I have made sure that certain meals do have a good source of fiberfilled, whole grains and I try to eat really slow. It works to fill you up and provides good energy! Sometimes it is good to eat the carbs and not stay totally away from them cold turkey...it helps me binge less too - but eating very slow and drinking liquids while eating also helps with that.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/29/2007:
What I have learned is that I try to eat the sweets/grains in moderation because they are healthy. I don't love moderation, although it is best, because it is hard to eat these types of dense foods in small amounts. Lately, especially during the convenience of the vacation and being home, I have made sure that certain meals do have a good source of fiberfilled, whole grains and I try to eat really slow. It works to fill you up and provides good energy! Sometimes it is good to eat the carbs and not stay totally away from them cold turkey...it helps me binge less too - but eating very slow and drinking liquids while eating also helps with that.


legcramps on 01/04/2008:
Kids always gravitate toward the more simple things - paper, rocks, shiny buttons, etc. These are always more interesting than playing with actual toys. Maybe what you need to do is simplify the foods you eat, instead of beating yourself up time and time again when you grab a few too many marshmallows and eat the whole box of chocolate chip cookies. I don't know - it sounds boring, but I think it might actually work.



Runner - Thursday Dec 20, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

I don't know how I thought I'd actually have more time to get on the DD's...it's so crazy right now with Christmas around the corner!

Diet-wise, I'm doing okay...not stellar, but okay. I still feel fat, though, and I was bloated tonight, which caused a lady to ask me if I was pregnant. I'm not going to dwell on the fact that I DO actually look 3 months pregnant when I'm bloated...because that will just make me feel depressed.

Instead, I'm going to count my blessings, try to avoid sugar at all costs, and squeeze into a cute black skirt for my company party on Monday.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/20/2007:
good for you on wearing a cute black skirt at your company party. also, it's not worth dwelling on things that make you upset or unhappy because that will cause you to dwell on those same things more and more. when that happens, i know it tends to make me overeat or get even more anxious.


fritters on 12/20/2007:
I bet you are going to look great in that black skirt. Have fun at the party!


workingit2 on 12/25/2007:
Merry Christmas!



Runner - Monday Dec 10, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

Hello, friends! I think I'll finally have a little more time to post semi-regularly on this site, now that I have a bit of a break for Christmas. I wish I could say that I've lost weight, but I don't think I'm there yet. I'm really working hard at it, though. I'm on a low-carb kick because I think I'm really sensitive to carbohydrates. The more I read about (bad) carbs, the more convinced I am that anything "white" just goes straight to my butt and thighs. I've really enjoyed reading the book, "Good Calories, Bad Calories," and I highly recommend it, even if it is controversial. I've noticed that since I include nuts in my diet now, I crave sweets a lot less. Maybe I eat a few too many nuts, but I think overall, I eat less calories in nuts than I do in sugar, so that's a start. And I'm eating a ton of spinach, too...I buy it fresh from a vegetable vendor in my neighborhood and then lighly fry it up. Mmmm...

In other news, I'm taking Chinese herbs twice a week to help with my lack of periods. I'm going to try it for two months and see how it goes. The stuff tastes TERRIBLE...like drinking dirt and tree bark! (not that I've tried dirt and tree bark, but I can imagine...)

Anyway, Chinese medicine is all about creating a balance in your body, and that's why I have problems---because my body is all out of whack. I have no balance whatsoever. Of course, I need to cut back on my exercise, too, in order for this to work, so a low-cal diet will be more important than ever. The doctor actually told me that he thought I needed to put more fat on my body. As if! He obviously didn't take a good look at my fat butt!

I should see some results one of these days. I will just be happy if some of my pants from last year fit me better! I have two weeks until my company Christmas party, and I'm determined to be at least a couple of pounds lighter! Therefore, my goal is to stay away from sweets completely for 2 weeks. I can do this...I just have to keep out of the kitchen and not try to convince myself that I should do holiday baking. That gets me into trouble every year, and I'm just not going to do it anymore.

I hope I can get caught up on your entries! If I don't leave a comment, it's only because I have limited Internet time.

Oh---and my baby boy is 9 months old now. He's such a fun kid already!

borntocry on 12/10/2007:
Hey Runner! See, if your doctor told you he thinks you need to gain weight, then you're obviously not fat, right?!

I can't believe Micah is 9 months old already. And that's such an adorable age for a baby! He's going to start walking and talking soon!

Funnily enough, I also started including nuts in my diet a few months ago, making a point to eat them every day, whereas I used to try to avoid them because I feared that I could never control myself around them. Well, it was hard at first because I did have a tendency to over-indulge, but now I find that they do seem to curb my appetite somewhat, especially for sweets.

Well, good luck and have a nice break!


geevee on 12/10/2007:
Hey Runner! Check out my next to last entry. It's about the Fertility Diet. Maybe you'll get a couple of good pointers.


Donkey on 12/10/2007:
Well, maybe I'm wrong but if you're not having your periods, then you might need to have hormone therapy or something. You really run the risk of osteoporosis when you don't have enough estrogen to menstruate.

Oh how I remember the baby years. I'm not much on newborns, but about the age of 9 months on until 5 years of age are my absolutely favorite. Not that I love them any less once they get older than 5, but it's just such a wonderfully innocent time, these young years. Enjoy them with all your heart :-)


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/12/2007:
hey runner. i believe in you...and know you can avoid sweets for two weeks! good goal!

i also have a problem with white carbs especially. i know my body doesn't react well and i cannot believe that i don't have diabetes....i feel like i do!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/12/2007:
interestingly, I'm on a MAJOR nut kick as well...all types including brazil nuts, cashews, almonds...and even seeds like sunflower...and others.



Runner - Sunday Nov 18, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

oh, it has been a very long time since I posted. I haven't even checked this site in a few weeks, mainly because I've been crazy-busy, but also because I still feel like a loser in the dieting department.

I saw that BTC posted, and I wanted to mention that I was thrilled to meet her a few weeks ago! We went on a run together for over an hour, and I think she could have kept on running for quite awhile. (she's in great shape) It was like meeting an old friend, except that we had never met in person before. I am often amazed at how people on this site know far more about my food/ dieting issues than anyone else I come into contact with on a daily basis. And I really do appreciate the support here...it's my fault that I don't use this site more often. If I did, maybe I wouldn't be so heavy!

I still haven't weighed myself, but my body is really out-of-whack. Today I looked at pictures of myself from 2 years ago, when I was under 110 pounds. I looked skinny, but very good. (in my opinion) I know that having a great body isn't everything, but I just can't feel good about myself in my current state.

Yesterday one of my worst dreams came true---and yes, I have dreamt of this happening. I met a lady on my morning run who stopped me and told me that my hips and butt were too fat and that I needed to run more. Yes, this actually happened. I was furious and embarrassed and incredulous all at the same time. When I got home, I started crying and told my husband that I am paranoid that everyone sees me as fat, fat, fat. It wouldn't be so bad except that I USED to be skinny...I used to be the envy of every girl who has wanted to be thin! And now my body is nowhere near what it used to be.

I would give up, except that I know it IS possible for a 30-year old woman to still look great! BTC looks fabulous! I would give anything to have her figure. So what can I do? I've tried just about everything, and I still seem to be putting on weight in my thighs and butt.

Right now, I'm trying to really restrict carbs...I've been reading "Good Calories, Bad Calories" by Gary Taubes, and I'm starting to believe that carbohydrates are what makes us fat. I've long had the theory that not all calories are created equal, because if they were, I'd be a lot thinner! My sweet tooth has gotten the best of me too many times, and even if my calories are low enough for the day, the sugar seems to affect me anyway. So I'm trying to fill up on lots of spinach and protein and nuts. If this doesn't help me lose some weight, I don't know what will!

Anyway, I'd like to start posting more often because I really want to lose a few pounds by Christmas, and I need the accountability.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/19/2007:
i've been thinking the same thing as you, actually. I did really well yesterday limiting the sugars/carbs. And, for instant weight loss, 3 days of drastically limiting carbs will definitely yield good results. thing is, you can't believe that you are denying yourself. because, if you start thinking that way, like i did today, you'll eat far too many carbs than you need!!! (like i did today!)


borntocry on 11/21/2007:
Runner, that woman must have been either joking or completely insane! You are SO THIN!! I thought your hips and butt were slimmer than mine - you don't think so? You have such a stream-lined figure! I understand that you used to be even skinnier and naturally you long for those days to return. We're all like that - I can't help but think about when I weighed 107 lb, and before that when I weighed 104 lb. I bet even if I got back to that weight, I'd probably be thinking about the time I starved myself down to 90 lb when I was 15. Everyone mocked and insulted me back then, but I still remember that number as my ultimate victory!

As for being the envy of every girl - I still envy you! I'd love to have your figure - as far as I could tell, you're the same size as me, only taller! And you know when people tell you that you look "healthy", I don't think they're talking about your weight. You have a really fresh, radiant glow to your face and skin which I suppose must come from being so fit and taking care of yourself so well. I'm sure that's what people mean when they say you're "healthy".

As for that woman's remark - people have said crazy things to me as well. I've been called fat, thin, short, dark, bony, wrinkly - really just about everything. Some people just love to criticise. And sometimes if they really want to hurt you, they'll go with a weight-related comment because they know that hurts the most. I've known people who systematically go around telling girls they're fat just to upset them. For all you know this woman was someone like that, or perhaps she's anorexic herself and to her we all look fat.

Anyway, aside from that, I've also been feeling like I haven't been holding myself very accountable lately and have allowed things to get way out of hand. Every day is a 2000-calorie plus day and I've got to put a stop to that! And I also feel this site will help keep me in check, so let's start posting here more often, what do you say?


sweetpea1977 on 11/23/2007:
I totally agree with BTC However, her comment has more merit, since she has actually seen you in person (lucky dog!). :o) Anyway, Im sure that woman made that comment to you because of her own self-esteem issues. Im actually guilty of doing the same thing to my sister years ago. She was perfect to me (thin and gorgeous), which made me insanely jealous. However, I knew that she always hated her nose, so I used that to my advantage so that I could make her feel bad about herself (which made me feel better about my own self-image issues). I totally regret making fun of her nose now, because she still has issues with her nose (which looks fine to me!). So, dont take those comments seriously, please!

From what I've seen you look absolutely beautiful! I dont see the unsightly fat that these random people see. How does your hubby and rest of the family feel about your looks? Have they ever said anything negative to you about your current build? Just curious! I'd take their words over those random people any day!

Anyway, I just wanted to drop by and let you know that I think of you often. I hope to be posting on here much more often after the baby is born (only 5 weeks left until my due date!). Im gonna need all the support I can get, so please feel free to drop by my diary and keep me in-line!


legcramps on 11/26/2007:
Awe Runner, I really wish you'd stop chastizing yourself so often, you really do break my heart everytime you say hurtful things to yourself. You know that the first step to being at peace with the world is being at peace with yourself. Sounds to me like you don't like yourself much at all right now. What's the real reason for the great dislike??? Is it really about weight?


hollybelle on 11/30/2007:
When I was sick about my weight (literally) I judged everyone and myself by how much thinner I was (or wasn't) than them. It finally got to the point where I was thinner than anyone else - about 90 lbs at 5'5" at age 24 and I discovered that I didn't like myself, anything, or anyone else for that matter even though I had reached my goal of being thinner than anyone and thought that would give me what I needed. Gradually I began changing my mind about what was really important and concentrating on those things. Things like being less judgemental of the outward appearance of myself and others, learning to be an encourager to others, a good friend, a positive person, a motivated employee, and really taking care of myself with healthy eating and appropriate amounts exercise. I became lightly larger, but happier. Kind of a new meaning to the term "Living Large", I guess. I hope you will find your own path to peace in living your life whatever size you happen to be at any given time and no matter what odd comments other, strange people, who probably don't have their head on straight may make.



Runner - Tuesday Oct 16, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

Having a friend with breast cancer has really made me more careful with what I eat. I saw an interesting article online yesterday. Check it out:

http://www.self.com/livingwell/articles/2007/09/0924wch_prevention_diet

It gives great tips on what to eat and what not to eat if you want to prevent cancer. Of course, we all know that even people with fantastic diets still get cancer. But it sure doesn't hurt to do whatever we can to be healthy!!

I've even been eating salmon burgers and veggies for breakfast...I feel like GG! :) Even though I'm not sure if I'm losing weight, I'm definitely not gaining weight! I'm really just trying to make sure that veggies, fruits, fish, nuts, and healthy fats are part of my daily diet. And I'm hoping that the more I feed my body good foods, the more it will crave these foods. (and NOT crave sweets!)

...and losing a few pounds in the process would also be nice!

fritters on 10/17/2007:
Everything in moderation is how I feel - now if I could just get that moderation part down!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/17/2007:
i was reading this entry this morning, but didn't have time to comment. for some reason, salmon burgers and veggies gave me an appetite! :)


legcramps on 10/18/2007:
The best way to go about it! Nothing but good health!



Runner - Wednesday Oct 10, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

I've had so much on my mind lately. A friend of mine in her 20's has recently been diagnosed with breast cancer. Another dear lady I know who is like a second mom to me has been diagnosed with a terminal illness.

Sometimes dieting just seems so trivial, you know?

And yet I can't escape my desire to be thin or healthy. I am still trying to eat well, exercise, get plenty of sleep, and keep a good attitude about my body. But I still struggle, have days when I feel fat, and often wish I was a size 0 again.

I just celebrated one year of being without a scale in my house. I know a lot of you wouldn't want it that way, but it was something I needed to do. I haven't weighed myself since March, and I am okay with that. The number on the scale no longer determines what kind of day I'm going to have.

In other news, our baby boy is 7 months old now, and we hope to adopt a baby girl within a couple of years. I love him more every day...I had no idea that I could love him so much. I thank God every day for him...I may never be able to have biological children, but that's okay. I'm so thankful for what I DO have...a beautiful baby boy.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/10/2007:
You still have the right outlook. I think this is what happens as we get older. We realize life is short and to just enjoy it. I feel the same way.

I think your focus on life has improved 100%. You are focussed on your son and family. This is good for the soul. I wish I had another focus, or at least a boyfriend that shares my beliefs and connection with exercise.

you can only do so much. Keep doing what you are doing!


Donkey on 10/10/2007:
Dieting is trivial. Or it's supposed to be. I used to think that I had to conform to a certain clothing size, when in reality, the clothing is supposed to conform to MY size, not the other way around. Life is too short.


hollybelle on 10/11/2007:
Your outlook has changed so much from a year ago. It is so good to hear. too! Life goes on and things happen and we realize that the more our eyes are on others and off ourselves the happier we become. It's so hard to hear news of scary diagnoses - it seems to happen alot when you get to my age! Your friends can benefit from your friendship while they are ill. People who are going through hard times with their health need to feel as normal as possible when they can and keeping in touch in "normal" ways is one way friends can help. Good luck.


legcramps on 10/13/2007:
Good for you on living without a scale! Your life has changed in so many positive ways in the last year, you should be terrifically proud of yourself!



Runner - Tuesday Sep 25, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 0.0

Sorry I've been MIA...I was in Hong Kong for the weekend and some of my family is visiting at the moment. We're having a great time, but, of course, more people means more get-togethers, which means more food.

Will update later this week...

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/27/2007:
hong kong! what fun!!!



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