- Saturday Apr 02, 2005
Somehow I saw 112 this morning...even after a meal out of Indian food last night. I really didn't eat that much, as four of us shared about 5 dishes...but I know that some of the sauces were very highly caloric!! Thankfully, though, the portions were fairly small, so even though I felt somewhat ripped off, at least I wasn't able to overeat!
I need an extra dose of discipline on weekends...I always feel entitled to extra "snacks" or goodies since my weight is usually down. I already enjoyed one of my favorite snacks today and will likely have ice cream tonight with my hubby, so I plan to go lightly the rest of the day.
The weather here is getting so hot...I waited until 8am to go running today, and it was already over 80 degrees. I came back a sweaty mess. That's probably why I weighed 112! I know I lost some water weight!
- Thursday Mar 31, 2005
Woah! I am shocked and surprised to see that I'm still at the same weight as I was last week! I really thought those extra meals out would add up...maybe they will at some point, but all my exercise must have paid off!
I've been thinking a lot about what Borntocry said in her last entry...about how life is just too short to deprive ourselves of things that we love! I struggle with this issue, as I have a hard time exercising self-control around foods I love. But I think I've made some progress in the last 2 years and am now able to keep candy and other goodies in my cupboards for weeks at a time. I still have those "trigger foods" like brownies, peanut butter, and frosting, but I just try to avoid them as much as possible. However, I do hope I can get to the point where I can bake brownies and eat only one...and not have to give them all away so I don't consume half the pan!
It seems like people either fall into one of two categories in the way they eat: careless or overly conscientious. The careless people eat whatever they want whenever they're hungry...if a meal is served to them, they eat it. If they're not hungry for 10 hours, they don't eat. They don't obsess about calories and they don't read nutrition labels. Some of the are overweight, but many of them are normal weights.
The overly conscientious eaters (like me) THINK about food all the time, PLAN meals, COUNT calories, OBSESS about weight, and STRUGGLE with eating too much! Some overly conscientious eaters are overweight, as all they can think about is eating...and some are underweight, as all they can think about is eating, even thought they're on a permanent diet. Most people at normal weights don't seem to be too concerned about their diet. They are happy with their weight and don't want to spend time worrying about what they put in their mouths.
Anyway, maybe none of this makes sense. It's just a few observations I've made. I can usually spot whether a person is careless or conscientious right away...especially if I dine out with others. I envy those who order whatever they want and eat until they're full. I tend to order the healthiest option and eat the whole thing. At the end of the meal, we've probably consumed the same amount of calories. One of these days, I'm going to learn how to eat ANYTHING in moderation. I'll still be a healthy eater...because I love healthy foods...but I want to learn how to eat ONE piece of pizza and be satisified with that. Instead, I have avoided pizza for 7 years. (Unless I make it myself)
Okay, enough rambling. Time to catch up on your entries! The overly conscientious eater is signing off!
- Thursday Mar 31, 2005
Hello, friends! I'm back home after a week of traveling! Surprisingly, the food temptations weren't as bad as I thought they would be! I think I managed to do fine...and didn't snack as much! Of course, as soon as I got home, I felt like eating everything in sight. All my favorite goodies...all my favorite snacks...peanut butter...
I made a healthy dinner and then ate a good 500 calories (minimum) in junk-type food...a chocolate-covered cherry, some peanut butter, a graham cracker, some pudding, etc. Funny how I can be disciplined while I'm "on the road," and then lose it at home! At least I'm not baking tonight. I passed up that temptation and mopped the floors instead!
Anyway, after a week away and some meals out (not to mention my snack attack tonight!!!), I'm not counting on seeing 112.5 tomorrow morning!
113.5 or 114 is probably more like it...
I'll post in 12 hours with my updated weight. Hopefully it's not too far "up!"
- Sunday Mar 27, 2005
Okay, I think I made it past the big hurdles, food-wise. I still have 3 more days before I go home, but the next few meals should give me more freedom in deciding what I want to eat.
I ate at one of my favorite restaurants last night...an amazing Thai place. Everything was sooo delicious. I ate the dishes without feeling guilty, as it was a very special occasion. I know it was quite a few more calories than normal, but I've continued to exercise every day and have cut back on snacks. I'm also taking it easy today...no big meals! I need a day of salad, fruit, and veggies.
- Sunday Mar 27, 2005
I have no idea what my weight is. According to the cheap scale at the place I'm at right now, I'm 118. Yeah, right. I know I didn't gain 6 pounds overnight. But whenever I see high numbers like that, I doubt my own scale!!! Anyway, I've had more food that normal with all these meals out, but I'm managing to avoid dessert at least! I'm trying to concentrate on veggies and lean meats, but everything is always so oily! Ugh!
Happy Easter, everyone! I love Easter, even if it's not really celebrated here! He is Risen, just as He said!! I serve a Risen Savior!
- Thursday Mar 24, 2005
Somehow I managed to drop a half pound, even though I had a mini binge last night. I made some chocolate chip muffins and ate a big one right out of the oven (250 calories), which wouldn't have been so bad, except that I grabbed several handfulls of chocolate chips and ate those, too! Does anyone know how many calories are in one chocolate chip? I know that there are 70 calories in one tablespoon, but how many chips can really fit in one tablespoon? I was trying to figure it out...and tried to find some information on the Internet, but was unable to locate just what I'm looking for.
I hate it when exact numbers aren't given. Nutrional labels are sometimes hard to figure out. I mean, why can't they say how many chocolate chips I can eat to equal 70 calories? Then I would at least have an idea of how many calories I consumed!!!
Anyway...that's such a minor thing. I have a much harder time reading Chinese food labels. Servings are always 100 grams or 100 mL, so I have to do all this conversion math in my head. I mean, a package could have 250 grams total of something, so I have to figure out how much of the product is 100 grams. It gives me a real headache sometimes!
Yeah, I know 99.9% of people don't care about things like that...but I didn't lose 40 pounds to gain it all back! I HAVE to care about things like that! I can't be ignorant! Especially in a foreign country, where the most popular ingredient in snack foods is partially hydrogenated vegetable oil.
Okay, on to another subject...I'm leaving for a week on another business trip. Challenges, challenges...always more challenges! I have a meal out tonight, two meals out tomorrow, and a meal out on Sunday! Okay, I can't panic. No panicking allowed. I can do this, I can do this, I can do this. Discipline, exercise, and planning ahead will help me. I've done it a zillion times already, so I can do it again.
- Wednesday Mar 23, 2005
Still at 113. Two days in a row means it's probably not a fluctuation.
I had a good day food-wise yesterday. I planned my meals and pretty much stuck to my goals.
Sometimes I get so tired of planning, discipline, and all the stuff that goes along with maintaining my weight. I feel like I eat egg-white omelets at least every other night for dinner, as I've usually eaten too many calories during the day to allow myself any more. My typical dinner is a 100-calorie omelet (2 egg whites and some low-fat cheese) and a big plate of steamed veggies with soy sauce on them. At least I like omelets and veggies! It's a good thing I don't mind eating the same thing over and over again. In fact, I could probably live on cereal and egg-white omelets for weeks.
Ah, well. I still feel bloated, but I'm hoping my period is on its way. I took progesterone pills for a week in order to jump start my period. Maybe that's why my weight is up.
- Tuesday Mar 22, 2005
Up a pound and a half. Is it water weight? A mere fluctuation? Or have the extra calories I've consumed all added up?
I had about 600 calories too many yesterday. I won't go into all the details, but baking without my husband around is just NOT a good idea. Instead of making something I wouldn't be tempted to eat, I made something I enjoy eating very much!!!
So let's just say that today is a NEW day...even though I feel more bloated than normal, I'm going to stay positive and make SMART choices today!!
- Monday Mar 21, 2005
Except for an unplanned chocolate covered cherry and piece of candy, dinner went very smoothly last night! I made the tacos but stuck to refried beans and lowfat cheese myself. Good thing, as my husband and our company ate almost all the ground beef themselves! If I would have had some, we would definitely have run out of it!
The low-carb, sugar-free key lime pie was amazing! I am so impressed with those Sans Sucre mixes. I spread a little whipped topping on it and it was very light and fluffy...and I didn't feel at all guilty while enjoying a big piece!
I have to do some baking tonight and my hubby will be playing b-ball, so I'll need an extra dose of discipline in the kitchen.
As for exercise, the weather here is getting hotter and hotter and running oustide is already quite uncomfortable! What am I going to do during the summer months? Wake up at 4am???? Yeah, right! But it's already over 80 degrees when I walk to work in the mornings...and pretty soon, I'll probably have to give up and ride on the scooter with my husband.
- Sunday Mar 20, 2005
Somehow I'm hanging on to 111.5, although I briefly saw 112.5 today, so I know that I need to be careful!
I did okay calorie-wise this weekend, but I ate some unhealthy foods and felt more guilty after consuming them, even though I pretty much "substituted" them for other calories. I still don't believe that all calories are created equally. If I eat 1800 calories of junk compared to 1800 calories of healthy food, I almost always see the number go up on the scale. I don't know why that it, except that it seems like most of the junk food is full of carbs, which go straight to my hips!
Anyway, I realized that after 6 years of eating healthy and maintaining my weight, I've almost completely lost my taste for certain foods...like pizza, bread, pasta, potato chips, and other starchy things. I still eat carbs in moderation, but I prefer whole-grain cereals, veggies, sweet potatoes and fruits.
But I still love those brownies and cookies...so if I can ever lose my taste for sweets, then I'll really consider that an accomplishment!
I'm having company over for dinner tonight...making tacos. But I've learned how to cut corners so that I don't consume a large amount of calories. For example, I'll skip the tortillas and taco shells, as I don't like them anyway, and I'll stick to the refried beans, lettuce, tomatoes, etc. I don't like Doritos, so those won't tempt me. I also made a 2-layer sugar-free jello, so that's low-cal. (no one will know!)
And dessert is a low-carb, sugar-free Key Lime pie. (Again, no one will know!! I'll spread some whipped cream on top and it will look like the real thing!)