- Monday Nov 29, 2004
Well, I knew that my time at 111.5 would be short-lived. I actually saw 114.5 this morning before I went running...and then I was down to 113. Fluctuations, fluctuations. I just wish I would never see those low numbers if they won't stay. But as many of us know, the more weight you lose, the harder it is to keep it off, especially if you lack discipline.
And I lacked some major discipline yesterday. I found myself snacking on candy and other junk. And I baked yesterday, which led to more "bites and tastes" than I needed! So I shouldn't be surprised that my weight is up today. Of course, I know that I can't just "gain" two pounds overnight. But it is true that when I overdo it, the scale almost always registers the extra carbs the next morning. It's a way of keeping me accountable. I can't just eat whatever I want. I know this. I can still eat 1500-1800 calories and enjoy my meals, but I can't just snack on candy and consume all those extra carbs and calories.
So I'm back on the wagon today! Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels. (That is so true!)
- Sunday Nov 28, 2004
Unbelievable! I was at an all-time low of 111.5 today! Now, I have no idea how I got there...as I was 114 only three days ago! But after that apple-pie-from-Costco incident, I was much more careful with what I put in my mouth, and I even survived another Thanksgiving meal yesterday by taking smaller portions of everything, exercising for 1 1/2 hours, and eating only a small breakfast and dinner.
So even though I know this "low" is probably quite temporary, I feel good that I didn't GAIN weight this week!
By the way...for those who read Geevee's entries about her successful pumpkin pie, I also made a sugar-free pie for the Thanksgiving meal I attended yesterday, but I modified her recipe a bit and it turned out soooo well! Mine wasn't quite as low-cal, but it could be, if you can find fat-free cream cheese (which is available in the U.S., but not here!)
Anyway, I'll here's the recipe...it was a delicious pie, and no one could tell that it was sugar-free!
Incredible 2-layer Sweet Potato Pie (sugar-free)
BOTTOM LAYER: 1 large sweet potato
4 oz. Cream cheese, softened (reduced-fat or fat-free work fine)
8 packets of Splenda, or another sugar substitute
2 large eggs
� cup evaporated milk
� cup Bisquick
1 tbsp. Pumpkin pie spice
1 tbsp. Cinnamon
1 tbsp. Nutmeg
1 tsp. Vanilla
TOP LAYER: 1 small package of sugar-free vanilla pudding
1 � cups milk
4 oz. Cream cheese, softened
� cup chopped walnuts
1. Boil sweet potato whole in skin for 40 to 50 minutes, or until done. Run cold water over the sweet potato, and remove the skin.
2. Heat oven to 375 degrees. Spray a 9-inch pie plate with cooking spray.
3. Break apart the sweet potato in a bowl. Add 4 oz. Cream cheese and mix well with a mixer. Stir in Splenda packets, milk, eggs, Bisquick, spices, and vanilla. Beat on medium speed until mixture is smooth. Pour filling into pie plate.
4. Bake at 375 degrees for 35-45 minutes, or until pie is set. Allow pie to cool.
5. Beat pudding, milk, and softened cream cheese in bowl until mixture is smooth. Pour pudding mixture over the cooled pie. Sprinkle crushed walnuts on top of the pudding layer. Refrigerate until ready to serve.
- Thursday Nov 25, 2004
I just had the Thanksgiving dinner with my co-workers...I would have been fine, except for the apple pie from Costco. Usually, I hate the crust of the pie...and this crust was very thick and on the top and bottom of the pie...and I couldn't quit eating it. Ugh. I'm very stuffed. Why did I have to buy the dumb pie? I was trying to save myself from eating too many calories by purchasing dessert instead of making it from scratch. And instead, I end up eating too much of the store-bought, lard-filled pie from Costco, for crying out loud! Okay, I'm taking a deep breath. I'm going to go for a walk now and I'll really cut back the rest of the day.
Here I thought Thanksgiving dinner would be easier since I'm not in America...ha!
And I have another big meal on Saturday! Oh, dear.
- Tuesday Nov 23, 2004
I have just been given the task of preparing another American-style Thanksgiving meal for my 15 Chinese co-workers. None of them have ever really had a Thanksgiving meal, and since they're graciously giving us the afternoon off, I have sorta volunteered to cook a Thanksgiving meal. I made one two weeks ago for some Chinese friends, and I managed to throw together a whole dinner (using a tiny convection oven), including a turkey. (which barely fit in my oven)
But now I've moved out of the capital city, and there is no canned pumpkin to be found, turkey is too expensive since it's imported, and I can't even find stuffing. So...I'll have to make do with what I can!
We're going to buy Rotisserie chickens from Costco instead of turkey, and I think I'll make a sweet potato pie instead of pumpkin, since I can find sweet potatoes. I really don't mind cooking...usually, I eat less when I make the meal because I'm too busy preparing everything.
But I'm glad (in some ways) that I'm not home in America for the next month. There are just way too many goodies...at least I have a hard time indulging in pecan pies, chocolates, candies, etc. here in Asia! Of course, I always manage to blow my diet on candy or McD's hot fudge sundaes, but I have to admit, there are far fewer temptations than most of you will face!
Just remember---keep exercising! That will help you get through the holidays with a minimal (if any) weight gain. You'll be okay...splurging on one piece of pie won't kill you. Eating three pieces every day WILL. So make your treats count. Enjoy them. And burn off those calories with some serious walking!
- Monday Nov 22, 2004
Okay, it's time to buckle down. I've been very lazy with my eating habits the past week or so.
I was blaming my bloated feeling and weight-gain on the Provera and my period, but I have nothing to blame now but myself. I just can't snack away without paying for it. I know better.
I was just downright hungry yesterday, so I snacked often, and I am now further than ever from my goal of 112. Even though my snacks might be "healthy," I just can't consume the extra calories.
So today is a new start. I need to stop eating mindlessly and get more exercise. It really stinks not having a gym to go to yet. Running is more difficult, and I don't have a pool, either. Or a place to hike or people to hike with. But I'm not going to let these temporary hurdles affect my discipline or determination any more. No more excuses! I CAN get back to 112! I WILL!
- Sunday Nov 21, 2004
Well, my weight isn't dropping any more, but maybe that's due to my period, which finally came (after the Provera pills ended). So I'll give it another day or two...and hopefully drop back down to 113 or 112.5.
Meanwhile, I'm trying not to eat too much candy! Sometimes I just crave that sugar, especially at this time of the month!
My mom brought me some of my favorite candies from the States when she visited a couple of weeks ago, and they have been such a treat...thankfully, I'm keeping my caloric consumption stable, I think. (I'm still aiming for about 1800 calories a day...but I'd probably get back to 112 if I could just stay away from 300 cals of candy every day!)
Anyway, my transition to a new city has been harder than normal. Here, the water is just terrible. You can't drink it out of the tap. So we're going to have to boil water or buy bottled water. Even with a filter, we'd have to boil water. What a pain. I drink so much water, too...but at least we have a water machine where I work so I can get my water-fill for free during the day.
And I haven't found a gym yet. I need a gym so I can do some weight-lifting and swimming.
But the hardest part is the pollution...it's twice as bad as the last city we lived in, and my lungs are probably on their way to resembling a smoker's lungs. (Even though I've never taken a puff). But running out in this haze and smog will do some damage, I'm sure.
Other than that, I'm okay.... Living in Asia sure is an adventure at times!
- Saturday Nov 20, 2004
Finally, finally, I'm closer to what I was a week ago! Yesterday was the last day on those Provera pills, so I definitely feel better today! I'm not as bloated, either!
WE moved yesterday, so I've been so busy unpacking, cleaning, etc. But I had to get out of the house to find an Internet cafe so I could check up with my friends on the DD's! :) My hubby is patiently waiting for me...I feel kinda out-of-place in this environment. THe majority of the customers are Chinese teenage boys playing violent computer games. Anyway...
I'm going out for dinner tonight, but we're doing "hot pot," which is a lot of veggies and meat...not many carbs, and usually fairly healthy (if I can keep from drowning everything in soy sauce)!
I was encouraged to read livestrong's comment that she's noticed a definite change in my attitude around food. I'm so glad she noticed, because I can tell that I've made progress, too! I'm definitely not perfect, but I have come a long way. I've been here two years, and I really think that journaling my struggles, failures, and accomplishments has been essential to this whole process.
Be good to yourself today! Remember---a moment on the lips, forever on the hips! (Well, maybe not forever, but that saying helps me from taking seconds or thirds sometimes!) :)
- Thursday Nov 18, 2004
No change in the weight today...of course, I don't deserve a change, since I snacked my way through hundreds of calories last night. Sometimes when I have temporary weight gains, I just feel like eating more! And these Provera pill side effects (hunger, bloating, weight gain) aren't helping any!
I have one more meal out tonight before we leave tomorrow. And tomorrow is my last day on these pills. I sure hope the weight I've "gained" comes off quickly!
*************** UPDATE---We had the fanciest seafood meal I've ever had in my life tonight. Honestly, the meal must have cost a fortune! Three of the dishes included lobster...and I tried raw lobster sushi for the first time---incredible! The quality of the food was amazing, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. Most of it was downright healthy, too, even though I could taste the oil on several of the dishes. I am full, but not overly stuffed. Still, I made my hubby pack my scale up tonight so I can't weigh myself tomorrow morning. It's not worth putting myself through more misery.
Now, I hope I get a break from all these fancy meals...people here just love to treat me to fine dining, but it's wrecking havoc on my weight maintenance!
- Tuesday Nov 16, 2004
I was so relieved to read Livestrong's comment that her weight fluctuated 10 pounds on Provera! I'm glad I'm not the only one! When I woke up at 115 today, I was panicking even more! I was 109.5 last night before bed! My stomach is still bloated, and I am just hungrier than normal! Ugh! Thankfully, I only have two more days of medicine.
I haven't been 115 since early August, though, before I left for my trip to China. What a week I've had! To hit a low of 112 on Sunday morning and then to hit a high of 115 on Wednesday morning, I feel like I've been on a roller coaster!
I know that 3 pounds may seem insignificant, but remember that I've lost almost 40 pounds, and every pound has taken hard work. I just don't like to see the scale go UP, UP, UP, even if I am on medication!
But thanks for all your comments. This too shall pass...
in the meantime, I'm moving on Friday! Two more days of "final lunches" and parties, and then maybe I'll be able to start cooking more for myself!!
Last night at a farewell party, a lady made brownies, which are usually my downfall, but THANKFULLY, she put walnuts in them, and I just hate walnuts! So I could only pick at it...my husband ate most of it! What a small blessing!
- Monday Nov 15, 2004
Ugh! What a terrible number! In the last 48 hours, my weight has fluctuated 8 pounds! Seriously! I think it HAS to be partly due to the medication I'm on...I started taking Provera on Saturday to induce my period, and I'm just so bloated. I read online that weight gain and bloating are common side effects, and I can only hope that this 2 1/2 pound gain (since Sunday) is due to the medication!
Honestly, I almost flipped out last night when I saw the number 120 on the scale! I haven't been that weight for months!!! Yes, I weighed myself before bedtime, but I really hadn't eaten that much dinner, and there was just no way that my weight could climb from 112 Sunday morning to 120 Monday night. But it did! It has to be a temporary gain...it has to be!
I just wish I didn't have to see those numbers on the scale! I've worked SO HARD to get under 115...and now this medication is ruining everything! I hope that when I finish these pills, I will drop the extra "weight" that I'm carrying around right now!